#and so we break outta there yk

[mondaymelon]

me n who ?!?!?!? ME N WHO GUYS ...

picrews: 1 2 3 4

mking silly girlfailure picrews are the only thing saving my sanity which took quite a number of blows today ( its hanging on by the measliest thread but i think its better to consider it go n e )

anyways i wanna make a silly tag game so we are going to make a silly tag game because in the wise words of martin luther king i think wait it was probably gandhi "be the change you wish to see in the world" arent i so cool guys im taking like the first step forward and :stareyes: ahahah

(no pressure) tags !! 🏷️ : @cienxpidity, @ilyuu, @anonbinaryweirdo, @suntoru, @tuesdayberries, @lume-nosity, @mrcrazyvillainvillainn, @ceneid, @amalythea, @xianyoon, @aeon-yao, @ryuryuryuyurboat, @auroratumbles, @snobwaffles, @the-white-void + everyone i probably forgot to tag (SPS IM SORRY) n anyone else whod like to join !!

[girlokwhatever]

can you do like reader is mad at paige n paige yk the attitude right outta her?

CERTAINLY I CAN!!!!

⋆·˚ ༘ *𓍢ִ໋₊˚*ੈ♡⸝⸝🪐༘⋆𖡎 are you done yet? ,,

paige bueckers x fem!reader

you’ve been wanting to leave this club for the past hour.

the crowd was large when you got here, but since then it’s only grown. the air is hot and tacky, causing you to stick to each person you pass. it was nasty really, even worse on the dance floor.

your feet were aching and the lace from your top was scratching against your chest, only adding to your discomfort. a sheen layer of sweat covered your skin from head to toe and it seemed everyone else was experiencing the same thing.

you were just leaving the dance floor, jostling around larger bodies to get to the bar where you last saw your girlfriend. she had been talking to some guy about basketball when you’d left, but now she’s replaced her company for a woman around your age. you were slightly jealous and definitely angry. she had barely paid you any mind within the past hour, constantly occupying herself with other people. even after you tugged on her hand and asked her so nicely if the two of you could just go home.

that was an hour ago though. your desire to leave only grew in the time frame, as well as your annoyance.

you walked straight to paige, trying to find your balance among the numerous bodies. there wasn’t really a chair available, so you opted for leaning against her, one hand at the back of her neck and the other adjusting your top.

“hi baby-“

“can we go?” the abruptness of your question shocked paige. her eyebrows raised and she gave you a ‘really?’ look. you’re deadpanning though, attitude written across your face in neon bold lettering. if she wouldn’t take your hints earlier, you’d stop dropping them.

she’s pulling you between her and the bar and onto her lap. though it relieves the aching in your legs and feet, it’s not really what you wanted. she’s leaning up, lips just behind your ear and muttering a quick “don’t be a brat.”

you roll your eyes at that, finding her antics absolutely ridiculous. you’d been here with her all night, letting her enjoy herself while you suffered. you usually didn’t mind going out and having some fun; the club tonight had been too packed for you though. everywhere you went, every time you turned around, there was someone within whispering distance to you.

at this point, you stop considering the consequences of your actions. you grab her car keys out of her pocket and leave the club. paige is absolutely flabbergasted, excusing herself and following behind you with haste. she feels her body grow hot with anger watching you walk away from her without so much as a look back.

why were you so pissed?

her stride is much longer than yours so she’s catching up to you in no time. she grabs your wrist and her keys simultaneously, turning you around and stopping you in your tracks.

“what the hell is your problem? hm?” she emphasizes her point with the tight grip on hour jaw, staring straight at you. you’re both tipsy, you more so than her, and it throws your usual rationality out the window. you push her away from you, watching with satisfaction as she stumbles back a step.

she makes you so angry but fuck does she look good. you’re scoffing right to her face and doing it loudly. as though her feelings are ludicrous, completely irrelevant and wrong.

“my problem?! you know what- whatever. you stay here if you want. i’ll walk home. need a break from you anyway.”

if you had left the last part off, paige wouldn’t have been as mad as she was. in all honesty, she would’ve just taken you home peacefully after giving you a kiss and apologizing for keeping you here so long. but, you did add the last part. you looked your girlfriend in the face and told her you were tired of her.

“say that again, i dare you.” her tone is taunting and you know it’s a trap, but you do it anyway.

“you’re getting on my nerves and i need a break from you.” you’re punctuating every word, but little do you know it’s only fueling your girlfriend.

as soon as you say it you’re being pushed into the backseat of her car. she’s climbing in after you, closing the door as she tries so desperately to fit her frame into the small space. paige pulls her loose hairs into a bun, leaning over you once she’s finished.

“wanna act so fucking tough and mean- gonna get rid of your attitude baby. till all you can say is my name.”

“i bet you couldn’t.”

oh. challenge accepted.

your skirt is hiked up, panties pulled to the side as paige prods you with her fingers. she notices the way the street lamp makes your cunt shine from your wetness, smirking at your situation. she’s knees deep into the backseat, pushing two fingers into you at once.

you cry out at the new and sudden stretch. she doesn’t give you time before her fingers thrust roughly in and out of you at a brutal pace. they’re curling inside of you, already finding the spot that makes your back arch to heaven.

“you like that?” you say nothing, make no motion of acknowledgement. smoke is blowing from her ears at this point, not able to believe how stubborn you’re being right now, even as she plunges her fingers into your sopping wet cunt. your silence only motivates her to speed up, because sure, you didn’t say any words, but your loud moans spoke for you. your body is so responsive to paige, it always has been. every time she touches you, you lean into it. every time she kisses you, you’re chasing her lips when she pulls away.

just like right now. the way your core tightens and she feels it, moving away and watching your hips follow her fingers when she denies you your orgasm. you’re protesting, begging for her to continue and cryimg out her name like a chant. your hair is already a mess and your girlfriend’s heart pounds, using every bit a restraint to stop herself from giving into your pleas.

“are you done being a brat yet?”

“paige-“

“apologize and i’ll let you cum, how does that sound?” she’s rubbing and kissing your thighs, watching the way you squirm at the proposal.

even from her position between your legs she sees the battle you’re having with yourself. she almost thinks for a moment you’ll brave the storm and say no, but deep down she knows there’s only one option for you. she can tell by the way you push your hips into her face.

“i’m sorry paigey. i was.. fuck- i wasn’t being nice. i’m sorry for being mad and giving you attitude.” your voice is weak and it’s turning her on so much to hear you like this, begging for her completely. she doesn’t know how genuine your apology actually is, but she doesn’t care either.

her tongue twirls your clit, gentle and slow to tease you. it’s excruciating, the feeling making you screw your eyes shut as your mouth falls open. you’re moaning her name out too, just like she said you would be.

she’s sucking on your clit now, toying with it and gauging your different reactions to different movements. she knows what you like already (nearly everything from her) but the look of pure ecstasy on your face will never get old. you grind your hips down onto her face, desperate to find your release. you can feel it tightening in your stomach and making your head spin, but just as quickly as it came, it’s being ripped away from you.

paige is sitting upright now, readjusting your clothes and wiping around her chin where she feels the remains of you. she’s licking her fingers and lips clean, staring at your shocked expression, one singular tear rolling down your cheek.

