#for now at least (fingers crossed)

[blueskittlesart]

*sigh* thoughts on Nintendo's botw/totk timeline shenanigans and tomfoolery?

tbh. my maybe-unpopular opinion is that the timeline is only important when a game's place on the timeline seriously informs the way their narrative progresses. the problem is that before botw we almost NEVER got games where it didn't matter. it matters for skyward sword because it's the beginning, and it matters for tp/ww/alttp (and their respective sequels) because the choices the hero of time makes explicitly inform the narrative of those games in one way or another. it matters which timeline we're in for those games because these cycles we're seeing are close enough to oot's cycle that they're still feeling the effects of his choices. botw, however, takes place at minimum 10 thousand years after oot, so its place on the timeline actually functionally means nothing. botw is completely divorced from the hero of time & his story, so what he does is a nonissue in the context of botw link and zelda's story. thus, which timeline botw happens in is a nonissue. honestly I kind of liked the idea that it happened in all of them. i think there's a cool idea of inevitability that can be played with there. but the point is that the timeline exists to enhance and fill in the lore of games that need it, and botw/totk don't really need it because the devs finally realized they could make a game without the hero of time in it.

[sleepyc63]

rain world art timeline!! (ft. artificer and saint. the first ever rw characters i made fanart of)

edit: changed march 2024 because i found a better artificer drawing

[lemongogo]

do we know if the dark horse reprint is still on sched for a sept release orrr

[godofidea]

I'm so normal about Him

[taudad]

Oh my bug boys, how I’ve missed you

[mulders-too-large-shirt]

s4 episode 24 thoughts

season FINALE!!! whew, it has been an emotional time these last few months, let me tell you that. i’m wondering how or if this will be wrapped up. 

the episode description makes no mention of scully’s illness, just more aliens. we always end the seasons with aliens. i imagine that this will also be a cliffhanger, so i’m trying to brace myself for that now.

(author's note: there was nothing short of reaching enlightenment that could have prepared me for this, and even if i had ascended to nirvana, i might have been ripped back out by the sheer tragedy of this storyline)

but damn, with a title like gethsemane, i’m expecting even more tears than usual. 

(author's note: yeah)

let us no longer delay. 

we begin with some videos from 1972, including carl sagan! what’s he doing here? well, he’s doing alien things. are you surprised?

the man on the screen is speaking about the probability of contacting aliens. he says it is very high.

and then cut to scully in some very yellow lighting, politely trying to get to a crime scene to do some FBI business!

wait. is that mulder’s couch???

she just needed to make an ID on a body and BRO WHAT. DID SHE FIND MULDER DEAD??? IN HIS OWN APARTMENT?????

HELLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOO???!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

now she’s in a meeting room with a lot of important people…. 

she’s explaining how she was assigned to the x files four years ago…. and she’s explaining the mulder lore.

“i come here today, four years later, to report on the illegitimacy of agent mulder’s work” <- WOAH WHAT??? betrayal?????

“it is my scientific opinion that he became over the course of these years a victim- a victim of his own false hopes, and in his belief in the biggest of lies” <- that is so sad????!?!??

HELLO??? WHAT??? hey. what’s going on. is that really scully? or is it an alien?

well. they’ve gotten me both hooked and worried. 

is she lying to save him?? is he dead?? is she preserving his reputation in death?? because she said that stuff in the past tense… or maybe he was killed and she will be next if she doesn’t renounce everything???

WHAT IS AFOOT HERE.

scully i just publicly declared you my favorite, you can’t make me take that back…

(author's note: i should have never doubted her <3)

ohhhh fancy, the intro says “believe the lie”

helicopter over the yukon in canada. some guys say the stuff at camp is unbelievable. that's quite a jump in tone from before.

and now they’re marching up the hill, saying they’re very excited etc etc. it looks to be exhausting work. the score is very suspenseful.

they arrive in a cave and shake hands as the newcomers are introduced. and what is in there but…. a frozen alien???

i was hoping it would be a perfectly preserved mammoth :( but okay… whatever… (sadly kicks dirt around)

back to the meeting room with scully!!! she says there have been recent developments on the assumption that aliens exist… mulder was contacted by a man whose “pursuit of this evidence seemed to coincide with his own”, and she says he was duped!!!! fooled by scientific slight of hand!!! 

and she’s here to expose this lie… and to expose his work for what it is….

