#he's absolutely full of it btw
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thank you so much! 💖
hey remember when assad was talking about armand's "looks of love" while looking at eric. can we go back to this for a sec.
#reblogging for anybody else who needs a transcript#he's absolutely full of it btw#doing his little self-deprecating bit for laughs#we all see your talent!#and we see you dodging the question!!#you're not fooling me assad!!#v cute though I appreciate it
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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Nightwing is not the favorite child, he's the favorite soldier. Dick Grayson is the golden child turned scapegoat. Everyone needs Nightwing but no one needs Dick. In this essay I will-
#felix (host)#dc#dc comics#batfamily#dick grayson#nightwing#bruce wayne#batman#batman and robin#bc its implied#dick grayson analysis#this isn't saying jason isn't a scapegoat btw#bc he absolutely is#but dick is ALSO a scapegoat while simultaneously being the golden child#but he goes full scapegoat during/after Spyral#hes been a scapegoat since Bruce fired him from robin and Dick left#possibly even before then#but the expectations piled on him are very golden child esque#i think when Jason started being accepted (couldn't be the scapegoat anymore)#thats when it got worse for Dick#the role of scapegoat is split between them. sighs
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TORSO STUDIES (extras): Kotoha, Shizuka, Tsubakino and Endo
Art Studies with Eve #2
The studio welcomes three lovely queens 🫶
...and a snake 😕
And that completes the torso studies! Thank you for the positive feedback on the first part and for waiting for this one 🫶.
Part 1
#wind breaker#wind breaker nii satoru#endo yamato#yamato endo#tsubakino tasuku#tasuku tsubakino#tachibana kotoha#kotoha tachibana#shizuka narita#narita shizuka#he snuck into the studio and i couldnt get to the camera in time to stop it :(#so now hes here but he still has his sando on#i wasn't going to imagine nor come up with how his tats look under his clothes#but y'all can ig#btw i love all of your tags and replies to the first part frfr#y'all made me lmao with the thirst#no shame cuz im the same with shitara and togame#p.s. yeah its only 1 each this time me knows#drawing endo 3 more times??? with his tattoos on full too??#catch me in a body bag before i even do that#but i absolutely loved drawing the girls#can you tell i like drawing fems more then males?#imma write another post on my main talkin about the art process of both parts
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Phoning a Friend
Warriors watches the two Champions blearily, forcing his eyes to stay focused on them. He knows one is the Shadow but he can’t let himself entertain the possibilities of who the other one is. For now, he has to think of it nothing more than another potential enemy.
The one with the odd spear that gleams gold, its green gem ornaments clinking softly against the shaft as he twirls it, keeps himself between Warriors and the twisted Champion. The golden spear spins and spins, batting away a sickening dark blade every time the bloodstained, withered Champion tries to break through his guard.
Watching the spinning spear is actually making Warriors feel nauseous. Well, he mentally amends that to ‘more nauseous’, glancing down at the blood spreading across his tunic.
And this weird noise, whatever it is, isn’t helping! There’s something heavy weighing the clearing down, pressing into Warriors’ skin.
All he can hear is this pulsing loud tick tick tick in his ears, accompanied by an odd warping sensation in his limbs.
It’s magic, he knows that much, but he’s never felt it before and has no idea which Champion it may be coming from, if it even is either of them casting the spell.
He turns his head to spit out a mouthful of blood and it feels like the movement takes an eternity to complete.
So either his blood loss is more severe than he thought, or there’s something else going on.
The spear-wielding Champion darts backwards, his grip along the spear finally shifting into a proper stance, grinning wildly.
Ha, Warriors is hilarious.
A large shining gem sitting at the dip of the first Champion's throat lights his face up from below, all deep shadows and softened edges. He’s breathing heavily, a slight tremble visible in his fingers as he readjusts his grip.
