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gonna say, something or someone being misogynistic is on its own a good enough reason not to like it or not to spend time with that person. It's not just that misogyny is so normalised that not watching a show or not spending with someone just because of misogyny is treated as not enough of a reason - it's also that as a woman, you are under constant scrutiny and constantly thrown tests to show that you are 'not one of the difficult ones', that you can 'take a joke'.
But 'your friend keeps saying degrading things about women' is a good enough reason not to hang out with that person or not to go to a gathering. 'i read the last book by his author and it was deeply misogynistic' is a good enough reason why you don't want to read things by that author anymore. 'This comedian specifically makes a lot of mean-spirited jokes about women' reason enogh not to watch that or see that show, even if your friends want to go. 'This content creator keeps going on weird tangents about women' reason enough not to watch their stuff or support them.
and it is especially a very good reason not to date someone.
#last night i rewatched hbomberguy's plagiarism video and I kept noticing how many female supporters James Somerton had#despite being such a giant misogynist#and this sent me down this mental rabbithole of how often it happened that we had a guy in our friend group who was rude/weird with women#but it was just an issue everyone danced around#and I feel like part of the reason is that misogyny alone is not considered a good enough reason not do something#and I can already see counter-arguments like 'so you're saying I CAN'T enjoy xyz'#I'm aware that it's impossible to cut out everything misogynistic and that you would miss out on a lot of great works if you do#but I'm trying to get out of the habit of immediately hedging what I'm saying and describing every case scenario exception#I'm not saying that you aren't allowed to do something you want to (who am I to do that)#I'm saying that IF you DON'T want to do something because of misogyny - that's reason enough#if something you do in your free time and should be for your enjoyment is so uncomfortable and becomes a chore you are doing for others#you don't have to.#and then the last one. the whole can of worms of how many women date men who hate women...
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Newsies 1992 being so bad (according to critics) that Disney LOST like 12 million dollars making it and it was a box office flop but several years later I watched a clip of Seize The Day at a 5th grade pep rally and it became my driving force for the rest of my life and literally prevented my death multiple times I think that means that my soul is worth 12 million dollars thanks
#newsies#92sies#newsies 1992#seize the day#mental illness#i am plagued with mental illness and the only thing that can save me is gay boys dancing for their rights
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I CANT GET PAST METTATON
#dont tell me im supposed to be doing something special because i will feel bad that i am not clever enough to get it SJFJJWKDNSMND#listen i have the dark souls mentality. it's skill issue. i must get good. i just need to learn the dance#speaking of dance i don't know how to not get hit on the stupid disco ball segment. again don't tell me if you know ok 😘😘😘#but unlike in dark souls i don't feel like ragequitting i'm having a blast XDDD#quien diria si esta guapeton el mettaton uajajaja ya vi el appeal. o sea si me caia bien cuando todavía caja pero aja XD 😝
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It's always interesting to hear about people's weird/unexpected "alternate life paths". Like, something that you could have done with your life, a job you almost took, a school you almost went to, etc - that was still actually realistic enough that it could have happened, but NOW it seems to not suit your current personality.
Like for example, I currently hate advertising (how manipulative it is, brands trying to be 'relatable', social media amplifying it to an obnoxious extreme, etc.) so much that even seeing a little ad before a youtube video is grating to even witness, but there was a point in time where I was genuinely seriously considering going into marketing/making commercials as a career lol. Or like, I have a relative who was very inclined to be a pastor when they were younger, even though today they're a super strong atheist, etc. etc.
