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i just feel like merc and jax makes so much sense to me bc merc constantly has to control themselves (atleast how i play merc) and their disturbing thoughts and how they constantly battle with having to be a killing machine monster, and Merc just getting to give up that control with Jax...I NEED HIM SO BAD...
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#no bc i agree#giving up that control for once and still fearing rejection bc it has happened before#jax is an ass and hes prone to act that way around merc even when theyre vulnerable and WHAT IF HE DOESNT SEE WHAT A GIFT THIS IS#HOW BADLY MERC NEEDS THIS. GIVING UP CONTROL. GIVING IT TO HIM. what if he doesn't understand how deeply he can fuck merc up#how he can RUIN them#many thoughts#asks#c: jax
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pushing back hard against the idea that eddie should be the one to indicate to buck that they could be something. ummmmm no actually buck doesn’t need to just have another moment where he falls into something because he didn’t realize it was an option or he didn’t know he could want it until it was right in front of him. buck needs to be decisive and he needs to go in with his eyes wide open and he’s in a position to do so because eddie already sat him down and said because, evan. and maybe eddie deserves to have what he wants without feeling like he could lose what’s most important to him at any moment. buck and eddie are special because buck broke down eddie’s door once already. he should do it again. then eddie can invite him in.
#‘does eddie know if he told buck he wanted him that buck would be his’ DOES BUCK KNOW HE WANTS EDDIE TO DO THAT?#jw why is it always eddie who has to do this shit 😭😭😭 HE LITERALLY ALSO HAS AN INTENSE FEAR OF REJECTION AND ABANDONMENT#ANYONE REMEMBER HIS WIFE?#buck has NEVER TOLD EDDIE WHAT HE FEELS. HE HAS NEVER SAID IT#telepathic eddie expectations strike again#is eddie the cause of his own pain or has buck already chosen someone else 3 different times?#and have all of those times hurt eddie?
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AND I MET THE CHANGE GOD TOO. OKAY. COOL OKAY
#I WASNT EVEN MEANING TO SO I ACCIDENTALLY SKIPPED THE DIALOGUE BEFORE I KNEW WHAT WAS HAPPENING FUCK#ill go and find it later if only to give myself peace of mind. BUT WOW. WHAT THE FUCK#my original plan was to 1) work my way to the king and talk to him 2) doom myself and take everyone down with me 3) loop back to floor 3#so i can visit the observatory and scrounge for any lore. although since i got killed that run siffrin asked the king to kill him first#which was intereresting. but i decided to have all doors unlocked that time around so i can just get the starcrest and go#but for some reason it wasnt working so i went to get the keyknife since i was already there and completely forgot i already had it#from the previous loop and THATS what triggered it. IT WAS FUNNY BUT ALSO SCARY BUT ALSO I THINK I GET WHAT THEY MEAN#about siffrin going back without actually changing. going along with a script even if his feelings on things change#the same way he has his own small rituals like the carving thing and does it for constancy. reassurance or safety even#and the times when he breaks script and ends horribly like the sadness attacking thing and bonnie yelling at him cause him to loop#to avoid it. although i cant really say anything bc id probably do the same thing. maybe not for the same reasons since im cruel#and make him do the worst to see what will happen since i put curiosity over rejection sensitivity as an observer and player but well.#i feel wrongfooted bringing it up since i dont have it myself but i have to wonder if this kind of leans into ocd tendencies.. i remember#reading something about how ocd is fuelled by fear. and things like counting and rituals are kind of used to cope with that?#if anyone knows anything more or talked abt it already id be really interested in hearing it bc im almost sure im not#the first to come to this conclusion. but i simply dont know enough nor have the confidence to broach the topic rn esp with how often#misconceptions around ocd get casually passed around so its hard for me to know what is and isnt a baseless assumption#puppy plays isat#in stars and time#isat#playthru#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat act 3 spoilers#change god#WHAT WAS THAT WITH WEARING LOOPS FACE THOUGH WHAT THE FUCKKK
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[ID: Two panels from Dungeon Meshi. The first scows Senshi clutching his face as tears start to spill out of his eyes, saying, "I've always... always wanted to have this soup one more time." He's not wearing his helmet in this panel, so his face is unusually visible, detailed and vulnerable. The second panel shows himself as a youngster, surrounded by his old mining team, all smiling at each other, one of them rubbing Senshi's head. Modern-day Senshi continues, "Thank you. All of you. Thank you." End ID.]
