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oh. my. god. i just realized i might have minor ocd.
#IS THIS WHY I NEED TO BE GOOD AT THINGS TO ENJOY THEM#OR HATE COLORING BECAUSE IM SCAREF ILL COLOR THINGS BADLY#AND WANT COLOR BY NUMBERS BECAUSE THEY TELL YOU WHAT TO DO#OR HOW PAST EMBARRESMENT GIVES ME BIG DRAMATIC INFLATED REACTIONS???#IS THAT A SYMPTOM OF SOMETHING ELSE??? IDK#all of this over a game of among us.#irl alice#ocd#???#do i have ocd???#help me oh wise ones
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I really am so sad I don't like isat. The themeing was very good
#isat critical#like the ''we must be prepared for the destruction change will bring'' shit came back so hard at the end#specifically with loop context/destroying themself to become a star. to become loop#and the fact that when siffrin deviated from the script. finally changed the way he performed his play (act 5)#that's when it broke#and he had to ''destroy'' his friends to do it. In a way. When all he knew how to do was fight/snapped#and it's like. of COURSE loop is how siffrin was able to escape. Because escaping the loop meant siffrin had to save/love themself#value their own life and not just their friend's#to realize that they couldn't do it on their own. that they needed their friends to help them out of it. they needed support#that being loved was more than saying the right thing or doing the right quest#isat is so strong structurally/thematically/plot-wise and I personally despise it comedically/character/dialogue writing-wise#and the whole game is dialogue. like isat is the most conflicting experience I've had in a while#Where I hate actually reading the dialogue and I don't like the character writing but I love thinking about it's themes. like hello#that sucks i'd rather have it just be one or the other#*aaravos voice* you must live life in the grey#Like the king and siffrin foil is my beloved. And I absolutely adore how the King's story was ended.#But I dislike siffrin as a character and I also hate most of the game's execution#like every emotional beat is made anticlimactic by the lack of subtext and the constant repetition#(literally laughed out loud at ''my house my country my HOME!'' like we said the same thing 3 times babe. the whole game is like this)#isat has a huge case of ''we wanted conflict but didn't give characters any real flaws to be able to do it''#idk. Everyone repeated over and over that they don't touch siffrin because he's uncomfortable with it. Over and over.#And yet he's still like. ''It's because Isa finds you disgusting'' Huh. Idk if we did the work for Siffrin to come to that conclusion#Like literally Isa never does anything to even imply that. All he's ever done is sing Sif's praises. makes me feel crazy#Like ''oh he views everyone else as just a character!! a pawn!'' except no he doesn't. he barely did in act 5#and even in act 5 he's horrified at how he treated odile. like. we did not commit to that. I got sad lukewarm flowey#Do not even get me started on odile's ''I think it's so cute you trapped yourself in time and went crazy because you love us''. Girl#Like no we can. We can commit. Siffrin did bad things and going crazy was bad. Odile wasn't wrong to be upset.#Like why not 'That was terrible of you to say. But I won't leave you—you still love people who make mistakes- because what else is there?'#like we got so close with the worst loop being the permanent loop. Siffrin is still loved no matter what. But idk. Felt brushed off#oh isat...you strange being...
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Bowtie Charm! Inspired by @zarla-s‘ super cute rendition hehe 💕 (Patreon)
Bonus collar breakdowns:
Changes depending on the doodle!
