#i also think that not only me but plenty others too

[plaidos]

Hi, i hope this isnt inappropriate to ask. Do you have any tips for like, being confident in being a woman? I'm not trans, I'm cis, but lately I've been confronted with the fact that transitioning out of misogyny is an option that I could take. And I kind of hate myself for not just going for it, especially when it feels like I'm only a woman for very vapid reasons like fashion, liking my boobs, having a partner that would probably break up with me if I transitioned. It makes me feel like just another brainwashed woman choosing looks over anything else. Even though that's probably internalized misogyny to believe that, idk. I figured that since you had to make a massive and very scary choice to transition instead of stay closeted even when trans women are treated a lot worse than cis women, you'll probably have more insights about this. Or maybe a different way to look at it.

so first of all if they said that to you, you should break up with your partner. you deserve better than somebody who would (theoretically) rather you die in the closet that express who you are. even if you are 100% cisgender, this is not a person who respects you.

secondarily, you can in fact love your boobs & fashion etc and be a guy. Many of the trans guys I know are like this. Some of the coolest fashionistas with the biggest tits I know are men.

thirdly, if the respect of being a guy is the only part you’re interested in, don’t worry: whilst trans men are treated better than trans women, institutional transphobia is still very much a thing. Like, don’t let that stop you from transitioning if you wanna be a dude — if you think you would be happier this way, go for it, no matter what — but it won’t be a magic swap from misogyny to everybody treating you with respect. trans men might be beneficiaries of misogyny & the patriarchy in some circumstances, but they’re also blatantly victims of it in others, and even when they pass perfectly, they still have to deal with institutional transphobia (like the passport thing in the states right now, as an example that passing can’t circumvent)

if you want an answer to your question, how to be confident in being a cis woman — you must simply choose to be. i know, i know, it sounds like the hardest thing in the world. but i’ve said before & i’ll say again — in my youth i had chronic confidence problems that interfered with my life, so i’m saying this as somebody who got over it but the major difference between somebody who is confident and an equivalent person who is not is because the latter person already believes themselves to not be confident. it’s a self-defeating loop. this is what people really mean when they say, “fake it til you make it” — when you see other confident people, you are only seeing the thoughts and actions they are choosing to share with the world/take, and that dynamic works in reverse too. you don’t need my help to be confident — you’re already confident, you’re confident enough to ask questions like this, confident enough to make a change. you just need to convince yourself. you’ve already convinced me 🤷‍♀️

sincerely, i do think it’s worth thinking over your thoughts about transition and interrogating them more; do you want to be a man? do you not want to be a woman? try and take politics out of the question for a moment and ask yourself what you would look like or present like in your perfect world. not enjoying being a woman is not necessarily internalised misogyny — there are plenty of ways women are mistreated — and it isn’t vapid to like parts of yourself that people associate with womanhood, no matter what gender you are (anybody saying otherwise is sexist!).

i’m not gonna tell you who you are or how to be. but regardless of who you are, be it proudly, make it your choice. not what you think somebody like you should be, not what would be easiest. in my experience, the happiest cis women are the ones who take the same approach to their womanhood as trans women take: “i didn’t choose this for myself, but i sure am gonna own the fuck out of it”

[noxiatoxia]

Komaeda Nagito, and His Tendency to Use Filler Words

I've talked about this here and there, but I want to make an in-depth post with examples.

So, something that's always bothered me about the Eng release of SDR2 is the fact that Komaeda...does not use filler words as much as he should.

Let me explain.

I'm sure you know words such as "uh" "um" "ah" "er" and suchlike. When you don't know something or are thinking, you tend to say something like, "Um...yeah, so..." or "My, um, appointment is tomorrow."

These words add no "value" to the sentence, and are only placed involuntarily while speaking because you are trying to think as you speak.

Japanese has plenty of these, too. Words like えーと(etto), あの (ano), ううん (uun), ええ (ee), and so forth.

But there's other "filler" words out there. Like our earlier sentence, "Um...yeah, so..." "Um" is not the only filler word. "Yeah, so" is also a filler word, as it adds nothing to the overall sentence. It can be removed.