Holy shit. I anticipated some tragic backstory from the "I must feed the young ones" panels, but what I'd guessed was that Senshi might have become so devoted to cooking and eating literally whatever because he'd previously survived a famine and had seen children starve to death. I did not expect him to have been the child who was the sole survivor of a doomed travel party, one of whom was determined to feed Senshi first because he was the youngest, and that Senshi has lived with the fear of having inadvertently committed cannibalism by eating stew that he'd never quite known the contents of. I'm happy for him that Laios deduced and confirmed for him that it was griffin meat, that he was able to taste the meal that saved his life once more and remember the friends he lost. Seriously, I'm crying, and also earnestly relieved that while his backstory is pretty dark, it's not the type of fucked up I'd been preparing myself mentally for.
#Dungeon Meshi#Delicious in Dungeon#Dunmeshi#though it IS really worth exploring the ethics of cannibalism in survival situations#The podcast You're Wrong About has a really interesting pairing of episodes#in the Donner Party and Flight 571 Crash episodes#Both about disasters in which people wound up eating their dead to survive#and an interesting connection they drew was that it wasn't the cannibalism itself#that destroyed the lives of the Donner survivors#it was the horror and disgust and societal rejection they got for having eaten human flesh#even the children who had no idea what they were eating were treated with revulsion#and this is clearly the response Senshi feared facing if anybody knew what he'd eaten#But Flight 571 like a century later#the survivors were faced with a lot of understanding when rescued#relatively little condemnation and revulsion#by and large commentators acknowledged that they did what they had to do#and sympathized with how difficult and painful it must have been#which is what Senshi gets from his party#Laios wants to figure out the truth because he knows it's hurting Senshi not to know#But at one point Marcille straight up says that none of them would think less of Senshi if he did eat dwarf stew#Okay so this is Marcille 'ardent student of blood magic' Donato#but Chilchuck agrees#anyway I think that would be a particularly interesting conversation to have in a cooking manga#how do you safely eat a dead friend when that's all you have to survive on?#what are the nutritional benefits other than 'better than starving'?#what are the risks? There's prion diseases and all sorts you can get#they write it off as eating the dragon part but they DO spend seven days eating Falin at the end#ARE there any in/famous cannibalism cases in this world?#Do peopel argue about whether or not it's cannibalism if a dwarf eats a tallman?#enquiring minds (mine) want to know
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I've seen some people say: “Trent shouldn’t have been gay, he should have just supported Colin anyway.” And it's such a weird (and bad) take.
Had Trent been straight we wouldn’t have gotten the scenes we did. Colin could have opened up and told Trent how he felt, but Trent wouldn’t have understood, he could have been supportive. But he wouldn’t understand where Colin is coming from. But because Trent is also gay he knows what it’s like being in the closet, living with fear and dread. Living with thoughts like “if I tell the people I love about my sexuality, will they hate me?”. You can’t get that from a straight ally, no matter how supportive and well meaning they are. Because they don't know what it's like. We need straight allies, we need all the straight allies we can get. But what Colin needs RIGHT NOW is someone who, while not a professional athlete, is involved in the world of football. Knows about homophobic fans, knows that there are a culture of toxic masculinity and homophobia in the clubs. That is why it’s important that Trent himself is gay.
Colin almost got runover by a cyclist in his desperate attempt to run away from Trent at the gay bar. But the relief when he understands what Trent is saying "I must have a good reason for that, mustn't I?" is so clear. Trent is also queer, Trent is safe, I can let Trent in.
