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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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The thoughts going through his head
I thought you were supposed to be smart
And I thought Pharm and I were dramatic
Bruh
You want to take breath before you spiral further?
Are you sure you want to ignore your emotions and be THAT stupid
Who elected me to be the love guru?
Will Pharm think I'm hot giving advice?
Is Win going to be alright?
Should I tell his brother?
Heck should I just tell Team and settle the problem here and now?
Nah. Not worth it.
Let them be idiots a little while longer
Please dont let anyone die from either of their idiotic decisions
I already had to deal with the consequences of somebody's late night practice this morning
Give me patience to deal with this ridiculousness
He's gonna do something stupid, isn't he?
Maybe if I slap his little antenna, his brain will work again.
The fuck made him THIS emotionally constipated ?
His face says so much but if I had to summarize all it says is
Wow. Dumbass.
Here's the thing though... Dean really cares about Win and wants to help but would Win accept his help if Dean outright gave it to him? Hand him the easy way out when all Win has known helping others selflessly that he he helpless when it comes to himself and face every thing without asking for help. The expectation that he has everything put together and the image he has to maintain. I think Dean knows that Win will remain in this turmoil until the both (Win AND Team) sort it out.
This emotionally intelligent and observant AF giant can only sit back and watch the drama unfold, offering the occasional advice when Win is most likely to take it.
Win: "I literally felt like I was going to die, my heart was being ripped into pieces, I would never want to live without him. What do you think this feeling is?"
Dean:
"Bro... Are you STILL ASKING ME THIS QUESTION????"
#Between us#between us the series#Dean and Pharm finally got the emotinal expressions this time#winteam#ep 6#i haven't watch the ep yet#i wont until after my exams#had a mental breakdown about it#but least i didnt get left on a cliffhanger like you all#hah!#i have to go through this again next week#but meh#studio wabi sabi#between us spoilers#kinda worried af ngl#its 4 am and i just realized my tablet has a passive light sensitivity to automatically adjust the screen's brightness
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The love triangle is triangling
#THIS ISNT ABOUT THE ACTORS ITS ABOUT THE CHARACTERS#IN CASE THAT WASNT OBVIOUS#y’all don’t wanna know the type of mental breakdown I had when I found the marbit photo- I was so not ok#jean has thoughts#the outsiders musical#the outsiders broadway#the outsiders#marcia the outsiders#two bit mathews#trip the outsiders#terrence dipp#Marcia x trip#two bit × marcia#marbit#marcia x two bit
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I was accepted to a paid video editing internship and a lot of the work is very reminiscent of what I used to do here. It makes me so happy to know that my silly little Tumblr blog gave me good practice :3 I hope everyone is doing well <3 Tell me what you're going to be for Halloween!
#I'm editing down video podcasts of tech bros yappin about whatever into tiktok sized chunks#getting good practice on trimming dialogue and adjusting subtitles#I'm already pretty good at getting the videos paced well though!#very reminiscent of trimming down and subtitling a Tingting video#or trimming down a long cooking video#I decided this year that my new goal in life will be to become a professional video editor so that's what I'm working towards now#hope everyone is well 🫶🏻#For Halloween I'm going to be Marina Domek from Fear and Hunger 2#fear and hunger has been my hyperfixation for over a year now lol#also I moved to a new apartment and then had a mental breakdown and quit my job and now I have no income so that's how life has been for me#chitty chatty#text post#not asmr
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Love what they are doing now with Wayne Family Adventures.
Bruce is being a jerk, but unlike mainstream, the narrative is definitely not on his side.
He gets called out on it, and it's made clear he is overreacting due to his own messed up mindset.
