#hp is ALSO my hyperfixation

[maledictusfotum]

the songs that I MOST associate with my most favorite blorbos bc I HAVE TO GET THIS OUT OF MY HEAD: Harry- Homesick by Noah Kahan Preacher by Roe Kapara Harvey by Alex G Caught by Florence and The Machine Severus- Bitter by Chappell Roan Fool For Love by Lord Huron(this is more marauders era Severus) Poison Prince by Amy Macdonald Until It Doesn't Hurt by Mother Mother Hermione- Are You Satisfied? by MARINA God Must Hate Me by Catie Turner MEAN! by Madeline The Person Over And Over by Rio Romero Ron- Trash by Alex G Fame by Packtion Caves by Noah Kahan Ends Of The Earth by Lord Huron Sirius- Half Return by Adrienne Lenker Twin Size Mattress by The Front Bottoms The Family Jewels by MARINA Lone Star by The Front Bottoms Remus- Wolf by First Aid Kit The Last Of The Real Ones by Fall Out Boy Love, Me Normally by Will Wood We Went Wild by Lord Huron

[hussyknee]

In one of the 647968 posts going "What You Like Says Nothing About You" (broadly agree) the first comment in the reply section was, "well I'm never going to apologize for being a Swiftie and a Reylo and Destiel shipper and Snape fan and loving ACOTAR and LOTR and Hamilton and B99" and I'm like, actually being this much of a pathological white liberal makes you the exception to this rule 😭😭

[puppppppppy]

who up seeing their disorder in a fictional character but feel like its not their place to put a name on it

[love-songs-for-emma]

looking at Bratz dolls listings on ebay makes me SO SAD. the unboxed ones go for 100s of US dollars... bbygirl you were meant to be played with,, not to sit in a box for almost a decade : (

[greeneyeofenvy]

ngl I don’t even know what I was trying to do

[allalrightagain]

In case anyone was wondering how my mental health was doing, I saw one (1) Wicked comic and now I’m fighting brainworms off on a third front

[ambreiiigns]

just spent a good 20 minutes crying my eyes out over so far away by avenged sevenfold i have regressed to when i was 13 and extremely attached to this band

[constant-state-of-self-discovery]

The lipstick was also the chainsaw! It transforms!

some people talk shit about homestuck but i vividly recall a lesbian turning into a vampire before chainsawing a dude in half and re-applying her lipstick with the stains of his blood also she and her god-girlfriend live and get married as endgame so frankly everyone can either back off or step up their game 

[moonsandmobilityaids-inactive]

i just wanna say that your productivity for writing is insane, i aspire to be like you one day istg 🙏

I wanna say thank you, but also, please don't aspire to be like me - I don't remember the last time I left the house for something that wasn't a medical appointment or grocery shopping (actually, that's a lie but it was about 4 weeks ago now). Point being, this is not necessarily a healthy way to be.

[sillypersonwho]

ronarry is taking over my brain!!!! Get out!!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[puppys-rhythm-heaven]

me using this blog as my main is funny to me like. i'm not even really hyperfixated on rhythm heaven rn gfgffgggggfgfd-

[fellshish]

I have a question, and my name is Sal.

I grew up watching Coraline as a kid. It was my jam. I loved that movie, and I will forever say Henry Selick deserved more attention for making it.

I like the Dresden Dolls and Evelyn Evelyn (Amanda Palmer projects) I still have the songs stuck in my head. You know where this is going.

I know you said that fans of works should still enjoy the work even if the creator sucks. And I can do that with Kubrick and Aaron Fechter, but that’s because Kubrick is dead, and most of Aaron Fechter’s IP got ripped away from him and is gladly in the hands of the public (despite how much he likes to sue).

Gaiman (and Palmer) are still alive and/or profiting off their stuff. Not to mention, I want to bring attention to the situation and help bring justice to the victims. Yet everytime I post about it or reblog what someone else put into words what I think, I feel like I’m virtue signalling.

How do I handle it and is it bad that I keep thinking of the art that influenced me by them instead of what they did (in a way to soften the blow to how horribly they abused these women)?

