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clowngem Ā· 3 months ago
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I would hold you close to me... so close to me
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indimiart Ā· 11 months ago
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hugs arenā€™t always the solution, especially after nightmares, and Nievan knows well that sometimes they can be too much. so he waits, and if a hug is whatā€™s asked for, then heā€™s more than happy to give it. And if not? Thatā€™s okay, too.
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deoidesign Ā· 2 months ago
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Look at these stickers my brain is literally so huge. God. I love them so much.
I hadn't tried to do a sticker sheet at home before because I knew it would be difficult, and I was right! Getting the cut lines to line up with the print was super hard and there were many failed attempts, but it was so worth it I'm so happy with them!!!
This sticker sheet is for my patrons this month ^^
#like seriously I wasted like 10 entire sheets#normally when I do stickers I get to arrange them on a 'print and cut' sheet#which basically has these black marks in the corners that the machine can scan so it can cut based off of where those marks were#so it gets to line up muuuch easier#but with this I didnt want to have just like 2 sticker sheets a page... I wanted to have 4 for an 8.5x11 piece of paper?#cause of obvious reasons I feel#cause the print and cut takes an inch all around#I'm not sure it would be replicable either tbh? like if I were to design another sheet I would have to waste a bunch of papers again#cause for some reason the individual cut lines werent like... it wasnt like it was just entirely offset or entirely scaled 1:1#it was like some parts had to scoot up some spots had to scoot over some down whatever#so I think I would have to print cut and test again#but. also I did all that and realized. I could have been testing this on normal pieces of paper... I didnt have to use sticker paper#its fine! just makes me feel less bad about trying to do this again in the future#the sticker paper isnt that expensive this wasnt terrible#anyways. might do more in the future! I only have one other idea right now for a sticker sheet bt I wanna do it eventually#not like I wont ever have other ideas. obviously.#I just generally try to only make stuff that i'd actually wanna have so i'm not trying to make a ton of designs or whatever#this is actually also why i'm often sort of... late? on the patreon designs#not late like i send them out as soon as payments get processed for that month the design was for#but ideally id be making them ahead of time enough that people could sign up or sign off if theyre interested or not...#but I just dont wanna make a design that feels procedural... I CAN but I wanna make things that are creative and worth paying for!#so. I often will spend multiple days mulling over ideas for that months designs. so I'm not very ahead at all haha#anyways. yeah these are for october and then I've also gotta draw a halloween themed drawing for this year in general that will be the prin#i lov halloween#anyways.#patreon#merch#my bf didnt get it the gravestone box. its like a nerds box shaped like a gravestone...#and the nerds are. ghosts... its good. its good okay you agree
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aftschmidt Ā· 1 year ago
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Thinking about Mike getting lonely on his night shifts at Freddyā€™s when a business card falls out of his pocket and onto the floor. Steve Raglan. He picks it up. He thinks about wether or not itā€™d be appropriate to call the man, especially at such an hour. But heā€™d been so nice to him when detailing the job over the phone, and he couldnā€™t lie that he found the older manā€™s voice soothing, as if he cared about how Mike got on. Maybe heā€™d read too much into it. Maybe he was so starved of any niceties from anyone and strangers alike that he saw something that simply wasnā€™t there. He picked up his phone.
William Afton was on his way to cause trouble. Heā€™d been itching to make himself known to young Michael ever since he started working at the pizzeria. The animatronics hadnā€™t made any fuss or shown any sign of disturbance in Mikeā€™s presence and that irked him. Besides the break in where his children killed three men that occurred a few weeks prior, everything had gone so disappointingly quiet. For a while heā€™d been torn between letting it be for the sake of Vanessaā€™s tireless efforts to keep his anonymity in place, and making a mess just for the hell of it. Heā€™d grown restless over the course of Mikeā€™s employment and decided the latterā€™s inevitable crescendo was well overdue. Heā€™d parked inconspicuously across the street from the pizzeria, jitters of anticipation setting in as he collected himself and everything he needed for the show. His phone rang. He sighed impatiently before answering swiftly.