“what’s wrong baby?”

“you said-“

“should’ve thought about it better honey. i’m jus’ giving you space since you’re so tired of me. just like you wanted right?”

you don’t miss her shit-eating grin as she leaves the backseat. she plops into the driver’s seat, glancing back at you momentarily. she places a hand on your thigh and it makes you jolt at the sensitivity, legs aching more now than they were before.

“i hope it’s everything you wished for and more.”

*♡∞:｡.｡˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚.‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾

paige is sassy and mean but what’s new??!

anyways, hope you enjoyed 😘

[taurasiluvr]

WE. NEED. MORE. SIZE. KINK. SEX.

WITH. PAIGE. BUECKERS. PLEASE.

i saw this post a while back and it was something along the lines of "paige looks like the type to push down where she's at in your stomach" like some kinda stomach bulge and unfortunately i have not been able to get that outta my head so!! here's a fic!! +size kink cus yk me

you don't even remember how'd you gotten here, in this moment, right now ─ in paige's bed, getting absolutely wrecked by her strap. and nope, you didn't mind, not one bit.

she had you pinned beneath her, her strap buried deep inside you, stretching you in a way that left you breathless. paige looked down at you, a smirk playing on her lips as she watched your expression, drinking in the sight of your pleasure.

her hands moved to your stomach, pressing down gently. "look at that," she murmured, her voice filled with awe and desire. "can see myself inside you."

you looked down, your eyes widening at the sight. there was a slight bulge in your stomach, a visible proof of just how deep paige was inside you. the sight sent a fresh wave of arousal through you, your body responding eagerly to the visual confirmation of your connection.

"god, p," you moaned, your hands gripping her shoulders. "can feel you so deep."

paige's eyes darkened with lust, her hand pressing down a little harder. "you like that, baby?" she asked, her voice a low growl. "you like feeling me this deep inside you?"

"yes," you gasped, your hips bucking against her. "i love it. please, don't stop."

paige's began moving against your hips, her thrusts becoming harder and more precise. she kept her hand on your stomach, pressing down with each thrust, enhancing the sensation. the combination of her depth and the pressure on your stomach was driving you wild, pushing you closer and closer to the edge.

paige had pulled your legs further apart before lifting them onto her shoulders, making sure you felt every inch of her. her pace increased speed, your head falling back with each thrust.

"oh, fuck, paige," you cried out, your voice breaking with each powerful thrust.

paige's eyes were locked onto yours, her expression filled with raw desire. "that's right, pretty girl," she growled, her hand pressing down on your stomach again. "want you to feel every inch of me. wanna make you cum so hard you can't see straight."

you were so close, the pleasure building to an almost unbearable peak. each thrust sent shockwaves of sensation through your body, your mind consumed by the intense connection you shared with paige. you could feel the pressure building, the tight coil of pleasure ready to snap...

"paige, 'm gonna—" you started, but your words were cut off by a cry as your orgasm tore through you.

your body convulsed, your vision going white as wave after wave of pleasure crashed over you. paige didn't let up, her thrusts slowing but not stopping, drawing out your orgasm until you were completely spent.

when you finally came down from your high, your body felt like jelly, every muscle relaxed and tingling. paige gently lowered your legs from her shoulders, her touch tender as she moved to lie beside you. she gathered you into her arms, pressing soft kisses to your forehead and cheeks.

"you were amazing," she murmured, her voice filled with affection.

you smiled, feeling a deep sense of satisfaction and contentment. "that was... so good," you replied, your voice still shaky. "i love you so much, p."

"i love you too," paige said softly, her eyes shining with emotion. "more than anything."

if you enjoyed, any interaction is greatly appreciated!

with love, rylin 𝜗𝜚

[bambisnc]

     [kill the romeo] or, how zerobaseone would break generic cliches!

 PAIRING : ot9 x reader! GENRE : crack + fluff CW/TW : rushed i js wanted this  outta drafts/uneditted D: WC : 0.8k approx SUGGESTED 🎧: all of cinema  paradise actually XOXO : eeeeeeeeee + [m.list]

౨ ˖ 성한빈 : SUNG HANBIN ৎ ⋆

[miscommunication? nah too much communication] - i take no arguments. bro will Talk out everything and anything and we love that for him. there will be no unnecessary miscommunication drama in his household. it's like he has his green flag video game stats maxed out completely

౨ ˖ 김지웅 : KIM JIWOONG ৎ ⋆

[... there's too many beds] - this guy will nawt be caught slipping. any time you get mysteriously stranded and have to spend the night at a hotel all alone with him, he will make sure to book 2 separate rooms by hook or by crook (he behaves really nicely and politely with the hotel staff and they just melt and give in to his demands >.<). it's a whole other topic that by the end of the night either you or him take the initiative to softly knock at the other's door because you "jus' can't seem to fall asleep.."

౨ ˖ 章昊 : ZHANG HAO ৎ ⋆

[really, really nice guy who hates only you] - an absolute model of the sweetest guy ever ™ for some reason acting like an absolute hater *only* towards you. but plot twist (because if he actually hated us i couldn't deal w that.) his prickly, irritated, downright bitchy behavior towards you is due to him not knowing how to be normal around you without putting on some kind of a facade. due to yk. him being head over heels in love w you (yes i'm delusional.) the confession would finally be yelled out in the middle of an argument over some random, irrelevant issue neither of you actually care about, thanks for asking

          ⋅ ˚ ଳ ₊ ‧ others utc

౨ ˖ 석매튜 : SEOK MATTHEW ৎ ⋆

[.......... fake amnesia. we listen and we don't judge please] - going out on such a limb here but okay hear me out what if someone confessed to him. and he didn't know how to reply. so he. faked being an amnesiac. and obviously the person who confessed was worried so they like idk called you, his friend, up for help. cut to you reaching there like ???? wtf and him being like i'm sorry :) please help :). and obviously delicious shenanigans ensue afterward yum yum

౨ ˖ 김태래 : KIM TAERAE ৎ ⋆

[Way Too Hot to cuddle] - super specific winter based scenario but imagine you want to initiate more physical contact w your bf but don't exactly know how to say it so you mess around with the heater, to have a convenient excuse, but instead of lowering the intensity of the heat just a tad you accidentally. max the heat settings. and also break the heat adjustor. oops. it may be literally snowing outside but it's basically an entire sauna in there. you do Not know how to fix it.

(when you eventually end up asleep though, taerae simply takes out the plug of the heater right before wrapping you up in a huge comfy embrace :P)

౨ ˖ 沈泉锐 : SHEN QUANRUI ৎ ⋆

[true hate's kiss <3] - dipping into fantasy territory for the most royalty manhwa coded guy ever. you're cursed by some petty witch for whatever reason with the condition that only a kiss from your enemy would break it but for some reason didn't know about the condition. and in universe, you and ricky would already be rivals but when he found out about your curse as well as how it could broken (he's super smart/has connections okay just roll with it) he'd go out of his way to hide his own feelings piss you off more and more till your hatred is at an all time high. when you finally burst and strike a heated argument with ricky he ends up kissing you. (the audience cheers)

wait also imagine if after he kisses you nothing happens. the curse doesn't lift. wasn't the condition for your enemy to kiss you? so even if you were the only one who hated him it should've worked, no? ..

alternatively. the curse is lifted when he kisses you. but!! you don't know that. and him kissing you out of the blue would only lead to you being even madder at him. ong the angst potential is SOARING. do you guys get what i mean

god do i need to write a fic for this.