The other Champion across from them makes a sweeping gesture with its withered arm and something red and alive spurs into life, lunging forward. The shape twists, absorbing what remains of the rotted flesh, and large, monstrous fingers stretch into existence. They reach through the darkness for the first Champion, wicked under the moonlight.
The first Champion raises the spear slightly in response, his grin vanishing as it's smothered under a blank, smooth expression that Warriors refuses to recognise. The fingers, the vile magic, get closer to his face, closing the distance rapidly—
And Time shoots out of the bushes, the Biggoron sword catching the moonlight as it arcs through the air and severs the arm from withered Champion's body. The arm hits the ground and melts into a writhing pool of furious magic, thrashing around that Champion’s feet.
The ticking in Warriors’ ears stops so abruptly he's thrown off-kilter, reeling at the sudden silence left in its wake.
Time glances at him, a quick look filled with concern and worry, then shifts his gaze to the spear-wielding Champion — Wild, Warriors lets himself finally acknowledge.
Dozens of micro-expressions fly rapidly across Time's face before he finally decides on grim determination.
“That,” he says in an almost wobbly tone of voice, taking up stance next to Wild, “is loud.”
“Yeah, I’ve been told. Sorry about that.” Wild agrees, still focused on the withered copy of himself standing in front of them. He shoots Time a small grin, barely there but blindingly obvious if you know what to look for. “Worked though.”
Time lets out a quiet huff of laughter, his own small smile twitching across his face. He shifts, sword held tightly in both hands. "You're definitely not wrong about that, Wild. When we get back to camp, you'll have to tell me how you managed to make your magic even louder than it already was."
#lu warriors#lu wild#lu time#linked universe#riddel's fics#Wild post-totk going through a portal and finding Warriors half dead: don't worry I've got this#Wild: *floods the entire forest with his secret stone amplified magic*#Time instantly from like 1 km away: HELP IS ON THE WAY!!!#this is called Wild uses his patented Time Summoning Method in my docs lmao#im ride or die by my headcanon that pre-totk Time was the only one who could sense Wild's champion ability bc it's time magic#he used that sense like a homing beacon whenever Wild got separated from them bc Wild always inevitably ended up fighting something#Dink absolutely used Wild's nearly-dead appearance from the start of totk to screw with the Chain you can catch these hands#tfw you want to write but nothing over 800 words apparently wants to exist rude#tw: blood#linked universe fanfic#linked universe fic#Wars is fine btw#he got ambushed by 3 of Sky's moblins then caught a face full of gloom thanks to Dink#over 12 hours after posting this I realised at some point I'd accidentally deleted the last two tags 😭
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maglor's first time getting to go to a concert / his favorite singer attending maglor's first big concert
#silm#silmarillion#maglor#i didnt feel like inventing a name for the band so their name is just Band in tengwar#im pretty sure band means something in sindarin anyways (as in angband)#btw i have decided the band guy is named#moredhel#hes a feanorian and later a captain of maglors guard in the Gap#and yes he still dresses up like mandos for the bonus intimidation factor in battle#maglor's horses are the least easily spooked in all of beleriand because his army is half singers and all very screamy#only a few of them do the full feanturian look tho#it's very effective because everyone is scared of mandos#ranging from the people who actually know him being somewhat weirded out by his whole prophecy thing#to people who only know his reputation being absolutely terrified#maybe theres one feanturian warrior who specifically dresses as one of irmo's maia#and who specializes in those weird Songs that make people see the events of the song#ooh maybe moredhel survives to the third age and lives in rivendell#he doesn't normally wear the feanturi makeup anymore and basically nobody born post-darkening remembers feanturian-emo/goth subcultures#so when he does put the feanturian mask and makeup on half the house starts screaming about mandos#elrond unfortunately has to deal with it#at least he's causing less trouble than ''''Lindir''''
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So close to writing one of those “betting on wrightworth” fics where the twist is that Klapollo are krisnix truthers
Just like. Apollo references Phoenix’s bad taste in men at some bar association event only for everyone around him to immediately get on his case for insulting Edgeworth.