Really, any word can become a filler word. "You know" and "like" have real applications, but if you, like, start, like, talking like this, it's, you know, kind of repetitive, you know?

I think the vast majority of people on Earth are guilty of speaking like this in their day-to-day lives. It's just easy to do. But when it comes to media, you'll notice characters rarely stutter or repeat words. When they do, even if it's a small amount, it's noticeable because the surrounding context is that nobody else is doing it.

With all this information in mind, let's talk about Komaeda Nagito's dialogue.

実はさ、ボクは入学前に、ネットでみんなの情��を調べてきてるんだよね。

さ(sa), is a normal sentence particle in Japanese. It's used for a myriad of purposes, although many people seem to liken it to the American "Valley Girl" accent when overused, especially with another conversation particle, ね (ne).

It is a misconception that sa is "masculine". It used to be masculine way back, but nowadays it's more or less gender neutral.

This will be the topic of the post. Komaeda tends to use sa and ne in a way that is seen as "filler". These particles can be likened to "you know?" and "like" in the sense that they are real words that serve purposes, but can be repetitive.

In the sentence above, I would say the ne is not being used in a filler-like way. Sa, however, is.

"So, to be honest, before I arrived at this school, I, um, did a little research about everyone on the internet."

In this way, sa, ne, or any other particle when overused (な na is another big one, and I see Souda using it a lot) can be any filler word. Some would argue that the sentence should maybe look more like...

"So, you see, to be honest, before I arrived at this school, I did a little research about everyone on the internet."

And this is equally as correct. It's more in-line with how sa as a particle is normally used, but when translating it as how it's being used here - as a filler word - "um" may sound more appropriate in English. Neither is incorrect however, and there's a myriad of other ways you could go about writing this.

"So, you know, to be honest..."

"So, like, to be honest..."

"...I kind of did a little research..."

"...I, well, did a little research..."

etc.

ううん、いいんだよ。複雑なのはボク自身もそうだからさ。

Here, I wouldn't describe sa as being a filler word...necessarily. It adds emphasis, but it's still completely optional. Thus, I wouldn't translate it as a word imperative to the sentence's meaning.

"No, no, I totally get it. I have pretty mixed feelings about this, too."

最初はね…恐れ多いって断ったんだよ。でも、どうしてもって言われてさ。

Here is an example of him using ne in a filler-like way. You've probably caught on that particles which stand-in as filler are used usually at the beginning of a sentence before a comma or ellipses.

Komaeda actually uses ne in this manner fairly often. One of his default voice lines is "boku wa ne..." - I am unsure how this was recorded in the English dub. Probably just "I..." but personally I'd go with "Well, I..." or "I, uh..."

And unlike earlier, I would say the sa here at the ending is indeed more filler-like (not entirely still, though. Akin to the usage above).

"Um, honestly, at first…I was humbled, but I refused. But, well, they wouldn't stop insisting on it…"

By the way, Komaeda is not putting himself down in this scene. Japanese culture emphasizes being polite in a way Western spaces do not. "I don't deserve it" is a very direct translation, but in English, it makes more sense to read it as "I humbly declined".

And all these examples are just in the first conversation you have with him! You can imagine how many more there are through the whole game.

Now, here's a big question I'm sure you're thinking: "Why was this left out?"

I don't know to be honest, because...they did it with other characters.

Such as Koizumi in the same game:

だってさ、なんだか変なヤツばっかりじゃん。天才だか超高校級だか知らないけどさ…

Although Koizumi suffers from some of the same translation choices made with Komaeda, hers appears to be more consistent.

Finally, we need to talk about Naegi Makoto. He and Komaeda share beyond a voice actor - they talk the same, too. They both use the same self pronoun and you pronoun, use the same script, and also have a habit of using ne and sa in excess...though Naegi maybe does it slightly less.

Also confusing, this sometimes gets translated, like here:

そうそう、こんな危険な学校だしさ、何があるかわからないでしょ？ だから…念の為にさ。

The only reason I can think it only happens sometimes or, in Komaeda's case, not at all, is some translators on the team either didn't feel it was important to include/didn't think about it, while other translators did. Game translation typically has more than one person at the helm. A lack of good management can lead to weird discrepancies like this.

