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Yves and Rio - Christmas Special: The Beasts' Drink - Event Translation
Thank you to @otomehoneyybearr for providing the script for this event.
This is a poor attempt at a fan translation, so take everything with a grain of salt. For a better translation, buy this when it comes out on the ENG server.
On a winter day as Christmas approaches, at the Rhodolite Castle—
Yves: “Well, if it were me, I’d invite someone on a date like this.”
Rio: “As expected of you, Prince Yves! How romantic!”
Yves: “Well, it’s just this much, you know.”
Yves: “Though, to be honest, I’ve never actually done it…”
Rio: “It’s so like serious Prince Yves to have multiple heartfelt date plans prepared for the coming day.”
Yves: “Heh, by the time you reach my level, you can have it all perfectly planned in your head without actually going on a date—wait, why am I saying this!?”
Yves: “...Ah, I got surprised and now I'm feeling thirsty.”
Yves: “Hmm, this alcohol you brought is rich in aroma and delicious.”
Rio: “Right? I thought Emma would like it, so I ordered it.”
Yves: “Are you sure it’s okay to give me such important alcohol?”
Rio: “It's fine, I ordered a hundred bottles!”
Yves: “Oh, is that so…”
Rio: “By the way, Prince Yves, how can we make the date day more romantic?”
Rio: “I want to convey all my overflowing feelings, but I’ve been told by various people that it’s ‘too much’.”
Yves: “Hmm... I think adding an element of ‘subtlety’ would be good.”
Yves: “On the day, since you’ll be excited for the date, first compliment their outfit and makeup. Casually, you know?”
Rio: “Being casual is difficult. No matter how hard I try, I just think I’ll be overwhelmed by her cuteness and end up on the ground.”
Yves: “That would be the complete opposite of subtlety.”
Rio: “It might be difficult to compliment casually. Is there anything else?”
Yves: “Hmm, I think giving a small present would be nice too. Something separate from the Christmas present, of course.”
Rio: “A small present! That’s good!”
Rio: “...A light gift apart from the Christmas present… for example, a hundred love letters…”
Yves: “No, wait. I think I heard something strange just now, but that’s too much. That’s not a small gift at all.”
Rio: “Really? I think that's lighter than a thousand letters.”
Yves: “I’m not talking about its physical weight.”
Rio: “By the way, how about the meal on the date day?”
Yves: “Huh? Oh, meals... I recommend reserving a restaurant that isn't too extravagant.”
Yves: “Even if the presentation of the food is flashy, the taste is the most important, after all.”
Rio: “I understand.”
Rio: “Honestly, the sweets that Emma tried to hide because she ‘burned them...’ are tastier than the finest dishes.”
Yves: “I feel like that’s not quite the point... No, but essentially, it might be…”
Yves: “Wait, am I a bit drunk? I’m starting to lose track of what’s right.”
Yves: “Well, whatever, let’s get to the all-important Christmas present!”
Rio: “I’ve been waiting for this!”
Yves: “What matters most is the feeling behind it. It’s about expressing your feelings for the other person through a gift.”
Yves: “So having a large quantity doesn’t necessarily mean—”
Rio: “So, you’re talking about things like gloves to keep their hands warm, right?”
Yves: “That’s too much… Huh?”
Rio: “What?”
Yves: “…It’s not that bad.”
Rio: “Yes.”
Yves: “Sorry, I was wrong. Gloves are a good choice.”
Rio: “I’m glad!”
Yves: “…”
Rio: “…”
Yves: “Why is it that we’re suddenly being so sensible here!”
Rio: “Huh? I thought I was being serious and sensible from the start…”
Yves: “If you think that’s serious, then it’s even worse!”
Yves: “Ah, I knew your love was great, but I didn’t realize it was this much…”
Yves: “Just keep the gifts to a moderate level, okay?”
Rio: “Understood! I’ll make sure the bouquet of roses I give along with the present will be 1,000 instead of 10,000 so that Emma’s arms don’t get tired!”
Yves: Like I was saying!
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drivers with a partner whos feeling rlly bad impostor syndrome?
