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What I think the Leverage Team is truly afraid of:
Nate: Losing. Not just losing the con- but more importantly losing the team. Of course he never voices it. However the team knows. It's why they always come back. Nate already lost his son, his job, and his wife- can't lose his team. He can't lose his second family.
Sophie: Broken Masks. This may be a jump in the dark- but. Sophie has SO many personas. Mask's she's created all on her own that I don't think she even knows who she is anymore. I think she's afraid of somebody finally figuring her out and that terrifies her. Not only because she'll lose all sorts of control- but she'll think if they figure out the real her, all they'll see is a women that's weak.
Parker: Abandment. She's finally found people who are like her. In a way that of course their different- but still they are like her. These people know what it's like to be alone. To be lost. Having to figure out a way to get out, because it's a way to survive. She's afraid that one day- they'll walk away. Just like everyone else. And I think that's why she pokes and pushes. Trying to figure out what it'll take for them to walk away. They don't.
Hardison: Uselessness. I think this is why he's so outgoing. Why he's so out there and personal with everyone. He wants to be seen as strong. As being useful. I mean- he hacked into Sweden(?) to pay for his Nana's surgery. He felt useful then. Now, he's in a team- and with all these useful members. He's afraid they don't need him. That's why he's tried multiple times to be the mastermind. And of course he fails- not because he doesn't know what he's doing. But because even with the "I know what I'm doing," attitude- he's terrified that he'll do it wrong.
Eliot: The Dark. This I can't explain fully. Maybe it's from the tidbits I hear in conversations. But he's afraid of the dark. Not the actual dark. No. The darkness that's in him and that he tries to keep control of. It's the darkness he had when he was working for Monreau. The monster that was created in him every time he spilled innocent blood. Eliot is afraid that the darkness will come out and his family will see just how much of a monster he is.
#leverage#eliot spencer#parker#alec hardison#nate ford#sophie devereaux#what they are truely afraid of#loss of control#abandment#being useless#the darkness#i don't actually have any proof#i just- i hear the comments being made#the body language when dealing with cons#to me it makes sense#however#i know I could be wrong#so if y'all disagree#i totally understand#i do think that's why they work so well as a team though#because everyone of them is aware of each others fear#and they stay
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WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY ADDED TRY TO THE LIGHTNING THIEF MUSICAL
#SOMEONE GET ME TO LONDON RIGHT NOW#oh my god#like actually#holy shit#the lightning thief musical#percy jackson#percy jackson musical#lightning thief musical#btw don't take my word for this. i saw like three people on tik tok say it after having gone to see it. i don't have any actual proof
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n*loth not being able to bag anyone over the (human term) age of 25-30 at most is the only logical and real conclusion to me because it can be just explained away as him wanting to prove and control everything and anyone (Cus he's a man!) but being stuck in that demographic because his unbearable and vile personality is a force that nobody can look past once they've outgrown the possible fear and idolization period of anyone but also n*loth in particular.
