#fucking can be emotional fuckery btw

[blackbackedjackal]

guess the character: thinly veiled sapphic sugar mommy dom with a tragic backstory and monsterfucking implications for additional flavor, or as I like to call them, momsterfuckers

[caterpillarinacave]

Do you have thoughts about Baby Henry and his Great Aunt Matilda?

Oh BOY do I.

I could literally go on and on forever but I should redirect you to this entire fic which is basically a coherent, carefully constructed, novel of those thoughts:

(Those with an astute eye will notice that I call Matilda Henry’s aunt, as in his fathers sister, as opposed to his great aunt. Maybe this is due to the copious amounts of inheritance fuckery brought up in the first chapter. Maybe I forgot because rereading nothing but shadows makes me sad. Maybe I can make it work and I’m going with it.) 

[isa-ghost]

q!phil and q!pac hcs peepoShy :3

YESSS I really need to watch more Pac, translator be damned. >:0

qPhil headcanons masterlist

Pac is, like many others, in the I Want Phil To Take Me On A Flight club. He thinks it's so fucking cool

He doesn't have the ability to clock Phil as well as Fit can. But Fit confides in him on a lot, esp to do with things he's worried about, so Pac actually knows some of Phil's "something is wrong" tells, even if they're the more obvious ones.

And then he promptly goes to Fit like "Phil needs an emotional support ass kicking 👍🏻"

Phil is the #2 Fitpac shipper (Ramon is #1). And Phil knows Fit intimately in many ways. He passes All his secrets onto Pac gladly. He's like "go get him m8. Give him Brazilian Boyfriend Brainrot"

You'd think there'd be a little jealousy or something because of the fact that Phil has been With Fit consistently prior to him and Pac dating, but nah. They love conspiring against him together and Fit knows they do. Also Phil backed off right away when they got serious, so Pac knows everything's chill

Phil can Tell there's more to Pac than meets the eye. This is Mike's best friend. Survivor of Cellbit cannibalism. Known for having a danger boner for fucked up dudes. Pac seems super nice and well-mannered at first glance but Phil can TELL he saves the true extent of how unhinged he can be for the people closest to him. He wants to see Pac go apeshit someday.

I really really want to see these two allied in a fight bc I genuinely don't know what they'd be like. Just the two of them, or at least paired up while whoever else they're teamed with is paired up elsewhere. But something tells me Pac has a side that would get along Very well with the Angel of Death,,,,

Pac is one of the people Phil considers closest to himself. There's nothing he won't do for him and anything he needs, Phil will bend over backwards to get it if that's what Pac wants.

Phil loves being a test monkey for Tazercraft fuckery. It's always so weird and fun. Occasionally he'll ask Pac if they have any new wild or silly shit for him to see.

Tbh I wouldn't put it past Pac (& perhaps Mike) to be extremely interested in hybrids and asking Phil a million questions about it

Phil can NOT talk shit abt the danger boner btw. Motherfucker's type is literally "death entity." A Goddess of Death and a grim reaper holding either of his hands. Bitch can't say ANYTHING. (I want these two to talk abt their types I think it would be extremely funny)

Pac knows very little about Phil getting possessed, but he DOES know something happened to him. Fit kept things extremely vague out of respect for Phil.

Phil may be the #2 Fitpac shipper, but he'd be lying if he said he didn't envy that they get to see each other often. But Phil is Phil, so instead of getting weird about it, he just commits to doing whatever he can to support them. At least there's one happy healthy mlm couple on the island.

Btw if Pac came to Phil about whatever the fuck is going on with Fit and his past, Phil's ready to kill a bitch with Pac immediately, and he'd let Pac do most of the actual ass kicking as he deserves. (oooo the ccs want to give me this soooo baadddd)

Controversial (/silly) take: Phil and Pac are both slutty, bubbly drunks.

[x-authorship-x]

i have one setting so sophie is kisame BUT it's like, early him so he's not super super buff and the 'find me in the future' means that shisui is searching for a ridiculously buff shark dude instead of this normal looking dude who gets cursed (the sophie curse) to be a shark and then copes with it by bodybuilding

OH I LIKE THIS, YES YES

it's also even funnier because Shisui only glimpsed the huge shark guy, right? Right after he lost his fucking normal sight? So he's like

Shisui: Obito did you get a good look at him???? I was lost in the magic sauce of having my vision removed and then replaced with a kaleidoscope of trippy sensations

Obito: uhhhhhh massive blue thing

Shisui: are you sure??? How big???

Obito, who also had new additions to his vision and literally no sense of proportion because he only fell to earth like thirty seconds beforehand: Real Big, Chunky???

And because Howl's whole rumour is that he steals young women and 'cuts out their hearts' (both a heartbreaker and no doubt rumors that he's missing his own) SHISUI'S rumour is that he's able to... steal strength, gaze into souls?

So what Shisui does with all his 'mind-fuckery/soul-stealing' is tracking down the strongest men in towns - he's looking for a warrior after all - and he literally studies their magic and soul for a bit, trying to find something to spark recognition. Other people can kinda feel it? So they think he's Big Evil Mysterious.

Shisui couldn't actually SEE that Kisame had been turned into a shark-monster and Obito was similarly coping with new awareness, so he's not just looking for blue people 🤣🤡

Then, he sees Kisame, a seemingly normal blacksmith's apprentice with a spark of something in his soul, getting hassled by soldiers and recognises the particular feel of Kisame's emotions!!! That soul!! At last!! ✨✨✨✨✨

But he's obviously come too early, so Shisui intervenes and sends the soldiers off and then flies Kisame with him back to the forge when Danzo's ROOT lackies try to attack. Shisui tells himself he'll keep an eye (lol) but wait.... and then-!

Danzo curses Kisame, thinking that he must be the "weapon" Shisui has been searching for, thinking that for as long as Danzo's been hunting Shisui for his eyes... Shisui has been searching for a warrior to kill Danzo in return. So, he curses Kisame into a monster so that he's unable to ever be mistaken, to ever pass in human society, to ever gain power against Danzo. The monster is tied to Kisame's emotions, if he tries to kill Danzo then he'll become more monstrous and, whilst strong, easier to out-manoeuver.

And Danzo's not wrong, Kisame is almost killed when Swordsmen arrive at the forge and see it torn to shreds, Kisame seemingly killed and a monster in the middle.... So Kisame flees to the wilderness by swimming upstream in the rivers and, one day, comes across the Moving Castle as it crosses the water. He's been getting bigger and buffer this whole time btw~

Like Sophie's curse is related to her rejecting/disbelieving herself, Kisame's curse is also related to, hm, his feelings of self worth and anger. When Kisame feels particularly monstrous or loses his temper, he becomes less human, more monster, and loses a lot of higher thought. The first time was when Danzo attacked and he trashed the forge and made everyone think the human him had been, like, eaten by the monster. Shisui also questions Kisame a lot, getting to know him and also having insight into his magic/soul, and Kisame's feeling both very defensive and very wounded so lashes back at him.

Ino wants them to stop knocking over her potions >:(

As the story progresses, however, Kisame starts to realise that his monstrous self is only a physical manifestation of his self disgust and rage. As he learns to accept himself, his new strength, and his growing feelings for Shisui, his features settle. He'll never lose the blue skin and teeth and gills etc etc, but it all comes together to form a new him.

Shisui is just watching all this with (lol) heart eyes like he deffo fell for Kisame the moment he saw him again but watching this journey of self has been a TRIP

Shisui, breathless and high-key thirsty: hey can you bench me

Kisame, twice the size of every other human and feeling the disconnect: *internally* only a blind weirdo could say this shit, if I fix his deal with Obito then he's gonna fucking know and-

Kisame, out loud: STOP MOCKING ME

Kisame is rapidly gaining appreciation for Shisui, who he thought was once a Boogeyman story and then, when he actually met him, a far too cheerful blind pretty-boy with Ino as his bratty tag-on... and Obito is a cackling menace that Kisame low-key becomes besties with

Obito is like-

Kisame: *becoming more Shark Bamf Kisame every day, working out and fixing up Shisui's place because he's handy, Shisui's blind + distracted and Ino is the messy one lol*

Obito: I TOLD YOU HE WAS RIPPED, WHAT DID I SAY SHISUI

Shisui, off camera: he wasn't when I found him!

Obito: YOU WANT ME TO DO EVERYTHING?!

Somehow we gotta have Shisui's magic-monster-crow form crashing into the water, nearly drowning, Kisame swimming like a shark BAMF to drag him out and get Obito to return his eyes

(Shisui was scared of being alone in his power, so when he caught Obito and made a contract with him, it was so that they'd both live and work together. Now, however, Shisui needs his eyes back because he's falling too much into his magic, forgetting how to just be himself, and Obito's only worsening his condition.)

Now I'm thinking about Shisui blinking his eyes open for the first time since he was a child (the two kinds of vision combine) and seeing Kisame bent over him, prepared for Shisui to scream and reject him, only for Shisui to beam and say that Kisame looks like the sky with his flawless blue skin and the white lines of his markings, his hair blue hair and the glowing sunlight in his gold eyes-!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Shisui, blinking the most beautiful eyes in the world and finally revealing his whole gorgeous face without the blindfold: 🥺 am I ❤️‍🔥 in heaven? 😍

Kisame, low-key emotional: you're so 🥹🤬 fucking stupid ❤️‍🔥😩

....this AU has consumed me 🙃🙃🙃🙃

[myfandomrambles]

Not to be an asshole but like just because David Tennant/Tenth Doctor had the best viewing numbers of NuWho doesn't actually mean he's sooo uber special better than the others.

