#for some reason i thought that's just what all ppl think

[bowandbrush]

oh gosh (ok long post)

That isn’t even all of them. First of all your enthusiasm for some random sketches is unbelievable. I’m going to cryyy

Ok ANYWAY

I don’t have any story ideas for this. Like, I’m not even settled on these designs, they keep changing. I don’t even know what splinter or April would look like. Again, I did this for fun. Sorry these are very sloppy lol

Leo is a diamondback terrapin, and Donnie is a freshwater terrapin. They are drastically more colorful than the regular green turtles, but…I dunno. This is more for the hardcore tmnt fans who love giving turtles markings and whatnot. Leo looks a little too…young and childish to be a leader? But at the same time, I really wanted to pass the “irregular teeth” baton to him. I thought maybe nobody would be leader now, and just be starting out their whole “ninja vigilante” thing.

I want to be new with each character as much as possible- and for Donnie, I decided he’s the “almost never talks” type. Just big, observant autistic eyes. (Think ferb from phone as and ferb.) don’t worry, he’s still a evil scientist like every other Donatello out there.

Raph is a map turtle, and Mikey a bog turtle.

I’m not too happy with Mikey’s design, being to similar with rise, but I still wanted shape language and color that matched him (which rottmnt did very well.) Mikey is again a living incarnation of ADHD, I just can’t take that away from him. Always wearing around headphones to keep him busy.

Raph is short again, and now looks like a weird 2012/rise hybrid. But again, those shows are good for a reason. I didn��t even mean to make him so similar. Also adhd type, but he’s prone to getting impatient and angry over insults. Troubled soul, he doesn’t actually want to lash out when he’s overstimulated. (Definitely not a self insert, nope haha)

every turtle is an artist of some kind- Donnie obviously rocks machines. He also does all that hacking jazz, scamming scammers, and programming. Leo is an AVID writer. I’m talking an entire library of TV show fanfiction that’s quite popular. Even original stories. (I actually got this from rise Leo, which people tend to ignore his fascination for “betrayals”. Also he wrote gram-gram a mini book.) Raph is the artist again, digital and traditional art. He could totally makes sprites for games to collaborate with Donnie’s coding skills. Mikey is into making music too, mixing preexisting music and playing instruments.

Their gear outfits wouldn’t be worn as often as casual hoodies, trenchcoats, and human clothes. I don’t think ppl in NY would even care and probably think they’re furries 💀

…I think that’s it. Oh and sketches.

thank you for coming to my Ted talk

I know that tmnt peaked at rise,,, but what if I made my own version. For fun. I have ugly sketches available for those who are interested

[plasticfreckles]

🪶 short comfort rookanis so i dont lose my mind enjoy 🪶

"Rook."

"Hm?" Her drink splashes over the edge of her cup and onto her shirt.

"Are you.. what's wrong? I've called your name out three times now."

"Yeah, yeah. I'm good."

"You said this is your favorite singer. Yet you're miles and miles away. Talk to me." The flier advertising her appearance that night was the only reason they lingered so long.

Rook sighs. She takes a sip of her drink and leans back to focus on him.

"You know how, when your mind is left alone with your thoughts for long enough, you just sort of.. start spiraling?"

"Not lately, but I've been there." That his mind hasn't been left alone for a while now, Lucanis doesn't need to say.

"Whe- the Ossuary."

When Rook points that out, it doesn't hurt as much as when others do. Maybe there's an implied compassion from their - not shared, but similar - past.

We like her, idiot. She likes us. That's why it doesn't hurt. Spite pulls at his hair and stomps his foot with how stubborn Lucanis is over this. His scalp starts to burn.

"Before that, too." The singer excuses herself for a drink. "If you'd like to talk about it, there's a lull now."

The weight of all Thedas rests on her, the way she sighs, and it's true.

"I'm just... so deep in it, right now. Should've just sat down and awaited orders, like Viago said. Don't tell him I said that. It'll get to his big head."

"Too late." Rook tracks his eyes tracking the Fletching behind her getting up and leaving so obviously Caterina would send them straight back to the Barracks with the raw recruits.

Rook closes her eyes and - not even sighs, she just exhales, but there's still a lifetime of exhaustion in it.

"Besides," he tries, "How could you have known killing some Antaam and breaking out an author would lead to this? Solas set these events in motion so long ago, one could no longer even see his hands in them if he weren't clinging to the reins like a drowning man to thrown rope."

It doesn't work.

"Had I just kept my head down-"

"Then Solas would've succeeded with that ritual of his, and all Thedas would burn already. This way, we can at least pretend we have a chance at turning the tide."