GIRL, WHAT WENT DOWN???

now a cut to some sort of scully family event!! she’s telling a story about her brother bill. will we finally get to see him!? yes!! here he is!!! like their father, he is also in the navy, and seems to be pretty decorated. 

and he says he sent her a birthday card, to which she says “thanks for remembering this year” LMAOOO get him again for me!!

(why does no one remember her birthday!!! i will cry!!!)

the priest arrives… and scully’s face falls…. why is she sad to see him? and why did he get invited??? i’m stressed. 

father mccue is talking to her about drifting from the church and feeling awkward, but her mom asked him to come tonight. he says turning back to faith is essential in times like this. she says she hasn’t felt a need to draw on faith for strength, that she has some. and she won’t coming running back now.

huh, i wonder if she thinks that “running back” to the church will be admitting defeat. she says she’d be lying to herself and to him if she did that.

maybe she has only lightly been dabbling in god-related affairs since revelations, but not enough to want to return to mass.

but a phone rings… it’s mulder!!!

he says he’s sorry to interrupt her dinner, (so at least there’s some self awareness there) but someone named arlinsky at the smithsonian contacted him about a mountain in canada.

he says she needs to meet him RIGHT AWAY. BRO???????? she looks SO sad when he said that. 

she would do ANYTHING for him. and tbh i see why she wants to expose him now. fuck that. 

she’s assuring him that it’s okay, and he’s trying to apologize, but i’m still mad at him, and scully should be too. and who the hell is this arlinsky guy? apparently he was involved in a ufo photo faking?? but he claims he’s innocent?? THAT is what disrupted her dinner??

he says he won’t tell her what she’s about to see….

he has pictures of an alien frozen in the mountain and she looks deeply unimpressed. girl me too! 

apparently the alien has been in the ice for 200 years. and babcock (arlinsky's colleague) was part of the team that found it.

arlinsky says it’s a very remote location for it to be a hoax, to which mulder once again displays some self awareness with his “well if you’re gonna go, why not go all the way?” but again, not enough to prevent himself from getting in this situation in the first place

arlinsky pulls out the ice core samples from each side of the body, and says he sincerely believes they have a full corpse of an alien. 

but family dinner. i care about that more.

mulder says no one will believe him, and the same people that hid the truth will be asked to authenticate it, so there will be no confirmation either. which is why arlinsky wants him to go and get the body, because he knows it means everything to mulder

ohhhh scully says she has no opinion… “this is your holy grail, mulder, not mine” <- i am glad she is admitting she has no horse in this race

OHHH “proving the existence of alien life is not my last dying wish” <-yeah remind him that you’re literally dying and you can’t waste time because he SEEMS TO HAVE FORGOTTEN!!!!

“this is not some selfish pet project of mine, scully” <- well if it’s for the sake of your sister, but you’re hurting the people around you for it, that is still selfish actually 

woah woah woah i had to write this next part out...

“you already believe, mulder, what difference will it make? i mean, what will proof change for you?”

“if someone could prove to you the existence of god, would it change you?”

“only if it has been disproven”

“then you accept the possibility that belief in god is a lie?” (where are you going with this…? this is a sensitive subject for her!)

“i don’t think about it, actually. and i don’t think it can be proven”

“but what if it could be? wouldn’t that knowledge be worth seeking? or is it easier to go on believing the lie?”

this exchange made me feel frustrated. i wish he would be less ahab-like all of the time. yes, it is a huge deal that someone found an alien. but i see no reason why he couldn't have gone to that meeting by himself. and bringing god into this when he knows that's something very personal to her is a low blow. i get the point he was trying to make about believing the lie and all that, but c'mon man.

mulder honey, i get that this is a big deal to you, but time and place.

she tells him that she cannot go with him, but then he says, well can you just look at the ice core samples please. and she nods her head reluctantly. 

cut back to the big meeting room with scully and other very important people

“what i couldn’t tell agent mulder, what i had only just learned myself, was that the cancer which had been diagnosed in me several months earlier had metastasized. and the doctors told me, short of a miracle, it would continue to aggressively invade my body, advancing faster each day towards the inevitable” <- OH MY GOD??? oh my god. 