#text#i think even younger ones that possess the same nasty traits can be slammed back 'In their place' (in his mind) by him just bc his -#- abilities and power alone (alt. name the factors that make him 'Cool') that dumbs them down insanely in comparison#maybe by this i mean like; ild*ri. despite the animosity she could still feel very foolish and is conscious of her wuss-ness#if that makes sense#cause no matter the disrespect anyone might have for an older capable person the reality is still reality#tbh i just think he doesn't like to sweat it much and still aims for the younger ones bc it's easier than it would be for someone that's -#- 30+ years old#and once he's proven his point he doesn't find any merit in sticking with older ones cause their interests or anything they offer -#- don't matter to or interest Him personally#i think an older demographic is just more boring to him and he would rather spend his time being metaphorically sucked off for his greats -#- by someone that already finds themselves 'lesser' than him and always will for a long time#than someone that is defiant of that fact#basically the more power imbalance the better#in his mind there will always be one unless he certainly knows someone is his equal (or better than him) but he likes the add-on of an -#- age difference too#keeps it in a safe zone with less problems for him#sorry for spitting again my brain just started machine-gunning thoughts for no reason#also i said before that he's an innocence fan. might not be a total puritan but there's something there#it's kinda like him not wanting to be with a dusty ''OLD'' person that's seen a lot anyway#i'm like barely able to hold myself back from opening my mouth to mention t*lvas where i'm making a point about n*loth's brain where he -#- isn't even needed to prove it#but like#him voicing dislike of n*loth general nauseating character and actions but still sucking up to him while n*loth can probably feel -#- that dislike anyway is cute to me i like to view it as an object being thrown into the wall over and over#where n*loth is proving his own worth to other people by drilling their brains out with proof. not that he needs to#but he would like that to be perfected a 100%#and t*lvas is capable of being molded into that state ....... probably#silusvesuisuis you didnot just confess to wanting to see t*lvas be slammed into a wall you fucked up demented beast you're sick#actually can't believe i forgot to mention this but he's literally so immature idk what he has anything in common with actual mature people
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Rochelle Goyle in MONSTER HIGH 2 (2023)
#monster high#monster high 2#rochelle goyle#monsterhighedit#mhedit#monster high: the movie#tuserkit#userjessica#userrobin#tuserhallie#userzaynab#usercreate#usersource#nickelodeon#nickelodeonedit#monsterhighsource#cinematv#*edits#no i don't have any proof that's actually rochelle but you don't have any proof it's not her :)#the colour of these walls in draculaura's house will be the death of me they make it so hard to colour gifs 😫
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You know people complain a lot about there being "too much Star Wars content these days" and it's entirely another conversation about how this is Not At All A New Thing but besides that... you know you don't need to engage with it, right? If you don't like what a new show or series or comic is doing, you don't need to interact. You can stop watching a show. You can ignore what that book is doing. You can create your experience and if you're not having fun, you can always turn it off
#on another note: different things are for different audiences. visions is for a different audience than andor is for a different audience th#not all of it's for you#the amount of people i've seen go “UGH why are they even MAKING ahsoka”#like. you don't have to watch!!!#of course it's fine to critique a change you don't like#but if you're not having fun it's totally ok to stop watching#but i feel like fan culture makes you feel like you HAVE to be up to date and keyed in#i haven't actually watched much of any of the shows (tcw included) LMAO#so if anything i'm proof you can just chill in your corner#anyways#personal#star wars#star wars ahsoka#ahsoka series#ahsoka spoilers#ahsoka show#star wars fandom#fandom critical#star wars fandom critical#sw#sw fandom#fandom: star wars#type: meta
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Our first introduction to a revived Catelyn is learning that she can't speak but she remembers, inquiries about Arya, and accurately pointing out someone involved in that red wedding. It's been obvious from the start that she's still Catelyn, even though her being resurrected affected her. Considering fandom's trend of labeling female characters "too far gone" for not being perfect, pure, and passive it's obvious why people talk about her like they do. Yes she's angry and wants revenge but literally who wouldn't if they were in her situation? It's annoying how little empathy people have for her character. Personally, I hope there's more to her story than getting demonized for rightfully wanting revenge and having to get "put down" like she's a wild animal.
#catelyn stark#catelyn tully#lady stoneheart#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#I need people to stop talking about female character like their wild animals just cause they feel /negative/ emotions#Oh the woman who watched her son killed before getting murdered herself and then brought back to life isn't nice and sweet and gentle ohhhh#that means she absolutely has to be put down I mean what other option is there??? / srs#Show me some actual proof that she's too far gone and not just you're assumptions about someone who gets brought back to#life like we don't already have Beric walking around...I hate when fandom just decides things instead of looking at the story#like she currently has nothing not even a guarantee that any of her children are alive#reuniting with Arya is going to be big for her and you know what? I doubt she'll want to be put down like fandom assumes#she's def going to want to stay around as long as she can to protect her children especially if she's learns Bran and Rickon are alive#catelyn get behind me! I'm rooting for you!
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man it really is just about avoiding people being mad at you huh.