Like every doctor before and after he actually matters. Some of those doctors are beloved by like a lot of people.

It somehow just feels icky to me to pick up with David Tennant and Davies and like what? Fuck 11, war, 12 and 13?

Chibnall was bad enough about kind of feeling like he was snubbing 11 & 12's eras.

Like obviously you had misogyny and racism problems under Moffat. And we must, must speak up about that and make sure the show does better. And no he didn't stick the landing every time, The Wedding of River Song sucks. But like there were a shit ton of people involved in those years who like fucking put their heart and soul into that.

Matt Smith & Peter Capaldi along with all the companion actors (plus Gomez) deserve some goddamn respect. I do have just some big emotional attachment to 11 & 12 yes. I also however do not think every story under them was bad. They had extremely good stories! Like season 10 might not be popular but fuck does it kick me in the feels.

But like it's not like all the Tennant hype only affects Moffat's writing if you happen to hate him. This does feel insulting to Ecelston as well. I know he hates the BBC so like I get he wouldn't come back to the main show (his audios rock btw).

This whole thing also feels sketch because you're sticking him in between your first female doctor and your first main doctor to be played by a person of colour. Like do you just not trust that Ncuti Gatwa will be good enough to make people watch? Do you not trust your own writers (even your own writing) to be compelling unless you bring David Tennant back and give him a whole other marketing number (and the numbers, while sort of ridiculous at this if you look through canon, do have meaning to the fans)? Not to mention a new costume (No I don't mean he has to wear the exact same clothes if they don't fit but you can sew a copy of the same design again) and a whole big announcement about him getting a new Sonic. The costumes and sonics are HUGE signs for fans. Like people collect the fucking sonics you have the old ones referenced in the show, it's a whole part of 12's identity crises with the shades and the new sonic after re-accepting the doctor after losing Clara. The TARDIS can make these for The Doctor or The Doctor makes their own. It's a whole thing!

Also, do they have to also fuck with Donna's ending? Really? I get some people do the whole "Donna deserved better" shtick but her ending is heartbreaking, well-written, well-acted and done just so well. Sad can be okay! I'm with Ashildir on this one, It was sad and beautiful. (Yes she's not referring to Donna but the principle stands)

Also like, The Doctor fucks people's lives up. Donna wasn't the first up Companions to have shit destroyed by The Doctor!

In the words of Martha Jones:

You need to be careful, because you know the Doctor's wonderful and he's brilliant, but he's like fire. Stand too close and people get burned (TV: Sonatarn Strategem)

Like Journeys End aired in 2008! Could we just let the story stand on it's merits?

I realise the culture of like the media in the 2010s & 2020s is just fuck with shit that should have been left alone. I mean I guess if we're doing a distribution w/ Disney we might as well follow their storytelling formula.

I mean remember the whole Time Lord victouris project? Like I'm obsessed w/ Doctor Who and have been into the EU for a long time I didn't even try and keep up with it. It was like the high republic franchise in Star Wars so hard to keep up w/ the story when you have to get so many disparate pieces of media. And again it's all Ten focused.

Honestly, I have always loved Ten. minus all this fuckery he is fantastic. And i will go to the bat i don't think he's a fuck boy. but I also like am perpetually gonna be annoyed at him.

Being a money maker does not actually define the quality of the story in every case.

[lillys-shadow]

Also

Ive been feeling pretty down lately.

I wrote an essay detailing a bunch of problems I've been having and how they've been fucking over my life for like the past three years. And I used DDLC to contextualize some of it, mainly because it was hugely influential in my ability to like think. emotionally. So when I send it to mother and her response is along the lines of "So... a game made you trans. Are you sure this isnt just an ADHD thing?" (which A. I have not been diagnosed for ADHD, she just has a hunch that I have it because my brother and father have it, and i have some of the characteristics commonly associated, and B. what the fuck, I just spilled the shit thats been affecting my mental health the worst and your response is "are you sure you didn't just make it up" what the actual fuck) not to mention I told her that I am trans (properly this time, instead of just going "oh hahah i have gender dysphoria thats why i wrote this entire vent piece E.P about how your attitude towards gender has fucked over my self worth" like that wasnt enough. Theres literally a song called "fault" literally saying its her fault I dont want to talk to her about things. And then "waltz of the night" which says things like "summer, what if you could die. summer, wouldnt be nice" played BACK TO BACK. And the first song being about how "summer" is just a placeholder for *me* but the gender fuckery has taken hold) and I told her I go by Lilly (she/her) I EVEN SAID THAT I WOULDN'T BE MAD IF SHE DIDN'T USE MY PROPER LABELS (mainly to soften the impact but whatever) AND SHE STILL RANTED ABOUT HOW ITS UnFaIr ThAt I bE sOmEoNe ShE dOeSnT kNoW mE aS.

And its just like, what do I even do here. So I tried to clarify the problems and she responds with "you had a bunch of contradictions, btw no amount of money could make you look like a woman" without telling me any of the supposed contradictions IF YOU HAD OF JUST TOLD ME THEM I WOULDVE CLARIFIED WHAT I MEANT OMG and acting as if passing trans women dont exist (I know passing shouldnt be the goal and its completely valid to not pass, I just want to for dysphoria reasons i guess, and I mentioned that we probably dont have the money to start HRT or a psychiatrist or to get any sort of surgery (which the latter I probably couldnt get anyway). And THEN she has the FUCKING AUDACITY to set the email to spam so I cant respond. And says "You will keep believing what you want to believe despite the evidence" (without citing a single FUCKING source of evidence, at least I quoted Judith Butler and Philosophy tube in my ramblings (I wasnt even trying to prove anything either, just that I shouldnt have to fight ma on how other people who are not her should refer to me if they tell me i need her approval)) and its like what do i even do at this point. So I shut up and just try to ignore her presence (which is really bloody hard because she and I were regularly really close). And she still hasnt brought it up, its been a goddamned week and Ive been home alone with her for three days in a row now. not a single word. I cant bring it up cause Im scared shell get mad or Ill say something incorrectly and shell use it as ammo to further fuck over my dysphoria. And Im not sure but Im like 60% sure she said something like "and then i realised, hes probably just faking it" which I shouldnt be mad about because A. im not even sure it was said B. I dont have any context C. it was said over the phone at 2am. But it was the day after I had sent it, I was absolutely fucked mentally. Like I know its not fair for me to be mad at her for, but nonetheless it still fucking hurts.

I mean not too long before (maybe a month or so) I literally thought "what if mum still thinks of me as a boy" and 3 hours later I have the worst cuts I had given myself. And now I know how it is, I know she does, and theres obviously nothing I can do. And certainly nothing I should do. And the only real emotional pillar I have had lately is my gf and I dont wanna vent too hard on her, I obviously want her to be happy (if youre reading this i love you <3), so ive felt kinda trapped idk. I swear to god the moment I turn 17 im buying a van and leaving, idrc about the specifics, just not here. (ill prolly back out of that before I turn 17 but i dont really give a fuck a girl can dream).

I gave her a quote of something she said, that was innocuous but had caused me a great deal of pain (she had told her friend that I wanted to go for "book week" as catnus everdeen because "I like attention" which was false, but also from her perspective she was talking about my goddamned whining persistance. But I took it as a judgement on the crossdressing I was dabbling in at the time (which catnus everdeen really wasnt lol but hey younger me was younger)) and her responce was "You took that out of context and youve written how it effected you in a cruel manor." and its like. THAT. WAS. THE. FUCKING. POINT. I kkknowww it was out of context, but it still fucking hurt, I only talked about it because it legitimately hurt me regardless of the actual context, and so that she doesnt do the same thing this time. AND SHE IMMEDIATELY THROWS AWAY THAT LINE OF THINKING FOR but thats not faiiir its not myy fault you misintirrpret things and its like, no its not but could you still be mindful that your words can AND WILL fuck me over if theyre not handled correctly.

I just- eugh. It would have been fine if she had of just had a conversation yknow. Like if we had've talked it out and got to some sort of conclusion. Instead of you will never think *spam*. Like I get to sit here instead with an unhealthy caffeine problem, horrible gender dysphoria, a cutting problem (both sexual and not so), and the fact that the person I looked up to most doesn't want to talk to me about the thing that has pretty much ruined my life and the steps that need to be taken to rectify those things.

Also the crippling insomnia its 3:20 now for gods sake.

[borderline-gays-club]

It’s officially been over a year since I tried to get help for my BPD thru the medical system.

I tried to do an inpatient program that was 5 days a week for like 3 hours a day or something. And it took me like 4-5 months to even get in bc bitches weren’t picking up the phone or unresponsive. And after months of perseverance I finally got in and I was so excited to start.

But ofc it was a hot mess bc any mental care thru my insurance is hot garbage. Had I stayed longer I prob wudve been more fucked up tbh. I was only there for like 3 weeks max lol.

Like they literally wud treat u like ur a threat the moment u walk in. Also cold as hell. Clinical, not human to human. And straight up was like ya btw we work very closely with the police just so you know <3. Like just that comment Made me want to fight this bitch lmao. And one of the therapists literally said “that’s hot” when one of the patients disclosed with him that she thinks she’s a lesbian…like is this even real.

