#havent talk to him in 17 years

[jacqcrisis]

Lmao looks like my deadbeat sperm donor finally got a job that doesn't pay him under the table. Took 31 years for him to start paying child support, but better late than never I guess.

[lzrdprsn]

It's really weird when you know someone in a context different from how everybody else knows them so you look at them and you still kind of see that person they used to be

[apathyfairy]

.

[a9saga]

i’m honestly so glad demi lovato stepped on wilmer valderrama’s fuckin neck with 29, that guy is such a fuckin sleazeball.

[rubydubydoo122]

could you talk more about fanon vs canon tim drake? i havent gotten too far into the comics yet but have seen a lot of him (mis?)characterized by others

Just a preface, I'm not gonna crucify any Tim fans who find themselves writing these tropes, because it is fandom, and everyone's allowed their own interpretations of the character, I'm just personally not a fan of these takes on Tim because in my mind they just don't make sense for the character. If anyone has differing opinions, feel free to (politely) explain them to me, because I'm happy to hear them.

Ok, so much like Fanon Dick Grayson, there are two versions of fanon Tim Drake.

There's version A.) where where he's one minor inconvienience away from becoming a supervillain (I understand where this one comes from and I don't HATE it) and there's version B.) where he was criminally neglected as a kid and is infantalized (This version of Tim I Loathe)

I'll start with version A. I see where it comes from. Mainly the Red Robin 2009 run, but we have to remember that Tim was grieving pretty much everyone close to him during that era. He was being self destructive because of that grief, and yeah, grief changes a person, but Tim is the type of character who would still turn out good despite all the hurt handed to him. Oh! But Gun Batman-- Tim actively chose against being that. He would rather kill himself than let himself become a version of Batman who went against everything Batman stood for. I know there are multiple storylines where Tim meets and evil future version of himself, but those versions would constantly be like a weight on him to be good. All in all, if I had to choose between the fanon Tim Drakes, I would choose villain Tim Drake, as long as it's done in more of a character-study way rather than a 'He deserves to go evil, as a treat' because it's an interesting take with the right motives.

Now onto Version B. Loser Tim Drake. The reason I Loathe this version of Tim is because it usually involves Characters Assassination of the characters around him. Ok, so do I agree that Tim Drake was somewhat neglected? Yes. But goddamit, the way I see Jack and Janet portrayed, you would think that they were running from the feds or something. They were good people, just bad parents. Maybe a little immature to raise a child, but it wasn't to the point where they would probably need to call CPS. Neglect isn't black and white, and the Drakes fell into that grey-- which I personally believe to be a lighter shade. You do have to remember that a lot of Tim's introduction was written in the 90's where parenting styles were a lot different compared to Today. Still, they sent him to boarding school, meaning they made sure that some form of adult was taking care of Tim AND a lot of people try to make Jack Drake out to be the villain for stopping Tim from being Robin, and blackmailing Bruce for it, but... It's What Any Sane Parent Would Do? I'm 18, but I know if I ever had a kid, and then fell into a coma and then woke up and found out that my Kid was fighting crime in one of the most CRIME RIDDEN CITIES alongside my middle-aged neighbor who dresses up like a furry I WOULD CALL THE FUCKING COPS. But enough about the Drakes. Because not only does Loser Tim Drake assassinate their character, but why is 17 year old Tim the victim when it comes to 10 year old Damian-- "Oh he tried to kill him' They're both trained by assassins. They're both trained. They're both Trained. Why Is a Junior/Senior in high school hurt by the actions of a 5th grader. I have a similar age gap with my younger brother. We have had pretty brutal fights and the next day we're fine. I'm not going to get into "Attack on Titans Tower AUs" but I will say this, Every Time I Start To Read One Of Those, I Lose Half Of My Hair Because of How Bad the Characterization Of Both Jason And Tim are. Please, Read, The, Comic. Jason Wasn't Trying To Kill Tim. If He Was, Tim would Be Dead. ANd Tim was Snarking Jason Through The Entire Confrontation. Lastly, Why Has DICK 'BAMF' GRAYSON TURNED INTO TIM"S NUMBER ONE OP????!!!! DIck IS LITERALLY TiM's ChiLDHOOD HEro!!!!! NoT BAtMAN, DICK GRAYSON. And like, not only that, Dick and Tim are the most brotherly. I'm Begging, Please go read a 90's comic. Why is it, the only time I see Dicks Manipulative side in fanon, It's in opposition to Tim? I bet it's bc of Teen Titans Go. I bet the only Tim and Dick interaction they've seen is TTG Robin going "No BOdy cARes AbOuT TiM DrAke"

Sorry that ended up becoming rant-y, and less objective. Since actually reading comics, fanon Tim Drake gets on my nerves.