Anyways, that's all I got for now. I hope you find it interesting, because it's one of my absolute favorite character quirks of Komaeda and I am so sad it doesn't get any love in English...

[for-a-longlongtime]

Some blogs in the fandom is hellbent on taking away any attention away from anything mlm based with his characters anyway so it wouldn't matter in Renaldo was gay - someone would find a loophole to make him like women.

That is absolutely true and I think it happens in various degrees. Which really fucking sucks, because it invalidates the characters and the way Pedro performed them, but it also erases representation.

When it comes to fic and writing Pedro characters as mlm (men loving men, for those of you who don’t know the abbreviation), I do think there has been some progress. I’ve been a fan for about two years now and heavily into fic/Tumblr for 1.5 years, and there has most definitely been an increase of slash fic (aka mlm) as well as authors writing mlm threesomes with two male characters/Pboys and either a female/nb!reader insert or a female/nb!OC (There are also most definitely threesomes in fic where the two guys are focused on f!reader and very much do not ‘cross swords’, sort of speak — I don’t consider those to be bi or mlm for obvious reasons).

Here’s one thing I’ll say though: I’ve been hearing other writers (female as well as non-binary) talk about wanting to write slash fic/mlm but being hesitant because they’re not sure if they can do justice to it, or being concerned that they may write something that’s either wrong or offensive. I always try to encourage anyone to just go for it: you don’t have to write only from the POV of your own gender, the specific relationships you’ve been in, the intimacy or sex you’ve had in your real life, or even your race, profession, etc.

It’s not just fans who are part of the LGBTQIA+ community who would love to read more fic that’s focused on mlm (since we are most definitely a minority), but there are plenty of straight fans too who would love to read it. I’ve had several people tell me “but I don’t know any gay fic with Pedro characters, I would definitely give it a read though” - and when I sent them a couple of links they’re immediately super enthusiastic!

[austinslounge]

To the venting Anon.

It will be harsh to hear but this is the truth: Austin simply doesn't come across as sincere for someone who is not deep into the fandom. Compared to TC who seems always "on brand" and being himself ( love or hate this) Austin seems performative. For example, in the Actors on Actors video, he has these fake sound hummings, when he says "hmmm... exactly..." Sorry, but this is not seems honest, just an act. I do not like TC but he is never fake.

On the singing: TC sings all of the songs in the Dylan movie, AB doesn't sing all of the songs. Maybe he recorded all of it, but in the movie it's a mix. So there is a no question. Singing by yourself is a bigger achievement. Ramy Malek won an Oscar but he also got backlash for something similar, so since then, people judging harder this type of movies.

On the fame: being an actor and wanting to be famous is 2 different things and I don't like entitled fans who think they have a right to gain access or tell their fave to change profession. Margot Robbie doesn't have an insta, she deleted it and she is just fine and she is bigger star than Austin.

But the main problem is the first one. there is something in Austin that repels people if they are just ordinary moviegoers and not fans. He is like Henry Cavill who literally has no career anymore.

Okay, now see, what we're not going to do is have you, a Timmy Stan Anon (idc what you call yourself), come on to an Austin Butler fan Tumblr account (the blog name and pfp are pretty obvious) and proceed to just insult the man and not get checked for it.🤨

Second, I'll just add that I think it's very sad that people like you (who don't even know Austin), are just blindly following others online like sheep, and hopping on the "let's all hate on Austin Butler!" Train, instead of just thinking for yourself.

Honestly? I think a lot of the hate that Austin gets is not just because he's good-looking, or because of the Vanessa breakup (I've known plenty of actors to breakup with their gfs and they never received this amount of hate online), but also because so many girls/women online stan their favorite actors (like say Timothee), and they're threatened because Austin actually won two prestigious awards before Timothee Chalamet has, in half the time. I think some fans in some fandoms of famous actors are just upset that Austin (in their minds) seemed to come from out of nowhere, and shook things up a little bit, and now, their faves have someone else that they didn't expect to see coming competing in the big leagues right along with their faves. That (imo) is where most of the hatred online (especially from women) stems from. It's just jealousy and feeling threatened on behalf of their own faves if you ask me. Which, I'm not even sure why, because most of these actors don't even view themselves as competing with each other smh.