Athena’s like “don’t be rude Apollo, Mr. Edgeworth could hear!!”
Apollo: why does it matter if Edgeworth hears. I’m sure he knows all about Mr. Wright’s horrible romantic decisions :\
Kay steps in and is like woah buddy Mr. Edgeworth may be a stick in the mud but Mr. Wright couldn’t do better than him!!
Apollo is like. Yeah. Because Edgeworth is a catch?? I don’t know what you’re trying to say.
Klavier butts in and asks if Kay seriously thinks Wright would date their boss?? Like huh??
Klavier and Apollo are now being treated to the most incredulous looks known to man.
Apollo (now convinced that people are trying to fuck w him): Mr. Wright would never make a good romantic choice in his life. Don’t try to pull one over on me. I was there for the divorce.
Kay: they got DIVORCED????
Sebastian: they got MARRIED??????
Klavier’s like [fake German voice] nein Herr Forehead I know for a fact it wasn’t a divorce. Because I had to dispose of the unused engagement ring.
Apollo is like finally some gossip that makes fucking sense while everyone else is like you think PHOENIX WRIGHT was fucking your BROTHER???
#ace attorney#aa#klavier gavin#apollo justice#wrightworth#narumitsu#krisnix#for background kristoph left Klavier (1) his dog and (2) detailed instructions for how to dramatically dispose of the engagement ring hidden#in the back of his desk drawer. Klavier had to drive to Hazakura for the Symbolism to throw it off the bridge Phoenix Wright once fell from.#there was a love poem recitation involved.#Apollo meanwhile got his faith in his boss wrecked both by the forged evidence in his first trial and the absolutely horrid public divorce#that he was forced to pick sides in.#Trucy is abstaining from the discussion but know that she would have many details to share.#the full vision btw is people are drawn together by klapollos apparent Wrongness and start a bet on how long wrightworth have been secretly#dating. Apollo bets five hundred dollars he doesn’t have that they’re NOT together and krisnix WERE. Klavier backs this up with like three#thousand dollars. of course they win the bet but in the process wrightworth DO end up actually getting together. Klavier and Apollo both#maintain that the relationship isn’t toxic enough.#eli rambles#eli writes
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din djarin, age 10: clone wars refugee child
boba fett, age 11: in federal prison for destroying an entire venator while trying to kill mace windu
#star wars#din djarin#boba fett#redbean talks#meanwhile jango; age 14: the actual mand'alor#very funny to realize that din and boba are almost the same age#when you look at the difference in what they were doing for most of the clone wars#din at age ten was a small frightened child hiding from super battle droids behind a space dumpster(?)#boba at age ten was jangos copilot/getaway driver for jedi-hunting missions (and also an equally small child)#then three years later was a full blown crime boss and involved in human trafficking#i really want to see more of the mundane conversations about raising grogu#like among the mandos there's#din (children of the watch hardcore mando): i must teach my small son to shoot#boba (literally-lifelong bounty hunter raised in child soldier central): do you want recommendations for good starting blasters#bo katan: i asked the armorer to make a custom set of knives too btw#the armorer (already made armor for small son): dont you think he needs a flametrhower for his birthday#and then the Associates#they've got ig11 (trigger happy assassin droid); fennec (experienced bounty hunter who fought cad bane at age early-20s?)#krrsantan (crazy gladiator probably-madclaw); koska (tackled boba as an introduction); axe (stabbed paz over a game of chess)#and then. there is Luke.#imagine everyone pondering over how to modify a disruptor rifle to fit very small arms#(because boba's absolutely going to spoil his small green nephew)#and luke just in the background like 'maybe we should. not? give the preschooler a deadly weapon? this is not safe?'#din: eh he's smart he'll be fine#luke; fearing for his life: it's not him im worried about-
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imagine...
