#healingself

[cheshire-teeth]

[sadlyrelatablegirlwithfeelings]

I know I’ll be okay because everyday gets easier without you which means I’ll be okay with you gone. I will accept your no longer mine, no longer a place to run too, my home was once you, now I am homeless and that’s okay, because after being mistreated and hurt in your own home silenced as if the walls caved in on your voice and made you feel as if nothing could ever be better. It is atlast finally better, and even though I’m without a home I finally love myself again and learned to let go without taking the hurt I finally am building walls and becoming my own home, replacing old furniture with new. My home is now my own sanctuary. I love my new home.

[silminursandy]

Saat kamu kehilangan seseorang tapi kamu menemukan dirimu sendiri, Selamat kamu telah berhasil memerdekakan diri sendiri!

[rifalinea]

Alinea

Temani aku tumbuh bersama baris-baris kata dalam alinea yang berisikan kebahagiaan.

[punyalululili]

50. Apa Benar?

Perihal kehilangan dan tak kunjung mendapatkan, adalah perihal menyakitkan dalam sebuah kekhawatiran menjalani kehidupan.

Saat dunia sedang mencoba mengabarkan tentang perjalanan yang semakin menantang. Kehilangan penopang dan penuntun bukan suatu hal yang mudah untuk dilupakan atau dijalani pelan-pelan. Semua tetap pada masanya tertunda dan perlahan-lahan menerima ketentuan.

Jika segalanya memiliki waktu, kenapa tidak ada satu yang bisa ku gunakan untuk tepat bersama dengan angan yang ingin ku tuju?

Menyalahkan “kenapa” pada laku dan kerja semesta tidak akan menemui jawabannya. Semua terasa abai, seperti keadaan yang tak kunjung selesai. Satu persatu yang kini tak tertulis dalam jurnal, perlahan menemui jurang. Tak masuk akal kadang untuk mengatakan “baik-baik saja” saat pikiran dan hati ribut pada hal yang tak kunjung surut.

Bila ada satu pertanyaan, mengapa orang-orang beruntung dalam meniti jalan kehidupan?

Lantas apa aku sudah masuk kepada jalur menyalahi kenapa ini terjadi dan kapan aku bisa menemukan pintu untuk keluar dari masalah ini?!!!

Ada banyak pertanyaan dalam pikiran yang tak bisa dikeluarkan. Semua menyatu menjadi suatu pertanyaan yang sangat mendasar tentang “Apa benar?”

“Apa benar aku adalah manusia pilihan untuk melalui ketentuan yang tidak permisi ini datang?”

“Apa benar aku adalah manusia yang mampu melalui semua takdir Tuhan?”

“Apa benar waktu akan membantu kerja semesta untuk aku bisa bertahan dan berlari dari segala bentuk ketakutan yang ku hindari?”

“Apa benar Allah sayang pada diriku ini?”

Bukan pertanyaan mengapa, atau lantas apa yang harus ku lakukan, melainkan apa benar yang sering menyelimuti kalutnya hati menghadapi kenyataan.

Ku telisik lebih jauh tentang pelik yang mengikis ketenangan. Yang tak habis-habisnya mengguyur kabar duka, tak kunjung reda masalah yang menimpa. 

Ingin ku berlari melorongi waktu, mencoba menemukan hal yang bisa ku gunakan untuk sekedar mampu menyembuhkan diri pada luka-luka yang tak kunjung terobati. Ingin rasanya aku pergi, untuk sekedar menemui pengendali semesta, dan bertanya “apa benar” lalu ku diberi bekal untuk menerobos lagi kesulitan.

Tuhan, bila benar aku mampu, tolong berilah kekuatan dan kemampuan untuk menyelesaikan satu persatu teka-teki yang harus aku lalui.

Bila harus menyelesaikan dan meninggalkan, tolong beritahu aku caranya berpamitan dengan tidak meninggalkan kekecewaan.

Bila sudah waktunya untuk mendapatkan, tolong beritahu cara agar aku bisa menjaga semua titipan.

Bila aku sudah siap menemukan, tolong beritahu semesta untuk berbisik dengan baik. 

