#i am tired but alive!
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people really do be just going on the internet and lying huh
#firefly speaks#context: earthspark misinformation really do be misinformationing#quess that's what happens when you leave a ravenous fandom with a deeply soul-crushing finale and refuse to elaborate for months huh hasbro#sigh#hi! i haven't been active much lately!#been kind of rushing around doing various jobs & comm.ssions from friends#i am tired but alive!
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im so fucking useless
#all I do is consume without contributing anything to society#i feel so guilty for eating breathing taking up space buying things producing trash wasting people's time and energy#literally my existence has no meaning#why am i alive#literally w.o.r.t.h.l.e.s.s.#tw depressive#tw depressing thoughts#tw depression#depressing shit#sorry for being depressing#im exhausted#i hate everything#i hate my self#more than anyone else#i dread having to exist#self h@te#i'm sad#mentally tired#vent#venting#personal
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Kenshi and Suchin as Mihawk and Shanks for Halloween! :)
#this took too long#i am very tired#im alive though!#my bed is calling me.......#no background even tho i wanted one :(#love yall#probably wont be very active (if at all) the next couple days#bc of work but afterward im getting off time and new schedule#so ill be able to return to normal yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy#kenshi takahashi#suchin#kenshi x suchin#kensuchin#mortal kombat#mortal kombat fanart#my art#digital art#cfa art
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gonna leave it here to remind myself i have a thing to do
#suffering with being busy at work and too tired to draw anything after#i am still alive tho#and here's not very alive astarion#ur welcome
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As an Aventurine kinnie, I love the trope of Aventurine repressing his feelings for Ratio, not letting him get too close or attached because he feels like he isn’t worth love/is afraid that the people he loves will get taken from him. However, hear me out, what if he decided to love Ratio with everything in him out of spite? He’s lost everything, doesn’t even own himself, but he has this. Logically, it would never work, which is exactly why he’s going to love Ratio as hard as he can.
#no thoughts only them#aventio#ratiorine#look I just think that he’d get tired of his brain not letting him love others#especially after Penacony#he almost died with no one to mourn him#except ratio#who wanted him to stay alive#like you know what#i don’t care anymore#I am going to love this man for all he’s worth#and no one can stop me#god they’re in love#and fucking useless at expressing it#they make me sick#hsr aventurine#dr ratio hsr#dr ratio x aventurine#hsr headcanons
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i don’t want to jump the gun, but i think hwang daseul might have just done it again. two episodes in to let free the curse of taekwondo and i am obsessed. more than obsessed. transfixed. this show feels special in a way hwang daseul’s touch only can give, and just using these two episodes to compare to her previous works, i love that i can already spot the continuity in the kinds of stories she tells, the messages she portrays and how she portrays them. she just knows how to let her characters exist in harmful and difficult places and show how their experiences affect them while also just showing them as normal human beings. it is so so easy to overdramatise these kinds of stories that have these difficult topics and have it be so surface level, but she has never done that. instead, she shows how those experiences shape a person and how they go about living in spite of them. all the way from where your eyes linger to now, she gives us characters that are wholly themselves and not just the traumas they have gone through and i just adore that. i can’t remember what i was talking about specifically, but i remember talking about this sentiment and how it actually helps to build empathy in an audience as opposed to just showing a difficult topic at the most surface level bc you think that makes it accessible and easier to understand and hence empathise with. i don’t think that ever works. it’s only when you do what hwang daseul does, when you give us characters we can get to know and fall in love with and care for that you help us to empathise with their experiences. it’s hard to understand the weight and the hardship of experiencing something traumatic, but when something bad happens to someone close to you, a family member or a friend, you understand and feel that pain astronomically more. that’s what hwang daseul manages to do. and more so, she makes you feel that while also seeing these people as people. you get to see them away from the hurt, you see them smile in moments of happiness and you see that too with people you’re close to, and you feel even more how special and important those moments of happiness are.
and that’s why, whenever hwang daseul is at the helm of something, i will be seated from start to end with endless boxes of tissues ready. i can’t wait to see what else this show has in store.