#Doodles#Villainsona#Just Desserts#And a couple other sonas! Haha#Very yays and thank yous again for the trade ♥ She's so cute hehe#She doesn't normally wear a bowtie but her collar can look a lot like it at times!#I decided to go all in to see just how she Would look with a bowtie and the answer is cute! I for one am shocked#My bowties tend to be quite poofy huh always very rounded - Charm's collar tapers kinda almond shaped#I'm still not entirely sure how the double-tapered look works.... It's scalloped >.> That's what I always say lol#Really she probably would and should have the Mandarin collar - possibly more scalloping >:3c - I just go outside the margins a lot haha#I've drawn her once or twice with the butterfly collar tho! Where her collar dips down into her spiderweb pattern at the top of her shirt!#It's a really cute shape ahhh it works best with my lineless stuff but even here I think it turned out nice! :D Cute! Pretty!#Butterfly in a spiderweb........wings something something much to think about#Butterfly were 100% my gateway into finding bugs and eventually spiders cool so there you go symbolism-wise lol#Still remember being too excited to sleep as a littley on the promise of going to a butterfly house the next day hehe <3 Love 'em!#Fullbody as well - the larger dot in the middle of her kneepad in Zarla's looks like a donut to me so I had to try that out too!#Smol's actually been talking about making a donut/eclaire-themed JD Resident lately I can't steal her thunder hehe ♪ Oh just this once#Donut kneepads probably would offer a good bit of support that cookie kneepads don't huh :0 Less pressure right on the kneecap#All the cutes! Though I did keep her double-scalloped thigh-high shoes I can't help it they're my favourite haha#And ending off with the other two Bowtie Sonas! Hall of Mirrors definitely deserves that moniker she was introduced with that as a feature#And their cane but pfsh details - the important part is the bowtie! And they have that!#Will's is just to break up his design a bit haha - I think Erase has the same style of bowtie now that I think of it??#White on white tucked into the jacket... Hm!#Always love a trio or duo or however ♪ The fun the fun ♫
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"or dealing with a family member who erroneously believes that Game of Thrones isn’t very good" I don't know how to tell you this but... it isn't very good. go read asoiaf and maybe then you'll see the truth.
#the rest of this post was very good very helpful good post btw but this made me pause cause uh. well im a hater at heart if you didnt know#game of thrones is bad because it simply doesnt understand all the complexity of george's work#it relies on shock and violence to get the point across and dismiss much more emotional scene to make them badass instead#it lacks the subtle horror that george's books have because all they saw when reading it was the obvious big horrors#which isnt something an adaptation should gloss over but there are many details than when taken out#take out emotional payoffs in service of big blood bath. anyway#like 'the lannisters send their regards' or arya emotionlessly killing poliver with one quick cut of her sword cause she wanted to#or the change from bolton reigning over harrenhal to tywin becoming arya's wise daddy figure for some inconceivable reason#stripping that arc of every social commentary and gripping moments#anyway why am i ranting so much in the tags. oh yeah cause im a hater its in my dna#oh and also they fundamentally misunderstood some characters which i feel fine and normal about#and wrote off some of the best ones#asoiaf
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trying to look for a ttrpg group in spaces where I can't just go 'listen I want to play this shit in the tumblr fandom kind of model (gay subtext extremely welcome bordering on essential, mutual unhinged character psychoanalysis, we could create a novel of a backstory together to make this sadder, let's all play with our OC dolls together and also sometimes dice are rolled I guess)' and be readily understood and/or not be immediately side-eyed or denigrated for my inherent unavoidable tumblerinaness feels like such an annoying debuff to deal with on the quest. like I know my people exist out there but how do I express myself in the right way and wade through all the copious not-it (not for me) dynamics to find them!!!
#I feel like a weird kid in the playground trying to find someone who plays the same way as me all over again fhdksjfa#(and if/when I find them -- how the fuck to approach them)#turns out there are so many ways to play rpgs that do not appeal to me in the slightest#there are so many dimensions -- creative interpersonal gameplay-wise -- where you can severely not match with someone lmao#with half of the people I've come across it seems like it would be a struggle just to agree there should be a session 0 :')#but I know I KNOW this could be exactly my kind of fun with the right people it's a little maddening#(my group of friends when I was 12-13 was like... we were trying SO hard to play an rpg without having an rpg to play#some from first principles but with no guidelines to help us stuff#and it was one of my rare 'oh fuck. oh fuck yeah this could be it!!' social moments at that time lol. clearly something instinctive there)#I have been lurking around in a discord server on a more national/local level but I'm not gonna lie... a lot of The Good Old Boys shit#dominating the conversation there. I really don't think they mean to take all the oxygen out of the room for everyone else but uh#it's kind of just what happens. I have seen seen hour-long debates over definitions so esoteric and navel-gazing it would haunt your dreams#trying to wade through that to find the people who might vibe more with me seems... so exhausting and I don't know howww!!#the high masking autistic blues plays again
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Now I have to send this answer back to you! Do you feel you have changed the way you write England (and France!) since the beginning? In what ways do you think you have improved when writing them?
