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when you introduce people and they start hanging out with each other without you 🥲
#I know its a me problem trust me#but it hurts like hell anyway#friendship trauma is real#and I've finally a found a solid healthier group of friends#but my immediate reaction is to be jealous#or assume theyre saying things about me#just because thats what my previous relations LEGITIMATELY WERE LIKE#its really hard knowing that this is something i shouldnt lash out about#but also previous experience has told me that i should express what I'm feeling???#but that can also be considered manipulative or guilt tripping#so idk#this is why i write in a journal every morning#and what tumblr is for apparently#anyway if you have any advice pls feel free to dm me :)
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To say that Kakashi and Gai’s relationship (talking solely platonic rn) was mostly about him helping Kakashi cope with the loss of Obito is disingenuous to Kakashi and all of his relationships.
Any person is going to be traumatized after seeing someone — much less their teammate — be crushed to death under a rock. Kakashi is shown to be someone susceptible to depression due to 1. His environment 2. His initial beliefs and 3. His genetic line. Of course his life is going to be centered around one of the most traumatic experiences of his life, romanticizing it is so hurtful to his character because it destroyed him - and if Kishimoto actually cared about expanding other character relationships instead of making a “generational duo that falls apart” + wasn’t a misogynistic writer, Rin’s death would be the bigger influence on his life than Obito’s.
Yes, Gai had to help him numerous times in his grief but it wasn’t solely or even mainly about Obito. Rin was an absolute vital point in Kakashi’s downfall into chaos. The self harm he inflicted upon himself, the self hatred, the self shame. He became a whole different person after he was forced to kill her. I would say Kakashi’s father Sakumo is by far the biggest influence on him. He wouldn’t have needed any speech of “your father was a hero” by Obito if it wasn’t for Sakumo. His personality of today is thanks to his father’s own death.
Gai and Kakashi’s friendship is almost entirely about them when they’re in scenes together. Look at the chunin exams, look at any scene in the land of steam arc, look at their race, etc. naturally there will be grief the two bring to the relationship and it’s on them to work it out separately, together and with other people which did happen.
You’re actively ignoring every other character that has shaped and formed who Kakashi is by saying Obito is the biggest and only reason he is who he is. Gai is one of the strongest reasons why Kakashi is as motivated and strong as he is. Kakashi would’ve absolutely died at some point in (general) anbu if Gai didn’t pull him out and he was slipping so far when he was in it because of Rin and Minato.
Kakashi’s heart does not “belong” to Obito because he’s in love with Obito and can’t get over him, his heart belongs to the people he loves because that’s who Kakashi is at his core - a lover. He’s a person who cares so deeply, even for people he doesn’t necessarily like or get along with.
Kakashi is a person who is shaped by everybody in his life, that’s why he is one of the best written Naruto characters. He feels like a real person because real people are influenced by everyone in their life, in every way. It’s unfortunate to see those who call themselves Kakashi fans only to mischaracterize, limit and erase the bonds he was written to have to prop up one single bond for your ship.
Do you care for this character? His themes, parallels, relationships and writing? or is he just a placeholder / self insert for shipping content?
#and saying kk is all healthy until Obito comes along and he’s a ‘whimpering mess’ where all his progress falls out the window#is so weird on a psychological level#because Obito isn’t be the only trigger for Kk’s trauma#if Rin was brought back and he faced her in any way he would shatter in ways he didn’t seeing Obito#I get so frustrated and upset when Rin especially isn’t mentioned in his trauma because she is the one that we see destroy Kakashi#not even Minato’s death caused him such trauma#even if he didn’t make that promise to Obito to keep her safe he’s too devoted to his loved ones#it would’ve killed him the same way if he didn’t make the promise#Gai and Kakashi’s friendship is not centered around Obito and if it was they wouldn’t be happy like they were in the land of steam arc#i love shopping Kakashi but I will not mischaracterize him and erase his influences to make my ship look better#and people PLEASE start mentioning Sakumo because he is THE beginning piece of the puzzle#you cannot have Kakashi without his trauma from his father#I just get so sad seeing Kakashi’s very real grief and trauma be interpreted as obsession and romance for Obito#like on a reality standpoint that’s just fucking weird to do#anti obkk#anti obikaka#kakashi hatake#maito gai#rin nohara#sakumo hatake#obito uchiha#minato namikaze#sins meta#naruto meta
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once again i am telling jesslake infinity train fans to watch the dragon prince on netflix it's just them in a different flavour i swear
feat best quotes ever of
He's my friend. My best friend.
Rayla is kind and good. She's fearless, fast, strong...
I hope you know—I know.
Hey sad prince.
You've got to stay with me!
I would do anything for you.
It doesn't matter what you did before. I just want you to be okay again.
It means I trust her. Unconditionally.
Say the word and I'll go back into that tower with you.
#like just imagine watching jesslake for Many Hours instead of just a few hours#THEY GOT EVEN MORE TRAUMA SOMEHOW TOO#jesslake#infinity train#otp: we're friends and that's real#it's the qpr romantic friendship between lonely snarky girl and less than confident big brother boy#the dragon prince#otp: the most amazing person i've ever met#rayllum
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Was Having Some Thoughts
Was having some thoughts about Steve and Barb and how their personalities would’ve probably lined up so well had Barb not died.
Then I was thinking of writing a canon-divergence AU with alive Barb.
Then I thought: ghost Barb.
And now here we are.
Barb who, after dying in the Upside Down, returns to the Harrington Estate against her Will and essentially scaring the ever-loving fuck out of Steve.
Turns out, for some fucked up reason, Barb is tied to Steve.