(omg im self inserting again wowwow whos shocked)
-bear 😔❤️
i got ya bear <3 (you're a great writer and your fics always always always make me smile)
arthur leclerc:
will immediately attempt to do whatever you're having imposter syndrome over
it's not a very well thought out idea bc if he is better than you then he's only making it worse
but luckily for you your boyfriend has one talent and it is Car
he fails spectacularly
claims it was all part of the plan to make you see how good you are
he's lying
he did not mean to fail that badly
only reinforces his point
kimi antonelli:
he'll be telling you how wrong you in two languages
maybe three
he's the child of the brocedes divorce he's definitely picked up a few german words from nico
"that's so stupid" mainly
anyway
if talking doesn't work he'll make you pasta
he's definitely gonna kiss your face until you laugh and agree with him
lando norris:
his kneejerk reaction is to just agree with you
he can't help it it's his humour
but then he'll actually process what you said and he'll get SO offended
acts like you're a hater on twitter
"who the fuck are you to talk about my boyfriend like that??? 🤨"
would probably start a stream for the sole purpose of asking the chat if you're bad at whatever it is
will verbally fight anyone who says you aren't because they're wrong
his pr team hate it but lando is very much of the opinion that people can hate him all they want but they CANNOT hate you
which includes yourself
(you always scold him when he says people should hate him, because he's wrong)
logan sargeant:
confused puppy
genuinely does not understand why you think you're bad
you could do literally anything and logan will still think you're the coolest person on the planet
will get genuinely upset if you talk badly about yourself
he hates it
eventually he'll just be pouting so much you stop bc you don't like making logan sad
he'll make you say at least 5 nice things about yourself before he stops pouting
ollie bearman:
will find a *LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER* to beep at you
will use it every single time you try to say something negative about yourself or your work
uses laughing at you for thinking you're bad as a strategy to switch what you think is embarrassing
i can't say if it works or not
but eventually you'll actually second guess your doubts because it feels sillier to think that than to think that you did a good job
oscar piastri:
he'll bring up something you did (drawing, piece of writing, whatever) from a while ago that he knows you've forgotten about and show it to you
when you say it's good (bc of course it is) he'll get the smuggest grin on his face
"exactly. it's yours. you're wrong. you're good."
will also go over several of your latest attempts at whatever it is you're feeling imposter syndrome over and ask you to point out what you think is bad
oscar will then explain how you're wrong and it's good
end of story
in a stubbornness contest i can guarantee that he will win
yuki tsunoda:
"that's stupid."
genuinely thinks you're dumber for thinking you're bad
would probably check for signs of a concussion or something just to make sure that's not why you're clearly not in reality
would probably leave it for a while after that
just long enough for you to think he's forgotten about it
then he'll start pretending to get imposter syndrome over his driving
you'll say everything you need to hear until you realise yuki's not actually upset
and he's just tricked you into comforting yourself
you grumble about making him sleep on the couch
but you both know you're bluffing
#vinnie's 250#formula 1 x male reader#arthur leclerc x male reader#kimi antonelli x male reader#lando norris x male reader#logan sargeant x male reader#ollie bearman x male reader#oscar piastri x male reader#yuki tsunoda x male reader#🐻 anon
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once again, i think it is so very fucking strange to include a route/path in an INTERACTIVE book and the maximum exploration of it is '????? welp i don't know! ???' in a scooby doo voice.
there is no reason why a resistant detective not be allowed options as to WHY they're resistant to start a relationship with N or F (and I say this as a huge F-fan who agrees when the narrative is like 'why am I doing this?' yes why are you resisting the hot adorable one??). If this journey is given, then I - as the player - should be allowed to explore it as fully as the game/writer's skills allow.
And I know this isn't as far the game/writer's skills allow, because we are granted variations on how to treat a past with Bobby and a future with Douglas, we can decide on our relationship with the Captain and the Mayor - side characters to varying degrees - but we CAN'T choose why the detective might be hesitant to start something as important as a ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP with MAIN CHARACTERS???
make it make sense to me.
please. i beg.
#twc critical#n sewell#nate x detective#twc#twc book 4#twc spoilers#grapecase plays book 4 demo#like we get different options over dead ad but get hrm why why dont i know my own feelings re: starting on a relationship BUT i certainly#understand my feelings in how nice they make me feel/how great they are#why include this option if it is gonna be so half-assed?#and if youre gonna half ass it at least half ass it WELL#like something vague like 'my past makes it hard' or 'i just dont want to'#there are so many ig reasons why the detective might not want to start a relationship#they still have hesitence re: supernatural either via fear or the immortality question#2. rook died and they dont wanna do that to f/n 3. they dated bobby and that fucked them up#3. they dont think wayhaven is their future and the team seems attached to the town#like???#it feels so weird for characters who are logical or stubborn or people focused to be this clueless too#or heck even emotiional detectives -- what about self awareness?#and i have no problem for the detective being obtuse to feelings - it is mishka's favroite method - but it should be an option#actually no. the thing isnt that theyre obtuse to feelings it's that theyre obtuse to their own ... reasoning ... the own rational behind t#eir actions. and its like BITCH know why YOU DO THINGS!#again not everyone is. but its still weird it isnt a CHOICE
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“white mourning.”