#i don't think you should accuse scammers without hard proof obviously#but even when there IS proof people just shut their ears and go lalala if it's a gazan fundraiser and it's like???#it's actually not virtuous to be scammed. even if they're preying on your empathy. hope this helps.#idk maybe im just cyber security pilled bc of my dad but this is absolutely the perfect environment for scammers#which sucks bc part of what creates that environment IS the genuine difficulty palestinians have fundraising#bc of websites being blocked and intermittent internet access#but it is also very much the attitude around this where any reasonable doubt is treated as evil#like sorry but the death is in fact from the bombs and not from people not donating 15 dollars#it's good to donate but You as a person are not personally responsible for preventing every bad thing
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With every blocklist 90% of the supposed 'receipts' consist just of fans of color venting in their own blogs. Some people in this fandom really are like i can accept racism and child erotica but draw the line at poc expressing any anger over it
#latest post i saw they even had screenshots of black fans affectionately joking about jacob's haircut#and were trying to make it seem like those fans hate jacob and his wife...#it's almost like you don't have any proof these poc fans are actually harassing anyone#iwtvposting#.txt
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I’ve seen quite a few takes saying that Team Glenn aren’t really friends or don’t care about each other and I wanted to take some time to write about why I feel like that’s blatantly false. Using info from what we have in-game, from the character intros, and with a piece from an interview with those working on the game.
To start off, when we were initially given the character intros before the full release, we were told some basic information on the characters. Matt was asked by Glenn to join him on the mission, and Lucia outright volunteered to go with. Both had the option to turn it down or to not volunteer but they decided to go with, neither were obligated.
Upon the opening section of the game, if you choose the option of “Guess I should wake her.” to rouse Lucia, she will tell Glenn “…How many times do I have to tell you not to wake me up like that?” This gives us the idea that either they’ve worked multiple previous overnight or crash-landing missions together, with Glenn startling her awake with the idea of being attacked, or that they’re used to existing in a shared space where she can be woken up by him.
When they’re going around looking for Matt, Glenn mentions owing him money. This is said to be for lunch and drinks. This is something done off-clock, and not something Matt is obligated to do in the least. They spend time around each other outside of work.
When looking at the opening movie for the original version of The First Soldier, the battle royale version, we get to see that Glenn, Matt, and Lucia, all meet each other back in 1988. The mission to the Rhadore Archipelago takes place in 1992, so the three of them have known each other for roughly 4 years. Lucia actually rescues them on that mission, and outright says “If I hadn’t gotten you two out of trouble, we would’ve never become friends.” Which tells us that they do continue to view each other as friends. Not only this, but later after the mission they met on, they take their SOLDIER exam together as a team. This meaning that they continued to stay in contact after that event and work together, and even practiced specifically as a team.
They all have to have at least some degree of being close to each other, if not at least Matt and Lucia, who are able to actually communicate with each other with nothing more than nods directed at each other. They do this roughly 4 times in the story up to the end of the current release of Chapter 5.
Later, in Padapili Sea Cave, if you choose to have Glenn eat the fruit all by himself, he uses it as a slight way to mess with Lucia. She voices concern over the possibility of it being poisonous, and is concerned when he takes a bite of it without hesitation. Upon collapsing to the ground, she gets extremely frustrated and concerned telling him to spit it out. Glenn pointed it out as a moment to say nothing is more scary than ignorance, but she was truly upset by thinking he could’ve or was actively being harmed. This is a slightly mean way of messing with her, but it gives a moment to show that she does care about him.
Glenn does overuse the nickname “Professor” for Matt and it does upset Matt, but it never feels intentionally malicious or like its making fun of Matt. It’s a part of showing that they aren’t perfect and all have their flaws, Glenn’s happens to be boundaries and being a bit of a troublemaker. Although we haven’t seen as much of it from Matt, the initial idea of the First Soldier story had Matt as the protagonist. He was intended to be diligent (perhaps even too much so) and appears to overanalyze things. This includes being prepared to view Rosen as a possible enemy as though to not compromise their mission. Lucia was designed to be the mediator or “harmonizing presence” however choosing to leave Lucia behind at the 3rd pressure plate in Chapter 3’s Main Section 4, Episode 1, will grant you dialogue between Matt and Glenn wondering if Lucia is okay and worrying that she has a lot pent up and might explode. She also has small outbursts of anger such as if Glenn chooses to eat the fruit solo. Once again, they’re all flawed in their own ways.
