#i can eat when i’m hungry!

[brothfan1997]

god i love being unemployed. i’m just gonna say it

[shibaraki]

STATUS UPDATES:

➯ FICSFORGAZA [!]

I am currently dealing with a family emergency and my ma has been rushed into hospital so I’ll be offline until things calms down, and progress on wips will slow considerably. I’m really sorry guys

➯ GOING INTO 2024

2023 has been rough for me in all manner of ways but I will say it has been very fruitful with regards to my writing. I managed surpass my goal of 100k words, reaching an unfathomable 150k at present, and I’ve even managed to hit a big milestone when it comes to my following! I’m extremely grateful to all my readers, both those that have stuck with me and those who are new, and I wish I had adequate words to really express that. but going into 2024 I will likely be writing less frequently than I did this year. this is due to my own health, and a multitude of other problems that I can no longer keep on the back burner.

plenty of you have seen mentions of hospital visits and procedures on my blog, and while I’m not very comfortable oversharing about medical stuff I do want to be transparent about the fact that I will be posting fics less because of it. I’ve been in and out of semi hiatus for the better part of 4 months but I was always awful at sticking to it. next year I want to actually give myself grace, and take care of my body.

please do not fear!!! this resolution actually aligns perfectly with my writing goals for 2024. I want to focus on lengthening my word counts. I’d love to post fewer fics, but to have said fics be 25 to 50k respectively, rather than to post a lot of 1 to 15k fics. mostly I want to work on my own impatience when it comes to writing, and berate myself less for what I think I should be doing writing-wise. I will still be around on here, and I always want to talk with you guys (and read whenever the mood strikes!!), the biggest difference is I’ll have longer projects, and you’ll have to wait for them (though if I’m honest I will likely still post a shorter fic here and there lol).

I appreciate the patience a lot of you have already shown me this year, what with my random breaks and gaps between posting. you have all been so so kind and generous with your praise and I wouldn’t be here, writing and sharing, without that support. I love you all and wish you well going into the new year!!!!!

[saturn-sends-hugs]

hhhhghghghgghggg guess who has a massive presentation tomorrow that they’re stressing out overrrrrr

[kat-in-a-pan]

So I’ve been living with undiagnosed adhd for my whole life, and I didn’t realize it was adhd until my mom was diagnosed and other people in my family. I had learned from a young age how to cope with it and still succeed at school and overall life. But once college started it got out of hand and I couldn’t focus for more than 5 minutes without needing to fidget or do something else. I finally found a doctor that actually listened to my concerns and actually cared about finding ways to help me. I bit the bullet and decided to start adhd meds to see if they would help. I got them yesterday and today I took them for the first time… guys… I’m crying in the restroom at school cause I could immediately feel when the meds started to work, the pressure on my chest released and my brain just chilled out… you’re telling me that I could’ve felt better way earlier… if my other doctors just listened to me and not put it anxiety and depression (now I know I have both, but adhd in women can manifest as depression and anxiety, especially if it’s not being handled for a long time) but oh my god… I can actually focus for longer periods of time now, I actually had the motivation to get school work done way before the due date instead of the day it’s due… this is going to change how I handle school ESPECIALLY NURSING SCHOOL and life in general….

I guess what I’m trying to get at is, if you can, PLEASE find a doctor that will actually listen and help you, instead of brushing you off… I thought all doctors were bad (ironic since I’m in nursing school) but going to a private practice has helped me change my life one step at a time. Friends, please take this advice as it’s not too late to ever start working on your physical and mental health. Mental health gets pushed to the side so much and it’s time to make a change…

[warmpeachxo]

Bro

Why am I always hungry

[shatterthefragments]

(currently overwhelmed bc of having to entertain mum while i needed to get ready for bed so I’m just. Hopefully going to fall asleep. And thinking of all that I have to do this weekend. And hoping to hell I don’t get sick from my family. I know for sure dad won’t be wearing a mask while he drives (three others are joining in his car) and he’s a pall bearer too so he has other duties indoors and it is SO BAD right now and I can’t afford to get sick again. I’ll probably have no short term disability left to take if I do. If I don’t even have the energy I won’t be able to go to my shows even if I can somehow afford them. I won’t be able to see my friend there. I won’t be able to get more tattoos (for Completeness I need at least one more to make a dozen this year)

And fuck. I’m even like. A bit worried about trying to get donuts so I can give my sister a birthday donut or few (bc she likes them, we weren’t able to do any donut days this summer, and they’re reasonably affordable)

…also I might have to drive when 爸爸 is off on his pall bearer duties. In the Bad City. With several people that will talk. And that I almost definitely can’t loop. Say. Ashnikko’s Worms ad nauseam (for them) like I did last time I drove that city. The aunt who could drive is recovering and probably shouldn’t tbh. The other aunt doesn’t navigate there. And as long as all my passengers shut up ish (a few don’t speak English which is fine except I need to be able to drive so I need the cars occupants on my terms in stressful environments especially) and get real cool real quick about me taking the long way (I miss exits and turns and shit) I mean. It’s possible. It’s ridiculously stressful (even just thinking about it) and. I’m trying to reduce stress wherever possible bc FUCK I don’t ever want to have Those stress dreams where I’m dying because of it again. I want to want to live. I want to live.

[mars-ipan]

so glad i made this zucchini bread thank god

[what-even-is-sleep]

Trying to get ahead of an unsustainability cycle that might be starting up this week,,, (I start work).

[spoofyleaf]

My bearded dragon turned 11 this month! What an old lady, I’m so proud of her for being alive this long!! Within the last year, we had a scare (she had a rough brumation) and I whole heartedly thought I was going to lose her. But she’s still kicking!! Still loves the attention from people and snuggling up with Valentine (one of my beagles).

[peapod20001]

I’m the type that can and will cry if think too hard <3

[fizzytoo]

i forgot i can just like take snacks w me anywhere. new way to trick my anxiety

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

being sick as an adult sucks. wdym my mom won’t just automatically make sure I eat food instead of exclusively drinking Gatorade all day. wdym I have to ask my roommates to make me dinner. I have to Venmo a friend money to buy me more Gatorade?? I can’t focus enough to do homework??? I hate this.

[wigglesforsquiggles]

spent 2h+ cleaning the shared kitchen, and forgot to actually make food. and now someone else is in there cooking. and probably not going to clean up after themselves. yay.

[ionlycareaboutyou]

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[knife-em0ji]

Do you ever take a chance on a pre packaged sandwich from a national chain and get absolutely fucked up by how good it is. Anyway I could eat the falafel-tomato salsa broodje from panos every day for the rest of my godforsaken life

[rosicheeks]

😂