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Me to the main kuro tag on here sometimes tbqh
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#something is very obviously different about these two compared to my normal images on this blog. i acknowledge this#also the sv model is Really good. and since they always stare straight at the camera anyway… and no one pays attention to the background…#and the only high-quality phantump model i could find was so horribly shiny that its eyes were just white voids#in my defense‚ phantump always just stare straight at you in game#the lighting is different‚ yeah. that's probably the dead giveaway. beyond the background. but like. i'm the only being on the planet who#really likes phantump anyway. i feel like it's a generally forgettable pokémon to most folks#phantump#HELLO this one is a weird one. i have some explaining to do. so when i did this one i didn't know how to edit models really at all#and when i got the models for these‚ the xy models were super shiny. shiny to the point that it made their eyes fuckin invisible#and i decided that since you could barely tell it was phantump‚ i needed a different way to get these images#i remembered that in the SV dlc‚ every time you find a wild phantump‚ it just fucking. stares. at you. and i was like. aha#i kinda remembered because of the test stream that i did. tumblr user alligayytorr (am i getting the right amount of Ys) said#“haha i am getting a sneak peek” when i zoomed the camera in on a phantump. and i remembered that. and i was like. i can utilize this#and ended up using just an in-game screenshot of SV in replacement of the regular content. later on‚ after that#once we got into gen 7 and it became less and less reliable to find models‚ i had to learn how to edit them manually to remove the shine#i am a software dev. not a 3d modeler. this ended up coming down to editing the code of the models directly (which i ended up writing a#script to automate). now‚ today‚ january 22nd (the day of me writing these tags and updating this post)‚ i remembered this post was in the#queue and was not normal. so i went back‚ ran the script on the phantump and trevenant models‚ and unshinified them#then edited these two posts to be normal. i have left the original pictures i took under the cut for reference and as bonuses#because i really enjoy phantump. so that's why those images are there‚ and that's why these tags are here#just for posterity's sake‚ the folks who come here mostly for my commentary‚ i've left the ORIGINAL tags of the post when i initially#made it with the SV pictures up at the top (i wanted to rearrange them‚ but tumblr makes that Very difficult‚ so i left them as-is)#so if these tags are confusing to read i Apologize. but i hope now that you're at the bottom you understand what happened#i'm gonna go edit the trevenant post now
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kinktober day 3: vanilla
roachghost for vanilla because vanilla is a sweet flavor and i love it on them <3
also this was very much inspired by @lokibus-writes because her roachghost is simply to die for!!!!!!!!
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additional tags: missionary, anal, lots of kissing, mute roach
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the cabin they were staying at was cozy and small, just one large living area and a bedroom with an en suite. roach had picked the location for their first leave together, knowing that even though he wouldn't ask for it, ghost would appreciate something tucked away and romantic.
sure enough, as soon as they got there, ghost had been obviously taken with the place, despite not saying very much beyond "this is nice." but roach knew he was excited when he immediately started to go unpack, putting their clothes into the small dresser and their toiletries in the bathroom while roach started making dinner.
that had been a few hours ago, and now they were in bed, shirtless, ghost on his back under roach, kissing sweet and a bit giddy at finally being alone together in a non-military setting.
roach kissed over ghosts cheek to his neck, smiling at the giggles it pulled out of him.
"tickles, bug," ghost laughed, but roach just matched the giggling and pressed a firmer kiss against his throat.
"you wanna help me get my trousers off?" ghost asked, running his palms over roach's bare chest.
roach sat back onto ghost's thighs. always, beautiful, he signed, before dropping his hands to undo the button and zipper on ghosts jeans. ghost blushed and watched for a moment while roach shuffled around as he worked ghosts jeans down, leaving just his boxer briefs that were tented up at the front with his erection.
he quickly took his own trousers off before he was back on ghost, kissing him and letting their dicks frot against each other through their underwear. he breathed in the soft moan ghost let out; he always loved the little sounds his boyfriend let out when they made love like this, all sweet soft pleasure.
they stayed like that for a bit, just kissing and rubbing against each other, chest to chest, hands gently exploring each other with the almost timid gentleness of a first time, despite this being far from their first.
after a bit, ghost ran his hands down roach's sides and slipped his fingertips into the waistband of roach's underpants. "off?" he asked quietly.
roach nodded, working them off before gently tugging on ghosts.