...that some things have changed (including some marigold ventures?) and Atlas May is like uh oh both lackadaisy & i are doomed, but if i set up my own death maybe only i'll be doomed and lackadaisy might have to shutter but perhaps more so on involved people's terms, such as mitzi being fine financially, but also if she thinks it's her fault that'll be good for maintaining my posthumous Image to her, perhaps she did some defrauding again? and i'll have mordecai, my trusted & effective gunman, be the one to fatally shoot me, & of course he doesn't want to, but it's Mere Work Ethic time, what's he gonna do besides argue at all maybe, ultimately refuse? (no) and he may hate it but he's not going to want to fully turn on mitzi or anything after because then what would have been the point
#the power of images to incoherently posit my Ideas#can't be concise but Can frame this completely with What If Atlas Did This Thing#if i start with ''so mordecai killed atlas'' there's no time to be like ''not cuz he wanted to; yeah no he wouldn't betray him;'' etc#but see: my tag:#mitzi and mordecai murder mystery#lackadaisy#mitzi may#mordecai heller#i bet that horatio absolutely did not ever do that. chaisis is trying to be a play on crisis btw#bristling fugue moments? don't try to verify it#for the life of me i couldn't find that one specific edit that ends with the ''I Want To Dream....'' dialogue doesn't it lmao. nevertheless#kind of what i meant to make when i ended up drawing Lackabowling & mordico. nicodecai. mordenico. you understand#not sure anyone can understand i'm trying to convey ''if mordecai had to noscope atlas (from afar i bet) a second would pass Very Slowly#from his perspective. how useful if he even has clock sound effect leitmotifs established'' or anything else. have fun be yourself. Post!#corned beef#(ha only now do i remember ''that's completely ambiguous whether it's a second or minute hand'' zoinks#oh well: A Second Feels Like Fifteenish or Mordecai Is Just Standing There Emoji For A Full Minute....either way i guess)
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Truly a day for Sir Dinadan the humourist
#and he looks absolutely great in a dress#arthuriana#art#arthurian literature#sir dinadan#dinadan#sir lancelot#lancelot#sir galehaut#galehaut#the reason you don't see the full figure of galehaut is cause hes a half giant so to be accurate I only showed half of him.#knights am i right#This scene is from lemorte btw
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band au rahhhhhhhhhhh
#i wanted to draw the other guardians too but this would be a good start#ok so#tsuna starts his band. yamamoto bass and gokudera keys and tsuna suprisingly drummer and also lead vocal. reborn appears out of nowhere-#being “youre not your full potential so i will drain you till youre like a fish in a dehydrator until you become the best out there.”#thats about it#but i just like how drumming singers are like extremely good music people because drumming is already hard. and singing too???#absolutely insane i might say. tsuna would do this (bc reborn told him so)#he does not want to be the best but reborn exists in the paro for a reason#reborn is like maybe a famous musician who faked his death then did whatever he wanted to do while he was “alive”. then he got tsuna as his#apprentice and so so. oh yeah also whiplash (the movie) reference bc holy shit its so good. for me at least. and reborn would make tsuna go#that kind of crazy. like training until drenched in sweat from morning to night or whenever hes available. bc he knows he has potential#he just need someone to push him beyond his expected limit#btw 8059 implied#gokudera joined the band first bc yeah then comes yamamoto for fun as he had to rest from playing baseball a bit too enthusiastic#gokudera hated him so much for like being dumb??? (the goofy ah laugh) but then the two dated even before reborn made a move on tsuna#its very funny but they work it out#i was also thinking if the band ever do solos or do something not as the whole band 8059 will have their own album. itll be great#for genre im not sure?? lets just say alt rock electrojazz????#no idea but maybe ill make a playlist. maybe#sawada tsunayoshi#reborn#yamamoto takeshi#gokudera hayato#8059#r27
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we need to stop making wolfwood so suave and smooth in fics. we need to make him a complete loser. he is just so touch-starved and horny that when vash puts his hand on his thigh for the first time he gets so hard he almost passes out
#he's also trans btw#t4t vashwood i love you#anyway yeah i know a loser when i see one#also that man is catholic he is so full of guilt and has NO clue what he's doing#similarly make vash an absolute flirtatious menace#i like both flavours of them tbh but wolfwood doesn't get to be a loser enough#trigun#nicholas d. wolfwood#vashwood#vash the stampede#trigun stampede#trigun maximum#t4t vashwood
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Does Janeys know that Brakul has a wife and son? How would he react if he learned?