#let free the curse of taekwondo#oh I am so BACK#not to get too personal but god#i have been so tired bc of work#i have literally done so many long days and been so busy and so stressed#and I haven’t vibed with a bl for so long I mean I hear the sunspot was all I cared about for a bit#and im watching jack and joker now but I didn’t know if I had fallen out of love with bl#but what I think it is is i just needed something to really get my teeth into#fluff and silly fun is good I won’t ever knock it I love it I watch it#but when I have so little time I just feel myself getting impatient watching it sometimes bc I can’t sink my teeth into it#like I won’t be at work vibrating bc I know when I get home I’ll get to watch the next episode#this is what I needed#like this makes me feel alive like all my passion is invigorated again and I just feel the rants coming#and that just makes me so happy I can’t even say#I don’t wanna get emo but this show already makes me emo so#I just love being here#I love it
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staples this one frantically onto the end
#shes my daughter and i love her.#psychonauts#psychonauts 2#psychonauts oc#oc [effie]#I AM STILL ALIVE. just too tired to use tumblr#and also i havent been drawing anything besides This#axe art
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really want a girl to hide me in her ridiculously oversized sweatshirt so i can be safe from The Problems™️
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#hello i am still here#unfortunately not being surrounded by a girls gigantic sweatshirt#but still here nonetheless#if the sweatshirt is big enough we can both duck down and hide in there#me putting on oversized clothes: this is going to fix me#and by that completely sound logic a girl putting me in her oversized clothes would heal me forever#simple math obvs#im so tired and forgot what i was saying but point is still alive as is blog just busy!#as always lol#hope you’re all well <3#im gay and i like sleeping
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also I love 'Yo! Son Goku and Friends Return', it is so stupid (immense joy)
#dbtag#vegeta's so tired of this man every day of his life klasdjaklsj#this movie was the first one toriyama advised on iirc#and it shows it's so silly and fun#this is also the ova that decided geets' style of battle armor is saiyan formal wear and I will die on that hill because nothing is funnier#than a man getting dressed to the nines to go to a fight#one of my all time favorite tropes/gags/character choices#geets during the 7 year gap: damn i'm the only full saiyan left i wish kakarot was still alive#geets experiencing goku during peace time: i am so sorry for what i asked for lord you can have this one back please i'll find the reciept
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Why won't you answer any tells about the Azon Battalion and its reach within the Ukrainian Army? 🥺🥺🥺 afraid of your followers knowing your true beliefs? You fascist piece of shit.
I was dealing with some real life stuff, and I have to admit, your first two questions had me fooled into thinking that maybe they were asked in good faith, so I wanted to give a long and nuanced answer.
But I see you're a russian nazi supporter (LOL the levels of projecting you lot do by daring to call anyone else a fascist). And I also started my day with the sounds of missiles being intercepted nearby, so I'm really done. So short facts for you:
1. I have no faintest idea what "Azon battalion" is. If you want to have a gotcha on something, at least try to know what you are talking about.
2. If you meant "Azov battalion" (named after the Azov Sea, on the shores of which it was formed in the spring of 2014), then that one was doesn't exist, either, hasn't existed for about 9 years now. It was reorganised and regrouped multiple times, and many prominent members (some of whom were linked to right-wing groups) have left.
3. What is called "Azov" now is officially "12th assault brigade of the National Guard 'Azov'". It is operating in accordance to laws and, just like all the military, obeys the higher military command of the country and fulfills its tasks and orders. Their current command have spoken up multiple times about the condemnation of authoritarian fascist regimes (one of which they are actively fighting). It is also a BRIGADE, one of many, which is a few thousand people within the whole army of somewhere around a million. I haven't got the faintest idea what you are blabbering on about their "reach" or "influence" as if they are some sort of a "Hydra" spy network or even a political organization. Individually, there are all kinds of people in the army, of course, with all kinds of views, some good and some bad, but they are obliged to comply with laws and rules. You seem to have some cartoon level of thinking (plus a hefty amount of russian propaganda with its often photoshopped pictures and laughably stupid stories) on how a fucking army operates.
