#fluid fictionkin

[blood-moon-night-coining]

Can you do a flag for someone that it's like, fluid fictionkin, but, at the same time that someone is a character, they is not that character, they are separate people

Paradoxical Fluid Fickin

[PT: Paradoxical Fluid Fickin]

Paradoxical Fluid Fickin, someone who is fluid fictionkin but at the same time that someone is a character, they is not that character, they are separate people at the same time.

[ID: in Alt text]

[Tagging] @radiomogai, @liom-archive , @liomarchive , @imoga-pride , @kin-flags

[sodatabs-ontherun]

hello!

☆°hello I'm soda tabs!°☆

♤I go by they/he/ve/vem/void/voidthem (may change I'm gender fluid)♤

This blog is for my silly alterhuman stuff

Tags I use

Quaddrobics: jumping silly

Alterhuman rants: the cat is screaming

Mask/gear: cat made art

○☆My kin types are:

Theriotypes: grey wolf, fox (x2), African wild dog, aussie herding dog, tiger, house cat, mink, elk, snowy owl, ox, vampire bat, loin, koi fish, cheeta, clown fish,jipsy vanner horse, otter,crow, dolfin, spider, dingo, snake, whale shark,coyote

Other kin types: angel

Fictionkins:sandwing, nightwing, seawing, sentinels (md) livi (md oc) lizzy (md), cyn (md), n(md) key bugs (md) j (md) nifty (hazbin hotel) drift loom, nori (murder drones) Caine tadc

Plant kins:weeping willow, pumpkin, vernus fly trap,Marimo moss ball

Concept kin: liminal space, Halloween conspet kin,

Song link/kin: ghost rule, the vampire, anonymous m, bite me, this. P3t (by femtanyl)

Coping link/kin: beanie baby, pomni

°•☆51 in all☆•°

Questioning:,lilly pad, toucan, song birds, duck, jelly fish, death angel, godkin, hatsune miku, tulip Caine (tadc)

☆•I do have past lives and things!•☆

If you have any questions ask via ask, or just statements in general,

And pedophiles, zoophiles, antis, Transphobes, homophobes, and all that fun will be blocked from my blog (Get away from me lol)

Please don't send me realistic pictures of insects or spiders and all that jazz (alive or dead) I'm ok with cartoons tho ♡

DNI IF YOU HAVE A NFSW BLOG OR ANYTHING WEIRD, especially on my quads vids I wanna keep myself safe from that kinda stuff

Dni if you discriminate against age

Example: "your 12 just shut up"

°•☆This is my other ask blog bc I'm a oc kin lol so check it out if you like lol☆•°

https://www.tumblr.com/livi-is-a-silly-guy

This is my indie show that I'm making and would love for yall to check it out!♡♡♡♡

♡☆○°have fun°○☆♡

[fictionkinfessions]

People should talk about 💀🧪 more I’ll be honest.!

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[homosexuality-and-morphine]

When Johnny got forced into the gang he ended up asking everyone's pronouns and sexualitys and here were the answers he got:

Benrey: he/they Omni asexual

Michael: a/fucking/threat aroace (he was really angry at everyone in the gang for a while because he wanted to just lay down and fully die but the gang is why he didn't... He later said he/him because he felt bad for being rude this was also before he found out he was demi romantic)

Crowley: he/they/it pan asexual

Gordon: he/him (he added a little please at the end) gay asexual

Peter: he/him bi demisexual

Jack: he/him straight

Also the ones who joined after him:

Ghost: he/him gay asexual

(Johnny: he/him pan asexual)

[radiomogai]

[PT: Fictive flux. End PT]

Fictive flux

This is my first identity I coined, so please be kind!

"Fictive Flux" is a term used to describe individuals who fluidly shift between identifying as a fictive character (a character who originated from fiction but is experienced as a headmate, or another identity within a system) and identifying as fictionkin (identifying with or as a fictional character from a particular work or genre).