Yup! And they’re making absolutely clear the readers know that Bruce’s actions (and assholery) are because he’s terrified for his kids. Not because he’s “got no time for teenage rebellion” or the I-dont-need-a-son-i-need-an-obedient-soldier shtick
Yes he’s being a jerk about it, but honestly I’m not sure I would handle the situation much better after trying to get the most important people in my life out of the line of fire only to have them show up at literally every location of interest 😭😂 like, that man is stressed 🤣
#wayne family adventures#my personal take#look I just know I’d have a mental breakdown too if I had to worry about Joker AND more of my children being blown up#we see Jason dealing with his trauma#(love the ptsd representation btw)#(and how they’re dealing with it)#but honestly I think Bruce has a bit of trouble not seeing Jay’s autopsy file everywhere right now#superimposed with those of his other children#I kind of get why he’s being a bit of an idiot#which isn’t to say it’s okay!#just… I get it. sort of.#jason todd#batfamily#dick grayson#bruce wayne#tim drake#robin
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Have to lift that last person!
#welcome home#welcome home fanart#frank frankly#eddie dear#eddie x frank#frank x eddie#Not pictured: Probably Eddie having a mental breakdown trying to lift Home#I heard that flustered little 'oh my' in the recording Frank you're not slick#Wally just being like 'oh i'm up here now' had me rolling you unnerving little doofus I love you#Y'all about to get SICK of me! I've so many thoughts and I shall draw them all! (when I have time. work hours are now very long for me!)#The website update was so good you're going to hear me say that 16000 more times at least
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Gerudo Wind would grow very quickly
Fanfic prompt : I already made a wind is Gerudo post but now I have thought about it it must be horrible for the chain to deal with
Like riju is already Wild's size at 14
Wind is gonna steal his clothes soon enough
Then his next victim would be Warriors
And if he still wants to cuddle with someone he will take up the entire bed like an overgrown cat
Considering that four is bite sized in comparison to wind
The poor thing would be used like a teddy and probably suffocate under wind's arm strength alone
Not considering if wind rolls over onto him he would probably die from it
But also the stigma of having a Gerudo child that exists in the older timelines
Like time's or twilight’s
Because Time had a war against the Gerudo people in his
And Twilight's hyrule literally banished some of them to the twilight realm
Tension with other hylians who are still against them is a very real possibility
(Even if Wind would take it as a compliment that they see him as a great thief and a menace to society because he is hella talented at it thank you )
Time just keeps getting judged for “cheating“ on his wife and the face everyone makes when he tells them that wind is in fact not his daughter
And when he eventually points at the very tiny short hylian who is actually related to wind and he is is just co parenting
People awkwardly want to know HOW and why
(Four is just continuously making every single thing better because he is wind's predecessor)
But also if he waltzed into a Gerudo town to see the architecture of his predecessors
The sheer amount of fear and anxiety those people would feel when they see a clearly male Gerudo child
Like damn it they just had a whole bunch of problems because of the last king
They can’t recover if a new one comes in right now
It's not even been a decade yet
Still they let wind in because any male born from the Gerudo tribe is to be the next king
And the chain quickly learns to make Wind wear female Gerudo clothing when entering a Gerudo town (with red hair because the more wind looks like a normal Gerudo the better) because the mess of last time was not fun to explain to anyone
(Wind definitely would want Gerudo clothing because the flood erased all the cultures and traditions so something like that would be extremely important if he was to revive Hyrule on a new land)
The whole town
The leadership of the town
Everything was horrible
And chaotic
Riju was not having fun but wind would probably be the nicest king they could ever get (he is welcomed back if he stays like that)
#linked universe#lu wind#lu time#lu warriors#lu legend#lu sky#lu four#lu hyrule#lu wild#lu twilight#gerudo#Gerudo wind#demise's curse#riju was not having fun with the whole situation#riju#gerudo town#via Outfit#four is wind's ancestor#and he has a mental breakdown#it is disturbing to think about#Wind will get TALL#king of thieves#wind will do ganondorf Justice#and it makes everything worse#wind waker#breath of the wild#time understanding just how much wars had to deal with when he was little#time is a menace to society#because there is no way to confirm who wind's mom and dad are#and he is also not elaborating on anything
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YOU WERE MISTAKEN, WITCHER.
