#i am very cold though

[freddie-77-ao3]

it is simply not. fair. to be this cold when it's warm out. screw being sick i'm going to light myself on fire to feel warmth.

[secriden]

Just going to cry again (see: my previous post about the parallels between the storage room scene and the abandoned factory scene) about parallels and juxtapositions in the store room scene vs the one in Styles bedroom:

Both these scenes have such a tone of desperation and are characterised by an overflowing of emotions, but in drastically opposite directions.

(Note, some of what I say in this post directly relates to concepts and themes I talked about here, so it may not wholly make sense without that context.)

The scene in the storeroom is filled with frustrated desire. Fadel kisses Style because he wants Style's body and also wants to take his frustrations at Style out on his body. He doesn't need to look Style in the eye (and in fact very intentionally only does so only in small snatches) because this isn't about a connection as much as it is about a release. Fadel's kisses come fast, hard, and are intended to bruise more than to adore.

But episode 5's scene is filled with much more quiet and tender sort of desire. Style is kissing Fadel so much more slowly and purposefully. He keeps looking back at Fadel, checking in to see how he feels and whether Fadel is enjoying it. Everything Style wanted in Episode 3, he now gives to Fadel here, pours the secrets of his knowing and choosing Fadel anyway into the way he presses his lips onto Fadel's skin. His kisses linger, they carry a weight but are somehow infinitely gentle still; Style's kisses contain a purpose that Fadel's kisses couldn't in Episode 3 because in all honesty they were relative strangers back then.

There's also the way there's such a ferocity and carelessness in the way Fadel starts the encounter in episode 3 that is juxtaposed beautifully by the slow, tender, almost hesitant way Style slides his lips onto Fadel's. Both of them are in such different headspaces, between these episodes and its especially evident in the way they care so much more about the other person's comfort and how intentionally they showed that to the audience.

There's hunger present in both scenes but what this hunger is focused on is so drastically different. In the storeroom, they're both mainly focused on a physical release; its primal and visceral but lacked emotional resonance. Fadel gives Style what he knows Style wants (that hint of danger, with the hand on his neck), but its not because he really cares about what Style wants on anything more than a physical level. In Style's bedroom, however, Fadel is drunk (intentionally and by his own design) and desperate to open himself up to Style on an emotional level. Meanwhile, Style wants that desperately too, but knows that Fadel shouldn't because of his own terrible secret. So this kiss is what they both will allow themselves - an honesty and a hunger for this deeper connection they can only share in act but not in words.

In the storeroom, Style wants Fadel to want more than his body but knows (or thinks) he can't push for it yet, so he remains passive, lets Fadel do whatever he wants, lets him turn and shove and place Style how he wants because at this point, this is all Fadel will give him. Here, Style is passive in spite of what he wants. But in the bedroom, Fadel is passive because it's what he wants; he wants to let Style do whatever he desires to and with Fadel's body. He wants to lay himself as bare as he possibly can, which is only physical, and so he does.

And because the encounter in Episode 3 lacked that emotional connection, the focus is merely their respective releases. There's a sense of two people trying to find pleasure and 'finish' while remaining emotionally disconnected despite actively having sex with each other. Because in some ways, they didn't really need each other in that moment to get there (there's actually a lot of truth in what Fadel says about it being easier to just jerk off alone). In sharp contrast, the scene in Episode 5 isn't focused on the destination but on the journey. Style is taking his time and Fadel is letting him - Style is choosing to worship Fadel's body, with his fingers, with his lips, to respond to his vulnerability with gentleness and tenderness and adoration. The goal has stopped being about finding a release, it's about allowing both these men to revel in the giving and receiving of pleasure.

The point of these scenes is to show to us the ways in which Fadel and Style have grown to care for and, dare I say it, love each other in ways that are so purposefully portrayed by showing the nature of their physical connection. Because the ways in which these scenes are the same and yet so wholly different showcases how their touches are now no longer merely tied to their senses any longer, but also to their hearts as well.

[boxheadpaint]

something like a limb that folds back and forth and back and forth more times than whoh i felt really bad in the middle of typing that so its coming on i think. anyway more times than whats usual is something i think more often employed in surreal horror art or similar but its mostly very funny. Like ok heres the ankle now. Or thats the knee again. and again. Are we at the yet no ok its this once again. Its also a frequent bodily sensation you may find relatable as this bones-and-limbs shit is fucking obnoxious. I sprained the back of my shoulder through unknown means and now any muscle in its neighborhood from the neck to the wrist feels like a nightmare.anatomy as a whole is funny in the process of does it->it shouldnt look like that->does it right->knows now-> does it because its not right for the sake of expression. incorporate pillow shading into your pixel art for fun

[pallaspally]

If things had started out differently. If i was born to a family that actually loved. If i grew in a place with nourishment and affection instead of aggression and ignorance. If it had all started differently... where would i be?

