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Pro-Endo Blinkies

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This is partially why we stopped roleplaying! Whether it be OC or AU, we have so many fictives and introjects of characters someone else has come up with, and then they fill in the rest of their universe with their memories.

We try not to think about it.

plural culture is feeling like ur going to introject ur oc

but ur friends who know its ur oc have no idea ur plural

and the friends who know ur plural think it's not ur oc

the fuck do i do nowwwww 😭 i dont want that guy to show up in my brain save meeeeee 😭😭😭 (all /lh btw)

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"you cant identify as being a system, being a system is a mental illness!"

no, DID and OSDD are mental illnesses. they arent synonymous with 'being a system.' not all people with CDDs identify as systems, and plenty of people who don't have CDDs do identify as systems.

its not called "system disorder." "being a system" isnt in the criteria. one specific traumagenic experience of having parts is in the criteria, but again- having parts in a CDD context is not synonymous with being a system.

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Two sentence horror story (warning very scary 😰😱😨)

"I have a new hyperfixation!" I said happily.

(Three days later) sigh…pk;m new

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Endogenics with trauma who call themselves endogenic are not in denial, it’s not like their trauma will go anywhere they just want to label their plurality another way. They’re still going to go through the healing process, just not in the way you went through it

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my favorite kind of character is the kind who deep in their soul is constantly screaming LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME and outwardly expressing literally anything else

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https://www.tumblr.com/fictionkinfessions/769815640321212416/god-its-like-salt-in-the-wound-when-people-talk?source=share

I feel you. I know, probably one of the last fuckers you wanna hear from but I am genuinely sorry that instead of reform and healing, you guys got hatred and death. Its not fair, and it never will be, and thats life, and its shitty.

I hope you can find a better, happier life here. And i hope you can see all the people, all the less-shitty heroes too, that agreed with you. We needed a change. (Maybe not AFO as a change... Seems like a frying pan to fire sitch) But a change.

I dont think you were THE bad guy, Shigs. I think you were a kid with a dream and questionable role models. Just like me.

Keep your chin up.

- a caged Hawk, Keigo (fictive)

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using "y'all" to refer to a system or plural person comes off kind of charming. like ty for acknowledging the rest of me

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Some love for multi/poly-ships pls!

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I fucking hate you ALL. Eijiro and Katsuki, I hope you both rot in hell for the shit you put me through. It was bad enough our whole class and ALL OF JAPAN basically shunned me after what happened, but Ei, you were my boyfriend. And then, after Katsuki (i know it pisses you off, ill keep fucking calling you by your first name, disrespectfully) blasted me to near smithereens, after you treated all of my nasty burns for months, Ei you fucking left me for Katsuki? For my abuser?

Yknow, I actually dont hate you all. Aizawa-sensei, you were my rock after everything happened and I thank you from the deepest parts of whatever I have that could be mistaken for a heart at this point. When you take flowers to Mic-san, could you take some to my mom too? And Yagi-san?

And Keigo. I dont know what the fuck we had, it definitely wasnt healthy for either of us, but thank you for being there for me. You were soft with me for a while and I still dont feel like I deserve it. I hope retirement treats you well and I hope the fear of my ghost coming back keeps the Commish off your feathers.

Yagi-san? Mom? I miss you both so much. Im so sorry. For everything. Yagi-san, I know you said you didnt blame me when you could, but that doesnt make it any better... I still feel guilt. And Mom, Im sorry I made you worry so much. Guess you were right, this hero stuff was gonna be the death of you... Me too, I guess, now that Im here.

- Midoriya (fictive)

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Admonishment to self loathing - nobody ever got better through self hate and suffering! Take the ibuprofen! Your brain is not a confessional where you are an eternal penitent! Forcing hardship upon yourself doesn't make you noble it makes you injured!

Black and red version and trans version both on my redbubble

[ID: a digital drawing of a wolf caught in a bear trap, stylized like a risograph print. There are two colourways - one in black and red, the other in pink and blue, both on a soft cream background. Text reads "Your suffering is not noble. no absolution will materialize from your pain. End ID]

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Im a mess, all my friends are hot, and of COURSE i still miss you.

We were just ports in the storm for eachother, right?

Fuck. This isnt healthy.

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What if you loved me so much it literally undoomed me haha jk unless

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Im doing it again

Arent i.

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It sucks...

Being the oldest and still always seeking validation you never got as a kid.

Like, our parents never beat us (well, there was a wooden spoon once or twice, wall sits and squats a few times too, but never a constant fear) but they were neglectful and narcissistic, and we recognize that now.

They still, to this day, think theres nothing wrong. Or if we point out "hey, this sucked, can you apologize and recognize it was wrong", they always say "oh were such HOOOOOOORERIBLE PARENTS oh WOE is us! We have such UNGRATEFUL kids!!!" And once again, as the oldest, we have to comfort them and parent them...

We skipped this holiday, nobody has really messaged us about it...

We said we would try for xmas...

It fills us with dread.

How does anyone get over these feelings?

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Hinatayama Segodon Village, Kirishima, Kagoshima, 1

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