#BECAUSE I knew I really liked filming and editing things and doing set design and costume design (from having done little bits of that#here and there in media classes and my own stuff - i used to be a lot more into making videos than I am now). BUT I was always thinking#that a movie is WAAY to big and long. even a short film. So I was trying to think of ways I could still like#have the fun of scouting locations to film and dressing up actors and etc. etc. without it having to be a Huge Million Dollar Production#on tv show or movie level. SO then I was thinking about like... just doing commercials. Or music videos. Like shorter things where I still#get the fun of the filming and everything but it's less of an intensive long term project.#So there is an alternate version of me (I suppose if i somehow did not end up having physical and mental health issues#as badly somehow.. or like.. randomly came into wealth and was able to pay my way through a nice college despite missing#days constantly being out because I'm sick or something lol) that works in some corporate advertising office coming up with commercials#and directing or filming them or doing the sets for them or something in that general vicinity.#I also was considering being a corporate psychologist. or whatever its called.. oh from google:#''Industrial and organizational (I/O) psychologists study and assess individual group and organization dynamics in the workplace''#I don't think I even knew what the job entailed. I was at the time just thinking like.. the type of person that comes into a business offic#and gives everyone personality assessments or does MBTI or big-5 testing crap for whatever reason that some businesses get that#done for people. Really i just wanted to be in a Corporate Big Office setting yet still do psychology. Because I used to be really fixated#on living in a big city. Like the ideas of everything being walkable. picking up a coffee in the morning. walking to my job in a Big#Skyscraper Building. people watching in a huge hotel lobby for lunch. flying frequently (I love airplanes and airports aesthetically).#living in an apartment with a giant window overlooking the city. etc. etc. BUT that was before i had really BEEN to a city. Then I actually#hung around a city a few times and went places and I was like... AUGh... The Sensory Overwhelm.. cars people lights loudness noise scary#everything happening all at once. etc. etc. (though even when I wanted to live in a city i NEVER strove for the Night Life. when i say I#enjoy city imagery I mean like... in the day time. Many people who like cities talk about The Night Life and post pictures of cities all#lit up at night and clubs and dancing and restaurants. none of that EVER appealed to me. perhaps a sign I am not a real city person. Like#I am NOT standing in a crowded bar full of loud people in the middle of the night lol.. get AWAY from me!!) but I do adore the#architecture of like bright white clean sterile modern spaces like huge airport lobbies or malls or etc. I think thats what reminded me of#city and what I liked about the idea of that life. Like I always LOVED the layout of schools and hospitals and trainstations and public#transport in general. Though even then I knew enough that I would not be a good architect/city planner. so I guess my adoration for those#spaces was merely to be channeled into LIVING there. but then I realized I didn't even really want to do that that much. I mean I still#definitely aim to live NEAR a city. like the little areas outside of it. I would never live in a rural place 4 hours from anything. I liter#ally just COULDNT since I need close access to hospitals sometimes lol. But I used to want to live in the CENTER of citites like high rise#condo. and now I'm like.... eh....... perhaps a smaller quieter walkable space nearby lol.. ANYWAY.. alternate me in my Business Suit eheh
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I’m back with another song that I think honestly fits TOO WELL for a Just Dance character (Jack Rose, in this case) for them not to incorporate it somehow at some point;
Breathe In, Breathe Out - Set It Off
Okay, so, just take a look at this small except from the song:
“Your poker face could make them melt,
Just sit back and deal with the hand you’re dealt
Face facts, it won’t be easy this time
Sticks like a tack in the back of my mind
Hurts so deep when I think too much
And breathing gets harder,
Take a look at me,
From one side, I seem to be
So calm, so cool, collected
And on the other side, I’m melting down”
You know how @signofthestriking was talking about the concept of a disheveled Jack Rose dancing to Gasoline? Kinda the same idea here; everybody sees him as this super put-together, “perfect” person, but in truth he’s actually a complete mess, he just tries his best not to show it.
But, there comes a point where he just can’t take it anymore. And the façade slips.
On one side, Jack makes it seem like he’s so unbothered by everything he’s had to experience throughout his life.
The side that people don’t get to see of him, however, is just how incredibly traumatized and hurt he actually is from everything.
Is this making sense?
I hope this is making some kind of sense 💀
mb if it doesn’t, I’m like, about to go to sleep but I just needed to get all of my thoughts out into a post before I could so this is NOT proofread for any repetitiveness or rambling I just needed to get it out 😭 hope it at least makes a bit of sense though because I really DO believe that this song would be PERFECT for him
might add more onto this at another point in time if I think of anything else I wanna say about it !!
