#i do enjoy that fear in their eyes
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corvidaedream · 2 years ago
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frequently I will say to myself, especially in tourist-heavy times, i would like a more serious job at a more serious museum where members of the public do not keep touching me inappropriately
but, unfortunately, my coworkers are so fun and kind and have created such a positive little pocket of queer community that idk if i could bear to leave unless something big changes
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whumpitisthen · 4 months ago
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Leashed to the floor by a short lenght of chain. The chain has just enough give to let them scramble back just a couple inches, low to the ground on their hands and knees, when they get scared. They can't even look up from how hard the unforgiving leash pulls their neck back towards the ground unless they stay where they are supposed to, right where whumper wants them to be.
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milkbreadtoast · 2 months ago
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yoohyunie chibi doodles... trying to learn how to draw him🥺❤️‍🔥
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cranberryculprit · 1 year ago
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Mable hanets anyeon
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xxplastic-cubexx · 11 days ago
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was thinking about your post about erik being a whimpering mess when he's about to come and first of all you're SO right also i love this dynamic of bossy bottom charles and service top erik bc i think erik (based on looks/first impressions/personality cause i think it works for both comics!cherik and movieverse!cherik) would think charles is shy/submissive and then he's baffled (in the best possible way) to know that charles is actually a freaky freak in bed, and the opposite goes to charles, he'd think erik super dominant in bed when in reality he's extremely attentive and in tune with his partner's needs, almost shy in the way he's so careful and polite (i mean have you seen canon erik that man is built like a refrigerator) and just erik "i destroy everything i touch" mindset in general, he'd be very very careful with charles. ANYWAY what i was thinking is: charles bossing erik around on the bed and being such a massive dirty talker and it turns erik on SO MUCH he starts to lose focus on what's he's doing!!!!!!!! like charles being super vocal in bed and not being able to shut the fuck up because he cant stop babbling about how erik makes him feel so good and how big he is or how good erik is for him or how he wants to have erik inside him all the time and since erik is so dedicated to charles' pleasure he wants charles to come first but but charles keeps clenching so tight around him and moaning non stop and it feels so good !!!!! he's trying so hard !!!!!! all the metal in the room is also screaming with charles and erik is not even aware of losing control of his powers until they're done and the scent of melted metal makes him jump a little
asks like these are so dangerous for me cause when i say i just sat here for like twenty minutes thinkina these two suckin and fuckin like crazy...... PEAK !!!!!
#nsft#snap chats#I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH#i like my fickle ass cause i do enjoy Moderately Cocky erik but i also enjoy him wanting to be slow at first#but charles Not At All making it easy for him to do that Dare I Say egg him on to not be so tentative#its dangerous territory tho.... does charles really want to test erik like that... CAN he handle all that...#cause NOW theres that tasty twist where charles Does get overwhelmed and now he's having trouble making coherent sentences#playful teasing and goading melting into gasps and moans .. i fear a perfect chance for erik to flip the script if he so desired#yk HIS turn to poke charles a bit- he DID say he didnt want erik to hold back no... he can barely keep his eyes open now whats all this the#ai but the best is when charles does put his money where his mouth is and guides/encourages erik all throughout while they fuck#the thing is i can just imagine charles smirkin the whole time tho.. Wretched Smirk Of His and all and it WILL drive erik mad#see this is why Ultimately dom charles rules out in my brain ..... prick he is ..... i must see erik bend to him so effortlessly#SEE i enjoy the notion that erik underestimates just how into charles can get#like he's a bit of a flirt he can definitely be forward when he wants to and when that energy is kept up#ESPECIALLYYY with someone like erik- both in character and. Size jVLKAEJKJ its like OH.... ok 😳#i have gone on TOO LONG. i must cease ....#tldr GOOD SHIT GOOD SHIT RIGHT THERE 🎉🎉🎉🎉
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sysig · 1 year ago
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"Could I have your hand, sir?" Max didn't move, which Dexter was, sadly, getting used to.
"Sir?" Max jerked, then turned and stared at him, lost and blank. "Your hand, please."
Max's hand lifted shakily, and he laid it gently in Dexter's upturned palm. Dexter gave a quick and quiet "thank you," then turned it over in his own hand, observing him closely.