Ugh there was so much more fucked up shit (too much to write rn) but I left as soon as I realized how bad it was. And I thought oh Mayb I’m just giving up, Mayb it’s part of the process blah blah. But like there were too many concrete fuckery things going on I couldn’t stay.

That whole experience was so infuriatingly frustrating but honestly that was the last thing to finally seal in my head that this system cannot help me. I’ve tried so much in a decade and ultimately was only able to get help through alternative ways. Like my therapist doesn’t even take insurance and I hav to pay out of pocket but it’s worth it for sure.

So as awful as it all was I’m glad it happened bc now I kno for a FACT that this medical system is simply not here to help me and many many others. In fact they want us all dead.

Anyway I feel like this is why ppl w/BPD have such high suicide rates . Bc I kno compared to NPD or ASPD ppl w/BPD tend to actually seek help on their own. But the system is literally so hostile and there’s only so many tries in you especially when you’re already down.

But u kno what, I remember feeling so hopeless after that shit didn’t work out but over this past year I can confidently say that I’m better than ever. I still have years and years of work to do to ultimately get into remission but I feel hopeful. I think when all ur expectations just fully crumble, u have to be creative in order to move on after that initial shock. And finding ur own solutions can be empowering in its own ways.

And just to b clear I’m not promoting fixing urself alone without any help ever. But I’m more so saying that the medical system does not have the tools to support us and in fact they are actively harming us.

Mayb this is more of a warning rant. Everyone stay safe. Even tho it’s hard to trust ur own emotions and thoughts, find ways to vet ppl out that are mental health professionals. Bc there’s a lot of scummy bitches out there..

And in case anyone reading this is in nyc. DO NOT GO TO CITPD. HIGHLY DO NOT RECOMMEND!!!!

K that’s all folks lol nite

[antiv3nom]

for the chara headcanon thing: 🏳️‍🌈 for whatever character(s) you want.

go ahead. give us all your LGBT headcanons for bllk characters

bestie. bestie you truly do not know what you just signed up for. bestie i am opening up the blue lock wiki as we speak. im going to talk about so many characters. i will never shut up

(btw i might include trans hcs in some of these!!! altho i havent written anything w said trans hcs at the moment theyre just living as Vibes In My Brain <3 also these are not set in stone and i fuck around with them all the time but. at the moment. vibes.)

isagi - ace and otherwise questioning (cough cough im writing a fic about this cough cough) though he does feel romantic attraction for multiple genders

bachira - bisexual and transmasc nb (he just like me fr)

kunigami - bisexual

chigiri - asexual and transmasc

(more under cut)

naruhaya - bisexual

gagamaru - queer and agender

igaguri - bisexual

raichi - unlabeled (he does not care enough to think about it)

iemon - straight but chill about it

kuon - gay but has CRIPPLING internalized homophobia

imamura - straight (derogatory)

niko - bisexual and nb

barou - bisexual and transmasc

nagi - gay

reo - bisexual

rin - pansexual

sae - gay but in denial (hes just so very bad at having emotions)

shidou - bisexual

aryu - pansexual

tokimitsu - queer

karasu - bisexual

otoya - bisexual

yukimiya - bisexual (i like fucking with his gender tho, like *pats top of he* this bad boy can fit so much gender fuckery in him)

nanase - bisexual

hiori - bisexual and nb

aiku - bisexual

anyways. blue lock more like bi lock amiright

[hopefullystillatheatrestudent]

okay so i’ve been going crazy these past few days. all about cockles/jensmish and obsessively watching their panels or reading the transcripts BECAUSE. THEY ARE LOUD. LIKE. i saw some fancams on twt and i thought people were just exaggerating but noooooooooo!!!???? so, getting to the point. you said that how do we know that jensen is performing masculinity? because jared isn’t and THAT IS A BIG BRAIN MOMENT. ON POINT. I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH. a particular moment from gag reel that jumps out (which you’ve talked about) when jensen goes ‘cas, you are my baby daddy’ and misha goes, ‘i know i love you too’ and jensen goes, ‘i didn’t say i love you’ and misha goes, ‘i know you wanted to’ and jensen says, ‘i love you’ WHAT THE FUCK! that was NOT a joke. yes, people took it as a joke and had a good laugh BUT I HAVE WATCHED IT TOO MANY TIMES AND IT LIVES IN MY MIND RENT FREE BECAUSE IT WAS NOT A PERFORMANCE. THAT WAS JENSEN. THAT WAS MISHA. jensen has a had trouble with the pda and being all touch feely (the breakup theory) and he gradually grew into it, accepted it and misha was right there all along, never pushed it. it was like a deancas au but tbh, 99% of destiel is because of cockles and we all know it. i just. jensen has latched onto dean as an emotional support because he tunes with it. understands it. projects on to it. yeah, i just had to say it and get it off my chest. (and what about those poetry pages on instagram? alma? what is your opinion?) btw, you have a lovely blog and your analysis are right on target.

so there is a LOT i’m going to address here(how dare you bring up [gunshot] i HAVE to talk about it now) so again!!!! under a cut it goes but i hope you appreciate my rambles anon it seems like you do :,)

1. jared vs. jensen and performing masculinity. hell yeah man. jared and jensen are both just ‘guys from texas’ but they are still so vastly different. today i actually had a revelation that i’m pretty sure has to do with me being bi. and it’s that i have a group of straight friends(that i love dearly but they care too much about hockey and pitbull imo could not be me) and i have a group of queer friends(who are also batshit[affectionate]). and it’s like whichever group i hang out with a different side of me emerges? they’re both me, it’s just that certain aspects of who i am as a person only surface depending on who i am around. however, i will say i feel like i watch what i say around my straight friends more. i see that very clearly in jensen as well. around jared during panels and on set, he’s definitely putting on an air of machismo and engages in typical guy talk. i do think an element of it is performative, because he wants validation from jared that they’re still just two dudes from texas taking on the world together despite his sexual identity. does that make any sense??? i hope so. but when he’s with misha he is an entirely different person and his sense of humour becomes wildly different. the machismo fades away, he’s way less caught up in what people think about him, lets his guard down, etc. to go back to my original point which is how j2 are different in that regard....jared does not do this. he is a constant. he does not flip a switch between ‘performing masculinity’ and ‘not’ because he isn’t performing any part of who he is. he just IS. so yeah these two are similar in many regards but there’s somewhat of a dissonance between them when it comes to how they perform masculinity because one of them is putting on a show and the other is merely being.

2. that crypt scene blooper(here just in case you need to see it again. do it. as a treat.) when i tell you i have easily seen this over thirty times??? since it first came out??? i mean it. it is such an overlooked(r*mantic) moment and it means so much more than people think it does. i’ve talked about the context behind it, and i think that’s why this blooper was so meaningful, so i’ll mention it again. jensen and misha had a LOT of trouble with this scene. the reason is that jensen couldn’t wrap his head around why dean would be saying these things, if i remember correctly, and both of them sat down and scoured over how they should play it for a while before filming(teamwork ;) teammates *ahem*). [to be honest we all know why jensen had a hard time with that scene and it is because it is blatantly romantic. rip to him but i would simply give in to it at that point but oh well] so anyway, their heads were scattered going into shooting, which is NEVER a good headspace to be in for a scene, ESPECIALLY not a pivotal one. but they had each other to help them through said weird energy on set that couldn’t possibly have invoked the best feelings, especially considering jensen STILL doesn’t think he played that correctly(but he praised misha on his performance :,) ). and with that context every single part of that video hits haRD 

-’stop pulling my face towards your crotch’ i think this is objectively hilarious because it really really looks like jensen is pulling HIMSELF towards misha’s crotch. again, you’re fooling no one, jensen. misha’s wheezing laugh and the way he wraps himself around jensen is also,,,sweet??? like i don’t know how else to describe how i see it but this moment really reads as jensen, in his weird ‘constructing elaborate rituals’ way is asking for security through a physical touch from misha and he happily obliges and gives jensen what he needs. because i mean...watch it again. jensen ‘fights back’, but not really at all, actually. pretty wimpy counterattack. he literally lets himself be smothered by misha, and i would literally describe what they end up doing as cuddling. 

-’i need you, cas. you’re my baby daddy’ i love having an actor’s perspective on things bc i think i can explain what’s going on here. jensen just delivered what was(in his own mind) a rotten take of the lines he’s most scared of delivering. so the scene was already messed up. therefore; ensuing fuckery is warranted to help him feel better. but there’s also for sure more than meets the eye for what he says here because of misha’s reaction after??? like he seemed genuinely touched. first of all, he’s saying ‘you’re my baby daddy’ as half-jensen, but not necessarily dean either(because he didn’t say the previous lines as true to his character...you get it), to misha, not cas. i think i’ve made this point before, but every single innuendo in the gag reels is to misha specifically, never once cas. therefore; logical conclusion: ‘you’re my baby daddy’ was for misha and it meant something deeper than we think because of what follows it

-this part. jensen’s giddy ass smile after he sees misha crack and then misha says ‘yeah, i know’ (can i just say his voice when he says this is so intimate???? like am i intruding guys??? sorry i’ll let myself out) also he is smiling SO BIG

- ‘i know’ ‘why are you laughing?’ ‘no i know i love you too’ this analysis is already so long but i still want to get into what THAT whole exchange means. ‘why are you laughing?’ to me sounds like jensen’s pretending to be affronted by misha laughing at something that is serious. and it’s serious because he quite literally meant ‘i love you’. he did. misha knows it. misha’s really REALLY good at cutting the bs and just getting to what people are actually trying to say. he has an innate sharpness to his sense of humour. so yes, misha is being 100% accurate when he says ‘i know, but you wanted to say it.’ misha isn’t lying here. jensen did want and mean to say ‘i love you’. and then he actually does say it(in a jokey way but not really). 

