#good god American cities are so ugly.

[monsterhugger]

looking at izumo on google streetview and im gonna start sobbing it really is the lack of on-street parking huh

[bitter-hibiscus]

bear with me as I overanalyze Jason's grave

there's like, a lot to talk about when it comes to Jason's grave, but let's start with the most important part: The casket.

The difference between a coffin and a casket is that a coffin has six sides, while a casket has four. However, the context in which caskets started to be used serves us great narrative purpose. Caskets started being produced, in America, during the Civil War, as a way to "beautify" death. See below:

It was the violence combined with the scale of death that led to the ‘the beautification of death’ in America during this period, and it was the shift in both name and shape of the coffin that was an effort to distance the living from the unpleasantness of death, and the hexagonal coffins were part of that distancing.

Many early American caskets were still six-sided, but noticeably grander. It’s almost as if the coffin was too honest, too basic and unrefined. The change in name from coffin to casket reinforces this point, as ‘casket’ calls to mind a vessel for storing precious goods, a euphemism, yes, but seemingly also a mark of intended respect. For Americans, the idea of a casket seemed a more appropriate term to honour their dead. (From Coffins to Caskets: an American History by Sarah Hayes)

So, a casket is used in an attempt to honor the dead, and, most importantly, to take away the ugly parts of how those soldiers died in the War. The casket is an attempt to sanctify the dead while omitting the context in which they died, and what they'd died for. *

Another thing that stands out to me is that Jason's grave has an angel statue. Jason's statue, specifically, is a praying angel. Praying angels symbolize that the buried was deeply religious and devoted to God. It's interesting that that pose was the one chosen, since there are poses that symbolize heartbreak, and ones that symbolize people who were "gone too soon" and were "innocent and pure". It feels pointed, then, that the angel Bruce had commissioned is one that symbolizes faith and being guided to the afterlife. Could be extrapolated to mean that Bruce saw Robin as a follower and a believer instead of a child, someone who would always need the guidance of a higher being (such as Batman).

Lastly, Jason was buried in the city graveyard, and not the Wayne Family graveyard. I personally like to think that this serves two purposes -- one, to have Jason's grave in the same place as his parents', and two, to distance Bruce from Jason's death. Bruce regularly visits Thomas and Martha's graves, they're literally buried in Bruce's house. But we only see Bruce visiting Jason's grave once, on his 18th birthday, though it's safe to assume he at least visits Jason once a year.

It also works to say that though Jason is part of Gotham, but he's not part of Batman's mission. While Bruce constantly uses his parents' deaths to fuel his mission and his obsession, he does the opposite with Jason. It's not Batman who failed, it's Jason who was careless, it's Jason who disobeyed orders and went against what Batman told him to. So he doesn't get to be in the family cemetery, because Bruce can't use his death to fuel his bad behavior. *P.S.: Batman Annual #25 uses the word coffin, but shows a casket. Caskets are more widely used in the USA, so I'm choosing to believe that Winnick just doesn't know the difference between them.

[notbecauseofvictories]

I was telling my mother about my trip to Switzerland, and how lovely, clean and yet oddly dead the cities seemed. "Maybe I just wasn't in the right parts?" I mused. "I did spend all my time in the city centers, you'd hardly expect to get a feel for Chicago walking down Michigan Avenue---"

"That's what you said about Notre Dame too," my mother added thoughtfully, as someone who has known me since birth. "It was too clean. You said it was American college Disneyworld."

And in the days since I haven't been able to stop thinking about that. That whatever else is in me, I automatically mistrust too-lovely things. I assume they're lying to me somehow, they're protecting me from something in a high-handed, jolly good but better not let the rabble see, sort of way. It itches, too much manufactured loveliness. I was even thinking about that driving through the suburbs (long story, don't ask) because some of those subdivisions and gleaming office parks are attractive, but all I could think about is the number of people called in to mow the grass and weed the flower beds and powerwash the sign every spring.

This doesn't make me think, well, that's what human effort is for! why did god make 6am if you're not going to be watering your plants and taking out the trash! (That's what I do at 6am; if the rest of humanity agreed with me, I would notice.) Instead, it makes me think about lies. It makes me think about Disneyworld. It makes me think about the carefully cultivated artifice of a place where it is someone's literal job to ensure that ugliness never occurs in your eyeline, so you don't have to contemplate it.

[seannessy]

*sigh* oh to live in a world where american car manufacturers remembered that you could put more than 1 color on things...

oh to live in a world where american car manufacturers remembered that eggshell white looks good actually...

oh to live in a world where american car manufacturers are not going senile and forgetting all of the reasons why cars looked cool to begin with...

the post was originally going to end here but i just took my ADHD meds and i need you all to know that i live in a city where we have a yearly event to celebrate old cars that actually looked really good and everyone in this city fucking LOVES cool old cars and every now and again you can just see someone driving around the beachside roads on a vehicle straight out of a Guardians of the Galaxy flashback. cars used to look GOOD. this isn't a generational style thing, look at these.

even if this kind of car isn't your style i get that, but you can surely see that there is at least a vision here, there was a passion in the people who made them back then, cars weren't just churned out willy nilly to make the line go up.

well okay yeah they definitely were but there was still some art there. now i need to ask you. look at modern cars for a second and just let the mundane-ness of it all sit in for a while

ohhhh yeah can you feel it? have you soaked it in yet? all of those sanded down soulless smooth edges? all of those monocolor coats of paint? the fact that the only thing you can really tell is substantially different is the kind of wheel each car has if even that?

now i need to ask you, in 80 years do you think there are going to be any events to commemorate these kinds of cars? do you think anyone is going to take time out of their retirement to appreciate these wonders of modern technology enough to create a whole ass city-wide convention to show appreciation for any component of these cars except maybe some of the internal mechanics and engines???

now admittedly selection bias is a thing here, its not like these cars being celebrated in my city are the average car, those are Woodies, which are a very specific artistic style of car. so maybe we need to look at the average car from back then. lets see, the Woody style was started around the 30s, so what does the average car look like around the 30s?

well a quick little research says that the biggest automotive manufacturer around then was General Motors (or at least a very big one), and a quick little Wikipedia stroll shows their platforms from back then. Behold! i show you cars from back when people cared about design!

Oldsmobile Series 60

1930 GM Marquette

1940 Pontiac 'Deluxe' 6

I know that last one says Deluxe, but keep in mind that beauty only went for ~17k in 2023 dollars! So much cheaper than the Ford F-150! And you get more seats too! Sure the paint is probably leaded and so is the gas and so are the lights and so is the steering wheel probably and to be honest I wouldn't be surprised if somehow the rubber was too, but god dammit it just looks good doesn't it? Don't they all? 2 of these 3 random samples I just learned about still have the monocolor stuff that I was complaining about but don't they just look better? It's not like this is a lost art, we can still build this today if we wanted, we could just put the modern engines and batteries and non-lead metals in it! That's what the people who drive restored versions of these cars do! Imagine how much easier it would be if you just built them that way and didn't need to take all of the lead and old broken down engines out in the first place!

"Ohhhhh but the aerodynamics!! What about the aerodynamics!! Modern cars are so much faster now because of their ugly shapes!!"

yeah dumbass and that's why you keep mulching kids whenever you tap the accelerator. my city has plenty of people who drive modern cars, you all could do with a lower speed capacity. it would be good for you in the same way that confiscating an addict's tobacco would be good for them. fucking chill.

besides if you're really worried about speed trust me, modern engines are wonders of science and engineering, i promise you that cars can still go zoom if we made the aerodynamics slightly worse in order to make them look better because the magic piston box that you pretend to know how it works while being carried by your 4-wheel drive will cover the cost. trust me.

"But cars in general are bad! We should be getting rid of all of them! Even cool looking cars can mulch kids too!"

yeah yeah sure, still ban them from city centers and stuff. i just got back from a 2 week long trip around all the best parts of europe and also paris so i agree with you there, but as much as it would warm my autistic heart we realistically cant have trains to take us everywhere and the genie is already out of the bottle. besides i dont care what you think cars are just cool. i can turn a wheel and push on a pedal with my foot and make a 2 ton hunk of steel and gadgets move at a speed to carry force surpassing that of a bullet, and if i turn really fast i can make tire doodles on public infrastructure to keep the rent low. plus road trips with friends are fun. look all im saying is that cars definitely aren't going anywhere, so we could at least have them look cool while they're here. to be honest i definitely agree that we should be phasing out cars as much as we can for long distance travel (TRAIN SWEEP WOOOOO CHOO CHOO) and everything but come on dude i dont want to look at my ugly ass streets and see them swarming with ugly ass cars. i want pretty ass cars. please? pretty please? my birthday is coming up soon wont you do it for me?