Anyway --- Before I go into this further, I have to say this:

**Disclaimer: I don't really like making too many comparisons when it comes to actors and comparing them to each other. It's just not really my thing, and it's kind of silly (imo), but for the sake of this post, I'll engage your comparisons.

It will be harsh to hear but this is the truth: Austin simply doesn't come across as sincere for someone who is not deep into the fandom. Compared to TC who seems always "on brand" and being himself ( love or hate this) Austin seems performative.

Umm first of all, Austin has NEVER been fake, EVER in his life. You can even look back to his old Tumblr posts and Tweets. He has always been who he is, which is a very sweet, kind, and down to earth guy. You (and some others on the internet) are the only ones calling him "fake", "pretentious", or "performative". 🙄 Those are your personal labels that you're putting on to him. Learn to know the difference. You don't even know him personally, yet you're putting negative labels on to him like you know him personally. 😒

Everyone who has ever worked closely with Austin has always had nothing but glowing things to say about him as a person, and has never ever called him "fake". From his co-stars on "The Carrie Diaries", his co-stars on "The Shannara Chronicles", his co-stars and even extras on set of "Elvis", to even his co-stars in Dune Part 2 (including Timmy, mind you), everyone has always said what a pleasure it is to be around him, and have never once called him "performative", or "fake". Not once. Not film crew, not interviewers who have interviewed him. NOBODY. Everyone (even directors) talk about how genuine and down to earth he is. Even that woman on the plane said just how "normal" he was and didn't seem like a celebrity at all. He's certainly never been called a "diva" before, unlike your precious Timothee Chalamet.😒

Even fans who have met him just briefly in person have always had wonderful things to say about him, and have never ever said he was fake. ☺️ If anything, they have said quite the opposite -- They've always said just how kind and genuine he is as a person. He's really someone who is attentive to you, listens, takes in what you're saying, and is very present and in the moment with you. ☺️ But yet, we're supposed to believe you, who doesn't even know the man, has never met him, and doesn't take into account what people who actually do know him have said about him? 🤨 Yea, okay.

For example, in the Actors on Actors video, he has these fake sound hummings, when he says "hmmm... exactly..." Sorry, but this is not seems honest, just an act.

Since when has saying "umm" or "hmmm" ever been seen as being "fake"?? Are you serious? 🥴

I do not like TC but he is never fake.

Uhhh actually, there are a lot of people who find Timothee fake. Some people find him (and his team) super calculated. There have even been rumors of him having diva behavior on set, which would negate the whole "wholesome good guy" image that he has curated for himself.

Could these articles/rumors be fake? Sure, they could be. But what I'm saying is that Austin hasn't even had anything of the sort like this come out about him. Yet, he's the one who's fake? 😒

Anyway, make of that what you will.

On the singing: TC sings all of the songs in the Dylan movie, AB doesn't sing all of the songs. Maybe he recorded all of it, but in the movie it's a mix. So there is a no question. Singing by yourself is a bigger achievement. Ramy Malek won an Oscar but he also got backlash for something similar, so since then, people judging harder this type of movies.

Excuse me, but please get your facts straight before making up stuff like this. First of all, Austin prepared to sing all of the songs in the "Elvis" biopic. He's a very thorough person and actor, so it's not something that he would have neglected.

He also sang all of the Elvis songs from the 1950s in the film because the older original Elvis songs were in such bad quality for a modern movie, that Baz simply had him sing all of the younger Elvis material. That included "Trouble", and everything prior to the Vegas scenes.

For the Vegas scenes, Baz shot the film with Austin actually singing live, and they blended Elvis' voice in some of the songs for the latter years of the film, but Austin is still singing. The decision to blend the voices was Baz's idea. Maybe he wanted to pay homage to the real late Elvis (who is dead btw -- Bob Dylan is not), and felt it was a nice way to show honor to the late singer.