but why wouldn't she tell him... did she think that telling him then would interrupt his alien quest?? and she didn't want to do that because she knows how important it is to him? or did she not want him to worry?

because i would have told him!!! i would have said it right then and there!! but she is very different from me...

the fact that she is aware that she has so little time left and STILL left her dinner to go deal with his nonsense… scully, i fear you give too much and need to do things for yourself, please please

back on the mountain, they’re cutting the ice with a chainsaw. feels a bit unscientific, but i mean i guess that’s how you get that stuff done.

one guy is loading a pistol??? saying he doesn’t know the men well. that’s suspicious. i don’t care for it. 

there’s something in the ice. maybe a bubble. or a casting hole!! of liquid poured!! could this be a fake?? but the angle wouldn’t make sense, says one guy. hmm... i'm not sure what to think.

did they put a fake alien all the way up here…? and why is gun guy looking around all shady like…?

back to the core samples in DC. the scientist says he found some hybrid cells in there, not plants nor animals, but chimera, and he wants to get them under a microscope. hmm… can we clone da alien :3

someone walks into the cave in the yukon with a shotgun!!! and kills all of the men!!!!! what the hell!!! is this a real alien then?????

this happens just as others begin the hike up the mountain, including the smithsonian guy arlinsky. and mulder!! i didn’t even recognize him under all those baggy coats and sunglasses. wow. i feel like a fake fan.

someone was supposed to meet them and guide them up the mountain, but there’s no one there, and all the supplies are frozen over. so they begin the hike on their own, following the tracks from the others.

oh! the find someone keeled over in the snow, to which mulder remarks “funny place to take a nap”. again with the inappropriate jokes as a coping mechanism. it’s the guide that was supposed to meet them!! and he was shot and killed!!!

well, the alien is starting to look more authentic as the bodies pile up. 

back at the lab, scully is looking for the scientist, but she doesn’t find him. what she does find is a guy stealing the core sample???

he shoves her down the stairs?????? what the HELL!!!!

see, i thought the alien was a lie at first, but now it’s starting to appear compelling.

mulder and smithsonian guy arlinsky have arrived at the cave, and he pulls out his gun. they find all of the bodies from the crew, and no alien!!! it has been carved out!!!

mulder hypothesizes that perhaps someone was listening to their radio comms and came to hide their alien knowledge, but they hear some groans. and babcock is still alive!!

he says that the alien body wasn’t taken, but that he buried it!! and sure enough, they find it beneath their feet. mulder looks at it with amazement. big moment for a guy like him.

but scully!!! her face is bruised and her pristine lab coat is covered in blood! bill comes in with a change of clothes. and he didn’t tell their mom what happened. 

“i was knocked down a flight of stairs… but i’m okay, luckily”

“you’re not okay, dana” <- OHHHH BILL. please tread carefully.

he says he knows about her cancer and she says mom wasn’t supposed to tell him!!!

she says she doesn’t want sympathy, and he accuses her of thinking she can cure herself. which feels like a terribly low blow.

OHHHH MY GOD. wait hold on. hold on.

“what are you doing at work getting knocked down and beaten up? what are you trying to prove? that you’re gonna go out fighting?”

“oh now, come on, bill”

“do you know what mom is going through? why do you think i didn’t tell her when they called?”

“what should i be doing?” (said with great frustration)

“we have a responsibility, not just to ourselves, but to the people in our lives”

“hey, look, just-just because i haven’t bared my soul to you or to father mccue or to god, it doesn’t mean that i’m not responsible to what’s important to me” (this was very defensive and exasperated in tone)

“to what? to who? this guy mulder? well, where is he, dana? where is he through all this?”

well…. i want to defend mulder, to say he doesn’t know, but just because he doesn’t know that her cancer is getting worse doesn’t mean he shouldn’t have been more sensitive. he actually has been very conscientious, which makes this whole alien thing all the more sudden and infuriating!!!

she is stunned into silence as bill looks at her with fury. and she doesn’t say anything more to him beyond “thank you for coming” <-god, what was she supposed to even say?? i get trying to shake her back to reality, but who did that cruelty help??

bill, i get what you were trying to do, but you pissed me off in the way that you did it. do you always show the people you care for that you love them by screaming at them? because if so. not a very effective tactic.