ā€œHello?ā€
ā€œā€¦ Hi, Mr Raglanā€¦ itā€™s uh, itā€™s Mike Schmidt.ā€
William furrowed his brow, darting his eyes over the pizzeria, as if heā€™d been caught in the act, he sat forward, eyeing the building like a hawk. ā€œMike? ā€¦ isnā€™t it a little late to be seeking, well uh, council?ā€
Mike swallowed audibly. ā€œYeah, it is. Youā€™re right. Iā€™m sorry, I donā€™t know why I called.ā€ He sounded embarrassed.
William shook his head as if to clear it, confusion and curiosity ebbing their way into the forefront of his mind. ā€œNo, no, itā€™s fine. Iā€™m just surprised is allā€¦ Are you alright?ā€
Mike nodded, to himself more than anything. ā€œOh, uh, sure yeah, I uh, itā€™s quiet here. Iā€™m getting on with it, yā€™know. I just uh, I thought about how helpful youā€™ve been and I uhā€¦ well itā€™s much appreciated.ā€
William sat back and released a suddenly very loaded sigh. ā€œWell it is my job, Mike.ā€
Mike used his free hand to rub at his aching eyes. ā€œYeah of course, of course it is. Still, thank you.ā€
William squinted, as if to help him see Mike through the walls that stood so close yet so far out of reach. ā€œIsā€¦ that why youā€™re calling me atā€¦ā€ He checked his watch. ā€œTwo am? To thank me?ā€
Mike swallowed again. Unsure what he was even doing at this point. ā€œYes, and no, itā€™s important you should know that, but no, Iā€™m sorry, I wanted to hear your voice.ā€
Williamā€™s breath caught in his throat. He looked down at the knife resting on his lap. ā€œā€¦ you wanted to hear my voice..?ā€
Mikeā€™s eyes grew wide as he clocked onto what his exhausted mind and mouth had just admitted to. ā€œNo! I- not in a weird way! I wanted to say hi! Just uh, seeā€¦ how youā€™re doingā€¦ā€
William smirked, that giddy feeling pushing back up through his stomach and into his chest. He felt warm, it made him uncomfortable. He frowned. ā€œMike, itā€™s 2 am, youā€™re calling your career advisor to say hi, does that not seem weird to you.ā€
Mike sagged in his seat. It was weird. Very much so. If he ever needed an indication that he needed to take better care of himself and his sleep schedule, this was most definitely it. ā€œAlright yeah, a little bit. Iā€™m sorry.ā€
William bit his bottom lip. What could have possibly crossed Mikeā€™s mind for him to call William of all people at this hour. He supposed heā€™d done worse in the throws of loneliness, maybe if heā€™d had someone to talk to, someone who cared, someone to call at two am, certain things might have gone differently. Or not. Heā€™d never felt this reflective before. ā€œā€¦ Iā€™m doing okay, a little tired I suppose, thank you for your concern, Mike.ā€ What the hell was this. What was Mikeā€™s angle here? Why did he want to hear Steveā€™s voice? There were too many questions and William had no answers. He clearly needed to see where this went. He had to leave before he cut this story short. ā€œAnd Iā€™d be doing a lot better if you let me get back to sleep.ā€
Mike cringed, he really knew how to work it. Catch him contemplating suicide over this conversation as soon as it ended. ā€œOh shit, you were asleep? Of course you were itā€™s 2 am. God Iā€™m so sorry. Forget I called, please.ā€
William smirked again. ā€œā€¦ How about you call me tomorrow. Preferably before bed time.ā€
Mike couldnā€™t believe it. Wether it was for a mental health assessment or a not so embarrassing conversation, he couldnā€™t care less, this had to be a good thing. ā€œā€¦ when is, uh, bed time?ā€
William rolled his eyes. ā€œGoodnight, Mike.ā€
Mike cringed again. God, what an idiot. Steve was an intelligent man. He couldnā€™t keep acting like this if he wanted this to go well. ā€œGoodnight Sir.ā€
William couldnā€™t lie, the use of the term sir coming from Mike, made him feel something he hadnā€™t felt in a long time. He couldnā€™t place it. ā€œCall me Steve.ā€
Mike sighed with relief. ā€œGoodnightā€¦ Steve.ā€
William hung up. He started up the ignition and headed home. Keeping Mike alive for a few more days couldnā€™t hurt, and if nothing came of it, he would always come back.
