#even tho it’s the same as it was yesterday

[reinanova]

i swear there is a direct correlation between the temp rising above 60F and how easily i get overwhelmed and overstimulated

[mattodore]

birthday boy 🎂

[kirby-the-gorb]

this one should have a transparent background to fly him around your computer screen. he loves it :)

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

questioning sexuality is so exhausting

[crystalpallette]

"Huh? Which one did I like best?"

happy birthday to the girl who started it all!! arle nadja my beloved darling I wish you only the best and only the spiciest of curries on your special day. I'm sorry I couldnt integrate curry into this piece

[pennedinblood]

as of ten minutes ago we are officially Jobless™️. my sign to retire early and devote the remainder of my existence to writing toxic old man yaoi

[halinski]

rant in tags about perscription medication and withdrawals

continued here bc i reached tag limit and i'm still??

it's kinda scary tbh

like i was scared for years now of what would happen off my meds and

when i tried tapering off my antidepressants oof i was breaking down every day and now i /know/ i'm dependant on them and idk if that's better or worse

and with the antipsychotics it's like i thought they were helping my depression too bc when tapering off i was also so panicked and depressed (tho my situation is kinda stressful rn)

but idk i've been trying meds on and off for half my life now and most of the time i'm like 🤷

but the truth is

it's fucking scary how it messes with your body

it's fucking scary when you're dependant on a pill

OR ALSO

when pills fuck your body up to the point you can only eat one thing

bc that's the reason i'm going off the antipsychotics and guess what, i'm able to eat more again now

idk if it's just in combination with the hormon pill tbh i'm just going off both now and we'll see how my iron levels and migrains deal lmao

i feel like i can't think straight anymore

gonna have to get new docs anyway so we'll see what they say if(/when) i go anemic again or if going off the antipsychotics will actually fix the issue??

if so, then it'll be like how did this sneak up on me, i've been taking them for 2.5 years like

??

and now i've lost 20lbs despite trying everything to maintain or gain some the past year and a half and i'm at my lowest weight since i was like a preteen lol

and that's all bc of a med that didn't feel like it had an acute effect

or maybe i'm so removed from my body i didn't notice until i got the acute gastritis ??

i mean i can't even be sure its the meds or not until i'm off

and tapering the rest off is gonna be so fun fuck

i dont wanna

i wanna be able to eat more than bread i guess but at this point the thought just scares me and like i associate it with pain and nausea

which as long as i can manage it is fine

but i've only tapered off half, i still have to taper off the other half of the dosage 😭

and with the hormon pill gone again the worst menstrual pain will be back and idk how to manage that, i guess hopefully with the meds gone i won't go anemic again but who knows at this point??

also praying my migraines don't come back but uh... i am pessimistic. i don't have much hope

anyway

moral of the story.....

ALWAYS MAKE SURE TO TAPER OFF YOUR MEDS KIDS BC EVEN JUST TAPERING IS SCARY AND GOING COLD CHICKEN IS PROBABLY HELL

doctors can be annoying (and make things harder, like in my case bc i literally asked if it could be my current meds MONTHS ago, and everyone was like noooooo but guess who was RIGHT) sometimes BUUUUT you should listen to them avout certain things

like

tapering off meds

[rakkuntoast]

dont think about how close chayanne was to dying yesterday, don't think how he would've died in front of almost all his siblings, don't think about how dapper would've gotten the title of eldest sibling now that chayanne died, don't think about them breaking the news to tallulah that her brother/uncle died

definetly do not fucking think about how devastated phil would've been since he didnt even have the chance to say goodbye to him, and how he promised to burn the server down to ash if chayanne died while he was away

[pawnguild]

it's raining WHICH IS GREAT bc it's been so hot... but now my joints hurt 😭 no drawing for me today

[solace-seekers]

screaming into the void <3

[plushie-lovey]

I just saw the post where you were curious about my Lassie! She’s a Douglas whispy collie that I got on eBay! I actually decided to get her after seeing griffinkid’s Ali!

Tysm for sharing info on her! Lassie is a very pretty dog. I saw Ali from griffinkid recently and she's also very pretty!! I want to buy one of the same stuffed animal to give to my mother-in-law for Christmas. I think she'd really appreciate it especially because the plush looks like her current collie. Plus it'll go great with all the other collie memorabilia my datemate and I have managed to find for her over the past year!

Gosh I love to add plushies as part of the gifts I give to the people I care about. That way when we're not around each other but they're thinking of me/missing me they can hug the plush! I like getting them as gifts in return for that very reason x3 what do you think, is it a good idea?

[catwouthats]

Bro why is drawing hard 😔

I mean, I know I have increasingly high standards and that I’m drawing on my phone but still-

[pallases]

stabbing my lab partners with a plastic fork

[gxtzeizm]

istg blacklist international really loves to turn the tables that the very end of the game ffs i can't 😭😭😭

[llatimeria]

I'm literally so sick of moving I really hope that I can just stay with my parents for at least two years

[mostlykind]

I actually don’t understand how makeup artists put makeup on your face. like I will TRY to do the exact same thing I see them do on me and it just looks sooooo caked and not good!!!!! obvs it’s a skill but I just don’t get it