And I think some people might read that line as "I haven't outed you because I'm gay too, but if I had been straight I would have" which isn't what Trent means, Trent is using that phrase to be subtle, to let Colin come to his own conclusion, because Colin is stressed out, he's scared. By letting Colin think for himself it gives Colin an opportunity to calm down (which is also why Trent holds his hands out as if calming a frightened animal, he also makes himself slightly smaller by bending his knees and leaning forward slightly). And he does, he realises what Trent is saying and he calms down. It's also an added layer of security it's not just, "I haven't outed you" it's "I haven't outed you because I am also queer". A straight person saying that they haven't outed you doesn't hold as much weight as a queer person saying it. Because you know that the queer person knows how important it is to be safe and to come out on your own terms wheras a straight person, especially an eager well meaning ally might try and encourage you to come out because "hey, it's gonna be fine", even when that's not the support you need at the moment (there are ofc exceptions, both when it comes to straight people and queer people).
But because Trent is also gay, Colin now has someone in his corner at work, who knows him, knows his secret. Who also carried that secret himself once. We’ll most likely get straight allies in the other players and the leaders at Richmond.
So no, Trent shouldn’t have been straight. Because that is not the support Colin needed at that moment. He needed queer solidarity.
#ted lasso#ted lasso spoilers#colin hughes#trent crimm#I saw someone on reddit saying that this whole thing with colin being scared of coming out was a bad storyline in 2023#because it's not a big deal#and I was baffled#thankfully some people called them out on that#because colin just wants to live his life#he says he doesn't want to be a spokesperson but that's what he'll become if he comes out whether he wants to or not#because he'll always be the first active gay premier league player#and it's also arrogant to say that it's accepted to be queer in 2023 so it's not a big deal#when queer and trans people are stripped of their rights and their right to express themselves in the US for example#and queer and trans people are killed all over the world simply because of their sexuality and/or gender identity#and even if you live in a fairly accepting country like I do for example#it's still the fear that YOUR OWN family and friends will reject you#because to quote monty python ''we're all individuals''#it doesn't matter how accepting society at large is because society are made up of individuals who has their own beliefs#so no the world isn't as accepting as people are led to believe and that's what I mean when I talk about straight people#no matter how well-meaning they are they will have a hard time understanding#nicole watches stuff
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Seen quite a few people comment how they believe it's more likely the Dragodile Divorce happened due to ideological differences rather than because Dragon was too straight to stay with Crocodile, and. Like I did suggest that (or at least tried to) in my Crocodad Giga Thesis (really I should've been more clear about it in my essay so I wouldn't be writing this now lol), but like yes, Dragon and Crocodile absolutely have drastically different beliefs on How One Overthrows The World Government. And that absolutely could have contributed to the two separating and/or Crocodile deciding to go his own way instead of becoming a proper Revolutionary
Because like, as I tried to imply in the essay (but failed to deliver); if Crocodile's goal had always been to get Pluton so he could just nuke Marijoa off the face of the earth by himself and end it all in one go, then Crocodile and his way of thinking could work as this, like... contrasting opposite to how Dragon believes things should be done. Some fans (unfairly imo) call Dragon a "fraud" because over the past 20+ years he has only attacked Marijoa and the WG directly just once, and even when he did, instead of doing something to stop their corrupt reign for good... the Revs destroyed... the Tenryuubito's... food storage..? Like. Sure, that'll bother them for a little while, get their panties in a good twist etc, but in the end they're just going to demand more tributes and more free food. The Revolutionary Army may be successfully inspiring more people and more countries to rebel against the World Government's corrupt rule, but the Tenryuubito are still in power and will continue to be in power for a long time. And that's kind of how Crocodile would greatly complement Dragon within the narrative. Dragon being arguably "too soft" with his slow, methodical way of overthrowing the WG, while Crocodile would just kill them all without mercy, even if it meant hurting innocent people in the process. The two would act as the opposite sides of the same coin, the different extremes of the same spectrum. Crocodile would become like a response to the complaints people have against Dragon.