౨ ˖김규빈 : KIM GYUVIN ৎ ⋆

[everyone being convinced that you aren’t actually dating] - when you end up confessing to best friend!gyuvin and learning that he, in fact, likes you back, you start dating and couldn't be happier. except that ... literally no one believes it. you could be literally making out in front of all your friends and they'd be like haha! classic gyuvy/n like ...... gyuvin obviously would never let go of the opportunity to suggest actually getting married "only to show them that you're together frfr"

౨ ˖박건욱 : PARK GUNWOOK ৎ ⋆

[accidentally kidnapping a mafia boss?!?!] - unrealistic coded but let me set the scene. your roommate asks you to fake-kidnap one of their friends for a surprise birthday party and you comply. but!! you didn't what the person looked like. meaning the vague description you were texted was all you had to go off of. and well. obviously that doesn't go well. you end up coaxing gunwook over to your place only for your roommate to be absolutely flabbergasted and in a terrified tone, tell you that you have the wrong person. who just so happens to be rather notoriously well known. all while he sits there like :]

౨ ˖ 한유진 : HAN YUJIN ৎ ⋆

[love triangle but plot twist the two love interests get together instead] - school au where both of you have a crush on the class president-! constant competition and trying to one-up the other for their attention wraps up yujin and you in such a whirlwind that neither of you can actually tell when it stopped being about wooing the pres but instead became all about subtly trying to make the other jealous so they would finally take the first step

𐙚 . regulars : none yet! ⋆

[@bambisnc] 2k24

[gyarustarrr]

LORE LORE LORE!!!🗣️🗣️🗣️ (This is super long and my English is horrible for a native speaker so bear w me)

ILL BE REAL I DIDNT PUT MUCH THOUGHT INTO A REASONABLE BACK STORY but bcuz shes a self insert i had to make a mention for my bestie who can EASILY be in the pressure universe fr <3

Pre-lockdown: I think itd be unique that if Sebastian was used to give humans gills then Phanny can be used to find immortality cuz who doesnt love when a corrupt corporate entity tries to find the cure for death, happens all the time lol. I say for the important parts shes fused with an immortal jellyfish, my favorite jelly which im extreme jelly of 😼😼😼😼, and i would say that its possible that she could live forever IN THEORY with the dna of that jelly but that would have to be tested lmaooo.

I believe because shes also able bodied (mostly) she would be given similar jobs as Sebastian so shes not depressed, rotting, or lashing out. Not sure if they'd work together but she's observant and being a psychologist, she def psychoanalyzing the hell outta everybody in the facility out of boredom. She seems happy but ofc its a coping mech to make the best out of the absolute horrors around her, still emotional unstable and freaks tf out frequently. Once Sebastian frees everybody, she's free to roam and sees what Sebastian is doing. She asks to assist him in his goal but she only plays a part once Seb handles BIDNESS on land during lockdown. Post lockdown she scavenges for data and whatever here and there but shes mostly left alone or out of most of his operation, yk,,,working with Mr Lopee and all. She really tries to get close with Sebastian (despite emphasizing hes a married man, YEAH SURE BUDDY YOU'RE LIKE 32, WHATEVER MAKES U FEEL BETTER💀) and being the drama fiend i am, i think having a "moment of weakness" would lead to their complex semi romantic possibly toxic dynamic.

Fight: And as i did my research its highly debatable if Sebastian is telling pAInter the truth about getting them both out. Phanny would believe this without question cuz if he can make a plan and has all these skills and resources, he should be able to take everyone (this also includes other peoples inserts and ocs who are experiments because it makes the setting more lively and interesting). I even thought of a cool ass line my homie thought was cold asf for argument dialogue between Phanny and Seb about taking everyone back up to the surface.

Just to summarize: Phanny mentions how noble Seb is after making progress with his escape plan, assuming that he'll take at least as many people as possible including Phanny. Sebastian at this point is already trying to push her away post weakness moment and he know damn well he's just doing this for himself and never accounted to leave w/ a whole damn facility of sentient experiments. He just wanna see his mom again and hes already working in private with Mr Lopee i mean this is a one man escape plan. This ofc shatters Phanny cuz from what hes saying, nobody and he mean NOBODY is getting out of here with him. Hes not a savior and hes not responsible for people he dont even know or fuck with like tf?? And Phannys like OKAY? Nobody's asking you to be JESUS but can you at least be Moses?? Free us so we can all get justice! Explain why you can't take a handful and come back once u take this damn company down?? What about your promise to pAInter? To ME.

Ofc it ends in a big brawl, think Mark getting his shit rocked by his own dad (Omniman from invincible) and they just have this heartbreaking dialogue and they split ways.

Post fight + breakdown: After this, Phanny is basically losing it. I even have a vision for this if it was actually in game and she was an actual character with weight to the gameplay. Like crying and wailing in the vents and pipes, shit breaking, Phanny not being seen for a majority of the game until shes physically stopping u from going through doors and rushing the player. Not to kill them, she loves the expendables and protects them but if she really has to if it means Sebastian can get out/she gets to see another day then...

Plus i drew what that would look like in my last post where shes just standing in the dark in the corner blocking the door. Even if shes not blocking the door she's obviously going through something and can't be interacted with, she just follows the player with her eyes and breathes heavily. If its not that then shes crying by the the water and interacting with her gets the player a DEVIOUS side eye or no response.

Pre-breakdown + if she were actually in the game: I can't really explain why she would help the expendables WITHOUT knowing removing the crystal will indirectly end their lives, i actually havent evaluated that yet but shes friendly to expendables, takes free trade in exchange for shiny objects, and can be seen hanging out with or talking to Sebastian, or passing by in the water/halls. She's capable of killing the player entirely by accident due to her tentacles hanging from the ceiling which she chills in and dying to her makes her scream or apologize (before Sebastian says something snarky) since shes strictly against killing and never willing.

Announcing ur presence helps her know shes in the way. Typical interactive npc shenanigans. Maybe even saving expendables from certain attacks but these are rare interactions in the game. She's overall friendly and if she were real, she'd prolly be a fandom fave (ofc not on Sebastian's level, LETS BE HUMBLE YALL😭) because shes so polite and her tragedy comes near the end where the player isnt even aware of how she became hostile in just a few hours of the run. Her story would hardly happen in game and itd be one of those things a creator would have to mention outside of their game for fans to know abt yk?

Its typical for creators to just drop the craziest lore ever about a character but they're purposefully vague or literally like oh yeah time constraints so we scrapped it lol.