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seventh-district Ā· 14 days ago
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ā€œWhyā€™s he call you Darlinā€™?ā€
on my knees begging my brain to stop trying to associate this song with Sam
#(itā€™s too late guys iā€™ve already added it to a couple playlists. i canā€™t help it)#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redacted sam#redacted darlin#rp audio stuff#Sevenā€™s Blorbo Songs#music stuff#i fell down a rabbit hole of music videos on YT last night and decided to give this song a chance based on the title obviously#skipped through all the exposition just to quickly find out if i liked the song or not#and as soon as the first line came in i went head-in-hands at my desk bc i just Knew it was over for me#i hate that i like it#itā€™s very repetitive and giving strong Modern/Mainstream Pop-Rap-Country vibes#but iā€™m not too proud to admit that i eat that shit up on occasion#ā€˜Youā€™ve been beatinā€™ ā€˜round the bush so much youā€™re knockinā€™ off the leaves.ā€™ goes kinda hard tho iā€™m ngl#ā€˜ole boy in a Ridgeline and i drive a Chevyā€™ would Sam be a truck elitist? hmm#i doubt it. i see him as too practical-minded to care about brand names and shit like that#like irl i think itā€™s very silly. and perhaps a little questionable to hate on a ā€˜foreignā€™ vehicle. but i donā€™t even like trucks at all so#insecure country boys and their obsession with big trucks are ruining the road for us regular people that just want a normal ass car#but iā€™ll stop before i go off on a rant about americaā€™s transportation problems#anyways. i can separate reality from fiction and i love the image of Sam in a beat up beloved old truck. clichĆ© as it may be#getting back on track. my POINT was that the song doesnā€™t even necessarily fit Samā€™s vibes i just. canā€™t undo the association#been trying to think of a way for it to fit him but that would require Darlinā€™ to be cheating on him and i donā€™t like that thought#like i love some types of angst but cheating isnā€™t one of them#i could view it through the context of being directed at Alexis bc i already hate her lmao but once again it doesnā€™t fit in canon#and i donā€™t know how i feel about the thought that he used to call her Darlinā€™ too. though itā€™s very possible. mmm angst#not that it has to fit with canon for me to attach a song to a character. certainly not! but i need to make it work in my mind Somehow#and i canā€™t even come up with a good HC to make this fit. the idea of Jealous!Sam is fun in theory but idk if iā€™d like it practice anyways#tldr: does this really fit canon Sam? meh. Is it forever tied to him in my mind anyways due to the use of the petname Darlinā€™? absolutely.#anywho. one of these days iā€™ll open this app to do something other than vent post or yap abt rp audio blorbos. but that day is not today!
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sysig Ā· 8 months ago
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Having fun, more and more! (Patreon)
#Doodles#Unicorn Tails#Dangersoft#Villainsona#Just Desserts#True Villainy AU#Okay fine I'll talk about the really silly fixation I accidentally fell into lol#It's all Jello's ISaT stream's fault they mentioned Wall Day and I got curious!#Actually it was Jello reciting Will's line as the mad cultist in a kids' unicorn game that got me interested lol he just went all out#And it really is a kids' game! Like yeah some of the lore is dark and ominous and weird but it's genuinely just a nice unicorn game#And the character customization is cute and you can buy a spider hat! I want a spider hat#I'm fully onboard at this point lol I intend to buy it for realsies and play as an alicorn and go hunting for the Estranged Rabbit#Dangersoft is great of course <3 Neon green horse love that for her#Some happies <3 I've been quite happy lately :D Big Loves yay <3#If there is an article of clothing I can hide in I will take the opportunity every time lol#Regularly hiding in hoods and collars - it just feels nice!#More Charm more cutes <3 I've had the idea of her cutting her hair for S3 since she was created but I still don't Actually have anything lol#She's just cute and I love her! She's adorable no matter what she looks like#I think I was thinking something along the lines of her long hair being used against her in her True Villain form#Like how it's normally up and ice cream shaped but Kaiein wanted it down and it gave her a different look#But short it can't look like that :) She's always light and fluffy if it's short! I like it <3#Speaking of - her candle wings popping out from her Kaiein wings!#It's weird to see her with her hair down and glasses on in that context haha#I do like the symbolism of dark inky wings being cut through with fire and light :) Still drippy tho lol#And rounding off with a Just Desserts bee <3 I posted that one JD Pet Bee a while ago but I think bees are also wild animals#They're important for sweets production and pollination! Fruit-based sweets need them!#I personally really love bees I think they're the cutest but I also get really stressed about buzzing :'D#Does Not help that my hair is a colour they're attracted to so they come up right next to my head to investigate agh#So Charm is the same! Loves bees! They're wonderful and important and cute! But the buzzing...#She's being very brave tho <3