Oh GOD yes!
On England:
I used to write him more as per old fandom norms: stereotypically tsundere, grumpy, quick to react, and emotionally a bit all over the place in regards to how he came to certain conclusions. All from the anime, of course, which definitely flavoured how the fandom wrote and portrayed him as a whole
But mostly, he's unchanged. Most of those traits didn't last too long for me. As soon as I tried writing him in a long form story he rigidly rebelled haha. He's always had a very strong and set personality in my head and my Arthur from 2011 is the same guy he is for me today, just with a few more bells and whistles that I've since chipped off
The main ways he's changed I think is just through me improving as a writer and being able to better understand and portray nuance. I think he's a very complciated person, very layered and confusing even to himself, and whilst on the surface he might be contrary or stubborn the reasons he has for his behaviour make sense to him. I wasn't very good at showing this when I started out writing and my early Arthur is clearly written by a less mature writer and person. As I've grown, he's grown with me
On France
Boy, my old France got the short end of the fandom stick whacked at him. Unlike Arthur, who has always been himself with me for the most part, my old Francis personality was much more fandom incarnate from the early twenty tens. Bit of a sexual leech, a nudist, a party animal... a bit of a silly show piece with not too much thought into him. Dramatic for no reason
I think my old France is probably still recognisible as the character I write today for the most part, but I've since taken away all of the old silly fandom traits he was given and matured him up to make him more complicated. As the fandom has aged I feel we've all moved further and further away from the old anime portrayals, and I loved reading stories of Francis as this hyper intelligent cruel and vulnerable guy. I love giving him that capacity now, along with Arthur, and layering him up like a pretty lil onion
FrUK together
Honestly, I have said this before somewhere but as soon as I put the two of them in a scene that was it, they were the stars of the show. The first proper Hetalia fic I tried to write was USUK and Francis was supposed to be Arthur's childhood bestfriend and instantly they were the main characters. Instantly, their scenes together were my favourites, their dialogue my best, and they had more chemistry and intimacy than anything else. I converted myself to FrUK, I am the problem ahha
As soon as I wrote them together their relationship set solid and it's been unchanged ever since. It wasn't even planned, there was no room for growth- how they are now is how they were then. I abandoned that USUK fic and shifted to Reset and welp, been here with them arguing in my head ever since
The only way I write them differently is maybe how easy they are together? I used to write England more reluctant with affection and France more forceful, and they've softened with age as I've smoothed out the old rigidities of their characters. It's the same now, just softer
#also! writing characters as being somewhat contradictory is a thing#A character can be stubborn and angry and proud but soften for one particular person#another character can be wise and patient and calm but go utterly banannas in rage for one dickhead#I used to think 'oh blah blah would never do that'#maybe they would for /one thing/ though#maybe they could in a different situation#knowing that really helped me to write characters and be more relaxed with myself#this was a mean ask cake i'm sorry but you answered it so well and i really wanted to know your thoughts#I hope you liked this answer and thanks for asking me in return!#heroes headcanons#aph england#aph france
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ok i need help
#very very slowly drawing all the zeldas...one day i will be able to post the lineup but idk when that will happen.#format-wise im thinking more like askblog situation or just like silly scenarios and stuff to play around w their dynamics#my sister did help me come up with like at least the beginning of an actual plot but idk we'll see how i feel ive got a lot of free time no#but that wont last forever#anyways! these are the titles that are in my doc right now. not like super attached to any of them and i might come up with something else#later anyway but! this is what ive got. for the love of nayru came to me in the middle of the night when i was trying to sleep lol#not maintagging this so we'll see if anyone actually sees it#oh tumblr lets you set polls to 3 days now thats nice
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This might not be anything, but while writing about your fics, the way you have the characters' mannerisms down PERFECTLY got me thinking about mirroring...