And yeah, the two having such wildly different ideological views could VERY EASILY contribute to a divorce, for sure.
My thing is that... If (and this is an if) Crocodile is meant to go a character arc and grow as a person, if we're meant to see him as a sympathetic character at all and maybe even feel bad for him... It'll be much harder to write that if the Dragodile Divorce happened only because of the two having ideological differences. Like who's going to feel bad for Crocodile if the two got divorced because Crocodile wanted to mass murder people and Dragon wasn't okay with it? That's not a tragedy, that's not a situation where we as the readers would feel for Crocodile and want to root for him. That's not something that would give a character unprocessed emotional trauma to heal from and overcome. He'd just be a villian who'd need to have his beliefs changed.
Where as, if The Divorce was caused by Dragon and Crocodile no longer being compatible due to Dragon being straight while Crocodile transed his gender... Even in the most respectful of scenarios that is a heartbreaking situation, a painful thing to go through. That is a tragedy without bad guys, a story where you could feel bad for Crocodile and want to root for him. That is a situation that would give him trauma to heal from.
And that's kind of why I so strongly believe in Crocodile's transition being a more important, contributing factor in The Divorce. Again, this does absolutely depend on what Crocodile's actual role in the story is going to be and whether or not he's even meant to go through a character arc at all. Like if he's not going to be that important and if he isn't meant to go through an arc then sure, Crocodile's transition doesn't have to matter one fucking bit. But if he is meant to go through an arc, if we are meant to feel bad for him and find outselves rooting for him eventually... From a writing perspective, that'll be far easier to do if we can find ourselves sympathizing with him even just a little bit.
Also like. Yes, you can have queer characters who are just queer for the sake of being queer, their queerness does not have to be an important aspect in them or a huge plotpoint in their story at all. Crocodile could be queer just for the sake of being queer. Because that's what it's like being queer, you just are what you are. At the same time, from a writing perspective. What would even be the point of making him queer if it didn't matter to his character at all and have an impact on his character?
Also while Crocodile and Dragon clearly have very different beliefs on how the WG should be dealt with right now, we don't really know when Crocodile came to his beliefs. Like for all we know Crocodile could've formed his worldview years after the divorce. Hell, based on the way he spoke to Vivi about her ideals, and how we know he spent over a decade in utter emotional solitude, his current worldview could have been partially born from resentment towards Dragon (and his ideals) that's been simmering away over the years.
All of this to say; yes I think the two's beliefs could have been a contributing factor in The Divorce, but from a writing perspective (and based on the direction I personally want to see the story go), I find it far more likely if Crocodile's transition was the main cause, one way or another.
#Moon posting#OP Meta#Dragodile#Like for me it's either they divorced because of the transition OR the transition AND ideology#But not because of the ideology alone#There is also something to be said about people having it hard to imagine Oda writing something... So nuanced about trans people#Which. Fair. Like eight months ago I had zero fucking hope either#But also if you look at how Oda has been writing characters (queer or not) you can see he should actually Get It#Like when I shared that video from MelonTeee about Katakuri and joked about Katakuri being trans as hell. Like yes I was joking#But also the way MelonTeee explained Katakuri's story made me realize how queer coded it actually was#If Oda can write about Katakuri having to hide his true self from his family for a fear of rejection for who he really is#Then maybe Oda can write about Crocodile being rejected by his significant other for who he truly was#One Piece is so much about finding love and acceptance no matter what and no matter who you are#I think Oda could do it. I want to believe
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I think the worst part of this is that it will hurt him. It will hurt Do Han and Ji Han is going to play directly into this and it didn't have to!
I mean, honestly, this isn't the best way to betray him. True betrayal would be outting Do Han to literally anyone else in his family besides Ji Han... though I suspect Ji Han can do more personal damage, anyone else will do more generalized damage.
Ji Han, I've seen the preview and I am pressing X to doubt as fast as I can.
Poor Do Han. He tried so hard and he even brought a friend in on this secret to try to protect himself and to not have to hurt people and now Ji Han is going to accuse him of all the worst things he never wanted to do.