#‘‘A white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.’’#jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesn’t make for a good practice#judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you don’t see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice.#she’s polite yes but she doesn’t care as much as jean cares for harry#he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harry’s as#he put up with du bois’ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back.#he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb.#planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasn’t the who started the whole fiasco#you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen#his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but#jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control#i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation.#but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse.#i relate to jv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late#my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone.#kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon#disco elysium#de fanart#jean vicquemare#disco elysium fanart#jean heron vicquemare#jean posting#illustration#de#artists on tumblr#I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!!#i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings#my little maiu maiu#cryptiduni#my art
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watched whitepine 1. i think i want to gather all my thoughts on part 1 before moving on to the next installments but oh wow im excited to see where this story goes
#this is one of those projects that makes me wish minecraft youtubers hired professional voiceactors.#lowkey as i watch ive been imagining this as a fortiche production. & i dont mean either this or the thing about VAs as an insult!!!#it just . would feel right. this is so great i feel like im watching an award nominated indie film and not a minecraft production#and the reason i mentioned fortiche specifically is because their ability to make these odd inhuman designs (see: lest steb and babette)#fit right into the mainly realistic human world they inhabit in arcane was just wonderful and i loved it a lot#and i think that would work well with these wacky mcyt skins. like princezam is literally a yellow blob#anyway so those were all my little notes about how much i love animation . onto actually discussing the story#um . i really loved ivorys character. everyone else isnt very developed yet (understandable! ive watched 30 minutes of this thing so far)#you can get a grasp of what shes about. i liked the scene with seraptor where she freaks out a bit when asked if she doesnt like#how much he talks. it made me cry a little bit because i have Issues#and her referring to everyone as sir or ma'am and asking permission to do anything as well as always saying that she was staying#in the servant side of the house and all that is very . like just kinda sad. very interesting#i like the melancholic atmosphere everywhere as well as all the wideshots#(and i liked the parts where while following minute(? i think. not well versed in the names of this general crowd im ngl) ivory kept#looking around everywhere. and how she stood somewhere behind him when he was talking to the person at the gate or whatever#i like her!)#it all sets the tone very nicely . i like this series#go watch it maybe#voidcore.txt
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#thinking a lot about myself lately. and mostly good!#I feel like I’m approaching some sort of whole picture of who I am#discovering my aromanticism has made me come to a much greater understand of how I love and why I feel how I do sometimes#and I’ve been making great strides gender-wise. it’s nice. I’m comfortable#at least in my head. which is a nice change of pace#and I’m finally managing my ocd somewhat!#it’s good. I’m good. everything will be okay
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Not crying and being guilt ridden again :))))))
#tgdposts#personal#when I can’t articulate to people around me so it results in my mind confronting me#(confronting is a strong word here but I digress)#about me struggling to make any decision regarding my future#and on a lesser note being guilt ridden when I’m unable to meet with people because I’m trying to be productive but then I’m unable to be#productive and oh why weren’t we able to meet up but if I share it it just seems like I was being fucking lazy and fuck I hate this#and fuck it’s hard to talk to my dad like he’s a nice guy but I know he doesn’t really understand and sometimes it’s just hard to explain#things with the weight they have in my heart you know?#it’s so hard to explain that I’m not just procrastinating or being a jobless useless bum I don’t even know how to bring that up#and even if doc gives me ideas things to help me those are still things I need to implement myself and that too is hard to initiate#and talking about all of it just makes me feel like a guilty useless shithead#and I know it’s not true but that doesn’t make me feel it any less#from the outside of my brain it just seems like I’m making up my own problems#how do you even talk about that#anyway#I’m going to bed now I’m tired#if you read this I appreciate you for listening to me#you guys are great#<3#mental illness#I guess might as well tag it as this#rant#vent#vent post#summer is lowkey my worst season mentally lowkey which is kind of sad if you think about it
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pale solrezi.......