In the same location as the previous mentioned chapter, section, and episode, the very first pressure plate you come upon gives you the option to leave behind Glenn, Matt, or Lucia. Upon leaving behind Lucia, once you reach the other side and open the wall, she will run through. Glenn asks her what’s up, and she avoids eye contact. Upon asking “Huh? What is it?” from Glenn, Lucia will say she’s angry with herself, and look at the ground. She admits that she’s relieved to see the two of them, anger that could be founded in the possibility that they (likely) weren’t gone that long at all.
When Lucia brings up the rumor of how this mission prioritized interpersonal relationships over skill when creating teams, Glenn states he was able to “get you two without a fight.” In reference to Matt and Lucia. This could also be interpreted as they’ve attempted to get on missions with each other in the past, but that it can be a hassle to do. Matt comments that “camaraderie is a powerful thing” which by definition is “mutual trust and a friendship among people who spend a lot of time together.”
Upon the topic of Lucia saying she doesn’t want the higher-ups to think she’s a willing member of Team Glenn. This feels like it just sets in with her usual slightly biting sense of jokes that can be interpreted as being slightly rude. It’s important to remember her intro states she wasn’t asked to come along, but rather, volunteered to go with. Even if for another reason she doesn’t want to be a “willing member of Team Glenn” she’s there because she wanted to be and because she cares about Glenn and Matt.
I would also like to add that I feel one of Final Fantasy VII’s key themes could be found family, across majority of the compilation. Team Glenn might not entirely treat each other as “respectful adult friends” but rather closer to family, like siblings or cousins. They get on each other’s nerves and annoy each other, but they do also genuinely care about each other.
Following in on the topic of found family, the way they treat Sephiroth. Glenn is initially hostile towards Sephiroth, likely caused by his being put in charge as team leader, and possibly taking away Glenn’s chance at getting his bonus. The one reason he refused to call in for help. Glenn does deal with financial stress, even if caused by gambling (possibly passed down to him by his grandma. But I’ll save that for a different post.) However, once he hears what Sephiroth has to say about being a hero being a lie, he’s instantly willing to help him out. When asking what Sephiroth wants to be when he grows up, he says “Come on, tell Uncle Glenn.” (Closer to big brother in accurate translation) He misses what Sephiroth says about a normal life, but still continues to try and help him out. He also apologizes to Sephiroth multiple times throughout Chapter 5. He does feel bad for the things he said in the heat of the moment, and does clearly begin to care about him rather quickly.
Glenn, Matt, and Lucia, once Glenn’s frustration passes, instantly accept him into their group, and watch over him. Glenn already using a familial term when referring to their connection. Lucia also goes to show she cares about him when ruffling/petting his hair later on. Towards the end of Chapter 5, although Matt doesn’t have any close physical interactions with Sephiroth, he does show immediate concern upon finding out Sephiroth was injured. Showing that he does still care and worry about him, even if he hasn’t had what was considered a more touching moment. Glenn also once again apologizes to Sephiroth and hugs him.
Although it gets off to a rocky start with Sephiroth, I would argue that Glenn, Matt, and Lucia, all treat each other like pretty good friends, if not closer to the jabs family would have. Not unexpected in friendships that have been developing for possibly around 4 years either. They also eventually accept Sephiroth into their group.
Things might change later down the line, and the relationships the characters have with each other could be expanded upon and I could wind up being proven completely wrong, as we do only have through to Chapter 5 currently, but as it stands at the time of me writing this, I would say they are at least friends.
#ff7#ffvii#ever crisis#the first soldier#ff7ec#ffviiec#glenn lodbrok#matt winsord#lucia lin#sephiroth#if you actually read all like. 1.5k words of this. thanks#I have so many thoughts about these guys literally ask me about them any time ever#I just saw one too many posts going 'oh they don't actually care about each other'#and I feel like that's false so I just. needed 2 get that out there lmao#i didn't proof read this so let's hope its coherent and understandable lmao#edit: noticed I put 1998 instead of 1988. fixed that now.