My views are very simple: I want the fascist invader to leave my country. I want to not be bombed or killed/raped/tortured/deported (all the things said fascist invader is doing here). I want the occupied territories, where the invaders are currently doing all those things, to be freed. I want to live in a free country with the human rights upheld. Currently the only thing that is defending me is the Ukrainian army. All of its brigades and battalions and regimens and what have you.
So from the bottom of my heart: go fuck yourself, you pro-nazi invader scum.
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ʷʰᵃᵗˢ ᵗʰᵉ ᶠᵘᶜᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵖᵒⁱⁿᵗ
#im so tired#tired of this shit#im tired#i'm tired#tired#mentally tired#mentally unstable#mentally fucked#mental illness#depressing shit#sorry for being depressing#self destruction#depressiv's indirects#bpd mood#bpd life#tw self destruction#depressiv#bpd thoughts#whats the point#theres no point#why am i still here#why am i still alive#tw sui ideation#su1cide#su1c1d4l#su1c1dal#su1c1d3#bpd shit#988blr#988twt
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I'm so annoyed. @kingcrow01 tumblr ate your ask about Danny's opinion on the League. tumblr i pressed 'save draft' why didn't you sAVE DRAFT.
ANyways I'm making a post instead. For everyone else, the ask was in summary:
What was Danny's opinion on the League now that he's left it? If he missed the familiarity of it, if he recognized the cult-like behavior inside it, and if he now detested his grandfather.
And to answer (again, grrr): It's complicated! We love complicated <3. Yeah, Danny does miss the familiarity of the League, it was still his home for the first ten years of his life and he has a lot of memories there. Plenty of good along with the bad, and while he's less homesick than he was when he was 10, it still hits him like a truck at random intervals.
Sam, Tucker, and Jazz are great, and he likes the Drs. Fentons enough that he's contemplated murdering Vlad for his meddling, but if he wants to eat the same food his mother used to make him and Damian, he has to do it himself and he can't get the taste right. No one knows arabic so he speaks it to himself because he doesn't want to forget his mother tongue, and he has a few books too. Frankly? He genuinely misses training.
Getting to use Sam's gym helps with his restlessness, same with training with Maddie, but he has no one on or above his level to go against other than his mother. And he only sees her twice a year at most. He knows that he's getting stagnant and he fucking despises it like a bad itch he can't scratch.
He feels conflicted about missing the League, however, since by now he recognizes the flaws and what was wrong with it, and he recognizes that it was cult-like. But even that is kinda, hrm, complicated? If this was a fic I would be able to go better into depth about what he has and hasn't unlearned because cult deprogramming is hard and Danny's doing most of this on his own.
Sam, Tucker, and Jazz have helped with the more obvious stuff: like the ecofascism, the disregard for human life, his emotional constipation; the more obvious stuff that shows in his behavior and personality. But none of them are professionals nor do they actually know the full extent of what Danny's life in the League was like. They only have snapshots since Danyal is very tight lipped about it. So they can only help with what they see themselves through Danny's behavior or word of mouth.
But in summary: He sees, for the most part, what's wrong with the League and disagrees with some of the stuff they do now. But he's very conflicted, and trying to dissect his feelings on the League confuses him. His protests about it whenever Sam and Tucker joke about it have at this point become mostly empty (altho it still causes him some discomfort), and its an inside joke between them three.
As for Ra's? Despises him. If only because Ra's wanted him to kill his little brother -- thinking about his motives with the League confuses Danny, cognitive dissonance and stuff, -- a lot of his hatred stems from "He wanted me to fight my baby brother to the death. I destroyed my relationship with Damian because of him, I had to fake my death and leave my home, and I will never meet my father or see my brother again because of him. Fuck that guy."