He actually does know and has known pretty much from the beginning.
Early on in his stint as a POW turned mercenary, Brakul would repeatedly invoke his wife and son as reasons he could or could not do certain things + to insult Janeys like 'okay but some of us have actual, tangible responsibilities in this world and people who depend on them. Like my wife and son, who I will be returning to immediately when my contract is over. You're never going to see me again. On account of my wife and son.'
When he started actually Liking Janeys and wanting to be with him, and seeing a chance to Avoid All Consequences And Never Go Back Home, he gradually reversed course (and attempted to rationalize it to himself) like "Ahhh they'll be fine. I mean everyone probably thinks I'm dead and/or an oathbreaker anyway so Sirudan's gotta be remarried by now. My brother probably got in on that, and he really has his shit together so they're in good hands. Honestly it will be worse for them if I go back. They're better off without me. They're fine. It's not a big deal. I'm soooooo single and unattached btw" And Janeys was like "Okay. Yay."
13 years down the line Janeys almost never thinks about it and when he occasionally remembers it's like
He does not give a shitttt about the wife/child abandonment angle whatsoever, but he's aware that Brakul still has some attachment to them and regrets over skipping out, and he's kind of insecure about it. The concept of Brakul having a child out there completely independent of their whole Thing also makes him uncomfortable in ways he can't really put his finger on. He's not actually scared that Brakul will return to his ex-wife though, like even with all his profound insecurities and abandonment issues he knows there's not a chance in hell that he's gonna actually attempt to make amends. Bottom line is he doesn't like to think about it, and mostly doesn't have to.
#Hibrides found out about his Abandoned Wife And Child while she was first pregnant and after their relationship had begun to sour#and Will Not let him forget it#She doesn't honestly give a shit about them either it's not really out of concern for the people he left behind but#more a way of Very directly confronting his avoidant tendencies (and also just an easy way to emotionally wound him)#Like she sees him as someone who will do everything in his power to avoid discomfort and the consequences of his choices and#then has the audacity to whine and mope about how guilty he feels. And then will make excuses if confronted.#And Janeys coddles and enables him like 90% of the time so he just keeps doing it. Which is absolutely infuriating to her.#(Her perception is pretty spot on btw it's just Occasionally applied unfairly to situations where he was actually a victim)#So being like 'hey how about the wife and child you abandoned huh. You gonna do that again when things get uncomfy?' gets#through to him. And making him actually acknowledge it or at least feel really fucking bad about it is like. emotionally satisfying#I want to be clear that she has the least control of her circumstances of the three and the vast majority of my authorial#sympathies but I just didn't want to write her as an absolute righteous perfect perma-victim.#So when I describe her doing stuff out of vindictiveness or occasional straight up cruelty it's not like 'she is a bitch' I just want#her to be like. a full human being who shouldn't have to be 100% innocent and devoid of malice in her circumstances to be#sympathetic.#Which I think Should be clear but the whole situation is one that like. In a fandom context would ABSOLUTELY get warped into#her being an Unsympathetic Mean Bitch while her associated gayboys get to be Sympathetic And Nuanced
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you say "i hate lando because he's arrogant, bratty and thinks he's better than everyone else", i hear "i hate lando because i believe everything i read on the internet".
