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thankstothe · 1 year ago

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this show rewires you fundamentally in 60 seconds and then just goes on to have more seasons. audacity

#house md #gregory house #james wilson #hilson #screencap #s03e02 “cane and able”#imagine bringing the receipts to the ceo of bodylanguage #“does sound like you though”#“worried your wings would melt”#“god doesnt limp”#are you kidding me? this is rapid fire and im already dead #havent stopped thinking about this #I do like that Wilson is wrong about House's ego here #he tries but he doesn't really get house #idk being worried and so wrong then doing stupid shit with all that is just very human #house isnt even mad and goes along with it #long post #longpost

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allyriadayne · 7 months ago

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Hook, line and sinker: Larys and Alicent // Larys and Aegon

#house of the dragon #larys strong #alicent hightower #aegon ii targaryen #larystrongedit #alicenthightoweredit #aegoniitargaryenedit #hotdedit #aegon x larys #alicent x larys #gameofthronesdaily #targaryensource #welighttheway #mariana does things #photoset #*hotd #larys is so crazy for doing almost word for word what he did to alicent lmfao #you've got the initial flattery; a recognition of how they feel or they see themselves #then something that worries them; something to create empathy. I See You and I Know How You Feel #and last the bit where larys makes himself useful as a spymaster or as an ally and tries to create a wedge. rhaenyra¸ otto it's all the sam #to him.#i really like that his process is successful bc first you get alicent wanting to leave politely 'weather's lovely isn't it?' to 'what do yo #know about the matter of his leaving?' & aegon groaning bc he doesn't want to talk to larys but he's intrigued by him 'how?'

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ghostreblogging · 2 years ago

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Pest control Danny

So Danny is Damian's twin and like the usual jazz. YOU ARE ALIVE?. HAHA NO.

So batfam noticed something. When Danny thinks no one is looking he is muttering die pests and stomping his foot and in general trying to kill something

Alfred thinks Danny saw pests and does not hesitate.

Anyway like a few months later world is in danger yada yada and they need the help of a minor demon, who literally stole the key they need and they need to trade for it.

And the encounter goes like this.

Constantine: we are dealing with a minor demon, don't lower your guard just because it's a lower demon. It managed to steal the key.

Bat: hn

So Constantine summons the demon and the demon gets summoned

Demon:well well-

Danny:ITS YOU!

Demon: huh? Yes-

Danny:NOT YOU, YOUHAVE YOU BEEN THE ONE BRINGING PESTS INNNN THE HOUSE? Ugh later ILL TALK TO YOU LATER need to get rid of this

Batfam : wait a min-

Danny straight up lunges at the demon breaking the circle in the process and no longer trapping it but still Danny grabs it by the legs as it was trying to escape and he just literally kills it.

John Constantine slowly backing away : uhh we needed a . . . thing from that . . ."

Danny: I'll get that key for you, but for the love of the ancients stop summoning things . Gotham is arleady cursed enough as it is

#danny phantom #danny fenton #dp x dc #is this done yet?#dc x dp #so danny saw his brother and just decided that he'll get rid of all the curses.#like it was an infestation #similar to roaches in a house of a hoarder #danny really wants to ask where the heck did they manage to get the curses #but he doesn't #to keep up the human act #cursed look like roaches to him #acts like one too #really hard to get rid of #demons are like really big roaches #and he got really angry #like imagine if some sad trenchcoat man tries to unleash one of the most fattest juiciest cockroach jnto your kithen #ghostreblogging

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mamawasatesttube · 4 months ago

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thinking abt kon getting hurt/upset about something big and clark bundling him up in his cape... ouuhhhhh souperfam save me...

#rimi talks #kon is clark's little guy. and when i stop being sleepy i will have further things to say about this #specifically i just think often abt kon's independence vs clark's protectiveness #and kon and the arc of having to accept that he can ask for help sometimes actually #like the post sb94 no. 100 fic that lives in my head #where clark is like WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME YOU WERE HOMELESS YOU ARE LITTLE AND SMALL I WOULDVE HELPED SOONER #and kon is like uhhh wdym. i didnt want to burden you and anyways i can handle myself??#and clark is like You Are Sixteen And You Were Homeless And Then Getting Majorly Exploited--#but kon is sixteen and doesn't even understand that he was getting exploited for housing. because he is sixteen.#and clark just wants to wrap him in his cape and protect him forever. but he can't bc kon would hate that.#but also kon's constant need to prove himself as worthy of the S...#the way he strives to prove he ''deserves'' superman's respect + care...#mae ripping off his s-shields and telling him he wasn't worthy of them really did a number on him 💀#like clark doesnt even know kon tried to kill himself to ''prove'' his worth. oh my god #okay i need to take a nap but my god. you guys. souperfam...#kon #clark #superfam

