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What I think the Leverage Team is truly afraid of:
Nate: Losing. Not just losing the con- but more importantly losing the team. Of course he never voices it. However the team knows. It's why they always come back. Nate already lost his son, his job, and his wife- can't lose his team. He can't lose his second family.
Sophie: Broken Masks. This may be a jump in the dark- but. Sophie has SO many personas. Mask's she's created all on her own that I don't think she even knows who she is anymore. I think she's afraid of somebody finally figuring her out and that terrifies her. Not only because she'll lose all sorts of control- but she'll think if they figure out the real her, all they'll see is a women that's weak.
Parker: Abandment. She's finally found people who are like her. In a way that of course their different- but still they are like her. These people know what it's like to be alone. To be lost. Having to figure out a way to get out, because it's a way to survive. She's afraid that one day- they'll walk away. Just like everyone else. And I think that's why she pokes and pushes. Trying to figure out what it'll take for them to walk away. They don't.
Hardison: Uselessness. I think this is why he's so outgoing. Why he's so out there and personal with everyone. He wants to be seen as strong. As being useful. I mean- he hacked into Sweden(?) to pay for his Nana's surgery. He felt useful then. Now, he's in a team- and with all these useful members. He's afraid they don't need him. That's why he's tried multiple times to be the mastermind. And of course he fails- not because he doesn't know what he's doing. But because even with the "I know what I'm doing," attitude- he's terrified that he'll do it wrong.
Eliot: The Dark. This I can't explain fully. Maybe it's from the tidbits I hear in conversations. But he's afraid of the dark. Not the actual dark. No. The darkness that's in him and that he tries to keep control of. It's the darkness he had when he was working for Monreau. The monster that was created in him every time he spilled innocent blood. Eliot is afraid that the darkness will come out and his family will see just how much of a monster he is.
#leverage#eliot spencer#parker#alec hardison#nate ford#sophie devereaux#what they are truely afraid of#loss of control#abandment#being useless#the darkness#i don't actually have any proof#i just- i hear the comments being made#the body language when dealing with cons#to me it makes sense#however#i know I could be wrong#so if y'all disagree#i totally understand#i do think that's why they work so well as a team though#because everyone of them is aware of each others fear#and they stay
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trojan war tumblr simulator
🌊 is-the-sea-wine-dark-today
YOU BET IT IS
#the wine dark sea!!!!!!!!!!!! #wine dark sea #wine dark sea posting
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✌🏻 ajax2electricboogaloo follow
why is achilles the only demigod who's Like That? like he's my boy but u don't see memnon or aeneas or sarpedon acting like him on the reg. why is he so maladjusted? like specifically? I saw his mother once and was so terrified by the sight of a goddess I flung myself to the ground and hid my face in the dirt til she left but I still don't think that accounts for it idk
🏘️ nobody1020
it's blonde man syndrome hope this helps
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⚔️ sonoftydeus
opening my askbox so that we can discuss strategies on taking troy!
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anonymous asked: we should all go home :)
⚔️ sonoftydeus answered:
FUCK OFF AGAMEMNON I WANT REAL SUGGESTIONS
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nobody1020 asked: do u like..... horses
⚔️ sonoftydeus answered:
odysseus do I even wanna know where this is going
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⌛ isthetrojanwaroveryet?
year 9, day 234: still no....
#all our admins keep DYING
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‼️ trojan-confessions follow
I think my wife might be sending me anon hate :/ keep getting asks like 'hope u die on the battlefield tomorrow silly slag' and 'menelaus should have curbstomped you' and in her big tapestry of warriors she made me look stupid
🐴 horsetaminghector follow
lmaooo is this paris??
🔮 cryinglikecassandra follow
kinda think helen should send MORE anon hate idk
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❓ myrmidons-confessions
I was the one who wrote the achilles/agamemnon 100k slowburn enemies to lovers rpf and put it on the group chat but now patroclus is calling me 'agachilles boy' and laughing about it and asking if I can proofread his mock bardic epic where all his dogs are heroes and killing people, so I fear I've made a mistake. I also can't look achilles in the eye anymore... but honestly I've never seen proof he can read so I might be safe
❓ myrmidons-confessions
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👑 kingofmycenae
👍🏻 ajaxthegreat
achilles is DEAD and ur posting CRAB RAVE?????