- so yeah. it is actually so romantic??? like in a weird way jensen was professing his love for misha here?????? and that’s why this clip will NEVER. ever. get old. 

3. jensen having trouble with pda and projecting onto dean: we can all call ourselves dean coded cas girls but NO one deserves that title more than jensen ackles himself. he is dean winchester but marginally less repressed because he actually did admit he was in love with his best friend and let himself be happy, and pretty early on too. one year and two months as opposed to twelve years. so. happy deancas au is correct. and yes about the pda thing: one day i want to write my own post about both of their body language when it comes to each other, but all i can tell is jensen, even in the early days, couldn’t help himself from flirting with misha, but if misha ever crossed a line, jensen would not be happy. clearly he’s come around, however. what i find sweet is that misha always follows jensen’s lead when it comes to how much affection they’re allowed to show each other onstage. it touches my soul

4. destiel is cockles fault. yeah. and the thing is everyone knows it, too. even non-cockles shippers will explain early destiel as entirely dependant on jensen and misha’s wild chemistry. and that chemistry is easily explained by the fact that misha and jensen are literally just wildly horny bisexuals who were crazily attracted to one another and were falling in love on screen before our very eyes. and when you have THAT insider info(which sounds cray doesn’t it!!!! the destiel actors are in love irl??? huh???) everything really does click into place. why destiel got SO popular when the show and actors never ever intended for it to happen.(i know some people think misha was playing cas as gay the whole time for shits and giggles, and i won’t deny that[especially considering he found out early on that destiel was why he was staying on the show], but i don’t think he really wanted it to amount to anything, nor did he care??? i mean he has the real thing with jensen, for one, so their characters aren’t really as important. for two, he loves joking about destiel because it’s a cultural phenomenon and it’s fascinating, and i’m sure he did ship it because he’s unhinged, but i don’t think it was vastly important to him either way.) destiel got popular because everyone was and is unintentionally reading into the real deal. i could pull up countless gifs that people have used as destiel proof that is actually just jensen and misha being messy. mainly jensen. if i’m being honest.  the symbiotic relationship between destiel and cockles is why i’ve stayed onboard the destielcule and shellerscape for three solid months now; because it is utterly fascinating to witness and kind of super beautiful, too. 

5. alma(and others). so. i do NOT want to really REALLY get into this in its entirety here and now so i will just give you my opinion on if i think alma is misha or not. also; i don’t want to mention the other poetry accounts here bc i feel like that’s a bigger breach in privacy, but a lot of people do know about alma now. way too many, actually. this is why we can’t have nice things. anyway-to answer your question-there is absolutely no doubt in my mind that yes, misha is running that alma poetry account. i am 100% certain. some people think it’s actually three people and they’re all connected to misha in some way but that is so needlessly complicated. as it goes in psychology; the easiest explanation is probably the right one. it’s just one person running that account, and it is misha collins. i don’t know why it’s so hard to believe KNOWN POET misha collins(who is known to spend most of his free time writing poetry anyway) would have created a secret poetry account to write about his intense secret relationship under an alias and also get legitimate feedback since no one used to know it was him. oh and the handwriting is identical??? you are blind if you do not see that i am sorry. and a million other things prove it’s misha too but yeah all you need to know is yes. it’s him. it would take a literal livestream from a random woman on that account to convince me otherwise. and honestly not even that because a random woman could technically still log in if misha asked her too. so. it would take a hell of a lot to convince me otherwise, clearly. that said DO NOTTTTTTTTTTTT GO ONTO THAT ACCOUNT WITH A SUPERNATURAL RELATED USERNAME AND COMMENT THINGS THAT ARE COCKLES RELATED. ARE YOU BRAIN DEAD WHY WOULD YOU THINK THAT’S OKAY. sorry i got heated but god please just don’t be dumb so many people have already gone way too far 

6. thank you for your lovely compliment on my analyses!!! i love doing them but i don’t know if people actually like reading them so i really appreciate it

[saintobio]

I'm eating sandwich on our dining table while reading chp 5... My heart went-💔 when I know that Sera will be there and-(gosh I can't type his name now IT HURTS) he's looking for her this whole time and then when he's trying to put those shoes on her-😭💔 I run to my room just as mc running away from them not to witness how sweet they are (also to hide my sobbing face from my family here😐) (╥﹏╥) and thank goodness there's Toji my ghhaad-😭 I was screaming internally that he should take y/n far away from that man, take this pain away, forget that husband lmao... But then surprisingly, this husband does care for y/n because he didn't leave y/n side til morning and that's... Unexpected or just to show his goody sides😐 then Sera showed up and I-😐 can't wait for the husband's pov and some hidden explanations🙂 this chap is mixed of emotions... But I'm ok2 here🥺 truly what a wonderful writing and chap again ai-san~💛 thank you sooo much bby now take a rest and stay safe there~💛

Anonymous said

omg, reading the sn update was such a rollercoaster !! sobs

it would be so cute if toji & y/n got close and she becomes the cool, fun aunt or friend (?) for megumi—is it okay to ask how old he is in this series?

++ with their friendship, i’d imagine that y/n would always be like, “wow, it’s really not that obvious.”

then toji would fall for it every time and snort, saying, “what, that i’m almost forty?”

then y/n would reply, “no. that you’re just thirty-five.” LMAOOO

pls i just wish she gets a confidant along the way 🥺 she deserves the world honestly pls she’s so precious!!! hrhfhrhf. thank you for the update, btw! this silent reader right here enjoyed it a lot. 🤗.

Anonymous said

you probably wont understand this but caralho sincerely not ta fazendo eu ficar biruta de vdd

your writing is sooooo good fr i just woke up at 3 in the morning and rn its 5 in the morning and im so auhahahwuuwuqhshsihsjsbbsjshdiwheh because of sincerely not

Anonymous said

I was holding up fine with the shoes fuckery he pulled but omg him calling us "attention seeker" REALLY fucking hurt me so much lmao. Imagine the next time we actually have much sharper, stabbing chest pains which are more frequent and also last a bit longer and WHEN satoru starts actually caring a little and asks if we're okay, we just go, "oh this?? The doctor said it's a severe case of me attention seeking ^-^ Don't mind me baby, you go chase your happiness! :)))" (THAT TOO WHILE IN PAIN) - ⛈

Anonymous said

i hateeee ongoing fics i swore id never read them because the waiting makes me go insane or i forget to read updates but since i discovered u, i literally just cant stop myself from tuning in every single fic—even if its a character i don't usually simp for 😭 i love ur work sm omg

@chaveisa said

i just binged what you have of sincerely not so far and all i can say is i’m in so much pain. you are quite literally one of my favorite writers on this platform and you wreck me so bad with the angst but it’s all angst i love. truly love how you’ve written gojo in this one and can’t wait to see what you have in store!

ps— i found you through wastelands and when i tell you i was wrecked for a solid week >~< truly keep up the good work bb🖤

Anonymous said

ohhhh the asks are open 😳 i just wanted to say that sn is a fuckin masterpiece. reading the latest chapter (about that the shoes that princess diana wore) i really think that y/n-gojo- sera situation is similar to diana-charles-camilla's story. oof i really hope that isn't some sort of foreshadowing cuz EYE-🚶‍♀️💨

Anonymous said

hmmmm i love me some good heavy angst gojo fics.... BUT WTF WAS SINCERELY YOURS HOLY SHIT I'VE JUST READ IT IN ONE SITTING AND NOW MY NOSE IS CLOGGED 👁️👄👁️

@juniorhooter said

FR im scared to start Sincerely Not,, i still have wounds from Wastelands and idk if my heart is ready. Like im seeing all these ppl mad at gojo. I haven't even read it yet, and im mad at gojo. I dont fully know whats happening yet but get with #WeHateHoejoSlutoru and #WeLoveTojiFushiguro. I'll read it eventually... soon... maybe, if im feeling self-destructive. But in the meanwhile, good luck to everyone else going through the turmoil :))

@blossomingwaifu16 said

OMG THE ASKS ARE OPEN AGAIN!! My friend sent me Sincerely not (beacuse she knows I'm a masochist and love hurting myself- 💀) and damn! it did not disappoint- also reading it made me realise how petty I can be 😭 like everytime Gojo was being mean to the mc I'd be like "fuck you gojo your girlfriend is way nicer then you I'd rather fuck her bitchboy" and that's coming from someone straight 💀 but in chapter 5 I was like "fuck ya'll I wanna be single again-" IT WAS A ROLLERCOASTER of emotions and I'm here for it! And oh boy the scenarios I have in my head to make gojo suffer 😈. Anyways I love the writing and could I please be added to the taglist!? I've been meaning to ask but your asks were closed 😊

3rd anon what does that mean jssndj but omg thank u guysss aaaaa i’m sorry i’m unable to respond individually as i also have lots of asks to answer still but i appreciate ur messages <33 i enjoyed reading all ur reactions so far!! :’)

also, all taglists are full! i’m sorry.

