#everyone was so gay and so straight at the same time
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Things different pjoverse characters had done/had happen to them, with little to no context:
Piper mistook Clarrise for a guy and thought ‘he’ was trying to hit on Drew(she’s 12).
Annabeth and Percy were laughing hysterically over it for 10 minutes straight before they could explain anything to her.
Clarrise and Will stole baby Chuck on multiple occasions.
Clarrise is a token ‘responsible adult in the eyes of most mortal parents of younger demigods.
Mortals with no connection to the supernatural look at her like she’s about to molest their kids and brutally murder their families.
All of the Argo || crew jump up in their seats whenever they hear Clarrise yelling at someone.
Percy and Annabeth did the same thing when they hear Coach Hedge yelling for the first time.
Will, Drew and Clarrise occasionally have true crime watching parties.
In the Myth!Ares AU, Aphrodite has kidnapped Clarrise, as she puts it ‘to bond’.
After that they ended up in jail.
Drew called Piper ‘Silena’ once, the same way you’d call someone ‘dad’ or ‘mom’ accidentally, she didn’t speak to her for a week and just cried because she couldn’t forgive herself for replacing her sister.
Clarrise’s smirk is - chin up, look down at you and smile while curling the sides of her mouth down
Drew’s smirk is - chin down, look up at you, grin and wrinkle her nose.
(I have no idea why you need this info, it’s just how i picture their dynamic.)
Ares and Athena cabins have an archive of everything they know about everyone at camp, that they use for planning of capture the flag.
They have a separate archive for hunters of Artemis.
Percy and Clarrise train together a lot. Percy says it’s because he wants to beat her up.
In actuality it’s because at this point Clarrise is the only person who can beat Percy in combat. And they’re the only people, they can train with, using their full range of abilities and power.
Clarrise threw what remained of her helmet into the attic of the Big House after the battle of Manhattan, she now wears none or on rare occasions takes one that belonged to Silena.
Silena’s helmet is covered with ornaments that she scratched onto it and filled in with silver.
Drew and Clarrise both say ‘don’t be mean’ whenever they hear the other talking to someone they have a tendency to be mean to.
Both of them picked that habit up from Silena.
Will once asked Clarrise and Drew to be ‘more ally’
Those two got offended that they ‘have to tone down their gay’
Will just wanted to introduce them to Nico, and needed them to look less judgmental so he wouldn’t think they’re homophonic.
Piper lashed out at Drew for doing something mean, while in Drew’s eyes it was her attempt to create a better relationship with her
#pjo#percy jackson#piper mclean#annabeth chase#clarrise la rue#drew tanaka#will solace#coach hedge#silena beauregard#nico di angelo#silena pjo#percy pjo#pjo annabeth#drew pjo#clarrise pjo#will pjo#pjo piper#riordan universe#riordanverse#rick riordan#clarrise and silena#percabeth#ruegard#clarisse la rue#clarisse pjo#pjo verse#pjo hcs#pjo headcanon#pjo hoo toa#pjo fandom
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no.2 the fivesome??
ok i can't and won't explain why it took me so long to write another one but i'm back !!
So... the whole five way thing that the gang had was. a lot. honestly reading was fine until you realised that everyone had slept with each other at some point other than richard and he was on his was there with francis anyways. my thoughts on this are all over the place but i just. i need it in plain english.
So Richard was in love with Camilla, and attracted to Henry and Charles, and almost slept with Francis. Camilla was in love with Henry, who loved her back. Charles and Camilla slept together and Charles was an abusive dickwad to her. He was probably in love with Camilla too. Francis and charles slept together on occasion and Francis was in love with Charles. I feel like there's more but. whatever.
wow. my thoughts are why was everyone so horny. literally you could've slept with Anyone Else. but nooooo we study ancient greek we're too good for everyone else. they're not built different they're built wrong. they took groupcest to another level.