[cooldude-69]

MY SOLAR RETURN OBSERVATION

I made some solar return observations off my charts of past years,

im no professional please correct me if im wrong<33

Solar sun in 7th house

Well started dating in the beginning of the year, and I WAS KNOWN FOR MY RELATIONSHIP, actually there was no "me" it was "us" (me n my s/o) in my school

On that year i had sun w only squares and opposite, and had saturn in 1h conjuncting asc, and only harshly aspected planets to asc. Man that year i struggled SO MUCH with myself, i was soooo dysmorphic of my face i literally hid it w masks, I struggled w moderate-severe acne, i had no self esteem n confidence man but i got over it after my birthday and all the good things began to happen but ofc progress wasnt linear

Venus in 6th house

I built a proper skincare routine that year🫶💕took good care of myself n my beauty hehe

Moon in 4th house

That year i got sm closer to my mother, our relationship got soo much better and we were so chill about everything

Sun conjuncting lilith

i had TERRIBLE FIGHTS w my father, really heated ones. Tho we've a good relationship but last year was terrible for both of us, we didnt even talk for daysss and we didnt speak much to each other on daily basis, so yea sucks but yes the fights decreased as the time passed

Sun, venus, mercury, mars in 3rd house leo

I GAINED SM POPULARITY THAT YEAR IN MY SCHOOL omg, i also made sooo many friendss it was too fkin easy i was smooth af

Sun conjuncting venus

i loveddd the attention lol and also i was in lovee and i gained popularity CUZ OF THE BOY i was dating

Sun conjuncting mars + aries moon 11h 13°

BOYS FEARED ME EVEN MY BF! lol i had a reallyyyyy bad temper and I was so impulsive i even started dating out of impulsion, and i used to RELEASE MY ANGER ON MY FRIENDS like i used to have sm of anger outbursts, i used to beat da shit outta my male friends (sry) and i used to cuss ALOT, even when I was hurt i mostly expressed anger more than crying, and thats why my then boyfriend havent apologized yet for cheating on me cuz he thinks I'll beat the shit out of him cuz im crazy loll

Pluto & saturn in 8th house

I remember i was sexually abused that year and all my past sexual trauma triggered that year, i struggled alot cuz of the flashbacks, and i remember i was quite sexualized by boys that year

Uranus 11th house

I did make ALOT OF FRIENDS all of a sudden, and i did lose ALL THOSE FRIENDS in a snap, literally i lost everyone that year and i was all alone nobody talked to me in the end of the solar return year lol, uranus being placed at 11th house it makes alot of sense now

asteroid singer in leo 3rd house in 17 degrees/mercury in 3rd house leo

I sang alot that year, likw i participated in alot of group singing competitions and was even placed first in regional and i was quite known for being in the choir group

Neptune and lilith in 10th house

People didnt really like me, they had a really bad perception of me, and they literally hated me but as soon as i cleared the air w them we became good friends! And they used to tell me they found me bitchy but im rly nice irl

Sun, mercury, moon in 12th house

Well that year i was in full isolation mode, barely any friends and the whole year was lockdown, so yea i was on healing mode after the popularity and gaining n losing friends incident and my heartbreak

Uranus in 9th house

Uranus somehow relates w the internet right? And that year we attended school online! So cool!

Thats it for now :D please wait for sometime im still tryna learn and figure more about my past solar returns if there's anything you wish to correct please do XOXO💕

[saraakpotter]

Peter Parker being a simp for y\c\n for 4 mins

based on the request: "can you do Peter Parker (tom holland) being a simp for y/c/n?" in this one y\c\n is a 17 year old who is Natasha s daughter and is also an avenger who goes to the same school Peter dose. plus i added some scenes to the movies. i hope this is how you imagined it.

y\n, Anthony, Sebastian and Tom (Holland) are having an interview. the interview was going in characters future.

"so, what do you think the mcu has for your characters future?" the interviewer asked looking at his notes

"i dont know about 'falcon' but im pretty sure y\c\n and spider man will end up together!" Anthony answered making Tom blush

"i totally agree!" Sebastian said

"what the.... where did you get that idea from?" y\n said with a raised eyebrow

"oh come on y\n you are better than that! havent you noticed? Peter keeps simping for y\c\n the whole movie!" Anthony answered

"what! no he dosent"

"yes he dose." Sebastian answered

"i will send you prof!" Anthony replied slyly

later that night, y\n, went home thinking about the interview. she changed to a more comfortable cloth, jumped on her bed and opened her phone while clicking on the MCU group chat. it was a group they made after the avengers to communicate more and add more people by time.

as expected, Anthony, sent a youtube video with the title: "Peter Parker being a simp for y\c\n for 4 mins"

y\n quickly checked others massages in the group before clicking:

Scarlet said: this is definitely true!

RDJ said: flirting with widows daughter? not the best idea!

Chris Evans said: as much as cute this was i have to agree with Rob here!

Tom Hiddelston said: are we watching MCUs next cutest couple here?

Chris Hemsworth replied: im pretty sure we are Tom!

before reading other massages y\n clicked on the video.

the video started with a cute intro and then the title: Peter Parker simping for y\c\n for 4 mins duh

then there was a picture of Peter Parker looking at y\c\n with heart eyes which made y\n laugh.

the video started: the first video was for 'avengers infinity war' where Tony, y\c\n, Strange and Peter in Titan and just finished the miss understanding with the guardians.

 Peter Quill let go of spiderman, Tony threatened Drax and y\c\n nearly beat the shit out of Mantiss and rocket when they tried to stop Tony.

"ok so im happy to know we are on the same side" Peter quill said with a soft cough

"yeah well couldnt you figure that sooner?" y\c\n exclaimed angrily

"wha....you beat the shit out of me what are YOU mad about?" rocket said

"well i ruined my hair in the process! we could have skipped that!" y\c\n said angrier

"your hair looks good either way!" Peter Parker told her with a smile making her smile to

the next video was for 'avengers infinity war' again, just a bit earlier in the scene where y\c\n, Tony and strange where fighting the aliens Thanos sent.

y\c\n just finished beating and literal alien army and looked at where Tony was you didnt see him. instead you saw Peter talking to Wong and not noticing y\c\n. but when he dose he suddenly stops the conversation and goes to the new alien army and kills most of them.