mulder is unboxing the alien, which is now in DC, and he’s trying to thaw it with the smithsonian guy arlinsky and babcock! who is doing better! despite taking a shotgun bullet.

babcock asks if it were a hoax, why would there be 6 men dead over it, which is a good question. 

ewwww, the alien looks so gross….

with the help of another FBI agent, she finds the guy who hurt her!!!! and he’s working for the government!!!! in the pentagon‘s research facility!!! his name is kritschgau. they should not hire people in the government who assault women in stairwells.

mulder and crew are getting x rays and scans of the alien. mulder is wearing a sweater, but i’m still mad at him so i will NOT make note of how cute it is. 

the alien body is gross as hell. they’re filming an autopsy. ohhh he’s cutting the eye membrane off. EWWWW. EWWW.

now the ribs…… ewww ewww ewwww EWW IT CRUNCHES. NASTY. he takes the ribs out and starts looking at the heart and lungs and some other white stuff in the chest. gag.

meanwhile, scully’s casing the joint looking for the dude kritschgau who assaulted her, and she finds him, tracks him down, and nearly hits him with her car!!! she has her gun and is going after him!!!! he is under arrest!!! 

she is NOT messing around. we see a level of scully fury here that is incredibly potent and shown to us infrequently. i enjoy it, but it also makes me sad, because it shows how much stress she is under.

it appears he has slipped away, but she catches him!!!!! yes ma'am!!!!

kritschgau says that if he gets arrested, they’ll kill him. “they” being the same people that gave her cancer!!! how tf does he know about that???”

meanwhile, the alien organs are being weighed.

then cutscene back to the big meeting with scully!!! she’s telling them about how they smuggled the corpse back, saying mulder was ready to believe it was an alien.

but kritschgau convinced her it was otherwise, and not a true alien… he explained how mulder and her had been deceived and used, and that it was part of their plan that led to missy’s death and her illness.

god, how she must have felt hearing that… that everything that had happened to her was a waste, that the only point in her suffering was to advance corruption... it must have been devastating

as mulder leaves the warehouse where the autopsy was occurring, it seems he’s being watched by a guy with a shotgun??? is the shotgun guy going from before after the alien people????

it IS shotgun guy from before!!!! he knows babcock?? and he kills smithsonian guy arlinsky!!!

now who tf is this babcock fellow?!?!?!?!?!?

kritschgau is now sitting in mulder's apartment, explaining the "everything is a lie" story to him. mulder asks why he'd do this now- a fair question- and kritschgau says he came to him because his son is very sick after serving in the gulf war. i suppose if in this universe that is also something that has been covered up by the government, it could spark some disillusionment in the whole process once it impacts him personally.

he says "they" invented mulder, the regression hypnosis, the story of his sister and what they told his dad, and that the alien body was made carefully in a lab. and it would never be carbon dated, it was only for him to see so he would go public with the news and discredit himself.

mulder declares kritschgau to be a liar, but he says the body is already long gone, so he leaves to check. and sure enough, when he goes back to the warehouse, it isn’t there, but arlinsky is dead, as is shotgun guy!!!

again, WHO TF IS BABCOCK??!?!?

the cellular materials were an exact match to what kritschgau described. 

and this brings us to scully and mulder really fighting, really really fighting

“after all i’ve seen and experienced, i refuse to believe it’s not true” “because it’s easier to believe the lie, isn’t it?” <- ohh callback to earlier....

and she reveals that he said she was given this sickness to make him believe… oh my god, if that’s true, and her life is just a prop in their sick game… 

he storms out. 

back to the video from the 70’s we began with. 

mulder is watching it and crying. oh no… the beginning is clicking into place for me…… oh no, i see what is coming…. 

back to the meeting room. she says she went to his apartment that morning to identify a body, and that mulder died of a self-inflicted gunshot 

WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK?????????????????

thus concludes the episode

she’s crying, she’s crying, all i can think about is her crying, what the hell, what the hell….

so he killed himself because he realized he was being used as a pawn and it was his fault scully was dying…

normally i would have more to say. but i’m not gonna lie to you, i don’t. this is just so fucking sad. i don’t even have the words. never in a million years did i see this happening. what the hell???? what the hell?

