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#shadow the hedgehog#art#my art#digital art#sonic prime#sonic prime s3#sonic fanart#sonic the hedgehog#sonic the hedghog fanart#sonic prime fanart#fan art#shadow#i haven’t watched sonic prime in a hot minute but i drew thi while watching it#and then edited it cause it like#an hour ago cause it was too boring#still kinda is but oh well#how else do i tag this#trick question#i don’t add any more tags#why are you still here
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Thinking about how Diavolo’s feelings transcend time and how in the Nightbringer UR+ card Demon Lord’s Castle Tour this conversation happens.
When asked, “Do you wish to see your father?”
Diavolo responds:
“I suppose I do . . .” isn’t the typical reaction to how a child would feel about wanting to see their parent. Especially when said parent has essentially been in a coma for a year.
Along with how Diavolo describe his father.
It makes more sense why when you learn in Lesson 56 how Diavolo was treated by him growing up.
Diavolo can tell when others are lying but is unable to understand his father’s intentions.
Diavolo mentions that he lived a very sheltered life growing up. That from a young age his father never allowed him a chance to talk to anyone outside the castle.
His childhood friend was Mephistopheles. A demon literally RAISED to be his friend. Putting a barrier between the two because Mephistopheles would put Diavolo on a pedestal.
The isolating childhood he experienced riddled with his strict father constantly scolding him.
Despite everything MC is so important to him he wants to see his father again so we can meet.
#Demons and Humans can’t get married even in the present so it adds an extra layer him wanting to introduce us.#There’s a lot more you could add onto this (please do I’d love to hear other’s thoughts).#Like how Diavolo’s childhood affected him just look at the way he describes himself:#“The truth is I am a child in a way. A child who spends his time alone and never gets to do anything interesting.”#A lot of Diavolo’s poor behavior while not excused comes from his childhood.#How Diavolo admits to using his position to force others to do what he wants. Along with how he doesn’t like sharing.#Diavolo’s insecurities in his friendships with others.#Mainly Lucifer and Barbatos which makes sense with how they happened.#IE Forcing Barbatos to become his butler and the oath/deal with Lucifer regarding Lilith.#It’s clear Diavolo is very lonely and carrying a heavy burden.#I like that MCs presence is helping him change into a better person.#Also I don’t think Diavolo hates his father their relationship just isn’t good and very complicated.#Diavolo is such a wonderful character if you have any in-depth posts about him please tag me I’d love to read them!!!#I AM FILLED WITH SAPPY THOUGHTS ABOUT DIAVOLO TONIGHT!!!!#Obey Me#Obey Me Spoiler#Obey Me Nightbringer#OMSWD#Obey Me Diavolo#Diavolo#MaddyMajolish#Is it obvious I can’t sleep because I’m riddled with Blorbo thoughts
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Guys I’m being dead ass when I say this. It’s been five years- HALF A DECADE since I last watched Voltron and yet Keith Kogane stays on my mind. He won’t leave 😭
#voltron#keith kogane#vld keith#confession: I started watching the show for Keith#keith kogane x reader#tragic romance#born to marry him#cursed to read fanfics of him#AND THERE’S BARELY ANY WTF 😭#I cope by imagining him in all the fanfics I read#it was always you#but never me#you were an amazing experience#you were everything#voltron legendary defender#he was a punk#she did ballet#what more can i say#he wont leave me alone#but I don’t want him to#I’m gonna add the yandere tag just cuz#tw.yandere#yandere x reader#reader insert#ok another confession#when I read kylo ren fanfics I imagine Kylo as Keith with curly hair#ok i’m done#might as well add the kylo ren tag#kylo ren#kylo ren x reader
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Something something ToyBox Yellow Cat-
HERES JUNIEEEE (Originally named Olivia- but erm- I got over that name lmao)
Fun fact about him :D He’s a teacher’s aid! He helps kids with their homework or if they need any additional assistance. Before Leshy was kidnapped, they just started dating. I mean- like a month into their relationship-
They were supposed to go on a date the day after Leshy went to the circus </3 but ermmm- that never happened. Junie thought he stood him up- called him so many times, showed up at his house. Thennnn he got worried when nobody was answering.