#this idea literally has my whole brain rn#I am once again asking for Ubisoft to bring Set It Off songs into Just Dance#PLEASE#just dance#just dance jack rose#just dance lore#*bonks Jack’s head* this bad boy can fit SO MUCH trauma !!!#he is literally constantly on the verge of a complete mental breakdown#‘‘this is fine’’: Jack Rose after suffering through horrific childhood trauma that still continues to extend into even his adulthood#night swan for mother of the year /s
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Look since the show seems to be forming a really good "Maybe Poseidon is kinda problematic" stance, if they're looking for soundtrack song suggestions about being taken advantage of when you're 19 complete with lots of religious imagery, hit me up, I may have a suggestion
#yes I am very much talking about#would've could've should've#hear me out it could work really well#imagine the power move of the contrast of referring to falling for a god as dancing with the devil#anyway#feeling mentally ill about this#sally jackson#pjo series#percy jackson#pjo tv show
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why does physical anxiety make it feel like your organs are all vibrating, but like on different frequencies
#anxitey#mental health#physical anxiety#I am not well#it's like I have 3 sets of bees doing different dances inside me
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incredible time to be having an identity crisis
#fingers crossed it’s a midlife crisis#can’t do this anymore#such a wonderful time for#*gestures vaguely*#intense immense loneliness coupled with absolutely uncertainty over who I am or should be or whatever#wishing for a life of dancing myself away in cosy lazy afternoons with s.o#destined to be a hermit#chronically depressed hopeless romantic 🙌#just end me seriously#and pair that with fucking bpd#“you’re making so much progress” meets “this was the worst one yet” times infinite#and keep doing it until eventually you crack and end up as a permanent resident of the local mental hospital#my therapist literally saying she’s so happy because every time I go down I come back evidently even better#but let’s be honest babe the “going down” is very proportional to that#cartwheels ANYWAYYYY#HOW ARE YOU LMFAOOOOO#bonnie vents
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'CAUSE EVERYTIME WE TOUCH
I GET THIS FEELING
AND EVERYTIME WE KISS
I SWEAR I CAN FLYYYY
#I AM OBSESSED WITH THIS SONG HELP ME#BUT DON'T HELP ME I WANT TO STAY OBSESSED#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#headbangs strongly#I am having a mental dance party#not art
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Listen, I like Oda, he's cool and everything but he tells Dazai the exact same thing Verlaine says to Chuuya. Both of these boys were struggling with their identity and believed they didnt deserve to be seen as humans. Where Dazai was desperately distancing himself but positioning himself in a spot where he could still experience humanity, Chuuya was actively trying to be human while also not fully accepting himself as one. Verlaine tried to break Chuuya by reinforcing his lack of humanity by pointing out how nothing and no one could ever fill that lonely void in him and yea sure we all collectively believe that was a nasty thing to say to a child struggling with his identity who had just lost all his friends. But Oda did the exact same thing, I know his intentions were better and he cared about Dazai when he said that and the meaning was distorted because neither actually understood the other enough, but he told a child struggling with his identity who had just lost his 2 closest friends and had no contact with his partner at the time that nothing could fill the lonely void in his soul.
And nobody is ever allowed to question it or criticise it cause Oda has the cool dead guy syndrome where he isn't allowed to be criticised or judged like other characters.
Because Chuuya heard those words at the very beginning of strombringer by someone he hated and later spent the entire book learning that people did in fact care for him and view him as human and finding out about his parents and the scar, it led to him having (slightly) less of a martyr ideology because he no longer isolates himself and tends to seek out genuine connections even if he is painfully reserved and repressed about his own struggles. Meanwhile Dazai was told those exact same words by Oda at the very end of the dark era arc at an incredibly vulnerable moment when he had literally lost everything and seen things and lives fall apart by someone who he idolized to an almost unhealthy level. This leads to Dazai quite literally losing hope (he shows a hopeful nature a few times in 15 and dark era though it is rather subtle, Dazai shows it most in his attempt to stop Oda from going to the final fight) and becoming a martyr who sees no value in his own life outside of a tool. He struggles to create genuine connections even with people who genuinely care for him (the ADA) and repeatedly puts on a mask in front of them.
Chuuya and Dazai both view themselves as people whose lives are only worth what they can do for others in different ways, Chuuya feels the need to protect because he is the strongest and feels need to earn his existence whereas Dazai feels the need to martyr himself because he only finds value in his life and death by saving people.