i mean like,,, they were all college students so you can't judge them too hard because they were all on mood altering substances 99% of the time, so at that point they probably didn't have many brain cells left. Honestly richard shouldve just bit the bullet and gotten with Francis or something to put them both out of their collective miseries.
i'm embarrassed for them tbh. and just to point out that Richard being bi asf is a genuine (problem?) thing that female writers do with unreliable male narrators who are supposed to be straight. which i find like. so funny because it goes totally over my head the first time i read books, because im bisexual too so it's normal to me. but then going back and realising its some cishet white guy narrating and its a little suspicious?
obvious it's usually because the author is a cishet white woman who projects her attraction to men onto her characters. another notable example of this is Harry Potter. so this isn't like an isolated incident it's a thing that happens. the same way that men can tend to write women 2-dimensional, women tend to write as men bisexual. on accident? it's all very interesting to me.
#what the fuck guys#like i still dont understand the motivation behind this#everyone was so gay and so straight at the same time#bar francis my beloved homosexual#honestly#i'd ask what were they all on#but#cocaine in the burger king parking lot#kind of answers my question#tsh#the secret history#richard papen#henry winter#charles macaulay#camilla macaulay#francis abernathy
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I hate it when cishet people write Achilles and Patroclus as friends and that is in part why I'll always insist in Achilles and Patroclus being interpreted as a 100% gay couple, especially with non queer people
Like, is not wrong to interpret Patroclus and Achilles as friends BUT
When straight people that are neck deep in amatonormativity do it, it always goes like this
"Oh, Patroclus and Achilles are friends lol, but Achilles is a man, therefore he needs to be with a woman, so he's in love with Briseis, oh but romantic love is more important than friendship, so Briseis is more important than Patroclus and Patroclus doesn't matter in the end"
And another thing I absolutely hate when straight people write Heterochilles is that they always are like
"Oh, Achilles killed Briseis's entire family, took away her freedom, and raped her, but she loves him, because... How could she not love him? After all he was a boy, she was a girl, can I make it any more obvious?"
Let👏Briseis👏hate👏Achilles👏
#ramblings#greek mythology#iliad#tagamemnon#trojan war#achilles#patroclus#patrochilles#I've been victim of another depiction of heterochilles#people complain that everyone sees Patrochilles as only romantic#BITCH. most depictions of them are as straight#or Patroclus having a one side love with Achilles#Put some respect on my man's Patroclus name because let's be honest. If one of the two had a one side love#It was Achilles having a maddening love for Patroclus#Achilles was the president and founder of the “simping for Patroclus” club#I'm so mad lmao#It should be illegal for Straight people to write Achilles AND Briseis#“She hated him and loved him at the same time. But the love was bigger” WRONG#She wanted to hit Achilles in the head with an ax and would've done so if she had an ax#Also I'm going to confiscate Patroclus from straight people until everyone learns how to respect him#If you can't respect Patroclus then you shouldn't be able to write him#I'm sorry I'm still so mad lmao#I need to read something gay. I need to read the Iliad again
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alex is so real for not realizing he was bi despite the amount of times he was clearly checking out and appreciating other men. it really do be like that.
#rwrb#rwrb spoilers#rei rambles#red white and royal blue#red white and royal blue spoilers#alex claremont diaz#bi tag#it's totally not gay if we both say it's not gay! okay but luna is *objectively* hot everyone says so.#ive been strangely drawn to the tern mag photo of henry throughout my formative years but like. totally in an envy sort of way.#same vibe as that time my cousin said she had a 'girl crush' on amber from fx and i was like 'oh so it IS normal#like. no rei. no it's not.#i feel like a lot of bi awakenings hapoen after hs cuz it's so easy to acknowledge ur straight crushes & explain away ur not-straight ones#but i love how it makes liam make perfect sense lol#alex is like 'liam used to be my best friend but we havent talked in a year' and ur like ??? drama???#turns out he's an ex-not-ex and alex was an extremely dumb boy about what they were doing lmao#poor liam man. unrequited crush on his best friend who thought it was totally straight to canoodle. smh. 😔😔#im glad he has a boyfriend now
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you know. as much as i love rikus unyielding devotion to sora. part of me wonders how hes been, like, surviving in the year without him.