"what do you think y\c\n? pretty cool right?" he says walking to her

"hmmmm... not bad for a 15 year old!" you teased

" im 16 and you are only a year older than me!" he said

"relax! its just my Romanoff urge to teas! lets take this one down together shall we?" y\c\n said pointing at the new army with head

"ok then!" Peter said trying to hide his happines

the next video was for 'captain America: civil war'

it was the scene in the airport, y\c\n, was in team ironman and Peter still wasnt there but they all knew he was hiding somewhere

"ok Pete! you can come out know!" y\c\n shouted with a smirk preparing herself and her weapons. Steve who seemed to notice they are more prepared than they thought throw his shield at her weapon but before it hit her Peter jumped in and caught the shield with his spider power.

"no, no, no! we dont throw a shield at a Beautiful and smart girl like our y\c\n here do we?" he said making Tony chuckle, Nat raise an eyebrow and and you look at him.

the next video was for 'spiderman homecoming'

it was the first parts of the movie when Ned and Peter where having lunch and y\c\n approached them.

"hey guys! can i sit?" y\c\n asked

"ye...yes...yes of course!" Peter answered almost Immediately

"great! i would sit anyway" y\c\n said making the three of them laugh

"so, y\c\n!" Ned started "whats your favorite movie?"

"well i dont really watch movies, nor have time for them but if im going to say one i would go with.......star wars!"

"STAR WARS" Peter asked happily

"yeah you like it to?" y\c\n asked

"we LOVE it!" Ned answered high fiving Peter.

the video paused with a little two days later. Peter approached y\c\n, who was at her locker with a box in his hands.

"ummm...he......hey y\c\n!" he said

"oh, hi Pete!" y\c\n looked at him

"this is for you." he gave the box to her. she looked at the box and saw a built star wars lego.

"oh my god Peter this is great! did you made it?" she asked

"yes, this one is my favorite so i thought you would like it to." he answered

"i love it, thank you!"

the next video was for the first movie and the scene in Mays car

"we should go back, this dosent feels right!" Peter said

"oh come on Peter it would be just fine! you got this." May told him

"yeah but...."

"plus y\c\n is going to be there!" Ned said

"wha....you know what aunt May? i think you are right, i got this!" he said opening the cars door.

before the next video can be played you went out and went to the chat and typed: ok, i see it now! earning a blush emoji from Tom Holland, some laugh emojis and a 'i told you so' from Anthony.

[vinylshifting]

ᘛMy Introᘚ

꒷︶†︶꒷˚̣̣̣︶ ͡𑁬♱໒ ͡ ︶˚̣̣̣꒷︶†︶꒷ ˚̣̣̣

Hei!! i go by Vinyl or Väinö (Mostly Vinyl on this blog)

Ive been in the shifting community for well over 2 years i first joined in around 2022-2023

Mystery age shhh (somewhere between 15 to 17)

I was on shifter tiktok for the start, but i actually spent most of my journey on shifter youtube. Ive been on and off on tumblr for a while, but im here now!

Im Finnish, but will only speak(mostly speak) english on this blog

I dont care what pronouns im called, But She/Her are fine (Even though im a guy in person lol.. im basically a girl in all of my drs tho-)

My lucky angel number: 77

Im in many fandoms and have many interests:

Music (All sorts of music, mostly metal, glam rock, or specifically just my queen, lana del rey), Crypitds/Mythical stuff, True crime, HTTYD, MLP, Visual novels, Lords of Chaos

Hobbies/Stuff i like to do:

Writing, Making scripts, Making moodboards, Worldbuilding, Reading, Making Drs, Shifting (ofc)

Im a strong believer of you can script anything, theres infinate amount of universes so it already exists

I make moodboards and take moodboard requests! (The only time i probably wont do a request is if i dont know the character/media srryy)

I have no DNI! Just please dont be weird

Dont be afraid to DM me! im alsways open to be friends, i just stuck at conversations wahh. especially small talk

Some of my DRs

† Vampiric WR: My WR where im an immortal vampire living alone and i can travel to all my drs through this WR (probably will permashift here someday). I live in Transylvania

† Hogwarts DR: Current main dr, im a student at hogwarts but im also a half vampire and know dark magic and am having my own side adventure from the golden trios adventures

† Jail Fiancée DR: Dating my boyfriend whos in jail wahhh, i can fix him i swear (i am fixing him and we will live happily together… when hes out on parole). Takes place in Ukraine

† Rockstar‘s Gf DR: Dating Kelly Nickles, My man. God i love him so much mmmmhhhehehe. I come from a rich family and live in Nevada <3

† Моргевейн Dr: An alternative Cr where im a Russian metalhead living in America, Im in a Band. Just living my life. I also live neer the woods and some lakes so i love walking there!

† Mermaid DR: Just a mermaid Dr, based off both H2O and the Waterfire saga. Im so excited to live underwater ahhh i love marine animals. (Havent created a script yet, mostly subconscious based and Also i have a pinterest board for it lol)

† Deirdre Eilís DR: An Alternative Cr where im Norwegian/Irish andliving in america and dating my rapper boyfriend. Im also pretty as hell in this Dr like omfg.