🏘️ nobody1020
I think that's why he's posting it ngl
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😹 deiphobus42069
imagine being the achaeans and your best warrior gets killed by PARIS, after everyone else had awesome deaths at the hands of sarpedon or hector or memnon... like that's literally so embarassing I just know achilles is fucking fuming down in hades rn. I bet the achaeans are gonna put around that paris was guided by apollo, or that paris happened to hit his only weak spot..... anything 2 try and make it less cringe.... lol lol we're popping the biggest bottles tonight. hope helen's there
🐆 leopardskiniscool
???????????????
#I mean. yeah. but also. #deiphobus wtf I thought we were chill
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#hope everyone can be normal about the outcome!!! :)
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🧑🏻 randotrojansoldier-deactivated-8578543
so excited to go back onto the field of battle tomorrow! sure hope I don't encounter any of the big-name heroes
🗣️ homer follow
I hope you don't too! I'm sure you'll do great!
🐎 antilochussss
not the direct address????
✌🏻 ajax2electricboogaloo
direct address got him :(
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💂🏻 trojanguardtales follow
fuck my job so much I hope that this wooden horse tribute to the gods turns out to have some guys inside or something just so I can DO something rather than standing here like a twat with my spear
💂🏻 trojanguardtales follow
by ares this can't be happening
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⚔️ sonoftydeus reblogged menelauskingofsparta
do NOT order achilles from shein!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#oh yeah #I was stuck with temu achilles in the trojan horse for six hours #and by hour two agamemnon had suggested killing and eating him #and odysseus was threatening to 'send him to meet his father' #and it's not even like there's any kleos in killing priam!!! #anti neoptolemus #neoptolemus defenders dni #vent tags
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#taking a break from my actual academic essay about the iliad to make this terrible terrible post#I don't think there's any proof everyone hated neoptolemus. BUT.#but if I'd been at troy for 10 years and achilles' fuckass teenage son pulled up with the bloodlust of an xl bully I'd have been. displeased#iliad#the iliad#trojan war#achilles#ajax#odysseus#homer#epic cycle#unreality#tumblr simulator#greek mythology#my post
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n*loth not being able to bag anyone over the (human term) age of 25-30 at most is the only logical and real conclusion to me because it can be just explained away as him wanting to prove and control everything and anyone (Cus he's a man!) but being stuck in that demographic because his unbearable and vile personality is a force that nobody can look past once they've outgrown the possible fear and idolization period of anyone but also n*loth in particular.
#text#i think even younger ones that possess the same nasty traits can be slammed back 'In their place' (in his mind) by him just bc his -#- abilities and power alone (alt. name the factors that make him 'Cool') that dumbs them down insanely in comparison#maybe by this i mean like; ild*ri. despite the animosity she could still feel very foolish and is conscious of her wuss-ness#if that makes sense#cause no matter the disrespect anyone might have for an older capable person the reality is still reality#tbh i just think he doesn't like to sweat it much and still aims for the younger ones bc it's easier than it would be for someone that's -#- 30+ years old#and once he's proven his point he doesn't find any merit in sticking with older ones cause their interests or anything they offer -#- don't matter to or interest Him personally#i think an older demographic is just more boring to him and he would rather spend his time being metaphorically sucked off for his greats -#- by someone that already finds themselves 'lesser' than him and always will for a long time#than someone that is defiant of that fact#basically the more power imbalance the better#in his mind there will always be one unless he certainly knows someone is his equal (or better than him) but he likes the add-on of an -#- age difference too#keeps it in a safe zone with less problems for him#sorry for spitting again my brain just started machine-gunning thoughts for no reason#also i said before that he's an innocence fan. might not be a total puritan but there's something there#it's kinda like him not wanting to be with a dusty ''OLD'' person that's seen a lot anyway#i'm like barely able to hold myself back from opening my mouth to mention t*lvas where i'm making a point about n*loth's brain where he -#- isn't even needed to prove it#but like#him voicing dislike of n*loth general nauseating character and actions but still sucking up to him while n*loth can probably feel -#- that dislike anyway is cute to me i like to view it as an object being thrown into the wall over and over#where n*loth is proving his own worth to other people by drilling their brains out with proof. not that he needs to#but he would like that to be perfected a 100%#and t*lvas is capable of being molded into that state ....... probably#silusvesuisuis you didnot just confess to wanting to see t*lvas be slammed into a wall you fucked up demented beast you're sick#actually can't believe i forgot to mention this but he's literally so immature idk what he has anything in common with actual mature people
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Rochelle Goyle in MONSTER HIGH 2 (2023)
#monster high#monster high 2#rochelle goyle#monsterhighedit#mhedit#monster high: the movie#tuserkit#userjessica#userrobin#tuserhallie#userzaynab#usercreate#usersource#nickelodeon#nickelodeonedit#monsterhighsource#cinematv#*edits#no i don't have any proof that's actually rochelle but you don't have any proof it's not her :)#the colour of these walls in draculaura's house will be the death of me they make it so hard to colour gifs 😫