[darkpoisonouslove]

I'm offering you an empty salt shaker - asks 2, 5, 6, 15 (go ahead, I know you have something XD), 16, 20, 25 (about Bloom searching for her parents storyline)

Starting this again because guess who accidentally hit the key combination for undo and lost half an answered ask! This bitch right here.

I answered 2 here.

5. Has fandom ever ruined a pairing for you?*

Not that I can think of. It’s usually the source material that ruins things and fandom is tasked with fixing them later.

6. Has fandom ever made you enjoy a pairing you previously hated?*

I didn’t hate it but Bloom x Icy was incomprehensible to me. Fics helped a lot and so did other posts from here and there and I can see it now. Also, I totally couldn’t see Griffin x Codatorta but that changed, too. Though, that was less fandom and more trashcankitty12 with an ask that made me think about it a little more in-depth so it was pretty much me roping up myself into yet another ship. But ooh, I also don’t think I had considered Palladium x Avalon before fandom but, yes, indeed, it is right there in canon. And I was so puzzled over the Riven x Nabu content I was seeing but after watching seasons 3 and 4, I can totally see where this is coming from. The people are right. That is a bromance right there.

15. Unpopular opinion about the manga/show?

I have no idea what is popular and what isn’t (but you’re right that I have something aka A LOT) so I’ll just list my strong opinionsTM, okay? I will try not to dump on Bloom too much also because it is not a secret that I don’t like her so there is no need for me to go in too much detail.

4kids is the superior dub. That is probably the most controversial opinion I hold. But don’t worry, I’ll try to top it and up the ante. XD

I love Enchantix but it has so many flaws as a concept and even more as an execution and the thing that is really pissing me off is how obviously centered around Bloom’s arc it is. It was clearly created for the advancement of her character and the other girls’ stories came as an afterthought which is why Tecna’s Enchantix was total bullshit. And for having a transformation that is specifically created around Bloom, hers was bullshit as well. I think they should have let her reearn it in order for her to be able to use all of its functions like miniaturizing. Also also, at so many points it totally sounds like Bloom is not upset about the fact that Domino and all of its people were destroyed but about the fact that that means she won’t get her Enchantix. Which btw was a hasty conclusion because at the time Enchantix became a thing, she was still on a mission to find her parents which would have definitely been a way to earn her Enchantix and she had a sign that they were alive. So her angsting over not getting an Enchantix because of what happened on Domino was bad form on the writers’ part.

That spell for good decisions in 1x05 was one of the show’s lowest and most ridiculous moments. It was only included to flaunt in your face how naturally being a leader comes to Bloom because “See? See!!!!!! She can make a good decision without using magic to help her!” So can the majority of the population (note that we are talking about ONE good decision, not an unbreakable sequence of such). She ain’t all that special. Plus, Tecna was written wildly OOC there in order to boost Bloom’s stats so to speak. I’m sorry but Tecna would’ve known that three against four doesn’t give them advantage since they are freshmen and the Trix were seniors at the time. God, that scene was stupid.

Flora is the most boring character in seasons 1-3, fight me about it.

The writers totally had no idea what they were doing with the witches throughout most of season 1 which is why Griffin’s characterization in that season is so inconsistent. Also, wtf was that in 1x06? She straight up tried to kill a bunch of 15-year-old girls. Take a chill pill! I’m glad they figured out a much better balance with her later on.

Not using the fact that Cloud Tower is a living organism more was a fucking wasted opportunity. Especially in season 3 when Valtor took over it. That could have made everything so much better. Also, the witches should have been used more. They were interesting but deserved so much better in terms of development.

Sky should have just fucking died in 2x10. What were these resurrections and Bloom getting healing powers out of nowhere for a total of 5 seconds? You know, that could have been a good setup for a Bloom x Diaspro romance. It would have been so much better if they’d gotten together right after 1x17 and dumped Sky’s sorry ass. Also, Diaspro deserved better.

Riven is the best Specialist but he is especially better than Sky. Remember 1x22 when he was trying to escape CT? He was trapped deep in enemy territory with monsters everywhere and so high above the ground, yet he found his way out. Sky would’ve fucking died out in the open at Magix against one single monster if Bloom hadn’t shown up to rescue him. And the show has the gall to imply that Sky is a better Specialist than Riven is? Please!

The teachers should be fined and sued for emotional and physical damage they haven’t protected their students from. Especially the Alfea teachers who in 1x02 practically admitted that the witches might maim a fairy and they still won’t do shit about it. Nice one!

Griffin and Valtor is canonical subtext and I have nothing more to say about this. It is all there.

Valtor up until 3x18 and Valtor from 3x19 to 3x26 are two different people and the prior is superior in every way. The show ruined him in the last third of the season because there was no other way for Winx to defeat him.

Speaking about Valtor, his whole thing with the Trix is despicable and I hate it so much. It is extremely cringy on their part and extremely underhanded on his and I can’t stand it. Not to mention that it is wildly OOC for the Trix because they are obviously better than that.

I cannot understand saying that Bloom x Valtor is love-hate. I see only hate.

It is ridiculous how easily the Trix beat Griffin in season 6 and how they nearly take control over CT in season 2. And it is also ridiculous that she had to wait for Winx to unspell CT in season 3. She is a teacher, the headmistress of the most prestigious school for witches, a veteran and has been Valtor’s partner (and he himself admitted that together they were unstoppable which means that she has to be pretty powerful and even somewhere close to his level of power). Can the show stop acting like she is defenseless?

The teachers should have been used more. It would’ve been so much better if they were there to at least help Winx if not lead their battles. And it would have made much more sense. Also, how come Ediltrude and Zarathustra literally disappear when it’s convenient and then reappear again (like they did in season 1 when the witches went to Alfea)? That’s just bad writing.

Sky is adopted. He doesn’t resemble Erendor or Samara neither in appearance, nor in character and I hate them enough to headcanon that he was adopted but nobody knows because they don’t want to have claims that he is not an “official” heir of the throne because he isn’t part of the bloodline.

Mike and Vanessa are much more parents to Bloom than Marion and Oritel are, especially when the latter were first released from Obsidian, and the fact that Bloom starts calling them Mike and Vanessa instead of mom and dad after she learns she has other parents is abysmal. Also, they are literally the best parents ever and I love them to death. (I also like Marion and Oritel but Mike and Vanessa are definitely the superior pair of parents if we’re ranking them. I like the idea that the two couples are actually super close and love each other like relatives, in fact.)

What the fuck is up with the magic in this show? There is literally, like, NO FUCKING CONSISTENCY WHATSOEVER! You can’t blink without the rules of it changing in some way. But what am I saying? That would imply that there are any rules which is just not true. Also, there is no clear distinction of how powerful anyone is after season 1. The balance of powers especially between Winx and the Trix is pretty much whatever works for the episode. Same for Winx vs Valtor. The fuckery on that account is unreal. Plus, some of Bloom’s major power explosions happen due to her getting angry. According to the official Wiki - “While practicing or harnessing positive magic, one must keep a compassionate heart, primarily by keeping their thoughts and feelings clear of all negativity, making them capable of attracting positive energy more easily. Thus, if one is plagued with negative thoughts or feelings such as sadness, anger or fear, then their magic will grow   weaker until they may even be left incapable of casting magic until said feelings pass.“ Read that and then read it again, let it sink in. According to the rules of the Winx universe, during some of Bloom’s most powerful moments she was actually using dark magic, not light such because it was fueled by rage. Way to keep it fucking consistent. And that is not just Bloom! FLORA out of all people attacks the Trix in rage in 3x12 when they hurt her sister aka she was also using dark magic at that situation (and then you have Wizgiz scolding Mirta for it in SotLK like it is a sin to use dark magic, smh). In some instances I would argue that it was more of determination to protect rather than anger which I would say would still result in light magic. But The Flora thing, Bloom vs Stormy in 1x09 (Bloom even says she got so angry so that was not a case of protectiveness), Bloom vs Icy in 1x26 and Bloom vs Valtor in 3x14 were definitely rage aka dark magic. And then Bloom is all “fairies don’t have any demons”. Guess again, bitch! Also, writers, you need a dictionary to start comprehending the words you are actually writing?

Now that I think of it, the whole arc in the Resort Realm was bullshit. If it is a magic-free realm, nobody should have any magic in it, period! What is this bullshit that you can use Charmix and Gloomix there because they have higher magical energy? That absolutely doesn’t matter! If there isn’t any magic in the entire realm, having a higher amount of magic in you will not matter because you still can’t use it... because there isn’t any in the realm!!!!!! What the hell! Honestly, the writers can’t comprehend what words mean and that is not the only instance in which it shows.

Someone told me that SotLK is better than Magical Adventure and I don’t mean to offend but that is simply not true. Magical Adventure is leagues above SotLK even if it has some structural problems. Like, literally everything is better. Bloom and Sky are even likable and communicate!!!!!!!! Literally when have you ever seen a better moment for their relationship than in Magical Adventure? If it had been all like that, I would have liked them as a couple.

I think I got everything that comes to mind rn out. Might think of more at some point. I was done and then came back to rage some more because I remembered I had more material.