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opera-ghost · 2 years ago

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phantom of the opera + twitter

#been thinking about this type of AU (??) a lot recently #stan twitter for the palais garnier would go crazy #erik frequently doxxes people who criticize christine #and somehow his account doesn't get suspended #people have tried to dox him back but for some reason it always says he's tweeting from the opera house ????#and they just assume he has a really good VPN #... more to come ??#phantom of the opera #poto shitpost #poto twit

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welcometogrouchland · 2 years ago

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Hello, another doodle compilation post of everything I haven't posted since the period of May to now that I didn't hate but didn't like enough to post on its own + fanart i made of @catboymoments's fankids Azura and Hyacinth! I'm not normally a fankid person but these guys are a whole moment unto themselves I love them sm. ID in alt text bc it was getting lengthy! Let me know if there's any issues

#the owl house #toh #luz noceda #willow park #gus porter #hunter toh #(he's there too! just very small. let me have this)#i had a lot of fun trying to figure out Hyacinth and Azura! they were unfamiliar so it was a challenge #hyacinth especially doesn't have a face I'd normally draw but i ended up really enjoying getting out of my comfort zone for him #i hope all the details translated well and that i interpreted aspects of their designs correctly?#i ended up accidentally giving Azura a slightly hooked nose bc i for some reason thought she had one? also struggled w/ her mouth a tad #but i decided to keep it in bc it made her face more unique lol. i already draw amity with a hooked nose so it kind of makes sense #you could say it's from alador though (which was also how i justified the way i drew her mouth since i normally draw Luz's differently-#-just imagine she got it from Camila)#also i recognize thst Hyacinth's cane arm is wonky?? really sorry about that! he was leaning on it a certain way in the ref photo #and i tried to replicate that but. eh #It's been a weird difficult time art wise recently #mainly cause of the hiatus I had to take cause of exams that I'm still recovering from.#Probably gonna end up taking another art/posting break (though we'll see how that all plays out??)#it's been a weird few weeks but not bad. I'm just kind of. trying to remain chill!#kinds wanna rewatch but I'm always afraid I'll overindulge and get sick of the shows i love 😭 but also the longer i go w/o rewatching #the more insane i become. like the joker #I've also been slightly back into comics recently and it sucks. i hate it here fr let me out #but yeah that's where we are rn at ladel studios. just chilling i think!#i like it. gonna see if i can cultivate it as a skill

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marc--chilton · 9 months ago

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(mgv) house gets broody if the ducklings (chase and thirteen specifically) push him away when his heat gets closer. kind of offputting to have your well meaning but still generally assholeish boss/work dad suddenly wanting to hang out because his brain is going "my pups <3 my big pups who i adopted and love" (<- exaggeration. hindbrains really play up the emotional aspects of things because, and i say this with affection, they are kind of dumb) so them shooing him off means to his dumb hormonal omega brain, his own pups are rejecting him. it's not that deep and he knows it. that's the worst part. but his instincts don't really get the memo so he just sulks around wilson's office when that happens

#house md #house mgv #mgv #they want to just be alone for a bit unrelated to him yet the omega brain takes it personal #and house is aware of it as it happens so he does get embarrassed by it too but keeps doing it anyway #bc when they don't make him go away it's like yay!! good family time!! <3 #and house can't pass up an easy hit of endorphins like that #for the most part house will sit quietly in the same room as them so it's like whatever he's not even as annoying as he usually is #and if they do really want him to leave he doesn't put up as much of a fight as he usually would because his cycles make him ->#more inclined to be polite (a fact cuddy tries to make use of that house will repay with interest after his heat's over)

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moonlit-tia · 5 months ago

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Made my fields of mistria oc, Vesta, with this picrew by maetheellen! I got the template from here ♡

#some little fun facts about vesta: she has terrible pollen allergies. so it was a choice for her to become a farmer.#(they just wanted a free house okay)#while she finds insects to be cute she doesn't want them near her. ever.#but she can't say no to luc when he asks her to go bug hunting 😔#they're a bit of a mystery amongst the townsfolk. no one really knows much about them or where they came from.#maple luc and dell love playing games with them! vesta gets really into whatever role they put her in.#fields of mistria #oc vesta #fom farmer #•°☆°•#tried drawing her but then remembered im bad a drawing so decided very quickly that i was over it #i got annoyed because i couldn't get one thing to look right lol #and any chance of me trying to improve was gone. i dont have the patience for drawing i guess

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pynkhues · 17 days ago

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Sophie, have you watched Nosferatu, yet? The topic of gothic heroines resurfaced and with it the comparison of Loustat to Orlok and Ellen. would love to read a meta/review from you of it wrt IWTV.