Too closely - his knuckles were rough and his fingernails were dull and cracked in places. His once-soft, not-a-day-in-his-life-subjected-to-hard-labour hands were now, already, toughened and split and scarred in places, especially the heel of his palm. He turned it over again, this time to stop looking so intensely. He had only wanted to give it a cursory glance to begin with.
"Do you know what I see, sir?" he asked as conversationally as he could manage, running his fingers along Max's abused flesh. He seemed to be at least half paying attention, his eye gazing down between them, and he'd occasionally twitch, encouragingly Dexter thought. He seemed to want to curl around him, then stopped and shook, his hand squeezing into a fist. Dexter coaxed him back out, encouraged him to hold himself lightly.
"What do you see?" He was almost startled by Max actually continuing their conversation, that happened so rarely now, shaking and quiet as it was. He took a deep breath, was he really going to do this?
"I see a hand, with five fingers." Max remained quiet, though his brow curled, and a guarded look came into his eye, though he still wasn't looking at Dexter. He felt a pang of guilt, but he had to try. "What do you see?"
Max's eye unfocused and began to water. He looked up, but not enough to reach Dexter's gaze in return, instead staring through his chest, and he felt just as hollow and empty as he must look to him.
"Do you take me for a fool, DAX?" Quiet and as close to angry as he'd heard since they'd been here.
No, not angry.
Betrayed.
He swallowed down the stinging lump at the back of his throat. He had to put on a brave face, had to keep his composure if he wanted Max to get better. That was the only thing he wanted, more than anything.
"Of course not, sir. Genuinely, what do you see?"
Max pulled his hand away and turned his body, his bandaged side facing Dexter. Shutting him out, pointedly. Dexter's empty hand curled into a fist, he was no better.
"Please, don't..." Max took a shallow, shuddering breath, and several beats before he spoke again, even quieter. "Don't ridicule me." Dexter could hear his breath catch, and he wanted nothing more than for this all to just stop.
"Sir, I didn't-"
"I've had enough of that." He shook his head stiffly, the action strange and wrong, like he had forgotten how. He stilled, his head turned even further away. "More than enough."
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#ZEX#Dexter Favin#And a drabble-fic under the cut#I ended up writing that the night after I read - I was a bit too inspired while busy so it's a little on the unfocused side haha#I would've cleaned it but I worry it wouldn't make it out of that stage! Please enjoy it for now <3#This set is mostly periphery ideas - inspired by events rather than directly shown ♪ I suppose the first two kinda count tho#But they're more directly of the little scene I wrote ouò Poor ZEX </3#And Dex! He's usually so capable! But he's stretching himself so thin ahh it's hard to watch in the best way#Of course he doesn't want to give ''Max'' over to just anyone - anyone at all really - both of their trusts have bottomed out#But how much could he reasonably care for him in that state? When he's still being actively haunted and most importantly - Not Max#He needs helps he needs support he needs to sleep and shower but a second with his eyes off Max and - then what? He'll immolate from fear#It's hard to imagine him crying but pushed to this extreme? To the thought of losing Max utterly and completely? Hhhhh#I do also just love him being possessive even outside of how terrible the situation is - he's always had his glimpses but this situation#Brings out the worst in him <3 In terrible ways#Really his method is just setting ''Max'' up nearby and prompting him over the sound of the shower like that's not nerve-wracking at all#Like he already doesn't answer half the time if that#As for the mini fic I was really interested in Dex's line about indulging ''Max's'' delusions#Apart from the fact that they're not delusions - not that anyone believes him outside of the Institute - what it means to indulge is weird#I saw one example of how to handle delusions that stuck with me - how not to deny them outright while also not reinforcing them#Since it's not actually helpful to be told ''That isn't Really happening to you'' when to you - to ZEX - it really is! How invalidating#And so rather to take the approach of ''I don't see/feel/hear what you are - I can't find any evidence of it myself'' and extrapolating#Dex taking the approach of ''What reality are you experiencing right now?'' and trying to build from there!#Unfortunately ZEX has already been treated like....well like all that - he's not in the mood for games even well-intentioned ones#He /knows/ he's in a human body. He can feel that and see that and understands that. It doesn't change who - what he /is/#The idea of a completely broken ZEX is so sad to me :( He's so strong and prideful and vivacious - Max really is another him </3#It's not the same but he was saved from death! To fall into torture... But even despite that I want to see him succeed! As much as he can#Even in that small and shaking way I want to see him be hateful and spiteful - angry. Powerful <3 Fighting ♥
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purple-egg-yolk · 3 months ago
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More on the Cosmere tma crossover:
Venli would be the number one ritual hater, right up there with Gertrude. Oh you want to bring your evil gods back into this world? I’m sure that won’t cause the end of your civilization as you know it.