#wedding impossible#kdrama#do han is my beloved gaybie who does nothing wrong#and i will accept not criticism#i mean i'll criticize him#i will#but that's because he's my imperfect gaybie#i love him and he has done nothing wrong#but be scared of rejection and fear losing his family#he would rather be apart from them but know they're there than be stuck without them
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re-do by modern baseball is trans masc marinette coded btw.
#thinking abt an au where marinette becomes a man when using the ladybug miraculous#and she already kinda figured out she was a trans guy by then but had a lot of doubt and imposter syndrome abt it#and then when tikki says how the#miraculous shows them whatever is in their heart or whatever#he's no longer able to deny it or convince himself he's cis#but he still has all his worries abt disappointing his family and whatnot as well as fear of rejection and bullying#and so he just kinda accepts he can only ever be a man as ladybug#but he still has a lot of impulsive thoughts abt just coming out#also he has horrible gender envy with adrien and low-key struggles with telling if he actually wants to be with him or be him#and then he has that little situation ship with luka and makes some joke abt how would luka still like him if he was a boy or wtvr#and luka basically says gender has never mattered to him and he'd want to be with marinette no matter what his gender was or wtvr#and that kinda changes things for mari in which he realizes maybe coming out is possible#and so maybe the first person he tells is luka and then maybe luka gives him a haircut or something#anyways#still deciding between some name options for him#miraculous ladybug#trans marinette dupain cheng#marinette dupain cheng
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been thinking about azujami from twisted wonderland a LOTT lately, which reminded me of a headcanon/scenario that @thatonetickleblog had talked about with me a while ago… so i wrote it teeheheheh
ANYWAYS, no proper formatting i guess and minimal proofreading. also hoping characters arent ooc but its a drabble so its fine but yea, enjoy please.
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azul was a very prideful person and he always made sure of that. there should be no reason he was struggling to make any sort of eye contact, let alone maintain it, with jamil.
“what’s the matter with you?” jamil raised a brow, frowning.
“nothing, don’t fret over it,” azul averted his eyes, looking down at the tiled flooring. he had never had a problem with eye contact before— in fact, it had always come quite easily to him. it being an incredibly useful tool for intimidating others was the prime reason for that. but…
completely out of nowhere and out of character for jamil, he had complimented azul’s talents and to top it off, even smiled. and, really, how was azul meant to deal with that?!
“how are we meant to spar if you can’t even look me in the eyes?” jamil scoffed, annoyance in his gaze. his staring felt much more prominent than ever, almost burning through his body.
“it will be just fine. you worry far too much, jamil!” azul squinted, trying to meet jamil’s eyes. unluckily, the second he caught sight of his eyes, he whipped his head away, trying to will his blush away. crushes were seriously the worst.
“i am definitely not worried.” the scarabia vice-housewarden walked towards him, his steps clacking on the ground rhythmically. the other didn’t look up, not even when jamil was practically a foot away from him.
and then it happened. jamil grabbed his face, forcing azul to meet his gaze. azul couldn’t even attempt to hide the blossoming redness of his face as he let out a gasp. jamil narrowed his eyes, scrutinizing and azul felt himself shrink at his gaze.
jamil readjusted his hands, his slender fingers grazing under azul’s chin in a way that felt very, very ticklish. azul scrunched his neck, accidentally letting a giggle slip through his lips. the two froze. azul, out of of sheer embarrassment, and jamil, out of shock and confusion over what just happened. it didn’t take long for him to connect the dots because a sneer oddly reminiscent of a snake had appeared on his face.
“oh, i see,” jamil snickered, looking way too amused for azul’s liking. and this time, he curled in his fingers, tickling azul on purpose. azul bit his lip, wrinkling his nose as an unwilling smile wore on his face. azul wanted nothing more than to crawl into a dark hole and die. how humilating.
and when azul giggled again, he tried pushing away jamil, hiding his face with his hand under the guise of fixing his glasses. jamil didn’t fight him, choosing to laugh at his misery instead.