I haven't yet, anon! It's been a pretty hectic start to the year with my sister and nephews staying with me, so I haven't made it to the cinema this week (hoping to get there on Tuesday, although I might be wrangled into taking the boys to see Sonic 3 instead of getting to see literally anything else, haha). I was wondering this morning if something had happened with the gothic heroine interpretation though because my Byronic hero post has been getting a lot of attention in the last 24 hours. I'll try and see Nosferatu soon though - I'm seeing a lot about it, and I have a few friends who are actually gothic horror authors and they've all hated it, which has actually made me extra curious, haha.

#i've always lowkey thought eggers was a bit of a hack but a lot of these authors i know LOVE the witch and the lighthouse #and so them not liking this has really surprised me #but yeah my phone notifications were going a little nuts while i was at the zoo with my nephews today #i was like 'please don't be drama' haha #(also anon who asked about the drop in context of being a means to trap louis in the house - - i'll try and reply tonight #but no i don't see that as lestat trying to trap louis in there #especially given lestat's cast out of the house in the aftermath of it #and louis destroys his coffin #both of which i think hold a lot of narrative and symbolic weight)#it's also interesting to consider that louis does actually leave lestat two eps earlier though and he's the one to come back and bind lesta #to him domestically by making him turn claudia #the reason - i thnk - that louis doesn't leave lestat is simply because he doesn't want to #he COULD follow claudia around europe there's nothing stopping him except for himself #i actually think you could make the case that he doesn't like travel in general tbh #he doesn't even want to with lestat when lestat tries to get them to go to rome #but i do think it'd predominantly tied with louis' reluctance to give up his humanity which is intrinsically tied to new orleans #but i'll try and write that out more articulately later haha

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theguardianace · 3 months ago

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man. it hasn't even been a full half day of this event being out and im already drafting a fic for it. what an absolute RIDE thsi has been.

#will i post it? idk #it's me so its a rui fic.#its him getting worried when mizuki doesn't show up to school the next day. or the next. or the next or the next or the next #and he knows this isn't his buisness but he can't help but be worried for his dear friend #so he texts.#and they don't even read it #i cant decide if i want him to try going over to mizuki's house and talk to them (they don't open teh door)#or he can't even do that because he doesn't know where mizuki lives #GOD WAIT. what if i did a multichap and had a bunch of characters #toya getting worried too but having none of the context #he doesn't know what to do except take good notes in class for them and hope they come back soon #akito doesnt say anything or do anything #but he notices how tense ena is at home. how stressed she seems but she won't talk about it. (its mizukis secret. shes not going to out the #but aktio can't figure it out and he knows it has to do with mizuki or the cultural festival or something in her circle #but all akito can really do is leave a slice of cheesecake on the counter and keep moving forward #an is worried. and she tries talking to akito but he doesnt know and toya doesnt either #and maybe she overhears the bullies in the hallway and realizes it might be a gender thing #but she doesn't know about ena. she doesn't #but she knows how to fight for her friend so she tells the bullies to back the f off and grow up #nene not really knowing whats going on but noticing mizukis absence and everyone around her getting kinda stressed about it #how akito seems grumpier and an keeps giving some people glares #but mostly rui. whos distracted at practice and distracted at school and keeps checking his phone #and doesn't know what to do. doesn't really do anything because of it. but shes there for rui. and there for mizuki #whenevr they get back.#and kasa. oh silly ol kasa #he notices mizuki's absence and is all “hall monitor” about it for the first like. two dayts #but he notices ruis behavior first adn then an and akitos and man even nene a little #and while hes never read a social cue in his life he knows somethigns wrong. offers to put on a show with rui.#and rui. says. no.#that's when tsukasa freaks out

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myreygn · 1 year ago

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modern au dad askeladd except he's not an actual dad but this random kid shows up to his house every day and tries to have beef over the closed food store askeladd bought and turned into an antiquarian store. turns out the food store used to be run by the kid's father until he passed away which is very sad of course but also askeladd is not gonna cooperate with some brat that borderline harasses him day by day. only that he can't call the cops because he kinda has a turbulent past and if they find out he's filling his store with stolen goods it's gonna become a huge problem. and note to destiny, the stupid kid finding out is not that great either because now he has to hear it out if he doesn't wanna go to prison and also he should probably learn the demon child's name while he's at it. shenanigans ensue.