16. If you could change anything in the show, what would you change?

I would have them make smart decisions because 99% of the shit they pull is so stupid it is unreal. I literally cannot tell how they are still alive. Oh, no wait! Plot armor. Yep, that’s it.

But if I had to pick something specific? Bring Nabu back. I sure as hell wouldn’t have killed him. That was an asshole move and I have no idea what the hell the writers were thinking when they wrote that.

And my second choice is - implement a magical system into the series because there isn’t one. Magic always works the way the writers need it to work to pull off their bullshit plot even if it contradicts everything that we’ve seen before. Please, for the love of god! Consistency is already dead; stop stabbing its corpse!!!!

20. What is the purest ship in the fandom?

Purest ship? Lmao, asking me this question is underhanded. XD If you mean no drama, then Flora and Helia Mike and Vanessa. But I think my actual answer would be Griffin x Faragonda because they have been through so much that we know of or we can deduce and they still stuck together. Sure, they had their ups and downs but it is obviously a love for life that has lasted through so many obstacles and keeps lasting. The reason why I can’t say the same for Mike and Vanessa is because we don’t really know that much about their relationship with each other. But anyway I love both these ships so much.

If you’re talking about a canon ship, though, then Brandon and Stella (I do not recognize the stupid relationship drama in season 4 as canon). He did lie to her about his identity in season 1 but it was for his friendship with Sky (alternatively, for his job and duty as Sky’s squire). I just love how obviously in love Brandon is with Stella and how much Stella doesn’t care about anything but him. She didn’t care that he was a “commoner” and - one of my fave moments - in 1x08 she only cared about his well-being rather than the competition. It was adorable and they are adorable and I love them so much. Pure serotonin, right there!

25. How would you end the Bloom searching for her parents storyline/Would you change the ending?

I would certainly change the logistics of the whole thing because, boy, did it make no sense at all. As for the actual ending, I’d argue that physically finding them is not the end of that storyline and she needs to “find” them emotionally as well which would definitely take more time than SotLK cared to address. Like, she got them out of Obsidian and boom, everything’s fine! She literally doesn’t know them! Those are her parents and she doesn’t know anything about them! Their touch and their voices are unfamiliar to her even and they have missed on so much that they will never be able to get back and you’re saying that everything is fine? Yeah, right.

I would have had her spend a year on Domino with them before season 4. The school year that started in SotLK? She spends that with them. Possibly even the one that starts in Magical Adventure as well. She learns everything she can about them and the family history. She also learns how to be a proper royal because she is the Crown Princess now and she has no idea what the fuck she is doing. I would have made seasons 4 and possibly 5 about that and added more politics in it. Layla and Stella are also princesses who will run their kingdoms one day so we could have had adventures in political relations with Winx Club. They are pretty famous so I am sure there would be rulers of other lands that see them as threats and don’t like them. There could have been tension about that and the whole thing with Domino being the planet of the Dragon Fire could have been addressed. Who would dare oppose them when they are the most powerful force? Are they the most powerful force after the 17 years the planet spent as an ice block? Are there old alliances to be reforged? What is the political climate in the Magic Dimension? All absolutely fascinating questions that would have helped the worldbuilding and made place for Marion and Oritel in Bloom’s life and in the show. We could’ve gone back to the feel of season 1 when they also had other things going on besides the big baddie of the season and it could have been a little more episodical with a loose theme to connect the season and the overarching story of Bloom finding her parents and her place in the world she was born in. That could have been positively epic... And a great way to retain the cast because the Company of Light were allegedly friends so we could have seen Marion and Oritel reconnecting with Griffin, Faragonda, Saladin and Hagen. There could have been resurfacing debates left over from the war. Kingdoms angry at Domino for something that happened back then in order to include flashbacks with the events. AND that would work out with the fact that the Ancestral Witches were still around and could have led to another epic battle that wouldn’t end with the destruction of a whole planet. Like I said, there were amazing possibilities... and they were all wasted.

Well, this was long... and just what I needed. I hope some (civilized) discussion will spark out of that because I am tired of screaming in a void and I want people to talk to me.

[pancake-flying]

How does the Sharingan work?

Because I’m a science freak, this is my hot take on the Sharingan.

So, the Sharingan is a complex mutation of the eye and their connection to the brain. I’ve talked about how chakra is, essentially, radiation. Now, because the Uchiha clan is directly related to Indra (Hagoromo’s son) they have more traits that make them unique and gift them more powers. 

Namely, the Sharingan.

How does the three tomoe thingy work? 

Well, the ‘tomoe’ is another name for pupil. I say that the eye has little muscles around the iris that, when prompted, can open a ridge that would act as a second (third, fourth…) pupil. This will allow more light to come into view, and maybe more color range to be seen in the brain. 

How does the tomoe appear? 

Much like adrenaline, the tomoe only appear when it’s needed. When in danger OR under severe emotional stress, the muscles spasm and open the tomoe/s to allow the user to avoid such danger and get the hell out of there. With more tomoe one can see time almost in slow motion, which is because of a bigger influx of light/stimulation that makes the brain process quicker. More tomoe means more advantages, and if I recall correctly, the Sharingan is immune to genjutsu because it allows the user to see reality starkly and not be influenced by chakra powered illusions.

Why is the Sharingan red? 

Okay, this one I pulled it out of my ass, but hear me out. Because the Sharigan is a mutation of the eye and has extra muscles, it’s not that far fetched to believe that has more blood vessels to keep it running. The Sharingan needs chakra to function, and when active, that chakra… um… lights up the blood. It’s like having a nightlight behind your eyes that, when switched on, it glows red. I get this from albinos, that have red eyes because of the lack of melanin; an Uchiha has black eyes, but with that much blood and that much chakra, it appears red.

How does the swirling of the tomoe happen? 

The muscles that open the tomoe/pupils contract and, for lack of a better word, spin the iris and stretch it so it appears that it’s moving. This ridges in the iris will go back to the original form once the stimuli are over (or the need).

Consequences: 

Using the Sharingan too much will cause blindness because the chakra will burn the receptors, nerves and everything in between until you can’t see anymore. This effect will worsen if you have a more advanced Sharingan (Mangekyo) because of the heavy influx of chakra needed to keep it active. 

How about the unique abilities of the Mangekyo? 

This comes because of the difference between individuals when it comes to their bodies. Chakra pathways are different for everyone, and the Uchiha are especially troublesome because of the mutation in their eyes and how it affects them. The Mangekyo abilities appear because large amounts of chakra are syphoned out, and because they are descendants from Hagoromo. The Mangekyo is different because the muscles tear the iris in different ways and allows for a certain ammount of chakra to be used for a unique kind of jutsu/ability. 

BTW IDK how the fuck I do the Eternal Mangekyo fuckery, because it doesn’t make any sense. With my headcanons, transplants of eyeballs aren’t possible. Like, how does it work? From a biological point of view? Either you put the eyeball or you keep yours you can’t… you can’t put one over the other like layers of clothing! So, I don’t think that I will be putting the Eternal Mangekyo just for edginess, the Uchiha are OP enough as it is. 

[soulbornincoldandrain]

so im just going to have to sit here and deal with the fact that ADAM is absolutely unhinged and if i emotionally distance myself from the other characters i have to say this man is an absolute blast of a villain

like, yes the flamboyant borderline pedophilic bastard with a weird notion of love and just enough nostalgic backstory to evoke the slightest bit of sympathy in the user, and if not sympathy then just plain curiosity as to how this fucker ended up the way he did

like there's this very casual buildup to his complete fuckery; we start with rude and alienated and extravagant with the slightest hint of pedophilia and we go yeah, yeah he's the antagonist and then he starts flirting?? with our seventeen year old definitely-a-minor protag in his weird creepy way?? and like yeah he's definitely perverted and creepy and the living personification of MAKES-ME-FEEL-UNSAFE-IN-THE-SAFETY-OF-MY-ROOM and like that's the target right? that's what they're going for

not to mention, the way he treats tadashi, right? his closest friend, his only confidante, the only person he trusts enough to help him with his shady af double life on the tracks of S !! and he calls him a dog, treats him the way a crappy excuse for a human would treat a stray mutt and is generally super tasteless and extra which is pretty in character of him and you're like surely there is no redemption for this man right?

and there isn't! there is absolutely no redemption for him,,,

,,,but then we have the fleeting moments of vulnerability, of his aunt's revealing their shitty personalities and the way they've tormented ainosuke his whole life and how skating was his only reprieve that was also brutally snatched away from him and so he's filled with bitterness like; yeah, sympathy maybe, sure

and maybe that even explains his toxic and disgusting view on the class divide, maybe it's been forced upon him by his aunts (which btw i can totally see happening, what with the way they completely purged ainosuke of any capability of love) and that coupled with his own bitterness stemming from the fact that tadashi didn't stand up for him in a place where ainosuke genuinely believes he should have (and btw don't get me wrong, tadashi is Not at fault here because his literal life would have been on the line had he tried to defend his master's stupid skating hobby and yeah im saying ainosuke is an entitled piece of ass but that's the thing about entitlement; it blinds you) and still no redemption, but it's just enough to keep you on your toes