"please," ghost said, lifting his hips up slightly to help roach get them off easier.
once they were off, ghost parted his legs a bit while roach grabbed the lube off the side table. he held up his arms to invite roach back in, eager to feel the warmth and weight of his lover again.
roach obliged happily, quickly getting a slick finger over ghosts entrance, grinning at the happy hum ghost let out at the sensation.
you like that? he asked.
"i like you," ghost said, "you know i love anything as long as its with you."
roach kissed him again and pushed the tip of his finger in, slowly working his way in while ghost rocked his hips back to get him in deeper.
they took their time until roach had three fingers in him and ghost was panting hard against him, clipped moans coming out with every thrust of roach's hand.
roach paused for a second, looking at him questioningly.
"i'm ready," ghost breathed, "go ahead."
roach pulled his fingers out and got more lube to slick his cock up, quickly working to line himself up. he looked back up at ghost, who nodded hard.
leaning forward, roach pushed his tip in, sighing over ghost's lips as he worked his way inside.
ghost let his head fall back into the bed, closing his eyes to soak in the way it felt: the satisfying fullness, the softness of their bodies against each other, the gentle feel of every shared breath.
he shivered at the smooth slide of roach's cock when he pulled back until just his tip was inside, parting his legs wider when roach thrust back in.
"so good," he breathed, "fuck; you always feel so good."
roach bit his lip as he started setting a rhythm, tapping ghost in the middle of the chest: you.
ghost pulled him closer into another kiss, deep and passionate, only breaking it with a shaky moan when roach reached down to wrap a hand around his cock to work him in time with his thrusting.
"just like that, fuck," ghost almost whispered, panting against roach's lips as he began moving faster, "don't stop, fuck don't stop - "
roach thrust in hard and kept it there, grinding up to find ghost's prostate until he was squeezing around his cock and crying out underneath him, legs tight around roach's waist until he was spilling over his hand and onto his own stomach, gasping deep breaths of air while roach carefully stroked him through it.
he kissed down ghost's neck and started moving again, wishing he could make it last forever...but seeing and feeling ghost get off always left him close, feeling him tense and relax and release -
"come on , bug, please, please i want it so badly, fuck i wanna feel you all the way inside me, god i love you - "
roach let out a harsh whine into the side of ghost's neck and his hips almost slammed into ghosts, pulsing hard and deep inside him. he felt ghosts chest rising and falling with heavy, satisfied sighs at the feeling of being so deeply entwined with each other.
they stayed like that for a time, just breathing each other in, allowing themselves the slow, gentle closeness and intimacy that military life so frequently denied them.
"love you," ghost quietly murmured into roach's ear, wanting to say it but not wanting to disturb the peaceful quiet of the room.
roach smiled and kissed him, pulling back a bit to free his hands. love you, simon.
#hardstyle's kinktober 2024#kinktober 2024#kinktober#roachghost#ghostroach#i like them having sweet vanilla missionary#gary roach sanderson#simon ghost riley#roach x ghost#ghost x roach#roast#roach cod#cod roach#call of duty roach#roach call of duty#im so used to writing fuckin depravity that this was genuinely a little challenging for me#in a good way#but like. kinda made me stop and think about myself for a second lol. anyway#sorry i said the word lover#ive literally never *ever* used that word in a fic before ever because i. do not love it#but. it fits and its nice in context here i think#also hardstyle not using the word hole ONCE in a piece????? insane#also cis ghost feels SO weird to write but. idk i felt like mixing it up a little#at least one (many) of these will be t4t/t4t4t so. prepare#i have to be honest i could have written this to be like twice as long but i made myself keep some of the stuff a little shorter#cause i got 28 prompts to go lol
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Given that D-16 seems to already have the Decepticon logo in every scene we see him in I think it’s likely that he has it right from the start. And that “the heck is that mark on your arm?” is going to be a driving question in the movie. Especially given he seems surprised to find something that looks like the mark.
#Transformers#Maccadam#TF1#Working theory is that he was created either by the proto-Decepticon faction#as a weapon of some sort#Or that he’s a failed Quintesson experiment they tossed#Either way I think he’ll turn out to not be a “normal” Cybertronian#In this continuity#Not sure how I would feel about that if it turns out to be true :\#But then I am garbage at predicting things so who fuckin’ knows?#God why am I theorizing about this movie I’m not even that interested?#Also kinda funny since I think the logo was originally meant to look like Soundwave?