#bloo’s art :)#ToyBox AU#WERE FINALLY GETTING THE OTHERS YAYAYAYYAYAYA#For my sanity- I will be doodling this as quick sketches#cause I’m#yeah I don’t wanna burn myself out-#I’m still burned out from my semester#and I don’t want to overdo it lmaooo#BUT YAAAYYYY#Feel free to send me any questions about my sillies btw! :3c I’ll be happy to answer them!#MAN I FORGOT TO ADD MORE TAGS BAHAHAHA-#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb fanart#cotl yellow cat
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I’m pitifully late to properly celebrating the spooky season, but hey at least I’ve got some cool fanart to show now lol
#YEAAAA BILLIE BUST UP ART TIME WAHOOO#I’ve only drawn Barnaby a couple times before as rushed doodles#so this is a total upgrade from that for sure!!#I was watching LaurenZsides gameplay of Still Wakes the Deep while working on rendering this#…..yea that’s all the extra tidbits I feel like offering at the moment lol#do with that information what you will#Billie Bust Up is a great indie game in development tho and I recommend the soundtrack for any musical loving nerd#guys I promise I don’t have a specific villian archetype I latch onto whaaaat nooooo totally not#uh UH UHM no further questioning allowed! /j#billie bust up barnaby#barnaby the owl#Oscar Billie bust up#a million gruesome ways to die#art of Billie bust up#hmmm debating if I wanna be discreet in posting this or purposefully add lots of tags#that’s the thing with me—I’m aware of the various ways I can get this into public perception…but do I want to be perceived is the question#eh I’ll just let it sit here stangent for now lol#feeling a tad adventurous so mayhaps I’ll add more direct searchable tags later#hplonesome art
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I love subtext gays. They’re just so fun.
#watch me unable to think of any to tag LMAO#uhhhh I guess#kiamei#bronseele#honkai impact 3rd#fluri#tales of vesperia#rinharu#free! iwatobi swim club#reancrow#trails of cold steel#I’mma tag bitches I don’t know for post traction 💀#mikleo#tales of zestiria#shuake#overwhelmingly male i do apologize 😔#feel free to tag more!#might add more later
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It’s the end of the year, so it’s time for a group photo! These are all the plushies I’ve sewn that are still in my house
I’ve been sewing for four years now and it turns out I’ve made a looooot of plushies lol
#sewing#handmade#plushies#spider plushie#octopus plushie#I don’t think any of the rest of them are visible enough in their entirety to need warnings for ‘in case you don’t want to see this’ reasons#but let me know if I need to add more tags#wait! I missed the safety manta ray!!!#oops lol#I should maybe get some of these out of my house
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I don't know if I'm the only one wondering, but I wanted to know what you think about it in your girlfriendverse or in canon.
How do dragons handle childbirth? Since riders and dragons can sense each other's feelings and pain, I wonder what they think or how they react to the whole pregnancy and childbirth thing, because no offense, but I doubt you can block your dragon properly while you give birth to a human being.
Thank you in advance and btw, I love the way you think.🩵
Take care, beautiful.✨️
ooh interesting. I hadn’t thought about that before! we need Aimsir to call in since he’s been through this three times with Lilith lol
naturally, this question raises several more questions for me about the magic system 😅
I’d imagine that if at all possible, you should have a mender on standby to block the pain, to fix you up in case of emergency, and help you recover physically afterward. but when Brennan says he “blocks” someone’s pain, it sounds like he’s just stopping them from feeling it, and not taking it away or stopping the physiological process of it, so can the dragon still sense it?
and re: dragon and rider being able to “feel” each other’s pain… does the dragon actually feel the human’s pain at the same level / location, like it’s happening to them? or is it more of a “something is very wrong with your human, go save them!” impending-doom feeling?