#soukoku#i am actually super tired so I am probably making no sense#but i have so many thoughts on this#like they said the exact same thing#sometimes good people have good intentions but an awful execution#sorry but i will never sit here and accept the idea that Oda's words did Dazai good#they gave him a wake up call sure#but anything he had said at that moment#even just telling him to leave and be a good person wpuld have worked because Dazai IDOLIZED him#he could have told Dazai to do a chicken dance and Dazai would have fucking done it at that point#his words pushed Dazai from suicidal but making excuses to a martyr mentality#ive seen people unironically call anyone who dislikes or analyses Oda's words a hater#but somehow every analysis turns into more evidence of skk mirroring each other
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i dont want to be an eggshell person but i kinda am & i probably have to come to terms with it even if it really bothers me that im like this. one day we will have therapy (probably not.)
#eggshell person = person you gotta walk on eggshells around. you get it#every split feels vastly unreasonable & childish but at the same time at least a little justified & i just cant work with that.#just get rid of emotions & thoughts & restart anew this shit is broken!#wish i was stable enough (living conditions + mental health) to be able to drag myself out of it#dont think im at a point where i Can no matter how hard i try. & the feeling of being justified only makes it woorseeee#this constant fucking song & dance is going to make me flip my lid it cannot be happening every fucking month#pms im gonna fucking get you i am so going to fucking get you. oh my god.
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two episodes of nervous crying your brains out for longer than one hour in the span of three days were not in my bingo card for 2024 when I graduated ten years ago and I would like to frankly get the fuck over myself
#personal for ts#one day i’ll be able to put into words#the absolutely hateful feeling of thinking you got over your shit#and then finding out that NOT ONLY you aren’t#but KNOWING you’re falling back into shitty coping mechanisms you STILL let it happen#honestly my self loathing is off the roof because fifteen years ago i didn’t know i was shitty coping#now i KNOW i am and guess what here i am doing the whole isolating myself and forgetting to reply to ppl song and dance#christ i thought i was okay with handling that kinda shit guess not#and yeah ofc i need to fix it for myself but this time is so much worse i’m just#my kingdom for waking up one morning and feeling some level of mental clarity#and for some goddamned financial stability#and for the force of will to keep the house tidy enough that i dont feel sad just looking at the state of the living room#guys also honestly sorry if i forgot to reply to your ask or pm or anything i’ll get to it at some point#i swear i’m not ignoring people on purpose i’m just completely overwhelmed sigh
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does he know he’s breathing new life into me every single time he does anything
#on the top of the world right now!!!! life’s good cause park jimin exists!!!!!!!#had the most mentally straining day and then I open my phone and see him#and it’s all okay and will be fine and there’s things to love and enjoy#and I am literally crying what the hell actually!!!!!!#new jimin dance Video on the first day of your period is bound to make you feel a little too much
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holy fuck i am having a Bad Fucking Time yall.
#the devil lillith on my shoulder#my mental health had already taken a dive and it’s getting arguably worse#i am in extreme pain from my period and hve been for days#my knee and ankle decided to start giving me issues a week ago and aren’t better#and my dance showcase is saturday so that’s fun i love dancing on injuries#i’m stressed about it too cause i feel like a piece of shit who’s gonna ruin the instructor dance#and i’m blanking on choreo for one of the other numbers im in#i’m just doing BAD
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Making a social chess move against my roommate and setting up the gambit in a way where she has to sacrifice something to move forward
#i WILL wrench an answer from you bc i want my stuff back before you go. let's talk bestie 👀 what's taking so long? 👀#either she's making excuses in which case I'll drive over myself when i get my car#or she lost it and she's been lying to my face for 3 weeks straight in which i just go fucking postal#i am just. so tired of this stupid song and dance. she still has my copy of I'm glad my mom died and I'm giving up on that#haven't asked for it back. i just want that blanket. it was a gift and it matters a lot to me. and i am stopping at nothing at this point#once i have it. if she actually does have it. i can mentally check out until she moves out#i just. am losing my mind#shai speaks
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*thinking long term*
Me: I want to write
Frontal lobe: can't, I'm fucked
Me: okay then I want to dance
Cerebellum: can't, I'm fucked too
Me: AAAAAAAAA FINE I WILL JUST DIE
#writer#writing#writer community#writers on tumblr#dancer#dancing#professional dancer#(I am not one)#neuroscience#self studying neuroscientist#mentally fucked#fucked in the head#neurodivergent#mental illness#brain damage#hobbies#careers#prehomeless
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