† Red Hot DR: A dr where im just living life in the 90s-2000s and also im Dating Joey jordison teehee. I might turn this into where i have my own band (will probably be based off Kittie, Hole, or/and Genitorturers..). This dr is also mostly Subconscious based + With a pinterest board

Drs im working on/want: A hogwarts Dr 100%(even though i havent even started the script wahh), Model/Actress Dr (i have moodboards and a small pinterest board for it already..), The LOC Dr i started today but haven’t finished yet

(I forgot who made these cute borders, if anyone knows who made them please comment so i can give creds! <3)

[mamaporcupine]

i have a question. so you have ur actual story for Liam and all of that, thats the canon obviously. But there is also the larger fanon of him that is like, the most prevalent of his presence in the fandom, which is Cody. Ive seen in ur server so far that theres.......not a lot of love for AUs and fan remakes of characters, so when it comes to Cody, do u care if ppl are still using their designs for him from the fanon version, as long as they are not trying to place onto Liam specifically? Cuz ive seen a few ppl who use their fan designs of him still and i was just genuinely curious about ur stance on this and i havent seen any discussion of it in depth on here so far, apologies if uve answered this kind of question before, im semi-new.

It's a pretty long question and it's fine! I'll try to answer it the same way.

My server is pretty new, it's been a long time since I was open with people on a public server, it's been 4 years since I was on a public server. Basically a lot of people question a lot of things like "why didn't you do this?" "why didn't you talk before", honestly I lived my life without knowing that my character was building a pretty big community, I only received questions about the character three or four times a year since I created Xvirus, everything exploded when it went viral during the pandemic. (I hadn't realized this fact until a few days ago haha) at that time I didn't know what was happening, it was a shower of people in my DM's from all my accounts, especially Twitter and DeviantArt. When I finally realized what was happening, even when looking for fanarts I didn't expect all that support for the character.

Honestly Fanon or Canon, I only saw not only as a creator but as a "father" of my creation, my character being loved, that never happened to me before and until now I don't realize this much because it's difficult for me to understand the displays of affection, it just makes me cry. It's the most honest thing I can answer. I know perfectly well that many people will not agree with the remake or are disappointed to find out that xvirus is not Toby's brother, that they hate the redesign or that he has long hair. Both designs are canon only in different times of Xvirus's history, one at 17 and the other at 29.

I am aware that I will never please those who have a formed vision of the character, but it doesn't bother me either because in the end it's a fandom and there are always new versions and new ways of seeing him. I'm having a lot of fun drawing and thinking about this right now, but it's also an internal war I've been fighting for years. Being able to visualize it makes me feel like it's worth it to keep trying.

To all this I can only say thank you doesn't matter if you hate it or love it… I know that if you don't like it it's because you love him and care. That makes me happy I can only say that I am having the happiest moment after so much struggle, thanks to everyone <3

[xuanzangg]

you havent been the same since Geto Suguru left.

you fell into a deep spiral of mixed emotions along with depression. you had locked yourself in for months, ocassionally going outside to take a bath or ask Satoru if they have news about Suguru.

you became the exact opposite of you. you lost your spark, your smile, your brightness, your tenderness, the caring and gentle nature of yours.

it all took one person to burn you out, to bring you down, to make you go through emotions after emotions.

skinny arms, skinny legs, skinny stomach, skinny face and the bags under your eyes tells everything. you havent been doing well.

Shoko and Satoru are worried, Yaga-sensei is worried. Mei-san and Utahime-san are also worried. they cant help you and you wont let them help you.

"i need to take a bath.." you thought to yourself. and you did. you went out of your room, went to the bathroom and took a bath.

you also decided to clean your room, it was full of junks and trash. it smells filthy. as you worked your way through the cleaning, you found a photo of you and Suguru. it was you, holding a cake with the "16" number on it. "oh.. this was when i turned 16.. back in 1st year.." you thought. and he was there beside you, looking at you with those eyes.. those eyes that always, always looked out for you, so tender and gentle look, back when he was still here.

you couldnt help it as tears began to drop from your eyes, remembering the past. you're turning 17 soon and Suguru's not here, he's not here to celebrate it with you. you held the photo to your chest, holding onto it's memories dearly.

it's the year 2016 and you're now doing well than before. now teaching in Jujutsu Tech. you remember how much Suguru wanted to be a teacher.. so you made his dream come true.

but everything changed when Gojo Satoru took in a young boy. a first year named Okkotsu Yuta.

Suguru knew about Yuta and his curse. you know he wanted to take Yuta's curse as his. that's why.. Geto Suguru showed up in Jujutsu Tech one day, declaring a war.

"..how dumb of you, Geto." Geto.. hah, you're not used to it..

"oh my, if it isnt my dearest.. please, do call me using my first name." he coo, wrapping his other arm around your shoulders. you let him be. you didnt mind it.

"it's ridiculous, Suguru." "is it now? i dont think so."

you didnt reply. you looked into his eyes. those eyes.. he still looks at you the same way he used to, years ago. a frown formed on your forehead, "you're dumb. do whatever you want, Satoru will surely deal with you." you removed his arms around your shoulder, you didnt want to be held by him for too long because you know.. right here, right now, if he held you a little more longer, you would go with him. you'd go with him and betray everyone just to be with him again. but you didnt. you tried to control yourself.

but well, time sure flies fast. it's the night of the war, december 24th. shinjuku, tokyo. but it wasnt long when every curse were defeated. Satoru made his way back to the school's grounds, sensing something wrong.

there he was, Geto Satoru figthing Okkkotsu Yuta. clearly, he's going to lose against Yuta. you know he's going to die.

and he did. he lost but didnt die. well, not for long. you saw Satoru and Suguru talking, Suguru has lost his other arm and bleeding. you hurried to him immediately, trying to heal him with your reversed healing technique but, "dont." he stopped you. you wanted to punch him.. ask him why but you couldnt, so you stopped immediately.