Flag meaning: color picked from these two flags

Fictionkin. Fictive

and mixed together.

[anomalymon]

[Essay] MissingNo Therian: An Exploration in Identity, Labels, and the Fictotherian Experience

We've seen a few posts of people wanting more personal essays in the community, so I thought I would write this and crosspost it to Tumblr. -Rex

I am a MissingNo. My exact form is one that's been fluid throughout my life, with Kabutops and Aerodactyl fossil forms having preference, but occasionally switching to the Lavender Town Ghost. I identify as a Pokemon therian or Poketherian for my species - or fictotherian for a broad term. This identification is one which can confuse people - after all, therianthropy is more traditionally associated with animals, and I identify as Pokemon that isn't real. My species only exists in four games that are well over two decades old and is a failsafe the game spits out. Why should I identify as a therian? Despite how strange it can seem, I still prefer therian over other labels such as otherkin and fictionkin. My therian identity is deeply intertwined with my hyperempathy, created by a bias of my animality, comes from viewing a MissingNo as a type of animal, and from experiencing common therian traits.

Therian over otherkin, fictionkin, or fictive

Some may be saying "why don't you call yourself fictionkin?" or even "Isn't otherkin for mythical species, while therian is for earthen species?" To address the later point, there have been better written essays dispelling this. I would highly recommend Therian: Dispelling the Earthen Animal Myth by The River System for a well written and researched essay.

To address the former point, it is personal preference. I did use "otherkin" for years and still do identify as both otherkin and fictionkin, but the term "therian" is more in alignment to how I experience identity. I am an animal, I experience shifts, and I experience instincts.

I don't perceive MissingNo as sapient on the level of elves or some dragons. For me, being a MissingNo is also a "real" thing, as tangible as a dog, bird, or dragon. I don't consider myself glitchkin despite being a glitch, nor conceptkin. I am like the theriomythics who label themselves for being an animalstic gryphon or phoenix.

When it comes Fictionkin and fictive, to me they can be too focused on identifying yourself in the framework of being a character, which I'm not. I'm not a creepypasta character anymore than one of the Hypno species would be. I still do identify as fictional - I can comfortably identify as "fictherian" or my preference "fictotherian" (Which comes from "fictotype". I believe I started this term usage - since when I started using it, I could find no results to it, but I did use it in forum posts, Discord servers, and other methods).

Fictive falls under a similar problem - but with slightly more alienation. While the term is open to me, my identity history makes me feel out of place in a community of walk-ins and introjects when it was one that developed later in life.

How I became a MissingNo and the grip of hyperempathy

My identity as a MissingNo came later in life. I began existing in my system as a canine pup - which I know from behaviors and mannerisms that I later connected to me in the present, and genuinely expressing feeling like a dog as a child. Years later, I identified this species as a manned wolf.

Then at around the age of ten, my identity shifted to a glitch Pokemon. What at least contributed to it was developing a special interest in Glitch Pokemon around this time. This combined with our natural hyper-empathy and perhaps being conceptum to subconsciously alter my identity over time.

These interpretations can cause me to be out of place. While I still love glitch Pokemon and I am fascinated by them, I rarely find anyone who also has an intense interest and fascination while having this level of hyperempathy - even if I encounter others who have some alterhuman or even gender or sexuality connection to glitch Pokemon. Almost uncontrollably do I see glitch Pokemon as genuine Pokemon. I might grow attached to certain Pokemon in the way I would a pet.

The overall psychological influence means that this identity comes down to personal interpretations and personification. I'm not a natural animal and you cannot read about me in a textbook or find any bits of lore within the games, but rather, I am an animal that came from the mind of a mentally ill person.

MissingNo the animal

What defines "animal" varies. Humans are biologically animals and primates, but not all humans identify with those terms, with some taking offense to it. To someone with hyperempathy, a stuffed animal may be as much of an animal as a living one, or even a car might be a type of animal to certain minds. This connection is what makes me feel a MissingNo can be a type of animal.