has he been doing anything else in his life besides looking for sora?
will riku need to have some sort of revelation in the future about his own importance and self-worth separate from sora, in a similiar vein to pearl from su?
bc like
a lot of pearls character arc feels... relevant. to riku. or at least, it could be.
idk like. im well aware sora and rikus relationship is leagues healthier than rose and pearls. and sora is a much better person than rose was. but i just.
i see a lot of pearl in riku at times
#kingdom hearts#riku#riku kh#kh riku#soriku#kh3#kh3 spoilers#steven universe#long post#image heavy post#kh meta#ali's kh meta#like i wouldnt be surprised if kh just played it all straight and never went deeper into the harm of being dedicated solely to one person#keeping with the ideals of true love and fairytales#but at the same time it seems like they were /trying/ to somewhat deconstruct sora in kh3#with his 'my friends are my power' thing failing after everyones lost and him losing confidence in himself as a result#so who knows#anyway we stan our gay autistic knights on this blog#(i stan pearl significantly less than riku but i still love her)
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where is my fat husband
#stream#i’m lonely !!!! i want a man !!!!!!#me: where’s my man#me at the same time: not leaving the house nor dating apps & also is having a mental breakdown everyday while self medicating#also i’m 90% sure my meds are starting to fail again ALSKALKSLAKSLAKLSAKLSMAKSKK#ANYWAY#i didn’t even go to gay bars when i was allowed to drink like 😭😭😭#it’s all a bunch of straight people#there’s no point#like i constantly here old queens going ‘young gays don’t do xyz’ or ‘don’t know how to xyz’ like ok girl its because that shit died like#idk probably before the pandemic truly it was dying but the pandemic was the nail in the coffin like girl …….. i turned 21 a month into#lockdowns like#ok so i did stuff illegally & went to other shit but it still was straight bars 90% of the time there’s like 6 gay bars in houston total 😭😭😭#like idk what they expect like if … those venues aren’t there & are increasingly AGAINST doing the goofy tings …. how would the YOUNG KNOW#like at this point idk i truly think that it’s kinda on the elders at this point ALSKALSKLAKSAKSLAN like yea they’re boomers at the end of#the day so like i’m not saying that they didn’t have it hard they did they did ok but. get over it ? ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLA like alright … but#i’m saying this as someone who knows the history & bullshit like ok yea everyone needs to understand what it’s like to have your community#die before ur eyes but at the same time. there’s no community now ? ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLLA like girl …#girl …….#yall HAD a community but now all that shit is gone & none of us young ppl have any funds to make that 😭😭😭#like girl i have 12$ in my bank account i dream of being able to rent a flat at some point like a ONE BEDROOM u know W A LIVING ROOM & yall#own rentals so like this is UP TO YALL …..#like ur the problem ? 😭😭😭😭😭#@gays for trump & loghouse republicans i’m looking at YALL#a lot of these mfs are liberal too - pro invasion of iraq democrat back the blue bootlickin NIMBA faggots 😭😭😭💔#anyway that’s just me bitching#i’ve been so fucking IRRITABLE today
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Whenever a fandom is like "I've seen straight women act X around eachother therefore this ship is impossible and not gay" I roll my big gay Bisexual eyes like a hamster wheel.
#1) do you really have all the personal information to know if that personis straight#2) does a person in real life interacting with someone somehow negate a fictional story with fictional charcters#3) man who the fuck cares. if you dont like the ship move along#i cant tell you how many times theres been two open ended relashiships in a media. one thats straight and one thats gay.#and every fucking time when its a lesbian thing people will be like uhhhh i dont knoww. theyre not fucking on screen so its not canon#but the het ship with get the same canonical treatment and everyone will be like uh of course its canon#cant we just agree that its Ambiguous on purpose that its up to anyones interpretation and that anyone can pick whatevr ship they want?#why be a dick about it just because it has saphic themes you dont like#shit sometimes i like the het ship but im sure as hell going to rep for the lesbian ship bec its fictinal and you cant stop me
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okay wta!