Literally everything in the show stays the same (mostly) but with ghost Barb hovering over Steve’s shoulder and judging his every move. She likes Robin so fucking much when they both first meet her at Scoops (cause— unfortunately— wherever Steve goes Barb goes).
But where they both play it off as absolutely hating each other and just down right loathing the fact that they’re literally spiritually bonded, they both would also die for each other (in a sense).
Like Barb will call Steve a whore and Steve will shoot right back calling her a bitch but Barbs also there for the worst of Steve’s nightmares and migraines and Steve’s there for when Barb feels useless and just needs to talk.
The fuckery that is the Spring Break From Hell happens and it ends with Max and Eddie both well and alive cause fuck the canon.
But it also ends with Barb being tangible and actually there in the topside.
Idk
#stranger things#steve harrington#eddie munson#barb holland#steve has trauma#barb usually makes fun of him for it#unless shit gets real#cause she’s good with social cues#barb and steve friendship I’ve oddly been craving#barb and nancy#cause duh#barb and robin shoulda met#they’d be besties fr#steve hates when they interact after robin’s in the know#cause they’re usually teasing and making fun of him#barb and mike friendship to#cause I said so
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The biggest problem with the male loneliness epidemic rhetoric is that people have forgotten that it was originally about men lacking support in male friendships. Then the manoshphere fuckfest got ahold of it and determined that duh, the only important relationships men can have are sexual, and all real men are straight, so clearly this is about men needing women to fix them. And then everyone just fuckin agreed to that dogshit definition. It's the polar opposite issue, and I think it serves in some part to take away from just how much can be learned from the community I've seen queer men hold for one another
#I've found myself feeling bad for occasionally needing a night with other queer men but honestly#yeah. i need that. a lot of them that know me dont instinctually treat me differently. and it's honestly incredibly comforting#theres a similar sincere emotional bandwidth. theres a sort of cunty brotherhood and i honestly love it#theres a lot of trauma and a lot of shit to correct each other on but the relationships feel real in a way that ive honestly struggled with#with straight womanhood's understanding of friendship#queer womanhood i dont know you but you all seem to be having a grand old time so keep it up
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Undertale/ISaT crossover thoughts 2
Been thinking more about this despite trying to vent out all my thoughts in this previous post and now I have something of a plot I figured I'd share (in case anyone else would like a stab at it/some ideas for their own Undertale/ISaT crossover fanworks).
Story opens with a time looping Chara in the void hitting their breaking point. The wish for freedom from generations of monsters + their own alternating wishes to free their family and hurt the humans who hurt them equals a loop that begins with their incredibly painful death to buttercup induced internal blistering, and ends whenever Asriel (post absorbing Chara's soul) is killed or they 'fail to punish' Chara's human family and well. Chara doesn't know the rules so the two have them have been looping so long that now when they reach the village of humans by Mt Ebott, instead of the friendliness they were shown in early loops (before getting murdered by the official authorities who 'already have orders on how to treat monsters') the villagers now attack them on sight in terror (sobbing monster thing? Sadness!), and they keep dying over and over and over-
Basically full 'Start Again a prologue' vibes, and so Chara in full please just make it stop mode wishes to the Universe...
For everything that hurt them and monsters to be forgotten like a bad dream! (cue The Island, Sif and Chara's homeland, as well as certain nasty individuals like Chara's human 'family' being erased from memory)
For someone kinder, stronger, and untainted by hate to 'be the angel' to free the monsters in their place.
To feed the golden flower seeds stuck in Azzy's fur with their corpse.
To atone in any way for all the pain they've caused.
(To one day be able to sit and stargaze on top of Mt Ebott together with those they love, just like they promised Asriel they'd be able to do)
Cue time skip to after the end of Undertale and Flowey's 'please don't reset and ruin their happy ending' speech, to show Chara's ghost flopping on top of their flowerbed grave wondering how long they'll be able to last before they give in and ruin Frisk's happy ending once more (with heavy implication that Chara is once more stuck in a time loop with no idea how to get out).
Then a cut to Toriel and Frisk making their way down Mt Ebott and spying a shooting star, Toriel remembering her religion (goodness, how could she have forgotten the Universe?) and praying/wishing to the Universe to 'have one of its stars watch over her fallen children, and give them the happiness she could not'. Cue Chara being shocked out of their non existent skin by a person with the head of a star crashing down right through them onto their grave out of seemingly nowhere.
(Aka, Plot line 1: Chara is trapped in time loop hell and Loop has been sent to help them and possibly Flowey? out of it. ... That's literally all I've got for them right now because I have NO idea how to actually have them interact XD)
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Next section of story cuts over to the northern coast line of Vauguard: Sif and family (including Nille) are on their way back to Bambooche after their most recent travels when basically the world explodes into colours, Sif suddenly remembers a LOT more than they used to and they can all now see the large landmass to the north.
Much eye boggling, confusion, wonder and tears are had before everyone kind of parties and passes out but next day, things are being taken much more seriously:
Why is Sif's forgotten homeland, the Isle of Chara, suddenly back? Why are colours? How is this going to effect all of Vauguard (the fashion industry alone..)? And... What happened to the people of the island? Are they ok or..? And how will the rest of the world react to them being the epicenter of so much very unexpected change?
Cue brief discussion on whether or not to go (mostly just double checking with Sif if he's actually up for it despite the many potential horrors they could find there that are sure to be extra traumatising to them in particular), the group checking in with the House in Bambooche to have word sent to the rest of Vauguard (and hopefully the world at large) that the Saviors of Vauguard are on the case, and well. They could catch a boat or they could try walking along that MASSIVE steel and concrete bridge with its weird black road stretching out over the ocean (which was apparently there the entire time and ok, now everyone is getting really freaked out because it seems there was a fair bit more forgotten than 'just' the Island and the Stars. What else did everyone have stolen from their heads?).