I think it’s implied that the dragon is better at blocking out the rider, since they’re the ones who have the magic, they’re just sharing it with their human, and they’re older and have more practice using shields etc. so they’d likely be able to muffle the pain, at least, but I imagine it would still be distressing to feel the pain + be worried about the rider dying in the process, since this is a fantasy world without modern medicine, and even for us these days, it’s still risky.
I have so many questions about the level of medical tech in FW… I don’t know how much prenatal care and tracking they can do. I imagine that it’s always a surprise if you’re having a boy or a girl, and you don’t really know much about the baby’s health until they’re born.
also… imagine how much more protective your dragon would be if you’re expecting 🥺
they reproduce differently than us but they still understand — my human is making a tiny new human inside themself. this is a long, delicate process for them and they must be protected at all costs!
Cosa and Cath are not letting anyone “suspicious” get close to Love. Dain gets a pass obviously, and so do Brennan, Duchess, Darling, and Bodhi, since that’s her inner circle. the other marked ones are thoroughly sniffed and watched closely to check their vibes, but any fliers or non-Tyrrish better back the fuck up. Cosa is gonna be extra careful on flights (a little seat belt, like Tairn did for Vi at first) and maybe even reduce the strength of Love’s signet a little bit so she doesn’t strain herself.
and heaven help everyone when Duchess has her babies. the entire riot is going to be guarding her, and even Brennan isn’t safe. she’d have to reassure some of them that he’s her mate / the father of her child, and he’s not going to hurt her. and if she had to be on bed rest, Marbh would absolutely snitch to Brennan if she tried to climb up the hill to see the riot.
“I love the way you think” is the compliment of the century. I spend way too long on ask answers and I usually cut them down about 50% every time, believe it or not. it’s a jungle in here. but I’m glad it makes sense to people lol
love ya! stay hydrated 💗
#liz.txt#answered#fourth wing#cw pregnancy#tw pregnancy#cw childbirth#tw childbirth#<- lmk if I should add any more tags! don’t wanna make anyone uncomfy#Brennan and Duchess#Dain and Love
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Have we, as a fandom, progressed to the point that we can realize that Twilight of the Apprentice, while a good episode, is not a particularly great Rebels episode and is certainly the least functional finale in the entirety of Rebels?
#like I enjoy twilight of the apprentice#but it’s largely focused on the relationship between one recurring character and a villain that is barely in the show#and that relationship is only meaningful in any way if you’ve watched a completely different show#aside from that it only resolves one of the plot threads of the season (inquisitors)#while the others (Hera becoming a leader for the Rebellion Sabine growing toward accepting her past Zeb reconnecting with his people#and finding peace and even chopper becoming a more complex character what with the introduction of his backstory and his newfound ability to#connect to others outside of the Spectres and the Rebellion growing and becoming more structured)#are completely left behind#4/6 of the MAIN CHARACTERS of the ENSEMBLE SHOW do not even appear in the SEASON FINALE#the main villains are unceremoniously killed off not by the efforts of the main characters#but by a completely new guy who you know nothing about if you haven’t watched a different only vaguely connected movie and a slightly more#connected TV show. but even then lots of stuff doesn’t add up because Ahsoka and Maul had never met before when TotA aired#at a lot of points TotA BARELY feels like a Rebels episode and more like a continuation of TCW (the Ahsoka and Vader fights$#it’s a well written episode overall hence how it manages to somehow make this work#but it’s more a resolution to TCW’s Anakin & Ahsoka dynamic than anything else#it’s not really Rebels and it’s certainly not a satisfying finale to most of the season#it just seems like it is because it plays on nostalgia and does have a strong resolution to Ahsoka & Vader#ok hot take for the night! will be watching this episode tomorrow#don’t kill me#star wars#is this the original post tag#rebels#star wars rebels#sw rebels#twilight of the apprentice
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gerard way (black parade era) black & white graphics
request by @lilac-dawn-103
#black and white is another way of saying “don’t worry about coloring” /silly#Black and white my beloved#gerard way#my chemical romance#black parade#black parade era#the black parade#mcr#<- idk much so if there’s any more tags yall wanna suggest i add for reach please do#✦ lets go paint the town
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Yeah, sure, gonna do this too. Here’s a list of some of my ships and also just some dynamics I’m really fond of:
Gonna start with my explicit romantic ships, ranging from OTP (my personal description of an OTP is a pair I cannot imagine in any other relationship) to ships I’m just very fond of.