Additionally, Pokemon are their world's equivalent of animals, and this is how most of my system views Pokemon due to one of our deepest parallel life connections being a humanlike Mewtwo. This sentiment is also one I've seen many Poketherians have. In the world of our origin, we are animals. For another essay on a similar experience, I'd highly recommend "The Fire Burns Bright" by Jasper, an Alolan Marrowak therian.

Within the contexts of the games and many interpretations - including my own - MissingNo is also a bird. It is one of few Pokemon which use this glitch beta typing. Being a bird can be equally as much a part of it and I'd consider birds as a paralleltype and one where I may confidently call myself a bird. Albeit a very odd bird.

The wolf and animal bias in my core

In addition to the bird of the MissingNo, the manned wolf at my heart is still important to my identity. It's in between otherhearted and therian on a sliding scale, and I identify it more as manned wolf-hearted for convenience, but it's closer to "kinth". I don't know why I am or was a manned wolf, but it doesn't quite matter to me either way. What matters is that there is the manned wolf.

To me it feels as if despite my core being or "soul", my mind became a MissingNo while the core remained the same. To my soul, a MissingNo is a type of dog. Then, to my mind, a manned wolf is a type of Pokemon. Both of these identities came about and exist in harmony rather than opposition.

Another comparison that the heart and soul makes is being "feral". Glitch entities in video games to me are almost like an animal which can't be domesticated. They may act fine, but every so often you'll encounter something that reminds you that at their core, they're wild. MissingNo still scrambles sprites and Hall of Fame data - and you can't have a "normal" experience with it. MissingNo is to Pokemon as a wolf is to a dog.

The instincts that made me tear apart playsets when playing house pretending to be a dog are still present in the instincts that make me want to tear apart meat when I eat it.

The Experience of a MissingNo Animal

I fit into many traditional therianthropy experiences and unto a hybrid canine/avian experience - just perhaps with more twists towards the bizarre.

I am a contherian when it comes to mental shifting and almost always feeling like an animal. However, I do experience phantom shifts. I get the sensations of skeletal fangs, claws, and a body that's far heavier and taller than my tiny, human form. Though the bizarre comes when during these shifts, I don't feel like I have skin and much of my body feels transparent, I feel like I should be able to stick my hand through my lower jaw.

I feel the sense of freedom and flight when I ride a bike downhill. For a few minutes when I bike, I can imagine myself flying. I sit in rivers and ponds among the wading birds feeling like I belong. I treat the chicks and chickens we raise like a part of my flock.

I still want to hunt. Sometimes I need to fight my instincts to recognize chicks as flockmates and not food. I like to eat wildly and I like to taste blood and fat in my food. When I eat, I feel like like the blood should dribble through my skinless jaw bone. Skeletal claws should be typing this essay instead of fleshy human fingers.

Conclusion

I am an animal, and despite doubts, I am a therian.

This label fits my experiences better than the alternatives. I don't feel as much alienation or out of place compared to other communities even though my species isn't an "animal" in the traditional sense. Hyperempathy has created this experience for me in that I feel more comfortable saying I am an animal than I am from fiction.

My center being is animal and always has been, it's just how its presented through my life has shifted. The animal instincts have only developed as my species has.

It is my hope that more unusual therians might come forth and be encouraged to examine their experiences - and for both earthen therians and potential theriomythics or fictotherians to explore what exactly "animal" means to them. I want others to also examine where their mind's biases may lead them, how that can impact their identity, and use it to feel more at peace in what the heart wants.

[shapeofshifter]

[ Introduction ]

Hello!! My names are Martin/Elias. I wanted to start a blog to rant about otherkin and therian stuff but i am not very good at being active online.. I'll just post whenever i feel like it me thinks :3 feel free to dm me or interact in any way !! I am a big enjoyer of questions..

