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Mil actually posted this. yep you read that right, that's them justifying the actions of a school shooter there
@ii-neg-confessions IS RAGEBAIT! BLOCK AND REPORT THIS IS REALLY FUCKED TO HEAR
also kinda a smaller part 2 to the original post i made just with more screenshots and such
here are some more fucked up things that were said/assumed (PLEASE READ END BIT, ITS IMPORTANT)
more under cut
and this
which theres no evidence to support (CORRECT ME IF IM WRONG WITH SOURCES)
and this
(satomi isnt fired from my knowledge, tengolf has never been a "stalker x victim proship" thats a ridiculous claim to make, and the clock and gaty thing is such a fucking stretch and there are other poc va's on the show that arent in that position thats really weird to assume thats the reason why they were hired. as a trans man ive never heard of or cared about "transface" which isnt a real thing cause gender is subjective and people who believe it exists purely want something to be mad about (a trans character being voiced by a cis va would be "transface" apperantly) itd be different if they were in person actors and not CARTOON VOICE ACTORS but i shouldnt have to say that cause you guys are smart i hope
last thing, this
most of this is completely ridiculous, i shouldnt have to say that forgiveness and positivity isnt a lie, im really confident in the fact that Mil is really misreable and needs some sort of help, cause again you can believe whatever you wanna believe but they are so overwhelmingly negative that it seems theres something going on with them and its kinda sad to see how misreable they are
(should clarify; some stuff like the thing about luigi is true but also why are you spreading politics on a page about a fucking cartoon dude its not that deep never has been)
my goal isnt to support and defend internet celebrities who havent heard my name a day in my life, my goal is to spread the truth and stop the fear mongering going on here twoards anxious people who dont want anything bad to happen/they dont wanna consume "problematic media"
also i think Mil ( @ii-neg-confessions ) is ragebait so block and report them and their main cause they dont deserve a platform if all theyre gonna do is be a negative nancy
okay thats my 2 cents bye ily all take care of yourselves
#inanimate insanity#osc#object shows#object show community#osc community#ii#ii neg#ii negativity#ii confessions
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i hate when people go "why cant people just be friends :((( why cant we have strong platonic bonds anymore?" to ships
and do you wanna know the reason? like do you really wanna know the reason. okay well here we go ig-
(click read more for an actual analysis of why this doesnt happen)
no one writes strong platonic bonds well anymore.
at least they cant do so without it seeming romantic because of one thing.
shipping and romance.
without a doubt it has taken over our society as a whole and this is for quiet a few reasons, we literally have a holiday about romance, one of the many things moments people experience in high school is taking out their crush to a dance (of course many people take friends and make just as fun if not longer lasting memories), influencers share their lives on the daily, most fans are teens going through puberty so yknow what that means, and hollywood.
the main reason being of course hollywood.
with all of these reasons combined hollywood sees this and basically goes "oh look at all of these opportunities for romance and most importantly drama!!" and then they take it, make a romantic bond, get you attached and then proceed to put you through hell with it getting you addicted to it. but why a romantic bond? why not platonic? because its simple, when tv and stuff started pushing out they wanted to get people heavily attached and they didnt think or care about platonic bonds because why have platonic bonds when you can instantly take it to the much "juicier" step? aka romantic bonds?
now im gonna lump in all of our previous reasons together. its no big surprise that our lives TYPICALLY (most likely not for people on the ace spectrum) are heavily centered around romance and sex and so in order to relate to the MAJORITY (from what large companies can tell) of people they tend to make that platonic bond romantic to get people swooning over it and thinking 'oh thats what i want in a partner'
so we tend to perceive these actions as romantic when in reality... theyre typically not, not unless youre kissing or actively having sex these actions arent all that romantic. even holding hands isnt really that romantic. ive had several friends who desire no romantic relationship with each other hold hands and jokingly press their faces close together as if they were being 'romantic' with each other. ive in fact shared a bed with my friend a few times and found that yeah... theyre just my friend. these actions are not romantic. so why do we think that they are?
hollywood, from our past memories and "experiences" (experiences in quotations because lets be honest... its just movie watching) we see these actions as romantic because theyve been dont with romantic undertones. for example let me put the absolute stupidest thing thats been romanticized.
giving someone your jacket or umbrella when its raining. especially when its friend.