(Aka, Plot line 2: The Saviors of Vauguard heading for The Island, hoping for the best and preparing for the worst, and also the plot line I've done by far the most work on, to the point that it probably needs it's own post)
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And last section, Frisk leads their monster friends down Mt Ebott back to 'the village of the humans' they came from and the monsters are stunned by the sight of... Well, wailing and sobbing adults who barely give the monsters a second glance, curious and 'just as silent as Frisk' children who smile and wave, and an old man Frisk introduces as 'Elder' who despite being very wobbly and also in tears, does his best to greet the monsters, thanks them for returning Frisk and very politely asks if Asgore is their king and here to kill them all as the stars foretold.
Cue a bit of awkward 'Um. Yes and no?' with a request to open talks with the 'leaders of humankind' only for the old man to laugh and cry as he explains that he's the closest thing this settlement's had to a leader for years now by virtue of being one of the few adults here with enough presence of mind to actually function through The Forgetting (he thanks his younger years of being an avid traveller) and that since the monsters breaking the Barrier seems to have made The Forgetting stop and they seem to have some form of government then honestly, they're the ones in charge now since stars know there's probably not much left of the Island's government still remaining all this time, and it's doubtful the people of other countries even remember they exist.
Cue everyone other than Frisk who knew all this being very surprised (Frisk's follow up 'explainations' don't really help a lot since The Forgetting is all they've ever known, and Toriel is so messed up when she realises Frisk and a good number of other kids literally can't talk or read without 'Communication Craft' due to the memory wipe effects they suffered under while growing up) and well. Monster kind move out of Mt Ebott at a breakneck pace while Toriel, Asgore, Alphys and everyone frantically try to get everyone settled, help all the very damaged Islanders into as much stability as they can (some recover better than others but there's a lot of grief over lost family, missing people, etc going around and monsters end up stopping more than a few suicides), and get things organised enough they know everyone will be fine before they can move onto working out WTF happened here. Also in the process of all this they end up working out that some things (like who was in charge before The Forgetting) are still being 'auto deleted' from memory (though the effect is fading as time goes on) and also the Island's capital is a space warped nightmare filled with Sadnesses right now and probably everyone should avoid it.
Lots and lots of world building regarding what Monsters vs Sadnesses are, my headcanons for the Universe religion (going with the Monsters also traditionally being Universe worshippers and much talk is had on the differences between 'the old ways' Toriel and Asgore remember vs the traditions and beliefs of the Islanders), and... yeah.
(That's Plot line 3: Frisk leads the monsters to the one semi stable human adult they know of and the monsters realise that not only are they free to live on the Surface now but the local humans both see them as saviors and desperately need their help after going through something that arguably makes the Underground look wonderful in comparison.)
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Eventually I'm going to have to tie all three of these ideas together and I think I've got some ideas for Plot lines 2 and 3 such as:
Sif's family and/or Undyne bumping into each other catching all the trains to search for survivors across the Island
Mirabelle and to a lesser extent the whole party finding themselves the official Vauguardian ambassadors to the newly formed human/monster Island/Isle of Chara alliance who are very much in need of aid and more info about the rest of the world.
Papyrus and Frisk also being ambassadors, making all the friendships.
Sif realising 'the Elder' is their grandfather on their mother's side and trying to wrap their head around having any family around at all (and also trying not to think to hard about all the family still missing).
Isabeau and Odile uncovering just how much stuff countries outside the Island forgot (airports, train stations, cars, all that juicey science stuff).
The Saviors of Vauguard and various Undertale folks investigating the capital together (learning some of the less pleasant aspects of the Island's politics and culture while there including stuff about Sif's dad's side of the family and why the name Chara matter so much). But well. So far have NO CLUE how to get Chara, Loop and Flowey involved with the rest of the cast since well, they're reluctant to leave and no one else knows they're there. So. Yeah. That's what I have planned out mostly. Will list a bunch of stuff I've thought of regarding Sif's group going through the Island and their hometown (totally gonna bring up the 'Euphrasie Islander and possibly Sif's mom' theory in story but not actually confirm or deny it since well, Euphrasie is out of focus and most likely going through a major 'my memories have returned, how could I have forgotten-' breakdown her beloved Claude is going to have to help her through <3) but that's for another post and er. Yeah. Please feel free to share any feedback, ideas or thoughts you might have on this, and to take a stab writing/scribbling up some of this yourself as well as I think it cold be a lot of fun and I'd LOVE the help XD
#undertale#in stars and time#fais fanfic rambles#isat#isat act 6 spoilers#undertale spoilers#isat spoilers#ut#cw suicide mention#undertale isat fusion fic#post game#fanfiction#Chara and Loop have so much trauma to rant furiously together about but IDK how to even start#Flowey I think remembers SOME stuff looping with Chara during their fusion but they only got those memories back post Undertale#heavy focus on the forgotten island#and all the stuff that may have been forgotten all over the world (in both settings) along with it#...Now wondering if I could play up Dr Gaster vanishing as being partly due to the Forgetting as well#(I feel real guilty making Chara 'responsible' for causing so much damage they'll no doubt will feel horrific guilt over)#(hopefully ensuring the 'win condition' for the story's end requires them getting a happy resolution makes up for that a little)#no clue how to start it but yes frisk and Sif looper friendship is mandatory and I WILL make it happen. Somehow
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hey man. i'm just saying. why would we put inexperienced teenagers with over-inflated egos and obvious emotional issues into combat classes and make them claw their way to the top of their dorms and expect things to just run smoothly. who actually thought this