But Austin can sing. He's been singing for years on TV shows. He also sang on SNL for Cecily's departure. The man can sing. It's not his fault if Baz wanted to blend the voices of the two singers in the latter Elvis years. That wasn't his fault.

He worked with a vocal coach and a movement coach and trained for a long time to be able to sing, move, and perform like Elvis. The man dedicated a lot of hard work and years to his craft for that film. So I don't really appreciate you trying to undermine his work.

But the main problem is the first one. there is something in Austin that repels people if they are just ordinary moviegoers and not fans.

No girl, that's just you and a few other bitter weirdos on the internet. 🙄 Real people (who can think for themselves) and who actually have met Austin, who know him, and who don't just follow the trends of whatever people are saying on the internet actually love Austin. Even those who aren't fans of Austin love him.

He is like Henry Cavill who literally has no career anymore.

No he's not. Girl, you lost all credibility with this statement alone. And what on earth does Henry Cavill have to do with anything? 🥴

Austin has like 4 projects lined up, has won a lot more prestigious awards than your Timothee, and directors love working with him. Not sure why you're comparing him to Henry Cavill (who just had a baby btw with his partner).

You may want to go back to the Timothee tumblr fan accounts, and please leave us Austin fans here alone. 😤 Thank you.

[bnhaobservation]

The LoV has failed as a villain group compared with all MHA movies villains! All MHA movies villains are much better than them!

I'm not sure if you're sarcastically echoing the annoyance of those who think the story did dirt to the league or you're criticizing them but I'll take your words as honest and a chance for me to discuss a bit of the League.

I wouldn't really say the movie Villains are better than the League for the simple fact that, in the end, due to being characters in a movie, they're way too quickly defeated and forgotten and hardly do any damage. They don't get to kill someone important, they don't really make countless schemes, they don't manage to escape capture and remain active and if they impact society that impact last an incredibly short amount of time because everything must be returned to zero for the story to manage to fit into the storyline of the anime.

But Horikoshi's choice to go for the League as the main Villain group is surely... odd.

Let's compare it with the other Villain groups, All for One's, Overhaul's, Re-Destro.

Re-Destro is a powerful businessman with plenty of men working under him, enough they rightfully define themselves a Army. He also has plenty of elite fighters, even if few get properly introduced and plenty of money and resources as he's in the support item industry and his underlings are also people of power.

Overhaul has less men but he's still a powerful Yakuza boss with enough money and underlings to look like a threat plus 10 elite fighters (the eight bullets, Chronostasis and Mimic) and resources to produce his Quirk-cancelling bullets.

All for One in his golden age was better off than Re-Destro in every mean possible, after he fell he still has enough money to support Garaki's research and his hospitals and orphanages in which they also do human experimentation secretly, have allies all around the globe, finance the League and dispose of Nomu.

As for Shigaraki without All for One's support... his league is moneyless, they live in a trash hideout, since Kurogiri leaves to search for Machia and Magne dies early on, he's left with 5 underlings. Of them initially only Dabi has a strong offensive power because Twice, due to his trauma, can't really fight, Himiko hadn't had her Quirk awakening yet and so she, Compress and Spinner aren't really that big of a threat.

The fact that the police fears them makes the situation hilarious and the police incompetent, not them a threat.

The moment the league gain enough power to effectively be a threat, the story immediately bring them back by having the Heroes make a surprise strike that erases most of their newly aquired assets.

Shigaraki's modding is interrupted, Garaki is taken captive, the Nomu factory is lost, most of the army is gone, Twice is dead and the plit between the League and the Meta Liberation Army becomes clear as Shigaraki cares to have Machia bring to him only the League which makes sense as the MLA never truly cared for Shigaraki and Co and only tailed after him because Re-Destro told them to do so.

And they're up facing an overwhelmingly number of Heroes.

At the same time the story sabotages them, Dabi's name doesn't mean cremation just in reference to how Touya almost died burned alive, his fire is hot enough he can cremate people but... not Hawks apparently, even if, considering how close Hawks was to him and the time he was exposed to fire, should have reduced Hawks to a charred corpse. I'll say Touya's fire damages Touya more than it damages others which is ridicule when Horikoshi reveals Touya HAS some fire resistance while Hawks has none...