There's a lot of it in 7 (Horii is a directorial genius etc etc), most of it more intentional than these probably are, but there's something so interesting about mirroring that takes the tone of a (relatively) fond memory, a familiar gesture, and inverts it in the way shown here.
OH I'M GLAD YOU'VE NOTICED THESE TOO I think I mentioned it months back (or I drafted a post 'bout it but didn't think it was anything noteworthy) but I always really did like how the Arakawa Family mimicked each other's mannerisms (also circling back to how Jo and Masato calling Ichiban 'Ichi' presumably after picking it up from Arakawa)!
Aoki actually does the same sitting gesture too! I went back to double check and skim through the rest of the game's cutscenes, and as far as I could tell unless I skipped a scene, it really is only these three that do this specific pose:
It's such a small detail but I love it immensely and it really does highlight their connections with each other and it drives me insane
#snap chats#the fact aoki holds his left fist with his right like jo..... im gonna be sick... (crying)#potential hints that aoki really does favor jo and/or spends more time with him... or i might be delirious. could be both even..#focusing on how jo mimics arakawa though i dont think i have to say i love how it is inverted intention wise#like of course in arakawa's situations he's in a position where he's helping ichi and speaking calmly with him#while with jo Evidently each interaction is more tense and antagonistic#really is a cool way to emphasize that whole 'step parent' angle if that makes sense#OH BUT THANK YOU ON MY WRITING that's a huge compliment: i'm glad you think i have their mannerisms down !#accuracy is a big thing to me... in case we haven't picked that up yet.... i should relax a little tbh--#BUT i'd like to think my brain's good at visualizing things and i think i've 'studied' enough to get an acceptable result in what i show#it's like... if i can't see it in my head clearly or it doesn't look right then i wanna keep trying until it DOES look right yk#dont want a Hello Kitty Wouldnt Do Xanax moment... only on occasion.... a lil xanax wouldnt hurt as long as its not too far gone ☠️#alright im. DELIRIOUS.#to end this off i watched the first episode of Sailor Suit and Machine Gun !#my japanese is. HORRENDOUS BUT the art of inference and context clues and stray knowledge got me through it#i'm excited to watch the next episode even if i'm only really getting half the impact from the dialogue#BUT THE FEELING'S THERE... the emotion's there#embarrassingly i almost cried when izumi was crying in the theater over her dad while she was eating cause like Girl Me Too ☠️☠️#ill go one day without mentioning my dad i promise... todays not that day tho ☠️#IN ANY CASE. thank you for droppin the episodes on me !! i can't stress never tiring of having new things to watch#ill watch the next episode tonight probably. i was gonna go out to get lunch buuuut my moms home#so there goes that plan.. at least my bro got me food while /he/ went out today lmao
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Interest Checker made...
#I suck at reaching out so this MIGHT help#Or it might not#We'll find out#I never made one before#RP-wise my brain is still in the early to mid 2010s#In other news I have to go into work at 4 AM tomorrow#I WILL perish#I'm already feeling the anticipation and dread of it getting to me and I'm mad about it#let sleeping dragons lie ☆ ooc#biting and gnawing at my cage#Oh the interest checker was also added to the pinned post of both blogs#I still have my gijinka blog but I doooon't think that's a thing people are RPing right now#If I'm wrong I'll add Carmine into the interaction list
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Im ashamed to say im back on my naruto shit
Hes my son your honor, hes just a little guy
Id die for him
#naruto#help i cant believe im about the hyper fixate on naruto for the 4th time#watching the first show reminds me of everything wrong with boruto especially art and animation wise#god I fucking hate boruto#anyways naruto so silly i love him so much#thinking about team 7 found family....#thinking about if sakura was well written...#so much potential.. wasted :c#I hc that shes actually not a boy crazy idiot and simply has a crush like a normal person and that she ACTUALLY HAS MUSCLES BC YA KNOW#HER WHOLE FUCKING THING IS STRENGTH CHARACTER DESIGNERS WERE YOU HIGH????#and I hc that she was actually used well in fight scenes like the one against puppet guy and she didn't cry for naruto to solve everything#and that she didnt fuck with his feelings in that one episode when she 'confessed' to get him to go home#and that sasuke wasnt a lame piece of edgy shit and was a better written antagonist#and that naruto didnt have an absolutely unhealthy obsession with him#sorry but people who ship naruto and sasuke are gross#its already abusive and unhealthy as all get out and now you want to add r o m a n c e???#im sure narutos crush on sakura got weird too#oh yeah like when he transformed into sasuke to trick her into kissing him#naruto writers be normal about romance for once please#shikamaru and temari and naruto and hinata were pretty good#idk personally I ship naruto and gaara and naruto and shikamaru#oops im rambling in the tags what can I say I fucking love naruto and have a lot of opinions on it