(You can respond to this publicly, as I am sure people are thinking the same thing somewhere. I am sorry for dumping all this on you.)

hi sal!

sorry, this got long. your ask was so genuine and i was afraid of getting it wrong. 

i want to start this off by saying i am not the boss of anyone’s fandom experience. everyone gets to decide for themselves how they proceed after learning about the numerous women who have come forward against neil gaiman.

the things you mention are things i’ve struggled with too — last year when i first learned about it, when i listened to the podcasts and recently again reading even more detailed (and horrifying) news reporting.

these are also struggles shared by many fans in many fandoms of creators who were accused and/or controversial and/or convicted. for example many (trans) people i know have grown up loving harry potter, and have had to deal with their favourite writer waging a vendetta against trans lives. some still participate in the hp fandom without supporting her. they can’t help their hyperfixation and still find a lot of good and a lot of friends in the fandom. 

because yes, i do believe that someone can stay in such a fandom as ethically as possible. as in: i try the best that i can to make sure no further financial gains go to the creator. that means i avoid watching official streams, buying official merch, going to official cons, going to plays based on his work etc. i also amplify the women’s voices by spreading the article. 

the thing to keep in mind is: there is a difference and a distance between a creator and a fandom of what they created. a huge wall even. fandom is about community, friendships, creativity, … i am on a playground playing with the characters with my friends. sharing art and fics and gifs etc. and what those characters and stories mean to me are positive things. 

the core is this: if you have to live your life only consuming art by morally pure people (and who determines that?!) then you will have very little left to enjoy. 

and of course i understand the urge to want to help the victims, and the guilt/worry about virtue signaling. i’m going to break those down separately.

i think the idea of ‘helping bring justice to the victims’ is good but it also puts an unreasonable amount of responsibility on your young shoulders. here’s what’s already happened: the women’s voices have been heard, there is now more widespread media covering, he has lost his reputation, hasn’t been on his platforms since last summer, he’s losing (film) projects of his work, … what else consequences are yet to come, legally or otherwise, we’ll have to see. the responsibility for that lies not with you as one single fan but with lawyers etc. and you might find it important to keep vigilant that the story doesn’t get buried (again). in that case reblogging isn’t virtue signalling but useful.

but it’s also unreasonable to expect someone to continually do that for days and days. that’s a quick ticket to depression. ultimately tumblr is, to many, a fandom space. some people use it only for pleasant fandom activities. and what if they do? you can’t know a person’s whole life: maybe they are survivors who are too triggered to participate, maybe they’ve donated to causes that help survivors, maybe they have shared the story on other platforms etc

you asked “is it bad that I keep thinking of the art that influenced me by them instead of what they did”, and i found that the most heartbreaking part of your ask. it isn’t helpful to you or to anyone to keep torturing yourself with guilt. you’re aware of the allegations, and that’s good. but don’t burn yourself out trying to live up to the impossible standard of a morally pure activist that doesn’t exist. please stop being your own thought police. 

i think the fact you struggle so deeply, shows what a beautiful person you are.

now you’re going to be reading a lot of opinions. some very different from mine. am i right in continuing in fandom? i don’t know. this is my first time living life too. but i AM right that you’re a good person.

that said: protect your heart. block freely and curate a fandom space that makes you happy. avoid engaging in endless internet discourse that is bad for your mental health. step away for a while if that is what you need.

these are some intense days but i promise it gets better. the kid who loved coraline can still love coraline, but is just more informed now. 

the main rule of fandom is: does it spark joy? if yes, embrace it, because that’s a wonderful and rare thing to have.

[the-gentleman-pining]

Righto party people, we had a good run, we got a beautiful S1 of OFMD unmarred by bullshit, which was the first time a lot of us had seen queer rep in that way. It meant a lot, it's been my hyperfixation for a couple years at this point! I even met Rhys, Vico, and Samson this weekend gone, which was unfortunately a bit soured by everything going on.