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"every gambler has a tell, modesty was gambit's"
THIS SHOW DID NOT HAVE TO GO SO FUCKING HARD OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDD
#HONESTLY IT MIGHT NOT FEEL LIKE IT FOR GAMBIT FAN'S SINCE HE'S YA KNOW FUCKIN' DEAD BUT WE EATIN' GOOD IN THIS SERIES CHER#this is unironically some of the most nuanced and respectful writing of gambit i've ever seen in my life#IT'S LIKE HE'S AN ACTUAL REAL CHARACTER#HE GOT THE COOL BADASS HERO SAVE THE DAY MOMENT HE GOT HIS OWN PERSONAL IN HIS MIND REDEMPTION ARC#HE GOT THE MOST THOUGHTFUL INSIGHTFUL LOVING DESCRIPTION OF HIM I'VE EVER SEEN IN CANON#GOD I FEEL SO WELL FED NGL IT'S BEEN A ROUGH TIME SEEING GAMBIT GET MORE AND MORE CARDBOARD IN THE COMICS THIS IS SO REFRESHING#gambit did something NONE of the big name omega types could do i kinda wish we had the moorlock massacre stuff in tas canon#bc this would be SUCH a wonderful moment for remy after that. he personally saved moorlocks and then ended a massacre#something he failed to before and has haunted him WAY more than any thievery EVER could#GOD WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME THIS SHOW WAS SO FUCKING GOOD#xmen 97
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#i’m a little drunk so forgive me please but#idk if it’s like.. bc i’ve been kinda down/moody anyway recently or if it’s bc i was gone for a week or bc i’ve finally picked up on it or#what - but i feel like legit kinda isolated now in work.. not in like some awful everyone deffo hates me way but in that bs olivia laing way#like it’s taken me way too long to notice that i’m not doing a good enough job making fuckn work-friends or whatever the fuck#& it’s so hard to say if that’s like. a me issue or if that’s bc fuckin almost all the people i work w are guys so i’m not a real person t#*to them!! probs fuckin both lbr - but it’s rly not helping shit yk#bc as soon as u go in knowing that ppl are talking 2 u for politeness then ur quieter so u look worse so there’s less talking etc etc etc#great fuckin stuff - ANYWAY remembered what i actually wanted to say#which was that i went to get some drinks w a friend earlier this week and god i wish i could like. this week just do ANYTHING#get properly pissed! see people & shit properly again; i miss having a proper social life and i’ve litch never had one#this is best left to be forgotten#so let’s not tag it lol - but anyway; anyone know how to make proper friends as an adult as a compulsive nonsharer & someone w/o interests!
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god my stupid fucking ankle
#talking#it feels like a little insane to think physical disability might be further upon me but#my left foot has been so hard to support my weight on for a long ass time idfk whats up with it.#theres already the problems i have. being underweight. but god fuckin damn#some days its totally fine. ive walked around the city all day and only felt a bit tired by the end#other days i do literally nothing at home and wake up with my ankle kinda hurting. i feel crazy. hello.#i have work today. its not even like i work long shifts but im not looking forward to how its gonna feel by the end lmao#god. like. how much of it is just me being out of shape vs the way i just stand on my foot 😭😭😭
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I do find it so funny that I will graduate college days away from my birthday. Like my birthday is literally in between the end of the semester ("graduation") and commencement
It really will be like a joint graduation & birthday party for me lmao
#speculation nation#i dont really do birthday parties anymore. havent in a long time. mostly just go out and do smth fun around my bday. ya kno#also have cake but like not in a party way. just like. here's cake lol#but im probably only gonna graduate from college once. which means i might as well live it up and all.#invite all sorts of extended family and people who have known me. etc etc.#actually it just kinda sunk in that i am. Computer and Information Technology (Systems Analysis and Design focus) w a minor in Communication#like those are words. it's a lot of words but actually it really is pretty accurate?? like that's indeed what ive been studying.#now how much i *remember* is another question. considering how long ive taken to get thru school lol#but that's what people will see on my degree. that's my Thing. graduated in Computer Systems and Talking.#idk it's just weird to have spent so much of my life on this and like That's the culmination. it took so much work.#even beyond a normal 4 years. i switched my major *twice*. switched my minor too.#first year engineering to undecided liberal arts (as a temp major trying to switch to computer science bc i couldnt stay in FYE)#but then computer science sucked so i switched to trying to get into computer & info tech. which is different. and better.#and ive been in it long enough now that ive kinda forgotten but it did take some fuckin work to switch into it.