yes. hollywood was romanticized basic human decency towards someone that you care about. im 90% sure that anyone reasing this would gladly give their jacket to their friend if it was raining and they didnt want them to catch a cold, or if they had an extra layer to just simply give them. OR if they had an umbrella they would share.
because thats what you do for someone that you care for
but in hollywood this was romanticized by the enemies to lovers trope or the rivals to lovers or... whatever you want to call it- it was romanticized and soon enough they began doing it with everything. friends to lovers. (i dont know which trope made it romantic first so dont quote me on this the main point is that they made it romantic when the gesture itself is NOT)
point being, like it or not romance is something that was heavily implemented into your mind as a child and will always be there. and its why we cant perceive friends as 'just friends' anymore or whatever youd like to call it. the implication of past experiences with media will always be there and guess what? suck it up. its always going to be there and theres nothing you can do about it.
so yeah. thats why people cant perceive things as just friends and why strong platonic bonds quite literally cant really be written well anymore. unless of course they shove it down your throat with the constant 'oh youre my best friend!' but even then- oops it was romanticized by hollywood...
so thats my take on the whole situation. personally i think you should just let people ship whatever they want as long as its legal lol
#shipping discourse#fandom talk#shipping#now im gonna tag some popular ships cause why not#satosugu#itafushi#bakudeku#togachako#killugon#leopika#lawlight#jayvik#caitvi#well that ones canon#timebomb#same with that one...#nobamaki#inuokko#yutamaki#ughh im running out of ideas for ships#just tag one if you know it fits :/
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actually maybe im overthinking it again and no one thinks im being extremely inappropriate because all of my coworkers said they liked my cornrows yesterday and were very sweet. ok maybe im overreacting sure.
#fool's monologue#i admit im overthinking.#i just dont wanna appropriate shit still idk#i always get mixed feelings about this shit#like ok yeah dude. youre half black. that doesnt mean youre exempt from cultural appropriation and spreading antiblackness#ykwim#i dont wanna do that and i dont want my actions to be doing that#but also. it feels like im decrying blackness and shoving it away from me which is the opposite of what i want#mixed feelings#i dont know#i want neither one or the other#anyhow ill be fine. mixed people are often happy im just an outlier because i overthink everything and feel out of place everywhere
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so sick and tired of the “jedi are an evil and abusive cult that steals children” as if half the reason they weren’t protecting these children is bc sith were out killing them or TURNING THEM INTO SITH. they weren’t even STEALING children to begin with I thought we all knew that was Palpatine’s game not Yoda’s.
#i hate star wars fans i truly do#they wanna pick apart the jedi like of course there are mistakes and wrong doings#bUT THE SITH ARE RIGHT THERE#trying to build the narrative that anakin was abused by the jedi is absolutely crazy when his actions and thoughts were all his own#and GROOMED by palpatine#the only reason people want to pin them as bad people is because yoda could call out anakin’s bad behavior#that and they didnt promote him to master right away because oh im the chosen one i should be#like you need to PROVE you are the chosen one and that you WILL bring balance to the force and NOT DESTROY IT#THATS FHE WHOLE PROPHECY#AND PEOPLE WONDER WHY THEY WERE CAREFUL WITH ANAKIN???#and then the oh well they make you supress feelings#nO#THEY#DONT#they make you surpress attachments so that if it comes DOWN to it you will save the many and not just risk it all to save the ONE#disney has done damage to the star wars community i swear#saw a tik tok comment section where they said the council is like the christian church#lost my MIND#well the jedi fit cult criteria!!#wow! star wars fans find out WHAT A GROUP OF RELIGION IS#LITERALLY ANY GROUP OF RELIGION CAN BE CALLED A CULT NOT EVERY CULT IS BAD#im sorry i cant stand it anymore#star wars#star wars tcw#auxxrat yap#jedi council#jedi#star wars legends
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Impulsively shoving a guy's hand in your mouth after having the thought "oh just like when my little sister used to prick herself on a rose thorn" and then immediately being treated like a pet who ate something they shouldn't have? Wonderful. Thank you, Thane.
(also not pictured is Thane apparently trying to scrape your tongue with his hand BEFORE pouring the holy water down your throat because NO. BAD.)