It boils down to this: how can I enjoy a show with themes of anti-colonialism and rising up against oppressive powers, knowing one of the biggest people behind its creation, Taika Waititi, is himself in signing letters in support of Israel as they occupy and mass slaughter Palestinians. The whole thing smacks of hypocrisy. As someone in the UK, I couldn't watch this recent season in a way that financially supported it anyway. But it's about more than that. I don't know how fans can continue to comfortably engage with it.

We had widespread abandonment and condemnation of JKR in queer circles after her TERF bullshit, and yes it took a while to catch on and for people to realise the smear campaign against an entire group of people wasn't worth them holding onto that piece of media. It's hard letting go of something that means so much. Or is it? I personally was never a huge HP fan, so I didn't share that struggle. But here? With OFMD? Yeah it's safe to say this show has been my life for a couple years. I'm heartbroken this is going down the way it has, and I don't mean that to have anything to do with the quality of the media in S2. It's not a relevant factor when its creator starring actor and co-creator is ADVOCATING GENOCIDE*. If that doesn't put you off, I don't really have more to say.

My conclusion? It's not hard to let go, you just don't think it's important.

I think, unless there is significant backtracking and work done to undo this damage, and even then probs not, this will be my last OFMD post.

Fuck you Taika, you betrayed your fans, but you also betrayed yourself by forgetting the things you used to stand for. Eat shit.

*some people have pointed out that pro-Israeli support is not inherently advocating genocide, because Taika may be ignorant to what's really going on. This is possible, however, firstly, if you don't fully understand something, don't fucking advocate for it. Secondly, intentional or not, he has contributed to a pro-genocidal rhetoric, by signing a letter that one-sidedly condemned Hamas taking hostages without awareness that Israel has taken far more, and for someone in his position of influence, that amounts to the same impact. Obscuring nuance pushes a biased narrative. It's insidious and easily denied.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for getting mad at a friend over Harry Potter?

🏳‍⚧🎊 <- for recognizing this later

I (15X) have this IRL friend who we'll call A (14X). A and I are both under the trans/nonbinary umbrella, which I feel will be important. A also suspects that they have autism, which I won't deny, I feel like they do as well.

A is one of my best friends, and I've known them since we were 8 years old. We generally know what types of media would be considered dogwhistles towards marginalized groups - or so I thought, which is why it surprised me when A said they were getting into a mild HP hyperfixation.

A tends to hop around from fixation to fixation, and currently has been into Percy Jackson for the past month, constantly sending screenshots of their favorite moments in different fanfics to a group chat, including me and another friend, J (14X). I'd been fine with that, as A usually did this with any fixation and I thought it was fine.

One thing I did know is that PJO and HP crossovers are really popular (or at least, they were - not so sure about now), but I didn't think that A would associate with anything relating to HP. But then one day, I saw that A was talking with J about sorting their favorite PJO characters into different Hogwarts houses. If you haven't read HP, the school is called Hogwarts, and there are four houses within the school that you can get sorted into based on personality traits.

This surprised me, a lot. I thought that we all knew HP wasn't the greatest series (romanticization of slavery, anyone?), and that the author herself was a complete piece of shit. But when I voiced this, A basically said that they were rewriting the series to be "gayer" and more trans-accepting.

This troubled me. For one thing, as we were all trans, I thought they would know not to associate with HP in any way, shape, or form. I replied with, "You know JKR thinks people who support her books are transphobic, but are just too afraid to say it, right?" (Yes, I'm fairly sure she did actually say this. I wasn't lying.)

A responded with, "Who cares what JKR thinks? She's a bigot. Separate the art from the artist."

I couldn't do that, personally. HP felt too tainted by JKR's actions and words, and it felt wrong to come up with an excuse to engage with the series. I told A as such, and they replied with, "okay" and haven't responded to me or to the group chat since. J has spoken in the group chat, but hasn't said anything about our debate over HP.

Immediately, I was worried I had upset A too much. I thought they would understand, but I felt like I had accidentally crossed a line with them. I sent them a private message telling them I apologized for upsetting them, but I'm not sorry for what I said about HP. And I can't go to apologize to A in person, because I live an hour away from A and J. J hasn't updated me on A's position at all, and I haven't asked.