On the other side the less powerful fire of Endeavor works just fine to burn Shigaraki consistently, good to him he has regeneration... to bad the fact Garaki hadn't finished modding him causes troubles.

Also Shigaraki hits Gran Torino as hard as he can and the old man survives to it! Deku ruins his arms but... it's okay, they'll heal just fine.

Bakugou's get stabbed in place of Deku but doesn't die like Twice, no he can fight and will recover.

And hey, the Heroes now have new technology and Eri controls her power so Best Jeanist is back from death and Lemillion have his Quirk back.

Compress instead is captured, Shigaraki gets possessed and they've to escape.

In the second war the Heroes overwhelm the Villains again, both in numbers and in times the narrative depicts them in advantage. @stillness-in-green did count the cliffhangers and the Heroes were definitely more often in advantage than the Villains.

Never mentioning that the Heroes get even better off than in the first war. In the first war they had some minor casualties... here they don't have even that, the deaths are all on the Villain side, Machia, AFO, Himiko, Shigaraki, and, even if delayed as he gets to live a little longer, Touya.

Bakugou gets resurrected and his arm will recover, Midoriya gets his arms back, Edgeshot survives and manages to regrow his arms.

The ones who take the worst deal are Enji, who gets wounded so seriously he's unable to use his legs, loses his arm and can't be a Hero (but he had already decided to Quirk), Fuyumi and Rei that get scarred (but they're no Heroes), Hawks who lost his Quirk (but he still becomes the HPSC president).

The LOV is a much more interesting Villain group than many others and I love the choice to make them all outcasts but... after the lost AFO's patronage they aren't genuinely given a chance to shine as a real threat that overwhelms the Heroes. The moment they might be capable to do it, the story turns the tables so fast you wonder if you dreamt it.

So it's not so much a LOV failure as a story failure. An enemy threat must be a believable threat and the LOV often doesn't get the chance to look as such even if the story insists it is.

[bruiisedfawn]

🧸

[skrunksthatwunk]

kinda thinking about how the women who serve as maternal figures/raise kids in yyh are never quite ready for it. genkai's an arguable exception, but like.. atsuko had yusuke at 15, shizuru's basically in charge of kazuma full time in her early 20s/late teens (depending on version) with very very absent parents, and even shiori is given a kid she wasn't expecting, in the form of an old, old demon rather than like. a regular, blank slate ass human baby. and although shiori seems to do quite well with kurama, kurama can never be honest with shiori about who he is, or much of what he's seen. if he was, it'd probably make things far more complicated and overwhelming. atsuko, no matter how much she cares for yusuke, Could Not Have Been and thus wasn't ready to have him at 15. her attempts to make the most of that situation have had middling success at best. shizuru has also been placed into a parental role. we don't really know how long she's been raising kuwabara, but that's.. probably still parentification anyway. she shouldn't have to do that, and she shouldn't have to do that so young. and i think some of her coarseness with kuwa is out of frustration with her own inexperience + inadequacy + uncertainty, his not cooperating, and their parents for putting this on her in the first place. the ones who know the full extent of their situation grow desperate and it squeaks out in unpleasant ways, and the one who seems unbothered by it is the only one who has no idea that she's in way over her head. and i mean. ok. gonna preface this by saying keiko is NOT yusuke's mom in any sense of the word. but she does take care of him in a way atsuko couldn't manage to. she's often looking after him and cleaning up after his messes and stuff. she takes him on as a responsibility, and that is, in a way, a caretaker role. not to say that it SHOULD be her responsibility, but it's how she ends up being.

and when the stress of trying to make someone take care of themselves or be kind or good or Whatever goes awry, again, the violence and arguing and distance and ugliness of caring for someone reveals itself.

and i wonder about that. for a series dedicated to physical fighting as a form of communication, what does it say that this extends to the complicated, quietly desperate situations of so many of the women/girls it depicts, whom our more central characters were shaped and raised by?