#bewitching sinners#palmier baker#thane verashkova#accidentally ingesting vampire blood because of big brother impulses is wild#also the reason hes so alarmed is bc in that world you kinda soulbond to others and thats how you soulbond as a vampire#you drink each others blood and so hes flipping out because while he hasnt had your blood yet#hey your ex is going to absolutely kill me if we bond on accident and i dont think i wanna die like that!#which is VERY cool to know thank you thane im so glad your concern is actually less of being bound#but about being murdered thats really cool#also the fact thane is found in the library studying with arshem my beloved ex and is BRIBED TO LEARN RECIPES#by arshem with vials of mixed blood hes just CASUALLY CARRYING is like hey man#thank you for being group mum i love you for it#and then later on arshem actually is like oh thane you can drink my blood later since you havent fed for a while#and thane is super chipper about it like HECK YEAH THANKS !#hey boys youre adorable thank you for existing in this incredibly fucked up world#im in a choke hold with this otome im sorry#you ever try to be nice to a guy and think surely this will help him a little bit then you get background lore#and you realize youre probably making things A LOT WORSE FOR HIM by being nice#im going through it with my emotions as i learn about palmiers actions pre game swap so like#dude please i am BEGGING YOU palmier please have ONE redeeming quality in you at some point#i want to adopt one of the love interests as my son though and im obsessed with the fact he can speak fish#my son can speak to the fish and he gives me fish as a present bc i might need it later#and i do actually in fact need said fish later for another quest#thankyou my son i love you and i appreciate you youre amazing#gonna have to draw arshem at some point and everyone will immediately go yeah that makes sense
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People want all the benefits of Christianity without all the repenting of sin, putting it to death and trusting in Christ part.
#christianity#bible#christian#the culture#society#like you wouldnt have things such as human rights or even basic things we take for granted today#if it wasnt for Christians#christians fostered modern science because we believe that out world#is knowable and a creation made by God#not a divine entity#christians fostered the dignity of women and children within the roman empire#Christianity founded the whole of western society and yall are over here correlating the actions of church with God?#the church is made up of broken and needy people who realize they need a Savior#learn about God#learn about Christ Jesus the Son of Man who came and died for the world#but yall dont want to#yall wanna keep doing what your doing because you think you know better#and I DO THAT A LOT#but at least i realize i know i do and I trust in Christ to guide me to do better#ita like pulling nails but im more mature than i ever was before#He saved me from myself and my sins#and I couldn't be more joyful#lord jesus christ
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smth I've been thinking about in terms of my reads of fraser in relation to the word "love"
so obviously im obsessed with "you must remember this" an episode all about falling in love with a title based on one of the most famous love stories in cinema (not only about that ofc) containing a scene where fraser -- who is more supporting in this episode as ray is the one actually In Love -- looks for cues on what love ought to feel like. How do you know you're in love? he asks
part of this is that the closest he's ever felt to another person is a woman he nearly died with who also probably definitely tried to manipulate him into not giving her up to the authorities, and he's wondering if he's in love with her, maybe fearing the idea of it considering she's anathema to everything he stands for + he feels like he fundamentally betrayed her by giving her up
that's another thought for another day, but does sort of connect to this in the sense that he's not really grown up with or experienced emotions that he would be sure can be classified as "being in love."
the things ive been thinking about the are... would fraser say he loved someone? as in, "i love you." whether it be platonic or romantic or just one of those things people say offhand...
and i really do struggle to See it. this is somewhat different to my most favourite headcanon that he's also loveless, this is just exploring the (potential lack of) vocabulary that he has to express his emotions with, and the access to understanding those emotions in the first place (there's an aside to this that i also don't think he'd be very able to vocalise what he does or doesn't like in kinky and/or sexual scenarios, but that's a whole other ball of twine to unravel)
on the one hand fraser is very very well-read and he's hinted at having watched at least a few classics (i like to imagine he's something of a classic film buff although he may also just have five or so movies he's watched on repeat), but the way he engages with language carries so many hallmarks of scripting i genuinely wonder what intentions they could've had other than him being neurodivergent (probably autistic). he's nigh-unfailingly polite in a way that's reminiscent of a storybook hero come to life more than "just" that politeness is a... polite thing to be, he stammers and loses words if there's interpersonal conflict (or the threat of such) he struggles with slang and sayings (i haven't gone too far into this, but i wonder if there's an analysis that looks at when he does know these and whether that could connect to the kinds of books he's read and people he grew up with, eg. his grandparents... but yeah, another day EDIT: I just rewatched the Pilot and he definitely knows "kettle of fish" but that could also be something from pilot!fraser that doesnt make it into the show-proper) and he can't easily adapt to various speech mannerisms, although by end s2 he does a very good ray impression, but that, again, is scripting based on close study.