// mentions of abuse, emotional manipulation and all the ugly business

and oh, did i mention he had a tragic past? verbal and physical abuse that bent and rewired his concepts of love so that he started to view abuse and hatred as love and care and the determined reassurance from every character who knew him in the past, oh he wasn't like this before and he changed for the worse and like okay, yeah maybe he has some shred of humanity within him

and his interactions with cherry and joe and tadashi back then, that smiling laughing kid of the past being pushed around on the board by tadashi, that quiet terrified little boy hiding in the corner because even though his aunts told him they were punishing him out of love it still hurt and he was terrified, he didn't want to go back to that and so tadashi helped him out of there, offered him a way out on four wheels and a rush of adrenaline and then that same tadashi who was a hero in ainosuke's eyes ended up betraying him in front of his father

the same ADAM who formed an important bond with his best friends and started a whole underground skating movement with them, the same person who kaoru was (im assuming) wildly in love with, to the point that this relationship of theirs blinded him into complete faith and was the ultimate reason why he lost against ADAM in this episode

and like. we see this huge divide between childhood + teenage ainosuke and the way he just wanted to skate because he enjoyed skating, skate to escape from the pain of his responsibilities, skate because he loved his friends and then we have adult ADAM, this wildly unpredictable man-child who flirts with a seventeen year old because he genuinely believes the two of them are made for each other and it really gets you wondering as to whether he really was this manipulative sleazebag in desperate need of therapy all along, or whether something changed along the way that made him who he is today, whether cherry and tadashi, the two people whom we know to be near-canonically in love with ainosuke, were right about him all along and that underneath that terrifyingly creepy façade he's,,, secretly a good guy?

and they rope you along! even if it's just for a second, you feel that slightest bit of sympathy for the bullshit he's gone through like yeah i hate the fucker, but i sincerely wish he manages to free himself from the shackles of a life he didn't want and that he gets that catharsis for all the pain he's suffered-

-AND THEN HE UP AND FUCKING DECKS CHERRY IN THE FACE WITH A SKATEBOARD WHILE THE MAN WAS COMING AT HIM AT NEARLY THIRTY MILES PER HOUR??? BECAUSE HE WANTED TO GET A POINT ACROSS???

man.

[snarkandsarcasmftw]

                    ❝  2020... the year that felt like a fuckin decade. ❞

That being said, I thought I’d take the time to stop and take a breather. Reflect on some lovely people who have made 2020 at least a little bit brighter for me. I love all of you, know this before I go any further and get into it. I’m gonna do my best to get everyone, but if you’re not on here... doesn’t mean I hate you so please don’t think that. Also, these are not in alphabetical order and for that, I apologize...Kinda. I rambled, so just to keep this post from stretching out the dash, I’ll be a good girl and put a read more.

Also, why yes.. Yes I did post this two whole ass days before 2021. I am.. that ready for 2020 to be over if I’m being perfectly honest and I’m praying that 2021 is better than 2020 was because 2020 was a whole ass bitch. We all know that though.. anyway... enough rambling.

@micolegg​ I love you so, so, so much. And words cannot express how proud I am of you because you not only saw a need for a fic you wanted to read, you went out there and you wrote it and it was fucking brilliant, okay? I hope you keep writing, because you have serious talent. I love talking to you and listening to you tell me about your family always makes me smile. I’m glad you’re happy. I’m so glad I met you and I truly hope we continue to be friends, because you’ve always been there for me and I don’t think you realize just how much that means to me.

@wardl0w​ J, i love you. I love you with my whole ass. I’d say heart, but my ass is bigger lol. I love your fics too, you have this amazing talent with capturing scenes and describing them in a way I know I honestly cannot... and I think from like.. The second conversation we had, I was happy because it felt like I found a kindred spirit. We’ve been friends forever now and I honestly hope that never changes! P.S.. You can have the sequoia, I’ll take the idiot boy toy with ridiculous fashion sense. We can split Trent? Seems fair, yeah? ( We both know I’m only sharing Trent because I’m greedier with Mox, lmaooo.) I know you’ll protest this when I say it, but you’re such a sweet person, don’t bother denying it. You put up with my fuckery in the DMS and that means the world to me. You have been a huge support this past year, i honestly don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have you to talk to.

@andie01​ i’m so glad we met. you’ve been an amazing friend. i love that you don’t talk me out of my dumb fuckery -we both KNOW it is half the time, don’t lie, lmaooo.  I’m so happy for you, and I’m so proud to call you my friend. You’re always making me laugh or smile and I just wanted you to know that if you ever need to talk or vent, I’m here for you. Also, I miss your writing because I was addicted to your a/overse fic, you have no idea. Love you!

@kayah16​ It has been an actual blessing to get to talk to you, dear. I love you lots. Your posts make me smile and you’re such a sweetheart. I truly hope that you’re doing well and that you have a great year. I hope that you know you’ve always made me smile and laugh and you’re just such a sweet and open hearted person that I feel like getting to talk to you when I do is an actual gift. You say that you’re not a writer and that your writing isn’t good. You’re wrong. It’s good. I like reading the things you post. And keeping up with those threads you’ve been doing on the dash. Thank you for being you.

@schizoauthoress​ we just recently started to talk and I love you so so much. I enjoy our talks, because even if we don’t share the same view, I come away enlightened and I love it when that happens. You’re an amazing person, okay? You have a big heart and a good sense of humor and you’re always making me smile, even when some days I don’t feel like smiling. I hope we continue to be friends. I’m always here for you if you need me or want to talk, I hope you know that by now.

@missjenniferb​ ahhh i love you. and it’s so great to see the things you tag me in, you don’t know how many days you’ve tagged me in something and I saw it and it made my day infinitely better. I’m lucky to call you a friend and I love your sense of humor. You’re always making me smile or laugh. I hope you know how much I enjoy talking to you / your posts. I wish I was an artist like you because you’re really good. If I could do it, I’d totally kidnap Dean Winchester and give him to you, by the way. I call dibs on Moose though. :) I love you! 

@chasingeverybreakingwave​ Loni, bb... ahhh, where do I even begin? You’re always making me laugh. And thirst. A lot. I love that I can joke with you and you’ll give it right back. I enjoy every single one of our talks and I’m always so happy to see you on my dash. Heel hoes for life, ftw. I haven’t forgotten, bb. I won’t ever forget.

@helluvawriter​ You’re such a sweetheart and I love you. You were one of the first people in the wrestling fandom I talked to way back when and I remember being blown away when you started talking to me because I’m like... Holy shit, they want to talk to me, an actual idiot? I hope that one day, if I grow up lmao, I’m like you. Never change, bb. Also, you’ve made me like fandoms that I know nothing about, you have this way of making your writing so emotional that like ahhhh.. It’s so good. So good.

@vonschweetz​ even though we don’t get to talk much anymore, I still love you. You’re like the kid sister I never had? And I’m still so very proud of you, the way you’re taking life by the horns and making shit happen. You’ve been through a lot, so to see you blooming like you are is a joy. Keep going forward. I know you’re going to make everything your heart desires come true.

@rampagewriting​ bb, I love you. I love your sense of humor and you’re an actual sweetheart, okay? Like with von above.. I truly do feel like you’re a sister to me. I’m so happy that your life is going great and that things are working themselves out for you at last and I’m so very proud of you. You’re an amazing and creative person and I always have fun talking to/ yelling with/ thirsting with you. You’ve actually been a huge source of comfort to me this past year, btw. I know I haven’t ever really said as much, but you have. And I hope that you know I’m always here for you.

@champbucks​ , you’re the kindest soul. I love how I can go to you with literally anything and not feel like I’m bothering the shit out of you. I’m so glad you wound up on the same discord server I’m in. I truly enjoy our talks / venting / thirsting sessions. I really hope we continue to be friends because honestly, our talks have really brightened my days. If you ever just need to vent or rant, I’m always around.

@cowboyshit​ Doe.. Sweet Doe... My name twin. You have the sweetest and biggest heart. You have helped me through a lot this past year, I don’t think you know how much. Just having somebody that gets how it feels when the bad brain weasels kick in to talk to. I hope you realize that if you ever need me, I’m here. I wish I had half your talent in gif making and writing because every time I read something you wrote / see a gif set you made, I am blown away like... Holy shit. I think my decision to fall head over heels for a certain blue eyed cowboy had some amazing results, becoming friends with you was honestly one of them. I love how accepting you are and the way you stick up for people. There should be more people like you in the world, I’m being totally serious.

@kyleoreillysknee​ lemon, i loooooove you. I also blame you because I now love Kyle O’Reilly and a certain citrus guy from AEW. But I don’t mind at all. Getting to know you has been a joy and you crack me up. I love talking to you and I really hope we continue to be friends. I’ve been so happy to get to know you and I’m so proud of you, okay? 

@adampage​ Emi! I know we don’t get to talk much at all anymore. I just wanted to tell you I love you and I’m so so so so glad you asked me to join in the hangman gang. Because if you hadn’t, we might not have spoken and that’d be sad. You’re such a sweet and caring person. I’m glad I got to know you and I hope that we get to talk more at some point. Your gifs and your posts always make me smile and I’m always so happy when I see you online. 

@tetsuyainthesky​ dirt.. wife.. It kinda feels like we are two ships passing in the night. But honestly, I have enjoyed talking to you when we have gotten to talk. You’re a sweetheart and you always crack me up. I really hope we get to catch up at some point. I just wanted to tell you that I love you and you’re a sweetheart.