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averlym Ā· 11 months ago
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@remylong :
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#newest broken telephone installment#the remy renaissance#or rather standard avvycc dms. broken telephone elements include ccsims designs of my old designs plus prev hp art plus the general sepia#of everything on fire. bonus to the chromatic aberration on hp it feels quite fitting (yknow bc the chorus behind his lines..) idk vibes#this colouring style is actl terribly fun i'm quite !!! about it. i'm also glad that I made reference sheets for them all long ago bc#otherwise i would have gone insane rrying to rmb them from scratch. lately despite the rainbow hp seems to overall be turquoise blue? which#is so fun compared to the more purple/ neutral blues and greys i have in mind for mark...#anyways doing well! getting back slowly into Making things again! having fun etc etc#have been in OC-land lateā€‹ly but nothing i'm ready to share yet haha#so occassional bit of fanart it is. i inexplicably want to draw hands now though i was walking back home#pondering my adamandi era (mad the most insane fanart i've ever made; no recollection of it now) and after enough mulling it over#it would be nice to return to it. don't think i'm as obsessed anymore but it's certainly not lacking in inspiration#ideas are there just havent reached the sweet spot where you get so taken by an idea you're compelled to turn it to reality#and i think itwould be fun. perhaps even gratifying to set wips to rest#so maybe. in the meantime px11 brokentelephone is sustaining my urge to make miscellaneous fanart haha#melliotverse so true. wonder why despite watching taopp i haven't been compelled to draw it but i get the inkling it's just that specific#aesthetic that doesn't do it for me. <blinks> it was very good and i enjoyed it immensely! i think i just surprised myself by being normal#about a musical for once. i think also bc irl i've been more Good Busy the drive to engage in fandom has dissipated somewhat..#so overall i think it's a good thing. just different. but then again this stretch of time is a transitory period for me so changing ought to#to be expected. ah well tldr don't overthink just do what sparks joy be happy? literally so lucky to be spoiled for choice wrt things#i want to do. so much to do and see and learn and time still to get to figure it all out!
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somethingsomethingcomic Ā· 2 months ago
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sorry for the inactivity, ive been doing a lot of traditional art (and crafts and music) lately. here's some Ink Eli as an apology
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reminiscentrainclouds Ā· 1 month ago
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You guys ever feel trapped? Yea I'm well-acquainted with the feeling of being trapped.
#*text#talk about unpleasant#sorry for only posting textposts here lately. I Forgot how I use this blog.#Also I'm gonna use this as an excuse to vent in the tags about something that's been bothering me today.#I hate days where it feels like I can't be the same person for even. idk. an hour?#I was gonna say just a general statement of 'I hate how I can't feel like the same person for more than an hour' but then I realized it onl#particularly bothered me today so maybe it's just a sometimes thing. throws hands up in the air I WOUDLN'T KNOW#It's just...nothing I do throughout the day matches. i keep starting new things only to forget about them (or forget how much I cared#about them) and try something else later. resulting in a long line of unfinished stuff and frustration.#I keep trying to come up with new conclusions/solutions to problems I've run through my head a million times already.#problems I didn't know I had or forgot about pop up etc.#I'll be doing fine and then I'll just feel stranded out of nowhere with no idea why and trying to figure out if this is normal for me.#I've felt stranded all day.#it's just ugh. i'm so confused. it's been a day i guess.#all the words i write feel kinda foreign to me sometimes. short term memory problems I guess. āœŒļø#but also I feel very very locked in a really limited worldview. or just like. my world feels very small like tunnel vision kind of thing an#for that reason it just feels like it'll go on the same forever and ever and ever. which is a very scary thought.#idk if my logical 'well that obviously isn't the case. things will change eventually' rebuttal is good enough to go against it.#so there you go I wrapped it all back to the point of the post: feeling trapped. yayyy#i don't mean to make myself sound so sad and pitiful. usually i'm doing fine and bad things kinda just don't register in my brain#but there are Secret Evil Feelings inside me that I don't even know about and sometimes I like to poke them with a stick.