A pause, as she considers it.

"And we would never have met."

The smile he finally sees on her is small, tired and aching. But it's still a smile. He'll take it.

"Now you're breaking apart my doomclouds."

"I live to serve." She takes a slice of bread out of the basket between them and starts wiping the soup from her bowl.

"You'll live for so much more. Trust me."

With my life, Lucanis thinks.

🪶

thesis anxiety hella kicking so im a lil quiet rn and also im not sure if i like it but I hit barricade at a concert and had a straight up menty b over the general course of my life and three ppl down ppl got engaged mid-song so i need some comfort

@lanafofana this isn't what we talked about but have a tag anyway lmao

rook sighing with closed eyes like the meme of the smoking actor in the blue top that i have no idea who he is or what he does.

[hwajin]

might be a full on lesbian

[lucabyte]

monologue

[sweetieboness]

experiment is over, here’s my scientific report on eating 3 meals a day 🤓

breakfast: after years of not eating breakfast, i can see why i stopped 💀. the reason why i never eat breakfast is because 1. i’m never hungry in the morning like food is not even on my mind. 2. if i eat in the morning, i always feel sick after. and ofc i felt the same this morning. omg i wasn’t even hungry and i felt so full (ew) and sick after i was really regretting this experiment.

lunch: i’m not going to lie i almost completely forgot about lunch because of how full and uncomfortable i felt from breakfast. my stomach still hurt but it eventually went away. my patience was really being tested atp because to be honest the thought of eating again was repulsing me. like why would i eat again if i ate what felt like an hour ago? idk it just felt so unnecessary like a chore but science must prevail ☝🏼🤓. the voice in my head was telling me i would gain sm weight by tmrw because of this experiment of mine and that just turned me off from it even more.

dinner: this whole day was such a struggle. but strangely i was a little hungry for dinner? despite the 2 meals i ate already? i felt like a pig tho. i felt as though i have eaten enough for a week. i’m not even going to reveal the total calories for the day because i am utterly mortified by how much it is. and all i did was eat 3 meals.

final thoughts: i did it. i actually ate 3 meals today. i’m surprised i actually did it as ridiculous as that sounds. the hardest was definitely breakfast because i literally had to force myself to eat it. in conclusion? if you normally eat 3 meals a day, then good for you and keep it up! ^^ as for me, i think i am just an anomaly. breakfast is just NOT for me. maybe even lunch too some days. i think some ppl can eat a lot/multiple meals a day and some are just not meant to eat, y’know? and i think i am definitely the latter. this was an interesting “experiment” but i am definitely never doing this again.

& if u read this entire thing, thank u for ur support of my VERY serious and respectable scientific work 😘

been watching supersize vs superskinny again and the dr keeps yapping on about the importance of eating 3 meals a day AND snacks in between for the superskinny’s. as someone who even before this whole 3d thing never ate 3 meals a day (always skipped breakfast because, why..?). i’m currently on a extended metabolism day because i’m kinda sick and weak but dw i’ll be back to normal restr1ct1on in a day or two 😉

watching this made me so curious what it’s like because idk maybe i’m affected from years of 3d brain but eating 3 times a day seems like A LOT to me. plus snacks in between meals???

thus i’m conducting an experiment tmrw where i will eat 3 times (minus snacks because that’s too much for me). basically i’m bored and don’t have much to do :P

will give my scientific report tmrw 🤓

[turtleblogatlast]

No but like every time I think about Splinter and what he had to go through just to keep the boys alive, my heart hurts for him so badly. Is he perfect? No not at all, but none of them are and by god does he love his sons.

The fact that all of them are alive, and grew to thrive despite the circumstances surrounding them is a testament of how much Splinter loves his boys. He raised four babies following the most traumatic time of his life, all alone with nothing but the sewers to house them (to hide them.) I feel like he’s not given the credit he deserves for all he’s done.

And I get that it’s easy to hold up his flaws and faults when it comes to parenting, I myself like looking into them because flawed characters are super interesting and said flaws make them more realistic and engaging, but he tries, and again, so many others would have given up on the boys or failed along the way but Splinter didn’t.

He’s their father, for all his faults he did his damndest to make sure they survived.