ContraHero (duh, my OTP of all time)
ParaCold (smth of a secondary OTP, I’d say, since I also can’t imagine them in any other relationship lmao [at least, long-term])
Foreign Body (Quiet/Stranger) (I can’t imagine the heart not being Stranger, tbh, and also, smth about the both of them having a ‘monstruous’ form aksmdjddj)
Skeptunist (it’d be a slooooooww and LOOOONNNG burn, but I think the progress would be so interesting and the eventual relationship so weirdly sweet)
Ghost Lily (Spectre/Witch) (reaching OTP to me, ngl, as I can’t bring myself to be invested in other relationships involving them lmao)
Sweethearts (Smitten/Damsel) (have no problems imagining them with others, but this is still my primary ship for them)
Eternal Challenge (Stubborn/Asversary) (same situation as above)
Aaannnnd that’s it for explicit romantic pairs I think, I’m. actually a pretty picky shipper akmaksmdjkdmd
Now let’s move to what I call my OTBesties. When you ship them, but in a ‘they’re besties!!!’ way :D
Dark Comedy (Contra&Cold)
Strategy Game (Skeptic&Cheated)
Shining Shield (Hero&Para)
Bare Root (Wounded Wild&Thorn)
Nightmare&Spectre
Witch&Hunted
Hunted&Stubborn
Mending Hearts (Smitten&Broken)
Prisoner&Cold
Spectre&Paranoid
Confined Minds (Prisoner&Skeptic)
Thespians (Oppy&Smitten)
Hunted&Stubborn
Those are the ones that actively takes up more brain space, and ones which I most rotate around my head. Here’s some general dynamics I like exploring:
North Star (Cold/Oppy): their toxic yaoi wouldn’t last a year and be horrible for the both of them (mainly Oppy), and I’m all here for it.
Smitten and Skeptic, while not in OTBesties tier for me, is also a friendship I’m very fond of. I think they’d have coffee in the morning together.
Nightmare’s possible dynamic with anyone would be so interesting to explore, but especially with Tower– just. imagine the chaos
Speaking of– also Tower’s dynamic with Razor. Put her in the same room with some of the most relentless and violent vessels, I wanna see what happens
Wraith and Cheated would be an interesting dynamic when taken out from their chapter’s context tbh– Wraith is resentful because of how she’s been treated and only resorted to those drastic actions because that’s what you left her with. I think Cheated would sympathize with that and realize the hand he played (if you get him in her chapter) to get her like this.
Oppy and Hunted feel like they’d have a weirdly close and strong bond. Not OTBesties or explicitly romantic, but a secret fourth thing
Oppy and Contra have beef at first sight to me. They either completely ignore each other, or swear to make the other day’s worse, whatever they feel like atm
Also– since me and the folks in the discord started headcanon that while alive, Narrator could’ve been groomed by a cult and that’s why he has such a deep fear of death, and think eternal bliss is the best alternative for that– I’d like to see more of his dynamic with Broken. In a what-if scenario where they both got over enough of their bagage to have an actual conversation together, I think they’d have a lot to talk about.