#i was thinking if any tennis organizations change their pfp for pride i’ll probably roll my eyes#because theyre all homophobic#but wta is the only one allowed to without scrutiny because they have gay players and also arent assholes#its kind of a double edged sword though because i know there must be gay atp players#statistically it wouldn’t make sense if everyone in there was straight#so i know that there are gay people and i know that they are closeted because the atp is not accepting#and because they aren’t accepting it would be hollow if they mentioned pride at all#but at the same time if they mentioned pride it would be a good step towards acceptance and inclusion#see what i mean#idk the atp sucks thats all i can really say lol#tennis
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ummm okay so people at work were talking about pride month again
and someone said “everyone here is gay, only *name*, *name*, and grace aren’t” and i’ll tell you- the face I made (that I think only one person saw) was probably so incredibly telling lmao but idc because wtfff and yeah :/
#aroace#grace is dramatic#I have never ever said i’m straight or talked about dating there aaahhh whyyyy it’s painful :/#also realized this is the 5th year?!? i’ve (privately lol) celebrated pride month??#also does anyone remember when hayley kiyoko deemed 2018 '20gayteen*??#that was a wonderful time to be alive lmao I miss that#AAHH STORYTIME THAT HAPPENED IN THAT SAME CONVO-#also a manger took a picture of a product to send to a chef#*manager#but it was a live photo….#and it caught someone saying something I can’t totally remember like ‘something something and the queers are here!’#and they realized AFTER they sent it to the boss and everyone was DYING LAUGHING#some people were actually kneeling down on the floor laughing#also the chef it was sent to us also gay lmao so it’s fine no matter what but it was so funny bc the audio was so clear and loud and obvious#anyways#I had to get this out of my brain before I slept#and now I must sleep#go to sleep grace
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jo the second he finds out masato's a little zesty
#not rgg#but if we try it can be#things kiryu would say if rgg allowed slurs#gona start a collection i got that kiryu You're Transgender? pic an now this#snap chats#i just needed an excuse to talk about this episode because HELP ME i didnt think this would be a theme in my fishermen jdrama#quick aside but its related the end theme for this show has literally no right to be so good oh my god.....#i'm gonna start episode 7 of First Penguin tomorrow probably since im gonna hang with my bro the rest of the night#but this episode (ep 6) is giving me a stroke#so for context. or just a lil background. tsutsumi's character in this is an old fisherman named hiro#and he's the most wish-washy bastard i ever seen in my life sometimes i want to strangle him#it's really funny though because he'll be so aggressive towards one thing but then the next after a lil convincing he's just Yeah Ok#funniest shit. anyways. Context Time#like ten minutes before this scene in the same episode he finds out his son's gay#WHICH. HAD ME IN A CHOKEHOLD CAUSE I DIDNT THINK THAT WOULD BE A THING#but anyway As Expected he has a fit over it because My Son This Is A Fisher Village Everyone Gonna Bully Your Ass#but then he talks with the female lead Iwasaki My Queen for like. five minutes and is pretty much over it a day later#and THEN THIS happens Another day later and. im sorry it had me laughing i dont know why#LIKE AGAIN IT'S BECAUSE HE'S SO WISHY WASHY BUT ALSO HE JUST STRAIGHT SOCKS A GUY#cause mate was saying slurs and all. his anti-homophobia arc we love to see it dude said Im No Longer Homophobic#ok bye we have pink pineapple and i wanna eat the pink fruit
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I think one of the weirdest signs that I was trans was that I was fine with being called a woman but NOT a cis woman. I felt awful cuz I was like “do I have a problem with people calling me cis even tho I am???” cuz I am NOT someone who minds being called accurate descriptors such as cis. I felt like I just wanted to be special or something even tho that wasn’t it and felt so bad. Something just felt really wrong about being called a CIS woman. Definitely one of the more thought provoking signs I was trans lol