He Basically Always Sounds A Bit Out Of Place (in fact his speech mannerisms uh... are very similar to mine. outside of the accent) because his way of engaging with the world is to learn about it from a book or a movie and to mimic it back
BUT LOVE. TO GO BACK TO LOVE!
what is love? many a book and film and essay and scientific analysis has been put out there in the world about the subject and i imagine based on some of his lines (about hamsters and the french and north by northwest i believe it was) that fraser has paid attention to many of them in an effort to figure it out and come up pretty empty
the idea that, fundamentally, love is kind of what you make of it is not a very useful conclusion to someone who needs to understand how things work in order to put them into practise -- fraser has a lot of book-knowledge and he has intuition based around things like survival and reading people in a particular kind of way, but he has no way of putting the vagueness of love-in-fiction-and-science into practice -- there's nothing concrete to point to, other than "this one time i almost died with this woman and i hear her voice still and hallucinate snow falling when i think about her and i feel guilty about what i did and now she's making me make promises that will allow her to use me however she wants and i want forgiveness and answers so badly that i'll do it"
it's not a word that i can imagine exists in his lexicon really, especially post-victoria, because the word itself cannot be connected easily to a precise feeling or action and its only point of reference is a woman who severely fucked with his head
but what does exist for him is said action. would he say "i love you"? i don't know. would he do more for ray than i think ray realises? yes absolutely. same, i think, goes for meg (who has her own "this woman reads to me as autistic" stuff going on). probably in later seasons same goes for the second ray -- things that go beyond his code of being to protect people as a general mandate and specify that these people are different to him
is that love? idk, you tell me, im as clueless as i read him as
but to say "i love you" i think he'd first have to feel like he understood it in some way, and that would be a difficult process. it would at the very least need coaxing. teaching. giving him a sense that he knows what exactly he's emotionally responding to
idk. some kinda fic called "what is love (baby dont hurt me)" would be fun
#aspec benton fraser#due south meta#due south#benton fraser#there's another thing here where some people connect all decent action to love and i dont think fraser does that either#the sort of blanket *know i love you* statements... would not compute at all#he does things because they're the right thing to do not because he loves people#i think he does respect people. admire people. want to protect people. feel angry on behalf of people. feel compassion. etc.#but again: is That love? to him? would he describe it as such? how do you Know what love is??#other fic song title lol: i wanna know what love is (i want you to show me)#my projection onto this character........
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Krispee cream
#kris deltarune#kris dreemurr#deltarune#kris my beloved#i don't think I've even liked a vg protagonist as much as i love them#maybe chell#but i love kris even more#i love them so much i wanna stop playing Deltarune to give them a break ❤️#i like the idea of them feeling gender euphoria in the dark worlds#not only because of one of the most comforting lines in vg history that you can get by interacting with their closet in castle town#'you can wear whatever you want'#but also because someone noticed that their sitting down sprite in the dark world is slightly taller than the light world equivalent#(the one thats used in ch 2 next to the lake if you dont talk to onion san in ch 1)#cus yeah. magical world where everything is perfect. where u get magic powers and awesome outfits. where everyone likes you and prises you#gender euphoria fits right in :]#honestly id open a dark fountain to feel taller regardless of any apocalyptic ramifications or#faceless outside forces who could harm me and my loved ones#i totally understand them and i do not believe anyone has the right to judge their actions#my art#i was on the fance about posting these but afreakingmilkshake convinced me :] i hope i spelled ur username right lol#i lovvvve giving them hairstyles. if only i could make my hair into a perfectly round afro and not have it sadly droop like sad spongebob#maybe in a dark world#(↑another reason to open the dark fountain. they were justified)#i also love giving them braces. and eye bags. and dry skin. the middle school essentials#i love them. i hope the game ends soon so we can leave them alone so they could shower. the poor bastard
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Upcoming Ballad changes 👀?