"Lower aerodynamics means that the fuel economy will be worse! People will need to use more fuel for the same distances! That's bad for my wallet and also the environment!"

putting aside the fact that aerodynamics really only become a major factor when you are going really really fast like on the freeway--a place where ideally you would rarely ever need to go on in favor of public transport taking you everywhere you'd want to go to at a price cheaper than your gas in the first place, i want to ask you something a little emotional here:

do you think that you would be better off if you saved maybe 1 or 2 dollars every trip to the gas station, or if when you were stuck driving all those long drives you were in a car that you could actually smile when thinking about, that you could watch other people look over and see children excitedly getting their parent's attention to show off the cool car driving past them, that you could have a car that looks good enough to actually wow people when you pull in for your 9-5 that is a 2 hour drive away from you for some reason, that after a long shift and a long drive you could come home, get out of your car, and have the first thing you see when you close the door be something that actually looks pretty instead of the same personalityless blob that everyone else drives? look, i get it, maybe your finances are super unstable and every penny counts, maybe this specific example isn't for you, but im willing to bet that once you get to a better off position you'd be pretty fine with the idea of sacrificing a few bucks for a whole load of warm and fuzzy feelings of pride and satisfaction. i sure as hell would. why the hell do we do this whole capitalism thing in the first place if we can't spend the money eventually to feel nice??

oh yeah also for the environment bit most of the impact against the environment isn't cars at all, it's energy production and other stuff, also most cars are switching to environmentally friendly alternatives now anyway sorryyyyyyyyy

look all i want is for when my time comes to get mulched against a bumper like nearly 1.2 thousand american children each year i dont want it to look like the edmunds.com best rated cars by price section

oh, yeah, also, if you willingly take off the sound muffler from your car or motorcycle your car should be confiscated by the government and you should be put in the jail for disturbing the peace. not because you did anything wrong, but purely for your own protection because i prefer small government solutions and neither me personally nor my local community do not have the infrastructure to solve the problems that you create in a way that would be favorable to you.

[running-tweezers]

~ Pictures Of You - Part 6 ~

A look back at Zephyr’s night in the club. And what happened with Mercutio.

Rated M

Words

CW: Manipulation, Alcohol, Sexual Assault

~ June 3, 1989 ~

“Look Zeph, I know you think this is important or whatever,” Vanessa whispered, glancing back towards the living room where all the family was gathered. “But I think you’re making a mistake.”

“I’m sorry, I just… I have to go.” Zephyr pressed their back against the wood paneled wall of the hallway, trying to avoid any prying eyes. “Besides, you owe me.”

“Owe you for what?”

“You remember that waitress from TGI Friday’s? Or the girl who worked at the pretzel place in the mall? Or maybe that fling you had that summer when you worked at the pool, I did a lot of the heavy lifting there…”

“Son of a bitch...” She hissed the words through her teeth. They knew they’d won. They’d backed up their cousin’s cover stories for years. It was about time she repaid the favor.

“So?” Zephyr stood their ground crossing their arms over their chest.

“Fine. Yes. I’ll cover for you. But I still think you’re making a mistake. You promised her you’d be here.”

“I was here! I showed up! Besides, she doesn’t really care that much about this Americanized birthday stuff anyway. The aunties just wanted an excuse to get together. Plus it’s not like I don’t see her every day.”

Vanessa rolled her eyes. “You know what I mean.”

“Listen, if I don’t get out of here soon I’m gonna be late, and he’s gonna get pissed off. I still need to get back home and get dressed. Can we argue about my stupid mistakes another time?”

“So you agree, this is a stupid mistake?”

They didn’t answer. They couldn’t. Instead they turned to make their way towards the back door with a quiet huff.

“Just do it.”

————————————

Zephyr glanced at the time before ducking out of the cab and taking off towards the club. Almost there. Just have to walk a few city blocks. Or maybe run at this point.

God, they hoped he wasn’t mad.

The weather was not helping things. The clouds had been threatening rain all day, leaving the night air hot and sticky with humidity. They kept their face down staring at their feet, and pushed through, even as they felt their makeup sweating off. It didn’t look great to begin with tonight. They had to do it as quickly as possible, since Vanessa threw off their whole carefully thought out timetable by trying to lecture them. Like she was any better. Hopefully she was following through with the lie they’d agreed on.

“Oh did you not see him leave? Jamie went back home, he’s not feeling good, some kind of stomach bug. He said he didn’t want to give it to anyone here.”

Maybe not the strongest cover story, but it would do in a pinch. The family would all be at his auntie’s place far into the night. They could go to the club, stay long enough for Mercutio to be satisfied, then be in bed before their grandma got back. It would work. It had to work.

They cut the line and made their way inside, trading the muggy night for a smoke filled room. Their shirt clung to their skin in all the wrong ways. Teased up hair fell limp. Makeup melted down their face. They looked awful. Thank god it was so dark inside. They would rather die than let Mercutio see them all plain and boring and ugly.

“Zephyr!” Mercutio left his seat as soon as he saw them, gliding across the space between to close the gap. “I knew you’d show up.”

“Yeah, of course,” Zephyr answered with a weak smile. “I told you I would.”

“It’s late.” He leaned in closer to be heard above the noise of the club. “I was starting to worry you’d abandoned me after all.”

“I know, I’m sorry.” Apologies were starting to feel like the default response to him most of the time. “I had to find a way out of my family thing.”

“Well. I’m glad to see you’re a man who keeps his promises.”

‘You promised her you’d be here.’

Vanessa’s words crept into their mind, twisting their stomach into a knot of guilt. Right alongside it was the lingering twinge of discomfort they felt when he referred to them as a ‘man’. They could’ve sworn they told him they didn't like that.

They shrugged it off. He must have forgotten.

“You seem tense, darling.” Mercutio’s hand snaked across their back to their shoulder as he led them across the floor to the bar. The casual contact made their heart race. This close they could smell the heady scent of his cologne, mingled with the clove hanging from his lips. “Band’s going on in about 10 minutes. How about we get you loosened up, huh?” Mercutio snapped his fingers to get the bartender’s attention. “Hey! Can I get a Midori sour over here for Zephyr?”

“Oh, no you don’t have t—“

“Don’t worry about it,” Mercutio interrupted, not even looking at them. “It’s on me.”

“I know, but still, I don’t—“

He turned his head back towards them. His casual tone and suave grin couldn’t cover the daggers in his eyes and the tightening grip on their shoulder. “I insist.”

His words sent ice through their veins. His offer seemed a lot less friendly, and a lot more demanding.

A small, “ok, sure,” was all they managed to choke out.

In a matter of moments, the glass was all but shoved into their hand.

“There you go,” Mercutio smiled down at them, smug as ever. “Relax, love. Have a drink.” He took a drag of his cigarette and exhaled slowly, smoke clouding around the two of them. “It’s gonna be a good night.”

——————————

Zephyr gulped down the last of the syrupy sweet green concoction in their hand. How many was that now? 5? 6? They weren’t sure. They abandoned the glass on the nearest surface and steadied themself against it.

The familiar scent of cologne and smoke caught their attention. They melted into arms circling their waist from behind.

“You doing alright, Zephyr?” Mercutio’s silky voice murmured in their ear.

The giggle escaped them before they could even register it. “Mm-hm,” they hummed out the answer, leaning their head back against his chest. It felt so nice. Warm. Grounding. Their eyes slipped closed. Mercutio’s laugh snapped them back open.

“I told you,” he spoke softly, nuzzling into their neck. “They pour them stronger back here.”

Back here. In the VIP room. They were in the VIP room. For very important people. For Mercutio and the band and the others he deemed special enough to join him. And they were one of those people. They were chosen. They were special.

“The band’s heading out,” he said. “You want one more before the bar shuts down?”

They felt their head nod.

His lips brushed the shell of their ear. “Good boy.”

As soon as there was another full glass in their hand, they immediately started downing it without a second thought. The burn from the vodka was gone. It was just sweet and tart and went down smooth. As smooth as Mercutio’s hand running down to their lower back as he led them back to the couches lining the corner of the room. They were empty now. The band left.

Zephyr took a second to scan the dim, smoky room. Everyone was gone. Except for them and Mercutio. The only two left. Their vision blurred the more they looked around, like the whole world was on a half second delay. They reached out to Mercutio to regain their bearings.

“I got you, baby.” He took their hands and led them down onto the couch with him. Not the couch. His lap. They were in his lap, straddling his thighs. He plucked the empty glass from their hand and placed it on the table in front of them. His warm grip circled their waist as he leaned forward. He was so so close.

“I thought they’d never leave.” Mercutio rolled his eyes. “I’ve been waiting all night for some time alone with you, Zephyr.”

They giggled again. It sounded so good when he said their name.

“You’re having a good time, yeah?” He swept back a tendril of hair that had fallen into their face. “You certainly look like you are.”

“Yeah ‘m havin’ a good time.” Talking took a lot of concentration. But they had to, they still had things to discuss. “The band… they gave me a tape—“ They clumsily reached around to feel that it was still there in their back pocket. “‘M gonna play it on the show… When you come on.”

“Oh right. You wanted me on your show.”

“Yeah. Th-Thursday night… 1–“

“1 AM, yes I know.” Mercutio finished the sentence for them. “You’ve said it before. You talk about it a lot.”

“Oh…. ‘M sorry.”

“It’s ok, love.” He slid his hands farther down to their hips. “You don’t need to think about boring stuff like that right now.”

“But… we need…”

“Shhhh…” His thumbs rubbed slowly back and forth against the fabric of their shirt as he spoke. It was almost hypnotic. Zephyr felt themself drifting further from the topic at hand with every stroke. “I’ll be there.”

“But… you don’ even know the address ‘n stuff…”

“Don’t you worry about it, we can take care of that later, ok?”

Mercutio’s hands slipped a little farther down, still stroking their hips with that same rhythm. They nodded. What were they even talking about, again?

“Good. We have more fun things to think about right now.”

“Like… like what?”

They felt a low chuckle rumble from his chest.

“You’re a little tease, you know that?” Mercutio purred. “This whole, wide-eyed, innocent, adoration thing you have going on? All shy for me. While looking like you do?” He pulled them closer onto his lap, rolling his hips against them. “It’s irresistible. It’s been so hard to control myself, with all these people around.” His lips brushed their ear again. “Now we can finally have some fun.”