Also, shout-out to my Happily Single Tokens, aka, characters I hc as non-partnering/not interested in romance/‘just not in the mood for it, dude’:
Cheated, Broken, Thorn (aro hc for her caught my the throat and won’t let go, I’m sorry Modeus), Prisoner, Narrator (AroAce and romance-repulsed king, tbh), and Hunted
#not me making a ship/dynamic/whatever this is list in the middle of the night lmao#too tired to draw but still wanna do hyperfixation-related stuff. and this is what came out of it ok?#stp voices#stp princess#not fuckin’ way I’m tagging everything lmao#stp headcanons#Sal Rambles#stp-posting#just don’t add polyships cuz I got monogamistic brain and it’s hard to me to visualize that lmao (love seeing other’s ot3 or more tho)#but Hunted/Broken/Stubborn is a very dear dynamic to me#realized I also didn’t add more than 2 charas in any other dynamic here aimskdkxkd#that’s just because if I start thinkin’ in more than 2 pairs. my brain’ll explode#but just imagine any intersecting pair also being put all together#anyway. it’s late. I’m tired. I should go now byyyyeeeeeeee
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ok I’ve put together a list of disability-focused books for me read while I have the Seattle library ebook card. I’m not sure what order I’m going to read them in, yet. and obviously this list is non exhaustive, it’s just what I could find & deem worth reading from a surface level glance at the blurbs right now, while I have a migraine. i fully intend to explore other topics and revisit other titles im unsure about/prioritizing lower, I have them tagged separately on Libby.
if anyone would like to join me on this journey— be it by reading/listening to the books yourself at your own pace or just following my own posts about what I read— I’m going to come up with a tag for this journey. suggestions for that are welcome, I just want it to be a near-unique tag because tumblr search is awful
(most of the titles I have selected for this list at least make a notable effort to be inclusive and intersectional, if you’re worried about that. however, I have not read any of these yet, I cannot confirm anything about their actual content. I guarantee there will be excerpts worth critique from books on this list. part of exploring these heavy social topics is critical thinking.)
my current list is as follows, in no particular order:
Fat Girls Hiking by Summer Michaud-Skug — I’m interested particularly in modifying hiking (and other outdoor activities) to be more accessible for myself, as I love hiking but find it very difficult nowadays, the book seems to be at least decently disability-informed
The Future Is Disabled by Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha — disability justice for a better future that emphasizes the value of disabled folks. overall interested to see the perspectives and rhetoric presented in this book, along with:
Care Work by Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha — I don’t think I can do this one justice in a couple lines of tumblr text. read its blurb yourself, it includes: “a toolkit for everyone who wants to build radically resilient, sustainable communities of liberation where no one is left behind.”
My Body Is Not A Prayer Request by Amy Kenny — appeals to my experience living as disabled and intersex in a rural part of the Bible Belt in an evangelical household
Disability Pride by Ben Mattlin — gonna be honest, I threw this one in without reading its blurb. regardless of its quality, I believe I should read it based off title
Crip Kinship by Shayda Kafai — this book is based around an art activism project called Sins Invalid, exploring some of the messaging of it in a disability justice framework
Against Technoableism by Ashley Shew — from what I can gather, this book touches a lot on the social model of disability
Decarcerating Disability by Liat Ben-Moshe — prison abolition and decarceration with a disability focus
QDA by Raymond Luczak — QDA stands for queer disability anthology, also threw this one in based on the title
#disability#disabled#chronic illness#chronically ill#disability justice#disabled activism#intersectionality#disability studies#theory#idk what else to tag it in terms of actual search tags sorry#if you can’t access a copy of these books for any reason let me know I’ll see what I can do#I may go back and add better descriptions of these books when I don’t have a migraine#it’s not a massive pain migraine it’s more of a dizzy cognitive fog migraine#will create a better version of this list at some point anyway#lous clues
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okay finally i know what Hobie mentally sounds like when he’s using “summat” in a sentence bc i’m watching this british(?) simmer and she’s just talking casually so she said that, and it sounds like “summin” or “summit” but it just surprised me because i was always reading it with a heavy emphasis on the “mat” part if i ever read a fic about him or i tried to read example sentences that included other british slang. so i would substitute it with “sumn” or “somethin” but now i don’t always have to. basically autism win my curiosity is satiated ^_^