#the reason rsa doesn't have overblots is because they understand the joy and whimsy of life and friendship btw#LIKE. why is there no school counselor?? do you know how much time & resources & effort & TRAUMA we could have saved the students &#school from if ANYONE had reached out to riddle and was like 'hey are you alright i heard xyz and i wanted to let you know...' ESPECIALLY#since TREY LITERALLY TELLS US 'oh well here's the lowdown on her trauma this is Probably what is causing this'#or if someone sat down to tell leona 'hey! i'm rooting for you in ur magift(?) game! you're my fav player!!' AND LET HIM FEEL NOTICED#or if someone approached azul as an Equal to try to stop his plans. as a friend even. BEYOND A BUSINESS TRANSACTION#or if ANYBODY BUT ESPECIALLY KALIM was like 'jamil i think you should follow your passions and do something you enjoy today!!' or AT LEAST#let him know he was appreciated as a person NOT JUST FOR HIS WORK#'i know you're doing a lot today but i just wanted to thank you for how much Effort you put into this and..' etc etc etc#ERM.. IF ANYONE TREATED VIL LIKE A HUMAN BEING AND NOT A CELEBRITY??? or even 'hey i loved you in this film i was wondering if we could#do a play together or something..!!' AND LET HER TRY A TYPE OF CHARACTER SHE NEVER GOT THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE. and sing her praises.#if anyone reached out to idia beyond a 'hey the teacher said to come to class'/'get out of your bed and come to our housewarden meeting'#or even. IF ORTHO HIMSELF was like. 'you know it's not your fault... you didn't cause all of this. not really' OR SOMETHING#or if malleus ever got to experience a small firsthand loss AND WAS COMFORTED THROUGH IT. not just quick fix via magic. not replacing. just#GRIEVING SOMETHING??????? and wasn't feared by literally everyone#um. maybe the real twisted part is that all of this tragedy was easily preventable if we had a support system in place.#but idk. twst is a highschool. there's no support in real high school either. i'd probably overblot too if i could ajdjrjfinfdndjd#twst#chatter#LONG RAMBLE SORRY#yes overblots are essential to the plot. but also. do you know how frustrating it is watching the blot build up and sitting in silence.#I'M SORRY IK IF SOMETHING LIKE THIS WAS HAPPENING TO A GUY I JUST MET I WOULD PROBABLY NOT NOTICE.. but of it was my Friend or Housewarden..#I'D ASK BRO.... I'D ASK ... UGHHHHHUUUHHHH#not that anyone would notice if *I* was about to lose it tbh#speaks volumes about our society o think#OKAY NOW I'M DONE FOR REAL
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long rant incoming, I'm just fed up with a certain person right now
OH MY GOODNESS is it too much to ask for just a LITTLE respect?? I drive this girl to and from school, every day. I'm going to call her Laura. Laura is an only child and the only reason I'm taking her to school is because she refuses to bike to mile and a half from her place to the school in the cold. Which is fine. The arrangement was that I drive her and she pays gas money. The problem is, she's been super annoying about it. Every morning for about a month, she would text me "are you picking me up today". every single morning. Until I snapped one day and told her that I have been picking her up every morning for the past month, of course I'm picking her up. not my proudest moment, but it works. Now, however, I have to text her every time I'm at her house and she still takes maybe 4 minutes to get out the door. Which, okay, I can understand the texting thing, but I would like her to be ready. and then every afternoon, she tells me that she can't find my car, so I have to tell her where I parked it in the morning. or she won't text anything and I'm sitting in my car for five or ten minutes after I text her for a response that's lik "oh I was with friends" or "I thought you were still in the school, I'm coming out now" which. okay. I understand, I like talking to my friends, but we all leave pretty quickly because no senior wants to stay at school longer than they have to. But there have been more than a few times where I'm sitting in my car for OVER HALF AN HOUR waiting for her to text back with "oh btw I forgot to tell you, I have a club meeting" or "i went home with a friend" or some bs. So every day I have to text her "do you need a ride home" because I'm waiting, in my car, for 15 minutes after school, waiting for this girl. And today, I'm sitting there for 25 minutes. and I'm like, okay I can wait, because I have some fics to catch up on. But then I'm finished with my fics
and I text her because she's still not there and it takes another five minutes for her to respond, word for word, "oh, sorry, I thought you would text me when you got to your car" after I've REPEATEDLY said that I typically leave school as soon as I can. I'm willing to wait for her, but I'm usually gone within five minutes of the bell. I waited half an hour for her to tell me that she was waiting for me to text her, informing her of my location, after I've told her that I'm always at my car. I even text her when I have something going on! Club meeting? I pick her up and before we get to school "I can't drive you home because I have a club meeting." If I have somewhere to be, or if I have to stay after school, I tell her before school or during lunch. Every single time, without fail.
not to mention the fact that the original arrangement was that she would pay me 10 dollars every 2 weeks for gas. I've only gotten 20 dollars in the past three and a half months. she keeps asking if I have venmo, and then never bringing up payment when I say that I don't. and she always complains about being too broke to afford anything, then goes and buys pizza and donughts during lunch. she's been flaky for everything else, too and it's so annoying. I've been trying to be a nice friend, because I didn't have friends, let alone kind friends growing up, and I've becoming known as the rich friend who's always willing to help in my friend group. I try to set boundaries, but then people stop talking to me the moment I do. and this has gone on throughout my entire life. Laura's behavior is even what happened in all of my previous relationships, I'd be giving 100 percent and they're giving 50, at best, until I wear myself out just trying to spend time with them and make it work, including talks where I set my boundaries and tell them, literally say "I would like it if you could just do this". If you could just get work off for a single evening or just look away from the computer for half an hour during lunch so we can have an actually conversation, then they never even try and don't understand when I'm all out of juice and can't keep going, then are confused when I stop giving my all
it's infuriating and I hate it. I really want to set boundaries, but guess what. I was raised to walk on eggshells around my mom and let people walk all over me because that's the only way that I would ever get attention from my PARENTS. because I was told to shut up and do what I'm told so that my siblings could get the help that they needed.