Kadang, tidak baik-baik saja adalah perasaan manusia. Mencoba bangkit kembali dan bagaimana caranya menghadapi masalah, itu yang tidak sama.

[mamashaysaid]

💪

MORNING THOUGHTS:

Don't let other people's trauma effect what you think of yourself and how much you love yourself.

I think it's safe to say that most people have some type of history they might not like to talk about.... and I think almost all of us have been through a significant life changing experience. I also think there are some experiences that are harder to heal from than others....and the stories that people share could help you change your very own life, and that's helpful, but it does not mean that you have to carry their trauma with you or relieve them from pain. Just because you know about it, doesn't mean it's yours.

All of us have our own shiit that we are internally dealing with, and all of us should have an outlet to handle it, or work on finding one. More of us are trying to do the work to heal, one-thing-at-a-time, (however that may be), AND grow from any pain we've endured, but in order to do that, you cannot be projecting your bull onto others or blaming them for your suffering, when you are the one still carrying it, and you cannot be accepting it either.

EMPATHS (b/c that's what our oversensitive, overthinking, overwatering, as$es are) - It is not your responsibility to fix people, you can only help.... and how dare you try, when you haven't even taken care of yourSELF first.

❤

[samrat747]

#healingself https://www.instagram.com/p/Cg9sjuahtPD/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[theresajanday-blog]

What are some of the things you like to burn this full moon ??? What do you know isn’t good but you have yet to let it go ??? What have you been worrying over ??? What thoughts do you replay ??? What pain are you holding on too ??? Let me and the universe know below And Affirm letting it be transmuted now the firer to become a strength and a wisdom with love in the highest Love and blessings #theresajanday #burnlist #firemagic #moon #moonceremony #manifestation #lawofattraction #healingjourney #healingself #consciousnessshift #loveauthenticme #trreheartauthentic https://www.instagram.com/p/CRpJ2iaFc1C/?utm_medium=tumblr

[mettasprings]

[cheshire-teeth]

[crystalhealingenergy]

https://youtu.be/rQFct_ZSuvk my 'live' link on trauma & abuse and some crystal tips and tools. Fri mornings at 11pacific time #abuse #healing #healingtools #healingjourney #healingenergy #healingvibrations #healingself #stoptheviolence #healingyourtree #healingwithdebimckee #debimckee #debidebimckee (at Crystal Healing Energy at the Mermaid Cottage) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNdTMJ5Fkxa/?igshid=188c7rx0imr7v

[silminursandy]

Jangan bandingkan dirimu dan proses hidupmu dengan orang lain. Hal ini hanya akan membuat kita rendah diri. Padahal setiap orang punya potensi diri dan keunikannya masing-masing. Kita hanya perlu fokus pada pengembangan potensi diri kita masing-masing. -Nandy-

[clearwatercultures]

Clearwater Cultures is dedicated to creating natural, & holistic solutions to the health care crisis and the destruction of our microbiome. Our products are homegrown and handmade using biodynamic and permaculture practices. www.clearwatercultures.com for more information 👆👆👆 #microbiome #skincare #skinhealth #microbiomeskincare #probioticskincare #probiotics #prebiotic #organicskincare #healthyskin #biodiversity #bioavailability #nutrition #glowingskin #vitality #holistichealth #healingself #skincareroutine #beautiful https://www.instagram.com/p/B3SWmtwJ7c1/?igshid=n3wl6nyu1ohz

[letoyajohnstone]

ATTITUDE THAT IS FULL OF GRATITUDE : If you are in Nairobi and you see me, just pass. Am walking on the streets and doing my things in a short that is shorter than my temper. 😂 This negative energy has to away and I am glad I walked from railways station in town to to Nation centre. Buses, cars, vehicles etc stopped to look at me. This is how I always get myself back. I am now new, fresh and ready to see people with so much love and kindness that I have always had in me. I forgive everyone and I am honestly at a better place now. Now let love lead the way . Learning has taken place and things are less threatening. Our compound was so bloody yesterday but God of heaven has done wonders. I have never seen something like that. I woke up and it actually rained. It might have needed something like that for all these to embrace the glory of God. Men and women can be something else while living under the same room. The police in Kenya needs to do better. There is no way you call them when there is war and they tell you that there is only one police in the station and they can't move. This is finally over, new life, new day, new things. God's blessings to carry us up. Xo Xo Toy Toy baby - Kill it with love. #letoyajohnstone #healingself (at Java House) https://www.instagram.com/letoya_johnstone/p/Bv32SOEgb3_/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=37q5ab67df6z

[mamashaysaid]

Whoa, just 30 days.