#loz au#wip#Ballad (Kheprriverse)#they/he#thinking about his design a lot more >> just how some things came to be#as I change FD I also change Ballad since theyre kinda linked (lol)#the white in their hair also changed a bit. more prominent + starts on left side of their usual part#but him in his main casual outfit + the green half-tunic is now just a cloth#switched his belt coz thats been bothering the fuck outta me#also changing his biggoron sword because that fucker cant have a single consistent design#yknow after all the trouble i went through making its oh ref twice#scarred eye is now his left (he’s left handed) + starts where the eye is for uh. lore.#also he doesnt close his eye often anymore. tho i may give him some sorta patch to cover it… not sure yet. probably wont#i’ll get to his armor eventually. that ones gotta take a lot of thinking.#ballad’s kind of the main character so I do wanna get their design how i want#they’re justa dad who wants to get everything done with so they can go back to their wife and son#*dont worry about the weird coloration in one spot. i use an auto action to auto-color my line art before i go in manually*#Kheprriart
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that moment when you're trying not to develop a crush on a guy but his boss theme is really good so you keep listening to it, meaning you're always thinking about him
#ash rambles 💚#UGH STUPID IDIOT Y.AKUZA GUY#he's handsome.. and that voice...#and gah. he's a total nerd too. that's the part that gets me#idc about the being a hitman and the mafia or whatever#it's not my life lol he can do what he wants in that regars#*regard#but#seriously?! being a gamer?! liking superheroes and action movies like i do??? we even have the same kind of favorite flower.....#we could bond..#oh and i know he has that line about how he takes good care of his appearance. i just KNOW bro smells good#for context I've kinda got a thing for nice perfumes. have a whole collection and a scent for everything#actually. no. i dont wanna hear his stupidly nice voice 😳#playing video games with him.. cuddling#HECK#I HATE HIM AJJEWHDJE#I'm trying so hard to not crush on him#... am i cooked.#am i cooked if I'm already thinking about comic book store dates#I MEAN HANGOUTS#not dates!!!!!!!! stupid guy...#we have so much to talk about... i hate him.. surely we'd just make good friends! and not. um. you know.
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once again, i think it is so very fucking strange to include a route/path in an INTERACTIVE book and the maximum exploration of it is '????? welp i don't know! ???' in a scooby doo voice.
there is no reason why a resistant detective not be allowed options as to WHY they're resistant to start a relationship with N or F (and I say this as a huge F-fan who agrees when the narrative is like 'why am I doing this?' yes why are you resisting the hot adorable one??). If this journey is given, then I - as the player - should be allowed to explore it as fully as the game/writer's skills allow.
And I know this isn't as far the game/writer's skills allow, because we are granted variations on how to treat a past with Bobby and a future with Douglas, we can decide on our relationship with the Captain and the Mayor - side characters to varying degrees - but we CAN'T choose why the detective might be hesitant to start something as important as a ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP with MAIN CHARACTERS???
make it make sense to me.
please. i beg.
#twc critical#n sewell#nate x detective#twc#twc book 4#twc spoilers#grapecase plays book 4 demo#like we get different options over dead ad but get hrm why why dont i know my own feelings re: starting on a relationship BUT i certainly#understand my feelings in how nice they make me feel/how great they are#why include this option if it is gonna be so half-assed?#and if youre gonna half ass it at least half ass it WELL#like something vague like 'my past makes it hard' or 'i just dont want to'#there are so many ig reasons why the detective might not want to start a relationship#they still have hesitence re: supernatural either via fear or the immortality question#2. rook died and they dont wanna do that to f/n 3. they dated bobby and that fucked them up#3. they dont think wayhaven is their future and the team seems attached to the town#like???#it feels so weird for characters who are logical or stubborn or people focused to be this clueless too#or heck even emotiional detectives -- what about self awareness?#and i have no problem for the detective being obtuse to feelings - it is mishka's favroite method - but it should be an option#actually no. the thing isnt that theyre obtuse to feelings it's that theyre obtuse to their own ... reasoning ... the own rational behind t#eir actions. and its like BITCH know why YOU DO THINGS!#again not everyone is. but its still weird it isnt a CHOICE
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I'm afraid the baby fever has come back enough that I am wanting to write smth that is. Domestic. Still got my dad vash fic from b4 that I've been sloooooowly working on, but that starts off pretty depressing lol and I kinda just want some vw domesticity. You know. Anyways I have started planning a wolfwood pregnancy fic today. Because i can.