do i believe this kritschgau guy??? i think he’s probably telling 30% of the truth. but not the whole thing. why would all those men die for a fake alien? i think he’s being deployed as a cover story as mulder gets too close. and i think some of this is engineered, but not as much as he claims.

and i'm willing to bet that "believing the lie" actually refers to scully believing his cover story!!!

man. i’m sorry but i’m just so sad. i have been so sad this whole season!!!! 

mulder…… it was rude of you to interrupt her dinner…… but this was not the answer… 

how is sneaky mulder going to get out of the situation THIS time??? and how is scully going to get out of the hole she's dug by reporting all of their work as fraud?? is bill going to be happy now?? lowkey fuck bill, btw.

wow... this is just painful. and i don't even have to wait months to find out what happens next. had i seen this when it aired live i probably would have entered a state of mourning.

so that's the end, huh? of the season, i mean. just sucker punch after sucker punch. i hope this isn't the tone of everything else moving forward. can i get uhhhh one order of whimsy please. with a side of mutual pining. and a small hurt/comfort, emphasis on the comfort. thank you.

after waiting 24 hours from watching the episode initially, i am still torn between how to proceed next. part of me wants to compile all of my favorite moments from the season like always, but the other part of me wants to begin the next episode right away, just so i can move on from such horrible mental imagery as mulder dead from a self-inflicted gunshot. what a terrible thing i wouldn't even have expected from fanfiction!

but, i can also see that the next episode is a two parter, and to be left on ANOTHER cliffhanger would be horrible- but probably LESS horrible than being left with the sadness of dead mulder, right? i don't know what to do! i am filled with indecision!!!!

:(

at least i can take away some fascinating analysis regarding scully's relationship to catholicism, and her idea that depending on any force outside of herself- be it family, friends, or god- is a sign of weakness. i mean, that is pretty telling about her character. and the fact that she believes this so strongly she tried to hide her cancer getting worse from her brother and succeeded in hiding it from mulder!!! to even voice the truth would make it real. maybe that's why she can't tell them, can't go to mass- because it would mean that the end is really near if she did so. i think it's about both the perceived ideas of weakness ingrained in her by her hardass parents and a refusal to let the situation she has found herself in be registered as real in her own mind. she knows it is. but maybe if she pushes it to the side, she can forget for a while.

wow. that sure is something to think over, and think it over i shall.

[ingravinoveritas]

Aziraphale’s bow tie on the floor in the new poster and a flashback to this day of filming, which I’d like to remind everyone was on Valentine’s Day...

[amethystina]

Hello, hope you're feeling even a little better.

This is going to be a kind of rant about the AMAZING chapter you just posted of WHTD lol.

First, I loved loved loved the scene between Gaon and Elijah. They are so cute!!!!! However, as I was reading it and enjoying every second of it, I don't know why I had this sort of apprehension. I felt like we will loose this kind of easy bond for a short time in the future. Wether this is the case or not, you can totally ignore what I said lol.

I love how Elijah is written. It is a perfect balance of all the reactions and choices someone who has gone through so much like her would have. Not to mention that she is a teenager nearing adult life, which a struggle of its own even for people who had a non traumatic life.

I am very interested in the case and how it will be solved! Hopefully, Mrs. Thongsuk doesn't suffer any more than she already did.

Now, coming to what I really wanna rant about. The scene between Yohan and Gaon!!! It was so beautifully done. It broke my heart in several places, for both of them.

Yohan obviously wants to be there for Gaon, to help him and be in his life but he doesn't want to make Gaon uncomfortable and burden him because he knows that Gaon has a lot of mental health issues at the moment. However, when talking with Gaon and them somewhat behaving like they normally would before the rejection, he started to slip into his old self with Gaon. And he is afraid to show any emotion or be vulnerable in any way, which would make it obvious to Gaon how much Yohan still loves him and that would result in Gaon feeling even more guilty. And, of course, Yohan also wants to protect himself from any more heart break.

Gaon is obviously devastated when he finds out how hurt Yohan is and how much he's trying to hide.

When I tell you, I was smiling and crying at the same time. But I loved it, because Gaon needs to be pushed like this so he can change his perspective and see how him rejecting Yohan was a wrong decision for both of them. Gaon thinks that he was doing it for Yohan's and his sake but I feel that he will see that isn't the case in the near future.