#askeladd agrees to honor the memory of thorfinn's dad and in return thorfinn won't call the cops on him #then they fight about how the honoring should be done #askeladd doesn't want to change his entire store's image only to make sure people don't forget about the former owner #and thorfinn isn't satisfied with just a sign with his dad's name on it which is as far as askeladd is willing to go #things change when some rich jackass wants to buy every building on the street and turn the whole area into a luxury resort #now thorfinn and askeladd have to work together because thorfinn doesn't want his dad's store to vanish #and askeladd doesn’t want HIS STORE to be torn down because smuggling the stolen stuff out of town would be a pain #(also affordable houses with basements big enough to keep the meth laboratory running are rare these days)#(also also thorfinn learns some kind of martial art in the dojo across the street which is whatever but the coach is really nice)#(like. REALLY nice.)#(with a nice voice and a nice face and nice muscles and as if that wasn't enough he makes a kickass apple pie)#��bjorn is single btw” - “shut up thorfinn” - “i'm trying to help” - “go bother your twink why dontcha”#yeah thorfinn actually manages to make friends with the son of that asshole that tries to get their houses #great for the brat of course but now askeladd has to deal with a snobbish teen criticizing his cooking #not to mention the nosey nanny slash accountant the rich idiot hired to keep his twink son entertained who's very curious about the basement #he also knows a lot about modern art which. not great. well great for him but not for askeladd.#anyway tldr #askeladd has to save a street while trying to raise two boys that aren't his not falling in love and keeping ragnar out of the meth basement #thorkell is the construction worker hanging around and refusing to do his job until sven pays him quadruple the original agreement #vinland saga #bjornskeladd #thornute #ragnar and thorkell are also there #and sven but no one wants him to

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homocrafting · 1 year ago

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I was watching this ethubs megacut video and it's composed of LL clips and there's a part after... I think Tango? maybe? blows up the middle tower in their fortress that Bdubs says smth like "We can always rebuild" and Etho replied "I'm done building" and like. do I need to explain the metaphors you can make out of this. they're making me ill again

#ethoslab #bdubs #ethubs #ecstra explosions #liksten. listen it's just.#he really doesn't; y'know?#he doesn't build anymore- relatiinship wise; which is what I'm going for here #at least not with Bdubs #bear with me here before you go calling me crazy #even when Etho reaches out to Bdubs he can never bring himself to fully build that bridge #in double life he tried to get Bdubs to see hey; I want this bridge built; a castle with me has better walls than one with him #but those walls are so thick he's forgotten how to let anyone through #and when Bdubs says he's happy with Impulse Etho knows there's no way to build that bridge #and then in lim life Bdubs builds *so much* of that bridhe for them #it's so many moments but 'it'll still be you and me' (and etho never says yes) encompasses it best I think #Bdubs spends all of Lim life building that bridge between them; but Etho would have had to build that last connection #but Etho's done building #but *NOW* in SL Etho built a house with Cleo; and he's building again- he built a bridge with Grian and one with Cleo #and Bdubs said he'd fail for him. Bdubs asked 'oh; Etho?' when Cleo asked abt his boyfriend.#but ultimately Etho looks at bdubs and can only see that broken fortress #and in the end he never says me too #sorry sorry went on a tangent. sorray

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gar-a-ash · 2 months ago

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All told if I HADN'T owned Reese before I got Hatchet I would have been absolutely miserable owning him with all his constant bullshit and shenanigans and deliberate attempts to get into trouble. If I had only had Tassie, I would have been absolutely crushed wondering what I was doing wrong, why this working line isn't as good as my last working line, what's wrong with me, ect.

But I DID own Reese as my first introduction to working line shepherds, and if you've been following me that long you'd know that Reese was an absolute monster to handle, and while he had his moments he was also constantly dialed to 12 and was bullheaded and it took three actual years, six months before he died, to finally become a manageable dog. Compared to that Hatchet eating my floor and trying to dismantle my car is nowhere near as bad as Reese actually trying to severely maim me because I corrected his reactivity as a teen. At least Hatchet actually likes me and enjoys doing stuff with me vs Reese where we hated each other the first eight months I owned him.