#thewitcheredit#witcheredit#the witcher spoilers#the witcher#geralt of rivia#yennefer of vengerberg#cirilla of cintra#jaskier#userbecca#useravia#userava#ughmerlin#tusermich#edits#it's about the tragedy of it all#i just wanted to use this quote so bad but then i had a mental breakdown over the typography as usual#and rethought about my existence#then decided i couldn't let angsty gifs go to waste and here we are#the way this line was delivered wheeeww#the sense of powerlessness that it brings#when doing your best to protect those you love isn't enough#such a heavy burden to shoulder
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i use dissociation more than anything i’ve ever learned in my 10yrs of therapy
#actually bpd#bpd problems#bpd vent#actually borderline#actually mentally ill#bpd fp#bpd#bpd shitposting#bpd favorite person#bpd mood#dissociation is my favorite coping mechanism#that and avoidance#i love avoiding my problems until i can’t take it anymore and have a full blown breakdown about it#it’s easier to go through life ignoring everything that’s bothering you until it all just explodes one day#idk maybe that’s just me tho#right after every breakdown i feel like shit tho cuz i usually freak out everyone around me but i don’t know how else to cope#even tho i’ve had 10yrs of therapy nothing else worked for me#so dissociation it is babyyyy
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fanon modern!sukuna they could never make me hate you
#literally had a whole mental breakdown about a fic earlier because i was married to sukuna but got AMNESIA#he’s just such a softie but also an asshole and i love him for it#jjk#jjk fanfic#jjk x reader#jjk x you#jujutsu kaisen#sukuna#sukuna ryomen#sukuna ryoumen x reader#ryomen sukuna#jjk sukuna#jjk smau#jjk smut#jjk ryomen
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Damian accidentally calling Dick "father" while he's wearing the cowl and Dick not knowing what to do with that.
#I imagine during the time Bruce was gone and Dick had to take over#Damian pauses when this happens and then both try to pretend it never happened#Dick is somewhere between having a mental breakdown and choosing to have a talk with Damian about this#neither would go well#dick grayson#batman#nightwing#damian wayne#robin
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me n who ?!?!?!? ME N WHO GUYS ...
picrews: 1 2 3 4
mking silly girlfailure picrews are the only thing saving my sanity which took quite a number of blows today ( its hanging on by the measliest thread but i think its better to consider it go n e )
anyways i wanna make a silly tag game so we are going to make a silly tag game because in the wise words of martin luther king i think wait it was probably gandhi "be the change you wish to see in the world" arent i so cool guys im taking like the first step forward and :stareyes: ahahah
(no pressure) tags !! 🏷️ : @cienxpidity, @ilyuu, @anonbinaryweirdo, @suntoru, @tuesdayberries, @lume-nosity, @mrcrazyvillainvillainn, @ceneid, @amalythea, @xianyoon, @aeon-yao, @ryuryuryuyurboat, @auroratumbles, @snobwaffles, @the-white-void + everyone i probably forgot to tag (SPS IM SORRY) n anyone else whod like to join !!
#💬 ⌗ 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭'𝐬 𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 . . . ✧#i was in a very silly mood ( mental breakdown ish ) i cried like 16 times in the past hour and that's probably not a good thing but HEY#its fine#im so fine#im so#im so...#*perishes*#begone negativity#its time for me and my delusions#speaking of delusions i actually had the WILDEST Dream last night#and its so crazy because its like the first dream I've had in the past year that's not about a fictional character#yes im pathtetic#carrying on#and i was like escaping from t h e. m a. n i n t he. h a l l w a y#and i was like runnning away yk and then shrek comes over and helps me out by defenestrating me and so i land in some bushes and then start#like putting candy into a bag??? and im like HURRY UP SHREK HES GONNA COME AFTER US#and then i got to this like cult area#where it splits into two paths and i remember it so vividly because there was this gate security and i had to type in my student id to get#and so it opens up to this room and there's two pathways#the one to the right has this giant ass shrine golden statue surrounded by a bunch of children#and the one i go to has little cube spaces caved into the walls for like little decorations and a stair for like a lower other half of the#room#and theres a bunch of children and my irls#and so we break outta there yk#we escape#we get out#and we run into like osme shopping place#and my friend is planning to abandon me with her other friend and they're running away to china#but they refuse to take me with them (ultimate betrayal)#HELP edit but the tags didnt show up cause there were too many...