We have weeks of Yohan and Elijah still in Korea with Gaon, so hopefully Gaon will find a good therapist and start sorting through everything he's feeling. Add to that all these revelations he's been having in the last few chapters, I hope they'll have sorted what's happening between them to a certain extent.

I'm just a little anxious and excited about what will happen after Gaon acknowledges that he made the wrong choice and starts rectifying it. Yohan will obviously not believe him so easily, and I feel like Gaon will get hurt in many instances before they fix stuff. Both of them have insecurities that will make it difficult for Gaon in the future. However, when that happens I will enjoy it fully like I've been enjoying every chapter of this amazing fic.

Sorry for the rambling 😭. I just felt the need to send this to you and ask about your health. I know things are tough, but I believe in you and your strength. I may be a stranger on the internet but I've been following you for a while and have seen how much shit you've had to endure, and how you always persisted and came out of it victorious. Everyone has lapses and times that test us, but the people who win are the ones who stay after going through every test life throws at them. You have won many times, and you will win in the future.

Take care and try to be kind to yourself 💜.

Hello!

I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter! And yeah, I just love that scene with Elijah and Ga On! They're so sweet together! And I guess that you should expect a bit of a hiccup eventually since Elijah is going to need a moment to get used to Ga On and Yo Han being in a relationship. But that's still far away at this point and the biggest issue the two of them will have. So I don't think you need to worry too much?

I think one of the important things about Elijah (if one wants to keep her in character) is that she's still just a teenager. A teenager with a lot of problems and trauma, like you say. And while she's very intelligent and quick-witted, she's not particularly charming? She can charm people, sure, but that's not the same as being a charming person. If she's being her genuine self, she's abrasive, straightforward, and determined. And I really like that about her. She's not some cardboard cut-out of a teenager who's quirky and playful — she's an actual person with both good and bad sides. And trying to handle her is a handful sometimes, as many people can attest to xD

I admit that I might put more effort into the cases than strictly necessary sometimes. I mean, they're important for the plot, sure, but they're not meant to be the main focus as such. But this time the progression of the case is tied to Ga On's progress in gaining more confidence, so it's featured a little more than usual. And I hope the conclusion won't disappoint!

The scene between Ga On and Yo Han was such a mess, but in a necessary way, yes. Because even if it hurts for them both, Ga On needs to realise just how wrong he was, thinking that Yo Han is somehow able to just shut everything off. Because of course he's not. Yo Han desperately wants to be there for Ga On but he's been told that he can't, so he's trying not to overstep. But the moment he begins to relax? It comes creeping back. Because he's just helplessly attached to Ga On at this point. He genuinely can't help it.

And Ga On is going to realise his mistake pretty soon. He will need another couple of pushes, but I'm going to make sure that he gets them. He's been working up to this slowly but surely and the therapy will help even more. As will a couple of conversations he's going to have with both Elijah and Yo Han in future chapters.

As for how Yo Han will react when Ga On changes his mind? He's going to be pretty suspicious, yes, and he's not going to be able to simply brush off all the pain he's been put through. But, that said, he's also too in love not to feel hopeful. So he won't be unreasonable or vindictive. Just... understandably cautious? And, in all honesty, pretty fascinated once he realises that Ga On is actually serious xD

So while it will hurt, it's also going to be something to look forward to, because there will be flirting — mutual flirting this time. And Yo Han is going to have the time of his life because Ga On is going to have to be the one to initiate it. And, as we all know, Yo Han loves watching Ga On's embarrassed fumbling.

And is going to make Ga On's life even harder by flirting back, which just makes Ga On even more flustered.

So you can look forward to that, I guess? xD

Thank you so much for the ask! Not just for the lovely comments about the chapter, but also for caring so much about my health. I admit that things haven't been easy lately and I'm very annoyed with how tired and unfocused I've been. I had high hopes for this year — especially when it came to Who Holds the Devil — but life just kept throwing me curveballs and I'm frustrated to find that I haven't been able to write nearly as much as I would have liked. But that's just life, I guess?

My plan for the rest of this year is to focus on finishing things that I'm really close to completing. That unfortunately means that Who Holds the Devil might be taking a backseat for a couple of weeks, but I know I'll feel better if I'm able to finish some of my ongoing projects. The fewer things I have to distract me, the better. Not to mention that finishing things gives me a feeling of productivity and satisfaction that I deeply crave right now.