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Survived asking my mother about it.
#I have the relevant information I need. That is all.#Lightheaded with a headache... have that sort of Dissociative Lite going on currently.#That is fine.#Most annoying thing to me is trying to get information out of my mother in a simple way I can bulletpoint.#Somewhat feasible chance I may have to approach my useless father (I have one) for my citizenship.#It's a little outrageous that that kind of thing is held hostage by a man who hasn't even read my mother's messages.#I'm polite enough but I really do not think this man will want me to be the one to email him.#I don't actually have any documentation that he is my father. Genuinely my birth certificate on that side is empty.#Ares/Wolfgang Blackwaxidol is a certifiably fatherless entity.#Why this matters is that outside of him graciously handing the information to me—#—the only real way to prove he is my father is a DNA test.#None of that is really important or my first priority at the moment.#I have some medical services to look into and possibly email.#The only thing going for me in this department is that I have documented proof that I was a patient for two years at a gender clinic.#Regardless I divorce my mind from all of this at the moment. My face really hurts.
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Hmm. Well. I wouldn't call that Moff's best work.
#megan whines into the empty abyss of cyberspace#whelp#never let it be said that I can't speak critically about Moffat#Chair Night was excellent and could've carried the whole episode#the rest of it was aaall over the place and the end was. um. baffling.#still not thrilled we brought back xmas specials just generally#but I also just really don't think *moffat* of all people is your go-to for a good one#don't let that man write any more xmas specials he's twee as fuck under normal circumstances#otoh if there's a single person left calling him cynical after this then we have proof they've never actually seen an ep he's written#I will say the dig at boris johnson's lockdown parties felt genuinely angry and was quite good#but the ending kind of undercut it#I dunno#not my fave
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Despite everything, I do prefer veilguard to inquisition
#not to be a hater but i just really do not like. inquisition#it managed to beat so many AC games that i've played when it comes to “god this is the worst quest of all times”#the politics of this game drive me insane#don't get me wrong veilguard's do too but somehow inquisition's make me more mad#i don't care for the inquisitor that much and out of the 4 they're the weakest protagonist if you ask me#also the fact that as a qunari you have to ASK LELIANA TO TRANSLATE QUNLAT TO YOU#MADE ME SO MAD#trespasser is only good for the plot bc the gameplay is awful#actually so much of my hatred of this game comes form the gameplay#the final battle makes me mad#HOW WAS THE DA2 DLC FIGHT MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE INQUISITION ONE#AND WAY MORE INTERESTING#my god i have SO many problems with corypheus as a villain#and how the mage/templar war is handled#the romances are good and even tho i love blackwall and solas none of them quite had me hooked like dao and da2s#and datv despite its many problems#also.#war table#do not get me started. on the war table.#anyways#i needed to speak my truth#in that FOR ME ESPECIFICALLY#inquisition is the weakest game#FOR ME MY OPINION#i don't like inquisition#if you scroll back on my blog you'll find plenty of me rebogging dai critical posts#ANYWAYS#i'm fine now#also if you need any proof of how much i dislike inquisition#its that the first time i played dao
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What do we think would happen if we gave Kripke estrogen?