Before they had completely understood what he said, his mouth had overtaken their own. A blur of lips and tongue and hands and skin, and all the sensations that came with them. So much fucking sensation.

Suddenly their back hit the suede underneath them. They were laying down now, with Mercutio looming above. His face was a blur, but they were pretty sure he was smiling. That smug smile. Their brain and body felt entirely disconnected.

“Relax, baby.” His voice sounded so distant.

A sudden glimmer of clarity hit them as they realized what was happening. Their shirt had been sloppily untucked. Their belt undone. Mercutio looked down at them with hungry eyes as he worked on his own.

They didn’t want this. Not like this.

“Wait… wait, s-stop.” The muttered words escaped on their own, without any more thought. “I don’… I don’t…”

Mercutio stopped in his tracks. “You don’t, what?”

“I don’ want this…”

His face twisted into confusion. “What the fuck are you talking about, of course you want this.”

“I don’t…”

“Don’t play coy with me. You’ve wanted this so bad.” He leaned down to press disarming kisses into their neck. “You make it so obvious. You trip all over yourself for me. You follow me around like a lost puppy. Hell, you even abandoned your family to come see me tonight, did you not?”

His words sunk in as he continued unbuttoning his pants. Fuck. Did they want this?

“I wanna give you what you want.” He kept talking, but they could only keep a grasp on every few words. “So just relax, ok love?”

They wanted to be noticed. They wanted his attention. They wanted to be around such a huge personality in the scene. They wanted the opportunities he could give them. They wanted to be special. They wanted him to care about them. To love them.

But not this. This didn’t feel like any of that. This felt… wrong.

“No… I don’ wanna...” They attempted to sit up, only to be quickly guided back down by a stern hand to their chest.

“Yes.” Mercutio insisted. His eyes stared icily down at them. “You do.”

Their head felt foggier and foggier by the moment, but that triggered a rush of primal fear through their nervous system. They pushed him away, scrambling to their feet, still holding onto the arm of the couch.

Mercutio rolled his eyes. “I don’t understand why you’re acting like this, Zephyr. You don’t need to be so dramatic.”

The rest of the room around them faded in and out of focus. They squeezed their eyes shut. “I… I can’t…”

“I let you into my world, I treat you so well, I give you all these opportunities, and this is how you’re gonna act?”

His words barely registered. Their stomach lurched. They had to leave.

Running on pure adrenaline, they pushed through, one foot in front of the other, until they were back in the crowded club. A place that was once so freeing and safe, had turned into somewhere so disorienting and dangerous. They stumbled through the crowd, muttering quiet apologies to everyone they pushed out of their way, drowned out by the music. They just had to find a door. Any door. As long as it got them out.

Their body finally hit one, and they shoved their way out onto the street. Heavy raindrops splashed against them as they attempted to get their bearings. The world around them still seemed to be shifting, rocking like waves on the ocean. Looking down, they realized their shirt was still halfway unbuttoned. They rubbed their eyes with the back of their hand, leaving smudgy black streaks. They must look like a fucking mess.

Their stomach turned again. It was all too much. The rain, their unstable body, how awful they knew they looked.

And Mercutio.

They steadied themself on the brick wall as they shuffled into the alleyway and threw up.

Their back slid down the side of the building until they reached the ground. Everything that happened inside reverberated in their mind, louder and louder until they couldn’t take it anymore.

All they could do was tuck their knees up to their chest and choke out strangled sobs.

They fucked it all up.

Vanessa was right.

( @pinksparkl @phantasmechanical )

[blathairgid]

Blood Origin thoughts. Spoilers ahead.

Honestly, it's shit.

The thing that I hated the most is how it looked. In books we have descriptions how elven cities were beautiful, delicate, breathtaking. Here... I was kinda expecting Deanerys to fly on a dragon there. It's too simple. Too ugly. Too human. And speaking about humans. Here we have elves that act just like humans. Just with different ear shape. In books the elves are different. Here's a part about elves from humans perspective when they first arrived on a continent.

Secon thing is that they're basing whole franchise on polish book by polish author. Use our culture for gods sake! And I'm not talking about races. I really don't care what skin colors they have. But they did the most americanized version of a continent they could. Would it hurt to put a four-head god's statue somewhere? Would it hurt for some of them to wear krajka as a belt? In Poland is a castle called Krzyżtopór. In the times of it's glory the celling of one of the rooms were made of aquarium. With water and fishes. Why couldn't they use is? I mean I know why. Because they would have to actualluy care.

In games, especially Witcher 3 you can see that the world is a fantasy one. But at the same time it looks like what we know. The villages, the forsts - it's so Polish. So familiar. So ours. The Novigrad - they made port looks like one from Gdańsk. And it means so much. For forgein players it's nothing. But for Polish ones it's such a great thing. That we finally have that huge franchise and it's ours.

The creators told that they wanted to create this series because Sapkowski didn't write about the history of Continent. How american of you. But they also fucked up so much because the first witchers were created by human mag Alzur. First he tried on a men. The children. And he succesed on children. Also the elves that lived on the continent knew how to travel between the worlds. They learned it from Unicorns.

And speaking od caracters. Avalac'h WHAT THEY DID TO YOU?! Also Eredin being the first openly gay character in netflix series. Eredin. The leader of a Wild Hunt. The main antagonist of a Witcher 3 game. Great job you guys.

Like honestly the only thing they took from Poland is how much characters are swearing. Exept from the part that eleves were not vulgar.

And about good things - the whole 3 minutes with Joey were good. They should put way more Jaskier there. But Scoia'tel helping him is FUCKING BULLSHIT.

Francesca Mills as Meldof was great.

Sorry for a bit of a chaotic post but I've just watched it and fuck, they butchere the source material so much.

[siremasterlawrence]

The End Of The Heroic Age: Superman’s Rebellion

It has been like whirlwind adventure for me in the take down of Superman the flying man of fools, I enter one portal and exit another one leading to his own downfall how wonderful.

Poor Clark he has no idea that in a varied world were countless men with the same name but very different out looks carry his mantle a multiverse of insanity ensure each one has bowed at my feet.

Unfortunately, my body comes curling down like a meteor in a hot fiery bath of hot blue flame across my the sky going into this new world Clark Kent’s attention rather quickly as he sits with Lois at a dinner.

I have no idea why I went back in time upon my landing but it is 1970 something I can tell by the clothing design and the ugly building structures and the faint vocal coos of the carpenters blowing in the wind.

I shatter through some portal creating many shards of invisible glass breaking without a single cut. I buckle my feet in pulling them to my torso and flip till I somersault landing with gymnastic level of perfection.

Clark is in the midst of revealing his identity to his girlfriend and co-worker worldwide renown Pulitzer Prize winning reporter for our very own Metropolis The Daily Planet home of Perry White.

A loud boom hits the ground shaking the city to its core hitting Clark’s senses right on contact he turns hus face instantly picking up everything. He stares outward with his x-ray his vision locating the scene his eyes pan the area.

The fume emitting from Lois ears at the words of what Clark was about to utter to excuse himself for the one hundredth and eighth time as he runs off to god knows what he does.

Cinematic beauty unfolds as Clark pays thecheck racing out of the dinner speeding to the otherwide block. He jolts in to the alley way down another block he passes a line of civilians to the phone booth closing it he spins out of his suit in to his costume.

Clark exits the phone booth in a whoosh of wind he floats off the ground breaking every known law of physics he then cracks the time barrier flying over countless cities using his x-Ray visions to find me.

Cool I wait for him to arrive with that air of confidence and that expression of I am the most powerful man. The arrogant good ole American attitude that precludes all men of his type or status if were Superman all day.

We are in the midst of stand off with me in a moment of excitement I have felt the rush of over and over again. He stops standing still his arms cross and he begins to scan the area as if he is on surveillance.

“I sense a disturbance here from hundreds of miles away, I am guessing you are the cause of that. I would advise you to leave but I am pretty sure you won’t take kindly to that.”

“Superman! In all your glory I see not very impressing sorry to say. I can’t help you with that though.”

“I want to end this as quickly as possible give up.”

“Or what Supper Pussy”

“If that is how you want to play it.”

“Oh! I definitely do.”

“You seem way to confident for someone so young. What evil scheme do you deign to try and unleash now?”

“Evil? Hardly! All I want so to have some fun with you just like all the rest.”

“What are you talking about you obsessive psychopath?”

“Be careful Clark! I can be your friend, your enemy or your end. You choose they all did.”

“No! This cannot be possible”

“They all felt the same way fist it could be fun to watch if it was not so pointless. Futile attempts to defeat me always end in the same way. I win.”

The great Superman is left confounded for the first time in his life as the area grows pitch back dark and I fade in to the back he chases after me.

He stops in the middle of nowhere watching the darkness lighten a bit a shooting star can be seen in the sky then like an early stock film camera it rolls on.

Images of every version of Clark Kent’s life I have conquered in his personal life and his

professional life as Clark. The rock landing from his home planet of krypton to show pen childhood.

Exiting the bus in Metropolis for the first time he off loads his stuff in a brand new apartment. Dawning the Superman costume with a whole new person eviscerating all go Clark’s identity.

His life is left in shambles as I return to the fray with one lays ditch effort the air flows under his feet. He propels towards me all ski power in his hand he throws one punch I easily catch.

“Bastard? How did you do this to me I mean to us.”

“Your own ego is your downfall Clark and you can’t even see it.”

“I have no ego, they call me Boy Scout.”

“Your ego is your own power, duality and existence.”

“Being Superman means being strong, being powerful and never needing help.”