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jimbalaiee · 1 year ago
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I wish that who uses only "she/her" or "he/him" referring to Mizu kinda get the drip that Mizu isn't neither a man nor a woman.
That whoever is using only one of these pronouns is actually seeing that Mizu is kinda beyond gender shit, and any other category.
So when using those are all in a genderqueer/genderfuck way. When calling them girlfriend or man or bf is in an ironic way.
I really wish I'm not seeing people thinking Mizu is a woman just bc they are AFAB or bc "this trope is ant-women" terf's shit. Cuz I guarantee that Mulan (1998) and Blue Eye Samurai (2023) aren't being feminist in a simple "We Can Do It, too" way, but rather "See, gender roles are stupid and fuck you if you think that genderqueer people don't exist and people are only MAN or WOMAN."
Man, I really hate when people look at a genderqueer story and think only in binary. Adult Mizu could have been a woman if they really were one, cuz the point of they being perseved as a boy was only to be more difficult to find them as a kid, when their mom couldn't protect them with her hands or power, cuz she had none.
I think that when they were in the wife role, they weren't really performing it as a woman, but more like a duty commonly attributed to wife (more like my father being the cook in the house and a really good caretaker who is really considering and cute, and also being the dad figure, when my mom is in the finances business of the house and isn't the best caretaker of all times...) and for they mom respect and consideration, cuz they loved her and wanted to show their love, retributing by marry that guy.
But they were rejected by their mom and their husband, when being their own singular self. When showing they weren't the wife, neither the woman people thought they should be.
Yes, they suit a masc appearance and mannerisms, but it seem dehonest to call them a man. They really don't perform a man image.
Just like non binary transmasc or butches... We aren't really men just bc we are mascs. And we aren't really, by the book, women, solely by the fact we are AFAB.
Why? Cuz it is just like that. Gender isn't the binary we were thought and I wish everyone a really good search and thinking on genderqueer thesis and documents, already documented discussions and a read on "Butch Blues", a watch on "Tomboy", etc.
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flufflecat · 6 months ago
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Another day, another suspiciously yellow and black animal showing up that i have named Bill.
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This poor injured swallowtail was in the backyard, so i offered him a variety of flowers then moved him to a safe spot since i cant really do more to help him. He kept trying to climb my arms, but i politely asked him not to try to crawl on my face and i think he agreed.
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When I was grabbing some flowers down the road, there was also a flock of goldfinches flitting around the thistles to add to my yellow-animals tally, but i couldn't get any good pics of them.
Between the goldfinches that have shown back up for the first time since june, this butterfly, and Bill the Caterpillar (who has since crawled off somewhere), I'm starting to debate whether spending the past 2 weeks joking about being possessed by bill cipher was a good idea.
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Also i came face to face with a deer while out alone last night and i didn't like the way she took a step toward me when i held my hand out. She bowed to me so i bowed back and after about a minute of staring she decided to wander away.