#like i had to take certain classes first & i couldnt take them during the semesters that in-major students would take them#and i had to have my gpa up to a certain level etc etc. so many hoops to jump thru. i think it took me at least a year. or more. idr#but i made it in and thats my major. thats my thing. computers and information systems and communication.#doesnt FEEL like im an almost-graduate. but then i think about all the things ive taken and learned.#and maybe i dont remember a lot of the more specific things from these classes. but i took core lessons away from each one.#wont be able to recite the theories but i can live them. and thats the point of an education i guess.#anyways im gonna have to start job searching before too long and eughhbb. need to get my license first tho probably.#which i will... i will.... i have so many things to deal with... my life will be So Different in a year...#it will require me to put in the work now. but i can do it. and then a year from now. i'll hopefully be in a better spot.#living somewhere else. graduated from college. with a license and a car. maybe even an IT job of some kind.#kind of scared of trying to find a Big Boy Job. aka a job that requires a degree and networking and all that shit.#rather than just showing up and being like Hi i can do this job. i am not a total drain of a person. hire me please 👍#hfkahfks so many things to think about. and through it all i am still dealing with DEADLINES...!!!!#but yeah this is why my writing has largely been put on hold. idk i have a lot of things im dealing with rn.
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not to oc post at you back but. how do you imagine the melodie and connie dynamic. or is connie's leaving time before siffrin joins
i like to think the party travels with the full cast in canon long enough that itd make sense for connie to be around when sif joins. he 'leaves' the party like. when they have one orb left to grab. (i say 'leaves' because im toying with the idea of him getting frozen. lmao.) so!! waugh!!!
since connies an author and melodie writes too, itd be fun if they had an author/editor thing. except connie is. maybe a little harsh? its been a long time since hes been a writer 'for fun' so sometimes his advice can end up being. mean.
deep down he does care about the people hes traveling with, im sure. its just that hes so high-strung that he might as well be a zip line. he looks out for melodie, i think. them and sif both. theres something about the both of them, something he cant place, thats... different. that isnt the right word, but vaugardian doesnt quite have the right nuance for it. like a childhood memory. he cant quite grasp it.
hes the kind of guy to swat someones hand away from a burning stove and get himself burned instead. and instead of reacting to the pain hell chide you for not being more careful.
also he thinks their feelings for isabeau (and siffrin) are very funny. he and odile gossip about it because theyre both old and nosey.
#asks#basil answers#pixxyofice#ocs#i feel!!!!!! like this answer is kinda lackluster im so sorry#hes a mean little ass and probably says some hurtful things to mel sometimes.#but he cares about them and is deeply worried in a way he doesnt quite understand.#yknow how a lot of sci fi is 'dont create the torment nexus'??? the king is like if someone created the torment nexus to him.#hes worried about these fuckin kids.
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when people first meet me and inquire about my studies im generally hit with two different responses, being 1) “wow, that’s an unusual combination”/“you don’t see that often”/etc. and 2) “you must be SO smart!” (or its evil twin, “you must hate yourself ha-ha”), and while the first is obviously a better response than the second, both are kinda…awkward to react to.
like? IS it an unusual combination of interests, or is it actually that most institutions make it exceptionally difficult for people to pursue stem and arts concurrently? and that we don’t often talk about the heavy crossover between stem and the arts because we’re so culturally obsessed with this notion that the world is split into Art People and Science People (also known as English People and Math People)?
and how would my interest in a science make me any smarter than someone in my program who chose to pursue a minor in history instead of physics? also, NO, i don’t hate myself. obviously taking stem classes after spending years believing im “not a math person” has lowered my gpa, but that’s not really something i care about, because at the end of the day i find the subject endlessly fascinating and i enjoy my classes very much, and i get better at math every semester because i have no choice. because it’s just…a method of communication. it’s a language. you practice, you improve - but you have to be consistent and intentional about it. the same way you have to be consistent and intentional about analyzing fictional texts and historical documents.