#was it cuz ‘cis’ implied I had accepted it? idk cuz I WAS fine with being a woman (as far as I knew)#just some weird subconscious thing I guess. I remember admitting it to my sister at the time lol#I don’t think there are rlly many other interesting signs for me tbh. except that I only corrected ppl online when they called me he if it#either went on so long that I felt bad for them OR we were arguing and I needed something new for them to be wrong about lmao#but similar to the actual post there is ONE thing I still find interesting. which is I watched a gacha cringe video (some were ridiculous#but I often defended them) and there were some where it said ‘I wish I was a boy so I could be gay’ and everyone’s like being disgusted by#this presumably little girl acting like she’s the creepiest fujoshi ever but LITERALLY I’ve had similar thoughts. anything that starts with#‘I wish I was a boy’ obviously has trans implications even if you don’t like what comes after it lol. but like honestly. I would imagine#myself in relationships with guys (mostly fictional characters as u do) and I just hated the idea that it was straight#like same situation as the post. I felt awful cuz I would be FINE with being straight (which I knew I wasn’t anyways) so why did I need to#be special or whatever? it’s cuz just like the post that WASNT the problem. it just felt wrong to me that I wasn’t a boy. so I BASICALLY#wanted to be a boy so I could be in a mlm relationship just like those gachas. it’s just a roundabout way of realizing ur trans.#to be clear I very much had to imagine myself as a guy (typically another fictional character DUH) in order to enjoy it at all#I just realized this sounds sexual. most of it wasn’t actually but the rest is my business LMAOO
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I JUST FIGURED OUT WHY I LIKE GAY ROMANCES SO MUCH
Stupid fucking hetero straight romances never have any fucking chemistry or buildup, they’re boring as shit
Literally they just smile at each other and within the season they’re together and doing pda everywhere
Gay romances actually have dynamics, they actually have real relationships, and actually build the feelings and explore it, they’re FUCKING INTERESTING
#oh I was so worried for the longest time that I was fetishising people#but no#gay people just know how to write romance better#straight people just assume everyone’s the same so there’s no point in exploring it#my dumbass aromantic self#I just like interesting things#aromanticism#actually aromantic#and aroace#Cassarole Tedtalks
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Not Reverse Robins or Scrambled Birds but a secret third thing: A Step to the Left.
Not Dick > Jason > Tim > Steph > Damian,
but Jason > Tim > Steph > Damian > Dick*.
But not only them. Every sidekick with a legacy name gets shifted one spot. (No I’m not counting the Golden Age because I’m not combing through that ).
This means that Jason’s Titans team is him, Mia (Speedy), Jackson (Aqualad), Cassie (Wonder Girl), and Bart (Impulse but y’know he was KF II in the comics).
The NTT team including Starfire, Changeling, Raven, and Cyborg stays the same since they’re the only ones with those names. Cass gets lumped in here because Jason actually wants to do college/is becoming disillusioned about cape life and the idea of Kori learning Cass's body language is too good to pass up.
Tim gets one (1) cape friend (because Jason only got one) and it’s Zachary Zatara because it has to be a d-lister who deals with that disaster Teen Titans era.
Stephanie gets Jon (Superboy), Yara (Wonder Girl II now), and Irey (Because guess what it’s Impulse on the team and not KF which means we get Impulse II). Secret, Cissie, Anita, Slobo etc. all stay the same.
Damian doesn’t get anyone until he becomes Batgirl.
Duke literally gets Damian’s exact canon team but it’s Kon instead of Jon and probably won’t end with them committing war crimes.
If the character in that placement dies in canon then the new character in that placement also dies (i.e. Jason dies so Tim will die/ Kon dies so Jon will die).
But there will be changes because these are different characters so not all of them would react the same.
