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😔

Boop attack!!

*crushes you with boops*

Happy Halloween eve!

🦌 anon

HAPPY HALLOWEEN :3!!!!

(This is all in honor of our TWST goth lover, Skully 😔)

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Guess I’m going to France. Goodbye everyone. 😔

Tagging anyone who wants to join!

twst dorm sorter (color version)

this is a dorm sorting quiz that only asks you to choose colors. every color used was lifted directly from the game—card art, backgrounds, and character models.

please note that colors can differ between screens.

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Just finished watching Act 1 of Epic: the musical. I am loosing my mind.

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I haven’t even watched the full thing. Literally minutes ago I watched Cyno’s VA video watching the latest saga and the vocals and animation just caught me.

I’ve heard about it before but never watched it. I think I have to now.

Epic….oh my god. Oh. My. God.

Six Hundred Strikes has me ensnared.

I’m falling down the rabbit hole.

🦌 anon

I - confession time - have never really listened to a EPIC: The Musical song. But if it tickles your fancy hehe

Might check it out later hehe-

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Update: I’m feeling better now! I talked it out and I’m trying to fix my problem that brought me down. Twisted Wonderland also helped

:D

Currently in a bad mood :( ready to cry

I’m gonna go play Twisted wonderland and see if that makes me feel better. I might right for one of my fics if i really feel like it.

:(

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Currently in a bad mood :( ready to cry

I’m gonna go play Twisted wonderland and see if that makes me feel better. I might right for one of my fics if i really feel like it.

:(

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when you get this, list 5 songs you like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers ^w^

:D hi!!

In no specific order:

Not Evil from The Second Lego Movie

Alley Rose by Conan Grey

Rondo Across Countless Kalpas from Honkai Star Rail

Waltz No. 2

All Ride the Cyclone Songs—if I have to be specific: Ballad of Jane Doe and Talia are tied

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Playing through Playfull Land on TWST, I really notice how…silent the MC is.

Spoilers for Playfull Land btw.

During Ernesto’s book 4 rant about school being only for the magically elite, and those with little to no magic having it hardest with not being given options and opportunities—I REALLY wanted the MC to speak up.

I mean, Ernesto is talking big about magic schools not accepting those with little magic, and here we are, magicless and still thriving(for the most part) At said elite magic school.

We are the literal contradiction to everything Ernesto is saying yet for some reason we stay quiet. And Grim does the talking instead. And we get two dialogue options all about just spurring HIM on?! That could have been the perfect moment to intervene and say “HEY! LOOK AT MAGICLESS OL ME GOING TO THE ELITE MAGIC SCHOOL. Even without magic I find ways around. So what does that say about you?”

It really shouldn’t be that hard.

Which brings me to question WHY. Why does Twisted Wonderland never let it’s player talk? We’ve seen other games do it. Why doesn’t this game let us?

In the game app summary when you look into downloading the game, the summary speaks in a first person perspective. “Will you be able to work with them and return from whence you came?” I don’t see any working together player interactions. “You will take History of Magic, Alchemy, and Flight Classes alongside the students of Night Raven College.” I am rarely seeing any “alongside character” interactions.

It feels like I’m watching a “chose your own story” show except the only times I get to choose something is when a character can’t decide between a ham sandwich or a chicken sandwich and you chose for them. Yet the outcome doesn’t change a single bit. Not even a single piece of dialogue. Or even if it did change, it was only one line.

I have seen people play interactive story games like Twisted Wonderland and I KNOW it’s possible to do so. They’re just not doing it.

Like Ovey Me, for example. At least the MC there feels more like the MC. They speak almost regularly, with more than two choices of dialogue. And what you chose affects your relationship with the characters. It changes their reactions. The plot. TWST and OM! are also the same genre: adventure. They even LOOK similar. Even how the player chooses dialogue is similar looking.

Why? Surely the story can’t suffer that much if you put in a couple more choices or pieces of dialogue from the character reactions to those decisions. It’s as if they’re being taxed for every letter in the dialogue the player says. Like back in the days with the newspapers.

I love Twisted Wonderland, but I just wish I could feel more immersed in it.

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What day is it….oh my.

START THE COUNT DOWN, KRONK!

T minus: 3 Weeks until the Honoured Deer’s birthday.

If you don’t know…Throughout heaven and earth—I alone am the honoured deer.

December 7th is rolling around pretty soooooon 😚

Unfortunately, this means practically any and all books and items I am interested in I am barred off from buying. Because of not only Christmas, but my birthday as well. December birthdays, am I right Gojo? :)

See? He agrees! Haha, such a jokester.

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*Golden Slumbers is playing in the background*

Me: No…no homework? *looks up and stares wistfully into distance*

Me: *a singular tear falls down my cheek*

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A true writer moment:

Looking up the history of bed frames by the era to get your book’s room factually correct. Then having to look up bedsheet history and what in the world eiderdown means. After that, you have to research floral sheet designs by the era as well just to make sure you get it right. Now you’re looking up French floral sateen designs, cotton over linen, and Witney.