“You are a one man band, rarely lose and everyone wants what you have.”

“You are like a great empire eventually they all have of fall. I am merely the one tips you off your shoulder. Feel lucky Clark the other version of you I fought, I manipulated, I broke mentally, but you are suffering the cinder of that. You will never win this game because reality has let you fall prey to me therefore you are what they all led too.”

“Uuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!”

“Go head l! Keep fighting it as it erases all of your will free will.”

“Keep challenging your proper ending.”

“Every punch kick is fighting your own self”

“The walls of self preservation are falling .”

“I am the winner”

“Try as you might”

“You know I am right “

“Nnnnnooooooo!”

“I am sorry Lois”

“Who cares about Lois?”

“Yes Master! Put me to your will”

The end

[beardedmrbean]

Oh sorry I for the back to back

Actually tv was airing reruns of good times once so my mom put it on and I watch a couple of episodes. I mentally went OH NOOOOOOOO halfway through the trailer when realizing what it was sequel about

THERE A FUCKING REASON IM MORE EXCITED ABOUT PLAYING AS YASUKE IN A HISTORICAL FICTION THAT CENTER AROUND A ILLUMINATI WAR AND MOST GODS ARE ACTUALLY MISREMEMBERING OF A HIGHLY ADVANCED CIVILIANIZATION THAT CREATED HUMANITY FOR SLAVE LABOR 75,000 YEARS AGO

Ugh sorry for the detour, but for why Ghettos now means bad neighborhoods. I remember something

So in 7th grade , a daughter of two holocaust survivors told her parents stories. She mentioned that they immigrant to Chicago

So my theory is that when holocaust survivors was telling how they were treated prior to the Final Solution. That people especially black Americans might have started to see parallels to how African Americans were treated in America

Of course not 1:1 but we all know how Jim crows America was

Oh and that pos racist urban planner Robert Moses that lead to the huge race issues of neighborhoods

And the projects, yeah the crime ridden place that was intentionally there to keep my community as animals

Of course not every black person live in it. But there a reason why a lot of black Americans including the lunatic Kanye in his songs, reference Chicago as Chiraq

Oh sorry detour, but remember the OG candyman? I seen people ask why it focus on a white woman…holy fuuuuuuuck

🤔

Could been that a lot of middle classic Americans especially fans of the horror genre wouldn’t know about the terrible situations of the Chicago projects so they made a stand in for the majority white consumers?

Ugh don’t get me started on the remake…where they tackle police brutality… in Chicago… a Democrat and heavily black politicians voted city.

Source: I live in the Chicago area and one it suburbs. I can see the Sears tower (I will call its Willis when I’m dead) in the distance when I use the backroads

Sorry now it remind the issues with the black panther movies. Yeah it was made by race obsessed people but also it was written as a Black ™️ movie

A prime example is Killmonger backstory, yeah it was wrong for the wakandans to abandoned to the streets of Oakland….

But the problem is the vast majority of MCU consumers were white middle class people and even I had to explain some shit to a Indian mutual

Coogler forgot that media intentionally turns a blind eye to black on black crime now and how horrific black inner cities still are. So most people wouldn’t know how crime ridden Oakland was. Okay okay they would, but a lot of the intentionally markers wouldn’t

But they sure as hell remember how evil the cia iiiiis!

Tangent, but why are black creators acting like the shitty made, poorly run projects integral to our communities?

They forced upon to use when we had very limited access to jobs and such. The whole guns, crack, and welfare system was created by racist politicians to ensure we ran back to arms for votes.

Shiiit, now I’m think about, the projects should been seen as modern plantations. Made to keep us away from the others. And so many black kids who could have been doctors, lawyers, and more. All gun down in crossfires or force to join gangs in order to survive….

Oh sorry I for the back to back Actually tv was airing reruns of good times once so my mom put it on and I watch a couple of episodes. I mentally went OH NOOOOOOOO halfway through the trailer when realizing what it was sequel about

Ya, Jeffersons, Good Times, and 227 were all great shows that need to be left alone, Sanford and Son too, they're trading on the name without actually honoring the place it came from, it's a shame.

You're sort of right on Ghetto

How America's Ugly History of Segregation Changed the Meaning of the Word 'Ghetto'

Short short version is the black community adopted the term since it matched up well enough to their circumstances with forced segregation looks like as early as 1910

Oh sorry detour, but remember the OG candyman? I seen people ask why it focus on a white woman…holy fuuuuuuuck

Never saw it, but I will take your word for it on all that stuff

Sorry now it remind the issues with the black panther movies. Yeah it was made by race obsessed people but also it was written as a Black ™️ movie A prime example is Killmonger backstory, yeah it was wrong for the wakandans to abandoned to the streets of Oakland…. But the problem is the vast majority of MCU consumers were white middle class people and even I had to explain some shit to a Indian mutual

Didn't see that one either, but I did gather that it was not quite what it should have been, unfortunately there is only so much time in a movie so gotta leave it up to the viewers in places I guess, also I imagine there were plenty of people that didn't care anyhow they just wanted to see the people fighting and all the cool gadgets and such.

Coogler forgot that media intentionally turns a blind eye to black on black crime now and how horrific black inner cities still are. So most people wouldn’t know how crime ridden Oakland was. Okay okay they would, but a lot of the intentionally markers wouldn’t

You should look up the angry reviews about that one episode of Family Guy, lot of people upset at the 'family guy 'nobody cares about black on black crime' line at the end.

Tangent, but why are black creators acting like the shitty made, poorly run projects integral to our communities? They forced upon to use when we had very limited access to jobs and such. The whole guns, crack, and welfare system was created by racist politicians to ensure we ran back to arms for votes.

because people continue to consume it so there's not much motivation to change the formula, need to bring back George and Weezie, Jefferson's was a good show, Sinbad was a good show, hell even Martin wasn't half bad.

They'd hate The Jefferson's now because meritocracy is bad somehow, but how else are you supposed to move on up to the east side, to a deluxe apartment in the sky, at least most people have to work for it, especially if they started at the bottom.

Can't tell people that they have some responsibility for where they land in life now it would seem.

Shiiit, now I’m think about, the projects should been seen as modern plantations. Made to keep us away from the others. And so many black kids who could have been doctors, lawyers, and more. All gun down in crossfires or force to join gangs in order to survive….

See above about The Jefferson's and previous comments about 'crab in a bucket/work 3 times as hard'

You want a media conspiracy there you go.

[seedling-lotus]

okay, I saw map things and it reminded me of my own mapping project that i've poured waaaaaay too much time into so now you get to see me rant about it...

or not because imma hide it under a read more... But i'm still gonna tag it!

Anyway, so!

because the fic I was reading for a completely different fandom just wasn't providing the dopamine, my lovely brain decided that I needed to go find all of the locations for everything in DGM, or as closely as I possibly could, because Hoshino-sensei exists to drive me insane... And so does the fandom wiki...

So yeah. So trying to locate things. Some places were easier than others. Some places I still have to add. 😭

New Order HQ? Took me a while, but I fuckin' found it... Or, well, found an island that looks like it could match.

of course, the Wiki says both that it's in "Southern Europe" and also somewhere mentions that it's in Britain, which is just... Nope, that island in particular is part of France. Close though. Of course, I don't have access to the source material that the wiki seems to be referencing, so what do I know...

The wiki also says that old HQ is in generic "Northern Europe" and also "Unknown location in Scandinavia" which, again, the source appears to be the fanbook that I do not have and cannot reference for myself. Not going to lie, old HQ is virtually impossible to place. There is not a single place on this planet that I could find within Northern Europe or more specifically Scandinavia that would be a good geographic fit. I mean, I know there are rock formations sort of similar, but nothing or that size. I gave up finding a perfect match after two days of beating my head against it and just went for somewhere most likely to have that kind of geographic feature. After my few successes with finding "exact" locations for some of the places in DGM, it really really bothers me that I can't place that one definitively.

and then there's freaking Barcelona. Barcelona bothers me. It bothers me a lot. I cannot find anywhere in the Manga that actually mentions what city they were in at the time. But I remember that it was Barcelona. (Was it in the anime??? I cannot remember) The problem with Barcelona being... the map doesn't match... We've got at least one clear overhead shot of the city in the manga, and it doesn't really look like Barcelona. It does, however, look a lot like Prague. (and the fact that I knew that off the top of my head before confirming it makes me question my life choices more than a little.)

So this is from Chapter 43.

(I am weeping, I had so much typed and I just accidentally "undo"ed it and now I can't get it back... gods damn it)

ANYWAYS

So what I had said was that we can see that the image of Barcelona is a lot more gridlike of a city structure and more organized and yes I acknowledge that DGM is a "Fictional end to the 19th century" and city structure can change over time, It usually doesn't change that much. Below is a screenshot of the map of Prague from Google maps for comparison.

My second point of evidence is this Cathedral-like structure from the page prior:

The only cathedral I can find in Barcelona has 4 spires where the drawing only has 2. "But simplifying for ease of drawing" Yeah, no, I get that, but look at them and tell me that the cathedral in Prague doesn't look more like the drawing?

But my biggest issue with Barcelona? The river. Yes, there's a river in Barcelona. It's tiny though, and none of the bridges spanning it are more than two spans across.

and here's Barcelona's river vs Prague's river:

Barcelona:

(also, if Barcelona ever had pretty old bridges like the one drawn, they all appear to have been replaced by ugly modern ones)

And here's Prague:

(and yes, I know, the Prague bridge doesn't match either, but it matches better)

So yeah, Barcelona bothers me. It's not impossible that it's Barcelona, but it bothers me.