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You know people complain a lot about there being "too much Star Wars content these days" and it's entirely another conversation about how this is Not At All A New Thing but besides that... you know you don't need to engage with it, right? If you don't like what a new show or series or comic is doing, you don't need to interact. You can stop watching a show. You can ignore what that book is doing. You can create your experience and if you're not having fun, you can always turn it off
#on another note: different things are for different audiences. visions is for a different audience than andor is for a different audience th#not all of it's for you#the amount of people i've seen go “UGH why are they even MAKING ahsoka”#like. you don't have to watch!!!#of course it's fine to critique a change you don't like#but if you're not having fun it's totally ok to stop watching#but i feel like fan culture makes you feel like you HAVE to be up to date and keyed in#i haven't actually watched much of any of the shows (tcw included) LMAO#so if anything i'm proof you can just chill in your corner#anyways#personal#star wars#star wars ahsoka#ahsoka series#ahsoka spoilers#ahsoka show#star wars fandom#fandom critical#star wars fandom critical#sw#sw fandom#fandom: star wars#type: meta
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#regarding the liam and maya situation: i have a lot to say that i cannot express in tags and some of yall are still in a huge denial phase#but as i said the day we first knew about maya's book - im believing her. i believe she is a victim. im believing the victim.#i do trust women who make allegations without explicitly showing proof on social media because thats what i stand for. i rather believe a#liar than believing and abuser. with her; with you; and with every women (and everyone) out there even if i don't like her.#if you have a problem with this value i have: i recommend to unfollow me. because i believe her and that won't change.#and the tiktok she posted acknowledging 1d's fanbase behaviour is not only well-worded; but her non verbal language does match what she is#saying. i hope liam can get out of his addiction and i hope he can recognise his actions to be able to change for good; yes. but that doesn#change what he already did. i have plenty of reasons to believe maya - and seeing so many fellow fans saying shit in her comments like#“you're a liar until you post proof” “if you're saying the truth then sue him” “this is pr for the book” etc etc. insane and concerning.#yall talk like cishet men defending their friends btw. the exact same “arguments”...... is sad to see other women saying this. it breaks my#heart. and as someone who is studying PR genuinely fuck yall ???? yall don't even know what tf we do yall just blame us for every shit in#the industry when in reality its not our fault all the amount of crap yall say it is our fault. if i ask yall to even define what we do#im sure 99.99% won't even know the difference between PR/Marketing/Publicity. get my name and my fellow PR people out of your shit ??? wtf?#its diabolical to blame this on PR. seriously whatin the actual fuck. it doesn't even make sense????? fuck offffffff#i hope maya henry may find peace; i hope she can recover and overcome as well as possible. im disgusted by the behaviour almost everyone is#having. im not praying for a downfall or hoping bad things on liam but i definitely won't defend any of this. and tbh yall shouldn't either#on the other side: i hope she better not talk in any kind of way about louis/harry situation#but because that would mess stuff up in multiple ways. they don't need to be dragged in this. at all.#we don't need “official” denials nor confirmations of people that are not them in any type of way.#anyway... how's the weather i guess#maya henry
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Our first introduction to a revived Catelyn is learning that she can't speak but she remembers, inquiries about Arya, and accurately pointing out someone involved in that red wedding. It's been obvious from the start that she's still Catelyn, even though her being resurrected affected her. Considering fandom's trend of labeling female characters "too far gone" for not being perfect, pure, and passive it's obvious why people talk about her like they do. Yes she's angry and wants revenge but literally who wouldn't if they were in her situation? It's annoying how little empathy people have for her character. Personally, I hope there's more to her story than getting demonized for rightfully wanting revenge and having to get "put down" like she's a wild animal.
#catelyn stark#catelyn tully#lady stoneheart#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#I need people to stop talking about female character like their wild animals just cause they feel /negative/ emotions#Oh the woman who watched her son killed before getting murdered herself and then brought back to life isn't nice and sweet and gentle ohhhh#that means she absolutely has to be put down I mean what other option is there??? / srs#Show me some actual proof that she's too far gone and not just you're assumptions about someone who gets brought back to#life like we don't already have Beric walking around...I hate when fandom just decides things instead of looking at the story#like she currently has nothing not even a guarantee that any of her children are alive#reuniting with Arya is going to be big for her and you know what? I doubt she'll want to be put down like fandom assumes#she's def going to want to stay around as long as she can to protect her children especially if she's learns Bran and Rickon are alive#catelyn get behind me! I'm rooting for you!