For example, Jason and Cass are the first Robin and Batgirl, but Cass becomes Nightwing while Jason becomes Oracle because I feel like Jason generally fits Barbara’s character better than Cass does (which is a fucking shame because Oracle being someone named Cassandra should be a no brainer but yeah).
Or how Barbara should be Batgirl number three, but it’s actually Damian because Cass would see their similarities between them and offer him Batgirl (which he refuses at first but after his disastrous run as Robin he sees how Batgirl would fit his strengths better).
Also I refuse to believe that Jason and Cass would let Dick out as Robin so young so he’s benched until later and his place is taken up by Duke and instead of Leviathan it’s Gnomon.
#I actually have a lot of thoughts about this but I didn't want to word vomit it all up like I normally do#No lie Damian becoming Batgirl III was not planned but because it started off with Cass it honestly felt right#So now him and Stephanie parallel each other so much more than I planned with the whole 3 identities cycle of Original > R > BG> OG#Also Robins 1 3 and 5 (the ones who were actually focused on for a time) are all Gotham natives with strong ties to the people#So that feels right#Also also Mia and Jason both being on the same team and having similar traumas while comics were finally starting to tackle these things#Tim has to deal with all the shit Jason did including starting off as a Blonde Jason clone (hey Timmy Todd)#Being victim blamed for his death for nearly 20 years and brought back as a villain#Then left with writers who hate him and made him ugly *and* stupid#then left with Lobdell and having the fans of his teammates blame him and his fans for things that they had no control over#other notes I didn't put in include Cass's cover is that she's Jason's cousin via Willis who was adopted and it turns out to be true#Stephanie 'Ambiguously Gay' Brown with her team full of Women who can crush her like a bug#Cass 'Are you sure she's straight' Wayne and her Gal Pal Koriand'r#Jason and Bart's wild 50 years where they surprise everyone including the writers and editors#since none of their love interests stuck but the chemistry they had with each other was off the charts#so their friendship read more as a slow-burn annoyances to friends to lovers that was totally on purpose guys and became canon p52#like right before the reboot because the writer was like "Fuck it we're rebooting anyways!#if you feel like it's unfair that Tim and Damian gets no friends remember that I didn't shift teams at all only the people in them#so they get dealt Jason and Stephanie's canon hands#Don't come at me with 'uhm Robin is DICK'S nam'e' that retcon happened 50 years after the character#I can do the exact same with any character#great another essay in the tags#azol's posts
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I guess there's poetry to Lucilius being this desirable while also being the most aroace person to ever exist (in my HC anyway. Just like Lucifer is the most gay and Belial is the most bi. You understand)
Like. It does not benefit.him. all these people drooling over him and he just wants to dissect people in peace. Who are all these people in his dms. Leave him alone
GOD yeah.
Like i definitely fully read Lucilius as AroAce but the fact he's the most desired man of the franchise he's in really just doesn't help for that. He's so AroAce that the one person who loves him the most is the most Hyper-sexual Hyper-romantic person of the whole skies. Poor man.
Like i do feel bad for him!!! Mofo just want to be left alone and do his experiments in peace!! bodies should just be for science!!! why the fuck do you want to insert a dick in a body when you can insert a scalpel!!!
it's hysterical. It's poetic in a sense of just how much of this saga is built on looking for the love of an absent God and how much Lucilius himself stands as this unloving figure in general.
But it's a trip. I do feel bad for Lucilius in this situation like come on. Let a man just rest. and commit his own type of atrocities. god forbid an aroace do anything.