The American Branch though? That one I'm proud of.

So, again, it's not 100% perfectly correct, but I think that the American branch might be one of the closest to a spot on location that I actually managed. (The literal only way I could get a more accurate location would be to actually drive my ass to Arizona, and that's just not in the cards.)

Also, may I just say that this particular line, which I have confirmed is the way this place is described in the Manga... This exists to infuriate the British and the Scottish...

That was pulled from the wiki. THIS is pulled from chapter 230 of the manga:

Now I know someone in the fandom and on tumblr has already pointed this one out, but

Edinstown does not exist. In England or otherwise.

THIS particular landmark is in Scotland. EdinBURG Scotland.

And before someone yells at me, Eddingston isn't right either. Eddington (without the S) is a place in England, but it does not have that landmark.

The landmark in question being the Dugald Stewart Monmuent on Calton Hill in Edinburg, Scotland.

So that one caused a dew LOLs once I went back and found the post I reblogged with that information. source

Oh! so yeah, so Guangzhou... Guangzhou also bothers me a smidge...

So according to the Wiki (which seems to get most of it's info from the Fanbook that I don't have)... You know what, I might have it, but it's in Japanese, and I can only speak and read English so really, that's on me... Anyway...

So Guangzhou. China. The port city that theoretically is where they set sail from. And is also where Anita's brothel is.

And once again acknowledging that landscapes have been changed over time by humans. I get that. HOWEVER.

So Timcampy gives us a lovely view of the city and the harbor in question.

And 1 chapter later we get this view of them leaving:

Now I know, I KNOW, this is set in, at the very latest, 1899. I know that the harbor will have changed since then and Google maps is only going to show me the most modern version.

However...

This is Modern Guangzhou:

Note how it's set a little more inland? How they'd be able to see land across the harbor? and it's more in a river delta, flatter.

However, there is a port city relatively close to Guangzhou that does look a lot more like the port drawn in the manga:

And yes, yes, I know "but there's no land masses in the Manga and that's why you said Guangzhou was out." True, but most of these landmasses are over 3 miles away, and the horizon is only 3 miles away due to the curvature of the earth, so it does make a little more sense.

Now I know that the Manga doesn't show an Island and yeah, it's not exactly the same, but it's definitely way closer visually. (Also, Hoshino-sensei, I love you dearly, but please... Guangzhou is not the largest/main port city in China....)

Am I doing everything Wildly out of order? Absolutely. I'd say sue me but please don't. I am so broke.

Next up! The Izu Peninsula! (and another iteration of Hoshino-sensei making me want to cry... For map making purposes. Plot related purposes don't count. That's her job)

So in chapter 76, Chomesuke says this:

And then, in Chapter 77 we see this:

And ignoring all plot related crying from this point of the story, the Izu Peninsula was a difficult one to place. Not finding it on the map, but finding torii gates that are set up like this...

And you may be going "But it's Japan, how hard can it be to find torii gates set up like that?"

HARD

Gods damn it all. You wanna know why? because the fuckload of torii gates going straight up a damn mountain is something that exists. Famous enough that even I know what it looks like and I'm a stupid little white girl from America who has never left the western hemisphere. The problem with that particular set of torii gates that this panel and all related panels are based off of? yeah, that particular land mark is in the middle of Tokyo and nowhere near water...

And they are definitely still in the boat and still in water here...

here's my evidence for the Torii gates in Tokyo:

yes I am going to make you go google that yourselves if you really want to fact check me because this post is already a monster and I am too lazy to put in a hyperlink.

Anyways

So the only even remotely similar feature on the Izu peninsula that I could find is on an even smaller peninsula

1

and they look a little more like this in real life:

2

But hey, creative license and all that jazz. And while the Izu peninsula is close to Tokyo (which would have been called Edo back in the time period of canon), it's not that close, so it's probably a good day's walk if not longer for them to get there... which i think we may have skipped due to the magic of "anime physics" but you know what, fuck it. at this point I've stopped asking questions

(this is absolutely a lie, but shhhhhh)

And I have gone over my picture limit so I'll include the pictures on a reblog (if it lets me... I think it will... I'll get back to you on that... ish, maybe)

[guiltyblogging]

Character Creation - [Currently Untitled Project]

I am creating a family for a tv series pilot I need to come up with for a University Project.

The children we focus on are Felix 15 about to turn 16, Callum 12 and Zena 10. This is set in an a post apocalyptic society (aka dodgy as fuck high walled city segregated in two). They end up going on an adventure to find out what's going on and find out where their mum and their friends have vanished to.

The father Ryan is a COO (Chief Operations Officer) and senior Doctor in a hospital where the Hospital's Director took over his father's position and sent him off to a safe place in his old age (a madhouse where they experiment on the patients), Ryan is wilfully ignorant and over the series we see him grow as a person and get caught in the dilemma of the fact that he is facilitating the bad things but he doesn't want to disrupt his life to stop them (he is not a good man) but he does want to see his kids again etc (bad man, okay father)

The Mother Clarissa is chronically ill, and in her neighbourhood she acts as an advocate and tries to help people remain in their homes, access treatments they need, get food etc. That is until on one of the children exchanges she doesn't turn up, Ryan still needs to work so walks the kids down to her in the slums and finds her gone, her house being professionally emptied and cleaned, the neighbours home is spotless with nobody living there. This is what leads to the children splitting off from their father and going on the adventure. This is where we gather most of the clues to what the fuck is going on within the city walls.

Thank you for your help.

Oh the premise started from how we seem to have brushed covid away as "just another flu" (its a zombie fic), classism and Ablism <- mainly that those who aren't fit, healthy and productive are defective, lazy and other. The British disabled colonies and the American's Ugly Laws.

If you'd like to hear more or would like to suggest other characters we may meet along the way so I can flesh this out a bit more for class.

If you'd like to know more about the other characters I have penned out so far let me know.

Series name ideas would be handy

Or you could even create a fantasy cast of actors and production crew , god, a fantasy cast suggestion would be wonderful.

The target age aim is closer to Zombies (Disney) [8+] and Warm Bodies [pg13] than The Walking Dead (multi media medley) and Ana and the Apocalypse [15+]. Serious topics with levity more of a Malcolm in the Middle, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Sabrina the Teenage Witch and Modern Family [all 13+] where it catches both younger and older audiences.

[crystalsandbubbletea]

My trauma (Technically a vent post)

CW: Death threats, suicide mention, possible sexism, stalking, war, Islamophobia, racism, body shaming, kidnapping threat, Christianity, swearing, ableism, death

Never thought I would be making a post about my trauma yet here we are. I decided that I would divide this into parts.

My bully

I would say that it started around kindergarten, but according to my mom that doesn't count because I apparently lied about being bullied when I knew that I was being bullied, yet she didn't believe me because that bully was nice to her, so that meant he was an angel.

Instead, I'll just say it started around second grade.

In second grade, there was this new kid who moved, he wasn't in my class but we had a lunch and a recess together. I don't know why, but he decided to pick on me, he would constantly call me names. I dismissed it and thought that it wouldn't get worse.

I was wrong.

In third grade, he called me "Stupid and ugly" and even said that he bet I wasn't even related to my parents and that they only adopted me out of pity, and even said that he couldn't believe God allowed someone as ugly as me to live. I ended up crying to my parents about it and that's when they knew that this wasn't a normal case of bullying.

I should also mention that he would frequently stalk me at recess, and I would have to spend the entire recess hiding from him. I did have those few fortunate moments where he didn't seem to find me so I was able to enjoy my recess.

Things got even worse in fifth grade. He threatened to kidnap me, tie me up, throw me in the back of a car, then drive the both of us off a cliff.

I'm just glad he never knew about Enaya, I just know that he would have been terrible to her as well. Or maybe he did know about Enaya and I didn't know.

At some point he ended up going after another one of my friends and said "If you don't go on a date with me, I'll call the police!" And my friend responded with "They'll just arrest you, you creep."

Yeah, she didn't take shit from anyone, and I kinda wish that I could have been like her.

At some point, I was at a museum with my parents and siblings, and this museum had a planetarium, and I was hyped about it

Except guess who was there?

That goddamn blonde bastard, my bully.

He was being creepy to me the entire show, and I started crying at some point. I think at some point one of my siblings snapped at him and told him to leave me alone and that he just had a sad life, he just laughed in response and insulted them.

After the show ended, I told my parents that I didn't want to stay, and they understood, so we, along with my siblings, went home.

Note: Bully's parents saw what he was doing and enabled it, they said "Oh he just had ADHD" and "He just likes you! Just love him back!"

My parents and my fifth grade teacher (Note: This isn't very important but my mom and fifth grade teacher went to the same highschool together and had the same graduating class together, they were also good friends) did everything they could to make sure that I wouldn't get any middle school classes with him, except that backfired.

It wasn't just one class, nope, it was all of my classes. The principal knew how bad he was to me, and still decided that he would have the same classes I have.

My parents and fifth grade teacher bombarded the principal with a shit ton of emails, until the principal finally decided I would be the one getting a schedule change.

The reason? "[They] have ADHD and Autism, [they] would be too much for those teachers anyways."

Fortunately my sixth grade year wouldn't be as bad as elementary school, as the bully would move to another city. He was a different school system's problem now, so I ended up thinking that my middle school year would be great.

How wrong was I.

Enaya

I made a few posts about Enaya, even made a eulogy post once.