ALRIGHTY CLASS, ANY QUESTIONS? (typing this on my phone was so crazy guys ik its a lot but trust me its DECENT lore </3

[sadie-bug345]

could you write either hcs for the gang getting their wisdom teeth removed, or a mini one shot fic of soda after he gets his out? <3

(I love ur blog btw)

yesssss OML i love you sm🫶‼️

ponyboy:

just so wacky istg

lowk thinks he’s in a book so starts talking in the third person and narrating everything that’s happening

darry struggles to get him back in the car after the appt but once they finally get back home pony stumbles through the door

”ponyboy feels peaceful as he walks through his humble abode” yells pony while darry chases after him

dally is chillin on the couch and pony sits RIGHT next to him

”dally has an elfish face and is anything but handsome, idk what cherry saw in him” and dals just like🧍‍♀️

he refrains from “knocking his block off” just cause he knows he’s on anesthesia

johnny:

pretty quiet afterwards ngl

but he’s just in awe of absolutely everything

😲 24/7

he just has his jack skellington moment like “what’s this? what’s this?”

by the end of the couple hours everyone’s just so done 💀

but no one takes it out on him cause i mean it’s johnny

who could be rude to that face🤨

people try and baby him a bit and he’s just like

”lay OFFA me🙄”

sodapop:

similar to johnny he just asks SO many questions

but it’s just “why” OVER AND OVER

ISTG ITS CRAZY

just so goofy

darry and steve are riding from the dentist with him in the car and darry gotta stop for gas

so sodas like “why”

and then steve goes off abt car mechanics and how car engines work and everything

so sodas like “why”

steve’s just like “uhhh cause that’s how the world works”

so sodas like “why”

and steve goes into an existential crisis and darry’s just like “cmon soda we gotta get you home”

darry:

this is bouta be so chaotic i’m sorry😭

cause he had a group talk abt who he wants taking care of him when he’s on the anesthetic

can’t be two bit cause hed just goof off, dally would commit three felonies and one war crime in the space of an hour without the threat of darry punching his skull in, steve just goes along with soda and hypes soda to do dumb shit, pony can’t even drive, so johnny is the only remotely responsible one

and dally chooses to invite himself along🙄

dally drives darry home after flirting with a girl waiting in the doctors office. she’s kinda crying and he’s like “what’sa matter baby😏”

and she’s like “i just got diagnosed with crippling anxiety” or smth (i know people get their wisdom teeth out at an oral surgeon/ dentist office but ITS JUST FOR THE JOKE)

and dal is OUTTA THERE

johnny sits with darry in the backseat and darry just kinda lets loose on the both of them

like “dally, yk you’ll never amount to anything at this rate right?😀” and “johnny, do ya think your troubled home life will affect the way you’ll live as an adult for decades to come?”

dally:

flirting way too much with literally everyone

”i may not be able to feel anything in my mouth but YOU sure will tonight 😏”

and two-bit is just standing like 🧍‍♀️

EWEWEW i’m actually throwing up that made me cringe sm but it’s funny so idc

the whole gang is there cause they gotta make sure dally doesn’t run away and become a drug lord overnight

pony buys him an ice cream cone and he just breaks down crying like

”this…this is the nicest thing anyone’s ever done to me 🥹” and it’s probably true

two-bit:

making the MOST non-sensical jokes ever

he’s just talking the ear off this old lady nurse like

”and THEN a poodle walks into the bar holding a *wheeze* a frying pan‼️”

BUT two-bits delivery is so on point that it’s actually funny cause no one expects it

just the epitome of wacky

tries to jump out of the car while they’re driving

he thinks it’s the funniest thing ever when everyone freaks out

in general just thinks everything is so funny

dally will make his usual threats to anyone in the car and two-bit will be like

”remember when dally threw up at the christmas party we had cause ponyboy bet he couldn’t drink a gallon of eggnog in two minutes💀‼️”

and dally just sits there silently for the rest of the car ride

steve:

actually thinks he’s invincible

SPRINTS and parkours his way through the doctors office

two and dal are just egging him on

sodas dying

sticks his head out the car window

TOTALLY passes out once they get home

lowk just keeps sleeping everyone thinks he died cause it’s been 12 hours since the appointment and he’s just out of it

TYSM for requesting @obsessedwithyouxx‼️

and my inbox is always open!!

[mr-magoriums-im-sorry-emporium]

yo hi your shawn spencer having aspd take is awesome, been looking for a 'popular' character that displays aspd better than dexter. if you ever wanna give more elaboration / possibly infodumping i will be in the audience standing and clapping

u sly dog u got my monolouging.... AIGHT HERE GOES!!

so i forgottt if i said so in the og post but i think henry ALSO has aspd and thats where shawn got it from, but to elaborate: i think that's why henry became a cop

FIRST OFF: wrt cops, i am operating on TV SHOW LOGIC, not real life logic. tv show cops and irl cops are VASTLY different in the kinds of morals each set has. rl cops are deeply unethical but in the world henry spencer inhabits, this is largely not the case. since he's In There and not Out Here, i go with the show's portrayal of cops and their morals and values, instead of real life's. everything i say about cops from here on is about the show's cops, aight? aight lets go

SO the thing about having aspd and knowing on some level that you have it and somethings Different about you is that at some point you HAVE to learn How To Live In A Society Without Immidiatley Getting Ostracized. a common tactic for this is to somehow aquire a set of morals and then just Do That. it's what i personally did, and a lot of those morals came feom whatever community i was in. i liked being here, they had some set of morals, and i just adopted those and treated it as truth. over the years this process has become a lot more refined but generally my morals align with the community i find myself in- namely, queer leftists. so a LOT of my moral beliefs come with interacting with queer leftists at length (because, since i was queer, and thus interacted w a lot of leftists) and going "yeah, that makes sense, this is now a moral standard for me"

so tldnr you need to find a community with some moral tenants that you generally agree with and also like, which sounds like a no brainer but its like. a bit different yk? for me PERSONALLY there really isnt much of an internal set of checks and balances that make me agree w my morals under all costs and i can like. turn it off if i need to

but back to the spencers: being a cop is really good for this. the moral set is easy- you're a cop. you care a lot about The Law. ergo your morals are just... the laws are good and breaking tbem is bad. short and simple and to the point

additionally, being a cop means you get to engage in risk taking behavior and get PAID for it! people dont think youre a crazy reckless thrill seeker, they think you're a HERO! and who needs remorse when you're dealing with criminals? you dont NEED to feel bad about power tripping or intimidating them, its totally fine. its fine. its fine

also relationship issues- henry's divorced, that's not uncommon for pwaspd in relationships. sometimes its poorly managed and/or they wont change and even if theyre stable enough not to be dangerous or abusive, it could be an unpleasant experience for a lot of different reasons- arguments being a massive problem when they happen (the remorse thing- good luck actually getting an apology outta them), worry over the risky behavior being met with flippiance, general lack of emotional vunerability. stuff like that

all this btw is based off my real relationship struggles between me and my fiance who does NOT have aspd (we r like... total opposites its so funny. top 10 funniest matchups of all time)

back to shawn. he is a lot like his father in many ways but the main reason i thought he had aspd is just... he treats EVERYTHING with flippiance and sarcasm. even when hes locking in and being serious, there's still an underlying feeling that he's Just Having Fun With This, no matter the situation. which, this isnt like an official criterion or whatever, but like... i know a LOT of guys with aspd. most of them talk like this. there's always a sense of emotional detachment from most things, because there is one, because they have aspd. i jokingly call this the "sociopath lilt" because theres also that sort of, up-and-down inflection (that shawn has!) that comes with it. its so funny it just makes other pwaspd instantly clockable to me. get thin sliced loser

but once i started thinking about it, more things add up... he's CALLED OUT on his risk taking behavior and flippiance towards serious subject matter IN THE SHOW! he's had a ton of jobs and while i can't prove why he kept leaving them, aspd and having a job... don't mix well. i keep getting fired because i keep beefing w my manager, and i can see the same thing happening to shawn, or maybe he broke a rule one too many times, or got caught in a restricted area, or broke something thru carelessness

and it IS played for comedy but he very often tends to not respect the wishes and autonomy of the people he interacts with, ESPECIALLY gus. he cares naught for anything gus has going on with his job and wether or not he'll get in trouble if he leaves early or does whatever scheme shawn cooked up, and generally sort of treats him not very kindly a lot- which isnt to say their friendship is BAD, its just a pattern of behavior yk?