which is to say that like. you are using the same skills. i tutored a high school student last year who looked at me like i was crazy for saying that close reading a short story is functionally the same as solving an algebra problem. you collect like terms. then you compare and contrast them to make a statement about them - it’s human nature to seek refuge in what is familiar even if it is simultaneously traumatic, or x = 2 and y = -2. you can chart it, you can graph it, you can draw it. listen, isn’t there something so inherently beautiful about the word integral? it’s something intrinsic, baked into a person or a thing - the fundamental values formed within you by tiny, infinitesimal pieces: moments, experiences - they coalesce into something completely different, but still. you can go back. you can find the pieces. define them, pick them apart, put them together again in new ways. expand them, contract them, equate them to something else just to understand them.
half the study of mathematics is called analysis, for god’s sake. what is the study of art if not analysis? is it not the goal of the artist, the writer, to make sense of our place in the world? and is this not what we do in physics, too? look at the world and try to find reason in it? as the poet spends their life trying to make the intangible tangible, the particle physicist attempts to study dark matter. when we form a sentence, we utilize a complex system of equations that are so second-nature to us we don’t even register that’s what we’re doing - but there’s a reason this branch of linguistics is called syntactic calculus.
like…believe me. if you told my teenage self i’d be taking calculus-based courses in university, i wouldn’t have believed it. i teach high school students now who tell me they know they aren’t good at english, but it doesn’t matter to them because they do so well in math. and i get it. i do. but it’s disappointing, too, because i think my knowledge of math has made me a better reader and writer. and it feels like most people are missing out on that connection, because they feel like it’s impossible to make. but any experimentalist can tell you there’s an art to the scientific process. any musician or poet can tell you that great art is dictated by numbers - rhythm, rhyme and metre, all of it. the only group of people as interested in conceptual symmetry as physicists are artists.
anyway, all i’m saying is like - one is not more essential than the other, these things are inextricably linked, these things are as fundamental to human existence as breathing. there’s a reason why astronomers defer to shakespeare to name newly discovered bodies in space, you know? we've all gotta learn to love the math in our art and the artistry behind math.
#taylor.txt#anyway i have some profs this semester who really made me feel idk. vindicated in a way#like i get this so often you know? i get Looks i get 'you're crazy' and 'what's wrong with you' (in jest granted but still) ALL the time#so having a professor straight-up say that science is an art? validating!!!!#i think english and physics are extremely compatible subjects because they have a similar goal in a way you know?#and im not a good artist but nothing helped me understand HOW i can be better at drawing than calculus#i never knew how to draw a sphere until i had to put one on a graph of a 3d function yknow? and looking at the numbers that govern it#just made me Understand how it's Supposed To Be. and i think thats kinda cool?#also like. again. LINGUISTICS#and dont think this is like. in any way against the ideas of abstraction and subversion and whatnot in art#chaos right? antimatter? the entire study of quantum mechanics? there are so many parallels to draw#obviously nothing is a 1:1 but i just. art is science science is art and its so fuckin COOL
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Back on my bullshit answer my questions
while doing some rudimentary research for this poll it has come to my attention that pins and needles are a feeling felt while the limb is asleep, not the period of intense sensation/tingling/sensitivity experienced while it comes back online. or maybe it's both? the stuff i read referred to it as tingling that happens while the limb is pinned/under pressure/numb. i cannot find anything that references what i have come to think of as "the agony" but ive referred to it as the pins and needles in the options for this poll anyway.
Mild: limb has muted sensation but can be moved and used carefully, pins and needles begin almost immediately after limb is moved from whatever position caused it to fall asleep. Pins and needles not painful and do not appear painful, and last a few seconds, person affected is capable of speech and moving other parts of their body during pins and needles, which last a few seconds.
Middle intensity: limb is numb or partially numb and can twitch but not be moved precisely. Pins and needles begin a few seconds after limb is unpinned or when it is moved. Pins and needles not painful but intense and appear uncomfortable, taking a lot of the affected person's attention/capacity. they last between 5 and 7 seconds.