Anyways, Enaya was a very good friend of mine, she was Palestinian-American and the first Muslim friend I had. I remember seeing her around school and wanting to talk to her but really didn't until around either fourth or fifth grade during one of those fortunate recesses where my bully didn't stalk me.

It was that conversation between us that our friendship started.

She would tell me about Palestine, and Palestinians culture, and it interested me, but it also exposed me to how shitty the world was to Palestinians and Muslims.

I'm ashamed to admit it took me until sixth grade to realize that she was being bullied for being Muslim and Palestinian.

People called her a "Terrorist" and accused her of plotting another 9/11, they would even try to pull off her hijab.

Oh, and how could I forget? Those dumb fuckin' white girls who acted like they were feminists.

They said that she didn't have to wear her hijab at school, after all her father couldn't harass her for it, so she should just take it off. To say it made her uncomfortable would be an understatement.

I remember refusing to just watch those people harass her for her ethnicity and religion, and how I was told to "Piss off!" because it wasn't any of my business.

Fuck those guys, that was my friend, a friend that I now know that I loved as a sister, that they were harassing.

I remember her telling me that she had dreams of a free Palestine, and even said that maybe one day we could run through the cities of Palestine, or maybe even have Jaffa oranges.

To say I wanted that would be another understatement, I loved that dream, and needed it to become a reality.

I also remember that Enaya constantly talked about wanting to help people when she got older, and I told her that she would, and that I would also always be there to support her and that we would always be together forever.

I was wrong. Nothing lasts forever.

I was twelve, and it was after summer and the first day of school. I remember eagerly looking around for Enaya, as I wanted to know if we had classes together.

Instead her brother Soroush approached me.

That's when I found out that Enaya had killed herself.

He told me that there was a note left for me in her suicide note, and she had written "[Rian], I want you to know that there wasn't anything you could have done, and that I was very happy to know you, you were a great friend and I'm glad that you decided to talk to me that day. Please don't blame yourself, please continue to live and be happy not just for me, but for yourself as well."

How could I have not blamed myself? I felt, and still feel like, that if I had just been there more for her, if I had just fought harder for her, then maybe, just maybe, she would still be here.

I also felt bad for her family, her parents and brother were angels, and I can't imagine the hurt and pain they were going through because of Enaya's suicide.

I ended up trying to suppress her memory, acted like she didn't exist.

Until last year around November. That's when I realized that I hadn't forgotten her, after all, who did I base (one of) Alex's sister(s) off of? And who did I name that sister after? And what about her personality? And why did I ask her family if they would be fine with me basing a character off of Enaya?

And how else did I get my Prolonged Grief Condition and PTSD from? After all I was twelve.

Or maybe she was half of the reason, and the other half was my girlfriend.

Alina

I only recently talked about her, I didn't mention her name.

Alina was my girlfriend all the way in Ukraine. Her and I met on TikTok when we were both fourteen. We at first talked over DM's before deciding to give each other our Discords. And soon we were talking way more, even calling each other sometimes.

One day though, one of us confessed. I don't remember if it was her who confessed or if it was me. But I do remember that we were both very happy.

I remember that I would tell her about Ponca culture, and that she would tell me about Ukrainian culture, we even taught each other some words.

I also remember at some point we swore we would meet up when we were both eighteen in Seattle. I don't know why we picked Seattle, was it because we thought it would be romantic to run through the streets? Who knows..

Happiness doesn't last forever though.

February 24, 2022. I wake up in the middle of the night due to my phone buzzing from messages, and I saw that Alina wanted to talk to me. Not wanting to wake up my brother, I took my phone and walked into my bathroom. I asked Alina what was up, and she asked if she could call me. I said yes even though I was tired and had school in the morning.

That's when Alina told me that Russia had invaded.

I remember constantly praying to my gods and goddesses to spare Alina and her family. I was praying to my goddess of fate more though, after all, she had already taken Enaya from me, I didn't want to lose Alina as well.

Cue January 1, 2023, I ended up getting a call from one of our mutual friends, Faddei was his name. Faddei informed me that Alina and her parents were killed.

I don't remember much, but I remember that I was home alone, and that I hung up before dropping my phone and screaming and crying. I didn't tell my parents about what happened.

All those plan, gone...

I still haven't recovered from Alina, my first love..

... I wish I could post more, but I'm crying now..

Dammit, why do I still cry for those who are already dead..

[brothalynchhung]

2023 overview

im such a loyal person man LMAOOO i still specfically come back here to do this lool anyways this year was fucking insane like FUCKING insane and long as hell... grniguehrsi

i think i started the year a lil depressed cuz i was working that fuckass job

lets seee

i think jan 2023 was nothing but me suffering through that fuck ass job, gyming, etc.,

that old apt ahahah i mean tbh it was nice but too big and TOO SECLUDED omg

actually the way i spent a whole year so isolated from society was crazy what the fawk

i dont even think i got much out of it like self improvement wise

maybe japanese? guitar? but that came only at the end

i guess playing ps5... lol -_-

i gained so much weight cuz of depression and that stressful ass job

the way i think majority of that weight was just the AMOUNT OF CORTISOL BUILD UP I HAD

anyways jan was whatever

then i went to umrah in feb which was stressful cuz the amount of ppl and the BUGS man god

this whole time i thought my prayers werent answers but they were tbh i had a good year even if there was struggles

i didnt get gl yet but APPARENTLY thats too much to ask for

whatever

then barcelona lMAOOO which was okay!! i think i would have obv enjoyed it more if i wasnt there for work but i mean still it was just another european city

my spanish was ass

i was too paranoid about someone jacking my phone lol

survived tho

ate some GOOD ASS FOOD. omg best food ever

and the sangriaasss omg

it was worth it being the canon event of me getting fired LMAO

hoenstly was a lil ugly ass bitch that co founder was fuck him fr

loser highkey

anywho

so spain barcelona and saudi 2 countries down within the first 3months of the year

tbh basically up until june majority of my year was this stupid ass job travelling here and there complaining about that ugly ass bitch

omg what a shaytan that man was holyshit and not like a powerful shaytan more like a whiny weak insecure life sucking pitiful pathetic piece of shit shaytan the one that lowers the energies of everything around it

pitiful ass human fr im so happy that shit got out of my life

that was the best thing to happen to me this year like not exclusively him but the whole job too LOL

like thanks for the pay and travel finessed the fuck out all tbh BYE

chaper closed thank god

and whats crazy is that the SECOND after that meeting i forgot about it all lMFAOOOO LIKE I WAS READYY

march was cool i finally got to go back to america

actually march lowkey changed my life

texas was so much fun omg i miss america man americans are nice just h8 their govt

sxsw!!! DUDE ive always wanted to go and GOT TO ALL under someone elses coin LMFAOOOOOO

met cool ppl ig, saw cool things, film and tv industry - coool cool cool

and i didnt rlly have to do shit there LMAO

anyways then went to houston where nadas friend HELD IT DOWNNNNN

like finally omg i got to get hiiii FINALLY

RODEO HIGH VEGAN SOUL FOOD HIGH

THE FOOD WAS SO GOOD THE RECORD SHOPPING WAS SEXY

so good

then i came back and i was mad depressed cuz i should be out there working and learning from ppl who like the shit as me not stuck out the middle of FUCK ASS NOWHERE DOING NOTHING

which yeah i think that like lit the fire out of my ass about how much i hated the job and place and cuz ad was like quarantine istg

thennn hmm april..OH YEAH JAPAN

BASICALLY ONCE I GOT BACK IT WAS HELL DEALING WITH THAT FUCK ASS JOB CUZ OF THE STUPID ASS.

i dont even remember waht the bullshit ass term is

uhhh i forget lMAOOO that stupid bullshit where i was PERFORMANCE PLANNN

stupid as fuck what kind of corporate fake working society term is that omfg

AND FOR NOTHING BUT THAT THING IN BARCELONA WHERE I DIDNT GO TO SOME BULLSHIT

i dont care was worth it like fuck yeah bitch!! i really am using yall to fuck around and travel cuz THIS STUPID ASS JOB IS NOT MY FUTURE

and it isint omg its like it never exsited LMFAO

anyways that stressed me out but thank god i had edibles lmao

DUHA HELD IT DOWNN

mmm then i survived to japan

I WENT TO JAPAN THIS YEAR OMFG AFTER YEARS!!! YEARSSSS!!! OF DREAMING ABOUT JAPAN!!! I GOT TO GO

honestly me going to japan was what made this year like this def had to be one of the best years of my life just for that on its own

actually like yeah this def was oddly enough one of the best years of my life?

emotionally hell yes but everything else was good

jsut stupid self-inflicted stress (minus that fuck ass job)

anyways japan was amazing left it wanting to learn the language and AM

i cant wait to go back

and the fact i hit tokyo kyoto and osaka all at once omg amazing

nintendo world 😭 shibuya 😭 just kyoto in general 😭

i bought so much omg

THE FOOD OMG THEIUEHGSEIUH

i had so much good food this year lmao barcelona, japan, texas 🤪

anywhoo after that i basically dont remember much of may like it was just tryna get through the shit and deal with that stupid ass plan and talking to that dumb bitch

which i punked off and he didnt like like fuck u u ugly untalented waste of life ? im not talking nice to u or respecting your bitch ass

and he think getting rid of me was a slap in the face as if that wasnt exactly what i wanted LMFAOOO

3 months leave with pay ??? and i scammed yall w the ticket price?? LOOOOOL oKAYYY THANKS!!!

