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lemonynuggets · 4 months ago

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would you still love me if I was professionally diagnosed

#lemon man talks #The urge to apologize a million times to everyone #Bc I feel like an awful person for not replying and posting abt how im depressed on tumblr #But physically I can barely stand up right now and mentally I’m at an insane low and I just #Feel so bad for being like this I don’t wanna make anyone worried I don’t wanna bring people down when I say anything #I’m so sorry maybe I’ll stay off tumblr for a bit so I won’t post anything anymore and people won’t hate me #Or whatever #go my undiagnosed disorders

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sualne · 8 months ago

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your body isn't your own

#monkey d luffy #koby one piece #eustass kid #killer one piece #described in alt text #my art #my comic #secret modern au #art is concept ect #here i wanted to see how much i could implied with as little dialogue as possible. worked best in the first comic tbh #luffy is intersex in this AU now! (and a cis man) it's smth i had considered multiple time but never settled on until now because #i wasn't sure what to do with it but with how the plot evolved it makes a lot of sense and fixes some parts.#it's funny! he was meant to have some undiagnosed vague hormone disorder but i decided it's likely pms/pmdd (and maybe smth else #he's got a lot going on) and you kind need an uterus for that sooo.#genderwise he went through various flavors of gnc cis guy to genderqueer to ??? but now i'm thinking cis guy is best.#* VICE admiral btw. this what happen when you write comic past midnight

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codecicle · 5 months ago

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i came here from your boyfriendgirlfriend’s blog. read your whole intro post. What The Fuck Is Your Problem. there is something genuinely wrong with you and i’m glad we’ve never crossed paths before. (compliment) idk how to phrase this bc it very much sounds like anon hate but like. WHAT. keep doing you, man. read your intro post, none of the others. i will be exiting your blog IMMEDIATELY after this. jesus christ. keep it up bro 🫡

only the strongest will survive. one down, many more to go

#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#we have mail :]#HELLO? HEELLOOO #HEEELLP????????#im undiagnosed and unmedicated and have Regular episodes. if that helps explain anything #autism and no support for several mental disorders leads to being a tumblr user LMAAOO #this was the first thing i read when waking up in the morning PERFECT start to my day thank you for the compliments ^_^#you're going in the pinned

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melodymorningdew · 10 months ago

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I love being told that the help I'm given means I owe something to the person who helped me 🙃 Like don't help me, then.

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tumble-tv · 1 year ago

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i want to scrub all of my joints with steel wool and replace my cartilage with hot glue in hopes that maybe that will ease my pain for once in my life

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serenedash · 2 years ago

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Yeah no I'm fine why (<- guy who is always 2 seconds away from exploding into a million pieces because of Kingdom Hearts Union Cross)

#when people keep telling me they dont understand kh and khux specifically and Im like. please. please. please.#I can be trusted with kh lore I prommy #I keep offering to explain khux to people who tell me they dont get it but they never tell me they want to hear it so I just dont :[#(guy with undiagnosed problems disorder) please let me explain video games Im a normal guy #one time my sister wanted to distract me on the phone so she purposefully made me explain loz to her for over an hour #my friends were begging me to hang up but there was no stopping me #one time I gave an interview for someones graduate paper and I ended up going om about khux for like 2 hours #pov Im locked in a small room screaming about luxu while being studied like a lab rat #im rambling #khux

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dunaldoodles · 2 months ago

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So this is a casual look to the inside of my head at all times. I had to do a role call 3 times to figure out who wanted to be where because they were all picky. You get a virtual cookie if you can name all of my nicknames for these guys. Maybe an art. Depends!

#NOTE. THIS ISNT ACTUALLY FOR ALL SYSTEMS. ITS LITERALLY JUST MINE. DONT COME AT ME FOR THIS.#every one of my alters is one that comes from a fucking video game lmao #i have nothing but introjects in this head #and while for the most part they're all sort of chilling on their own #they do like to look over my shoulder and comment on whats going on #most of these are usually inactive/sleeping #except Ardent #who has almost always been there #they've been my favorite #and went undeveloped for a while but still were a rock for me in my worst moments #mental health #dissociative identity disorder #nervously putting my brain on the table in the hopes of drumming up positivity for those undiagnosed like me #who KNOW they have it but cant or dont want to be diagnosed #idk. hopefully i dont get run off for this silly meme i made about my experiences with it.