#libra.txt#was gonna make a post abt how hs + quadrants are great for multishippers like me#and also that hs is probably a big influence on me being a multishipper#but pale solrezi overwhelmed me#man that equius fic was really good........... meowrails my beloved#also equius pov that's well written and thoughtful??? flowers for one thousand years#pale kankat....... pale solrezi....... pale erijade......... many thoughts and feelings#also imagine a healthy pitch erivris. they were lowkey good for each other once upon a time!!!#i understand why so many characters died. it is a nightmare juggling so many characters#but also man all that potential..........#so big kudos to mc escher for letting them all live and also using them all effectively#they all had screentime! they all were important in some way or another to the plot!#beta kids! alpha kids! beta trolls! dancestors! ancestors! parents! calliope!#ah... it was just really nice......#i mean yes having 600k+ words helps give room to fit them all (plus the 20+ sidefics)#which i also cannot help but admire and respect#one day....... one day i will have story ideas that will span many many words and resonate with people...... maybe........
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very much an off-the-cuff post so there may well be bugs, i'm still workshopping my thinking here, but—
i seem to see posts fairly regularly in which a member of some marginalized group A is objecting to attempts by less marginalized group B to make connections between discrimination against A and harm experienced by B (the main thing i have in mind here is when people attempt to align themselves with visibly-trans people by pointing out the ways that transphobic legislation also impacts gnc cis people, theatrical crossdressing, &c, but there are definitely also examples along other axes)—
and like. the main objection i've seen from A is 'why do they have to connect my experience to their experience in order to care about it? why can't they just agree that i shouldn't be discriminated against as a matter of, like, compassion for fellow humanity?'
and this reaction does honestly always just seem a little, idk, naive to me?? like, i don't know, it's gotten very popular ime to complain about normies' clumsy attempts to Understand Instead of Just Accepting [this feels potentially linked to like. the way many of us now prefer silently clicking 'like' to producing our own original, maybe clumsy, responses? but don't @ me on that point], probably because a lot of the time they aren't genuinely seeking to Understand but just to point out all the ways our queerness &c doesn't fit their received (unexaminedly conservative) understanding of the world, which feels to us (very reasonably!) like renewed pressure from the establishment to make ourselves fit that established framework, and so we resist… but at the same time, idk, maybe i'm just outing myself as lesser-than-thou here, but for every sort of person i was raised to distrust and have since arrived at genuine loving acceptance/appreciation of, it's involved first coming to understand their frame of reference at least a little? not to say that there isn't a place for shutting up and listening while you're still working to understand, because there definitely is! but i do kind of think this idea that's become popular in certain liberal circles of like, 'you don't have to understand my experience, you just have to respect it,' is fine and true for keeping peace with strangers, but really isn't a recipe for winning friends or influencing people—it's a recipe for keeping people at arm's length where they can't hit you. and then people turn around and want to apply that rule to coalition-building, and get all shocked-pikachu-face when others seek to identify more active points of connection.
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another ~Radical Objection to Liberal Approaches~ i've seen, though often not specifically in this context (of discussing the way attempts to oppress A have knock-on effects for B), is like���'there's no point in deconstructing their logic because it's fundamentally illogical! insert that sartre quote abt anti-semites!' and like. no, there's absolutely no point in debating their logic with them. but fundamentally when people assert a logical resistance to bigoted positions they are not doing it to Own The Bigots, imo, or at any rate shouldn't be; they're (we're) doing it to reaffirm the basis of their/our own camp's position, namely, we see your knee-jerk fears and reject them; we substitute instead a patient allegiance to logic, that reasons its way into compassion.
that said, obviously there's a conversation to be had here about, like, platforming bad positions, and to what extent deconstructing them is implicitly platforming them! but. i do think that complaining that logic won't win over bigots is missing the very fundamental point that the logic isn't for the bigots: it's for us. we're talking to ourselves; we're affirming ourselves. and yeah, we need to understand that this sort of intra-party discussion doesn't, on its own, constitute sufficient activism! messages need to be communicated beyond the bounds of the party! but i do think i disagree that there's no place for it.