#speculation nation#pregnancy ment/#like man i gotta deal with the baby fever somehow and that turns into me coming up with. aus.#im primarily an action writer dont get me wrong i love blood and violence#BUT ALSO............ i cant help it. i wanna write about babies. sooooo bad.#admitting to myself that i have an interest in babies/parenting and working thru the internalized shame about it all.#which is INSAAAAAANE given how normalized baby shit is in our society at large.#but for a lot of queer folks it's a breaking of societal expectations to resist that kinda thing. which like im 100% in favor of for ppl#but for a lot of queer folks they resist so hard that they turn around and make it sound like it's Terrible and Awful just like. in general.#and yeah i grew some fuckin internalized shame about it. like ppl derogatorily referring to cishet people as 'breeders' like???#what about us queer folk that Do want kids??? it's kind of alienating.#and sooooooooo even though im still a little embarrassed about having these interests. im pushing through it.#and so im gonna do a damn baby fic or two and ill have lots of fun with it bc it's my own damn fics.#ill also go back to my blood and violence too but sometimes a guy's ovulating and just wants to think about babies. ok.
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fighting the urge to make a rant post . but once you notice you really never stop noticing!!
#that and i dont wanna sound like a lil bitch#and it truly isnt that big a deal#people can portray characters however the hell they want and i very much encourage it in this goofy ass fandom#i dont get pissy or upset or annoyed at seeming them portrayed differently to how i do. thats okay! (/GENUINE btw)#they can do whatever they want and i dont want my actions to be dictating anyone#but as a chubby guy. who has especially struggled to accept his body for suchhhhh a long time#it does get quite frustrating to see a character's fatness erased over and over again#it is the default it is the norm and people are incapable of being normal when a character IS drawn fat#the brainrot is so deep it truly drives me a little bit bonkers#i feel like im making a mountain out of a molehill when it comes to this but it is so deeply prevalent and it is quite a problem in fandom#but mostly i really wish people would detach from the stupid conventionally attractive skinny white twink guy in a suit shit#or the muscular BUT NOT FAT1!!!11!!!1 daddy archetype shit#please. take my hand. its beautiful out here so genuinely beautiful#lets love and celebrate characters who arent 'conventionally attractive' broaden ur horizons stop seeing skinny cis white ppl as the norm#toxi.txt
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how many times do we need to learn as people that irony and hyperbole can be harmful because 'jokes' aren't easily distinguished from genuine thoughts and feelings until we stop rewarding people for speaking or posting about violence
like even if you're joking/don't actually believe that/think whoever you are insulting is bad/immoral/fictional therefore deserves it - ad hominem attacks always do more harm to the people who share those characteristic then the individual you intend to cause harm to or discredit
#discourse#long post#its genuinely erased so much of my enjoyment of 911blr knowing i have to check accounts or risk seeing bullying/hate#l like its an odd feeling to know that so many people in the same fandom as you actively hold hate or find hate funny against your communit#like tired of people saying others are too sensitive because we dont want to hear or see a person say they want to hurt themself or others#like sorry i put in the work everyday to not let my mental health backslide and to enjoying being alive and accept my queerness#while others seemingly have not#and i know the content i post/share is not all in the same circles as that certain blog and i hate that it still grinds my gears but#its so frustrating to see the cruel glee people have#saying things they would never say to anyone's face irl and only to other blindly devoted/similar bullies#like do these people realise that they are on a razor's edge between 'ironic jokes' and just outright bigotry and threats - like do they#literally the only thing seperating That and conservative bigots is that the bigots are honest about their hatred towards minorities#like a lot of people in the fandom seemingly still need to deal with a lot of intenalised homophobia/racism and just outright hate-#especially regarding queer men and men of colour#because i can not be emphasise enough#It is NOT GOOD OR HEALTHY to be a fully grown adult that actively derives joy from the idea of enacting hate crimes#like you can hate tommy you can want him off the show even want him to die like weird but go off#but its such a next step to unprompted talk about [a character i dislike/hate/dont ship/disrupts my fanon endgame] in derogatory ways -#with rhetoric that straight up is out of terf/rel. right/homophobic/racists bigots and evokes violent hate-crimes......#well i feel sorry for those people cause what a miserable life to spend so much of it unable to enjoy your own life that you target others#anyways I know this is too long but I'm just a very tired man who has studied history and education and working with kids i have seen it -#too many times- harmful words coming from harmful environments or creating harmful actions and thereby perpetuating the cycle of violence#also not super relavent but as Latino Australian i am genuinely appauled at how many people have in their bio they are also Australian-#while actively liking/reblogging and engaging with post that find homophobic violence a funny haha joke - as if activist in our country -#aren't actively trying to dismantle homophobic and transphobic laws regarding issues like conversion therapy#like I know professors that actively got fired for being gay while teaching in religious education context - and its still happening!#so for people to forget so quickly what progress has been made and how much it took and how easy it is to loose - disappointing#(and its the same people who wanna pretend mardi gras is nothing but a party as if 78rs didn't risk their jobs/safety/lives)
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soooooooo
i was going over my plan for the next arc... and remember when i said this fic would be around 40 chapters until the reveal.