I dunno, there's no point to this really. I'm just retroactively appreciating Reese for being my first working line because I don't think I could ever get worse than him and owning him has prepared me for a lot of difficult behavior. At the same time holy fuck WHY was he my first working line that was such an awful three years when I had him good god.

#gar rambles #german shepherd dog #gsd #puppy stories #he was such a bastard all the time #the drive was crazy and almost unmanageable #i got really spoiled with tassie #hatchet's genuinely a good puppy and doesn't have that many issues but he's still a lot of dog #and he does start circling the house looking for trouble to get into when he's bored #but at least he's good natured about it #instead of reese going for me face when i told him no #or completely disengaging with me when i tried to do anything with him that first year #he was a working dog that needed to work but refused to anything that required effort that first year #thank god that switch flipped after #i'm super happy i have hatchet but i know if i hadn't been prepared by reese i would have been a lot less happy

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guinevereslancelot · 2 days ago

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el oh el. just got to tell the guy who dumped me (to make more time for skiing) that yes you can ski on my property actually 😌

#which he would KNOW if he ever showed up at my house when the sun was up #i didn't tell him while we were dating bc i wanted it to be a surprise #he works a second job as a ski instructor so that he can ski for free at that mountain #but he's sooo obsessed he still wastes money skiing everywhere else #and he was sooo busy with the second job (that he doesn't really need) (and skiing in his free time)#and too tired the rest of the time #so that he never felt like seeing me and decided that he was ~too busy~ for a relationship #bc he was too busy driving to other states to go ski when he can do that 20 minutes away for free any time #anyway #my property isn't amazing amazing but he's never seen it in daylight #so didn't know that you can def downhill ski the fields and woods bc of how steep and hilly it is #also we have a beautiful view 😤#anyway i invited the group chat to come sled and he was like can i bring my skis haha #and i got to say yes actually you can. the property used to have a ski lift like 100 years ago but it's gone now 😁#i'm not mad mad at him fr but LMAO it was so fun to rub that in his face ngl #i hope he does come tomorrow but he might go actual skiing #but idk he often drives to multiple mountains across dif states to ski inna single day so he might #i think curiousity might get him and he was invited #i'm not a good enough skiier to want to do it here esp without a tow rope but he would and def could #anyway lowkey pathetic but if the only reason he regrets dumping me is for my house it's still funny lol #dude didn't know what he was giving up but i am joking he would not have dated me for such a shallow selfish reason i hope 🤣#but def better not to find out the hard way still #my family is not rich in any way but people who see our property often think we are #but it is a working farm and an old old house and barn that need lots of work etc #the maintenance and stuff and conservation easement on the land brought the price down a lot #also the realtor was lowkey shady and wanted to buy it and tried to scare everyone away from buying it and drive the price down lol #and the house needs a new septic system we cannot afford at all and a new roof we also cannot afford #but it looks really cute and has a view so people see it and go: 🤯#but when dating a new person i didn't want to give him the wrong idea so i didn't say anything #bc i wanted to know he liked me for me not for anything else. but now i know he doesn't <3

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dimiclaudeblaigan · 10 months ago

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If there is at least one thing I can credit FE for doing better than Tales in localization, it's not trying to actively go out of their way for an entire game to avoid subtext or direct text between two men that is romantic or implied romantic. Funny when it's so present that the attempt doesn't even work; infuriating that it was attempted to begin with.

So as much as I often have issues with some of FE's localizations, at least they have a leg up on loc Tales for that.