#Like I'm not saying i have any proof he's trans#I don't#not even a little bit#and I don't actually think he is#but I do know that man is fascinating#and I want to perform experiments on him#And forcefemme is always a good starting point#would it break him?#would it make him better?#would it make him worse?#good worse or bad worse?#i just want to know#okay?#i think we should try it for science
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in other news that I can't really talk about on the personal twt page because politics: I am now one of the founding members of the rebirth of an activist-student-journalist organization here where I live In the ph! and I love it! I just fucking hate the fact that the said rebirth all started because someone asked an ex-kinda-situationship to fucking talk to me about it after months of silence-
#to those in the ph that know the college journalism scene and figured out what region i live in - itll be obvious on as to what org it is#but um yea the moral of the story is that if you are involved in ndmos please don't ever fucking date anyone in them#because The World Is Small And The NDMO Student Sphere is Quite Smaller S#So Interaction With Exes Of Any Kind Are Unavoidable And Fucking Expected If Ya Wanna Grow The Movement#so like yea whatever connection we both share has both benefited both of our activism and student leadership initiatives greatly#both before during and after the whole thing#and the rebirth of the organization is proof of that! and im glad that they reached out to me for help on this end because ultimately#this is needed!#bUT DOES THAT MEAN I'M NOT BITTER NOOOPE im still bitchy about it but i in a crucial org position and rep cANT SAY THAT#so tgats why this tumblr account exists its basically an archive of shit I Cant Say On Twitter For Political Reasons#anyways wooo im excited for the relaunching of this org and for the student activist movement jn this region to actually BE SOMETHING#because like it really has been disorganized for so long#and we'll be having our first meeting on friday!#so yay!#not so yay on the fact of interacting with said ex sapphic situationship but well what can ya fuckin do she's an activist too#personal shit
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Hiiiii! So, a few days ago you were talking about the whole thing with Amy, Rory, and River. And when I saw those posts a thought arose in my head and I wish to share it with you.
Since River grew up with Amy and Rory as Mels. And Mels was Amy's best friend do you think that they ever talked about children? Since I know that it can come up when talking with friends, and like... do you think that Amy might've ever expressed whether or not she wanted children?
And if she didn't, that Mels would've had to listen to her mother say that she doesn't want children? The idea is so heartbreaking and sooo interesting.
What do you think about it?
no, no, see, you're so right and this drives me wild.
because, the way i see it, i don't think amy wanted children. she's somewhere on the 'hasn't thought about it' to 'vaguely negative feelings about it happening' range to me, which falls sharply into 'Not Happening Ever Again' post-s6. (specifically, in terms of having a kid herself, even if she could, i really don't think she would. i do love that she and rory end up adopting a kid later, because that does make sense, for amy pond who grew up alone in one universe with her family swallowed by cracks in time before the doctor helped her set it right again, for her to want to make sure another child won't be alone in the world like she was. getting off-track here.)
and that's so. because the first real memory river/mels has of amy is of amy shooting at her. and depending on how well the silence fucked up the rest of her memory, it might be one of the very first memories she has at all. that's how she met her mother, crying for help and getting a bullet instead. her mother tried to kill her, so of course, you have to think. she must have needed to hear that she was wanted, right? even if she was taken away, even if amy shot her, at some point, melody must have been wanted?
river is good at getting people to do what she wants, but she is very, very bad at subtlety. and mels is younger, has less practice, so when she wants to know this, she's just going to ask. blunt and quick, easy enough because amy's used to the way mels will open her mouth and you just have to be ready to roll with what comes out if you want to keep up. it's why they're such good friends (like mother, like daughter.)
they're nine, and mels asks if amy wants kids, and amy wrinkles up her nose and says she won't have time for children, obviously, once her raggedy doctor finally comes back. they're fifteen, and amy and rory dance will they-won't they in a way that makes mels twitchy to watch, and taunting amy about wanting to have rory's babies is a good way to get on her nerves. but amy calls her gross, tells her she's got more life planned than children would leave room for, and besides, imagine her, a mom? it'd be a disaster.
mels does. a lot. she looks at her mother and just sees her best friend instead. she's not even sure what she wishes was there, but. maybe amy's right. and besides. imagine her, a daughter, instead of the ticking time bomb she really is? it'd be a disaster.
they're sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and on. mels stands on the outside of a love story that births a universe. and her. how do you compete with that? not that she would know, not yet, she hasn't been there. but it doesn't make her feel any less alienated when amy and rory talk in whispers about a half-remembered world that's bled through to this life, about roman soldiers and boxes and the big bang of belief.
all these memories, they never mention children. on amy's wedding day, she's different, not like someone remembering a dream but someone who lived it. rory stands straighter, won't leave her side, and they're both so much older than they were yesterday. maybe now, right? a wedding's as good a time as any to decide you want kids.