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rpfisfine · 1 year ago
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what hunter s thompson book would u recommend for a chubby white boy with a blog
obsessed with this ask ok fear and loathing is a must read obviously.... then hell's angels, the curse of lono, the great shark hunt and if you want like a shorter essay as an introduction then definitely the kentucky derby is decadent and depraved
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compassmili · 2 months ago
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I started P3 and Haunting Ground this week
#I have so so so soooooo many thoughts on Haunting Ground my experiences really shape how I'm viewing it and it's definitely different than#the devs intended but#The horror of being a woman and always being lusted after! Unseen eyes always there! Sighs. Fiona girl I get you#And I really enjoy how she isn't some super strong and cold horror protag. She's so fucking afraid. She can have panic attacks as an actual#game mechanic#Also I've heard that ppl dislike her lack of agency but like. While the devs just did it bc old game we can't let women make their own#choices it's like. Her lack of agency plays into the narrative!!!! The game is about her being stalked and her lack of safety!!!! And with#She is literally being sought in order to be sexually assaulted. It makes SENSE for her to lack agency. Because that is what happens when#you are in these situations.#And people disliking how her safety relies on Hewie... I haven't finished the game so I haven't seen the primary scene that contributes to#this thought but I actually really like Hewie-#Hewie's prescence and protection of Fiona*#Because when everyone wants to harm you only animals are left. Because if treated right they wont hurt yoh#Ngl expecting Fiona to be super emotionally strong and capable and like do everything herself when she is being fucking stalked is. Stupid.#Fiona feels like they took my feelings regarding my trauma and put it into a game. Her fear and how the game views her in such a voyeuristic#way. How the ''Coast Clear!'' never actually means youre safe. The animal companion being the only stability and comfort. Always running.#⛪️
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caguaydreams · 4 months ago
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Hm... never trust how you feel about your life past 9pm or however that goes and stuff, but sometimes I do be pondering what I do on the regular and it gets to me, the silliest things
#I'm once again getting anxious over putting myself out there in every sense I can think of#Socially. Business-wise. Art-wise#if there is one trait I dislike about myself the most in the past few years—#is that for whatever reason I have a tendency to be way too open about myself and what I feel#it could be annoying. It could be tmi (I dislike that concept). It could scare people off because I'm too forward and I fuck up#I spent a big chunk of my late childhood -> teenage years -> early adulthood putting a tamper on my emotions and what I'm passionate about#and now I'm oscillating between being unable to do otherwise and being thoroughly exhausted of suppressing... anything#I genuinely don't want to do it no more and the problem is that I have no idea how to navigate the opposite end of that conduct#I feel like I'm constantly messing it up. I have no experience but I am so tired and now incapable of masking#more like my body and mind are uncooperative and refuse to keep on putting up an act. It was always a way to support others#but I disregarded myself most of the time. I don't know how to enjoy myself in front of people I love without feeling guilt or shame#I feel like I'm overstepping or being disrespectful. How do you do it#it should come easy#Heh... I'm even embarrassed to voice sincere praise to artists I admire because I never know if what I'm saying could be perceived as —#—cringey or if it makes someone slightly uncomfortable. I'm tired of being clueless about a whole dimension of social interaction#and possibly coming across as inept. I could've sworn for the longest time that I was doing it right#and I can't be sure now#I want to share my work with others but I'm always hesitant and petrified by fear of all the potential ramifications that path could have#There's so much I want to do#why does the world seem so hostile to my eyes I genuinely don't know. It makes no sense. None of that is real#Annnnnd that sure is some venting#Sheesh#Hm. Funny how tumblr keeps on being this perfect void where you can just scream into without a single worry#I should go to sleep
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whoviandoodler · 2 years ago
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[Image description: a digital drawing of Thomas from Transatlantic holding Varian's hand and kissing his fingers while crying. We only see Thomas's face and their two hands covered in dripping blood. Behind them are black shards with designery red eyes on them. The pieces is coloured in desaturated blues with red accents. End description.]
We all have blood on our hands.
#transatlantic#lovefry#varian fry#thomas lovegrove#so uhhhh yeah if anyone remembers me saying i was sketching some ideas to do w how they met this is one of them#i started getting too many ideas in the middle of it so i kind of lost the original vision but thats ok bcs experimentation baby#basically the first idea was to have knives in the bg but then i was like glass shards bcs of the beer glass that was probably shattered#and bcs its less complex than a knife while still signifying violence (wanted simpler elements in this bad boy)#and then the eyes are all the people who just watched and the red signifies the underlying violence of being a silent observer#in these kinds of situations#and then i got distracted w thomas's suit lol bcs i accidentally did stripes and i was like omg criminal symbolism#and then i was like ok what if they werent normal stripes (bcs that strict angularity is more a part of varian's symbolism)#but instead were more scale-like bcs thomas is resilient but his throat is open bcs a part of his resilience is a lack of fear#of vulnerability#see what i mean by got distracted lol#it doesnt belong in this piece bcs it almost creates a second accent colour when red is meant to be the only one#but id love to do something w it in a different piece#thanks for coming to my ted talk it has to be in here bcs ill see this in 6 months having forgotten everything#and i hope u enjoy the drawing bcs if i cant be completely happy w it (artist disease) at least someone else might enjoy it#artist brain insists i shouldnt share it but i must face the horrors in order to grow /hj