Intense: limb is numb and cannot move/be used, pins and needles begin 5-7 seconds after the limb is unpinned. pins and needles are intense and may be painful or not painful but 'unbearable', causing the affected person to cry out, grimace, or otherwise appear to be in pain. Person cannot speak or move their other limbs during pins and needles, which last 10 or more seconds (without shaking) and have residual tingling for a few seconds after limb regains movement/becomes bearable to move
obviously this all depends on how long the limb was pinned but just answer whichever is the most common for you, and if you want you can put in the tags what positions make your limbs go numb/how you deal.
#polls#poll#tell me your secrets#idk i was just shaking out my hand but im sick/tired rn so i was actively crying out and was thinking#that limbs falling asleep/pins and needles are a very common and intensely unpleasant experience#and its kinda fuckin weird that we as a society dont talk about it more#and that it can be brushed off or be a single line in books n stuff#and like theres a lot of things that get done dirty in books for how intense/scary/dangerous they are irl#like the first time i got the wind knocked out of me and thought i was dying cause its only ever described as#getting the wind knocked out of you#rather than you can't feel the air coming in and out of your lungs#and the only way you can tell youre not dying is that you aren't experiencing air hunger#which can happen when you are dying in certain situations so fuck if i know#and like headrush like i see new colors/lose track of reality/twitch or faint when its real bad and in books its always like#a bout of dizzyness or some shit#and before i get called out yea i know what an iron deficiency is#also rip to all book characters who've been knocked out for several hours after a head injury or passed out from blood loss lol#anyway#then theres shit like my psycosomatic faux asthma symptoms or swallowing issure or the foot thing that are unique to me as far as i can tel#and boy howdy does that suck shit#but to conclude#bodies are weird why dont you tell me how yours works.
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bros ill be real one of my boyfriends might be an egg
#our t#caw caw#kk reported that j had some gender thoughts that a) hes never had before and b) were pretty sus so we are ON THE LOOK OUT#he is so unaware of himself its sometimes a blessing but mostly a curse. i fuckin adore him wtf#dude sings like a genuine angel and then he cracks a dad joke. which he goes OOHHH NOOOOO about hes a fuckin gem#but i keep thinkin about what kk said and im like. john? hey dude yeah its me#im w/ you on the vague gender feels in terms of autism but in combination w/ the second though its kinda hmmm worthy ill be real#ngl ive also been questioning whether i myself am another of our bigenders or if its just splintery business bc we DO have#some other gendered dave-like people in this system who split from me and/or my splittwin#and in our brain ppl who split from e/o tend to be more closely connected and can feel e/os feelings easier#so its either Not My Feeling its me and/or all the forcefemme stuff ive been looking at for reasons#is affecting me in a different way LMAO
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The path to self betterment is paved with the help of others.
#my comics#late night comics#my art#digital art#man being cared about in this kinda way feels craxy#the way they look out for yiu when you forget to#it feels so fuckin humanizing#im not just some object to make others happy#im a person and eventually ill let my walls down enough to where i wont feel weird when im given care#thank you to everyone who is helping me#i love you all#please reblog if you want!#reblogs encouraged
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Man having read the first chapter of Encore now that it's translated and looking back at the title page of the last chapter I stopped at at Yet Another Failed Start At A Reread Of The Original (it was chapter four this time; p sure I made it farther last time), the difference is pretty startling. Everything looked so jank back then compared to now LMAO
I do wholeheartedly love the improvement tbh. ig it was only natural after 15+ years of drawing the guy.