#anyway i'm just sticking this all under a cut bc it got very long and i didn't arrive at a nice tidy overarching conclusion#but i guess i just think like. i'm not convinced that resisting people's attempts to understand a struggle as linked with theirs#is ever going to be a strategy that makes any sense—#i just think it's coming from a place of woundedness that wants its pain to be Seen and Matter In Itself#and not get ignored until someone else is also impacted#and like. that's SO emotionally valid! god! but also like. that's feelings and not a basis for politics???#and the second point here—#which honestly could've been its own post; i was just thinking abt the two points together bc i saw a post that made them together—#really feels to me like. showing up at an internal org meeting and then complaining that it doesn't constitute effective public messaging#like yeah‚ people pass posts around on here that aren't gonna convince conservatives#but like. (a) how much convincing of conservatives do you really think is gonna happen on tumblr anyway?#and also (b) then make your own posts that *are* angled at convincing conservatives! or‚ you know‚ do something that isn't posting!#(in b4 'some of us have disabilities' yeah‚ me too! i emailed my representatives the other day! there's stuff you can do!)#but like. everybody just wants to critique other people's efforts (and obviously as per this very post i'm not immune!)#when it's like. most of what we're doing *isn't* activism—what it could be is the tentative social basis for a real coalition#on which activism could then be founded#but most of us would rather suspiciously snipingly in-fight than let these tentative social filaments thicken into binding ties!#anyway. a great example of a post by someone with adhd that will probably be prohibitively difficult for other ppl with adhd to read!
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#it's so weird trying to describe yourself when u really aren't something u used to be#like until i was probably 21 or so id say i was shy. very very shy. but now im like was that even true? was i ever shy bc im not now#maybe i was just quiet and anxious. maybe thats just what being shy is. but im still both of those things but im not shy#im sorta like a hermit. i dont really go around ppl if i can avoid it but i dont hate being around ppl. its just that im less anxious when#im alone. but if u put me around ppl i like to talk to them so im not shy. ill say whatever. i dont really give a fuck#but if u throw me in a group i go back to being a non entity. i guess thats just being an introvert with an asocial streak#thats a thing i noticed while i was at the grad weekend i attended in march. the group would gather and do things while i kinda just#wandered away from them to poke at trees and sit in the snow. i dunno i just feel better away from ppl. my brain gets a lot louder if ive#been too social. which is a shame bc its interesting to watch ppl and understand how thry work#my friend came over to day goodbye before i leave next week. which was nice. i wish we would have hung out more in person but so it goes#and i think in my head im a lot more contained thst i actually am. like if u set me a task that becomes my focus but im also sorta all over#the place. partly bc i think my brain works on like a lag. and also my mood is a little elevated rn so im sorta like *jazz hands* and#talking too fast and too much and oversharing. yesterday i was instrucing an undergrad and felt so bad bc my brain was all over the place.#could not b made linear. im tired now tho bc theres nothing more draining than being emotionally honest and talking for like 2hrs. woof. it#so hot. like fucking so hot bc the monsoons have started and humidity is up so my swamp cooler is fucked and its gotta b at least 80 degree#inside my apartment. holy christ. and the temp has been over 100 degrees for like at least 2 weeks. its so hot its kinda alarming. and im#glad my friend was also freaked out by how hot its been bc oh god its hot. and i cant focus. ive done fuck all today. but i did get rid of#couch which is so so so great. ugh. someone make the sun stop making it so hot#unrelated#its been over 100 degrees outside for like 2 weeks. not on my apartment#and when i say i wish i spent more time with my friend irl. i mean it in a distant sort of way. like thats how im supposed to feel. like i#dont kno if thats actually what i feel or i kno im supposed to b social but idk if i actually mean it
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Mental health is so weird I can do all the things that usually make me happy only to feel like I'm tainting them when my mental health is bad only to then find joy in tiny things like fruit loaf with honey for breakfast when I'm in a good state. Like why can't we just be mildly happy all the time instead of all or nothing
#Mental health#my mental health is continuing to behave and its making me very suspicious particularly as i woke up feeling a lil unwell the last 2 days#and yet i still feel well mentally very odd. like its nice to feel so well in myself i just dont understand the cause of the effect ya know#anyway toasted fruit bread with honey absolutely slaps and im so glad i treated myself to honey and fruit loaf it was great idea#kinda feels like im rewarding myself for good mental health though.... hmm particularly as i wouldnt usually get them when my mental health#is bad hmmm gonna do some self reflection on how i treat myself brb
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Uh babe? Being an ass about people's spelling illustrates more how out of touch YOU are than how out of touch THEY are. There are many reasons spelling doesn't always work out or people have wrong ideas about words - of which not reading compex text is not one of them.