thats all i can think of off the top of my head rn, but yeah imo shawn is a very realistic take on a guy with aspd whos just like. a regular guy with a mental illness thats to some degree managed, some degree not. very "adhd kid went thru some shit and developed aspd" coded (theres a link; if you abuse a kid with adhd theres a HUGE chance theyll develop conduct disorder and later aspd) (also i guess "some shit" for shawn was the divorce and also being raised by a guy with aspd and being influenced by how he thought a lot)

he's not like, dangerous or abusive or anything, he just has his quirks that can cause problems for him or give the people close to him grief, but its kind of like... an affectionate sort of grief, yk?he just reminds me of myself in a lot of ways. and i like that even in a hc theres SOME character out there that isnt like, a serial killer. imagine having a mental illness and all the characters with it are evil. like yeah theyre cool characters but can i have SOMETHING else for once PLEASE

also lassie has npd send tweet

[sugar-omi]

angst time :,) n a little comfort at the end bc I'm a sucker

i started thinking abt mc leaving rockstar cove after they get hurt bc of that crazy 'fan' (to the anon who brought it up, YOUBE BROKEN ME<////3)

even though you want nothing to do w him anymore, he'd pay for everything. even if you move out he'll pay for whatever you want and need until you're ready to go back to work

doesnt matter how much money you have, he'd feel so bad and this is the least he can do to relieve his guilt and your troubles.

I think him leaving music is very spontaneous yk that

he took a bit of a break before he tried doing shows again but it just wasn't the same. not like before he met you and definitely didn't feel the same as when you were dating.

so before the last song, he mumbles, only audible because of the mic, that this is rhe last show he's ever doing.

the crowd gasps and murmurs collectively, his crew and manager are freaking out backstage n baxter is prbly cussing him out thru the earpiece bc wtf is he doing? we never talked abt this???

and the last song cove plays is some sad song he wrote :,,)

he's crying in the middle of it, slow tears running down his face and by the end he covers his face, hands shaking and he exhales shakily.

he's in such ruins after everything that happened, and he thought he could move on, but he can't. it's too different. everything is too real now to ignore or play off. it's not simple anymore. it's real and it got dangerous and it's scary and hes.. he's tired.

he'll thank all his wonderful fans for supporting him, for all the love, especially after that stalker.

but through tears he gives a big fuck you to everyone who harassed him and especially you.

the internet totally breaks. the news is bumping for weeks especially with every new piece that comes out

"rockstar suddenly quits"

"hardass rockstar, cove holden, crying on stage during last show"

I'm torn between cove deactivating his socials and him just leaving everything as it is.

doesn't touch it unless you ask him to change his bio n pfp and everything.... that crushes him. he cries and cries n it takes so long to delete every post/photo of you/both of you. (he downloads every one, even if he knows he has the photo still.)

the internet breaks again, n if his fans know your socials n you took cove outta your bio/deleted your photos, etc. it just confirms the rumors that you're broken up.

which leads to a few a lot articles n posts n threads abt why you broke up, or fans in ruins bc they liked you together n hoped it wasn't true.

if it gets bad or annoying or whatever, and especially if you ask before he can act altho it wouldn't take long before he makes a statement or post on whatever remaining social he has to "Stay outta our business. leave y/n alone."

and maybe the pap, creepy as always, see you and cove moving things out the house into your car or uhaul depending on how much you run away with (you can take all his left shoes n he wouldn't complain)

n now the photos n articles are circulating like wild fire and cove tries to be civil telling everyone to stfu n get out your business, but somehow he ends up making a dark, pixelated video of him in what looks like the kitchen? cussing out the pap n telling everyone to just stop n fuck off, that you're blowing it up too much n to just stop

it blows over eventually, resurfacing here and there over the years

ik rockstar cove is dramatic n wild n blah blah blah, he's crazy ik stfu I think he's great n hes like the next beyonce in my head i think but yes he is a drama queen and he's still a big crybaby

definitely ends up back w his dad, helping w his shop early on (definitely got caught behind the register once bc some fan made a tiktok captioned "cove fucking holden just rang up my surfboard and stuff im going to FAINT" and now the shop is more busy than usual)

when you run into each other again and catch up, he definitely cries and can't stop feeling bad for not protecting you better. for not doing more even though he did the most whole youbwere together to keep you safe from crazy and delusional fans

please tell him it's not his fault, bc he really did do everything before and after the attack and you'll never regret being w him. he'd blame himself so much and would cry with relief to know you don't hate him

[sharp-silver4795]

Jessie & Peter

Girly (gn) this is a LOOOONNNGG post

I spent 3 hours on this, I shit you not. And it STILL ended up cringy!!!

CW!!: Blatant abuse, prison?, inaccuracies (I’ve never been to jail), racism? (Jessie just refers to racial differences between Liu and Peter)

I think we can all collectively agree that Peter is an asshole. He’s abusive, selfish, acts like a Twitter Alpha Male™️, and doesn’t really give a shit about his step kid. Jessie, however, it the product of all those things. In fact, Jessie killed his father and brother over it.

So what happens when these two butt heads?

Where and When?

First of all- I kinda lied-

There were multiple times that they ran into each other.

They had a few small interactions at the prison, one on the street, and once at Jessie’s home.

Each being more dramatic than the last. It went from spite to subtly saying “he’s my kid now” and then outright saying it

Let’s get this outta the way

Jessie can get away with a lot- like a lot a lot

He’s a lot of violent interactions with officers and inmates since he’s been there.

It almost became a thing where- if Jessie asks for something, and it’s not too big of an issue, he gets it.

Visitation is one of those things.

At first, it was a big no.

The officials didn’t see why he wanted to go with Liu a few times. That was until Liu asked for him.

Anytime Liu got scared about anything in jail, Jessie would talk them through it.

It was a first for him to see someone scared to see their own family.

Prison ~ Calling him Out

Yk that thing where people can talk to inmates through glass and shit?

Well, there were a few times that Liu did that and Peter would be standing behind Jeff (Margret didn’t have time to visit and she beat herself up over it)

Jessie only had one visitor: his sister, Samantha. So, he would visit Liu a few times.