"im sorry for leaving you all alone.. i didnt wanna burden you from my thoughts and.. you know, bullshits.." you cant help but cry at his statement. him? a burden? he was never a burden! "you'll never be a burden to me.m you dummy.." you couldnt help but cry, you kneel beside him and hold onto his other arm, begging him to let you heal him but he wont say only kept refusing it.

"satoru.. please let me heal him.." "no, you cant do that, i cant let you do that.." "please..! satoru please..!" you were desperate to heal him but the two of them kept telling you no.

"im sorry.." Suguru whispered to you, his forehead touching yours as his other hand caress your cheek gently.

"i love you, im sorry.."

"atleast curse me a little at the very end.." were Suguru's last words before Satoru finally ends him, along with something thar Satoru whispered as Suguru died.

you held Suguru's body close to yours, it's cold, the warmth he used to have is no longer there, Suguru is no longer there.

yahallo~ it's been so long since i posted a fic here. i've missed the feeling of it. anyways, i've gotten into the jjk fandom and i grew attached to suguru. but well, all i can say is that i love him and he deserves a second chance and fuck you kenjaku.

[kittnbonez]

guys please help i fucked up i fell in love with this guy (doesnt live in the same state as me) i told him i was 18 and not 17 and i feel awful and guilty and i honestly was just trying to mess around and talk to people. i did not intend for anything serious to happen but idk i really like him we’ve been talking everyday for the past couple of months. we arent together or anything but im scared because i love him and i need him like crazy but idk what to do. im supposed to see him soon ish, and ill be 18 by then. i have no idea what to do, i want to tell him so bad but im so scared. i feel like its not that big of a deal because its only one year but ik it was wrong for me to lie 🥲🥲 im so fucking mad at myself because hes perfect and beautiful and kind and cares for me but idk what to even do. hes 30 😭 and had no issue with me being 18.. and i feel like if youre 30 and fine with an 18 year old, whats even the difference in being with a 17 year old?! we havent done anything, obviously we have not even met lol. idk im scared you guys and he really likes me too PLEASE help meeeeee

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

Hello everyone, today I'll do something never before seen on the flames and darkness liveblog which is read TWO chapters!! Idk man, i havent been able to read more than one chapter at a time recently because this book suddenly turned into such a slog to get through, although granted that might also just be my mental illness making it more difficult. whatever, i'll be in treatment for that next week

Anyway, today I'll be reading chapter 44 which is the star fall chapter, and chapter 45 which is. a chapter. Knowing this book series nothing of note is gonna happen in that one but that wont stop me from reading it

Chapter 44

Okay, theyre mentioning Feyre not looking so emancipated amymore and it made me remember all the weird weight shit from the start of this book. Like, she was losing weight because she was throwing up all the time and then not eating a lot and everyone was constantly remarking on that and it was unbelievably uncomfortable, but then when Feyre officially joined the night court and everyone immediately stopped talking about it, it almost feels a little manipulative, if that makes sense. Like, this book is ostensibly about Feyres healing journey but the Night Court cannot, under any circumstances, have anything negative associated with it so her trauma basically just disappears so we dont have to see the unpleasant parts of her recovery, she has one (1) nightmare after she starts living there permanently, one (1) moment where she feels too depressed to leave the bed and a few moment where she acts out but then immediately feels bad for it every time

Ughhhhh Feyre is wearing a dress for this which is really frustrating but you guys already know how I feel about that so shant go into that much more detail on this

I swear Im not just saying this to be a hater, Feyres dress sounds so tacky too

yoooooooo is Cassian implying he'd like to wear a tacky ass dress too??

and yet hes just wearing a BLACK TUNIC bro Feyre is literally covered in diamonds from head to toe so she can look like a shooting star or whatever and Cassian doesnt even have the decency to wear a black tunic that glitters or something?? Or hell, maybe even a red tunic to match his siphons, idk, give me SOMETHING im gonna tear my fucking hair out

Feyre is wondering about the IC being her friends and its like, girlie theyre barely even each others friends and youve known each other for maybe half a year to their 500 years

Feyre is describing Azriel hungrily staring at Mor's ass and it reminded me of that one bonus chapter Ive seen discussions about where he's really horny about Elain in a way thats pretty uncomfortable, and a lot of ex-Elriels say that it made them stop liking the idea of the ship because thats when they realized that SJM was just gonna mutilate both of their characters for the sake of smut, but honestly I dont think she would even need to mutilate Az that much

I could not give less of a shit about the Mor/Cassian/Azriel drama but I have to admit its kinda funny reading about Feyre speculating so much about Mor's relationships knowing shes gonna turn out to be interested in women

Mor says that Rhysand was very upset after she had sex with Cassian and beat him up as hard as he could (#incest) but she says he wasnt upset because of her virginity but because of the danger she put herself in by losing it, which is like, first of all that seems like splitting hairs, he was still upset that she lost her virginity even though that was none of his business. And second of all, I think it would actually make sense for him to have the kind of archaic sexist beliefs that would make Mor losing her virginity upsetting to him, considering he was also 17 when that happened just like Mor and Im guessing there wasnt anyone around to teach him feminism. or maybe hes so feminist he came out of the womb believing in womens rights and didnt need to be taught anything

god, the inner circle dynamics are so comically fucked up I have no idea how they can stand being around each other

Again, Im not much of a Feylin girlie but "Your hair looks... clean." >>>>>>>>>>>>>> "You look like a women again." (???? whats thag even supposed to mean)