I get wanting to be the same person, and dont get me wrong, there are parts about my personality that i love, and that i know that i wouldnt have if it werent for the life i have lived... But if i could be healthy, and somewhat normal, surely people would find something to love about me still.

If i hadnt spent everyday fighting for my life, only to continue spending everyday fighting for my life, would i be worthy of love still? Is being worthy of some type of love my "reward" for all the horrors ive faced? Because as much as i love and adore my friends, given the chance, im not sure i would still pick this path covered in spines and venom, and horrors beyond comprehension. Not when there is a freshly manicured, fenced, safe path that so many others have chosen and still lived their good lives.. Im not sure what ive gained except resilience, and sadly resilience really doesnt get you much in the grand scheme of things.

[birdmitosis]

...Also, Cold is weirdly hot if you choose his option first in either of the Razor's Chapter IIIs. The way he breathes out "No." in response to the question if her skewering you hurt, the way he praises everyone for not noticing we died, "Let's see how far this little mind-hole goes, shall we?" (no comment about that one)...

I also find everyone's responses to his option interesting. Contrarian is into it but specifically because he calls it out as "the worst plan [he's] ever heard," Hero and Cheated are all for not wanting to feel pain when dying, Hunted is against not feeling pain because pain keeps you alive (TRUE), Paranoid is interestingly enough against not feeling pain because "If we can't feel things, then how are we supposed to know what's true?" Broken actually says that he turned off the part of him that feels things ages ago (which surprised me), and Stubborn's response is straight-up "Hahahaha yes! Yes! This is the best idea anyone has ever had!" which has given me the terrifying realization that Cold + Stubborn might be an impossible duo for a reason. Too Unhinged, Too Powerful.

[dreamsicle262]

if the reading comprehension of some people who do make dead plate text posts is so bad (as i've had at least two people tell me in the tags) then maybe i SHOULD start analyzing every little detail in the game.

[honeyconez]

guys hear me out would painis cupcake pay taxes? Because he’s not like mega insane like ass pancakes I think he’d pay his taxes in my professional opinion.

[briar--rising]

I will say that if I'm still around tomorrow we're going to have to figure out some quick adjustments to our Halloween costume. I'm willing to do a lot of things for Allora and the kids, but wearing a flower crown and fairy wings is not one of them.

[the-mehlwurm]

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[the-pickle-jar]

weh

[fraternum-momentum]

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[that-foul-legacy-lover]

GRABBED. OBTAINED. GOTTEN

[dramas-vs-novels]

On hour 9 of work, I ended up pulled in to another event that came up for the PM, so... now it's a 13 hour work day... that started on-clock at 4am...

[outlying-hyppocrate]

Hellloooooooooo Crispin!!!

Just wanted to say a few words because you deserve them and they’re very true <3333

I think you’re very smart and intelligent and all those fancy words you use makes me feel a little dumb /pos and it really shows in your writing and music because it’s amazing!!!

You’re so good at all these things you do, it makes me a touch jealous of how cool you are :3

Also,,, for what it counts you’re really kind, funny, and pretty /p <3333333

Anywho have a good day!!!!!

hello,,,, i'm really very sorry for the late response. i need to thank you for telling me all of this. it is very hard to believe these things sometimes so it sort of makes me happy to read all this from someone i (potentially) may not even know. thank you, anon. i will try. you have a good day as well. {:

[jemandrr]

Unironically, Ben Shapiro's greatest win against the left was turning left/centerleft laypeople off from the idea of a 'debate with facts and logic' because of his bad faith arguments. Like it's almost...triggering to people, and that leaves a lot of people with unsharpened ideas and an unwillingness to explain them in a rigorous manner.

One example phenomenon that this has fed into is a continuing degradation in the lines of thought people use to reach certain conclusions - so person A expresses opinion X that person B agrees with, but because person B never really sees the entire line of thought laid out by anyone else, their formulation of opinion X based on their own intuition might randomly lean on some idea Y which person A doesn't care about. As a result, if Idea Y lacks actual backing, person B might wrongly defend opinion X and give an impression that the entire thing is flimsy, or person B might lose their own footing and assuredness and change sides.

I also think that he so badly mangled the concept of debate in the casual public consciousness that it's a contributing factor to the vague anti-academic sentiment in recent years. (Which, while academia as an institution has problems, there's certainly an undercurrent of less directed discontent that is contributing to low public opinion of education as a whole - and a greater feeling expressed on social media that 'casual reference of marquee media' is in a way insulting to people who have not consumed it, rather than an invitation to partake or something you can pass by without caring. Not on tumblr though, where we see Dracula and then we read Dracula.)

tl;dr his pseudo-intellectualism meaningfully contributed to certain common sentiments of anti-intellectualism because of how badly and annoyingly he and the people who emulate(d) him did/do it.

[beigetiger]

Small headcanon: Compassionate Cellist is actually quite muscular due to having grown up a pirate and enjoys lifting things, they’ll carry building materials around for nesting guide whenever they need help.

And yes, they’re still wearing the dress.