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Okay, maybe this is just me, but the fucking whiplash from the way Sandra Lynn and Jawbone are with Adaine over Fig or Kristen is so crazy to me. It's gotten to such a point that Emily called it out in this last episode. Like, you're telling me that Sandra Lynn can acknowledge that the bad kids have helped raise each other and fulfill emotional needs their parents haven't, but can't put together that there might be a fucking reason Fig is protecting Kristen and Adaine created a simulacrum? Jawbone, as both a guardian and counselor, just let it go that a highly competent rouge capable of finding the rouge teacher straight up admitted (1) she wanted to murder Kristen and (2) she is upset at Fig for keeping her from getting close? All this after years of being obsessed with the bad kids?
Meanwhile, they see Adaine as this competent, low-maintenance, emotionally mature adult instead of recognizing that she was taught from an early age that adults would not meet her emotional needs?
#dimension 20#d20#fantasy high junior year#fhjy spoilers#adaine abernant#kristen applebees#fig faeth#look i'm really glad that brennan has continued to make these parents and the bad kids' different relationships complicated#it makes the story so much more interesting and relatable and nuanced#but as an Adaine type who had a full on mental breakdown and a bad relationship with her father they aren’t helping her#by pushing the others to the side and making her “the responsible one” they're just parentifying her more#jawbone and sandra lynn are amazing characters and I'm in no way shitting on this storyline but I'm going to rain down hell#pull your heads out of your asses!!!#also if the reason sklonda doesn't like kristen is because the woman currently raising and housing her is talking shit about her#im gonna lose it
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Ash via IG
#i cannot express to you how important this 5 second video is to me#oh but your bet your ass I'm gonna try lmao#5sos#5 seconds of summer#ashton irwin#ashton#ai ig#Instagram#video#kh4f post#how insane would i sound if i told you i was just days ago lamenting the loss of the green couch#been so long since we'd seen it couldn't recall seeing it in the new house figured it got tossed#she LIVES#and not only did she survive but she continues to thrive by facilitating this moment i am actually going insane about#this man. in a tank & shorts. sprawled out. on the green couch. playing guitar. as a breeze gently blows greenery outside the window.#have i had this fantasy before? let's not act like the answer is no.#oh i feel actually insane rn.#listen#his thighs#listen.#green couch#✋🏻 i can't#i have to go#this has been my official breakdown. referring to both this video and my general mental condition#🚀 ☀️
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I never would have guessed that liking a kids cartoon would lead to me reading a fic where a 14 year old child gets vivisected by his parents cuz they don't believe he's human anymore.
My stomach hurts, but not in a "this is gross, I'm gonna hurl" kinda way. More like a "If I remove pressure from my torso, my guts are gonna spill on the floor in sympathy" kinda way.
#danny phantom fanfiction#danny phantom#vivisection au#danny needs a hug#he's only 14 in this one#he cant even talk cuz they drugged him up and cant use his powers#i had to take a break#sobbing#curled up on the floor#about to go back to continue#see yall next time i have a mental breakdown#dc x dp#dp x dc
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TokuxSpring Day Four
🐅 favourite animal themed series 🦏
#tokuspring#gekiranger#jungle fury#had a long conversation with myself in the mirror about how go onger isnt animals - they're cars.#gingaman isnt animals - they're aliens.#changeman isnt animals - they're mythical creatures.#then after having a sopping wet mental breakdown i got all up in my gekiranger feelings#gekiranger is a peak season if you havent seen it yet you should definitly watch it#jungle fury ALSO goes hard and is worth the watch#(tiger + rhino emojis because jan and ken are my favourite characters and i will fight people about it)#(in terms of jungle fury - its RJ. RJ forever.)
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