uhhhh
that will definitely not be the case :/
ALSO
i just ranted in the tags. APPARENTLY THERES A LIMIT TO THE NO OF TAGS!?
ive never done that before lol
#might make it to 50 honestly#i need to make sure i pace this righf#dont wanna let you guys get action fatigue#because damn#this final battle will go hard#im also struggling with mapping out Kendras whole personality#i dint want her to just be a shallow villian#but i also want her to be insane#and like#it's difficult#finding the balance between the two#because i want her to be insane with a purpose#also i changed some plot things about and her motivation now doenst sit right with me#so i need to work shop that too#sorry this is a bit of a ramble#i just went over my plans and got immediately bamboozled by the characters#i want them to do what i want#so i need to find ways that would make them take the decisions i want them too#i dont want them to be too ooc#i want it to be within reason#also i have some cool scenes whichbi dint think fit in properly anymore#but i desperately want them too#so#yeah im working on it#my notes file is so long now lol#this fic will be the death of me#/pos#but one things for sure#yall're in for a ride#open your shell to find your wings
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ok but no guys seriously how do you ask for reassurance in a way that doesn't make you look like a stupid yandere stereotype
#can't be too casual and be like “hey nothing you did all me but i need some reassurance that you still like me”#because thats like pathologizing or something???#i dont actually know what pathologizing is supposed to mean ive done a lot of research and i cant wrap my head around it still#but it sounds like something someone would say is pathologizing#I can't go in the middle and actually explain it like#“hey you've been kinda dry lately i wanna know if i did something or if you're not feeling well or if it's just me”#cause people HATE that#they'll call it guilt tripping they'll lie to get you to shut up and continue to let resentment build#eventually leading to an explosive falling out#OR you'll make them self conscious of their own actions which i would HATE to be the cause of because this SUCKS#but it also ALSO leads to nasty falling outs where they tell you they need to walk on eggshells around you#which may or may not have been due to levels of their own insecurity but either way itd still be my fault#for saying anything in thr first place#and you DEFINITELY can't be like#“hey i really like you and i want to keep you as a friend so thats why i wanted to ask if ive done anything#because you seem really off lately and i don't want this friendship to end because you mean a lot to me and i swear this isn't a guilt trip#or a one-off if you tell me what's wrong if anything i will work on it i will change it i will do anything to maintain this because your#companionship means so much to me“#because that is what ventures into stereotype territory#and it is also really weird and desperate#HOW DO I STRIKE A BALANCE LIKE THIS#the most central neutral option here seems to be the one with the most bad outcomes#also even though I really would do anything to change im still scared of what people might say if i ask that#and i can't just sit with it either because people pick up on my neuroticism and they don't really like it in friends#i don't need a whole rundown of why people like me as reassurance i really just need a few words like#“oh yeah we're cool you didn't do anything/i have personal stuff going on it's not you/etc”#but in the latter case i don't want my friends to think they have to put their business out there just so i can stop tweaking#and maybe it's bad for me to need the reassurance at all?????? even though i see other people ask about it all the time#but maybe it's different when it's me a lot of things seem to be different when its me#AND THATS NOT COMING FROM A PLACE OF SELF DEPRECIATION it's just a thing ive noticed a lot of things are different when its me compared to
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