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he squish 🤏🏻🥺
#firstkhao#firstkhaotung#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#gmmtv#every day they ruin my life#and i let them#bc i love them#homeboy isnt even fighting the voices anymore atp#and hes so real for that#just embrace it
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nick and i are going to have a tumblrina sometime in october 🙂↕️ this is not a joke. i am for real pregnant.
#and this thang is trying to ruin my life every day right now#it is very funny. to be pregnant on the app
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do you ever think about how in the day i picked up dazai side b dazai had to lie emotionless and soulless—like a corpse, almost—beside the man that gently brought him in, nursed his injuries, held him while he was in pain? he had to keep those suffocating bandages around his entire face, lest this man gain some sort of recognition for the little boy he saved. he had to lay there curled in the fetal position, bleeding and in pain, perhaps thinking about how, in another life, this man cooked for him, tried to build up his strength. read to him to pass the time while he curled up against him like a child listening to a bedtime story. played cards with him. saw through the heartless mafioso. the ruthless killer. and instead saw a boy.
imagine knowing this man, the man who saved you in more ways than one, was going to die one day all because he knew you. because he reached his hand into the darkness and plaintively, like a small child wanting a parent's touch, you grasped back desperately. imagine thinking all of that while that man is just a stone's throw away, making coffee in the next room just like he used to for you in another life. the scent, although you've never been here before, is reminiscent of home. and the tune he's humming? it's the silent melody that plays through your mind seven years later, for the last time as you fall backward off the building with your arms out like an embrace. but, hey. that man is alive. he's happy, although he never knew you. you can die with no regrets.
#guys i actually cannot stop thinking about oda and dazai someone save me PLEASE. the day i picked up dazai ruined my fucking life#dazai makes me so fucking miserable every time i see him in beast i just start fucking sobbing#absolute TRAGEDY of a character#he was fucking fifteen in this. and he knew the entire time. he knew oda would die. before even meeting him#bsd#the day i picked up dazai#ermmm found this in my drafts and i wanted to post it sorry guys i sound emo asf
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If I saw this man, I'd just leave my whole entire life behind and walk away defeated.
He is sexier than Top.
He is smarter than Mew.
He is greedier than Boston.
He is more aware than Nick.
He is more possessive than Ray.
And Sand is still upset over losing him. WHICH MAKES SENSE!
You know when the Power Rangers all came together to make that one big Ranger? BOEING IS THE BIG RANGER!
He is BETTER than all of them combined.
Not even Chuem's constant belittling would affect this man. If Cheum even looked in his direction, he'd probably steal April from her.
He wears yellow. He wears glasses. He is a plant daddy.
I want him carnally. I want to look at him disrespectively. I want him to push me into a locker just so I can say he touched me. I want him to treat me like trash. I want him to ruin my life.
Laws of Attraction gave me the first perfect character in Nawin, and now Ninew and Jojo have created the second perfect character.
No notes.
Just deranged lust.
Don't save me. I don't wanna be saved.
#Mond Tanutchai#Boeing is a God and I will pray to him every day#only friends#only friends the series#he is better than all of them combined#only Sand can defeat him#but is he strong enough?#Not if he was worse about Boeing than he is about Ray#don't save me#I don't wanna be saved#I want this man to ruin my life
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A Study of Will Graham
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Closeups and more under the cut!
So can you guys tell how insane I am about him yet? Did I willingly draw 12 screw caps of him and find it deeply therapeutic? Yes, yes I did. Do I have regrets? No, no I don’t.









I love and adore him.