[ Info ]

[ I am 6teen ] [ My blog is not safe for littles or age regressors!! despite being a dreamer myself. i do not consider my content suitable :( ] [ I am trans masc. aroace. gay. polyamorous and genderless :3 ] [ I am a pronouns + xenogender + name hoarder ]

[ Pronouns ]

[ He/They/It ] [ Sh3/Hxr/H☆rs/H♡rselfs ] [ H3/Hxm/H☆s/H♡mself ] [ Th3y/Thxm/Th☆irs/Th♡mself ] [ Xe/Xemself ] [ Mew/Meowself ] [ Bite/Biteself ] [ Vix/Vixen ] [ Fau/Faunself ] [ Star/Starself ] [ Pon/Ponyself ] [ Arf/Barkself ] [ Fog/Fogself ] [ Eye/Eyeself ]

[ Interests ]

[ Podcasts: The Magnus Archives. The Magnus Protocol. Malevolent. Welcome To Night Vale ] [ Shows: Good Omens. Hannibal NBC. Madoka Magica. Gravity Falls. Dhmis. Sanders Sides. Our Flag Means Death. Sonic Prime ] [ Object shows: Hfjone. Its Time For The. Love Of The Sun. Inanimate Insanity ] [ Games: Cookie Clicker. Metal Gear Solid. Plants VS Zombies. The Stanley Parable. Gmod. Fnaf. Roblox. DBH. Minecraft. Portal. Cookie Run Kingdom. The Beginners Guide. Animal Jam [Specifically the trading system..]. Dandy's World ] [ Misc: Despicable Me Franchise. Sonic The Hedgehog Movies. LPS. Jerma. Roleplay. Speculative Biology. Horror. Pony Town. ARGs. Psychology. Writing. Art. Online Trading Systems. All Tomorrows. Furry Fandom. Indistinct Chatter. The Oldest View ]

[ Kin Types ]

side note. things with "kin" at the end means that i am nothing specific to that species/concept ect. i am just them

[ Therian Kin Types: Wolfkin. Common Octopus. Fallow Deer. Sheep [unsure of species]. Horsekin. Ponykin. Nudibranchkin ] [ Otherkin Types: Shapeshifter. Nagakin. Angel [Throne and Principalities]. Winged Humankin. Celestial. Vampire. Galactic Whale. Object Headkin. Moth Humanoid. Demonkin. Faunkin. Deity ] [ Fictionkin Types: Eye/Stranger/lonely Avatar [TMA]. Stranger!Martin Blackwood. Martin Blackwood. Jonathan Sims. Logan Sanders [TSS] ] [ Conceptkin types: Empathy. Deceit. Theatrics. Balance. Justice. Sight. Onism. Omnipresence ] [ Objectkin Types: Computerkin. Red Rotary Phones. Red Phone Booths. Black Phone Booths. 1970s Cassette Tape Recorder. ]

There may be some kin types i am forgetting...But if i wrote everything down i would be here all day because my identity is incredibly fluid !! Apologies if the formatting is a bit bad or boring or if i made any grammatical errors. i am tired </3 https://meatboyandfriends.carrd.co/ commission info <3

tag system under the cut !!

#martin howls : general tag #martin reblogs : self explanatory #martin donations : gofundme and donation links for 🍉 #martins poetry : self explanatory

[yourlocalbirdie]

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

°★. Intro '☆•.

𓆝 Your local Birdie 𓆟

Hi I'm Hera!!

Im quite new to tumblr and I don't know if I'll ever post anything but im gonna do a quick introduction anyway ^^

(art by me)

ੈ✩‧₊˚ Im an alterhuman from Poland, who really likes art and music

Im pretty into IDV, Wings of fire, D4DJ, Rhythm Doctor, And maaaany more !!

i use She/They and my age range is 16-18 ੈ✩‧₊˚

𓇼𓏲 my identity...

I identify as alterhuman, fictionkin, therian and otherkin.