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I've known it deep down for a long time but I need to get better at managing my mental health, especially at uni
#like wdym for for a whole semester i had near weekly panic attacks and i just!!!! shrugged it off!!!!!!!!#“oh well thursdays are like this” THEY DIDN'T HAVE TO BE THAT'S NOT NORMAL#just because it's normal *for me* does not mean it should be normal#“yeah i average 1-2 panic attacks a month” GIRLIE NO WHY ARE YOU SO CASUAL ABOUT THIS YOU ARE ABLE TO DO SMTH ABOUT IT#i have a lot more going on responsibility and academic wise in 2nd year and i Cannot be doing that again#rest assured i have way more happy memories than bad ones of first year but my housemates don't need to be concerned about me screaming#crying throwing up spasming even when i get a bad panic attack#i appreciate their help ofc but i need to take care of and responsibility for myself yknow#anyways here ends my saturday night musings#ellis exclaims
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it is not slacking off to write or create it is not slacking off to do things that are fun i am not slacking off or procrastinating right now i'm allowed to do things i enjoy doing for fun including playing games and writing and such
#if i say it enough i will remember it's true#can you guess which aspect of capitalism i'm struggling with today?#it does not help my bones are somehow WORSE than yesterday even after all of the rest i took so that's Super Fun:tm:#so i've got that on in the back of my head#ugh#i... am putting off calling my grandma - i meant to do it last week but i got too in my head about it#and uno reversed myself into forgetting to do it at all until the Worst Times Possible#(generally around Normal Fuckin Meal Times)#i want to call to wish her a belated mother's day and check in re: grandpa but also...#also i don't want to have to do a phone call i don't want to talk to them about anything at all#they stress me out to talk to and it makes me super uncomfortable to be on the phone in general let alone with a Heavy Topic over our heads#like.... i'm comfortable with where i'm at acceptance-wise with Grandpa's whole situation#and i know i am late for a better relationship with the pair of them in general#like i'm not going to repair a relationship that wasn't built to collapse down to this point this is as far as it got built up to#i'm not building more relationship between me and someone who i know is passing soon when they didn't take the opportunity either#like they had just as much chance as me to improve our relationship after i became an adult and they chose to use my mother as#an intermediary which has stunted their connection to me and that's not my fault#i admittedly did not reach out but i was not taught i could safely do that to anyone#because my parents badmouth literally any person they know for one reason or another#i regularly fuck up in conversations with my grandparents because i'll say somethign that is a holdover from my understanding of them#through my parents and it's like. kind of really insulting! and i've been doing it my whole life and i know as soon as i get their reaction#and i can't recover because i don't actually know them at all#so i can't be like ''oh my god i know that's inaccurate i have no idea why i said that'' because i *don't* know until after i've done it#every goddamn time it happened the last time i got a call from them too#like... my bio fam/family of origin is just not good at keeping in touch and i know i'm a product of that#and i know theoretically how to adjust for it but it does require work on the other end of the line too#and unfortunately i know my bio family too well and know they won't do their part#i grew up in the group project everyone hates#and i'm on my way to deciding they can show up to the presentation day without me#i've started a new family project over here with blackjack and hookers
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The mkp5 brain getting fueled sooo much and also like, it's just so insane how on p5's side, the Phantom Thieves has such a big support system with how that's a core part of the whole story, gaining allies that'd help with the whole thing. And yet on Magic Kaito's side, Kaito barely Has anyone that can help him, he's always The One Helping, the only reliable help he can get is from Jii-san, whenever Conan's plans intersect with Kaito's, Conan could get Kaito to help along with the plan, and the few times Kaito needed an extra hand for help, it'd only just be Conan. My guy Needs more people, istg he needs more reliable help, my guy only has himself and an old man.