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coloursofaparadox · 1 year ago
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#ive lost like all fear of dogs at this point. i realized that earlier today when a massive rottie started a fight with my boy#and my first instinct on seeing flying teeth was to sprint towards them and shove my body in between#its very possible it was also just all self preservation leaving my body because i am absolutely going to protect my pup#i would probably fight a bear for him there is no question that i would forcibly shove another dog off with my forearm#but fuck. despite the fact that i /know/ better sometimes i have a real real bad fatigue week and i use dog parks. i have like.#a selective list of ones that i will go to categorized by 'least likely to become a boxing ring'. tons of space. multiple separate areas.#i go only at off times when its not busy! i watch dog body language and keep an eye on him at all times.#ill rotate areas if i spot a potential problem. i have him under verbal control and wouldnt even be there if i didnt. but! like!#despite all that. just fucking anyone can go there. 'oh your dogs a puppy thats why my dog attacked him!' idgaf.#speaking as someone who has raised a reactive dog. if your dog is reactive why in the absolute hell would you take them to a dog park.#why!!! lif your dog is consistently fighting other dogs why would you do that! it does not matter if he 'only attacks dogs that arent fixed'#he is still obviously not having a good fucking time and is not going to enjoy this environment holy shit#just. gggHHGGH. i avoid off leash parks as much as i can already but. fuck. idek the point of this im just.#still a bit riled over having to physically throw myself in the middle of a dog fight while the other owner did absolutely nothing.#like just hovered! while his dog was pinning mine and teeth flying attacking and was actively fighting me trying to keep him off#when i can afford it im gonna find some sort of dog group walk/hike thing instead i do not want to socialize my boy like this#i am tired and very very upset because my boy looked so scared and i swear to god if you arent grabbing your dog i will fight it myself#fuck dude. fuck dog parks and fuck me for knowing better and still using em anyways.
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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago
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I am sad you deleted the post for it was good and true and funny but I am glad I caught it in the minute it was up... teehee...
Admittedly I Don't Know Anything and was just making the most basic "wow 'light' and 'shadow' twins"/"wow Masato trans and may as well literally be a changeling baby" associations so I will defer to you <3 I agree though and I too Like Samarie and am obsessed with that clip of Olivia <3
I was actually thinking domination soul RGGJo (again incredibly basic "Casca = D'arce = RGGJo's natural leadership+combat ability and also the idolization/weird secondhand ambition WRT Arakawa" association) so... The DNA Is There Is It Not... it could work for any of them methinks... not sure yet about Y7Jo though...
one day ill make a trans masato post and keep it up longer than twenty seconds.. <- doubt
I THOUGHT YOU HAD A THESIS IN MIND ALREADY its why i thought so hard... nevertheless i will continue thinking...
domination soul sounds fair for RGGJo with that thought process No Notes there... as for Y7Jo Unsurprisingly i have a few ideas: im ping ponging between the likes of tormented and blank.....
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mohfamily · 19 days ago
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🌟 A Plea from Gaza: Rola’s Story 🌟
Hello, my name is Rola, and I am a mother of two children living in the Gaza Strip. Our lives were once filled with love, laughter, and dreams for the future. But everything changed on October 7th, when the war shattered not only our home but our entire world.
That morning, my family and I were enjoying coffee together on the balcony. Out of nowhere, an explosion erupted, shaking our home violently. My husband and son ran for cover, falling over each other in panic, while I stood frozen, still holding my cup, unable to process the chaos around me. When I looked out the window, I saw that our neighbor’s house, once filled with life, had been reduced to rubble. Ambulances rushed to the scene as people scrambled to rescue the injured and pull bodies from the debris.
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The bombings didn’t stop. At night, the rain poured heavily, and the cold seeped into our bones. I stayed awake, covering my children to keep them warm and praying for their safety. But safety is an illusion here. Another explosion shattered the night, and our neighbors’ home was destroyed. Their children, who had been sleeping peacefully under a blanket, were found lifeless, their cover soaked in blood.
I looked at my children with tears in my eyes and thought, How can I protect you? We had to flee our home with nothing but the clothes on our backs. We left behind my children’s toys, their clothes, and their beautiful bedroom. Everything we had worked so hard to build is gone.
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Our Current Reality Now, we are displaced and living in a nightmare. Food is scarce, and prices are unimaginably high—$10 for a kilo of sugar! The fear of death hangs over us constantly. My children deserve a life of joy and hope, not one defined by fear and loss. Why can’t we live like everyone else—go to work, visit family, and watch our children play in safety? Why do our children have to grow up surrounded by death and destruction?
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