[fisheito]

rereading the nuca pink doujin and seeing yakumo tear himself apart re: his snake form vs his human form all this agony and self-doubt and silent suffering and fear of rejection like "if i looked less human would u hate me" , "if u saw me in my true form wouldn't that be horrible. terrifying. disgusting" , "if i admitted i want to swallow you whole would you think worse of me"

and i imagine him asking something like this to the crowd of clan members , who are , undeniably,, a group of Kinky Fuckers

they all smile with the serenity and carefully masked excitement of a horny olivine. masterful beautiful reassuring expressions (errr..... masked to different degrees depending on the clan member)

[ciderjacks]

Wip

[moregraceful]

Mostly still talking about this to help normalize and de-stigmatize using accommodations like this as an adult bc I think sometimes we think oh I'm a grown ass adult that's not for me...but truthfully there's never a reason not to at least ask. I was talking to some friends and they were like, oh we did not know that was available for everyone!

We were at the Lehigh Valley Phantoms game at PPL Arena and they mentioned they have a sensory quiet space, which got me curious if the Wells Fargo also had sensory accommodations. I am not autistic and will not be discussing the various things going horribly wrong in my brain at all times but I have a tendency to try to pack too many games into one week and ends up completely hitting a wall by the end of the set of games and either vacate planet earth for several hours if not days or just like am so miserable the entire time that I'm unable to enjoy what's going on. And I'm not what one might call situationally aware but at this point in my life I'm usually able to be like, okay so if I got to three hockey games in three days and two of those games involve very long drives at night, including one on the NJ tollpike, I will probably be feeling a little wacked out by Monday. But I didn't want to miss any of the game if I didn't have to because tickets were expensive and I miss my Sharkies violently, so I went digging for more info.

The Farg's website said they had a whole sensory room for people who are feeling overwhelmed and said it was for everyone! So I went to check it out during first intermission because I was very much about to start experiencing full body horrors. I figure at worst they say it's for kids and I have to go find a quieter spot to dissociate in and just hope I get back on my feet before the second period (which I have done before and it was not. fun lol.) I found guest services and they just gave me a wrist band and directions. Everyone I had to interact with was very respectful and kind, if treating me a little bit like a ticking time bomb, but I think when you're in your 30s looking harrowed while advocating politely for yourself, it's really like oh this guy Needs it. There was a guest services person set up in front of the room and I'm guessing it's bc the room is on the suite level and they need to make sure it's like people who need to use the room for its intended purposes and not drunk adults goofing off. But it was very quiet and calm inside, I think they did some sound dampening and with a white noise machine + that deeply hilarious sensory wall and a bunch of fidget/stim-type stuff on the walls to play with as well as other toys on shelves. I was there bc I needed quiet space so I spent all of the time I was there sitting on the floor staring at an orange water feature on the wall, but I imagine for kids or adults who need fidget toys it's probably a dream.

Very calming in there and I did NOT miss the rest of the game or have to experience the horrors so it was a success overall! I missed three minutes of the second period just trying to get back to our seats but I'll take three minutes over 45 minutes, which has happened before lmao. I will almost certainly end up there again bc I will absolutely end up trying to pack 3 games in 5 days again at some point lol.

I don't really have a concluding thought, I think it's basically like...Just Ask...what's the worst they can do. I think most people following me are adults and porn bots so it's like, yes we can handle our shit but also if there are accommodations available that explicitly say they're open to everyone, just ask yk. At worst they say no and probably we have all ways of dealing with whatever we're going through or we just grit our teeth and white knuckle it through shrockey. But I feel like people pretty often do want to help you if they can so it never hurts to at least find out what's available.

And then I got this sick ass wristband giving me VIP access to a water feature lmao

I would do anything for the Sharks, including driving close to 4 hours round trip to tell Eetu Mäkiniemi, an ex-prospect, we love him and driving close to 3.5 hours round trip to Newark the next day to see the Sharks but I do think today is the day I end up seeing if they let adults who are not autistic into the sensory room to meditate at the Farg lmao

[usagi-milktea]

One thing I love about ikesen is that without it I would have never heard what the sengoku period was. Im so glad I’ve come across this game and come to b aware of this time period.

(Currently learning bout (irl) hideyoshi’s failed invasions of Korea- very interesting stuff!)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[johndonneswife]

[phagodyke]

weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<

[pixiesnooze]

why can’t ppl be normal about things like im allowed to talk about things i don’t like on my blog and keep it on my blog i’m not flooding the tag with vitriol and hate or anything (this isn’t about me i’m just giving example)

[rolandkaros]

i really want to promote my ao3 here but the prospect of linking my work to me in such a tangible way is horrifying

[snekdood]

its so telling how terfs supposed fucks about women just kind devolves into bullying trans people, it’s almost like you use that as a guise for your desire to just be fuckin bullies, prolly bc you were bullied by girls who were better than you growing up :/// unfortunate