So Rhysand is not wearing a black tunic, but he is wearing wearing a black jacket which is equally disappointing. atleast he has his tits out i guess

Rhysand was gone for 50 years and yet his best friends are not spending any time with him at their first party together since theyve been seperated, thats what i call friendship goals

Yeah, I guess its kinda sad that Rhys missed out on important holiday that meant a lot to him while undr the mountain but you know who else had to do that? Literally everyone that wasnt from the spring court

So he doesnt wanna tell his friends, who are by all accounts doing alright because theyve spent the past few decades trapped in a beautiful idyllic city, about his trauma but hes perfectly fine traumadumping on a twenty year old woman who just started to recover from her own trauma

Maybe Im just in a bad mood but this bullshit where theyre getting covered in star spirits or whatever feels so joyless to me, like its not whimsical or fun to me

Okay so, Ive heard about Rhysand calling Feyre exquisite and it made me cringe just thinking about it, but it looks like theyve translated that to him calling her 'herrlich' which means the exact same thing but it sounds a lot less weird and bad. once again, thank you, Alexandra

Feyre really just said "You regret sexually assaulting me? But why?" huh

Chapter 45:

Okay, thats the end of the chapter but theres two more things that kinda annoyed me that I didnt feel the need to mention as I was reading. 1) Feyre kept going on and on aboht Rhysand being her friend, it felt so insincere, its like sjm say a post online right before she started writing this chapter that was like "in the best relationships, your partner isnt just your partner but also your best friend" and decided to put that sentiment in her book, and 2) I felt like there were so many moments towards the end of that chapter where Feyre is like "oh, ive never felt this way with anyone" and its very obviously alluding to how she didnt love Tamlin as much as she does Rhysand now, and it was just very strange to read, like Tamlin was haunting the narrative even though hes not even dead yet

Uhm. so i got really tired all of a sudden so I took a nap at this point and read some gay vampire fanfic to rejunivate myself and now Im ready for whatever happens in the next chapter

"I was a traitor. [...] Even though I oficially left Tamlin - it was only two months ago, after all. By Fae standards that was probably barely more than a day." Oh yeah, i havent been keeping track of the time thanks for reminding me that this story about immortals is moving at a breakneck pace for no goddamn reason. But also, as an author trying to write a grand long-lasting romance, why would you write this. I know Feysand are gonna get married at the end of book and now when I get to that point Im not gonna be thinking "wowwww such romance" Im gonna be thinking "damn these bozos did the fae equivalent of getting eloped in vegas after knowing each other for barely a week"

Oh, men of all ages are training at this camp? would you say some of them are. child-aged

Feyre is being all "its so cold here, im freezing in my illyrian leathers I cant imagine a child with no clothes surviving here for a single day, much less eight years" (referring to Cassian) and yet she doesnt spare a single thought to all the children who have to be at this camp as well because this is the camp that the batboys grew up in, its not like this is a different kind of camp where they dont train children

God I hate Feyre thinking about how fuckin powerful the batboys are especially because its like, Rhysand is literally their high lord, he already holds so much power over the guys running this camp we dont need a reminder that he could easily crush their minds or that his goons need more syphons to contain the totality of their power or whatever

I get that these guys are like, shitty misogynists or whatever, but I dont think Rhys throwing them out of the house they live in is some #boyboss move hes just being an asshole

Rhysand would never want to lock Feyre in a house for protection, but he does want to decapitate anyone who lays a hand on her which is soooooo much better

Rhysand keeps calling the.... "females" of this camp "girls" which implies one of two things: 1) hes talking about adult women, hes just calling them girls, which is not very feminist of our feminist king, or 2) hes talking about actual girls aka children which. thank god for our feminist king having equal-opportunity child soldiers

Its actually kind of surreal how theyre at the camp where the batboys spent their CHILDhoods and Feyre keeps talking about what it mustve been like for Cassian while the narrative is actively avoiding talking about children being at the camp at this present moment while also not outright stating "there are no kids here at this present moment"

"'[The clipping of the wings is] to ensure the safety of their women, they said.'" this reminds me of something @/kateprincessofbluewhales said in regards to Rhysand forcing illyrian women to train but not doing anything else to advance their rights, which is that the wing clipping mightve started as a way for men to help women dodge the 'draft' that seems to be mandatory for all healthy illyrians. I dont really have anything else to say about that, it just popped into my head and i thought it was interesting

Rhysand is talking about how at some of the camps, women are declared anti-marriage material if they train and how he cant do anything about that and its like, even if these women are not officially declared unmarriable or whatever, the misogynistic men that make up these camps are probably not gonna wanna marry a women who trains, so what difference does that really make

Also, he says the only thing he could do about 'laws' like that is to murder the warlords and take their children/trainees? under his wing and I guess he thinks he would have to do that for every camp that does that but honestly, I think just doing it once or twice would send a powerful enough message to discourage other warlords from being misogynistic. And he wouldnt have to raise all these children all by himself either, Im sure he could get the help of a few non-sexist men or even, gasp, some women. Like those priestesses living in that library Im sure some of the ones that have already recovered from their trauma somewhat wouldnt mind teaching some boys about the harm that misogyny does

Okay so the blood rite is called a Blutritual [blood ritual] in german which is a little confusing because a ritual is a pretty specific thing and I dont think the blood rite is that specific thing but whatever, it sounds cool enough

Ive said this before, I am not a Tamlin girlie, at best I prefer him to Rhysand, and I dont like or trust Rhysand at all, but imagine hearing that tragic story about how their families killed each other, leaving them as the only survivors and being like "I cant believe Tamlin killed Rhysands family!!" especially when its like, the only person Feyre actually knows Tamlin killed is Rhysands dad who sucked ass, its not exactly a great loss

I feel like i had a lot of thoughts about a lot of things in this chapter that I couldnt write down because theyre these abstract half-thoughts, so I think I'll let those marinate until theyre full thoughts and share them with you at some later date

[local-limebug]

1, 5, 8, 12 for the dbd ask game :)

omg hi thank you so much for the asks !!!