#f1#formula 1#lando norris#lando#f1 2024#ln4#l4ndo#this is absolutely true btw#because you really need to watch a single interview of him and see that no he isn't any of that#its really that simple.#tumblr; instagram; youtube; twitter; whatever#there's always clips of interviews#just search for the full cut and not random clips taken out of context#AND AND AND#if your favorite driver was in that same position you'd be defending him.#not only defending him but you'd be doing what we (lando fans) do:#understand how he feels and why he said that#you just hate on lando because it's trendy
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I don’t often acknowledge the fact that Nick Bradshaw canonically died in Top Gun, BUT, if I were to do such a thing it would be like when I was thinking the other night (I know- dangerous) and I was like rip to Nick Bradshaw you woulda LOVED the 2008 classic movie Step Brothers.
#nick goose bradshaw#top gun#top gun maverick#top gun 1986#how the fuck do I tag this#no#seriously#that’s a real question#pete maverick mitchell#tom iceman kazansky#ron slider kerner#idk my head is so empty#but full of shit like this#I posted this in an absolute fit of ‘fuck it we ball’ energy#guys#he WOULD have loved Step Brothers#you know#the 2008 classic I watch every three and a half months#because it’s still one of the funniest things I’ve ever seen#you KNOW he and Maverick would reenact the bunk bed scene#and Ice would just come home and be like#???????#please can it just be normal#and slider would be like thoughts and prayers bro#they can be gay in this if you want btw (they TOTALLY) are#but this was more just my stupid thoughts about how like#if Goose hadn’t died you know he would also watch that movie like every three months#and Bradley would be like please stop referencing it#it’s NOT funny#and he’d ref anyway
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First name basis - regarding Kuwana's one-sided relationship with Mitsuru through a cultural and linguistic lens
I haven't seen anyone else point this out so I wanted to mention it because I think it provides some insight to Kuwana and Mitsuru's relationship to each other despite them never having the opportunity to interact in game.
Has anyone else noticed that Kuwana refers to all of his former students by their last names? (Yui) Mamiya, (Yasushi) Akaike, (Shinya) Kawai, (Yoko) Sawa - then, Mitsuru (Kusumoto).
It could be argued that Kuwana refers to Mitsuru by his first name in order for players to be able to immediately distinguish between "Kusumoto" (Reiko) and "Kusumoto" (Mitsuru), but I also read it as how Kitakata unintentionally ostracized Mitsuru from his peers: how, in turn, Kuwana treats Mitsuru more preciously than others.
Tellingly, Kuwana refers to Mamiya and Sawa with the -kun honorific. Most people who have a rudimentary understanding of Japanese know that -kun is often used for young(er) boys. However, using -kun for adult women is more of a formality. In Sawa's case, I believe -kun is used for her out of mutual respect. -kun can also be used by male teachers to refer to their female students.
Despite never seeing Kitakata interact with any of his students in the past, we can infer from the above information that his way of addressing his former students, at least, has not changed.
Kuwana does not refer to Kawai with any honorifics because he is dead and they clearly do not have a close relationship. He uses -san with Akaike or none at all.
However, Kuwana also occasionally uses -kun with Mitsuru - not out of formality like Mamiya, or respect like Sawa, but rather, because Kuwana still views Mitsuru-kun as a child, or the schoolboy he knew long ago.
**** It's worth noting that Kuwana sometimes does not use honorifics with Mitsuru at all. Similar to Akaike, this is more closely related to how Kuwana used to be his teacher (you may drop honorifics of those who are socially inferior, like teachers with students) and not how Reiko NEVER uses honorifics with Mitsuru because they are family members.
To me, this is why -kun popping up occasionally is rather important. It demonstrates that Kuwana believes in a close relationship or kinship with Mitsuru that he never had.