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man it really is just about avoiding people being mad at you huh.
#i don't think you should accuse scammers without hard proof obviously#but even when there IS proof people just shut their ears and go lalala if it's a gazan fundraiser and it's like???#it's actually not virtuous to be scammed. even if they're preying on your empathy. hope this helps.#idk maybe im just cyber security pilled bc of my dad but this is absolutely the perfect environment for scammers#which sucks bc part of what creates that environment IS the genuine difficulty palestinians have fundraising#bc of websites being blocked and intermittent internet access#but it is also very much the attitude around this where any reasonable doubt is treated as evil#like sorry but the death is in fact from the bombs and not from people not donating 15 dollars#it's good to donate but You as a person are not personally responsible for preventing every bad thing
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With every blocklist 90% of the supposed 'receipts' consist just of fans of color venting in their own blogs. Some people in this fandom really are like i can accept racism and child erotica but draw the line at poc expressing any anger over it
#latest post i saw they even had screenshots of black fans affectionately joking about jacob's haircut#and were trying to make it seem like those fans hate jacob and his wife...#it's almost like you don't have any proof these poc fans are actually harassing anyone#iwtvposting#.txt
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I’ve seen quite a few takes saying that Team Glenn aren’t really friends or don’t care about each other and I wanted to take some time to write about why I feel like that’s blatantly false. Using info from what we have in-game, from the character intros, and with a piece from an interview with those working on the game.
To start off, when we were initially given the character intros before the full release, we were told some basic information on the characters. Matt was asked by Glenn to join him on the mission, and Lucia outright volunteered to go with. Both had the option to turn it down or to not volunteer but they decided to go with, neither were obligated.
Upon the opening section of the game, if you choose the option of “Guess I should wake her.” to rouse Lucia, she will tell Glenn “…How many times do I have to tell you not to wake me up like that?” This gives us the idea that either they’ve worked multiple previous overnight or crash-landing missions together, with Glenn startling her awake with the idea of being attacked, or that they’re used to existing in a shared space where she can be woken up by him.
When they’re going around looking for Matt, Glenn mentions owing him money. This is said to be for lunch and drinks. This is something done off-clock, and not something Matt is obligated to do in the least. They spend time around each other outside of work.
When looking at the opening movie for the original version of The First Soldier, the battle royale version, we get to see that Glenn, Matt, and Lucia, all meet each other back in 1988. The mission to the Rhadore Archipelago takes place in 1992, so the three of them have known each other for roughly 4 years. Lucia actually rescues them on that mission, and outright says “If I hadn’t gotten you two out of trouble, we would’ve never become friends.” Which tells us that they do continue to view each other as friends. Not only this, but later after the mission they met on, they take their SOLDIER exam together as a team. This meaning that they continued to stay in contact after that event and work together, and even practiced specifically as a team.
They all have to have at least some degree of being close to each other, if not at least Matt and Lucia, who are able to actually communicate with each other with nothing more than nods directed at each other. They do this roughly 4 times in the story up to the end of the current release of Chapter 5.
Later, in Padapili Sea Cave, if you choose to have Glenn eat the fruit all by himself, he uses it as a slight way to mess with Lucia. She voices concern over the possibility of it being poisonous, and is concerned when he takes a bite of it without hesitation. Upon collapsing to the ground, she gets extremely frustrated and concerned telling him to spit it out. Glenn pointed it out as a moment to say nothing is more scary than ignorance, but she was truly upset by thinking he could’ve or was actively being harmed. This is a slightly mean way of messing with her, but it gives a moment to show that she does care about him.
Glenn does overuse the nickname “Professor” for Matt and it does upset Matt, but it never feels intentionally malicious or like its making fun of Matt. It’s a part of showing that they aren’t perfect and all have their flaws, Glenn’s happens to be boundaries and being a bit of a troublemaker. Although we haven’t seen as much of it from Matt, the initial idea of the First Soldier story had Matt as the protagonist. He was intended to be diligent (perhaps even too much so) and appears to overanalyze things. This includes being prepared to view Rosen as a possible enemy as though to not compromise their mission. Lucia was designed to be the mediator or “harmonizing presence” however choosing to leave Lucia behind at the 3rd pressure plate in Chapter 3’s Main Section 4, Episode 1, will grant you dialogue between Matt and Glenn wondering if Lucia is okay and worrying that she has a lot pent up and might explode. She also has small outbursts of anger such as if Glenn chooses to eat the fruit solo. Once again, they’re all flawed in their own ways.
