#feeling very not real atm.
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lovelaceisntdead · 1 year ago
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Staring at my computer screen all day making patterns I want to throw this thing out the window this feels so wrong and unnatural I can't believe I wanted to be a graphic designer all that time. I was born for paper and ink and paint and pencil and thread and board and glue and fabric.
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skhardwarevers1 · 3 months ago
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if this post gets like…5000 notes I’ll actually start writing scripts/making storyboards for videos I’ve had ideas about for months
additionally if this gets to 10000 (which I highly doubt it will) I’ll actually work on my abandoned stories, book ideas, and poetry
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tvckerwash · 4 months ago
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I'm convinced the chorus trilogy gaslighted people into forgetting how everyone was characterized prior to miles being the main writer, to the detriment of literally everybody lmao
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museenkuss · 7 months ago
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loving and moving my body this week (15.04.-21.04.24)
Monday. ballet beautiful x train like an angel [30 mins]
Tuesday. Pilates & Yoga Inspired Flow [19 mins]
Wednesday. Gentle morning Pilates [15 mins]
Thursday. feel good full-body pilates for positive energy [30 mins]
Friday. yoga & stretching good morning routine [12 mins]
Saturday. feel good pilates [23 mins]
Sunday. twist shimmy belly dance workout [24 mins]
Exhale to splits: Day 26 [18 mins] // Day 27 [12 mins] // Day 28 [17 mins] // Day 29 [11 mins] // Day 30 [21 mins]
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This week marks a new beginning (new semester, new sports courses I'm excited to be taking) and an end - the exhale to splits series!! I'm extremely excited for both. Let's move, stretch, GROW this week!
In case the suggestion doesn't feel right for that day, here are some alternatives (12 minutes or less, can also be used as add-ons). No shame in taking it slow! Let's move according to our needs! :) nightime flexibility stretches // bedtime yoga stretch to release stress & tension // 8 min beginner's ballet flexibility. // 10 min | Beginner Belly Dance Workout | Slow & Smooth Tutorial // 15 min Gentle Pilates Workout For Beginners
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miraclegemz · 1 year ago
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july is over I can finally draw shadow again
Did my own take on some shatter shadows, I have some thoughts abt each of them, but please know that they all have Issues
Also these were very much inspired by @/son1c and their Sonic Prime AU so go check them out
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there-will-be-a-way · 7 months ago
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Still haven't processed that I was diagnosed with DID for a third time. Other people are out there struggling to get diagnosed and here I am, diagnosed three times and still can't believe it. (If my therapist would diagnose me too, maybe then I could believe it.)
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autism-disco · 6 months ago
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aggressively searching for joy and love in every sad seeming crevice
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luneyverse · 3 months ago
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what if my “dead” name became my name again it’s cute
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thats-a-lot-of-cortisol · 3 months ago
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Using my brain like a metal detector to figure out what the FUCK it wants to do
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skitskatdacat63 · 11 months ago
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i know you are studying languages, how many do you speak/understand at like … i could get around here level fluency?
So, I've studied German, Russian, Latin and Japanese.
German is definitely my best, I started studying it probably about 8 years ago and have studied it for most of those years. I think it's just difficult to get fluent bcs it really depends on your teacher and environment. I think I could survive w it tho, I was pretty okay with it, and even improved, when I was in Austria and Germany. It's more of a confidence thing honestly. I think if I was there for more than a month, I'd definitely improve even more!
Russian is probably my second best, it's only been tho 2 years or so. I'm good at the basics, but I've not gotten any real world experience so :/ and my prof rn is so bad djkfkfl love her tho <3 I think I need to watch more Russian media like I do with German bcs that def helps. I think I'd be okay at getting around in a Russian speaking country, but mostly just basics.
I've forgotten most of my Japanese unfortunately ah :( but that was only like 2 years, and Latin is of course a dead language so there's not a lot of ways to apply it(but I'd like to get better with it)
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00queasy00 · 1 year ago
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x rambles in the tags about my art struggles, nothing new to see :0
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whatimdoing-here · 5 months ago
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Help.
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princekirijo · 1 year ago
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Honestly would love to try writing again but I don't think I would post it anywhere.
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pikslasrce · 1 year ago
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im going to detach from reality very soon i can feel it.
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phagodyke · 5 months ago
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ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.
#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out#not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her#like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool#it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun#i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again#but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too#to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together#thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything.#and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all#like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing.#im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad#and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do#and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends#im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for#but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen#to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it#i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and#decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space'#when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen#and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree#but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most#and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen#and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway#so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me#which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its#crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it#idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her#i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of#resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different#and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has
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i kept seeing funny clips of House, M.D. around and it kind of made me want to watch it but then i pulled it up on netflix and it's described as 'dark' and now i'm scared
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