CHAPTER CLOSED

so basically june they let me gooo true freedom then had the best month of my life in thailand which was FUCKKINGGG MAAZINGGG

omg thailand was so much fun i felt so free

the most free and most happy i ever felt in my life

krabi .. rayleh beach omg the weed and shrooms on the beach 😭

seriously i had no one in my face, no bitches, no work, money, freedom, time, no problems NOTHING

i seriously think those few days in krabi were the happiest moments of my life ever

like pure freedom and security and happiness in ever sense of each word

soooo grateful

and i deserved it after all the stupid ass stress that stupid ass job put me through

and the whole time i was there i was just so grateful i never felt that much gratitude in my life ever

thailand in general was fun omg i bought so much stuff i loved bangkok

i just love travelling man seriously im just built to travel around discover and learn about the world i love connected with the world and exploring and adventuring i hate being stuck in a place

all i ever want to do is travel and live like really LIVE

hate work

anywho right after i came back to my freedom then basically just chilled until i had to go to canada

which was 🙄

listen - ottawa was surprisingly okay actually i enjoyed it, i smoked, i walked around listening to y2k music, stayed at home all cozy, appreciated the nature and the nostalgia lmaoo even chilling w lina and her cousins was fun

but toronto -_- listen im never going to forgive that bitch for throwing me out and those other hoes for not being there for me

shout out to p tho lol

all i wanted to do was leave istg

toronto was a lil boring but i was also just mad cuz all my friends were all

CUT OFFFFF ill never see yall again except maybe nadine and p

for once ottawa was better than toronto

anyways i think im 1000% done w toronto

CHAPTER CLOSED

thank god finally

oh yeah i started a youtube account that im trying to take seriously i guess LOL

i still need to keep going and working on it but its fun

OH YEAH CHICAGOO

LOLLAAPALOOZAAA

yeah thank god that crazy bitch didnt come but omg what a waste of a ticket but anyways her L not mine

just thankful that i had the money for all of this -_- shout out that fuck ass job i guess lmao

part 2... ?

[shop-korea]

CHATEAU - IN - BRITTANY - THAT WAS - ALSO -

INHABITED - BY - 2 GROUPS - OF - ENGLISH 2

DR JERRY SAVELLE - BOOKLET - WORLD -

BESTSELLER - 'IF - SATAN - CAN'T STEAL -

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GOODS' - '2023 - YEAR - OF MAXIMUM -

ALL - LEVELS - ATTAINABLE' - 333 YRS -

SPANISH TERROR - MURDER ROBBERY -

MANY - OF - OUR - OVER - 100 YR OLDS -

IN - PHILIPPINES - STILL - LIVING - AS -

OUR - SURVIVORS - BUT - WHO - WAS -

ALSO - TORTURED - ABUSED HARMED -

OUR - LORD - JESUS - AGE 33 - ISRAEL -

AND - IF - U - BELIEVED - OUR GOD - HIS -

FATHER - RAISED HIM - FR - THE - DEAD -

THEN SALVATION - HEALING - AND - YES -

DELIVERANCE - 2 - THE - UTTERMOST' -

I - WAS - BASICALLY - EXPELLED - FRM -

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8TH - FLOOR - HIGHEST - AND - BEST -

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8 FT - X - 10 FT - WHILE - OTHERS ALL -

EXPOSED - SO - REMOVED - BECAUSE -

THEY - SAID - ME - 'EXTREMELY UGLY -

WEARS - MAKE UP - FAT - VERY - YES -

SHORT - SHORTS' - SHE's - OUT - SO -

SPANISH - THEY - ILLEGALLY - TALK -

2 - EACH - OTHER THEY - BRING WHO -

THEY - ARE SOCIALLY - 2 - BUSINESS -

SPANISH - ARE - NOT GREAT - IN YES -

BUSINESS - BECAUSE - IT's ONLY - XO -

PEOPLE LIKE - HENRY WELLS - WHO -

KNOW - WHAT - BUSINESS - IS - AND -

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NEEDS - OF PEOPLE - ANIMALS -

AS - DEMOCRATIC - RUNNER -

JOHN F KENNEDY - ONLY YES -

POLITICIAN - 2 - SHAKE - HANDS -

OF - VOTERS - ESPECIALLY - THE -

WONDERFUL - HENRY WELLS - THE -

ONLY - AMERICAN - BANKER - WHO -

ACCEPTED - THE - MONEY - OF THE -

POOR BLKS - FOREIGNERS - UNWED -

MOTHERS - CHILDREN - ONLY - ONE -

ALL - THESE - PEOPLE - WERE - NOT -

ALLOWED - BANKS - HENRY WELLS -

ACCEPTED - BECAME - NO 4 - USA -

AND - WORLD - HOW - RARE - WHO -

ALSO - FOUNDED -

WELLS FARGO BANK

(WELLS - FARGO - WAGONS)

(LIKE - UPS)

AMERICAN - EXPRESS

(CREDIT - CARDS)

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DIED - AS - WELL - TODAY - THIS - BANK

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THE - POOR - BLKS - ALSO - RACISTS - 2

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RAPED - 1ST WEEK - OF - HOMELESSNESS

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OR - LITTLE - HAVANA - MIAMI - FL -

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THE - HEAVENS - HE - FELL - ON -

EARTH - AND - OVER - 2/3RDS OF -

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THE - HEAVENS - THEY LANDED -

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HIDING - WITH - OTHER - MALE - YES -

ANGELS - ONLY - MALES - GOD SAID -

'LIGHT - B' - AND - LIGHT - ARRIVED -

LIGHT - GOOD - HE - SEPARATED - YES -

LIGHT - FR - DARKNESS - GENESIS CH 1 -

NIV - NEW - INTERNATIONAL - VERSION -

BRUNETTE - CHARLES MANSEN - WED -

SOUTHERN - CALIFORNIA - IS - DEMON -

POSSESSED - WAS - AGE 25 - SO - JUST -

FINISHED - VIOLENT - ATTACK - FROM -

WHITE - AMERICAN - BRUNETTE - THE -

ANCESTRY - HISPANIC - ARMED MALE -

SECURITY - OWNER - OF - SLAVES AND -

MAIDS - THEY - WENT - ALL - THE - WAY -

WITH - HERS - BLACK - SLAVE OWNERS -

$0.01 - FOR - 1,000 - SLAVES - THEY -

PUT - CHAINS - ON - THEIR - NECKS -

WENT - ALL - THE - WAY - WITH - TO -

PRODUCE - SERVANTS - LIGHTER -

SKINNED - BRICKELL - CITY - CENTRE -

EIGTH - STREET - PUBLIC ANNOUNCE -

PHILIPPINE - DOCTORS AND NURSES -

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THROWING - TRASH - $10 - AN HOUR -

CLEAN - THE - FLOOR - ONLY - THAT -

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WHEN - THEY - TOUCH - YOUR - ASS -

BEND - DOWN - 4 - PENETRATION -

BECAUSE - THAT - IS - WHAT THEY -

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EVEN - WITH - AUTO - WATER - OF -

BRICKELL - THEIR - SECURITY - URINE -

AND - POOP - ON - THE - SEAT OF THE -

RESTROOM - OF - BRICKELL - HAIR -

BELOW WAIST - SAGGING BREASTS -

THEY - WORK - IN - BRICKELL - 2 XO -

MARRY - RICH - THEIR - LAW - IN FL -

ALL - CAN - ONLY - COME - 2 - MALL -

JUST - ONCE - LESS - THAN - 1 HOUR -

OR - ARRESTED - 4 - BODY - LOITERING -

MIAMI - POLICE - THEIR - FRIEND - THE -

RIGHT - OF - ALLIED - SECURITY - 2 KILL -

CHILDREN - NON-SERVICE - ANIMALS -

THEY - SHOOT - HEADS - SEPT & OCT -

B 4 - HALLOWEEN - FRIENDS - OF YES -

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14TH - HEAD - OF - SECURITY - HAS -

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POINTED - AT - BREASTS - AND YES -

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4 - THEY - ALL - SEEKING - 2 - WED -

THE - RICH - ALL - NON-VIRGINS -

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DEPRIVING - OF - LIBERTY - RIGHT 2 -

SIT - DOWN - MURDERING - PREGNANCY -

DEMONIC ALCOHOLIC - NYPHOMANIACS -

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4 - EUROPE - AND - ASIA - WITH - LEGAL -

PROSTITUTION - SO - THEY - CAN - SEE -

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IMMORAL - CHURCH - GOERS - AS TO -

WHY - IN - CHURCH - ANYONE - 2 YES -

MARRY - 4 - PENETRATION - THIGHS -

OPEN - LIKE - DOGS - IN - HEAT 2 XO -

AGE 245 - NATION - OF - IMMORAL -

TYRANTS - OPPRESSORS - MURDERERS -

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OF NATIONS' - LARGE - POPULATIONS 2 -

CHATEAU - OF - BRITTANY

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POVERTY - HATRED - HUNGER - ALWAYS -