So yeah. I'm sure I'll get through this as well in the end and, for now, I'm going to focus on finishing half-finished projects and goals.

[keicordelle]

You know, it's the little things about being disabled that really get to me. Like obviously it sucks not to be able to walk. Obviously it sucks to be trapped inside my house, or inside my bed. Obviously it sucks to be in pain all the time.

But it's all the little things you never really think about when you're able-bodied that really eat at me. All the little sacrifices. Not being able to get up and get a snack or make some tea whenever I want because I can't carry it on my own. Not being able to just do laundry when I need something washed. Not being able to get down and unplug and replug my mouse when it fritzes out. Getting the shower curtain stuck all down my side in the shower because the tub's too narrow to sit in properly. Not being able to comfortably wash or shave or cut my own damn toenails.

And that's just within my own house. Things there are fixes for, if I have the time and money and energy to do it. Mostly. But man. Ten years ago I would never have even considered the accessibility challenges with these sorts of things.

[my-rights-are-grian-rights]

“So, mobs is short for mobsters, because obviously in this game our primary enemy is the Italian mafia. Uh, I keep asking them to add the Yakuza, but that’s like a whole separate thing apparently."

- Joe of the Hills variety, Bonus snow day Vault Hunters stream! 1:25:07

[alexiethymia]

I WAS ONLY ABLE TO FIND OUT NOW THAT MY FAVORITE GHOST HUNTER FOUND FAMILY BOOK SERIES JUST GOT ADAPTED?? It was utter perfection. It felt like I was reading the books. The utter domesticity. George was adorable. Locklyle was perfect. The casual hand holding and forehead touches and cradling of faces. It manages to be heartbreaking at times how much they have such married couple energy not because of how they bicker but because the world they’re in has aged them prematurely and it’s like they’ve already had their silver years and golden years together. Him just casually buttering her toast for her?? Tenderly treating her wound?? He was outright looking at her lips in that scene! We always knew he was do-or-die for Lucy but seeing this series outside of Lucy’s POV makes it adorably apparent how besotted with her he is, and that struggle of wanting to let her in clashing with his suicidal tendencies was portrayed with so much angst. Netflix may have its problems, but it has also brought my favorite YA novels wonderful adaptations. I already got Six of Crows and Lockwood & Co., so here’s to hoping for A Darker Shade of Magic too. To add, as long as I’m wishing, I’m hoping The Raven Cycle gets one too.

[mercymaker]

i'm clinging to bg3 for that creative drive like i'm a drowning sailor but my head's been under the water for weeks now

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

i’m gonna be really busy this week (and honestly probably like ….. all throughout july . and a little bit of august . ) so it might take me some time to catch up on asks, comments/rbs, and art/fics, but pls just know i’m working on them and thinking abt them!!! 🥺 hopefully i’ll be able to post the gojo fic this weekend and then keep posting stuff here and there…. ily dash!!!!

[higherhell]

Ryoichi Endo bust sketch (February 18, 2024 - Clip Studio Paint)

Needed to draw something quick before bed to fulfill my daily drawing quota and Endo was on my mind...I'm so tired I don't even know if I've achieved a good likeness but I'll throw caution to the wind and post it now anyway instead of waiting until the morning when I've seen it with fresh eyes, haha...

[izzy-b-hands]

No talk abt birth control (they want me on Truvada first, but I can't afford the extra bloodwork rn so we're gonna wait on all of that), but they agreed to get me back on the Lamotrigine for the sake of my mental health and renewed my T rx!!! They're also going to try and get me onto Medicaid or something similar (despite my prior issues with the state saying I'd best not even THINK abt applying again for any assistance until i hit my 1 year in CT mark in May)!!!

This new doctor is even nicer and was so patient and kind!!!

The folks at PP may have their moments, but it's worth it all when things actually work out and look up like this. I am forever grateful to them for everything.

(also! Steve got promoted to IT/clinic manager!! as of what the doc told me abt that today lol!!)

[threnodians]

honkai: star rail i am BEGGING on my HANDS and KNEES for you to release more QUANTUM characters because i desperately need QUANTUM especially a dps but more importantly WE. HAVE. ENOUGH. IMAGINARY. IT'S. ENOUGH. SLICES.