Using Hum Nutrition Daily Cleanse and OMG fish oil vitamins and washing my face with Neutrogena Invigorating Face Wash for MEN. YES, MEN! Bae suggested that I use something stronger than regular face wash b/c if the IUD is increasing my androgen. Androgen is a male sex hormone - All hormonal IUDs have a hormone called progestin. Progestins have androgenic (testosterone-like) activity, which can cause hair growth and acne on our skin. This, in combination with vitamins, should do the trick.

As you can see, I'm sensitive to any hormonal changes... it was this way when I was pregnant with DD, and definitely while I was preggo with Zaza. After I got the Mirena IUD, my skin went completely downhill from there. Unless I was taking a birth control pill, called Monessa, to balance my hormones, by providing Estrogen, cystic acne would appear almost every week, and especially during my menstrual week.

So, with all that being said, these are my results with using Men's Neutrogena Face Wash, a homemade toner mixed with Witch Hazel and Morton Sea Salt, and moisturizing with Vitamin E Oil. I also use Benzoyl Peroxide cream, 10% strength, as a last step, to stay on top of possible blemishes.

No perfect diet. I was still eating Chipotle once a week, no lie😋 .. but I'm going to try hard to work on reducing crap foods as well.

Now, imagine if I did eat clean, more often than not🤔💭 my skin would probably be flawless!!

[revenant-coining]

Bo Burnham; Inside themed Neopronouns

[other list i’ve made]

read more cause there are 20 songs, so really long

Content:

content/content/contents/contents/contentself

ah/ah/ahs/ahs/ahself

alone/alone/alones/alones/aloneself

work/work/works/works/workself

inside/inside/insides/insides/insideself

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Comedy:

comedy/comedy/comedys/comedys/comedyself

going/on?/goings/on?s/goingon?self

like/this?/likes/this?s/likethis?self

better/better/betters/betters/betterself

heal(ing)/healing/healings/healings/healingself

meta/phorically/metas/phoricallys/metaphoricallyself

metaphorically/metaphorically/metaphoricallys/metaphoricallys/metaphoricallyself

don't/panic/don'ts/panics/don'tpanicself

joke(ing)/jokeing/jokeings/jokings/jokingself

---

Facetime with My Mom (Tonight):

facetime/facetime/facetimes/facetimes/facetimeself

to(night)/tonight/tonights/tonights/tonightself

essential/essential/essentials/essentials/essentialself

some/space/somes/spaces/somespaceself

deep(est)/deepest/deepests/deepests/deepestself

waste/time/wastes/times/wastetimeself

---

How the World Works:

world/work/worlds/works/worldworkself

together/together/togethers/togethers/togetherself

give/need/gives/needs/giveneedself

socko/socko/sockos/sockos/sockoself

of/being!/ofs/being!s/ofbeingself

narrative/narrative/narratives/narratives/narrativeself

really?/really?/really?s/really?s/really?self

---

White Woman's Instagram:

a/poem/as/poems/apoemself

heaven?/heaven?/heaven?s/heaven?s/heaven?self

figure/out/figures/outs/figureoutself

derivative/derivative/derivatives/derivatives/derivativeself

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Unpaid Intern:

intern/intern/interns/interns/internself

like/me/likes/mes/likemeself

work/work/works/works/workself

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Bezos |:

CEO/CEO/CEOs/CEOs/CEOself

show/us/shows/usz/showuszelf

get/'em/gets/'ems/get'emself

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Sexting:

tonight/tonight/tonights/tonights/tonightself

abstract/abstract/abstracts/abstracts/abstractself

best/thing/bests/things/besthingself

night/night/nights/nights/nightself

like/these/likes/theses/liketheseself

internet/internet/internets/internets/internetself

my/own/mys/owns/myownself

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Looks Who's Inside Again:

room/room/rooms/rooms/roomself

out/out/outs/outs/outself

joke/joke/jokes/jokes/jokeself

say/say/says/says/sayseld

inside/again/inside/agains/insideagainself

hide/again/hides/agains/hideagainself

surround(ed)/surrounded/surroundeds/surroundeds/surroundedself

---

Problematic:

problem(atic)/problematic/problematics/problematics/problematicself

comedy/comedy/comedys/comedys/comedyself

regret/it/regrets/its/regretitself

changing/changing/changings/changings/changingself

account(able)/accountable/accountables/accountables/accountableself

problem/problem/problems/problems/problemself

awful/awful/awfuls/awfuls/awfulself

---

30:

30/30/30s/30s/30self

smile/smile/smiles/smiles/smileself

dream/dream/dreams/dreams/dreamself

turn(ing)/turning/turnings/turnings/turningself

of/touch/ofs/touch/oftouchself

1990/1990/1990s/1990s/1990self

2020/2020/2020s/2020s/2020self

2030/2030/2030s/2030s/2030self

---

Don't Wanna Know:

don't/don't/don'ts/don'ts/don'tself

wanna/wanna/wannas/wannas/wannaself

know/know/knows/knows/knowself

feel(ing)?/feeling?/feeling?s/feeling?s/feeling?self

attention?/attention?/attention?s/attention?s/attention?self

yes/no/yesz/nos/yesnoself

out/there/outs/theres/outhereself

alone?/alone?/alone?s/alone?s/alone?self

---

Shit:

feel(in')/feelin'/feelin's/feelin's/feelin'self

not/good/nots/goods/notgoodself

my/luck/mys/lucks/myluckself

feel(ing)?/feeling?/feeling?s/feeling?s/feeling?self

away/away/aways/aways/awayself

---

All Time Low:

all/all/alls/alls/allself

time/time/times/times/timeself

low/low/lows/lows/lowself

feel(ing)/feeling/feelings/feelings/feelingself

to/fight/tos/fights/tofightself

describe/describe/describes/describes/describeself

flat(ten)/flatten/flattens/flattens/flattenself

tap(pin')/tappin'/tappin's/tappin's/tappin'self

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Welcome to the Internet:

internet/internet/internets/internets/internetself

think/of/thinks/ofs/thinkofself

a/test/as/tests/atestself

engage/engage/engages/engages/engageself

every/thought/everys/thoughts/everythoughself

every(thing)/everything/everythings/everythings/everythingself

all/all/alls/alls/allself

apathy/apathy/apathys/apathys/apathyself

unstoppable/unstoppable/unstoppables/unstoppables/unstoppableself

any(thing)/anything/anythings/anythings/anythingself

---

Bezos ||:

you/you/yous/yous/youself

did/it/dids/its/diditself

congrates OR congratulations!/congratulations!/congratulations!s/congratulations!s/congratulations!self

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That Funny Feeling:

funny/feeling/funnys/feelings/funnyfeelingself

backlash/backlash/backlashs/backlashs/backlashself

just/begun/justs/beguns/justbegunself

comprehend(ing)/comprehending/comprehendings/comprehendings/comprehendingself

end(ing)/ending/endings/endings/endingself

it/all/its/alls/it/allself

over(due)/overdue/overdues/overdues/overdueself

over/soon/overs/soons/oversoonself

---

All Eyes On Me:

on/me/ons/mes/onmeself

hand/up/hands/ups/handupself

nervous?/nervous?/nervous?s/nervous?s/nervous?self

begun/begun/beguns/beguns/begunself

ending/ending/endings/endings/endingself

get/inside/gets/insides/getinsideself

---

Goodbye:

good(bye)/goodbye/goodbyes/goodbyes/goodbyeself

end/end/ends/ends/endself

so/long/sos/longs/solongself

know?/know?/know?s/know?s/know?self

ever/wanted/evers/wanteds/everwantedself

every(thing)/everything/everythings/everythings/everythingself

smoke/smoke/smokes/smokes/smokeself

broken/broken/brokens/brokens/brokenself

inside/again/insides/agains/insideagainself

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Any Day Now:

stop/any/stops/anys/stopanyself

any/day/anys/days/anydayself

day/now/days/nows/daynowself