“nothing happened,” azul muttered, weakly, disappointed in himself for even allowing himself to get into this situation. in front of his crush, no less!
“nothing happened,” jamil started, sounding as though he was about to agree, but then a smug smile made its way onto his face again. “except i just saw you get flustered over some eye contact.. and not only that, but you’re ticklish. i have to say, it’s a real sight to see.”
was.. was that a compliment? azul shook his head. no, he definitely just wanted to see azul miserable.
“whatever,” azul forced himself to meet jamil’s eyes. “shall we spar now, instead of idling over pointless things?”
jamil chuckled at that, but he pulled his magic pen out of his pocket. azul breathed, pulling his pen out as well. he was definitely going to get the upper hand this time by winning the spar.
#twisted wonderland#tickling#but its very minor#but still there yk#lee!azul#ticklish!azul#ler!jamil#azujami#ashenviper#i live for azul being flustered sorry#twst#also azul has a crush on jamil here but wont say anything out of fear of rejection#so he just has moments like this when jamil smiles and shit#and jamil just thinks its funny and maybe a little bit cute#jai’s drabble
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Huntlow Week Day 5: Gardening / First Kiss
I like the idea that Willow's building confidence would lead her to be the one to initiate their first kiss. And, realistically, she's way more composed around Hunter than he is around her, so this just makes sense to me. Also a bit of the 'gardening' part as well!
#scammy draws#huntlow week 2022#the owl house#toh#willow park#hunter#huntlow#flapjack#clover#palismen#gardening#first kiss#traditional art#pen and ink#help I love them#I refuse to believe Mr. 'Blushes Like Crazy Whenever Willow So Much As Breathes In His General Vicinity'#would actually make the first move#not to mention the massive fear of rejection he already has around the whole Grimwalker thing
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romance festival part 2. after flirting with the guy in front of his girlfriend (😅) , eden had a few drinks and chatted up the bartender. brought him home because why not he’s fucking cute
#simblr#ts4 edit#ts4 screenshots#anotherzodiaclegacy#anotherzodiaclegacychallenge#idk why but i do not like these#pics i mean#the lighting at night i was not vibing with#anyways she has to pursue a relationship with anyone she meets at festivals and bars#so let's see how this goes#girlfriend guy turned her down lmfao oof but also good for him#altho he did give her his number before rejecting further attempts SO#hm#anyway i have decided to conquer my fear of flopping by just posting a bunch of stuff#fuck it
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nothing makes me more mad than when david gaider tweets lmfaoooo
#hate that man#no offense#well full offense actually#the playersexual discourse is crazy but him admitting that he's the reason there's like.#gender-locked romances in response to da:tv having pansexual romances is insane#“everyone being able to be attracted to ur character takes away from the characters' agency” in what world actually#like does iron bull have no agency over his character cuz he can like both?#homophobic rhetoric i fear#not to mention idk why it would be more important for people that a fake person made of pixels#has more “agency” (as if they ever do theyre NOT REAL!!!!!!!!!)#than players who want to express themselves through the medium of the video game and experience it#in a way that makes them comfortable#dorian romance is great and it does revolve a whole lot around being gay but at some point like#not liking how bg3 did their romance bc characters can fall in love with you regardless of gender just stinks of losers#“they fall in love with you no matter how you act” bro if u do mean things some of them will permanently leave the party#like literally what are you talking abt#astarion rejected 60 percent of players in the first few weeks of the game being out like literally what are you talking about#its fine im calm#im chill#take a deep breath me#LOL#anyways fuck that guy#glad he's no longer lead writer cuz him freely admitting he's the reason for the limitations of dai is crazy#same guy who said astarion is basically fenris tho so u can clearly tell his ego has started leaking out his ass