FREEZING - NO - MONEY - THIRSTY - TOO -

BRITTANY - 2 - PROVINCIAL - ENGLISH -

ESCAPED - THERE - BIT - OF - HOME UK -

IN - PROVINCIAL - FRANCE - NEAR THE -

WATERS - HOME - OF - PIRATES - AND -

ADVENTURERS - NOT - QUITE - SAFE -

ALSO - THEN - BUT - FLEEING - FROM -

WHOM - THEY - COULDN'T - FEEL THE -

JOY - OF - WORSHIP - OF - THE - ONLY -

TRUE - GOD - 2 - CATHOLICISM - NEW -

RELIGION - 4 - THEM - BUT THE SAME -

GOD - I'M - BUYING - THIS - CHATEAU -

BECAUSE - AS ROYALTY - DESCENDED -

FR - LAST - KING LOUIS - SINCE - THEY -

ONLY - BEHEADED - LOOK - ALIKES - IT -

IS - MY - BIRTH - EYES - BLUE - SAME AS -

VLADIMIR PUTIN - PRES - RUSSIAN FED -

FEDERATION - SAME - AS - 2ND - BORN -

PRINCE - OUR - BLUE EYES - IDENTICAL -

I - CHOOSE - CHATEAU - OF - BRITTANY -

LOVE - THEIR - ARCHITECTURE SIMPLE -

BUT - BEAUTIFUL - STRONG - AND - YES -

STATUESQUE - GODDESS - THIS - HOME -

THIS - EMPTY - SPACE - FILLING - UP - WITH - MOSO -

BAMBOO - 3 OR 4 FLOOR BUNGALOWS - FIREPLACES -

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MAKING - HOME - 7 BEDROOMS - 16 ROOMS - WE'RE -

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OUR - DANCE - FLOOR - PUTTING - ANOTHER - FLOOR -

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EACH - BEDROOM - AND - ROOM - WILL - HAVE NAME -

KING CHARLES - MIGHT - B - VISITING - ALSO

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HE - PASSED - IN - 1272 - 13TH CENTURY

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ALWAYS - IMPORTED - CLOTHES - FROM

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5 BEDROOMS

2 GUEST ROOMS

(KING CHARLES - HIS MAJESTY - MIGHT VISIT)

(UNITED KINGDOM)

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(NO - SPOUSES)

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[vizhen-thoughts]

Thu June 9 2022 3:18pm

i recognize that this is just American entitlement in my subconscious, but i truly believe that people shouldn’t have to pay for the things they can’t live without. all humans can’t live without food, water, and some form of shelter.

i believe we’ve reached a point where established societies have all of those things to some extent. but i also believe that the human existence as a whole was meant to progress. continuously evolving and changing, doing not only better for humans across the globe, but doing better for the planet that provides us with these essentials.

forgive me for my mind and way of thinking are quite abstract and i’m often misunderstood, but i’ll do my best to explain this cohesively.

i think of the planet and human existence as ouroboros—the snake depicted eating its own tail. i view it this way because humans have the incredible ability of sentience, meaning that our brains evolve as we take in new information and that falls in the same category as learning, only it goes much deeper than that.

humans are able to walk on 2 legs with a straight back.

we learned how to make controlled fires to cook our food.

we learned how to make language to communicate our thoughts with words.

we went on to adapting to our environments by forming communities and utilizing shelter, eventually learning how to build our own houses. we learned how to build towns, cities, countries.

we developed cultures—which if you really think about it, the depth of any one culture is crazy, but the way that humans created multiple different cultures?? my god.

we were able to learn about how the body works, and how to cure disease and even do smaller things like alleviating pain or medicinally aiding a fever so you don’t die from it at any age.

right now, we are learning about how our brains work—how we have come to be “humans” as we now know it.

there’s still a lot to learn, but one truth has been rearing its ugly head lately—that is, we cannot go on like this, to say the least.

everything we are doing is not doing anyone any good. we can look at numbers and productivity levels and all that man-made crap. but the fact of the matter is personal satisfaction rates—maybe even overall satisfaction rates—are so low that i dont know a single person who’s happy with their life and genuinely means it.

and of course i do recognize that my perspective is limited to what i’ve seen. maybe there are more ppl satisfied with the true state of the world than the opposite. its just very hard for me to imagine that the majority of 7B humans would be okay with knowing that global warming will claim this Earth if we continue on this path, which will effect all humans—even the rich humans who think they’re untouchable.

nature’s funny like that, and so is karma. you see these are all very real things.

powerful humans do conquer the weak, and to be more specific, it is humans who have been allotted power by their human ancestors.

but nature will always find its balance, and that is a force that no human can stand against.

so, to put it bluntly, how do you feel about knowing that a lot of the things that are the fundamentals of our societies are actually killing us?

through diversifying our minds we can come together in ways never seen before and save our planet while saving ourselves. i think it’s absolutely stupid to insist on fighting when our home is at stake. when the planet’s uninhabitable there won’t be anywhere or anyone left to fight. we’ll all be screwed.

that is the reality of this dilemma we face.

so many factors go into this, major factors like nationalist ideals and diplomacy, and smaller factors down to the individual level of consciousness.

i’m definitely not going to pretend like i know every single thing or have all the answers, but i know for certain where we need to start. we all have a part to play in this, but until we all get on the same page and realize that life can be better, safer, and more gratifying for everyone, we will not get anywhere. in fact we will be the cause of our own destruction. but it doesn’t have to be this way.

we can come together.

“the internet will change the world,” is a quote i heard recently.

the fact is, the internet made us aware of the fact that other humans exist in worlds beyond our own. and that did not have to be a bad thing, but humans often repeat the same mistakes, such as extreme culture shock to the point of extreme rejection. depending on how you’re looking at the situation that could be either a good or a bad thing.

but the fact of the matter is, the internet opened our eyes to the world as a whole. there’s no way that that in itself isn’t a sign telling us to do better as one collective.

i stand firm on my beliefs and my morals—and call it entitlement, narcissism, or whatever you want— but all i wish to do with my life is be apart of the movement that’s gonna take all of humanity to a brighter future.

the future where every human can live in comfort and peace, no matter where their home is, and no matter where they wish their home to be.

the future where traveling is much easier and more efficient and safer for the environment.

the future where we can actually explore our own oceans and learn something abt this planet before we no longer have the opportunity for christ’s sake…

the future i envision is one where anyone can become whoever they want. whether they want to be a marine biologist, a doctor, a chef, or even just an at-home tech support or full-time parent.

everyone, and i do mean everyone, would love the opportunity to be productive in the way that works best for their physical and mental needs.

this future focuses on the individual within a greater society with the common goal of survival & prosperity. we all need it. for ourselves alive today, and for our children who will take our place.

i truly believe that we can change, and i have hope that we wont squander our planet and all the progress we’ve made up to this point.

— VIZHEN

[professional-termite]

brother you went to DETROIT you gotta come down SOUTH if you wanna see cool shit.

also not to go on a massive tangent about local restaurants and how american food is epic or anything but oh my god the food in the south ROCKS them damn yanks cannot COMPARE you need to go to MOM N POP RESTAURANTS IN THE SOUTH not CITY BUFFETS (all american buffets are nasty, trust me on this 💀) we have tons of little restaurants run by so many different people from all over! and most of them are really really good!! like we got greek, egyptian, thai, Classic America (borgor), indian, soul (the GOOD STUFF--cornbread, green beans, all different types o beef and bbq chicken and oooghh its so good), french, chinese, japanese, korean!! and like thats just in my little hometown (to be fair we are like 40% immigrants so probably a little more diverse than some other southern towns sjfjfj)! we even have like the GREATEST CUPCAKES EVER (probably not The Greatest but i think theyre really good)

unfortunately yeah the whole place is ugly and theres a LOT of homeless people in the big cities. and theres homophobes. but our food SLAPS you did NOT get the real american experience, you were ROBBED

I spent the day in America... @professional-termite @hyperfixated-maybe how do you guys live here?

My mom said we were gonna go to a buffet and I expected it to be like the nice local buffet run by an old Chinese lady that I usually go to but instead the food was so gross that I didn't eat anything and nothing was labeled

I also found Eddie Munson at the Detroit Institute of arts

All the street signs are different

I didn't see a single pride flag

The whole vibe was just... Gross?

A lot of homeless people

0/10 do not recommend

[sreegs]

Yesterday I had a conversation with someone who asked “Why don’t they build skyscrapers in the Rocky Mountains? It would be nice to be able to live next to some remote lake in the mountains.” I was immediately reeling from the stupidity of the question, but after I said “because then it wouldn’t be an idyllic mountain lake anymore” I proceeded to explain to this dude that, believe it or not, the cities you live in were once idyllic spots in nature.

Now, we’re American, so Colonialism is a whole other God Damned Thing that would give us good reason not to even be here in the first place. But I pointed out, “You know Manhattan? Seattle? San Francisco? Those were once beautiful seaside spots, sparsely populated. That’s what happens.” He then responded by asking “Why should only a few rich people get to live there?” and I go “Buddy, NO ONE should fucking live there. Idyllic places are revered and respected for a reason.”

I don’t think this guy is unique either. There’s this drive to just drop cheap glass boxes in beautiful places. They seem to believe that cities, existing cities, have just always Been There and have always been planned the way new cities are made these days. They think that if a place in nature is far away, hard to get to, we should just make it easy to live there. I just don’t get it. I can’t understand it.

Do they not understand that cities before the industrial revolution took hundreds or even thousands of years to take shape? That humans were still using (relatively) low-tech building methods that only permitted them to use the space at the mercy of the nature around it? Are they misinformed as to why so many modern cities create pollution and look ugly? Do they think it’s an inherent trait of cities and not the way we disregard the space entirely for the sake of profiting off the land?

Furthermore, how do you not respect the dichotomy of urban space and nature? How do imagine an idyllic mountain lake, and then a skyscraper next to it, and think “oh, this is better!”? How?

There’s obviously much more to discuss here, like the sustainability of an urban space (I’m looking at you, Los Angeles), agriculture, and communities smaller than a “city”, but holy shit. How do you revel in the majesty of the natural landscape and also think “a mall should be here”? Fuck