In the same location as the previous mentioned chapter, section, and episode, the very first pressure plate you come upon gives you the option to leave behind Glenn, Matt, or Lucia. Upon leaving behind Lucia, once you reach the other side and open the wall, she will run through. Glenn asks her what’s up, and she avoids eye contact. Upon asking “Huh? What is it?” from Glenn, Lucia will say she’s angry with herself, and look at the ground. She admits that she’s relieved to see the two of them, anger that could be founded in the possibility that they (likely) weren’t gone that long at all.
When Lucia brings up the rumor of how this mission prioritized interpersonal relationships over skill when creating teams, Glenn states he was able to “get you two without a fight.” In reference to Matt and Lucia. This could also be interpreted as they’ve attempted to get on missions with each other in the past, but that it can be a hassle to do. Matt comments that “camaraderie is a powerful thing” which by definition is “mutual trust and a friendship among people who spend a lot of time together.”
Upon the topic of Lucia saying she doesn’t want the higher-ups to think she’s a willing member of Team Glenn. This feels like it just sets in with her usual slightly biting sense of jokes that can be interpreted as being slightly rude. It’s important to remember her intro states she wasn’t asked to come along, but rather, volunteered to go with. Even if for another reason she doesn’t want to be a “willing member of Team Glenn” she’s there because she wanted to be and because she cares about Glenn and Matt.
I would also like to add that I feel one of Final Fantasy VII’s key themes could be found family, across majority of the compilation. Team Glenn might not entirely treat each other as “respectful adult friends” but rather closer to family, like siblings or cousins. They get on each other’s nerves and annoy each other, but they do also genuinely care about each other.
Following in on the topic of found family, the way they treat Sephiroth. Glenn is initially hostile towards Sephiroth, likely caused by his being put in charge as team leader, and possibly taking away Glenn’s chance at getting his bonus. The one reason he refused to call in for help. Glenn does deal with financial stress, even if caused by gambling (possibly passed down to him by his grandma. But I’ll save that for a different post.) However, once he hears what Sephiroth has to say about being a hero being a lie, he’s instantly willing to help him out. When asking what Sephiroth wants to be when he grows up, he says “Come on, tell Uncle Glenn.” (Closer to big brother in accurate translation) He misses what Sephiroth says about a normal life, but still continues to try and help him out. He also apologizes to Sephiroth multiple times throughout Chapter 5. He does feel bad for the things he said in the heat of the moment, and does clearly begin to care about him rather quickly.
Glenn, Matt, and Lucia, once Glenn’s frustration passes, instantly accept him into their group, and watch over him. Glenn already using a familial term when referring to their connection. Lucia also goes to show she cares about him when ruffling/petting his hair later on. Towards the end of Chapter 5, although Matt doesn’t have any close physical interactions with Sephiroth, he does show immediate concern upon finding out Sephiroth was injured. Showing that he does still care and worry about him, even if he hasn’t had what was considered a more touching moment. Glenn also once again apologizes to Sephiroth and hugs him.
Although it gets off to a rocky start with Sephiroth, I would argue that Glenn, Matt, and Lucia, all treat each other like pretty good friends, if not closer to the jabs family would have. Not unexpected in friendships that have been developing for possibly around 4 years either. They also eventually accept Sephiroth into their group.
Things might change later down the line, and the relationships the characters have with each other could be expanded upon and I could wind up being proven completely wrong, as we do only have through to Chapter 5 currently, but as it stands at the time of me writing this, I would say they are at least friends.
#ff7#ffvii#ever crisis#the first soldier#ff7ec#ffviiec#glenn lodbrok#matt winsord#lucia lin#sephiroth#if you actually read all like. 1.5k words of this. thanks#I have so many thoughts about these guys literally ask me about them any time ever#I just saw one too many posts going 'oh they don't actually care about each other'#and I feel like that's false so I just. needed 2 get that out there lmao#i didn't proof read this so let's hope its coherent and understandable lmao#edit: noticed I put 1998 instead of 1988. fixed that now.
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Hiiiii! So, a few days ago you were talking about the whole thing with Amy, Rory, and River. And when I saw those posts a thought arose in my head and I wish to share it with you.