#I need to set more boundaries#I want to be the nice friend#but nice doesn't equal taken advantage of#I really hate Laura right now#but I feel bad trying to set boundaries and leaving her out in the cold if she decides that putting in just a little bit more effort#isn't worth it#asjhkdfjhf#personal#if anyone has any advice#I love my trauma so much /s#my other friendships are great because they actually contribute things to the relationship#but also when I start setting boundaries people don't stick around#I have a really hard time making friends and my parents suggested a money incentive#hey lets go out to eat; I'm paying#and I get a friend but it feels like I'm buying a friendship#because I'm the fucking “rich” kid who only has three real friends#and the only place that I've actually felt like I belonged#or like people actually cared about me and my interests#was a fucking discord server#some random 25 year old lady from Germany cares more about me than some of my friends
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t-wordtober day 25: “No.”
The sky outside was gray, a light drizzle tappin’ against the windows of their small cabin nestled in the woods. The air was thick with the scent of damp earth, and the faint sound of thunder rumbled in the distance. Dino sat on the couch, his arms draped across the backrest as he watched Puppy pace back and forth in the room. Her movements were restless, her lips pressed into a tight line. The tension between them had been buildin’ for days, ever since Dino had dropped his metaphor about syrup and pancakes.
Puppy’s mind kept churnin’ over his words, tryin’ to figure out what he meant, but all it did was make her feel more confused and hurt. She stopped by the window, lookin’ out at the rain-soaked world beyond but not really seein’ it. Everything felt too big, too heavy, like she couldn’t breathe right.
“Pup,” Dino called softly from behind her, his voice breakin’ through the quiet.
She didn’t answer, just hugged her arms tighter around herself. Her heart ached, and her thoughts spiraled, makin’ her feel even smaller inside. He had always been her safe place, the one who made her feel like it was okay to let go and slip into that soft, warm space where nothin’ mattered but bein’ with him. But now… now he was tellin’ her he couldn’t do that anymore.
“I didn’t mean to upset you,” Dino said, standin’ up from the couch and walkin’ toward her. His voice was soft, but there was a firmness in it that made her stomach twist.
Puppy stayed silent, her fingers playin’ with the hem of her shirt, pullin’ at the fabric anxiously.
Dino sighed, reachin’ out to gently touch her shoulder, but she flinched away from him, movin’ just out of reach. His hand dropped back to his side, and he stared at her with a look of frustration mixed with sadness.
“You’re mad at me.” His words hung in the air, and Puppy’s heart pounded as she bit her lip, still not lookin’ at him.
“I ain’t mad,” she whispered, her voice barely audible over the rain. But she was. She didn’t know how to explain it. She was mad, hurt, confused—everythin all at once.
Dino ran a hand through his hair, his eyes never leavin’ her. “Pup, I’ve been too soft with you. I’ve been babyin’ you too much, puttin’ too much syrup on your pancakes, and now—”
“Stop.” Puppy’s voice cracked, and she turned to face him, her eyes fillin’ with tears she couldn’t hold back anymore. “Just stop, okay? I don’t get what you mean. I don’t care about pancakes or syrup. I just… I just want you to be you. Why do you wanna stop?” Her voice trembled as the words spilled out. “Why can’t you just—just stay my big brother?”
Dino stepped closer, his expression softenin’. “I am your big brother, but you’re… you’re slippin’ too much, Puppy. You’re lettin’ yourself stay small, and I think I’ve been makin’ it harder for you to come back out of that space.”
Puppy’s throat tightened as she shook her head furiously. “So what? Why does it matter?” Her voice grew louder, desperate. “I like bein’ little! I finally got to experience bein a kid! I like how you take care of me, how you make me feel safe!” Her breath hitched. “I trust you.”
Dino’s face fell, and he took a deep breath. “I know you do, and I love that, but I’ve been coddlin’ you too much. It’s not good for you.”
Puppy stared at him, her heart shatterin’ with every word. It didn’t make sense. None of it did. She wiped angrily at the tears spillin’ down her cheeks. “Why? Why can’t you just keep doin’ it? Why did I trust you? Why did we even become friends if you were just gonna—” She cut herself off, her voice breakin’ as a sob escaped her.
Dino’s eyes widened in shock, and he reached for her again, but she pulled away, takin’ a few steps back. “Pup, no, that’s not what I—”
“No!” she screamed, her fists clenchin’ at her sides. “Don’t touch me! I don’t wanna slip! I don’t wanna be around you anymore!”
Her words hit Dino like a punch to the gut, and he stood frozen in place, his hand still halfway outstretched. “Puppy, please, I didn’t mean—”
“You don’t get it!” she cried, her whole body shakin’ with emotion. “You make me happy! You make me feel safe and loved, and now you’re sayin’ it’s too much? I don’t understand! Why did you say I could trust you? Why did you lie?”