Also you should absolutely read spinning silver. It's good shit. 🤷♀️
I dunnow maybe read for fun more often than for clout. Reading at all is good. Difficulty with analysing isn't because of the subject matter - we see EXACTLY the same issue with media literacy in film. People have been mad at how progressive star trek is compared to the good old days since what, the second series?
It's a cultural issue and making people read classics isn't going to solve it. Ironically, the best way to better analyze media is to have honest discussions about it.
And part of that is not being condescending and driving people away from reading because what they enjoy doesn't meet your standards of dep enough. You're SUPPOSED to offer things with similar themes or characters - you know, like librarians generally can, and help expand people's horizons via love of the work.
Not whatever this was.
No babe it’s so cool and hot that you always insist that fantasy books written to meet a 4th graders’ comprehension skills have more complex themes and a greater sense of praxis than anything written for adults
#also are you seriously telling me that you think the lion the witch abd the wardrobe series doesn't have some cool analytical shit in it?#some kid lit is deeper than it presents and that's nice#and much adult lit is thimble deep#oh no the middle aged man is SAD look at him go#like c'mmon my cat#you have to admit the vast majority of published works are mediocre in all age ranges and genres#that's just how life works#instead of kicking up stinks about people liking the good shit they found#help them find more good shit#🙄#reading#reading works best when enjoying it#and all literacy is good literacy#and if people never like the books you're in to... so what?#the analysis doesn't come from that it comes from doing rhe analyzing#and the feedback#seriously my cat#write this down because it is important:#I cannot shame people in to being better#I cannot insult people in to being better#I cannot shit on things people love to make them open up to alternatives#i feel like this should be obdvious#but here we are#and yes the first post falls in these categories#i'm begging you stop doing the thing you love and thinking it's good because it's not good enough and you son't understand enough to get it#is NOT a great sales pitch
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was brave and talked to my doctor abt my period bs + she said it might be endometriosis without me even having to bring it up... 💀
#shes prescribed me naproxen & tranexamic acid for now bc theyre basically the only 2 painkiller options i havent tried yet#but shes said she'll text me some resources on endometriosis and asked me to book an appt in january to update her#and then she can either issue a repeat script or we can go down the route of trying to diagnose a condition#which would likely take a long time so id probably have to try hormonal meds again in the meantime but she was rly understanding abt#the fact id had negative experiences w them before so was apprehensive abt it. so nice to have a dr who actually cares instead of trying#to fob me off w over the counter meds which is what happened last time lol#she was like wow im surprised they told you to take codeine for cramps thats not smth id recommend due to the side effects 💀#like damn. well ive been doing it for the last few years and yeah its not great#augh.... its ok tho i feel better now im actively doing smth abt it and looking for a diagnosis is an option thats available#bc ik how rare it is for gps to take patients seriously. the average diagnosis time for endometriosis is 12 years in wales 💀💀#my mums had such a struggle with gynaecology in her part of the country too shes been waiting for an operation for almost a year#and they booked her in for it and everything and then when she showed up the doctor was like im so so sorry i dont have access to a clinic#and i wanted to cancel your appt bc obvs i cant carry out the surgery without a clinic but the practice refused to let me cancel it#she showed my mum emails shed sent to management begging them to let her cancel patients she wasnt able to treat bc its such a waste of#everyones time and resources and rly shitty to do but they told her to 'watch herself and think about meeting her targets' 💀#bc cancellations look bad on their records so they were forcing her to hold appts without treatment anyway lmfao#insane country how is the nhs still functioning.#anyway thats todays medical report ik how eagerly u guys have been waiting on my pussy update#didnt ask abt antidepressants bc didnt have time and anyway im handling it better now its just taken a while to adjust to the shorter days#and the cramp stuff is way more pressing bc i get them for a week or two before my period AND when i ovulate now#so im probably spending equal amts of time in pain than not in pain every month now 👍#actually makes me feel fucking insane when i start thinking about it. its fine tho. okay im gonna piss and then go out again to sort out#everything ive gotta do today and then i can just chill this afternoon#how is it only 10am.....#.diaries
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Oh yeah..... midnight gospel be hitting.... sitting in my bed fuckin. Crying. Get a grip girl