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random little burst of activity on the ohtmb series got me in my feelings about ohtmb!loki again......
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unohanadaydreams Ā· 1 year ago
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Work has been so stressful that Iā€™ve just been having coffee for lunch before I power walk around the neighborhood trying to expel the evil from my body.
And I bring this up so you understand that I genuinely thought I was hallucinating hearing Number One blasting out of a car that drove by today.
Literally how I felt as my brain did a soft reboot:
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im-smart-i-swear Ā· 1 year ago
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eeneks sister having a fuck ton of scars, but later most of them being revealed as just from her childhood/from mundane accidents is so fucking funny to me for some reason.........
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vanweezer Ā· 5 months ago
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me: shit why cant i tell people close to me that i love them when i havent been smoking
my brain: you dont trust yourself or anyone to say what they actually mean and also *** **** ***** *** *** **** ***** *** *********** ** **** *** ***** **** **, ***** ** * **** ***** *** ***** *** ********* ***** ** *** and when you smoke you typically only say it in a joking context so youre not worried about people taking you seriously anyway
me: ok real and true, pass that shit over here
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orcelito Ā· 1 year ago
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the weird thing about when someone dies is that they're never truly dead in my head. when i think about my grandpa, my grandma, my uncle, i dont think of them as dead. i think of them as just... gone for a while. some longer than others. i think about my cat sammy and my cat cassy and i feel like i could still look over and see them there beside me. i can see the way sammy would always cuddle right up to me and lay his head on my shoulder. i can see the way cassy would swivel his head at me when he wanted pets.
they're all dead. they're all gone. but i feel like i could see them again, just like old times. all i need to do is give them a call.
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yardsards Ā· 1 year ago
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on one hand it's probably for the best that there were no jokes about rainer's disability but on the other hand, rainer absolutely strikes me as a fellow member of the "uses our visible disability for lame puns and prop comedy" gang
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anaalnathrakhs Ā· 10 months ago
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uh oh i feel like i have a deeply maladaptative response to people knowing Literally Anything about me it's fine it's fine i'm handling it very well
#constantly daydreaming about throwing my phone in the river n leaving a nice note for my parents and fucking LEAVING#but like#if i just stop talking to my friends#then what's the point#do i make new friends? will i do the same shit to my new friends?#it feels like kind of a dick move to do that to people i like#and i DO like them#i like hanging out w them and just. i don't know. i feel like this freedom i dream of is something i could have in this life yknow.#i feel if i had balls i could just start living the life i want#it's not even like my parents are dicks or something they trust me and they've very understanding and loving#they wouldn't judge me for how i dress or be mad if i stay out late as long as i warn them#but i dont know. i dont know why i'm a massive fucking weirdo about it okay.#but i've caused them so much trouble already. i feel like i'm betraying them if i grow up.#i feel like i'm causing them too much worry no matter if i stray away from the nest or stay.#and i feel like a fucking monster for not loving them enough but i can't stand being near them anymore#it's too painful#i've never managed to completely hate them even when i was deep in depression and they handled it poorly#i'd get into a screaming match with my dad and an hour later we'd sing songs together in the car#but it's been so dull lately. it feels like im in a video game. picking prewritten dialogue and being fed prewritten answers.#and WHY does this happen. why can't i just have a normal relationship with people#why do i turn into an alien on his first day on earth whenever i start caring abt someone#why are we so fucking abnormal as a family that we never goddamn hang out#why am i such an empty husk of a person that i cannot for the life of me figure out something we could do together#i keep believing in this fantasm of one day changing everything in one fell swoop instead of growing up like a normal guy#because i know i'm a coward. i'm scared of other people seeing me fail.#i dont want to hurt my parents ever again and i dont want to settle for halfway freedom#so i repress hardcore things i want so that nobody not even me can decipher what it is#smth smth the enormity of my desire disgusts me#and of course it fails because im weakshit and cannot restrict anything ever#and i hurt them anyway
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