#i am scared i feel sick

[nightfallsystem]

tw stupid fucking dumb vent tw suicide btw this is roleplay and fiction for legal reasons so dont take it seriously 👍

[creekfiend]

I think the very worst thing about being this sick and in being this much pain is just the bone deep exhaustion I feel

I want to connect with the world and it's like trying to touch the sky when you're lying at the bottom of a well. I can reach my arm all the way up as long as it will go and I can't touch anything I'm too far down and I can barely even see it from where I am and there's no way I can reach it at all

[rowanisawriter]

going through all the stages of grief today lmao!! whatever im gonna play video game now!!

[thegothicviking]

YOU GUYS!!! Y'ALL!! RAMMFANS!!!??!?!? 😍

I got it cheaper than the guy originally wanted.

And I have seen them go for more in other countries (without shipping to Norway). This was sold by some local dude 30 minutes away from me by car...WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF THAT!?!? (If you don't know..I don't live in a big city. I live in hillbilly..christian sheit hole. So just to find something like this for sale over here is mind blowing!)

I think these rubber bois looks good with me! 💋

1000 copies..almost 15 years old and still pretty much unopened! (And some of those 1000 pieces are most likely destroyed by now by pets..flooding..fire..accidents..you name it! So you can asure that less than 1000 pieces has survived today. And I got one of them!! I want to vomit out of sheer happiness! 😍

And yes. It's prettier in person! (Much bigger than you expect..but that might be a good thing? 😘 (nah I won't open it!)

One of the best days of 2024!!🙌

[placentafluid]

god give me the strentgh... to do literally anything....

[outlying-hyppocrate]

well. did you fucking miss me.

[icewindandboringhorror]

"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"

I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming

[hobbinch]

After 4 years I fucking tested positive for covid. I must have got it on the plane despite all my precautions, or from a passerby while my mask wasn't a perfect fit. I'm so bummed and also stressed and worried i gave it to jays elderly, ailing father. Fuck fuck fuck fuck.

[snuffalufagus]

i shld liveblog reading my thesis for the first time since finishing it 1hr ish b4 the deadline submitting it n getting the results

[tamagotchikgs]

i hate my face it needs to be softer and i hate my body it needs to be sharper

[im-not-here-im-dead]

[description: text in all caps that reads;

do not tell me to “see both sides” of the “war”

the government of Israel is enacting genocide on the people of palestine

the government of Israel funded hamas

the government of Israel is killing countless innocent people and calling them “human animals”

this is not a “war” this is not a “conflict” this is genocide

there are no “two sides” of a genocide

I will not know peace of mind until every Palestinian is free

:end description]

someone sent me a reply on a post i shared urging people to boycott companies that support the genocide of the Palestinian people, saying that Israel is doing this, enacting genocide, to protect Israeli people from Hamas. it left me shaking. i am still shaking.

there are no two sides of a genocide. i will not know peace of mind until every Palestinian is free.

[bunnihearted]

why do all girls around me have girl friends?????????????? why dont i get to have that??????????

[uptownhags]

i just need to ??? about a man

[scarysanctuary]

trying so hard not to have full blown panic attack, im beyond devastated, i just keep saying in my head, oh god not again, it cant be true, but it is.

[willowfey]

starting to think maybe waking up with an anxiety stomachache every single morning and then needing to spend the entire day trying to get rid of said anxiety just to maybe have a few minutes in the evening of feeling relaxed before going to bed is perhaps not normal

[dreamwinged]

to be so honest im starting to think i really need to see a professional for my social anxiety