#not tagging#like if i can’t hear the character speaking in my head the sentence that i’m writing then it becomes infinitely harder to write them#and i’m not talking about in-character or out of character i’m talking just any sentence#and i think it shows up in my writing i think people can tell when i can’t hear the characters talking#but now i can hear hobie talking just a bit clearer! soooo it should be easier. hopefully#like with. jeff and rio for example. when you read my writing you can tell i don’t have their voices down but i have their types down#partially bc rio sometimes speaks in spanish so that adds another layer of disconnect and ‘you do not meet the requirements to unlock this+#character’ aspect of her and also because i just. this jeff is so different from comic jeff who is much easier to write bc he’s much more +#fleshed out and in general more relatable in the person sense. movie jeff is still just a movie character to me
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Well I haven’t made one of these in a while, but it seems like we’re back to it
*sigh* okay, so basically, here’s what’s going on with my life right now
So I finished up my current semester of college this week. I was on academic probation this semester due to my poor grades the semester before, and to fix this, I needed to: get my GPA up above a 2.0 once more, take a mandatory workshop during the semester, and have at least one meeting with my academic advisor throughout the semester. Once I did all that, or at least finished all the meetings, I would have my hold of my account removed and I could register for my next semester’s classes
But here’s the thing. I did the first two, I’ve gotten pretty good grades this semester, As and Bs in my classes (even if grades aren’t finalized yet, I highly doubt that it’ll change from that from when I saw them before finals). But I never met with my academic advisor throughout the entire semester. So I still have that hold on my account. And the semester’s over, so I don’t know what that means for me going forward
I tried looking for what would happen if I miss those meetings, and right now I’m not sure, but what I do know is “failure to meet the requirements of academic probation can result in suspension or dismissal from the university”. And so now I’m terrified that because I missed those meetings, I won’t be able to return next semester
But specifically what makes it so bad is that I had fully intended to come back next semester, I was not preparing for not being able to go back this semester. And worst of all, I told my parents that I had everything sorted out for next semester when they picked me up a couple days ago, I just had a hold on my registration because I hadn’t met with my advisor yet. Which isn’t untrue, but what I failed to mention to them is that I was supposed to do these meetings during the semester, not after, and that I was required to do them. So if I were to tell them the truth, they’d know I’d have lied to them
I know for a fact that the worst thing I do in their eyes is when I have a problem, but then I hide it from them and lie to them about it, saying everything’s fine when it isn’t, and only revealing the truth at the last second, meaning they have to scramble to try and get everything fixed. This is literally the main problem I had with them the last semester and two, and why my last couple days of summer felt horrible because I hadn’t applied for my loan this last semester yet and I had found out that day when they asked that the place I had been getting loans from was no longer doing them
It was supposed to be different this semester, I was supposed to not fuck it up. And yet I’m doing the same thing I did before, I haven’t learned my lesson at all. And when they find out, they won’t let me go back, I’m sure of it. They didn’t really want me going back to college this semester either, because of all that had happened prior, so this new wrench in everything might just be what makes them fully say I’m not going back
And by the way, not a lot of this is hyperbole, at least not that last paragraph. A number of these things they did say to me. They’ve said verbatim that the problem is that I lie and hide things, and that I do it over and over again. I’m not just making stuff up, I know it’s what they’d say because they have before
I want to go back, I like it there. My best friend goes there, and quite frankly, I feel like I need her in my life more than anyone else. And I may not talk to a lot of people, at least not as much as I should, but I enjoy being around other people and at least getting the chance to talk to them. I like taking walks around campus, I like being able to go to the store and buy whatever I want whenever I want. I like being a person here and not stuck in my room, stuck with the same three people and basically only doing things when I’m told I have to. I just can’t take online school, I go mad now staying 4 months here in the summer