@hungmanhorsecarriage​ i just wanted to tell you that you’re a sweetheart. And I’ve liked talking to you, hope to talk to you more in the year coming. I know I haven’t been around / talkative that much but I enjoy talking to you and I think you’re so sweet. It makes me smile to see you on the dash, you just don’t know how much. I’m glad we started to talk because you’re hilarious and you make me smile.

[seijorhi]

asks :)

Sorry for the delay y’all :) 

Been reading Bite The Bullet again and I was wondering if I could ask/thirst about which team members started pushing the line of what was appropriate and what they were doing when they did so? 👀 (sorry I'm a whore for Shiratorizawa)

Semi semi and Tendou for sure!! (and they definitely dragged Ushijima into it too). Thy’ve always been a little more ‘hands on’ with their manager. It’s a little bit possessive and born out of jealousy - especially at games and stuff, but also because they just... can? And what starts as a hug, kind of becomes a little less innocent when hand dips lower to rest on the curve of your ass (and they’ll play it off with a laugh when you squeak and flush if maybe they just happen to squeeze). It’s normal for you to come into the change rooms after practice because they just have to talk to you about something. About volleyball of course. They’ll forget it if they have to wait. And isn’t it your job to help them when they’re injured and sore? Because Semi’s back’s been twinging a nit and Tendou thinks he might have pulled a muscle in his leg? Maybe a massage might help? You’re such a good little manager for them!

And really, sometimes signals get so easily misread. With you on your knees, looking up at them with those wide, innocent eyes, who can really blame them for taking that next step? You never said no.

You didn’t say yes either.

Reading that Hitman!Iwa fic was like taking a shot of serotonin in my veins that was so wonderful!!!! Your writing is always so nice and always evokes a feeling of dread for reader yet I cant help but still love these creepy men !!! Please take all my love ❤️💞💓💗💕❤️💞❤️💗💕

Ahh thank you so much, bby!

OKAY correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't the end of NFWMB (love you for that btw) kind of a happy ending?? like, when he 'coaxes you into a lingering kiss', I felt like that meant that you agreed to being kept by him?? am I reading this wrong??

either way, I looooved it and I literally jumped from joy when I got the notif you uploaded something because I have the biggest boner for iwaizumi lately and I adore everything you write!

So I guess it’s up to you to interpret the ending how you want to? The reader is crying at that point (When he comes home, his shirt flecked with blood, his hands still dripping with it and coaxes your stricken, tear stained face up into a lingering kiss...) but how you want to interpret that crying - relief, being overwhelmed with the whole situation, fear, whatever - is totally up to you :)

so i read the iwachan hitman au (i love it great job fantastic beautiful✨) and i keep thinking of a scene where iwa gives you the same cookie you gave him and be like look! remember when you gave me this cookie? that's when i fell in love with you <3 all you can think about is how you wish that business man threw that coffee at you instead of iwa saving you -@shamelessaizawaslut

I mean nobody really wants hot coffee thrown at them, but yeah, I get your point. I think the reader would also regret being so nice (maybe if you hadn’t have smiled, or didn’t offer him the muffin and the cookie the next day, maybe he would have walked away) - all the internalised victim blaming :(

but sdfgjkjgfgh thank you!!

Listening to NFWMB & From Eden while reading Hitman Iwa 👌👌👌👌👌

Yaaas! I’m still such a whore for Hozier and these songs are MOOD!

I WILL BE UTILIZING THE FACT THAT SUGGESTIONS ARE OPEN AND I AM SUGGESTING A PART 2 FOR FOR NOTHING FUCKS WITH MY BABY

😉

Out of the yandere haikyuu boys, who do you think would enjoy a submissive darling? Like they're naturally very compliant and since most of them are basically made up of muscle they're just scared of them and just becomes very obedient.

Hmm, tbh I think a lot of them would but Ushijima is legit top of that list. That man wants to come home, give you a look (which is gonna basically be his normal face because that man does not emote) and have you on your back with your legs spread so he can breed you like the good little housewife you are.

Hi, are there things that you won't write? I've read the rules but there are no exceptions, so I'm wondering if you have forgotten to update or if you are really alright with anything?

👀what kind of fuckery are you gonna send me?? My rules say that i don’t do beastiality & watersports - those are my hard no’s. I don’t like to write anything gory/super heavy on abuse, but for most things I’m open to considering it (also sometimes you don’t realise you’re not cool with something until you see it if that makes sense? 

during quarantine? i’ve started reading fanfics again after years and you were a huge reason i started again. You’re a really good writer with a dark mind, i love it!!

hey um i love you no biggie (but thank you!!!)

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhnnnffff at the "manager flees successfully (for now) from Inarizaki", I am just blown away, omg. i LOVED that idea and that their darling knew exactly when to better make a run for it. and their reactions in general after the night??? Holy fucking shit, yes. Thank you for the food, omg. Your writing and your mind are just something else, thank uuuu!!!!!!!!!

💕💕💕 Thank you!! I do love doing little drabble snippets for you guys!

Just wanted to remind awesome writers to rest, and if u don’t vibe with a request, feel free to not do it 💕 self > above all

I say these words like a mantra and they do not sink in but bby I’m trying so I think that should count for something. Also I love you and I’d die for you.

[statusquoergo]

Now *I'm* curious as to how you would write a genderswap! of both characters. What would be the differences? Would there be any at all? Sorry if you're getting tire of all the genderswap! questions, btw.

All these questions I’ve never thought about before! If Harvey and Mike were both women, huh? Well, taking for granted that the show would be helmed by people with much better sensitivity to gender dynamics and character development, and like, actual feminism and all that (e.g., strong female characters not being reduced to “domineering girlfriend” once they’re paired off with some guy)…

I have to believe Harvey’s character would start the show as a stereotypical woman making it in a man’s world. With Jessica as the managing partner and Harvey’s character as essentially her number two, the firm culture would probably be a little different if for no other reason than that they would have some kind of reputation in the legal community that required them to be twice as tough as any male-dominated firm (i.e., basically all of the other firms). Actually, if I recall correctly, most if not all of the other departments at PH were headed by men, so maybe it’s just the corporate division that has such a reputation; maybe that’s why they’re the most prominent in the firm, because they have the most to prove. Well, but that’s just background information, never mind.

So the interview. Mike’s character crashes the Chilton and spills pot all across the floor, and Harvey’s character…is vastly amused, I suspect, but why does she hire her? Boredom seems like kind of a silly reason, and while I think Harvey in canon hired Mike mainly to fuck with the status quo (and because Mike reminded him of himself, it’s all a rich tapestry), a female Harvey character probably wouldn’t have such a luxury. Maybe it would be more obvious from an early point that Harvey’s character felt some sort of protectiveness toward Mike’s; it might be interesting if, over the course of the series, we got some actual answers as to why Harvey’s character made the decision to hire her in the first place as opposed to the massive amount of guesswork we all do with canon.

With that opening number out of the way, how would their relationship develop differently? I should actually hope that it wouldn’t vary too much; I like the dynamic of Harvey being arrogant and secretive and Mike teaching him to be, you know, human. With both of them as women, I’m sure there would be some element of “you can be a powerful badass and still a beautiful lady” because, well, television, but if they could lean more toward the “powerful badass” half of that equation, that would be most excellent. Fundamentally I think the characters would have more permission, as it were, to form close personal relationships with one another; whereas Mike and Harvey in canon were portrayed as “buddies” for awhile there (or at least I think that’s what the writers were going for, the poor guys), two female characters forming an intimate relationship that’s not overtly sexual or romantic is far less taboo. And then, you know, they can progress from there; the combination of the superior/subordinate romance (very complicated) and the “she’s somehow become my best friend and also my confidant and also my mentor/protégé but I also want her to be something else” (very traditional) angles could certainly be played out in a lot of interesting ways. (A lot of really terrible ways, too, but I’m giving these fictional showrunners the benefit of the doubt.)

As before, when I discussed just one of them being made female, I think Donna and Rachel would have much bigger and more interesting roles in the show. The romantic tension between Donna and Harvey’s character would be eliminated and while I could see Rachel and Mike’s character trying to hook up (assuming the network would accept a pitch that included two non-heterosexual pairings, the very idea), I could also see that not happening, or at least not lasting once it becomes obvious that Mike’s character is interested in Harvey’s. I’d really like to see them as good friends, I think there’s a lot more mileage to be gotten out of that than Mike and Rachel’s relationship in canon. And this all opens the door quite wide for Donna to end up with Louis, which would also be a great avenue for his character to be developed a little more consistently. (Or a lot more consistently, just as you please.)

Overall I think it would afford more opportunity to include an actual emotional arc to the show rather than shoehorning in a bunch of obvious romantic sub-plots and the occasional parental death scene. And you know what I would love to see, on a purely self-serving level, is an episode with some asshole lawyer from some other firm, or like a judge or something, being a misogynistic shit to Mike’s character—you know, “You should smile more,” “Women should wear skirts in court,” that kind of fuckery—and then have her absolutely demolish him at trial or get him kicked off the bench. I would enjoy that very much. I mean it would have to be a difficult fight, he would be a talented lawyer and a powerful figure in his own right, but I think it could be a really neat “growth” episode for Mike’s character, and a good opportunity to demonstrate that she’s more than just a walking legal dictionary that would also fit neatly into the whole “badass woman” narrative the network would surely push every now and again.

Thank you for asking, I hope I answered to your satisfaction!