Since River grew up with Amy and Rory as Mels. And Mels was Amy's best friend do you think that they ever talked about children? Since I know that it can come up when talking with friends, and like... do you think that Amy might've ever expressed whether or not she wanted children?
And if she didn't, that Mels would've had to listen to her mother say that she doesn't want children? The idea is so heartbreaking and sooo interesting.
What do you think about it?
no, no, see, you're so right and this drives me wild.
because, the way i see it, i don't think amy wanted children. she's somewhere on the 'hasn't thought about it' to 'vaguely negative feelings about it happening' range to me, which falls sharply into 'Not Happening Ever Again' post-s6. (specifically, in terms of having a kid herself, even if she could, i really don't think she would. i do love that she and rory end up adopting a kid later, because that does make sense, for amy pond who grew up alone in one universe with her family swallowed by cracks in time before the doctor helped her set it right again, for her to want to make sure another child won't be alone in the world like she was. getting off-track here.)
and that's so. because the first real memory river/mels has of amy is of amy shooting at her. and depending on how well the silence fucked up the rest of her memory, it might be one of the very first memories she has at all. that's how she met her mother, crying for help and getting a bullet instead. her mother tried to kill her, so of course, you have to think. she must have needed to hear that she was wanted, right? even if she was taken away, even if amy shot her, at some point, melody must have been wanted?
river is good at getting people to do what she wants, but she is very, very bad at subtlety. and mels is younger, has less practice, so when she wants to know this, she's just going to ask. blunt and quick, easy enough because amy's used to the way mels will open her mouth and you just have to be ready to roll with what comes out if you want to keep up. it's why they're such good friends (like mother, like daughter.)
they're nine, and mels asks if amy wants kids, and amy wrinkles up her nose and says she won't have time for children, obviously, once her raggedy doctor finally comes back. they're fifteen, and amy and rory dance will they-won't they in a way that makes mels twitchy to watch, and taunting amy about wanting to have rory's babies is a good way to get on her nerves. but amy calls her gross, tells her she's got more life planned than children would leave room for, and besides, imagine her, a mom? it'd be a disaster.
mels does. a lot. she looks at her mother and just sees her best friend instead. she's not even sure what she wishes was there, but. maybe amy's right. and besides. imagine her, a daughter, instead of the ticking time bomb she really is? it'd be a disaster.
they're sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and on. mels stands on the outside of a love story that births a universe. and her. how do you compete with that? not that she would know, not yet, she hasn't been there. but it doesn't make her feel any less alienated when amy and rory talk in whispers about a half-remembered world that's bled through to this life, about roman soldiers and boxes and the big bang of belief.
all these memories, they never mention children. on amy's wedding day, she's different, not like someone remembering a dream but someone who lived it. rory stands straighter, won't leave her side, and they're both so much older than they were yesterday. maybe now, right? a wedding's as good a time as any to decide you want kids.
mels not being at amy & rory's wedding is such an obvious lazy way of them trying to explain why they totally didn't just throw this plot twist together at the last minute that i'm not even going to acknowledge it. of course she was at their wedding. she's their best friend. there's too many people around the doctor, and she wasn't ready today of all days, so despite this horrible burning need under her skin to strike, she stays her hand. doesn't let him dance with her because she might just tear his throat out if he gets too close. stays with amy and rory as the maid of honor should. she must have been there for the awkward questions that always gets asked, 'so, any plans for a baby?' 'when am i getting grandkids?' 'oh, you two are going to have gorgeous children together.' standing a few feet from amy in her wedding dress and watching her mother tense and grit her teeth and brush off the questions. watching her look nervously at rory but never ask if he means it when his mom asks him if he'd prefer a son or a daughter, and rory answers 'either one, some day, not anytime soon.'
god i'm just going on and on, aren't i. but really, what's it like to know that amy never changed her mind. the next time she sees them, she's already been born and stolen. i don't like let's kill hitler for. so many reasons. but there is something compelling about how recklessly river lashes out at the world, at the doctor. even her sacrifice at the end is almost suicidal, throwing all her regenerations into this man without knowing if that will even work or if it might kill her to do it. but it makes more sense in the context of someone who has reached the end of a long, long wait for some kind of indication, any kind, that her mother wanted to have her. and finally been told, no. she didn't choose melody.