1. Who is your favourite character?

i cannot choose between the core four i'm sorry 😭 they're all such interesting and well written characters, i feel like it's impossible to choose between them. they're all super fun to watch and analyze, especially in regards to my own personal experiences and how i relate to each of them on some level. but if i absolutely had to choose, it would most likely be edwin. i just love him so much as a character, and how well he's written. he's so kind and so bitchy at the same time. i absolutely love edwin. i've also never seen a queer character's arc of coming to terms with their sexuality written like edwin's, and i just absolutely adore him as a character.

5. Which character do you relate to the most?

edwin again. i relate to all of them on some level, from charles' anger to crystal's "mean girl who got nicer" arc to niko being a shut in (all things i've been through) but that experience of feeling immensely lonely despite being loved and having friends, of being through trauma that's made you guarded and quiet and kind of bitchy, of being surrounded by supportive people but still being affected by growing up in a homophobic society, all just hits really close to home. edwin's "you can't just do things based on how you feel at the moment" and his reliance on logic is also something i really relate to, as someone whose emotions lie to them quite a lot. i just really relate to edwin on so, so many levels.

8. A headcanon you have (that you havent seen talked about yet)!

i am a firm believer of the "niko has siblings" agenda. she gives me youngest sibling vibes, like the baby of the family, yk? in my head, she definitely has one older brother, and maybe an older sister too. i've been picturing her brother as ~20 years old, and her sister maybe 17 or 18? but yes, i very very firmly believe niko has older siblings, or at least an older brother. i recognize this holds no bearing on the story but it's important to me.

12. If you existed in the universe would you hang around as a ghost? (What would you do?)

i mean, if i had a choice, then yes. i wouldn't want to be a ghost forever, but definitely for some time. not sure how long before i decide to move on but probably at least a few years. so long as i had a friend with me, i think i'd really enjoy it. i would miss sleeping and eating, i think, but i definitely would not miss having to maintain my body or whatever. and i would do a lot of stuff but especially mirror travel around the world. idc if it takes me years to master, i would love to just walk around seeing new sights and people. i would go to so many concerts of my favourite bands and musicians, and since i would have an eternity, i'd probably pick up some new skills while i'm at it. learn a new language, maybe some magic. i also recently moved countries, so i'd definitely go and visit home. haunt the city i grew up in, yk?

again, thank you so so much for the asks, i loved doing this !! feel free to send me any more if you'd like <33

[littlelittlestar-o]

Ima post them bc yall asked

VIZZY,NUZI, AND JESSA FANKIDS!!!!

Meet bebe tessa doorman (yes N desided to make tessa her middle name,tessa is also her godmother!) the daughter of of N and Uzi doorman (When they married N changed his last name to doorman) bebe is a cheerlearder with her bff maddie!! But she is still an angsty teen robot!! She is 17 years old. And she is dating SD-C (more on the new murder drones later) she made and programed a dog which she named biscuit!! Biscuit is a 3 month year old sized golden retriver with bright brown eyes (his size is that of a 3 month year old puppy) biscuit has retractable claws,biscuit is very protevtive of bebe!!

Meet the twins maddie and hunter johnson!! Mads and hunter and and odd pair... To say the least. Maddie unlike both their parents (V and Lizzy johnson, same story as N, V took lizzys last name) she is a bubblie and kind drone!!! Her being bffs with bebe and she has retracable claws (more lore on how they have them latter) she is also dating James( j x tessa's child)!!! Hunter is more like V though being sarcastic and ready to fight... Even his own sister. Like his mom he can regenerate but has no other abilites beside being awsome at basketball!! He is also bffs with the one and only james!!!

Meet james Elliot the son of tessa and J (tessa got revide by uzi, idk i got inspo from the worker drone tessa comics)!!! Hunter is alot like his mom, J. (He calls J mom and tessa mother or mama) james is very down to earth (or should i say copper-9?) He often softens up to his girlfriend maddie. His bff is hunter (it was very caotic when maddie and james first told hunter) he often is getting getting mistaken for a girl. He also plays basketball with hunter following him and maddie around he dosnt talk much but when he dose its quite and short.

RANDOM INFO:

You may not be asking yourself but why are they all workerdrones? Well due to cyn making the species its very hard to even have full disembily drone cildren also if you were to have them it would be crazy hard to keep alive sence they are not made to have children they dont have baby forms making it almost imposible!!!

Why do hunter and maddie have abilits and dose any one else have abilities? 1. Maddie and hunter are pretty much the closest thing to a murder drone! V and lizzy are very confused on how they got the abilities and how! 2. Hunter and maddie aren't the only ones with abilities bebe infact has the absolute solver but ever sence she found out she has been hiding it!!