mels not being at amy & rory's wedding is such an obvious lazy way of them trying to explain why they totally didn't just throw this plot twist together at the last minute that i'm not even going to acknowledge it. of course she was at their wedding. she's their best friend. there's too many people around the doctor, and she wasn't ready today of all days, so despite this horrible burning need under her skin to strike, she stays her hand. doesn't let him dance with her because she might just tear his throat out if he gets too close. stays with amy and rory as the maid of honor should. she must have been there for the awkward questions that always gets asked, 'so, any plans for a baby?' 'when am i getting grandkids?' 'oh, you two are going to have gorgeous children together.' standing a few feet from amy in her wedding dress and watching her mother tense and grit her teeth and brush off the questions. watching her look nervously at rory but never ask if he means it when his mom asks him if he'd prefer a son or a daughter, and rory answers 'either one, some day, not anytime soon.'
god i'm just going on and on, aren't i. but really, what's it like to know that amy never changed her mind. the next time she sees them, she's already been born and stolen. i don't like let's kill hitler for. so many reasons. but there is something compelling about how recklessly river lashes out at the world, at the doctor. even her sacrifice at the end is almost suicidal, throwing all her regenerations into this man without knowing if that will even work or if it might kill her to do it. but it makes more sense in the context of someone who has reached the end of a long, long wait for some kind of indication, any kind, that her mother wanted to have her. and finally been told, no. she didn't choose melody.
#like. to be clear also: i don't think the fact that amy didn't want kids and really didn't have a choice in giving birth to river#means that she wouldn't love river. i think it would make their relationship Complicated but i do think amy loves her. so much.#that's her daughter but it's also her best friend.#but like. god. to spend your whole childhood hoping you'll hear about some little glimmer of yourself.#a dream. a passing mention. a debate on baby names. anything. and to hear nothing.#and river is. like. she is really really bad at relationships right? we know this.#the person she's closest to is the doctor and she spends most of her life believing *he doesn't even love her*.#we're talking about someone whose base assumption about everyone is that they will try to hurt her at some point so she should always keep#one hand armed.#and her mother. didn't choose to have her. didn't have that choice. that has to fuck her up a little.#(and also serve as proof that river is. so so bad at knowing when she is loved. because maybe amy didn't choose to have her but she named#melody pond after mels her best friend. she has been choosing river every day for the past however many years since mels decided to come#here and be near her mom and dad even if only as kids. but river still can't see it.#and. given the nature of how the ponds disappear from her life. and we never get any closure about them and river.#you have to wonder if she ever did. river song do you know your mother loves you?#having the melody-as-river reveal be so close to the end of the season and then getting rid of amy & rory before they can actually do#anything with the three of them as a messed up little family unit is the show's biggest crime. because i don't know! i don't know if river#knew her parents loved her! i don't know if she *ever* came to terms with how she was born and how they didn't need to choose her then to#choose her now! i don't know if river ever really felt comfortable thinking of them as her parents rather than her friends?#according to the transcripts. river calls amy 'mother' twice. (and 'mummy' once jokingly.) she calls rory 'father' once. and 'dad' in angel#in manhattan. and it just. it drives insane right? it's almost weirdly formal. like the words aren't right but she knows she should say the#and. and. i don't think i'm ever going to get over river song.#i think that's the takeaway here.#ask#doctor who#river song#amy pond#rory williams
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do you think my roommate will rat me out about vaping in the bathroom .............
#just incase i moved all my contraband#or at least i hope i got all of it...#i was going to just play dumb but i can see that backfiring#but i can also see this backfiring bc of physical evidence#like actual proof of admittance to the crime#im very anxious about this omg#i dont think she likes me#norm.allie#i domt not like her but idk i hope she moves out..#college owns#but my school doesnt tolerate any type of drug or alcohol.#i have gotten reckless and have been smoking wayyyy too much#this is my sign to fucking knock it off#hopefully she doesnt tell on me#if she does i will kms. 😒 jk but i dont want to get kicked out.....#what is wrong with me.#i wish we were friends.. or at least talked tho#bc since i don't know her i don't know what she'll do#hopefully she doesn't say anything....... godly this was her warning
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