#like. to be clear also: i don't think the fact that amy didn't want kids and really didn't have a choice in giving birth to river#means that she wouldn't love river. i think it would make their relationship Complicated but i do think amy loves her. so much.#that's her daughter but it's also her best friend.#but like. god. to spend your whole childhood hoping you'll hear about some little glimmer of yourself.#a dream. a passing mention. a debate on baby names. anything. and to hear nothing.#and river is. like. she is really really bad at relationships right? we know this.#the person she's closest to is the doctor and she spends most of her life believing *he doesn't even love her*.#we're talking about someone whose base assumption about everyone is that they will try to hurt her at some point so she should always keep#one hand armed.#and her mother. didn't choose to have her. didn't have that choice. that has to fuck her up a little.#(and also serve as proof that river is. so so bad at knowing when she is loved. because maybe amy didn't choose to have her but she named#melody pond after mels her best friend. she has been choosing river every day for the past however many years since mels decided to come#here and be near her mom and dad even if only as kids. but river still can't see it.#and. given the nature of how the ponds disappear from her life. and we never get any closure about them and river.#you have to wonder if she ever did. river song do you know your mother loves you?#having the melody-as-river reveal be so close to the end of the season and then getting rid of amy & rory before they can actually do#anything with the three of them as a messed up little family unit is the show's biggest crime. because i don't know! i don't know if river#knew her parents loved her! i don't know if she *ever* came to terms with how she was born and how they didn't need to choose her then to#choose her now! i don't know if river ever really felt comfortable thinking of them as her parents rather than her friends?#according to the transcripts. river calls amy 'mother' twice. (and 'mummy' once jokingly.) she calls rory 'father' once. and 'dad' in angel#in manhattan. and it just. it drives insane right? it's almost weirdly formal. like the words aren't right but she knows she should say the#and. and. i don't think i'm ever going to get over river song.#i think that's the takeaway here.#ask#doctor who#river song#amy pond#rory williams
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do you think my roommate will rat me out about vaping in the bathroom .............
#just incase i moved all my contraband#or at least i hope i got all of it...#i was going to just play dumb but i can see that backfiring#but i can also see this backfiring bc of physical evidence#like actual proof of admittance to the crime#im very anxious about this omg#i dont think she likes me#norm.allie#i domt not like her but idk i hope she moves out..#college owns#but my school doesnt tolerate any type of drug or alcohol.#i have gotten reckless and have been smoking wayyyy too much#this is my sign to fucking knock it off#hopefully she doesnt tell on me#if she does i will kms. 😒 jk but i dont want to get kicked out.....#what is wrong with me.#i wish we were friends.. or at least talked tho#bc since i don't know her i don't know what she'll do#hopefully she doesn't say anything....... godly this was her warning
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Survived asking my mother about it.
#I have the relevant information I need. That is all.#Lightheaded with a headache... have that sort of Dissociative Lite going on currently.#That is fine.#Most annoying thing to me is trying to get information out of my mother in a simple way I can bulletpoint.#Somewhat feasible chance I may have to approach my useless father (I have one) for my citizenship.#It's a little outrageous that that kind of thing is held hostage by a man who hasn't even read my mother's messages.#I'm polite enough but I really do not think this man will want me to be the one to email him.#I don't actually have any documentation that he is my father. Genuinely my birth certificate on that side is empty.#Ares/Wolfgang Blackwaxidol is a certifiably fatherless entity.#Why this matters is that outside of him graciously handing the information to me—#—the only real way to prove he is my father is a DNA test.#None of that is really important or my first priority at the moment.#I have some medical services to look into and possibly email.#The only thing going for me in this department is that I have documented proof that I was a patient for two years at a gender clinic.#Regardless I divorce my mind from all of this at the moment. My face really hurts.
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𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭.
why can't you place some of that trust in me ( @minban ) ?
it would be a death wish to trust someone like him. someone whose hands were soaked in crimson, the scent of BLOOD clung to almost every fiber of his skin. the razor-sharp fangs capable of ripping her throat out in a single bite grazed every so softly against her skin, and how they pierced into her more than once. again and again, until his mouth tasted of iron, until every corner of her body was littered with bites, until he had claimed his ownership over her in a form of several marks adorning her otherwise flawless skin and the warmth of his essence was poured deep into her.
the feel of his fingers running through the softness of dark feathers sent shivers down her spine. yínyuè could register even the slightest of movement as those gloved digits weaved themselves along the thick lines of her wings. she wondered how did it feel for him, how did it feel to have her vulnerable beneath him while he was touching her in the most intimate manner as though he had control over the power of havoc running through her veins.