Who are the new disembily drones? Ever sence J, V, and N "retired" 3 new murder drones came, sd-c (bebe's awsome girlfriend) and her 2 brother (the older on is 22 and the younger one is 12- sorry! Sorry! 13 🙄!!) Sd-X (X is the older one) and sd-G (younger brother) but not everything is fine with the murder drones... X is often trying to kill G due to him "being younger and useless". G is still learning how to be a murder drone he is not good at using guns and missles he is better at fighting/killing with swords and knifes. G is also good at flighing but no as good when it comes to landing he often just faceplants he also takes longer to heal for example when uzi shot J in the piliot that damage to G would take him at LEAST 3 years to fully hear in conpasine to J who only took 2 months to fully heal (my au) thats why when X tries to kill him and damages him badly its really bad. Nothing is really known about X besides his hatered twords G for unknown reasons. C is often the one in the middle needing to protect G from X. C is also 17 yrs old and the only girl in the gang i will show a pic!! (I havent drawn X or G yet)

One fact about C is that her hands are bigger near then end for a reason that reason is because she can transform them into sheilds!!!

Can we have more info on biscuit? Of course!! Bebe created buscuit when she was 16 years old, she made him what she thought a golden retriver was like althogh biscuit got a few more traits from following N, Uzi, and Bebe around!!! Biscuit is kind but can get aggresive if he sences danger twords Bebe, Uzi, or N when bebe sneaks out to hang out with her secret girlfriend biscuit is often following her!!!

If you have any question about these fanchildren and all of that reblog or ask in the comments below!!!

Thanks for all the people asking to see this AU!!!!

[fnvbennygecko]

Could you share a little about Clover? Their background, personality, etc.

^_^!!!!! alrightyyy. well im Actually going to tell you all of clover's basic information as of this post, but i will say that these facts are subject to change. so clover's full name is clover holiday. they use any pronouns and they are 27 years old as of 2281 (born 2254 then, idk if i want to give them my birthday but they're born in may like i am at least) they're 5'9". they were born into the brotherhood of steel on the gulf coast of texas to their scribe father and head knight mother with no siblings.

they were a troublemaker throughout their young life and never really agreed with the philosophy of the brotherhood due to either their father or some other scribe teacher i havent decided yet.anyways sometime while they're 17 they run off and cause some sort of big commotion about it which distracts their chapter enough for raiders who were already planning to try and attack the brotherhood to finally go through with their plan of blowing up the base's power plant. the raiders succeed and by the time clover decides to go back to the base later in the night, their home has been exploded and whatever is left is burning to the ground. nearly everyone in the base dies here. clover feels immense guilt over this and ends up wandering around texas for years doing odd jobs while trying to avoid any other brotherhood members. eventually at 25 they get a job near amarillo where they work on a brahmin rancher's farm, they're able to use one of his sheds as a lab and live on the farm as long as they help out. the man is horrible to them and after two years they kill him. they sell off his brahmin and since he had already been planning to head to new vegas to sell his herd, they head to the mojave.

clover before getting shot and clover after getting shot are drastically different people. let's start with them after getting shot as this is how you guys see them most often. clover is a smooth talker, tends towards pacifism, and generally is focused on simply having fun or making other people happy. they have a strong sense of morals and think killing without attempting to talk things over is wrong. they love to sing, walk around the mojave, and look at wildlife. they have a difficult time staying angry at anyone and are easy to forgive. this is when clover does not have a lot of memories of their past, and when they regain a lot of their memories, this instance of clover and how they were before getting shot begin to mix together. clover before getting shot was very serious, generally miserable, and suicidal. their guilt stayed with them even until getting shot. they were not as opposed to violence. despite trying to be sparing with using violence, it would not be surprising if one of their odd jobs was being a mercenary or something of the sort. they were fascinated with wildlife, and was attempting to use their interest in science to do research into growing food, either healthier or faster. they did not have many friends as they moved so frequently and during their time with the brahmin rancher rarely ever left the farm estate. they would often allow themself to get pushed around, which is why they put up with the brahmin rancher for so long despite hating him and wishing nearly every day that he would get trampled by his brahmin.

but ummmm i think that is it

[luvhughes43]

leaning on you is so blake hughes (& nico) coded its crazy

like before theyre dating but definitely flirting and shes struggling with having to officially retire from figure skating (maybe shes doing physical therapy, and she was told by doctors that there was a possibility of her being able to skate again. but its just not working out for her and so she gets really upset/depressed).

"i might sleep in past all my alarms but you take care of us when i make it tough," this is when jacks coming over to her apartment to make sure shes okay, but she feels so horrible and jack's really upset too. so nico starts coming over with jack to support him. blake just feels really bad about it.

"it takes all that i got not to fuck this up, so won't you let me know, if im not alone, leaning on you," after she's in therapy and accepting her retirement, nico is still coming over to her apartment (dropping off food/making excuses to see her) and blake is trying so hard not to mess anything up and she just wants to know if he reciprocates her feelings.

"was i fearless at 17 years old, or was i faking it? i was just a kid leaving home. now i get scared for reasons i dont know, is it just because i ain't tough enough being alone," just her thoughts on her childhood and how it seems like shes not able to handle things as easily as she used too. she's super confused because she obviously likes nico but she doesn't want to start dating him when she feels like shes leaning on him. deep down she knows she isn't, but he keeps coming over to help her and keep her company and she just wants to be stronger while also craving that comfort. she has to go to therapy to process her childhood trauma/injuries and how being away from home all the time really affected her.

"and i like what we got, but i'm scared of what it's not. so won't you let me know if i'm not alone leaning on you" this is basically the dont have to pretend fic where they were skirting around their feelings and blake just being scared that he doesnt reciprocate her feelings.

this was long but anywayyy im missing blake and i havent been talking about / writing for her