#ichareply#ichafantalks gbf#anonymous#and yeah agreed i really just read Lucilius as AroAce in general#(but just for the joke/for their own characters i do think he might have tried some stuff with Bubs or Belial)#(but it didn't work out - it would only be things to blow up some steam or for research but in the end nothing he thinks is that interestin#(like i don't think he's mad repulsed but i don't think he cares either way outside of its scientific values in general)#(and even there it's a major IF in order mostly to fuck with Bubs and Belial's own characterization as ppl down bad for Lucilius)#but yeah else i do read Belial as just. pan/bi. anything goes. he's just in love with One Man but honestly everything is on the table#literally even if you want it#he's just loyal romantically speaking#and Lucifer to me is just so commited to Sandalphon i can't imagine him attracted to anyone else#is he gay? is he demisexual/romantic only for Sandy? idk but he certainly isn't straight. Same but inversed for Sandy honestly.#Bubs to me strike also as a bi guy but in a very 'well yeah i need to be on top of everyone at all time'#so yaknow. superiority complex and all playing in it#then we have Gabriel as a full lesbian and for the rest the HCs are up in the air for me#but it's what i believe#oh and obviously Lucio is pan but the man doesn't even believe in gender to start with#so that's also one thing to consider yaknow
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the people in the notes of that post like. Get well soon. But it is also fascinating the incredible lack of knowledge this website has about sports. People being like. Umm disabled people can’t sport checkmate. As if the Special Olympics are not a thing that empower athletes with all kinds of disabilities to be the best in their fields and display just how far we can adapt and adjust the concept of sports to allow anyone the option and ability to join.
#talkin to myself#it genuinely makes me sad! truly that there are so many hateful people#everyone who thinks sports is for straights only I hope you know you’re the people keeping gay athletes in the closet#you are as much a part of the problem as the homophobic society we all live in#because you’re telling queer athletes the exact same thing everyone else is#yucky !! gay people hate sportsball. and it just perpetuated the self hate and shame#rejected by society for being gay and rejected by queer people for being An Athlete#it’s a story seen!!! time and time again and like genuinely IT IS FUN!! just have fun!!#I promise there are sports more interesting than half the shows that get popular on here
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@people who have a stable sense of self and identity, what's that's like? how's it feel to be beloved by the universe?
#people who say shit like 'i knew i was [insert identity here] when i was 5 or 12 or whatever' i wish i was you#i have been flip flopping on this shit as long as i can remember#and it's not like it's new feelings i'm flip flopping about? it literally like the same exact emotion every god damn time#and my internal idk sense of self really doesn't change much but which piece my brain thinks is important does?#i don't know if that makes sense#like... i would never say that some mornings i wake up and feel zero attraction to women but some days i do think i've made it up#or like some days i think maybe i am attracted to men but i just never want to date or marry or be in any sort of romantic relationship#with a man... i just don't hate dicks and could theoretically have sex with a man... and like some fictional men are pretty.#and i had one crush on a guy when i was like 12... but i also was incredibly jealous of him and hated myself because i was female#and i would never get to be him#but then i'm like does it matter that i don't want to date men? i am not sure i want to date at all?#except i kind of would like to date a very specific tyler of woman in a very specific type of relationship#and i do genuinely think i would love that so much and sometimes i want it so bad i physically ache#but i don't feel that way about men. but the one guy i had a crush on i did when i was 14 or whatever#but also people talk about all these experiences they had as a kid with being gay in the church and how hard it was#and sure i had a hard time but it wasn't very hard to hide it from everyone so like i didn't face a ton of shit other people have#so like does it really count?#maybe i'm just making all of it up and i'm just straight and lying to myself about everything#but i've known i found women attractive since i was very young#and not to be tmi but until i was presented with outside information about sex with men i only pictured myself having sex with women#because the idea of piv sex literally doesn't compute at all in my brain#i genuinely think i would rather die than let anyone stick their dick inside my body#and i used to have legitimate panic attacks about having to marry a man and have sex with him because i felt like i had to#and i know all of this is super super cis centric but i'm going to be so honest. adding in trans identities when trying to figure this out#has only made it significantly more complicated in my brain#and i feel shitty about that but it's true and i don't know what to do about that#and i could keep going on and on about the fact i'm 99% sure i'm stone which also confuses things#because i can find stuff about being a stone butch lesbian but if i am bi.... i have literally never seen anything about being stone#with a man before. literally never.#but also does it matter? because i might be a lesbian since i am very uncomfortable with the idea of romancing a man in any way
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