#will graham#hannibal#hannibal fanart#he actually ruined my life#he makes me sob every night and day#I project so unhealthily onto this man#will graham fanart#Hannibal nbc#nbc hannibal#my art#my posts
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i hate adobe i hate adobe i hate adobe i hate adobe
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The Hatake: the clan of the crafting table or smth
DAMN I FORGOT TO TAG THE AUTHOR
@pestoast ⬅️⬅️THANK YOU FOR THE FIC 🙇♂️🙇♂️🙇♂️
#the composition gods were fighting me on this one#it was not looking too good so I put in that quote form the summary#to balance things out#kakashi hatake#hatake kakashi#hatake clan#shadows blinding#when I was redrawing the scene of the gazpacho incident I realized that the light looked like the Hatake clan symbol#so I did this#every time I remember this fic my day is ruined#bc then all I can think about is how fucked up Kakashi’s life got#AND THAT I NEED THAT SEQUEL AARGGG#but hey#until then I’ll just make some fanart of it so I don’t have an aneurism or smth#if gamers can wait up to 20 years for a new game I can have that patience too
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I’m stuck in an endless cycle

#Every now and then a series comes along that just takes over my life for a few months#with more power than other series#Sakamoto Days has had an absolute GRIP on me for a bit now#and I don’t think it’s letting go anytime soon#and to think I put off reading it for so long. Thank you my great friend [redacted] for lowkey convincing me to read it#ruined my life bless amen#He also watched me break down over Gaku every 5 minutes KNOWING he’d die#Didn’t even say anything. Man#I had to find out through a random Tumblr post that came across my dash#my normal way#it’s ok tho Gaku’s coming back. Trust 🙏#said friend doesn’t believe me but TRUST. He’s coming back. For me#man I’m just yapping away over here#sakadays manga spoilers#for the Gaku things#maddiepost
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#whatever fleeting moment of “I faked it all. I don't need therapy” I had last week.......... that version of me was a fucking liar dalgfdkjg#I.......... I desperately need life to quit being so fucking Much (TM) all the time because boy oh BOY is this a drag#why do the things I love constantly cycle back around to becoming things that upset me and make me feel bad#why do I keep ruining friendships and connections by not being able to reciprocate or reply or stay in touch#why is one task a day seemingly enough to knock me out for a week#why does every decision I make feel like it's the wrong one#in other news: I have still not managed to fucking call the therapy place#and now I'm stuck in the inertia of feeling bad about it but unable to do it#back on my complaining bullshit what's new#simon.out.#I'm sorry if I ever disappointed you. just know I wish I wasn't like that
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reasons to not kiss him
#my post#do i tag this. idk if i wanna tag it. ive thought about this poem (? assuming this is a poem) literally nonstop since i thought abt it#with shu#i have drawn like two things for it i wanted to draw a lot more but i got tired and i think about this every day#shumika save me….shunazu save me….ex valk you ruined my life……#i did this shit in google slides btw i got frustrated with csp so
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Just. finished fallout. normal.
#what the fuck#what the fuvck what the fuck what the fuck#im so normal about this guys very so normal#(shaking and gripping the edge of the sink hunched over like im playing silent hill)#so normal so normal#what do i even do with my life now#how am i just supposed to go about my day#FUCK that last scene fucking insane though#oh my god the ghoul is so cool#like holy SHIT#the relization that the ghoul could of killed maximus in that first meeting but just like. chose not to? insane.#fallout is ruining my life i have to play every game now#fallout#i need a season 2 NOW#8 hours is not enough#i need to see Lucy kill her father#its like 5am where i am#im going to impulsively dye my fuckass mullet about this#fallout show#fallout series#just fishdeath-ing#fallout tv series#if anyone wants to talk abt fallout with me i dont know how to start a conversation but im clawing at my walls & willing to try please plea
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Orla’s liberation comes at the price of the merc’s. The further they entrench themself into being used as an implement for her to use to her ends, the more divorced they become to themself (though, even that’s a bit complicated. Who is the merc without Orla? Her guiding hand. Her crook shepherding. Her word governing.) She’s building her empire; the merc’s shoveling their grave. But at the same time, her empire doesn’t necessarily guarantee her own (true) freedom and is, in fact, a kind of gilded cage in its own right. You painstakingly build yourself a palace behind enemy lines, with all the luxuries you can scrounge together. Give yourself every comfort, loud music to drown out whatever ghosts you’re still trying to outrun, good sex, good food, people who will jump to murder for you without blinking an eye… yet it’s difficult to truly allow yourself to relish in any of it for more than a couple fleeting moments when you know there are serpents slithering just right outside the gates. Doesn’t matter how much you fortify your house of cards, it can still all come crumbling down with a gust of wind. And what then? One king (queen) deposes another, Vapolis continues on. No one will mourn. Orla knows this. Orla is terrified by this.
Anyway.. @vapolis sending you my therapy bill as I type this.
#sorry I’m going through it#orlaaaa my light my life my whole day longgg#I want to know her every thought and emotion this is very serious for me#finally got over being annoyed at PayPal being the only option for ko-fi payment and got a membership because I needed more orla and well…#I’m not feeling very normal about her. but when am I ever#AND THIS ISNT EVEN GETTING INTO THE FACT THAT SHES A WOMAN! FUCK!!!#like something something trying to carve out your own space in a world full of men who probably see you as no different from the women#they use and discard#whatever.#the idea of ruining orla by fully devoting yourself to her. hold on.#like yes I am going to be the most useful and obedient dog you’ve ever had. when you shut your golden cage behind you it’ll ring#like a bell and not the clang of a cell.#does this make sense? am I making sense?#something something mutually assured destruction#you don’t gain freedom by doing what orla does. not in any real meaningful sense.#the only way to win is to not play#but when you come from where she’s come from… you’ve gotta gamble#but it’s such a Faustian deal#anyway it’ll probably be the death of both her and the merc. let me shut up the thought of her dying just made me ill#whatever. whateverrrr#vapolis makes sinners of us all - if you aren’t there yet you’re certainly on your way!#**these are just my own personal thoughts and interpretations**#also apologies mara if you don’t care to be tagged in things like this! I’ll remove it if so#if: rywd#+ orla 🫂