#dpxdc#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#danyal al ghul au#starry asks#demon siblings au#danny's opinions on the league is rather complicated but he knows that some of the stuff that happened inside was wrong. and while he's#always known that his upbringing wasn't normal -- and he took pride in that -- its only in recent years that he's learned that#this was a *bad* thing. that his upbringing was wrong. he's still kinda grappling with that.#danny's homesickness hits the worst when he's patching himself up from a ghost fight alone. stitching up his throat in his ghost form when#he gets hit with a deep child-like grief and the unwitting 'i wanna go home'. he's exhausted and sad and hurting and fucking *tired*#good mom talia al ghul supremacy. she's trying her best.#but yeah sam and tucker did a lot of good for Danny by becoming his friend. he's a lot better off than he would've been if he remained alon#'a child not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel its warmth' type of stuff. danny's aware of this and is incredibly grateful#for sam and tucker. and as a result can and will get violently protective. his moral code on killing can be summed up as: i dont kill bc i#value human life and it's inconvenient. but i will do it without remorse if i must.#vlad is only still alive because he's incompetent. but the ice is thin#catch me about to make an incorrect quotes post about this au. i am so close.
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boba date doodleeeee
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#one of shuichis likes is boba tea and i am CLINGING TO THIS#tired of always giving him coffee smh give him variety.... let him have a little fun........#can u tell what this post was really about. i just rly rly rly wanted an excuse to draw shuichi in this outfit NGKSGKADFJK#which led to me not knowing what to do for kokichi. luckily i have outfit gacha games for that#i just slapped an outfit tgtr and called it a day#n e ways hiiiiii im still alive hiiiiiiii . drops this n crawls back into the abyss#shuichi saihara#kokichi ouma#kokichi oma#saiouma#oumasai#breeze art#is ur bf ever so hot u clench ur drink so hard it shoots out ur nose#hes lucky a boba pearl didnt get sucked up in there.........#we're not talking about the embarrassingly long time it took me to remember how to add a read more
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Soul sends letters/notes to Whole like Twilight does to Celestia
#{dear princess harmonia. please stop being sad i cannot deal with these fuckers any longer}#{one of them pulled out a gun yesterday & then the other tried to bury him alive i am so tired}#chonny jash#chonnys charming chaos compendium
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it is just unfathomable how actively cruel people will choose to be because fundamentally they dont view brown people as real humans with lives that are worth something. awesome 👍 i think some of you should die 😁
#observant followers may have noted i became progressively less active on tumblr#after getting a job which often makes me physically tired. it does not take that long to check for verification when i am home#and it takes nothing to Not make some fucking insanely evil assumptions and sabotage someone's#attempt to stay alive.#losing $20 will probably not impact Your life meaningfully - it is fucking life or death for some people#its the desperation in your attempts to justify incredible cruelty!! if you shut up you wont embarrass yourself.#babbling
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One thing about PDA (pathological demand avoidance/persistent drive for autonomy) is that living is a demand. All of the necessities for maintaining life are demands. Staying alive is literally a series of neverending demands. I can never stop eating or I will die. I can never stop drinking fluids or I will die. I can never stop maintaining a basic level of hygiene because it's necessary for health and comfort. I can never stop cleaning in order to keep my spaces functional enough to meet all the other demands that keep me alive. Regardless of how burnt out or tired I am, regardless of how badly my PDA is triggered, regardless of how fatigued my body is or how bad my executive dysfunction is on top of all that PDA, I still have to meet those demands to live. Just staying alive when your brain is like this is constantly being triggered and burnt out by the basic demands of life.
#actually autistic#actually audhd#pathological demand avoidance#im so tired of what it takes to stay alive#i dont want to die#i just#am so tired#and want the demands to stop#at least for a while#ndr#not dog related
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