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#tgcf#hualian#cave of 10000 statues#hua cheng#xie lian#my hyperfixation demon#hua cheng is the normal one in this relationship#fic stuff#meta stuff#idk my first attempt at using the poll feature#was thinking about this scene and what exactly it means for hualian’s relationship#because their relationship unfolds so carefully and deliberately#xie lian has by now accepted so much about hua cheng that even hua cheng was expecting him to be upset about#and they were all legitimate reasons for hc to worry!#and yet xie lian hadn’t batted an eye to any of it. he had just accepted it and kept on liking hua cheng#but i can imagine that must be even more nerve wracking - for him to have THIS secret.#this specific thing that involves xie lian that is undeniably yucky and invasive and terrifying#every time hua cheng braces himself for rejection and every time he is surprised. and he kept falling and now he has fallen so hard.#imagine how terrified he is. the suspense of not knowing how xie lian would react. the fear of heartbreak. no wonder he ran.#but at the same time of course xie lian accepts him. of course.#gaaah this is so cheesy it is 2am i do not wanna sleep
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oc deep dive questionnaire - dhes edition
tagged by @sikoi (ty you for the tag!! <3)
-what common/uncommon fear do they have? tbh, there's not much that scares Dhes. when he was younger, he feared rejection, but that fear has lessened significantly as he's gotten older & become more comfortable with himself
-do they have any pet peeves? he's pretty particular about housekeeping, so his biggest pet peeves tend to be related to that. but he especially hates when Kelly leaves his shoes lying around instead of putting them away (bc Dhes *always* trips over them lol)
-what are 3 items you can find in their bedroom? CDs (lots of CDs), a tamagotchi (he brings it to work. it never stays alive long), & notes that he & Kel wrote back & forth to each other during class throughout their teen years
-what do they notice first in a person? whether or not they look directly at him/look him in the eyes
-on a scale of 1-10, how high is their pain tolerance? probably 8 or 9
-do they go into fight or flight mode when under pressure? fight - Dhestyn's a fighter through & through
-do they come from a big family/are they a family person? his family is pretty average, size-wise. his family dynamic is very eccentric, so whether or not he's a "family person" is kind of a complicated answer. he's not particularly close with anyone in his immediate family, but he does talk to them & visit them often
-what animal represents them best? a dog - generally, he's very friendly & loyal, but in the right circumstances, he does tend to bite
-what is a smell that they dislike? burning meat
-have they broken any bones? if so, how? several, mostly his fingers & wrists though. he's broken them in skateboarding accidents, during fights with other kids when he was in middle/high school, & by simply making poor decisions due to his reckless nature :-)
-how would a stranger likely describe them? i actually kind of explained this on his character page, but to sum it up people tend to see Dhes as either very charming or very unsavory
-are they a night owl or a morning bird? both! Dhes has a horrific sleep schedule. he'll regularly stay up until 1-2am & he wakes up at 5 o'clock every morning. though if he had to choose one, he prefers mornings
-what is a flavor they hate and a flavor they love? he really likes cinnamon. he's not a big fan of seafood.
-do they have any hobbies? yes! skateboarding, hacky sack, making playlists & listening to music, working out (weights/jogging), fashion (read: "fashion"), & ruining his hair, to name a few.
-boom, surprise birthday party! how do they react to surprises? Dhestyn always appreciates a nice surprise
-do they like to wear jewelry? if so, what is their favorite piece? yes, the man loves to accessorize. his favorite piece of "jewelry" is actually a necklace Kel gave to him when they were fifteen - it's a simple black cord with one of Kel's old guitar picks on it.
-do they have neat or messy handwriting? somewhere in the middle - it's legible, at least.
-what are two emotions they feel the most? love & anger
-do they have a favorite fabric? not particularly, no
-what kind of accent do they have? standard PNW accent when speaking English, though occasionally he'll have hints of a more Mexican-American accent, which he picked up from his mom's side of the family
tagging: @mobwhim, @lynzishell, @vicciouxs, @teddybearsims, & @salemssimblr (feel free to ignore ofc!)