#Kaitou Joker#Mun Post#remember that the series debuted back in 2007 :^)#I turned fourteen that year. fuckin imagine.#I wonder if there will be any special celebrations three years from now for the 20th anniversary...#I do hate that I caught onto this kind of late; but there's no guarantee I would've liked it when the anime started to air anyways#and the scanlation scene back in 2007 was fucking archaic lmao; even if it HAD been picked up that early... it's so weird to think about th#also weird to think about is that; given how I interpreted the author's comments at the back of one volume#if it wasn't for the series' floating timeline; joker would be either within a few years of my age; or my age almost exactly#which. another thing that's weird is imagining him being Old in any capacity. which he kind of IS in Boy Jokers; even if he barely shows up#in there being somewhere in his 30's for that series' canon feels about right#god I hope that that series isn't mainline canon. I doubt we could be so lucky but man I wish#that was his fuckin *sister* man...#not that I DISLIKE J tho... but he could exist in some other capacity. just. u know. not THAT one lmao#sort of lost the plot a bit lmao. as per usual#reading a fresh scanlation felt kinda weird somehow. especially since these chapters are still relatively new...#dunno how to put my finger on it exactly; it's just Strange; but not necessarily in a negative way for sure#super excited for the other two chapters; especially since the third one dropped so recently#stuff is happening!! also I kind of like watching my faves get their asses kicked just a little bit. big fan of hurt/comfort but u know.#u kind of gotta Hurt Them first LMAO. crack a few eggs to make an omelette kinda deal
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I love writers I love when they ramble on abt characters and their motivations, their core values and the reasons why they react to things in certain ways and having character interactions work off of each other due to their differing ways of viewing the world and in general I just love character analysis
#as someone who loves humans and human behaviours and figuring out why people react to things the ways that they do#uhhh I'm actually surprisingly really bad @ writing characters with those same traits 😅#unless it is smth I can connect to on some sort of level like a few of my characters have issues that I specifically relate to#thereforee I can understand the ways they act in certain circumstances#BUT when it comes to characters that are like almost entirely outside of my wavelength it's pretty hard for me to understand how they work#and it's pretty basic habits and behaviours I just fuckin lack them in general#like the concept of clinginess or abandoment issues or wanting to stay around people who treat you badly or jealousy or missing people#also love like I understand my type of love but my type of love isn't typical from what I've seen from others#even some of my own past issues like dealing with trauma have kinda been lost on me especially bcuz I'm the type to ignore stuff#like I just ignored it til it came back to bite me in the ass and had to just kinda struggle with it and go completely numb#until I got tired of feeling that way and pulled myself outta it step by step and my various negative ways of thinking elude me#since I just gradually built myself up and rearranged my brain so that all negative thinking eventually turns into dust#whether be positive or purely neutral until I'm able to handle it better#REGARDLESS I try to get a sense of what these other traits are like and how exactly they work for people but it is VERY difficult for me#bcuz the stuff is just such an alien emotion to me like people get REALLY emotional about things that simply aren't a problem for me#and I wish I could understand why and what goes on in the brain that causes that but my brain just doesn't work that way#SOOO me trying to make characters of typical issues I see people having DOESN'T really work when I have no idea what's going on#like IN GENERAL my characters need to have more emotion behind them but the emotions I need them to have are#like I said before. something I totally lack ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ so I have no idea how to do it#I mean I think I need like a check list I need to make a list of traits my characters have in general cuz I never write anything down#it'd be easier to figure it out if I had words to go along with it and then I could figure out the behaviours behind those words#plus I need to draw my characters cuz I'm very much a visual person I can't get as good of a feel without some visuals along with it
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YEAHH!! lesgo
#aughhh icarian…#this one is like. The one from unreal unearth to me just cause of how much you talk about it CACKLES#ouh interesting but at the start#so far this is about what i expected cackles cackles#and though i burn how could i fall when i am lifted by every word you say to me…..#its very slow and quiet ough#its like. a breeze through branches#waghhhh it’s so so pretty weeping wailing#it’s like making me feel things dude i dunno why (positive)#i do not have wings love i never will!!!!!!!!#god this is like. ethereal#this would play over some fucking crushing scene in a film i think /silly /pos#god shortest three minutes of my life????? it went by so fast wagh#overall definitely very much a banger ough#not something i’d listen to regularly i think but i did really like it cackles. very much what i expected#EAT YOUR YOUNG!!!!! hell yeah dude#i didn’t know eat your young was in this album that’s fascinating#i fuckin love eat your young so much dude top hozier song to me it’s been on my playlist so long#IM STARVIN!! DARLIN!! LET ME PUT MY LIPS TO SOMETHING!!!!!#i dunno it just scratches my brain in some kinda way it bangs it really does#so so rad#especially the chorus i just love how he sings the chorus cackles#and oughhh the music dude#you can’t buy this!! fineness!!#god when he fuckin draws out the “honey i” god#also just like such an interesting song i think#anyway. yeag. eat your young ftw always#answering asks#chair asks#chair!!
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