#DCB Comments #imagine changing entire sentences and vocal tones just to try to avoid it #if anything I'd say at least in FE the locs just... keep what's there like #they could've toned Soren and Houses Yuri down and they didn't. they just kept their lines or in some cases #especially with Houses Yuri I'd say leaned into them #have to specify bc Houses Yuri got to keep his bi agenda. Vesperia Yuri had the unfortunate issue of #the loc not wanting to keep his gay and trying reeeeally hard to avoid it #including altering entire sentences to avoid any woe is them misunderstandings about men having feelings for each other #meanwhile Houses Yuri is free to call men cute and lo and behold everyone loved that for him #they removed and altered a LOT of Vesperia Yuri's personality traits #(including any ability to express real sadness or fear bc woe is them if he's not a cool edgy man)#but they also really changed his tone toward Flynn PLUS some of what they say to each other #and twisted it to make it sound like Yuri was either angry or wasn't actually emotional abt him #forget the way they brought Grant George in for the DE release and made him sound just completely DEAD with zero personality #like. I can tolerate playing Houses dubbed despite my gripes with it (story based stuff)#it didn't feel like they were trying to alter LBGT+ aspects and they even for some rly leaned into it #basically if you haven't played Vesperia Yuri is... really gay coded. the loc pretended not to notice #in fact he's queer + gay coded bc and doesn't fit male gender norms and the gacha games LOVE that with his hair/outfits #Rays mind you is JP only bc it was shut down very quickly in the west and Vesp Yuri's story in Rays is uh #basically it centers around Flynn he loses his shit to protect Flynn and they do the usual like #don't-admit-it's-gay-outright in fictional media by using the ''Yuri's important person'' shtick #but he activates a special power in the middle of utterly raging to get Flynn back from their enemies #funny thing? that game never made it to that arc. I was told in about five months the western ver would've gotten that #but in some way I'm glad it didn't bc who knows how they would've tried to spin that #It's BAFFLING to me how you can get characters in Tales like JAY but the locs shake in their boots at the idea of queer gays #but given how allergic fictional media is to admitting a male character is gay -gestures to Ike and Vesp Yuri-#I'm not surprised I'm just actually angry that the locs try to censor homosexual relationships as much as possible even when they barely ca #if anyone does know Vesp Yuri and is confused on why I'm calling him gay coded despite what the dub did with Judith feel free to ask #bc I do ship them a little bit myself! but I just recognize that canon wise I really can't see him as anything but gay-demiromantic #but again at least FE locs don't shake in their boots anymore abt same sex pairs including men (side eyes Lucius/Raven)

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girlivealwaysbean · 2 months ago

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hey god if you've created someone for me can you introduce me to them sooner? i kinda need them now

#like i know i know im sad and hurt but in my heart even the worst breakup friendship or otherwise can kill my hope #like i know this is gods plan for me this is my arc but god it's getting worse and harder everyday #i thought nothing could be worse than yesterday but i hadn't lived today them #then*#i need to talk to someone so bad oh god sl yesterday i had the exam right #and like i don't even know what happened i thought i was going to fail even after giving my 2000% studying #for like 10 hours a day for 15 days for this one exam #and i was panicking and shivering so bad that my heart felt like it would fly out of my chest it was beating so hard #and so fast it didn't even beat like that when i climb too many stairs #and i tried to deep breathe but nothing worked it was so scary like yeah i get stressed sometimes #but this was another level so scary i was nauseous too #and then i clicked submit and i got 82!!!#when i was so sure i was gonna fail because i was only sure about 54 marks answers and the passing was 50 #and i got really happy and relieved and then i realized. oh. i don't have anyone to tell #like yeah i told my dad and he was like oh cool ofcourse you did very good #because he doesn't GET it that im not smart anymore and 10th cbse is not an accurate measure of intelligence #he wasn't even happy or surprised he was like well nice obviously #and that's it. i didn't have anyone else to tell #granted i hadn't even told anyone i was giving the exam. i mean i say anyone as if im swimming in friends #only have one. two if u stretch. and i didn't say. cause like idk doesn't really seems like anyone cares #and aah stupid emotional me before the exam i was feeling sad and trying not to panic (??? why??) and CRY in the car because i was thinking #that how my mom always drops me to exam centres and we talk i play music and when im getting out she says all the best beta #and the beta. wow i typed this and immediately have tears in my eyes now. i don't even understand why but #idk i made it up to be a little tradition in my head and i really wanted to call my mom and say mom pls can u say all the best #to me now bc i think ill fuck it up and im really scared and maybe if u give your blessing it'd be okay. but then i thought how embarrassin #it wld be if i failed. bc we don't have any kind of rship my mom and me. and then when she heard i passed from dad she didn't even call me #or anything. thank god i didn't do all that drama but fucking hell. this is all just for me right nobody cares not my parents #and it's too difficult im crumbling under the pressuee but i have to grit my teeth and do it or ill never be able to get out of this house #and i know ill find people when i do get out. but in the meantime. please god ji just one person idc who girl boy friend or love ANYONE #ik it's weak & ik i shld be enough on my own. but pls i just CAN'T.they dont even have to put up with me they just have to care a bit

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