Dino’s heart ached at the sight of her breakin’ down in front of him, and he didn’t know what to do. He wanted to fix it, to make her understand that he wasn’t tryin’ to hurt her, but every word seemed to push her further away.
Puppy wiped at her tears, her hands tremblin’. She didn’t wanna be near him, didn’t wanna feel the slip comin’ on just because he was there, lookin’ at her with those sad, sappy eyes. She turned away from him again, her voice small and broken. “I don’t… I don’t wanna feel like this anymore.”
Dino stood there, helpless, watchin’ as she slowly moved toward the door. “Pup…” His voice was barely above a whisper.
She didn’t answer, just opened the door and stepped outside into the rain. The cold water hit her face, mixin’ with her tears as she walked further away from the cabin, from him. She couldn’t let herself slip again, couldn’t let herself be vulnerable. If Dino didn’t want her like that anymore, then what was the point?
She didn’t stop walkin’ until she was deep in the woods, where the rain poured down heavier and the trees loomed tall and dark around her. Her heart pounded in her chest, and she leaned against a tree, slidin’ down until she was sittin’ in the mud. The rain soaked her clothes, her hair stickin’ to her face, but she didn’t care. She wrapped her arms around her knees and let out a sob.
She couldn’t let herself slip… but she already felt herself fallin’.
Back at the cabin, Dino stood in the doorway, his eyes searchin’ for her through the rain. His chest was tight, and he felt like he couldn’t breathe. He had messed up. He hadn’t meant to push her away like this. He had only wanted to help her, to protect her, but now she was gone, and he didn’t know how to fix it.
He stepped out into the rain, his heart poundin’ as he called after her. “Puppy! Come back! Please, I’m sorry!”
But his voice was swallowed by the storm, and the only answer he got was the sound of rain fallin’ all around him.
The woods felt too quiet, too still without her.
The rain drummed steadily on the leaves above, the chill seeping into Puppy’s skin as she curled up tighter, tryin’ to block out the world. Her chest felt like it was bein’ squeezed, each breath harder than the last. Why was Dino sayin’ all those things? Why did he wanna stop takin’ care of her the way he always had?
A soft crack of a branch nearby made her tense up, but she didn’t lift her head. She already knew who it was.
“Pup…” Dino’s voice was soft, almost lost in the sound of the rain, but it was enough to make her heart squeeze again. He’d followed her. Of course he had. He never just let her be alone when she was upset, even if she wanted to be.
She didn’t move, didn’t say a word. Her face stayed hidden in her knees, her wet hair clingin’ to her cheeks, but her whole body trembled. She didn’t know if it was from the cold or the hurt anymore.
Dino stepped closer, crouchin’ down beside her in the mud. “I’m sorry,” he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
Puppy shook her head, squeezin’ her arms tighter around herself. “Go away,” she mumbled, her voice muffled by her knees. She didn’t want to see him, didn’t want to hear his stupid syrup and pancakes nonsense. It didn’t make sense to her. None of it did.
Dino didn’t move. He just sat there beside her, the rain soakin’ both of them. His hand hovered near her, hesitant, but eventually, he rested it gently on her back. “I didn’t mean I was gonna stop carin’ for you or lovin’ you. I just… I dunno. I think I was afraid I was babyin’ you too much, like maybe I was holdin’ you back or somethin’.”
Puppy lifted her head slightly, just enough to glare at him through her soaked bangs. “That’s dumb,” she muttered.
Dino let out a short, breathless laugh, noddin’. “Yeah… maybe it was.”
Silence stretched between them, only the patter of rain fillin’ the space. Puppy’s breath hitched, and she wiped at her face, though it didn’t do much good with the rain pourin’ down. Her chest still ached, but some of the sharpness had dulled. She didn’t want to stay mad, didn’t want to stay like this.
Dino scooted a little closer, his hand rubbin’ slow, gentle circles on her back. “I don’t wanna stop takin’ care of you,” he said quietly, his voice soft as if speakin’ too loudly might break the moment. “I love takin’ care of you. I just… I guess I panicked. Thought maybe I was doin’ too much, and it wasn’t good for you. But I was wrong.”
Puppy’s lips quivered, her heart twistin’ painfully at his words. “Then why’d you say it?” she asked, her voice crackin’. “Why’d you make me feel like you didn’t want me anymore?”
Dino winced, and his hand paused on her back. “I didn’t mean to make you feel that way. I swear. I love you, Puppy. You’re my whole world.” His voice broke a little, and he quickly cleared his throat. “I just… I got scared. I thought maybe if I kept babyin’ you like I have been, you wouldn’t be able to feel big when you needed to. But I can see now that you need that softness, and I shouldn’t have tried to take it away.”
Puppy sniffled, liftin’ her head a little more, her eyes meetin’ his. “I do need it,” she whispered. “I like feelin’ safe with you. I like when you baby me.” Her voice was shaky, but there was a stubborn edge to it.
Dino’s heart twisted as he saw the raw hurt in her eyes, and he wished he could take back everything he’d said. He’d been tryin’ to protect her, but all he’d done was hurt her. “I know,” he whispered, leanin’ in a little closer. “And I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you feel like I didn’t care. I do. So much.”
Puppy’s lip quivered, but she didn’t pull away when Dino wrapped his arms around her, pullin’ her close to his chest. The rain continued to pour, but neither of them cared. Dino held her tight, his chin restin’ on top of her head as he whispered soft reassurances.
“We’re gonna figure this out, okay? Everythin’ in moderation. I won’t stop babyin’ you, but maybe we can find a balance.” He stroked her hair gently, his voice a soft hum in the rainy woods. “I just want what’s best for you, Pup. Always.”