And what makes it even worse is that this whole situation was so avoidable. It really would have been no problem to just schedule appointments with my advisor, it would be so easy. The other things were probably the more difficult things to accomplish in all honesty. But I genuinely forgot about them until Thanksgiving, and I just couldn’t be bothered after that, because the entire semester whenever I did remember it, I thought, “I’ll have time to make that appointment eventually”, up until now when I don’t. It’s all my fault this is happening because I was so lazy I never bothered to do it. There’s no one to blame but myself for all this
I sent an e-mail to the account I think I’m supposed to send it to about my probation, explaining the issue of missing my meetings. They don’t respond on weekends, so I have to wait until Monday to get a response because I sent that email at 11 PM on Friday. So I’ve at least started to work it out
And a part of me recognizes that maybe I’m just overblowing things in my head; again, this was probably the least important thing I needed to do, especially since we were supposed to meet with our advisors to work on improving our grades, and I’ve done that all on my own this semester. So maybe it really won’t be that bad, and everything will work out
But I’m terrified it won’t, that I’ll have thrown everything down the drain for something so small, and that I’ll be found out and have to deal with last summer all over again. It was supposed to be different this break, I could finally rest from everything, and literally my own mistakes have brought it all down
I feel like it’s been eating me alive these past two days, especially at night when my brain thinks more about it. But I can’t tell anyone, since my brother won’t really understand, and I’ve already listed why I can’t tell my parents. And it just makes it worse, because I have to be alone in this lie. There’s no one to tell, to assure me things will be fine, there’s only me. Which is probably why I’m posting it here, at least you people aren’t part of my real life to make me feel worse
I don’t know if I can keep it up for another day or two. My dad hasn’t come and asked me about the situation today, but I feel like he will tomorrow, especially if we go out tomorrow, which I assume will happen since we didn’t today. And by the way, I’m a pretty bad liar and I crack under pressure, so “keeping it up” means literally avoiding my parents whenever possible. I have the trick of staying under my blanket when they come over to my door, because I’ve somehow confused them into believing I was asleep/taking a nap, but I won’t always be listening in and prepared to use it at a moment’s notice, they can creep up on me. Or again, if we go out, it will be something my dad asks about. My parents don’t really like to ask me about normal non school/stress related things unless they think I’m in the clear. Which at this point is less frequent and they already have something to question me on. And I know I’ll just bury myself further and get them more mad if things don’t work out, but I can’t take them being mad at me either and causing them more problems, especially since I’ve already been lying about the situation, just not as much as I would be if I lie tomorrow as well
Why did I have to do this, why do I have to be such a horrible person? Why couldn’t I have just done this before, there would be no problem otherwise
#and to add yet another thing I didn’t get anyone Christmas presents yet either#I mean I got my brother one thing that he asked me for but it was also like $5 and something you could buy any day#and I have an income now and was planning on buying them things#but I didn’t so yet more salt in the wound from me#especially since I can’t drive to go out and get things myself#I know it’s not really related to everything else I mentioned above#but it’s more of me being a horrible lazy person and just causing problems by my inaction#especially when I had time I was just too lazy to do it#why do I have to be so horrible?#real life stuff#school stuff#long post#I guess?#I don’t remember what I used to tag these anymore#it’s funny because a couple weeks ago I was thinking about how I hadn’t made one of these in a long time#and how I haven’t cried myself to sleep this semester unlike the last two semesters and breaks#I haven’t done the latter yet but here I am doing the former#*sigh*
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heartbreaking: beloved mutual reblogs obvious propaganda and dogwhistles but ur too emotionally attacked to block them
#guys please i am begging u think for a second before reblogging the most antisemitic shit i’ve ever heard disguised as antizionism#yes israel sucks but remember alotta ppl hate them more for being jewish than committing genocide#and if ur gonna be reblogging alotta stuff abt this u gotta be careful abt what kinda stuff ur reblogging#i honest to god do not have the energy for this#please for the love of everything ever think before reblogging that “israel’s stealing baby blood and hamas is good actually” shit#i have these tags blocked for a reason but those badly disguised nazis can’t even tag right#im so fucking sick of this i don’t wanna have to make this post everytime i see smthn on my dash that u could find on a neo-nazi site#antisemtism#tell me if i need to add any extra tags to this btw
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