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halfdeadwallfly · 3 months

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so.. i accidentally touched a trash can which made me feel like my hand was burning so i went to go and wash it and in the process i nicked the faucet with my fingernail and i got like dirt(?) under it. which. terrifying???? anyway i started hyperventilating and my hand started burning again but worse and i was trying to figure out what to do bc i was in the bathroom of all unsafe places to be, so i like ran out to the hallway and my hands are covered in soap and water which feels unsafe enough as is, and everything is just dangerous and i feel like someone's wedged something under my fingernail and tried to pry it off me and i'm trying so hard not to scream again bc i don't want to freak my mom out and i'm still hyperventilating bc there's this unknown thing on me. so anyway. it took a bit to get it together enough to like. go back and wash my hands again. and now i'm like. completely exhausted. aaaaand i still feel like i can't breathe like an hour later :') i had lovely plans to go out this evening and maybe walk and watch the sunset but now i feel like death! point being. fuck ocd :)

#boink #vent #ocd #i think i might've had a panic attack?#idk #i don't really have those very often or very severely #but that might be the worst like contamination ocd event i can really recall #which is good ig #but still not so nice seeing as i'm supposed to be better after going to therapy and i am most definitely not #normally it's just like a general veneer of complication and anxiety on top of everything #but this was like #this was terrifying #i'm still kind of rattled ://#maybe i'm being overdramatic #i don't know :(#i'm super ticcy now too lol #unsurprising ig #and ofc i'm not actively panicking anymore #but still nothing really feels safe rn #my coffee cup smells like ice which is scary and my clothes were in the cabinet and maybe even on the floor so god knows what's on them #i'm glad i took a shower earlier today already or else i wouldn't hardly be able to move at all #i had to use some fertilizer in the garden and ofc it got on me bc gardening is messy so i already had to shower after that #unless i wanted to be stressed all day and contaminate my clothes and my bed and any food i wanted to make #not ideal #ough #it's just so fucking tiring isn't it #god it's exhausting #and what makes it worse is that i can't even deal with it on my own when everyone's around #and when everyone's around there's so much more chance that things are unsafe #it's been so much worse at home

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transcarcinization · 6 months

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okay i have a meeting today and then after the meeting i have to do that regrade request + hw for optics. and tmmr i have to get up super early and actually go to my iss class (i have not done this all sem) and ii also have to drop by j's office and sign timesheets. thursday i have to figure out the show and also study for my math exam on friday..... it'll all be fine probably

#show is stressing me out as it's one i really don't want to have to do w 2 people but no one else is free #i should have just cancelled it.... i don't want to now it's so so close to the show #i've been very much just handling things 1 day at a time recently. it's nice i can trust myself to do that and still get everything done bu #god it's exhausting

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junebugdunes · 3 months

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Welcome back to another episode of "I spent 10 hours making a fan comic instead of updating my OC refs"

#i am exhausted dear gOD I spent so long on this #anyways percy and ramsey hehehehehe #my favorite two goobers #epithet erased #epithet erased fanart #percy king #percival king #ramsey murdoch #my art

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cangrellesteponme · 6 months

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wife

#yeah i'm not dead woo let's celebrate #my art #kuroshitsuji #kuroshitsuji fanart #black butler #black butler fanart #grelle sutcliff #grell sutcliff #anyway i didn't draw SHIT for a good while and when i got back to it i suddenly hated using the flat marker brush???#it's part of what makes my signature distinctive so i used it for that but yeah i switched brushes #oddly enough i'm not hating the more textured look? it gets very pixelated at times but it's not awful #back to the signature- it felt weirdly nice to sign things again #i haven't in a while #if you're one of the very few people who also follow me on instagram you'll know i don't use it on there #and the only art i've been doing these days has been original work so yeah nothing on tumblr #and thus the words 'brain exhaustion god stan' have not been written by this comically large hand in a hot minute #enough rambling this is just grelle art because i love her and i know y'all love her too so i thought it would be a nice comeback piece

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miikanui · 12 days

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live laugh love an shiraishi

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teaboot · 1 year

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Cant wait for the age of enlightenment that will come when we all collectively realize that serial killers aren't highly-capable savant geniuses toying with police and the media for grand and complex reasons but are actually usually just random dumbfucks who stumbled into the golden ratio of 'low-empathy sadist with bad reasoning skills hates women/kids/sex/other races and wants to feel powerful, happens to be in an area with a poor investigative force, gets away with it one time and gets fucking cocky' cause I'm kinda getting tired of it

#Murder cw #serial killers cw #God it's exhausting how are you not tired

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b0tster · 1 year

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good to know that reddit is still months behind the curve as they are currently having the 'worse graphics' discourse where it immediately devolved into hating on the trans woman oc in 'that picture' that just got reposted lmfao

#liliths mind #god its so exhausting

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hesperocyon-lesbian · 1 year

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I’m so fucking tired of this stupid fucking resurgence of people arguing that misandry is real or a coherent form of oppression at all so I wanna address this more directly. Most of the arguments I’ve seen rely on the fact that men are harmed and constrained by the patriarchy, and you know what, that’s true!

But cis people are harmed and constrained by the existence of the gender binary. That doesn’t mean that cisphobia is real. Straight people are harmed and constrained by heteronormativity, but that doesn’t make heterophobia real.

I really thought this stuff was obvious but I guess it isn’t. I need all of you who are complaining about “misandry” to understand that you sound like the down with cis bus post

#transmisogny #god I’m so exhausted by this #some of you are so desperate to prove that women are oppressing you

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blushedfemmes · 17 days

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slut autism is a curse because i was designed in a lab to reach pure sensory ecstasy during sex but actually having sex in these wacky modern times requires constantly responding to messages on a piece of metal that doesn’t feel real to me and i suck at it so bad so idk. if you want this pussy write me a letter

#blushing #am i the only person fucking exhausted by messaging….#i want to connect with people so bad. i wanna hear their stories. and yeah i wanna fuck nasty #but oh my god. i cannot keep doing this 😀#personal

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turtletoria · 16 days

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