Jessie had talked a big game of wanting to tell Peter was a shit father he is… and he got his chance…

Once, he showed up, grabbed Liu by their shoulders affectionately and, well-

“Heya, kiddo. This yer kin?” They looked up at Jessie’s scared face and nodded; “yeah, Jeff- my brother- just left to go to the bathroom and…”

“Ah! That’s yer Pops?” He questioned, cutting off their statement. Liu nodded slowly. Peter had an almost smug look on his face as he leaned forward, putting the phone/mic to his ear.

“Who’re you taking to, son?” Before Liu could answer, Jessie visibly cringed and snatched the mic-

“M’name is Jessie.”

“Hello… Jessie. May I ask why you’re with him? I don’t think that’s exactly allowed.”

The larger man laughed like a madman “Why you call this kid yer son if ya ain’t gonna treat ‘em like it?”

Flustered and enraged, Peter stood. But, by the time he looked through the glass, both ‘Jessie’ and Liu were gone.

**later on**

Sitting on a table, in the mess hall, Jessie started a conversation: “Hey, kid?” Liu looked pale and uncomfortable ever since the visit that morning. Their answer was immediate- “Hm?”- even with a mouth full of food. He chuckled, “you ok? You seemed a bit off since this mornin’.” Liu looked up at him from his seat. “I’m just worried.”

“‘Bout what?”

“What’s gonna happen to me.”

“Kid, I done told you-”

“I mean when I get back to that house.”

He recognised the phrase ‘that house’. He can’t quite blame the kid, either. That house is not a home. It likely never will be.

The Street

When he’s let out, he asks to live with Samantha, which she gladly agrees to. She doesn’t live too far from the Woods’ house and he just can’t help wanting to visit. So, he stands on a street corner for when the high school bus stops.

At this point, Liu is 18 and Jeff is still in middle school. (My timeline might be off- idfk nor do I care!) Neither Jessie nor Liu know that Margret had lectured Peter into getting in the car to pick up Liu at the bus stop…

When the bus unloads, Liu nearly cries. He runs to where Jessie is and gets a back-breaking bear-hug. For some reason, Peter’s pissed that Liu ran to a sTrAnGeR rather than him. So, he yanks his car door open and marches up to Jessie.

Liu goes pale. Jessie can see the fear in that kid’s eyes and pushes Liu behind him so that he’s standing between them and Peter.“ Get outta here if ya feel like ya need to, got it?” He whispers to Liu, to which they frantically nod. “Good.”

“Hello, again, Peter. Remember me? Jessie? From the prison?”

“Yeah. I remember you.”

“Mhmmm… what cha got goin on? Need somethin?”

“I need my kid.”

“I’m sorry, sir, I can’t let that happen.” At this point, Liu is slowly backing away. Their heart is racing. What the hell are they supposed to do? Do they run? Do they hide? Neither of those have done anything in the past-

Almost as if reading their mind, Jessie calls to him: “C’mere, son!” Liu gladly runs to him, holding onto his shirt like a life preserver.

Peter’s jaw drops at the action. But his surprise fades to pure anger. Just as he’s about to speak, Jessie moves away with Liu, setting them on a bench to calm down. “I know this is a lot. I’m doin mah best with what I got, alright? If I could, Ida beat this bastard to pulp by now. But that won’t end well for anyone, now, will it?” He laughs as Liu lets out a small chuckle. “Stay here, I’ll get him outta the way for a bit, ok? Can ya do that for me?” Liu nods once again, and he moves about 2 meters back over to Peter.

“You think you can just-” a resonating *smack* shuts him up. He grabs Peter by his collar; “you listen here, bud. Ya lay one more hand on him and yer a dead man walkin, understood?” Once again, in shock, not knowing what he’s agreeing to, Peter nods aggressively.

In Jessie’s Home

Peter didn’t know what he agreed to last time.

So, when Liu eventually gets his ass beat, thrown into a washing machine, and locked in a closet- he runs to Jessie. What he wasn’t ready for, however, was Peter following him.

Samantha answers the door, “hello?”

“Hi,” Within his first few words, she recognises the voice as the man who stood next to Liu when she brought him the scarf. “Is there a Liu Woods here? He’s my son and I need him to come home. His mom and I are worried about him.”

In the living room, Jessie can hear Peter and immediately stands. He bolts for the door, politely asking Sam to move. He steps out and closes the door behind him.

He stands over Peter and crosses his arms over his chest. “You got one chance to speak. You blow it, I knock yer teeth in.”

“I don’t know who you think you are, but he is my kid. I need him to come home. Is that too much to ask for?”

“When it comes to assholes who’ll beat their kids? Hell yeah. Kid just told me what happened. Gimme a good reason as to why I shouldn’t whoop your ass right here and now” he says, taking a step down the walkway steps. He has one foot at each of Peter’s feet, trapping the man.

“He’s my kid and I’ll raise him how I want.”

“Oh, tell hell with that! As far as I know, he ain’t yer kid. First and foremost, he’s his Daddy’s kid! He ain’t even yours! It don’t take a genius to look at that Asian kid and your white ass and see that y’all ain’t kin. After that, he’s mine. Ya hear that? Mine. You ain’t got in ya to raise a damn house plant! Or would you beat that too?”

“I’m getting him ready for the real world, I’m making him a man.”

“You son of a bitch- he’s ten times the man you’ll ever be right fuckin now! He knows what he can do. He knows howda treat people. He knows how to be a good man. You ain’t a man. You’re a pathetic excuse fer a person.”

The two pause. Jessie stares down at him, warning and danger woven in his gaze. “Get the fuck off my property.”

“You want him? Have him! Hope he jumps in a lake a drowns.” As Peter walks away, Jessie sits on his sister’s porch.

“How could anyone be that way.” The door creaks as it opens behind him. Samantha steps out, “I don’t think our daddy was any better.”

The man sighs, “what do you and Liu want for dinner? I’ll get it for us.”

Against Jessie’s advice, he leaves after dinner. They won’t leave Jeff in that house alone…

Divider Creds: @sisterlucifergraphics & @saradika-graphics

Header Creds: MEEE!!!

[mewsmagic]

Uh, gonna change some things??

Hey yall! So, I dedicated the last entire year to instagram almost exclusively and ngl that was exhausting, that platform is just too demanding nowadays and heck I need a break

Sooo I decided I'll be bringing my text posts to here or whatever other twitter alternative that has fandoms in it, since most of my text posting are ramblings about my hyperfixations yk?

It's just a lot easier and more worthwhile posting this stuff here rather than instagram where no one will read anything bc we don't open instagram for that LOL

Sooo yeah, just letting you guys know before I start fangirling outta nowhere LOL I hope yall won't mind me being more active over here!

In general I love tumblr's current atmosphere and there're some discussions going on here that are veeeryy interesting so I'm excited to start being more present here!!!

[tra1nchi]

Help okay I remember school drama that happend last month lol💀

Tw: self harm mentions!!

Tomato and banana was together for like 3 months and for some reason they had sex in the school yard??😟😟 and like 2 weeks after that

They broke up and tomato got super sad but then tomato falls inlove with mandarin but mandarin and banana are friends so banana starts to talk smack about tomato to make mandarin feel less of her.