#aria rants#dont get me started on the support system conan has. istg that kid has A LOT of RELIABLE help. meanwhile kaito only has one#if i ever get around to making kaito's palace. his shadow will likely be a lil on the bitter side of things with jealousy sprinkled in#like! hes just a kid! a teenager! same age as akiren! and here he is shouldering such an enormous task of planning heists#and sometimes going up against members of a dangerous organization ALL ON HIS OWN! with the help of one person#hes already worried about getting dragged into this whole mess like hes waaay too kind to Want someone's help but#he's also just a kid that can't possibly be able to ''poker face'' his way outta the emotions hes feeling too#hes bound to feel jealous and bitter and just all around Angry at the world with the kind of life hes been thrown into#but hes also just too kind for his own good that hed rather push all that negativity away to focus at the task at hand like!#oooooohhh i need magic kaito fuel next but my motivation for reading manga is so low so maybe id just rewatch the anime instead#i could rewatch some detco episodes as well but most of the eps are more on conan's focus so-- oh well kaito kid is kaito kid#id take all the crumbs i could get anime wise for now. someday kaito... id read your manga... someday
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cant get over the situation i was in this morning where i was chitchatting with a pair of regular patrons (the husband used to be on the board so like. we have to play nice with them always now) and mentioned having had some wicked insomnia last night . and the two of them repeatedly said "oh, you're too young for that stuff" like. carl. joan. do you think insomnia is exclusively decided by age?
#like i know elderly folks can GET insomnia when they havent had it before#but that is a circumstance that can actually happen to anybody#i slept like a fucking rock my whole life until i got covid and now i have insomnia issues#the ssri helped a LITTLE bit but i still have bad nights and i go to bed anxious all the time that one is incoming#yet i really cant predict when they'll happen#my mother's been insomniac since she was seven like. cmon#oh i fucking hate it when ppl point to some arbitrary ailment you have and say you're too young for it#like all that says to me is that the person saying it was lucky enough not to have anything really go wrong for them#health-wise . UNTIL they got old#so now they think only old people get health problems#no thats just your luck speaking actually most of us are falling apart daily
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Am I selfish and toxic, or are you just upset that you couldn't continue to take advantage of me?
#oh I'M the problem because I asked you to help clean your own house#YOU'RE annoyed with ME because i told you you can't just drive off with my car whenever you feel like it#sure okay#toxic people#selfishness#my life is basically one of those “sent back in time to before i was betrayed and murdered” manwhas only I wised up BEFORE the murder part#watch me cut ties with all the horrible people in my life to pursue my peaceful life as a hermit#lol
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I spend a lot of time thinking about Leon Stamatis but sometimes I'm hit by the thought of Michael Tate
Michael who saw a traumatized Nica on TV and drove to Wonderland to pick her up moment after learning his best friend was dead ; Michael, a recovering alcoholic, who sat next to a man who was basically enabling him to relapse and went "you know what? No. I'm chosing today not to do that." and stick to it ; Michael who got trapped into an evil lair and decided the best course of action was to help literally everybody to the point of forgetting about himself and almost dying ; Michael who sent kind, earnest letters to everyone he knows trying to make them (feel) better ; Michael who decided to give Philippe a chance ;
Michael "he could be a villain in my story and a hero for others" Tate about the man who Literally Planned to Murder Him;
I just?? Michael Tate, man.
#In a way perhaps Leon had to die because the power of Leon's kindness and Michael's might have been too much for the world#like man i want so many fics where someone meets michael and leon together and they're like#oh no too much good in one room god help me#depending on the kind of person you are you assume one of them is more approchable/less so inherently kind and wise at first#but you're WRONG#greater boston#having random feelings on a tuesday as ever etc.#also i'm still thinking Michael's biggest power move was to meet his kidnapper's ex-wife#and go 'oh i like her'#and SHE LIKES HIM BACK
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