Puppy buried her face against his chest, lettin’ out a shaky breath as the tension in her body slowly started to ease. Her hands clutched at his soaked shirt, and her heart began to calm as she melted into his embrace. For the first time since their argument, she felt that familiar warmth—the safety, the love, the comfort that only Dino could give her.
“I don’t wanna lose that,” she mumbled against his chest.
“You won’t,” Dino promised, kissin’ the top of her head softly. “Never.”
For a long moment, they stayed like that, just holdin’ each other in the rain, the world around them feelin’ a little less heavy. Dino rocked her gently, like he always did, and Puppy’s small, tired sigh let him know that maybe, just maybe, they’d be okay.
Eventually, Dino pulled back just enough to meet her gaze, a small, playful smile tuggin’ at his lips. “You know, Pup,” he said with a twinkle in his eyes, “I think I might’ve forgotten somethin’ important.”
Puppy blinked up at him, confusion flickerin’ across her face. “What?”
Dino’s smile grew, and he wiggled his fingers toward her sides, his voice dropin’ to a playful whisper. “Tickle monster duty.”
Puppy’s eyes widened, and she immediately tried to scoot back, but it was too late. Dino’s fingers danced across her sides, and she let out a startled squeal, followed by a burst of giggles.
“N-nohoho, Dino! Don’t!” she protested, her laughter spillin’ out despite herself.
But Dino was relentless, his fingers findin’ all her most ticklish spots with ease. “Oh, but I have to,” he teased, his voice playful again, just like it used to be. “You know the rules—when you’re this cute, you have to get tickled!”
Puppy squirmed and tried to push his hands away, but her laughter only grew louder, mixin’ with the sound of the rain. “Stahahap! I can’t—”
“Uh-oh,” Dino chuckled, switchin’ tactics and goin’ for her tummy. “Tickle monster found the tummy spot!”
Puppy’s giggles turned into full-blown laughter, her face flushin’ red as she kicked and squirmed in his arms. “Dinohoho! Plehehease!”
Dino grinned, leanin’ down to blow a raspberry on her tummy, makin’ her shriek with laughter. “Alright, alright,” he finally relented, easin’ up and pullin’ her into his lap again. “You win. For now.”
Puppy panted, her face still bright with laughter, but the tension was gone, replaced by that warm, familiar feeling of safety in his arms. She nestled against him, still gigglin’ softly, and Dino kissed her forehead with a smile.
“We’re okay,” he whispered. “We’re always gonna be okay.”
Puppy nodded, her heart feelin’ lighter than it had in days. “Yeah… we are.”
And as they sat there in the rain, holdin’ onto each other, both of them knew that no matter what, they’d figure it out together. Everythin’ in moderation, just like Dino said.
#sfw interaction only#sfw littlespace#friendship#big brother#sfw petre#sfw agere#puppyre#sfw lee mood#sfw twords#sfw tickling community#tiny thoughts#agere sibby#i can only dream#little lee#slipped#my characters#my ocs <3#tickle fic#tickletober 2024#lovelytickletober#based on real events#implied trauma#tw trauma#very sad#really sad#very long post#happy ending
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Declaration
Hear ye hear ye, people's of Tumblr I have something to declare. *pulls out a scroll and unravels it to an impossible length*
*dramatically clears throat* My best friend, @gryffpex is INCREDIBLY Hot.
*rolls scroll back up* Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.
#Declaration#best friends#Facts#Can't deny the truth#Real#platonic love#platonic friendships#The truth#The whole truth#And nothing but the truth#She's always there for me#And she's helping me get over my trauma of being replaced#I don't feel like the other shoes gonna drop around her#Thank you gorgeous I appreciate you so much
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society if felisa valdez had been brought back as eddie's love interest instead of marisol
#like i'd still be rooting for buddie endgame but god at least felisa is interesting#she has a personality and a backstory and a career and a best friend and. yknow. a goddamn last name#i would have enjoyed having her onscreen and i think her relationship with eddie would have been interesting#both of them dealing with past trauma... eddie navigating the weirdness of dating a celebrity... their fun skeptic/believer dynamic...#if we're still going for a repressed gay eddie storyline then instead of the stupid fucking nun outfit#we could have gotten something like eddie wondering 'i'm dating a woman literally thousands of men dream about dating#so why am i somehow still not attracted to her or in love with her? what am i looking for in a partner if she's not it?'#and tbh felisa seems so sweet and developed such a genuine friendship with eddie in her one episode#that i could honestly see him coming out to her first because that's less scary and less real than coming out to anyone at the 118#we could have had it alllllll#911 abc#911 lb
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Undescribed.
An ancient edit I made over 2 years ago when I was really struggling with a psychotic episode. I never posted it because I could never figure out a coherent ID for it.