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hey 👉👈 if anyones able to throw a few bucks at me so i can get lunch at work the next few days itd be very much appreciated, I typically spend around $6-$10 a day thanks to my employee discount but im broker than broke rn and just embarrassed myself with a declined card 🙃 literally anything helps i just wanna be able to eat
vnm: tobias_leviathan
pp: paypal.me/bewearrr
#the guy working the self checkout made me feel like shit for it too#its cool working at a bougie grocery store until they find out youre poor and then its Over i guess#whatever im not gonna let it ruin my day#this is so stupid im scared that my finances will never improve again im just gonna be in the negatives forever :(#every paycheck feels like filling a bucket with a hole in it#i feel like such a failure#it wasnt even my fault it was my stupid last job that refused to give me hours and wouldn't elaborate#if i had any energy left I'd consider suing them because why the fuck are you risking homelessness for me after i beg you to give me hours#and the only job that would hire me is across the city and its a whole ordeal to get to#and im never home anymore im at my bfs place 70% of the week#which isnt a problem in of itself but i wish i had the freedom of transportation to be able to go home if i want :(#my life would improve if i had a car but i cannot afford a car and wont be able to afford a car until NEXT YEAR#sorry for venting in the tags im just SO FRUSTRATED. Im#over everything#anyways plz help me eat food the next few days#id be able to deal if if were not for the fact that testosterone#makes me a ravenous beast
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I just remembered MISSY CREATED TWELVECLARA and that is too funny
Missy giving Clara the doctor’s number led to the possessive toxic amazing relationship that Clara and twelve had. Like girly really said ex husband can’t have a normal relationship he needs to be with this bipolar bisexual hot girl
She really is an agent of chaos, a lover for destruction (my womann, loml). I mean she put them together bc she though that way she could manipulate the doctor more (she was right tho). And, at the end Clara was that everything that could make the doctor do the impossible things with just a look. THANKS TO MISSY WE HAVE ALL HEAVEN SENT AND THE DOCTOR REALLY GOING AS FAR AS SHOOTING AND MAKING SOMEONE REGENERATE FOR CLARA !!!
Idk thank you Missy for ruining all my days cause I cant never stop thinking about elevenclara and twelveclara
#Missy giving Clara’s number led to me saying every day Im not your boyfriend Clara)#I should watch s7 8 & 9 again just so I can ruin my life a little more#toxic yuri led to more toxic yuri#oh missy Clara and the doctor should have fucked or smth#like i know this is something you can see on the show and it is said BUT I KEEP FORGETTING AND WHEN I REMEMBER I LAUGH#12th doctor#doctor who#clara oswald#missy doctor who
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How do you feel about the increase in really weird NSFW ads on here (advertising panels that look like sexual encounters, and AI art apps that pride themselves on porn) but will take down NSFW posts from their users, even if it isn't technically sexual.
i hate all social media and it's consistent prioritising the advertisers over the users and the internet simply was a better place before capitalism sunk its hooks into it
#i could write essays about how capitalism ruined the internet.#i was actually talking to someone earlier today about how youtube was kind of effectively ruined by monetisation.#and they were raised in the soviet union and we had a bit of a talk about how art was better because it wasn't for profit.#the people who made art made it because they wanted to do it and because they loved it.#she said that communism was terrible for every aspect of life for her. people's lives under communism wasn't pretty.#but the art was better. and i feel like it's true for the internet – it was better when it was a free-for-all.#the companies didn't know how to exploit it yet and turn it into a neverending profit-driven hellscape.#people created content because they wanted to. because they wanted to make something silly to make people laugh.#not for profit. not for gain. not for numbers. not to further their career.#i miss the days of newgrounds and youtube before monetisation.#capitalism has soiled everything that's joyful and good in this world.#people should be able to share whatever they want.#people should be able to tell any story they want without the fear of being silenced by advertisers.#that's what made the internet so beautiful before. anyone could do anything and we all had equal footing.#but now we're victims of the algorithm. and it makes me sick.#i'm quitting my job in social media. i'm quitting it. it makes me too depressed. i have an existential crisis every freaking day.#every day i wake up and say "ah. this is the fucking hell we live in#i'm so sorry i feel so passionate about this.#social media is a black hole and it is actively destroying humanity. forget ai. social media is what's doing it.#i miss how beautiful the internet used to be. it should've been a tool for good. but it's corrupt and evil now.#sci speaks
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should I continue making fadelstyle and kantbison parallels? at some point it’s gonna get weird about how their brother’s foil is their lover but that’s because it is weird!!! it is weird that their brother’s foil is their lover?? like why is Kant set up as this upside down Fadel? Kind of like a Fadel who’s innocence we never get to see. So Bison is in love with Kant who’s so much like Fadel (let’s not even go there with the nipples) and Bison and Fadel are not related and now canonically confirmed not to share all that much brotherly intimacy. And they are both now heartbroken, aching for the one thing they have in each other: trust. Acquired through - once more: coworkerly assassins intimacy not brotherly intimacy. Sorry??? why have they set it up this way???
#every day that I live#my p’fadel in this life you’re the only one I can trust#bison seduces fadel after discovering kant’s betrayal is validated#banging my head against the wall#this show is ruining my life
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