My identity is pretty fluid, so It's hard to write up all my kins here atp ^^'

I'm always free to talk to!!

~~~~~~~{ ♡ }~~~~~~~

DNI: PRO/DARKSHIPPERS, BASIC DNI CRITERIA, ANTIKINS, ANTI NEO/XENO PRONOUNS/GENDER

[umbrecrunch]

ABROFIC 🦴

pt: abrofic. end pt.

abro + fictionkin.

꒰୨୧◞ 。definition⠀.ᐟ a sexuality that is fluid due to being a fictionkin; changing depending on your kinshift.

pt: definition; a sexuality that is fluid due to being a fictionkin; changing depending on your kinshift. end pt.

[aspenonpawzzz]

HI

This is my introduction

my mewtual(s) in crime:

@justalexisfine

@imhereandqueersuckas (aka @goingtohellwithyou, that stupid fucker/silly/aff lost his password)

‼️‼️‼️I LIKE PINAPPLE ON PIZZA‼️‼️‼️

#c.ai shenanigans for c.ai posts lol

READ AND COMMENT IN MY FANFIC IM BEGGING!!!!

system side blog: @canis-constellation

fictive/fictionkin blog: @phantom-w0lfbane

Writers blog: @yourlocalangstdealer

term hoard/ label coining blog: @aspens-hoard

A-spec mafia: @aspec-warriors

(update: https://www.tumblr.com/aspenonpawzzz/757548899213918208/update?source=share)

Theme song: Throne, or Turn off the lights (panic! At the disco)

(Edit: forgot to mention, I have Tricotillamania!)

Plural Fluid!! (Coined term by me)

[werethropy]

INTRODUCTION

NAME;

Louie, Lewis/Lew, Werewolf/Were, Jackson/Jackie/Jack, Dog, or anything else, really.

GENDER;

It's pretty complicated, but I call myself Genderfluid for simplicity's sake.

PRONOUNS;

They're fluid, but since I'm definitely not going to remember to update this, then literally anything but She/Her.

I'm a POC (Cherokee and African American), but often regard myself as just black since that's what I "pass" as + the culture I involve myself with.

I'm a werewolf, a bull, and many other things!

I don't regard myself as a Therian or Alterhuman; I much prefer 'Nonhuman'/'Transspecies,' or 'Fictionkin' outside of animalistic identities, but I will interact with those communities since we go hand-in-hand.

Leftist (not sure how I align myself exactly), feminist, pro-choice (naturally).

I have been diagnosed with Autism, ADHD, OCD, and other mental health conditions.

I am very much into history, old western stuff, 2000s-2014 web, photography, reading, LPS, Pokemon, the Queer community, Chihuahuas, writing, art, fursuitting, MLP, animals, various music genres (e.g. Country, Folkpunk, Indie), and many other things!

I'm a firm believer in 'do what you want forever and ever' as long as it doesn't hurt anyone.

DO NOT INTERACT

Terfs/Radfems

Racists, extremely obviously.

Anti-Kink

Anti-BLM

Pro/Neu-Contact AND/OR Anti-Recovery "3 Big Bad" Paraphiles

Queerphobes

Anti-Xeno/Neos

Radqueers/'Proshippers'

Anti-Furs

Anti-Lesboy*

Anti-He/Him lesbians

And everyone else who can't be a tolerable, educated person.

Even if you aren't on this list, if you believe in something innately harmful, I will not hesitate to block.

(* - Excluding cisgender men who ID as ""lesbian""—I mostly mean lesboy in the 'prefer being called a boy' nonbinary way, multigender lesbians, as well as a mirage of other definitions of lesboy)

[cotton-stuffed-clown]

How exactly did you know you were a polymorph, if you don't mind me asking? ^_^

The rate at which my questioning kintypes fluctuated.

Some days I longed for big, rabbit like ears. Some days I wanted wings; some days those wings were feathered, other days they were more dragon or bat like. I've always had dysphoria for my lack of a tail, but some days the tail was thick and fluffy and others it was thin and long. Sometimes I'd wanna be more than one creature at once, sometimes what I wanted to be was a complete mystery. Because of this, I couldn't figure out what exactly I was. I used to think I was a handful of fictionkin because I'd want to have the traits specific characters had, I'd wanna look like them to the point it actively weighed on my mind. Now I understand their design was simply appealing to me and I longed for the ability to shift and morph my features to be like theirs.