#Its the trudy ep which is actually the episode that made me keep watching#I love love love this episode.....#Something about how.......... idk.... its a very profound ep that I can't explain and it's a nice cry#This ep kind of shaped my outlook on life especially after finding out about my friend dying#All the regrets and things left unsaid.... I make my peace daily by being really straight up#If I love and care about ppl I tell them... I say they are appreciated and cared for man#I am always thankful for people and I *love* people as a whole#And as long as the people around me intrinsically know that they are loved and cared for and cherished.... like that's it#That's the end game truly#I will never ever be sorry for that. This was THEEEE episode.#There's a lot of nuance behind my feelings best described by revolutionary girl utena#But still. I'm deep enough in my tags bc I'm crying over my s/o but not in a bad way#Fml I am so grateful to him as just an entity. As a person in my life even if our lives only intersect for this brief period of time#He hasn't been texting me much and we didn't talk much at work and I didn't even get a goodbye (rude lol)#But I know he was having a rough day. I know he needs a bit of tlc.#He could be on a downswing because I am certainly on an upswing#So I'm kind of like trying to focus on doing my own thing rn without worrying about it#Because I can't do anything about it so I might as well continue My Thang#But as I sometimes come to terms with us never talking again (gotta be prepared at all times to be ghosted)#I also come back to terms with needing him to really understand#how many people in his life depend on love cherish and admire him#And im not just talking about me... he has a lot of siblings and a not great mom. Two kids he loves.#He has always taken care of everyone else in his life#He deserves to really know and idk. It makes me think of this moment.#Realizing how much I dont ever want to question if he knows#I don't want to question if I could've done more or tried harder etc. I did my very best and didn't lie cheat steal or whatever#I am so grateful to him for letting me have that. Even if nothing can come from it in the end#Even if we should be torn apart!!!! Take my revolution!!!#Anyways. Here's wonderwall#Banger of an episode. Worth the rewatch
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"children are gross i hate kids i wish if i was in an environment no children would ever exist i hate them" you dont understand the joy of hearing a child exist and be warm and safe under your care but its ok
#this kind of sounds like a pro lifer post which is crazy because im just talking about how nice it is to know that my little cousin is#content and feeding himself with food i made for him and he knows that if he needs anything he can ask me and i will help him because i lov#him and i care for him and ill be there#i dont know..just hearing him eat in a warm house watching some videos being happy and im working feels nice. boy ill be here for whatever#you need. im so glad that i have family#one thing about me is that i love my family family 1000% i so glad to have a good family#i always have to include that i dont mean my immideate family my mother and my brother make me suicidal 😭 i mean the other rest#i always feel weird when i hear people dont talk to their cousins or aunts and uncles like i understand it can be different cultures and st#stuff but its like oh man. life is so beautiful when you have many family members and theyre all so nice#but im just greatful for my wonderful family instead. make me sooo happies.
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mdni, please! +18 content ahead. ♡
cw: breeding, soft!geto, pet names, pregnancy mention (obv).
cult leader!suguru is so sweet and loving to you, he sure does adore you. especially now, with how he's got you in missionary, kissing your tears away. "i love you so much." he mumbles sweetly, his raspy voice low enough for you and only you to hear. "you're my sweet, sweet girl. gonna carry my babies, hm? i'm gonna breed you nice and full, and you're gonna carry my heir."
you can't exactly understand what he's saying because he's reaching all the right spots with his chubby cock, your brain is turned to mush by now, and you have only one thought in mind: suguru, suguru, suguru, suguru. so you don't even process when he says that "what about i make you a mom now? you're gonna be a great one." and he moans. not a grunt like he usually does, but he moans in your ear because you're making him feel so good and you don't even know. :(
"cum-mming.. hmm." it's what falls from your lips as you tighten around him, making a white ring at the base of his cock. and it feels so delicious, it makes him feel his cock twitching inside you — he knows he's close. "that's great baby. you did great for me." he mumbles, pressing a kiss to your forehead with so much love. "i'm gonna come inside, ok? gonna make you a mommy, i need someone to keep leading the cult. what do you say?" and all he needs is the small nod along with your pleas to shoot his load inside you, his potent seed that he knows it is going to take, going to make you pregnant.
dividers by aquazero.
#⋆˚ ✿ lia rants!#cult leader geto!!!! 💞💞💕#i'm a sucker for him + soft geto#jjk#suguru geto#suguru geto smut#suguru geto x reader#geto suguru smut#geto smut#geto x reader#geto x you#suguru smut#suguru x reader#suguru x you#jjk smut#jjk x reader#jjk x you
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