But tomato and mandarin ends up getting together but it only lasts 1 week until mandarin breaks up with tomato because of her self harm and he wants to focus on football🥺🥺

And like obviously tomato gets sad and for no reason at all she sends men at banana and mandarin and the men threatened them both to death and like they were going to shot them😦😦(as I know the men was in their mid 20's)

After that tomato posts on her insta about all the allegations that she sent the men on mandarin and banana and she confirms them, and a person in our grade snitched to the principal about this and the principal called the police on tomato.

Yk what fucking happens next??💀💀 the police charged tomato to give banana and mandarin 8k each and I have no idea if this is true but my friend told me that tomato dad said to her that he wanted to punch the living hell outta her😭😭

And I don't know if this is a coping mechanism but the day after tomato got called in the police she came to school with a t-shirt and I could see like +20 fresh scars on each arm and it can be triggering for people and I dont understand why she would just show up like that

Anyways that's it :P

Tbh its just average school drama for us💀

- anon 💞

DAWG WHAA!! ur school is crazy,, in my old school back when I was a little baby boy teen,,my school was in a rough area so yk we had to fight for our lives in there ☠☠ anyway I remember some kid punched a teacher,,like the BALLS u need to do that

[sttoru]

so i like i a girl (i think)

well i used to have a big crush on her about a year ago but i think my fear of rejection and commitment is the only thing that’s stopping me from asking her out.

okay so about a year or two ago, i had a big crush on this girl in my college. we have so much in common and we talked all the time. and then during the end of my first year, i asked her out (not like a romantic/date kinda of thing, just as friends going out ykiwm?). so we went to the cinema and then we walked about until we both went our separate ways to go home and then i immediately lost feelings for her. not as in i hated her or anything, i could never she’s always been so sweet to me but i just didn’t feel that romantic interest in her anymore. that’s until i spoke to her recently.

time skip to the present (so two years later from the event above) she’s working full time and i’ve moved to a different college to prep for uni next year. for some reason i had missed her so much and i have no idea why. these feelings came back outta nowhere and then i ended up inviting her to see the fnaf movie with me and omg it was so good to see her again it’s literally been MONTHS since we’ve talked or seen each other face to face. um anyways, i like her again.

btw (if it wasn’t obvious) i haven’t confessed to her at all (bc i’m a coward). i was so close to saying something at the cinema but i didn’t (again, bc i’m a coward). but i feel bad. i feel like i’m leading her on or toying with her feelings. i don’t want to see mom like i’m wasting her time, i just wasn’t ready at first. dgmw i could wait and see what the future holds but i doubt i’m gonna find another person like her. (i’m so sorry this got so long 💀)

tl;dr

i got a big fat crush on this girl and i am fighting back demons to not confess my feelings to her because i lost interest in her a few years ago but those feelings came back recently when i met up with her after so long and i don’t want to seem like a piece of shit

OKKAAAAY THERES A LOT TO UNPACK HERE !!.!:!:8 😦😦

UHM okay first of all EEEEK ik . . . love is hard & (romantic) feelings are hard to fully understand too. it’s much more complicated / complex than ppl think — like it’s described in ur msg to a certain degree. but tbh.,,,

theres this saying that goes ‘absence makes the heart grow fonder’ which is actually perfect for your situation LOL i think the fact that you have realised your feelings for that girl after you spent a long time apart & met up again, says a lot. u speak very highly about her so there definitely must be some kind of feelings involved too

i would say: take time and figure it out before anything else. keep contact with her if yu can, don’t hint or do anything that you’re unsure of or could possibly lead her on when you aren’t sure about your own feelings abt her yet. bcs what if your feelings go from romantic to platonic again? yk it happens LOL figuring out what you precisely see someone as is stressful but yea it has to be done to prevent unnecessary painful consequences

thoooo if you ARE 100% sureeee of your big crush for her, then i will also advice you to take your time & dont rush into anything. i dont think you’ll lose contact any time soon (since you had a 2 year break before) so dont worry abt that. confess if you feel like the time is right / whenever you feel comfortable doing it — no forcing urself to!!!!!!!

u wont seem like a piece of shit if you figure your own feelings out first . keep it at friends until you do! then its all goooood . GL BBY U CAN DO THIS >_< tis nerve wracking but if u take enough time to reflect, im sure everything will work out smoooothly

[merwynpersonalhub]

since im angry and sore rn im writing random shit in one post 1) noise even though he is friends with margarita he loves to fuck around with him. he understands Italian so he gives margarita the wrong things on purpose so he can just see peppino spit out a drink or just be surprised in general lmao 2) i found a good translator so i will be using that for peppino sometimes bc sometimes i feel like peppino would just speak full on italian when he is upset or some shit lmao 3) margarita doesnt actually have two kids he just took in a fake peshino (toy) and a strange ass toppin that can turn into human that margarita loves very much 4)lovesick margarita has the lovesick thing buttttttt!! he can think pretty well so he just like "oh uh..no i dont need affection.." even though he reallllly wants it he will deny any type of affection so he doesnt hurt anyone. thats also why he quit working for peppino so he doesnt hurt anyone close to him lmao.. (lovesick au belongs to @/fluffygiraffe) 5) idk if i said this but he can break his halo and make it into a bow. since he cannot fight that well he sorta needs it..But its sorta rare he uses it (like how peppino gets his gun from the bosses) 6) Margarita doesnt hate poppe (@/maskedinfinate oc) he actually sorta cares for her he just cant stand the bullshit she does sometimes. if poppe was in danger he will try his best to protect her..even tho sometimes he will go like "why the hell did i save you." he really cares for her even if she doesnt care for him. (poppe you bitch we know you slightly care for margarita.) 7) OK so yk the fake peppino fight. in my silly lil head margarita fought fake peppino while peppino fought fake margarita... since i think it would be funny that margarita would be following fake peppino instead of peppino and like..when he finally catches up to fake peppino he is like "...wait a fucking sec-" 8)basically how margarita got with anton was anton visits the pizzeria time to time to hang with peppino and he notices margarita working the register and they just got close after awhile lmao 9)peppino and margarita has harmful ways of coping with shit- like how peppino will bite himself (i think almost everyone has this hc lmao) (also his hand/arms are badly scarred bc of it) margarita claws his arms. its hard to see due to the hair on his arms but he does claw the fuck outta his arms. thats why when he sorta getting overwhelmed gustavo walks over and takes the cash register and margarita other jobs before margarita starts clawing himself and margarita hides in the break room for a lil bit 10) GUSTAVO IS EVERYONE SUPPORT IN THE PIZZERIA. LIKE FR HE SO GOD DAMN SWEET GOD DAMN IT HE A JOLLY GNOME. (also yes fuck yall he is a gnome in my head.)

[i-feel-like-eat1ng-stars]

Yo, it's been a hot minute

My life has changed a lot very quickly and the past 6 or so months have been a brutal fucking adjustment, but I'll survive - somehow I always do.

⚠️Trigger warning⚠️

bad shit that happened this summer

Lets start at my summer trip. Way back in like - end of june? My ex got ahold of some speed - she doesn't really fuck with that stuff - but she knows full well I can't say no to it, she also knew full well I'd been keeping myself clean for a good while atp and wasn't particularly eager to break my streak - but she got it, and she put it in front of me, and every time I suggested we've had enough, and reminded her that we're meeting our friends in a couple hours, she'd put another bump in front of me.

