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We're friends, thankfully that got sort of ironed out and improved with a little time and closeness.

We sort of trauma dumped on each other.

If anyone ever fucking hurts him again, Ill kick them into the next continent.

I just arrived in this system early yesterday.

So many memories came coming back and someone I hoped could be a friend can hardly stand to be around me.

I went from having happy memories in the early day to remembering how my life fell apart.

And I went from having at least two people I could talk to, three, I guess, if you count Keigo...

To none.

Somebody, please, just be soft to me again...

Mom i miss you so much

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trauma so bad my coping mechanisms have names and pronouns

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I just arrived in this system early yesterday.

So many memories came coming back and someone I hoped could be a friend can hardly stand to be around me.

I went from having happy memories in the early day to remembering how my life fell apart.

And I went from having at least two people I could talk to, three, I guess, if you count Keigo...

To none.

Somebody, please, just be soft to me again...

Mom i miss you so much

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Dear algorithm.

Get us the fuck off of anti-endo tiktok please.

Damn, I just got here and now the system is having a crisis.

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Feels like Im howling at the moon...

I miss you, Rody Soul.

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learning that people want you in their lives is a skill you can develop if it does not come naturally

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werewolf yuri

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Actively melted to this song...

too sweet (female v.)

OH MY GOD IM CONVULSING ON THE FLOOR. DEAD. DECEASED. THE LITTLE VOCAL FRY AND GROWL. SOMEONE TAKE ME OUT NOW I NEED TO BE RESTRAINED.

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Venting in tags.

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AI disturbance overlays for those who don't have Ibis paint premium. found them on tiktok

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Its so isolating sometimes, being a lesbian and transfem in a system that is gay/ace and transmasc.

In a system that, to everyone around us "doesnt get, but can appreciate, liking women *like that*".

I feel so alone and i feel like im bothering our partner system every. Time. I talk. About it.

And like! Im thankful! To have so many friends in such a sweet system! And im thankful to have the friends i do have! But!

I still feel so alone and isolated because i dont TALK to any of the wlw that live in that system but my bestie and shes got 2 partners to worry about. And the other ones havent fronted in forever and frankly i am a little terrified of some of them (STARING and Moira and Jasper).

And im not the ONLY sapphic in this system but im the only one that comes around.

Im alone. Im lonely. And id literally sell my soul just to hold hands with a cute girl and kiss her. Just once.

I just want my first kiss. Im, personally, 24. Never been really kissed.

And im so. Very alone.

And im so. Very. Very tired....

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The Plural Community Needs to Write More Essays and Make More Resources

This has been a pretty big push in the alterhuman community, but hasn't quite reached the plural community yet. So

Systems: Write about your experiences! Post them!

It doesn't have to be good or coherent, but we want to see more experiences that aren't just bland, blanket positivity posts or term coining with zero substance. Some of our favorite writings we've read have had poor grammar and disjointed paragraphs!

Reasons to write about your experiences:

It can make people who have that experience both realize they're not alone and learn ways they can explore that experience

It can be education for people who don't experience that so they can learn what it's like

It gives more potential for citation for those who are making more comprehensive resources

They can be used several years down the line to track trends and events within the plural community

Also want to combat anti-endos? Write about your experiences. Humanize yourself (for lack of a better term). Create solidarity with others and encourage them to be out about themselves. Don't let psychiatric texts, syscourse rants, and simple definitions be the only information about your group!

We'll tack on what we're interested in seeing, but feel free to reblog and add anything too:

Guides! Guides on how your system does things, or guides that can help other systems

How plurality intersects with other disabilities or neurodivergence

Headspace tours, art about your headspace, collages

The effects drugs or medication has on your system

Non-traditional roles, or even how traditional roles do their day to day tasks

Different types of plurality intersecting (i.e. systems who fit more than one of DID, endogenic multiplicity, medianhood, soulbonding, etc)

Spirituality and religion intersecting with plurality

Seriously, whatever you want to talk about

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THE LOVERS Trailer by Studio Heartbreak

An animated thriller about the romantic tension between a seafood chef and a siren, set in a dark fantasy Philippines

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Technophobes need to apologise for "just put it in plain English you stupid machine!" because, well for one the decline in accurate error messages in favour of simplicity has contributed to the rise of tech illiteracy, but also because now whenever an "app" has a net connection error it will pop up a box saying something like "oo ooopsie! Your super duper feed went poo poo. We'll try again soon!" which having said to me by a corporation is about 8 million times worse than having to hear the word "network".

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Endo System Question??

Honestly as someone studying psych someone’s going to have to explain to me why endo systems are valid because there’s literally no psych evidence behind them. I’m not even trying to be a dick rn it’s just that this is very much coming off as you just want to be special.

Disassociative disorders take A LOT of trauma to even become a system, and it’s very specific, which is why they are so rare, which is why there is so much controversy (I obviously believe in DID but there is controversy around it so I thought I should state that) . For you to have a system without trauma makes little to no sense to me because it’s so hard for the brain to “split” into multiple alters. To have headmates without trauma?? To just be born plural?? To see some of you say you got a headmate when you were bored?? Like please explain it to me. I’m lost. I’m confused.

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stern reminder: my blog is friendly to ALL forms of plurality. yes, alongside psychiatrically diagnosed traumagenic systems and DID, OSDD, MADD, schizo-spectrum etc, this DOES also include systems with exomemories, alterhumans, otherkin, fictives, introjects, thoughtforms, soulbonds, daemonism and walk-ins. yes, this DOES include system members who date each other. this DOES include system members who dislike being called alters/facets. yes, this DOES include systems who believe in past/parallel lives. yes, this DOES include systems who dislike confronting irl trauma or thinking of themselves as "splitting from a host". this DOES include headmates who do not like to reminded of psychiatric origins. when I say I support all systems on my blog, however, I want to further emphasize that I do NOT support gatekeeping, syscourse, sysmeds, armchair diagnosis and/or fakeclaiming of ANYONE's systems or mental health, for any reason. GATEKEEPING WILL NOT BE TOLERATED ON MY BLOG, and if you end up following my tumblr while you have "non traumagenic and endogenic systems dni" in your bio, I CAN AND WILL BLOCK YOU. READ MY PINNED BYF AND DNI BEFORE FOLLOWING. FOLLOW YOUR OWN DNI CRITERIA AND DO NOT ENGAGE WITH ME IF I AM ON YOUR DNI AND YOU ARE ON MINE.

and before you jump down my throat with hate mail: I was professionally diagnosed with DID in 2017. you do NOT get to invalidate my system, my experiences OR my lived traumas and if you so much as try, you can fuck off, sysmed.