#tag game#dhestyn#myedits#been really into doodling on my edits lately. idk why.#i was going to keep my answers concise but then i thought. fuck it#today we ramble#regarding his fear of rejection: it hasn't gone away entirely. it just like. doesn't have a hold on him the way it used to yk#he still very much has that like. underlying fear that he doesn't belong anywhere. he just tries to ignore it#it was actually really hard to think of stuff dhes would keep in his bedroom that isn't obvious (like. a bed lol)#bc 1 - dhes keeps a really clean room & house#literally nothing is out of place#& 2 - the boys live in a studio apartment. so like. technically their couch is in their bedroom. & so is everything else they own#the emotion question was also really hard to answer bc dusty is an emotional guy#like........ everything he feels is x100 & it is very difficult to distinguish whether those feelings are positive or negative#bc his reactions to both are more or less the same lol#also i did use a font for his handwriting. i've been trying to find handwriting fonts for all my OCs but#i've only been able to find some for the boys#n e way.#that's all.
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🎨 🖼️ 🌈 🩹 🧍🏽💡 🔮⚡️☄️
Secret by Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark
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#byler#stranger things#bizarre love triangle playlist#will byers#will's pov#i still stand by the fact that will did have hope at one point that mike could feel the same ie. 'i guess i did. i really did'#and despite mike's outbursts in s3 with 'it's not my fault you don't like girls' and 'that's bc she's my gf will' / 'we're friends x2'#i also think will's anger both times was still in large part over him being mad that mike is distancing himself AS HIS FRIEND#but it's in these moments in the aftermath that reality hits will and he starts to question himself and his own motives#s3 was a huge wake up call for him#it's caused him to distance himself from mike out of fear he's coming on too strong#in all honesty it's not will's fault mike is so insecure to the point where he could think that will doesn't care#bc to will his feelings are obvious to the point where he could never imagine mike would think he didn't care#'there are things that you know damn well'#in will's eyes despite this all being a secret that he now has no plan of revealing outright to mike#he simultaneously thinks mike knows and he's just subtly rejecting will through all of this vague language and by pushing him away#'and now you see. my secret is#is love.'#mike was entirely misunderstanding will for the past year and now he knows the truth is that will actually does care#*enter mike's most doubtful era over his and el's relationship yet*#'every day you're always there. you comfort me. you make it feel like it's worth my while. and then i look around and you're not there'#'and every day you say you care. and i'll beware.'#as much as will is willing to forgive mike for anything and everything#i think he's also at a point where he feels that he can't trust mike by sharing his true feelings anymore (not like he could back in s1-2)#hence why he goes from telling mike everything (at mike's request) to telling him little nothing (mike hasn't requested in a while...)#so it's this open secret now where he can't tell mike directly bc he's convinced mike can't possibly feel the same based on his actions#*enter unreliable narrator will byers feeding this inaccurate point of view to the ga*#4x03#gif
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this shot haunts me
#the look on her face as she listens to alfred say that his time would be worthless if his work doesn't continue#and the way that she wants to console him and help him but also is hurt because he's telling this to someone else#he's revealing his deepest fears and vulnerabilities and she's just there on the outside#she's only able to ever look from the outside#only able to get these glimpse through accidents like this#kept at arms length even though she would do anything for him and the way you can see the heartbreak and anguish in her face#and this is before she really knows that its uhtred that he's talking to#g o d#also disclaimer#I do think its easier for alfred to tell uhtred all of this because to alfred all of this is an act to manipulate uhtred#he's telling uhtred all of this so that uhtred will feel important and thus feel compelled to do as alfred wishes - serve edward#alfred can't tell aelswith these things because that means he'd have to be vulnerable to her#and he can't do that because then he'd also have deal with hurt he has caused her#he would have to deal with that and he can't because he's not certain of her forgiveness (even though she will always forgive him)#and he can't bare the thought that she doesn't forgive him#anyway#a n y w a y#I'll save the rest of this essay for another day#moral of the story#I love them#I'm obsessed with them#they drive me insane#the miscommunication between them and the fear of rejection and the insecurities are just sooooooooo compelling
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