For a very long time I thought I was a siren kin, because at the time those traits were what I wanted, and the idea of water dripping down my arms and soaking my hair sounded right, like it was what I missed. It wasn't being in water I wanted, it was ME I wanted to be fluid. That's also why I know I'm a polymorph and not just a shapeshifter. Every now and then I want a more solid body, but usually I wish to be very fluid and moldable.

Basically I'm oobleck.

[starscatteredsky]

Welcome to the Star Scattered Sky, hopefully you find your home among the cosmos :)

pt: Welcome to the Star Scattered Sky, hopefully you find your home among the cosmos :)

REQUESTS ARE INCREDIBLY BACKLOGGED!! PLEASE BE PATIENT WE HAVE OVER 200!!

read this for info on our current temporary changes to the posting schedule!

personal blog: @starrykinstellation! If we followed you that’s the blog to check out!

i’m mod Mono, i’ll likely be the most familiar face on the blog :)

a little thing for 100 followers!! right here!!

this is a safe place for therians, otherhearted, fictionkin, otherkin, introjects, irls, neogender havers, neopronoun users, systems, neurodiversities and physical disabilities of all kinds, and pretty much anyone else who wants to be here :)

[pt: this is a safe place for therians, otherhearted, fictionkin, otherkin, introjects, irls, neogender havers, neopronoun users, systems, neurodiversities and physical disabilities of all kinds, and pretty much anyone else who wants to be here :)]

we are here to help!! feel free to request different things like playlists, moodboards, fashion ideas, stimboards, den/home ideas, care kits, foods or recipes for your kin/theriotype/source/etc, names and pronouns, xeno/neogenders and flags (we can coin, or go searching for pre-existing ones, whatever is preferred) and more!! just ask!! (please keep requests to one or two kintypes per ask! sending in multiple asks will help us keep organized!)

we are ok with inbox checks!! our queue posts twice daily, so if we get a large influx of asks it can take a while for them to post! so it’s always ok to ask what’s coming up :D

we’re also happy to answer good faith questions about ourselves :)

we have a lot of darkkin (daemons/demons, incubi, cryptids, etc) and celestialkin alters moderating this blog, so always happy to see more of you interact!!!

this blog is run by a DID system. we want to keep discourse off this blog, as arguing is tiring. We are anti-endo, but we can’t and won’t stop you from using any terms you see here!

if you think your ask got eaten, please ask us before resending it!! we often get a backed up queue, and are happy to let you know if we received it or not :)

mods! (there will be more of us soon! we just need to talk with the system!)

[pt: mods! (there will be more of us soon! we just need to talk with the system!)]

mod mono: he/they/🔦/static/xyr/moth

mod 🩸: she/they/he

mod 👾: they/them

mod 🧪: he/him

mod 🪶: genderfluid/pronoun fluid, default is they/hymn

mod 🎉💊: they/them

mod⚔️: he/him

Mod Sebastian: He/Him. (Tag is mod🦈)

Requests open!!!

[ID:

a DNI banner with the background being the promotional image for Little Nightmares 2. The writing reads:

"DNI: radqueers, proshippers, radfems/TERFs, antikin/antitherian, homophobic/ ableist/ anti ACAB/ transphobic/ rasist/ antisemitic/ xenophobic/ antitheist/ anti athiest/ bigoted in any fashion, NSFW/sh/ed/cringe centered blog, fakeclaimer

Before you interact: We are pro mspec gays/lesbians, anti endo/tulpa "systems", enjoy MCYT/DSMP, pro self diagnoses with extensive research, multiple alters are punks/ anarchists"

end ID]

[Profile picture description

Mono from little nightmares running forwards in a navy background

end description]

[profile banner description

A picture of the pale city, showing haunting blue atmospheric lighting with the two sides of the city split by some kind of crevasse. the buildings lean in towards the center, and a thin wooden plank spans the crevasse. Two small silhouettes are walking across the plank. the buildings are inhumanly large, and the city stretches off far into the background, vanishing into the blue lighting. the silhouettes are so small, it makes the entire image give off a sense of awe and mystery, and almost unnerving.

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[flagsinthemaking]