This presents itself in other ways. Firstly, I'd like to note how he speaks to Kusumoto Reiko. Reiko is the only person Kuwana uses honorific language with (です・ます specifically, keigo, but not full seppuku zarei 許してください type of keigo, just a more formal/distant way of speaking, she mostly returns the formality - Kuwana seems to lower himself when speaking to her. Literally and figuratively, lol).
He also uses the fairly distant-yet-respectful sounding 「あなた」 with her. It's no question that he respects her undyingly ("virtuous and capable"!), yet I believe it is very interesting he refers to Mitsuru using -kun when speaking to her as well! He speaks about Mitsuru with her as if they all know each other well.
Take this line from the finale, while speaking to Reiko on the phone after Ehara's trial ended:
"Enough is enough. You and your son have been through enough hell. I want to protect Mitsuru-kun too. Almost as much as his mother."
(This is my favorite line. It's darling.)
Here, Kuwana is recognizing Reiko's struggles while veeeeeery preciously reminding her that he deeply cares for Mitsuru-kun - comparing himself, almost (and boldly so) to that of a maternal/parental figure.
While I don't think that Kuwana actually views himself as a parental figure to Mitsuru, it is important to note that Mitsuru is quite literally the figurehead and motivation to Kuwana's vigilantism:
"If it means I can prevent another Mitsuru Kusumoto, yes, I will keep killing." (Chapter 10)
"Mitsuru and all those kids... For them to have justice, this is what I had to become!" (Chapter 11)
"The day Mitsuru leapt from the roof, I vowed to atone for the rest of my life." (Chapter 11)
"Do you have any idea what [Mitsuru] was like thirteen years ago? Then you have no right to speak to me that way!" (Chapter 11)
This might be a good place to note that Kitakata's name change is referential to the date Mitsuru attempted suicide (September 17th): Kuwana, Ku (9) + wa (1) + na (7) - it's goroawase! Plus 仁 (Jin) meaning humanity, virtue, goodness.
I'd like to use all of this to talk about a much broader and darker theme. As I wrote in the beginning of this post, I believe Kitakata referring to Mitsuru by his first name - unlike the rest of his classmates - had unforeseen consequences. Being called by your first name by teachers is the choice of that teacher, and it is a very deliberate choice in high school. Kitakata "othered" Mitsuru, unintentionally showing him that he was not deserving of the same respect as his classmates.
Kuwana mentions that he thought he was well-liked by his students, even going as far as to not believe that that level of violence, abuse, and bullying could be happening right under his nose. While I don't believe Kitakata ever willingly participated in bullying Mitsuru, Mitsuru still remained outcasted in his own homeroom until the day he fell into a coma. In part, thanks to the way Kitakata singled him out.
By taking this to heart, Kuwana developed this idea that he and Mitsuru are foiled - that his selfish vigilantism is all for "Mitsuru's sake". In Chapter 11, Kuwana says "Mitsuru and all those kids..." - this shows an inability to recognize Mitsuru as anything other than a victim and a child. Mitsuru is not "Kusumoto-kun" or "Mitsuru-san", he is: Mitsuru-kun. An innocent young boy.
Kitakata may have unintentionally put a target on Mitsuru in class, but Kuwana singles Mitsuru out intentionally - by feeling so indebted to him that Kuwana, frankly, develops a parasocial relationship to Mitsuru's tragedy. And in a way, Mitsuru had become his unintended victim twice.
Moreover, the child he failed to protect, and the one he hurt the most.
#not ship related do not tag this as ship or i will bite your HEAD OFF.#i want to maybe add more to this eventually and do a full-blown analysis on the way kuwana speaks to/about everyone#because it changes with yagami and kaito and even sugiura#he talks to sugiura like a child lmfao. because sugiura is YOUNGER THAN MITSURU CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT.#anyways take this long ass post after radio silence forever#lost judgement#rgg#kuwana jin#mitsuru kusumoto#reiko kusumoto#text#btw i can quote this game with absolutely striking accuracy do NOT play with me#analysis
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