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bruhstation · 1 year ago

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checking out theodore tugboat right now and all I can say is that foduck would really benefit from reading the dsm v

#zin.txt #my beautiful princess with various personality disorders. please talk to me.#I don't think I'm joking like atp he's DEFINITELY an undiagnosed autism and ocd haver. maybe bpd too.... many such cases #which is why he's always like ''I don't know why I feel like this''or ''I'm so sorry I don't know why I did that''#him get upset over his coworkers stopping in the middle of work #going back and forth between valuing himself and feeling incredibly lesser than his peers because he is told to guard the docks #and cannot go out to the ocean #thus making his V title ''not worth anything'' according to him #''Im so important and nobody will get their job done without me''#[5 minutes later]#''I am not a part of the team because I cannot go out to the ocean and my Vigilant title has no meaning''#also the way he views his friends always changes like #one minute he's doting on them and cheering them on #next minute he's angry and agitated and dislikes them #next minute he's alll sorry and worried and anxious. curious indeed #living rent free inside my head and his neighbors are gordon and boomer

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danielnelsen · 11 months ago

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there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn

#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon #although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great #whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time #kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’#or at least triggers that i can plan around #the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one #the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni #and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis?#but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal #i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months #so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically)#so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point #obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again #i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time #BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT #‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately #personal #but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12 #so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’#and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes #wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health #and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder #so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test #i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing #might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained

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softplacetorest · 10 months ago

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teenagers these days are holding themselves and their peers to the same standards as adult celebrities with PR teams. they're not letting each other be teens and make mistakes and i'm not joking.

#i dont even know what to tag this #but listening to a modern teenager talk is fucking terrifying #they are going to have to unlearn so much shame and self pathology i am calling it now #my heart especially goes out to the teens going through traumatic home lives or struggling with undiagnosed personality disorders #you guys are getting literally zero grace and i dont think it is going to be very helpful in recovery

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the-fabled-disabled · 2 years ago

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honestly, I’ll trust another cripple over a doctor 8/10 times.

like doctor>abled cripple>doctor most times.

and like logically I know that there are doctors out there that are good and know what they’re doing but my doctors have only given me medical neglect, sexism, and misinformation.

and it’s given me a mindset where I’m basically like, I need you but I can’t trust fuck all you say or do because you don’t have my back. you don’t care enough about me to actually help me so I have to find people that will. and the people that will are other disabled people.

I’ll ask them for help if I can, because I want to know what’s wrong with me, I need to know. But I can’t rely on them.

#parker talks #parker’s super cool chronic pain #chronic pain #chronically ill #hypermobility #hypermobility spectrum disorder #hypermobile ehlers danlos #actually disabled #undiagnosed chronic illness #disabled #ehlers danlos syndrome #(suspected this is where the medical neglect comes in my doctor was just like HSD go running and didn’t look any further)#spoonie

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years ago

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I'm starting to feel like bpd is actually just what happens when there's an overlap between adhd, ptsd, and depression- which I think is much more common than physciatrists think

I have a lot of theories but also like I need to do way more research on this before assuming things because I know this is already a greatly stigmatized disorder and I don't want to erase anyone's experiences or make it worse.

#i have adhd ptsd and depression myself #and im not sure if physciatrists are misunderstanding (ima be honest ive lost a lot of my faith in them for stuff like this) again #or if its just a coincidental overlap in the presentation of the conditions #it would honestly make a lot of sense to me though #a lot of physciatrists and therapists agree that bpd is a trauma disorder #it almost feels like what happens if you recieve the trauma that would cause DID (i have DID as well) but #but either at an older age or without the necessary capacity for dissociation required #the reason i say adhd is because the link between adhd and depression seems heavily overlooked #not to mention the effects of adhd in adulthood #given that bpd is a trauma disorder im guessing a lot of people with the condition were neglected by their parents to some degree #not necessarily all but enough that adhd symptoms in childhood would go undiagnosed #and once youre an adult its much harder to get a diagnosis #youre more likely to be diagnosed with things like depression and bipolar disorder #because its gone on so long that its sort of metastasized into more har.#*more harmful conditions #i could be totally wrong about the adhd thing #i just think that its unacceptable how ineffective the treatments are for it #feel free to tell me about your experiences with the condition if you have bpd #that includes self diagnosed people too btw. anyone with bpd #i know a lot of people who suffer needlessly because doctors are incompetent so im just really passionate about this

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fluffykitteninabox · 1 year ago

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me at 15 reading about ocd on the internet: oh that sounds like a nightmare I don't think I could live like that, so glad I definitely don't have it

me getting diagnosed 7 years later:

#in my defence it feels nothing like the stereotypes portrayed on tv #like I had a school friend who was obsessed with the show monk #I've never actually seen it so idk if it does a good job portraying it or not but I know monk is the very stereotypical ocd character #and that friend would go on and on about the show and how relatable it felt to her #not sure if she also had undiagnosed ocd but she only used a certain type of pen #and would refuse to use any other to write #she even got me into it I bought them and we would share #they were nice pens #and she also had this little ritual where if you touched her neck you had to close your fingers #in a way that mimics that stereotype for Italian hand gestures #and then you had to huff on them #she literally would not let you do anything else after you touched her neck unless you finished that little ritual #and I never thought I had anything like that so that meant I didn't have ocd right?#but yeah now that I'm saying it it seems stupid #like just because I'm not a “neat person” and don't obsess over cleaning doesn't mean anything #I say I don't obsess over cleaning and then I proceed to disinfect everything I bring from outside into the house with rubbing alcohol #but that only happened after the pandemic so I'm often thinking if it really counts #do I really have ocd or am I just traumatised from the pandemic?#like if I know the when and how I started a specific behaviour then is it really part of a mental disorder?#I know the logic behind it so it's not really a problem #right?#can I tag this as ocd? am I allowed?#fuck it!#ocd #I'm sure people who know more about this than me can explain if it counts or not #maybe it doesn't #maybe it's just germophobia?#but then what would all the other stuff be?#checking to see if your relatives are still breathing in their sleep in the middle of the night isn't germophobia #but I know the cause of this too it's from losing my uncle does that mean it also doesn't count? is it considered traumatic? idk

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nomaishuttle · 1 year ago

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ohhh fml i was like maybe i cn stya up a bit late after all its weekend tomorrow. no it fucking isnt today was thursday i have work tmrw everything is evil always

#gonna get ready 4 bed ig.. i wanna try n wake up at ermm 545 bc ive been sleeping in far too much and ive barely been brushing my teeth in #the mornings ive mostly just been doing mouthwash #aughhh idk why my body is being so dire today my thighs r doing the incredibly weak and fatigued thing again. i feel like that tweet thats #like im probably nonbinary but i have a job so idc abt that rn but its i probably have some undiagnosed physical disorders but i live in a #garage so idc abt that rn #idk. its been going on for a couple years but its been getting worse to the point i can barely move my legs when it happens #that and then my limbs have been falling asleep very quickly even when theres nothing thyat would like. im not laying on them or anything #ill just be walking or something arms at my sides and one or both will get rly bad pins and needles #and it rly sucks and is weird. but again i live in a fucking garage so it is fr the least of my worries #like rn at my computer typing my arm isnt resting on anything or having any pressure put on it and my hand is falling asleep. UGH #it has been happening a ton with my hands i get this weirxd sensation in my wrist/palm zone that like. idk #its weird and i should prolly get it checked out but i dont have a dr rn and like. worst case scenario i chop my arms off and either surviv #and have a good story or i die and dont have to go to work anymore. so

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red-moon-at-night · 11 months ago

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the rumours of my death have been greatly exaggerated

*it's been 3 months since I last posted* FUCK HAS IT REALLY BEEN THAT LONG???

#capri talks #HI GUYS...... teehee. I am indeed Alive it is true #I have so much milgram lore to catch up on but I'm in several rabbit holes of other series/games and they have an iron fist on me #I am very much about to be annoying on main any day now. I have acquired new characters that have forever altered my brain chemistry #I must talk. I am a little chatterbox and I have many a thought about SO many things. But that doesn't have to be right now. Maybe later :]#I'm not doing so well in the health department and am trying to conserve my energy so its difficult to be excited about things and lack--#-- the spoons to fully articulate my thoughts in a post or. art. So yeah I'm going day by day! 🫠👍#*sighs in undiagnosed-but-looking-to-find-out-soon autoimmune disorder symptoms*

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featherymainffins · 11 months ago

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You know what at this point I feel like maybe I just need to either get institutionalised again or start an internship again because I feel like I am getting nothing.

#sorry after going down a rabbit hole i realised that there are a lot of very vague things wrong with most of my characters #and that perhaps i should make. less vague things wrong with them.#like more specific things #and i understand the theory of a lot of conditions but that doesnt mean anything #thats jackshit #and naturally in my life i have met a lot of people with various conditions bu the sample is still fairly limited #ive met people with OCD; with various anxiety disorders; people with various eating disorder; i live with one ed myself; ive met #people with schizophrenia both treated and untreated; ive met people with bipolar; ive met people with schizoaffective;#ive met people in a state of active psychotic episode; ive met people DID and OSDD; ive met people with PTSD;#ive met people with cluster C PDs and people who have BPD like me and ive met exactly one (1) person with NPD (about whom #docs arent fully sure yet)#but thats all. and its like. cool. ok. no idea about cluster A except for me (STPD) and no idea about the lived realities of the rest of #cluster B and no idea about some forms of depression and no idea about a lot of things. so its like. cool. i sure love not knowing.#its like. ok. do i have to get locked up again to meet new kinds of people or?#the thing is that probably wouldnt help i can tell you right here right now thered be like uuuuuh 50 % ED recovery people;#25 % affective disorders; including like one bipolar person probably; 15 % OCD patients and 10 % of undiagnosed people #sent there for a diagnosis #thats actually literally the average population of a psych ward. been there three times happens every time #i mean im exaggerating but you get me

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