#this is verbena btw. in the picture.#i remember i made this bc i was staying with a friend and they were. let's say.#REALLY FUCKING BAD at interacting with psychotic people.#i mean micromanaging me by giving me CONSTANT updates telling me Everything we heard/saw was real.#also being obviously scared of a homeless man yelling at a trashcan (yknow. a fellow psychotic.) and then telling me they would beat him up#-for me if he came near us. I was like girlie pop literally leave him alone. he's having a worse day than us.#on top of that they were just... not accommodating. i would tell them things i needed and they would act annoyed#or say they'd do something and then never did it.#someone threatened to call the cops on me (an unattended schizophrenic) while i was there and when i had a meltdown this friend did-#-absolutely nothing. like i had to take care of Myself while they sat there and stared at me.#looking back i kinda wanna text them abt it because they NEVER treated me the same again.#like wow. me hallucinating and being scared and upset literally ruined our friendship just because they were a coward and a chickenshit.#vent in tags#trauma dumping#traumacore edit#vent#psychosis
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i gotta say, 13 hours into omori, i don't get why people call it a horror game
#omori#like there's been occasional creepy scenes but they're usually quite short especially compared to the broader tone of the game#it does have a serious story. about like. trauma and failing friendships? that i'm really intrigued by as it slowly uncovers#like maybe it leans further into horror elements as the game goes on but i gotta say the elements that do exist aren't enough for me#to explicitly call it 'horror'#don't get me wrong i love this game and i love the spooky moments they're really fun!#i just went thru the train ride bit which was pretty fun i liked how the shadow at the end says the name of ur real-world character#even though ur playing as omori in the dream world#also no spoilers but it's unclear to me as of now if omori is just haunted by the memory of his sister's death#or if her spirit is Actually haunting him#also i had flowers and i thought maybe i cld put them on her grave but it didn't give me the option#also i loved the moment where kel talks about hero's depression and the way he himself was overlooked by h#their parents#man. i love all these characters so much#god the scene where aubrey fights you in the church and the whole time all the churchgoers are whispering about how terrible she is#i felt so bad for her man#also her design in the real world is cool as hell#also i actually lost to aubrey during the church scene but i didn't get a game over she just let me be and left#omori spoilers#i know the game is old-ish but my wording may have implied i wasn't going to spoil and i totally did#what i meant was don't tell me abt the future story of the game i'm only on 'three days left'
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2023 reads // twitter thread
The Meister of Decimen City
a chaotic superhero satire
a genius who’s labelled a villain by the government after her super intelligent dinosaur children get loose is put under supervision
and has to confront her past / deal with the trauma of her complicated family/sibling relationships
and also the realisation that she might be asexual
#The Meister of Decimen City#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#this is. a lot and i loved it#its very fun. but also emotional childhood trauma#gonna be real this is probably the best ace book I’ve read in a while lmao#in terms of: it is a significant amount of the plot; not just brought up a couple times;#and her ace journey is not just within the context of a romance#(and also the book itself is. not badly written. which is more than I can say for others)#as always I feel like I didn’t Need the romance however I don’t hate this one! it’s unconventional and well developed#and the sibling relationships and friendships are given equal weight#I think if you like Hench you might like this. similar kind of thing#but this is a little more fun maybe and also the MC is genuinely trying to be a good person (unlike in hench where she goes. past morally-#grey lmao)#the MC feels very autistic coded. or adhd? and faceblind maybe there was a part that implied that#There’s a bit of a allegory re: curing superhero powers that make people’s life hard (or specifically: don’t want to cure we want to help yo#you make it bearable other ways) which I would be interested in a disabled person’s opinion on? I feel like it was doing the right sort of#thing but maybe not developed enough / through the ending? idk#anyway i love the dinos.............#asexual books
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Can we like discuss the fact Itatchi straight up lied to Sasuke?
Not about his motivations in the massacre or anything like that but the fact that Sasuke needed to hate him?
Like brother…. My guy…. You…. You’re like the strongest fucking ninja there is -you willingly chose to ‘be evil’ and like keep an eye on the big bads while simultaneously having those big bads be low key frightened of you.
You yourself are strong because you love Sasuke to the point of delirium. He does not need to hate you, he needs to desperately seek you out, to understand the deeply rooted love for you, to save *you* from the shit going on. He’d be way stronger. Fuck all that noise about needing to switcheroo Uchiha eyeballs. Y’all could have found a different way (through the power of love and friendship) and Sasuke would have been a better, faster, stronger (#daftpunk) version of himself WITH LESS EMOTIONAL TRAUMA
You little dickwad. Why would you lie about him needing you hate you 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
#naruto#me#my beloved#my boy#sasuke#sasuke uchiha#Itatchi#Itatchi Uchiha#for real though#the power of love#the power of friendship#didn’t need the old eyeball switcheroo#yanno or even better MAYBE YOU BOTH JUST WILLINGLY EXCHANGE YOUR STUPID EYES SO YOU *BOTH* HAVE EYESIGHT#YOU DUMBASS#come on#little brother needed support not trauma#the boy can’t even hold a conversation any more#smh
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like is there a word for "romance is NOT for me oh my GOD it's such a bad idea for the way my brain is built, BUT HOWEVER not every part of my brain has gotten the memo about this and nature still thinks it's funny to kneecap me with a crush every now and then."
#trying to find resources or stories about like. how to COPE when this happens#how to honor the way i feel without suppressing it but also without feeling the need to turn it into a romantic pursuit#also i know labels as strict boxes are only worth thinking about as long as they are helpful#and “im aromantic” is easier to say than “i have a complicated relationship with romance and a lot of emotional baggage and”#well i never feel justified using the word trauma especially because a lot of it was my own doing but#yes a lot of trauma i guess!#anyway#i still have this fear that calling myself aromantic is just a cheat to get away with not wanting to put in the work it would take to build#a real functioning romantic relationship#like is it cowardly of me to say “i am not gonna push my relationships past a certain point with people”. like am i depriving myself of#something i will miss?#sometimes it feels that way#but also#some of my strongest friendships are with people i actively chose not to romance#and i love those people and i am so glad to be friends with them#whereas the people i was most romantically involved with are now invariably bitter strangers#i don't want that. i don't want that with any more people i love#BUT. I DO WISH TO HOLD HANDS!!!!!!!#MY GOD A BITCH IS TOUCH STARVED
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