So I'm not sure. HP sucks, and I thought A would realize that as a trans person as well, but it also felt like I had personally insulted them by insulting their side fixation.

AITA? TL;DR My friend, A, got a side fixation into Harry Potter. This troubled me, as we are all trans, so I told them off for it, and now they won't talk to me.

What are these acronyms?

[jasminedragonart]

I am so sorry to anyone who follows me but unfortunately the Marauders have now become the current hyperfixation of my art. I'm making a bunch of little comics about it which I will post elsewhere since I know not everyone on here is... supportive of the HP universe.

LET ME BE CLEAR. I do not support JKR. Like I seriously don't. I think her policies and prejudice is disgusting.

That being said, Harry Potter was a hugely influential part of my childhood and while there are some (a lot) problems with the books, I will say the movies were great and promoted a lot of positive themes that a lot of kids took away from it.

Also, i feel like in terms of art and artist being separated, while Harry Potter himself is still tied a lot with JK, I feel like the Marauders has become this entity of its own.

If anything, this is one of those instances where an entire fandom has literally sprouted from nothing. We have full length novels, literal novels, written from the breadcrumbs of a backstory we don't even have a lot of specifics about. It's truly impressive and I, as it happens every so often, have once again been sucked in.

I'm making a separate blog to post my stuff to. If you're interested I'm sure you'll find my work. If not, that's fine.

But, I do want to say that in terms of fiction, a lot of monumental novels and ideas are built off one another. Fandom seems to forget that a lot of things that are popular today are built off things from the past. We have this amazing adaptation of Interview with the Vampire that was born off a very odd and kind of problematic book. Problematic shouldn't be buried. It should be discussed and made better. If you don't like an author, don't listen to them. Fandom creates its own ecosystem away from the author. We should be allowed to enjoy something or at least be inspired by it without meeting the criticism we're often given.

Again, I'm not supporting JK. I'm not. I'm saying I shouldn't be demonised for liking a series or at least the works inspired by the series that shaped a lot of my childhood. No one should be bullied for having a nuanced opinion. Now, am I going to be giving JK my money? No. I'll support creators if I want merch (which I don't, my HP merch days are long over). I'll probably pirate the books if I want to read them again. But if I want to post art I'll post art. I'm tired of being scared to post things just because of supposed backlash I might receive.

I make my art for me, and right now the only thing I'm inspired to create are these small comics based around the marauders. It's going to change at some point. But I feel like i shouldn't just sit on art when I could be developing it drawing new things now. If I just think instead of drawing, my art is going to be stagnant. I don't know if you guys have noticed but my art has been extremely repetitive these last few years. I'm not inspired by ATLA right now, and if I was, I don't think it's right to keep drawing it when it means I'm not developing. I'm so used to drawing the same faces that they're starting to look alien to me. I need challenges. I need to feel inspired and creative and to push myself. Sure, it's just Harry Potter, but if I draw Harry Potter stuff I'm also learning how to draw werewolves and castles and dragons.

So, this has been long and rambly but, yeah, if I'm not posting here it's because I'm posting elsewhere.

[fridgrave2-0]

I DIDN'T THINK THERE'D BE A SKELE'ON HERE!

PECKA

she/her ☆ aro-bi adhd ☆ 22 ☆ russian ☆ artist

hyperfixation: kingdom come deliverance

fandoms: kcd, until dawn, wreck it ralph, atla, gravity falls, hatchetfield, the hobbit, it's always sunny, slimecicle, pacific rim, mission impossible, god of war, far cry 4, hp, traffic life

my otps: hansry, harrygeorge, solidaritimes, climbing class, 80s boyfriends, gaslight girlboss gamejump (felix x calhoun x turbo), zukaang, michie, rinch, fiddlestan, lanedunn, charmac, bagginshield, misclick duo, dapduo, newmann

my notps: crashley, zutara, fiddauthor, billford, macden, desert duo

about me: i draw gay people. also post a ton of silly headcanons about my favorite characters. i like dogs, cinnamon rolls, raspberry tea and being cringe. i don't like mushrooms and tom cr*ise

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