SpiderGwen Aceflux

- Any Acefluxs can use!

- Requests Open!

- SpiderGwen Aceflux : for Acefluxs that like / relate to SpiderGwen , Acefluxs that are Fictives or DAs or Fictionkins (etc) of SpiderGwen , or just Acefluxs that like this flag!

- Aceflux : Aceflux is a fluid sexuality on the Asexual Spectrum. It is defined as someone whose sexual orientation fluctuates but generally stays on the Asexual Spectrum.

- FLAG ID : 5 striped flag.

- COLORS : Dark Dusty Pink , Dusty Pink, Light Dusty Pink, Light Dusty Blue, Baby Blue.

[levithealterhuman]

Hi yall my name is levi i go by he/xem/xeirs

Wierd ik anygays

Im gender fluid

A polytherian, alterhuman,fictionkin

I love yall all also im a minorrrrrrrrrrrr

[littlecourse]

im gonna be real with yall theres no inherent difference between being a fictive and being fictionkin in a system. im not saying that there is no difference at all between fictionkin and fictive, because the subcultures (fictionkin spaces+ fictive-centered system spaces) have their own trends and folks without community overlap,

but the only reasons i see people separating them as concepts so strongly is to avoid the “trading card culture” common in kin-for-fun circles and to try and get people to understand that their identity is important to them or is static/their only source of identity (or vice versa, that they would be reduced if seen as only their source)

but you know. bookending is common in fictive spaces too. otherkin can also have important and/or static identities or a fictionkin identity that’s their only source of self, and fictives can have unimportant and/or fluid sources and identity outside of their source(s)

the overlap is fine imo, it’s the lack of respect for normal divergent evolution associated with no longer being in your source’s situations and the dehumanization of “you are nothing more than a fictional character to me” in bookending/“trading card culture”

…as well as the lack of acknowledgement that static and important connections to fictionhood exist and that it’s not necessarily good to force separation on someone who’s often like that for a reason and needs to grow/change at a healthy pace

like. to get “i am in a system with a dissociative disorder that has goals around healing from that” for a moment, i think people so often assume the identity-shared-with-a-fictional-character part of being a fictive is the dissociative part targeted by healthy source separation, and not the mental separation from your current life and body, and the pressure to stay static and “perform” your source’s identity

im a dave strider fictive/kin and i got into rap music because it was something i enjoyed in my source. when i tried it in my current life, i realized that i still love rap actually and half my playlist is rap based. i still use a lot of post-irony and apathy to get by in life. i still think vulture culture is cool as fuck. i still call myself dave despite (de)transitioning. i love and seek out homestuck related material/media

but shit man. im in a completely different situation from my source and ive changed as a result of it. i use a lot more punctuation now because im not “dave strider from homestuck” anymore and its hard sometimes but i gotta remind myself that i dont have to stay like that. i dont have to try and “out-dave” other daves like i did when i first formed because we’re just different people all (originally) named dave with similar issues and interests, instead of one “real dave” with a bunch of fakes

that and also i can see myself as both the white haired, red eyed girl i am in-system while also seeing my body (and it is my body now, not “the” body, and not even “our” body^), a brown haired, brown eyed white man as me. i would recognize myself in the mirror in either forms. im working on loving and connecting to my body as it is and not as it “should” be

^ (im not saying my body is mine and belongs to nobody else in my system, im saying that for us, everyone in my system (including me) using “my” for my body, my life, and my system, is the next step to getting closer to each other and the life we fought so hard to live)