#forcing myself back into this hyperfixation

[angelcactus]

When David kisses angel he does that slight dip thing that makes angel hold onto him tightly, therefore making them kiss harder

[pekoeboo]

uh oh I committed the terrible artistic crime of shading with black, throw me in jail Immediately (ノω<。)ノ))☆.。

all jokes aside tho, I don't really know what I was doing with this one, I just felt like experimenting and throwing stuff together for fun :0 still on the Hitman kick for now but who knows how long it'll last lol

please do not repost. also on deviantart

[kanejbr3kker]

okay but you know that weird space between hyperfixations where you still love your old one but you’re also starting to get invested in other fandoms and absolutely nothing is all consuming anymore?? cause i think i forgot how weird it feels and honestly i don’t even know what to do with myself.

[moontale-official]

ayo more doodles and some eye expressions lets go

[byanyan]

rolls around on the floor........ so anyway, i failed my attempt to fix my sleep schedule... now i'm just gonna try waking up a bit earlier every day until i feel at least somewhat like a human being ashjfgds

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

Lol I'm having an anxiety attack so I'm doing that thing where I go on social media to distract myself and pretend like the actual world isn't wording around me, and I keep coming across Gravity Falls content that makes me SO happy so essentially I'm just like

"Oh god. Oh god. I feel like I'm suffocating. I'm drowning- AWWW LOOK AT BABY BILL CIPHER. My world is ending and I'm standing on debris waiting for a tsunami- AWWW STANLEY PINES IS BEING ZAINY AGAIN. God, I love that guy!!! Existence is pain."

[leftneb]

the insatiable urge to redraw every single picture of landoscar I come across

and the unfleeting sorrow of not having the time or energy to do so

why must I suffer so in this life

[poor-ciceros-voring-again]

Regarding the tags of my last post

I always see people say things like "teehee new hyperfix dropped x3" and stuff like that, which is great! But I never really see people talk about the negative effects having a hyperfixation can cause. I'm sure people DO talk about it, ofc, I just haven't seen it myself.

For me personally, I absolutely hate hyperfixating on things. It's so fucking hard to deal with sometimes.

It's so difficult to maintain any type of conversation without relating it to my current hyperfixation. Some days are easier than others, but the past few days have been INCREDIBLY hard for me. Whenever it starts getting hard to maintain conversations, I start to isolate myself away from others and either talk at a minimum or not at all because I'm afraid of coming across as annoying(this is harder for me to deal with because of what an ex put me through). I accidentally overtake conversations by relating them to my hyperfixation and I don't want to do that at all.

I get so excited and happy when talking about it, but I draw myself back because I don't want to be overbearing. I also draw myself back when people aren't matching my excitement because I feel like I'm just bothering them with things they don't really care about.

Sometimes my hyperfixations get so bad that I start to neglect myself and the space around me just so I can focus on it.

I always buy... Way too much stuff. Related to my hyperfixations. I will spend absolutely ridiculous amounts of money on things.

It's hard to do anything that isn't related to my hyperfixation, like work, sleep, self care, important tasks I know I HAVE to do.

I genuinely was crying earlier because I felt THAT annoying for talking about it. I want to hang out and talk to my friends I've had for years SO badly, but I don't want to take away from what they're doing by bringing up my hyperfixation and making the topic about that, so I just don't talk to them.

I'll go back and delete messages I've sent just because if it goes unanswered long enough I'll start to feel like I'm holding other people up from talking about their interests

Maybe none of this makes sense and it's just a me problem. I don't know.

[homeless202]

"I'm glad we're together" WATCH ME CRY BRO WTF😭😭😭

[storytellermp3]

anyways replaying btd as the gods intended

[tenpintsof-sundrop]

me, a few days away from my period, watching Daryl edits to get into the headspace to edit the Daryl fic (that has no smut) and most of the edits are severely horny, making my hands itch to open a doc and write smut: stay focused, stay focused, stay focused, stay focused, stay focu-

[bistaxx]

Honestly, knowing this event is (presumably) ending on my birthday is already the best gift I could ever get

[snowflakeselfships]

Feeling so many feels over my android f/os rn.

[mroddmod]

hi sorry for the spam i missed tumblr

[moomoorare]

Finally drawing again :D

[rampant-testiculitis]

the stars aligned in my personality so that everything i convey is either a warped version of what was intended something blatantly different