the rover was growing stronger as day passed, more powerful today than the day before as her blade cut through COUNTLESS of tacet discords with the very same frequencies she absorbed into her. when his digits could be felt so close to the base of her wings, yínyuè shuddered almost instinctively. the sound of her own heart ramming itself against her ribcage a reminder how her body responded quickly to stimulations caused by him. it was as though he knew how to bring forth a kind of REACTION oh-so-pleasant to his eyes and ears, while she was powerless to resist him. not in ways she'd like.
her body was reacting in caution. it was reminding her how easily those fingers and hand could RIP those majestic wings of hers out from the base and leave her bleeding and writhing in agony. it was TRUST, was it not ? that compelled her to lie there unmoving, letting the MAN whose claws were sharper than any blades to ghost his touch all over her, along her spine, wrapping his hand, his entirety, around the area where the dark wings connected to the skin of her back, coiling POSSESSIVELY, in promise ... so intimately and wholly she was almost choking up on his heat that threatened to BURN and consume her everything.
he could rip them out, causing her to fall from grace, causing her to fall to the ground into his very arms, into the depth where SINNERS crawl, yet ... he did not.
she heard her NAME on his tongue, whispered so endearingly like she was the only thing valuable to him in this half-destroyed world she was trying to save. a mind-shaking shiver ran down her spine once more, causing her back to ARCH from the way he trailed his hand, now ungloved, along the roots of her wings and burying his scarred palm right into the soft, delicate feather until they were half swallowed up in the thick tresses. yínyuè heard the sound that escaped the back of her throat, how it vibrated from her lungs like a wounded prey being caught within the maws of its predator, and was being toyed with so casually.
so gentle. so delicate. then transitioning from warmth to heat, scorching and searing, just enough to leave her to burn with primal need and leaving words of plead to stick to the tip of her tongue. so close to beg for something. for mercy, for more ? she wasn't sure. AUREATE ORBS melted into liquid gold, swirling underneath the locks of midnight and overwhelming aura of havoc being ignited by him. she gazed at him, glowing eyes meeting heterochromia ... and yínyuè felt yet another SHUDDER pulsing through every fiber of her being. when he stared down at her like that, despite having ALL the power to turn things around, her mind submitted to those mismatched orbs looking at her like she was his.
the moment she felt his FANGS sinking into her skin, marking right between the two wings, she called out his name.
as though it was the only thing, the only one, ever allowed to CLAIM her in such a way.
ᵃˢ ᵗʰᵒᵘᵍʰ ˢʰᵉ ᵇᵉˡᵒⁿᵍˢ ᵗᵒ ʰⁱᵐ
#minban#.memory fragments#.[ yinyue | rover ]#.[ i crave you; even in the darkness; even in blood: scar & yinyue ]#[ oKAY I WROTE THIS IN ONE SITTING#BC THE IMAGE & THOUGHT SETTLED INTO MY HEAD & I COULDN'T GET IT OUT#UNTIL I ACTUALLY WRITE IT OUT SO HERE WE GO#pls ignore any typos or any parts that don't make sense ... i haven't proof-read it i DON'T THINK I HAVE BRAINCELL TO#BUT YES ENJOYYYY ]#.suggestive tw
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man I was just trying to vent. not sure why you've got your panties in such a twist
#🥧.dean#as I said before#evidence doesn't actually fucking matter#and giving what you want is stupid anyway#but more to my point#people in abusive situations don't think to gather hard evidence while they're being abused#that's fucking crazy to expect#the fact that we have any proof at all is just because those guys were dumb enough to admit to shit publicly#so I'm not gonna post shit. I don't care#anyone who demands evidence from a victim is probably not actually gonna support a victim
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past me would be rolling in her fucking grave if she found out that present me is the kind of math nerd who loves doing calculus
#IM GETTING MORE ENJOYMENT FROM DOING MATH THEN I EVER HAVE FROM ANY OF MY ART CLASSES. GOOD GOD#im giddy solving derivatives rn#can't believe I'm a math and physics nerd this is insane#ALSO GUESS WHAT#so I'm taking physics as a summer class right#i thought it was regular physics#but APPARENTLY its engineering physics (which is fine I need that for my degree)#and engineering physics needs calc 2 (which I have) and general/highschool physics (which I haven't done) as prereqs#SO NOW IM GONNA HAVE TO TRY AND CRAM AND STUDY AGAIN#I've been doing okay in the classes so far thankfully#but my surprise when I walked into class and the prof started talking like “you all know this already right”#no actually#I don't know how this happend#I think it's because I'm not taking it at MY college I'm taking it at my local community college#and so they just didn't ask for prereqs. they didn't ask for any proof at all they just took my money and let me enroll#incredible how I keep winding up in these situations#lilac post
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