hell, even hiei touches on this, because hina loved hiei, but there was no way she was prepared for him, obviously, nor for the pain of losing him. rui (whom i also see as a sort of caretaker figure to hiei, inasmuch as either of them were caretakers) literally throws him off a cliff because she couldn't face down the village elders, and out of some mixture of care for hina and, likely, fear for her own survival. and the guilt and pain of that killed hina and deeply wounded rui.

it's like motherhood, this thing that's so often treated as sacred and beautiful, is a kind of stitched up, painful, eggshell-walking thing that hurts parent and child and it's just. oughh

[telesodalite]

Been thinking about idw1's outliers lately, and how sort of wild the whole concept is from a worldbuilding standpoint, and it struck me that most confirmed outlier abilities tend to be really useful, or flashy, or powerfully dangerous, and few to none tend to be like, really boring, or totally impractical, or even entirely useless? Which, doesn't really make sense when considering the fact that outlier abilities are seemingly random.

Surely not everyone who's born an outlier gets something useful?

And I don't mean like, "good" useful, but any sort of useful, even if that means you can kill people with your voice, or give a power boost by exploding yourself, those are still "useful".

But surely there had to be some with abilities that were totally impractical, or nonbeneficial, or at the very least just insignificant or purely aesthetic and pointless?

[akkivee]

kuukou with that sour ramen

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

[3416]

1634 make me genuinely ill because there are just.... so few bonds in this sport where you look at them and go. that was 100% meant to happen like that and no one else could've slotted in. like yea, so many of players across the league form close bonds and friendships bc that's the nature of spending a whole part of your life sharing a common goal and space when you're like.. doing this team activity... and guys are constantly befriending ppl and moving on... but auston and mitch it's like. it's almost like THEY feel that they were supposed to have that bond... and go out of their way to reaffirm it at every turn... like they met and got along and loved each other immediately and were so excited to get to play hockey together only to NOT get to for a long while and while they waited, they ??? developed all these rituals. and these things together... their personal routines, things to communicate to each other that they have each other's backs and are building each other into their visions and superstitions and dreams, some of which we'll never know about (unless they'd so kindly like to tell us a la mitch's interview with cabbie where he says maybe some day he'll share the gifts auston's gotten him w the world. tell all book when mitch).. but their gloves and their handshakes and their warmups and even the way they walk into road games and it's jsut. like it's friendship, for sure, obviously. they get along off the ice and make each other laugh the most and have a good time, but it's also the inextricable linking of their own careers. BY THEIR OWN DOING. like they want their names jotted next to each other and that's PART of the chase for this greater goal. yes, they would have been talked about in tandem anyway bc they're out here being the best leafs ever and hitting milestones like 500 points.... 600 points... just weeks apart from each other season to season. but also it's their commitment to each other that makes them talked about too. it's commentators saying they love to play together bc they can see it. they've heard them talk about it. they watch it. "marner to matthews" "matthews to marner". they're always gonna know where each other are.... it makes me . feel. violent with love, lol. makes me feel like some things are definitely meant to be.

[depresseddepot]

literally the only thing my dad does is hurt his back and yell. how am I supposed to buy a gift for someone like that

[luminarai]

My coworker brought in banana bread today which reminded me that the reason why I never make it at home anymore is because I absolutely cannot be trusted around banana bread

[unproduciblesmackdown]

(genderly) chill as hell if i was only ever glimpsed / detected like this

[armenelols]

By the way. Buying jeans in stores is impossible if you are shorter than average and they are gonna drag behind you like a veil. Have fun tripping on them (It's me. I am short)

[babacontainsmultitudes]

[just venting a bit into the void you understand you understand 😌] Lately I've been feeling very caught between "I have a lot of thoughts on Sparrow and Normal and all that with the ending and teen talk and feel like I need to get them out and voice them for my own piece of mind and resolution" and "I am lacking the strength and energy to actually sit down and write it all out and kind of really just want to fully move on to other things (AUs, fics, anything else)" but my brain can't seem to commit to either and that's quite frustrating cause it's just left me very restless. *Sigh*. Idk! Just needed to complain about that a bit ig, it's silly but this is what has been ailing me as of late.