All past the normal person bed time. Because no one sane looks at old adds about little girls getting a doll with a quilt and eiderdown just like their mother’s at nine pm. No. They look at eleven.

Then you write the scene….and you use all that information you learned for one or two short sentences.

I’m going insane.

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I FOUND IT. THIS. THIS IS WHAT I WAS LOOKING FOR.

I've been thinking lately about Vanitas and Noé's first "what is salvation" fight at the bal masqué and what it means about their individual definitions of the concept, and I've realized something about Vanitas.

Noé's definition of salvation is the obvious one. It feels natural. To save someone is to keep them from dying. But in a way, his understanding of salvation is also almost selfish. Noé's foundational trauma is the constant loss of his loved ones. He is the eternal sole survivor. So of course he wants to keep people alive—he wants to "save" the people he cares about in the way that keeps them by his side this time.

It's not wrong to want that, of course. I don't mean "selfish" as a condemnation. It's just that the definition of salvation that Noé starts the series with is inarguably the one that best serves his own happiness.

And it's the same with Vanitas.

When Vanitas kills the little girl Catherine by restoring her true name, he tells Noé he doesn't know what salvation is. He might be lying there, or he might be telling the truth in that he's never put his definition of salvation into words or acknowledged it on a conscious level. Either way, though, I do think he has a definition of salvation somewhere in his mind, and it's a very personal one.

Vanitas sees salvation as the preservation or restoration of one's true self. You're saved so long as you can preserve your essential self, uncorrupted by outside forces. Even if the price of that selfness is death.

While Noé's foundational trauma that informs his worldview is the loss of his loved ones, one of Vanitas's foundational traumas is the loss of his bodily autonomy. Through Moreau's experiments and Luna's mark/bite, he has been transformed into something no longer fully human, and he hates it. From the moment Luna told him he was dying, he said he wanted to die as himself rather than live as their kin, and he has been denied that opportunity.

Nothing is more important for Vanitas than being able to dictate the destiny of his own body, and malnomen are the ultimate corruption of bodily autonomy and selfness. Altering one's true name warps not only their physical body, but their very being on a metaphysical level. The curse takes everything a vampire is and changes it, and doing that to an unwilling victim is the ultimate horror for Vanitas.

Given that context, of course Vanitas thinks that killing a child to restore her true name counts as saving her. He's restoring her essential self and un-corrupting her body and being, and even if her self is only returned for an instant before she dies, it's preferable to living on as something warped by an outside force.

Vanitas absolutely starts the series with a definition of salvation, and like Noé, it's the one that best serves his own happiness. He wants to be saved. He wants to be returned to his human self, and failing that (since he knows it's impossible), he wants to wipe out all traces of the force that changed him and then die without going any further down the path of inhumanity.

Vanitas might not be able to admit that definition out loud (or even to himself directly), but it's there, and it guides him early in the series as much as Noé's own definition of salvation guides him in turn.

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Ok—I need help with this before I go insane.

Around a year ago I read a really good post about a Vanitas and Noè character break down. It talked about how Vanitas really focused on his body and not wanting to be a vampire because of him being human and stuff. And for Noe it was different because, and this is fuzzy, he was more mindful and in the past. I really only remember Vanitas’s part about how his body is really important to him and it attributes to his mentality. This explanation really sucks.

But I can’t find it. I don’t remember who made it and I can’t find in in my liked posts. Scrolling would take forever and it might not even be there.

Could someone try and find the post?? I am going insane I need to read it again.

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“omg you’re so creative. how do you get your ideas” i hallucinate a single scene in the taco bell drive thru and then spend 13 months trying to write it

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Please don't stop and don't ignore, I need help. Hello, my friend, I am a Palestinian mother from Gaza. Our situation is very bad. We live in a tent that is not suitable for animals to live in. Children are injured from the war as a result of the continuous bombing. My husband is suffering from kidney failure. He performs dialysis every week. I hope you can help me and donate for their treatment and food. Please do not ignore and help others by participating. And donate ❣️,,, and donate to help us survive

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This is rough, have any advice on not fucking killing myself?

I know there are a lot of people thinking about killing themselves right now. I felt the exact same way in 2016 when he first got elected.

This is a bad thing, but to anyone having these types of thoughts, please don't do anything that can't be undone. This is the last term he can be be inaugurated, after these 4 years, or hopefully less, he will be gone. It's difficult to stay positive right now, and that's okay. You don't have to stay positive, it's okay to feel these emotions as they are. But please do not commit suicide, because if you do, you won't be able to feel any emotions ever again.

Even though I felt hopeless at the time, I am so glad that I didn't kill myself in 2016.

For my own sake, I really need the people who are upset with this election to stay alive with me