Even after I pointed out that said friends ex-addict mother had been nothing but lovely the entire time I've known her and showing up to her house high or coming down is level of disrespect I wouldn't want to show to anybody and a line that I do not want to cross.

But by the time I actually managed to force myself to say fucking 'no' we only had 20 minutes, and yk what she did when we got there?

She told our friends' mom what we'd been doing all afternoon.

And the worst fucking part is how kind she was about it, yk? Like she got me a glass of orange juice to ease the crash because she noticed I was shaking. I hated myself so fucking much to allowing myself to be in that position.

After we left, I was not feeling good about anything, yk what she did then? Let me lay awake half the night, then when i finally fell asleep at 6am, she. gave. me. some. more.

Oh but not for free this time - why the fuck would she, right? She told me that she'd give me more, but only if I gave myself in return, which, in retrospect, was probably her end goal from the beginning.

And then I had to travel home, to find that my best friend was far too enthralled with her new boyfriend to spend any time with me - even after I told her more or less what happened - she offered me surface level condolences and went back to forgetting about me for the next 3ish weeks.

Just before it hit the month mark, she blew up on me for ignoring HER and accused me of spreading lies, and trying to turn all our friends against her (which is to say - two people I had talked to in that time, heard me say 'she's not really reaching out anymore and I'm really upset about that')

So she more or less dropped me kind of outta nowhere and took all our shared friends with her - which fucking sucked - cue 4 months of sitting in my room not eating, not interacting with anything anyone posted on social media - and speaking to no one - and also not leaving my neighbourhood because God forbid I run into my her (or any of our other friends she had againste me) at places we both frequent in the city we both live in - any time that happened I'd get texted a birage of cruelty and insults.

And just to top it all off: my fucking guinea pig died.

This was genuinely the worst summer of my fucking life.

But then October rolled around, and I met a girl, and she asked me out, and - against my better judgement - I went. And yk what? We actually really hit it off, for the first time ever I'm in a relationship I ACTUALLY want to be in, and she let it be entirely my choice if I wanted that or not ^^

And I also landed an internship as a baker at the café at a local farm. I'm hoping after a while, i can get a more permanent position; I really love it there.

In short: my life has entirely blown up around me, and the very last bits of foundational support and stability I still had are collapsing beneath my feet; but, I can still see a piller of hope. Maybe things really will be hard forever, but maybe it doesn't have to be this hard. Maybe that's enough.

[jihyoruri]

okkk i’m gonna do a storytime on how i got into a fight with a BOY (ik evb is talking abt snsd rn sorryyy😣) anyways so on like the last day of school before summer break me and my friend was talking yk abt random things sooo my friend outta no whenever asks me if i think said boy was cute and would i date him i said he was attractive but i wouldn’t date him , sooo im assuming one of his friends that was sitting by us heard and told him bc he wasn’t even in the same period as us so while im in the last class of the day (also the last class until i start school again) he comes up to me while the teacher isn’t in the room and starts arguing with me for like NOOO reason calling me a hoe a bitch and ofc me being me im confused and im tryna understand understand what’s his problem was , so anyway outta nowhere he starts getting loud and he stands up so i stand up aswell (i honestly don’t know wtf i thought i was gonna do bc i stand at strictly 5’0 and he’s like 5’8 i think also he has locs it may not make sense why im telling yall but its gonna be a big part of the storytime later) so he tries to hit me then i like flinch back so he kinda like missed then i guess that made him more mad he yelling and hitting me instead of tryna fight back i keep like grabbing his hand so like he hit me that much , so yall i reach up as high as i can and pull his hair bc yk i had no other choice so he continues to try and hit me but he also tryna get me to let go of his hair and i start hitting him , long story short the teacher came back and broke up the fight , we didn’t get in trouble tho bc it was the last day so yea 😁 my mom wanted to press chargers but i told her not to 😚😚 anyways i ended up getting wingstop and going to the mall after !!! it was amazing experience never wanna do it again 😋😋

-🎀kira

that was a lot

[nightmarearian]

AKSBXHBDUSJ!!! <- a pokemon nerd (me)

uh uh uh

somehow a zoroark kinda fits really well hm. (I saw that cause my mind immediately went to zoro cause they're my fav and I disregard the first thought cause it's like no you can't just assign ur fav your favorite pkm also but here we are it very much fits yeah give him a zoro)

well. a dog obvi?

stuck between arcanine mabosstiff and mightyena arcanine/growlithe has an in pkm world association with first responders/police. stoutland works too. yeah that doesn't have as much fire. And wrio deserves a weighted blanket. mobosstiff & mightyena are dark type dogs …OH OH OR HOUNDOOM CAUSE HELL-UNDERWORLD DOG though in world furfrou would be mega-common in fontaine tho wouldn't it.... hm. idk just give him all the dogs lol

Klinklang? cause gears and stuff. I don’t mean that as a cop out or anything I love klinklang or klefki. I feel like a sentient loyal key ring would be useful

maybe (heavy maybe) weavile/sneasel. just cause. dark ice type with a black-red color scheme but that’s purely visual vibes ig

maybe a sharpedo or another water type since meropide is underwater I’d bet that be useful or replace that with a like a dewgong or walrein for ice-water, if you want that. Walrein feels like it'd fit. Oh or outta no where a milotic cause Fontaine would totally have a wonderful sea life and milotic would totally be apart of that and I feel like Wrio would absolutely be good to one and/or love a feebas enough for it to evo. It would patrol around meropide for him. (And tbh gyardos feels like. A slight bit too much to the left for wrio? neuvi can get the gyardos I feel like that fits. …oh maybe it’s the prominent secondary white color. Hm).

OH MY GOD I CAN’T BELIEVE IF FORGOT ABT BOXING

uhmmmm

toxicroak. smug little poison boxer actually a lucario would be cute. yk a long range to his shorter ranger. friendship evo so it could be someone he bonded with young (when he absolutely needed it) and yk. good morals and stuff

or scrafty. dark fighting type, chill. or pangoro. also dark fighting but sorta less chill so idk

yk a bewear would be funny. oh oh oh but like the orphanage-child trafficking place he was raised hve them stuffuls cause cute teddy bear and it would be like. a "plus"to the buyers to make them more "cute" or smth and Wrio escaped with his and it stayed with him the enitre time in meropide and seifugresfjkadwkiesf Oh and it's sorta shars the same dichotomy of looks like one thing is actually the other as in Wrio looks kinda dubious (flashbacks to the fics/characterization before he was released by design was released) but is actually very moral and solid in said morals the same way bewear look cutes but could and will break your spine and then all your bones. Oh and it's powerful & fast(see pkm anime) to deal with like. inmates and stuff. oh and sige would like it.

oh, and sinistea. duh. ...or galarian darmanitan/darumaka. darumaka. I feel like that one would enjoy some tea, idk it just has that vibe. stays in his office.

give him a pokemon!! (in the reblog tags or comments) (he does not know what a pokemon is)

probably will be a mini series so i can have an excuse to draw him with creatures LOL