#| ★ TWO SIDES OF THE SAME COIN ( SPOCK : PRCSPCR )

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𝐬𝐮𝐜𝐡  𝐚  𝐫𝐚𝐫𝐞  𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭  𝐟𝐨𝐫  𝐭𝐡𝐞  captain  of  the  Enterprise  !  it’s  not  often  he  has  spare  time  to  come  &  mingle  in  the  science  labs  with  his  first  officer,  given  how  busy  they  both  tend  to  be.  however,  with  Janice  added  to  the  equation,  &  the  familiar  routes  they’re  warping  through—  this  is  the  BEST  time  for  him  to  ‘nerd  out’.  it  feels  nice  to  stop  &  smell  the  roses,  so  to  speak,  after  all  they’ve  discovered  over  the  last  few  months.  whatever  he  ordered  to  be  sent  to  the  vault  never  came  around  for  him  to  truly  inspect  again  until  now.  he’s  like  a  child  at  the  park.  truth  be  told,  he  has  NO  IDEA  what  he’s  looking  down  at. 

there  are  many  artifacts  sprawled  on  the  gigantic  table  that  somehow  doesn’t  feel  big  enough.  then  there’s  a  boom  &  a  POOF  !  the  captain  has  no  reaction  time  before  a  strange  sensation  travels  through  him.  instead,  he  stops  feeling  his  body  before  his  senses  are  restored.  he  feels…  STRONGER,  all  of  a  sudden,  like  he  could  pick  up  the  entire  table  he  had  worked  at  before  it  all  exploded.

right,  EXPLOSION.  in  panic,  half-human  hands  fumble  &  find  his  friend's  golden  shirt.  wait…      ❝  WHAT  THE  F                          ❞      Jim  jerks  back,  a  never-seen-before  expression  exaggerated  on  the  cool  features  of  his  best  friend  he  gets  to  borrow.      ❝  𝐒𝐏𝐎𝐂𝐊  ?!  ❞      he  yells,  unsure  how  to  react  to  seeing  himself  from  outside  or  how  his  vocal  cords  don’t  seem  to  work  WELL  with  the  emotions  he  tries  to  convey.      ❝  OH  MY  GOD                          MY  VOICE  !  ❞

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𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞  𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥  𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞  𝐟𝐨𝐫  𝐮𝐬  𝐚𝐥𝐥  —  that  statement  verges  too  close  to  a  fresh  wound.  it  lands  like  a  slap.  a  feeling  twists  his  gut.  time  will  come  for  us  all.  oh,  he  knows.  it’s  come  for  him  once.  it’s  taken  him  &  spat  him  back  out.  not  yet,  but  soon.  the  aftermath  of  one’s  departure  STINGS    ;    it  tears  the  universe  apart  &  stitches  it  back  together  drained  of  color.

Jim  doesn’t  want  to  face  such  trauma—not  with  Spock.  any  Spock.  maybe  that’s  selfish,  but  he  can’t  help  it.    ❝  if  you  don’t  mind  me  asking,  sir,  what  do  you  hope  to  find  when  you  go  back  ?  ❞

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𝐡𝐞  𝐡𝐚𝐝  𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲  𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐝  𝐡𝐢𝐦𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟  𝐟𝐨𝐫  the  impact  of  his  first  officer’s  impeccable  logic.  Jim  strides  down  the  corridors  without  so  much  as  a  glance  toward  the  section  markers—he  knows  the  Enterprise  like  the  back  of  his  hand  after  all  these  years.  the  same  holds  true  for  the  half-Vulcan  by  his  side.  in  dire  situations,  he’ll  always  choose  Spock  over  himself.  the  ship  needs  him—though  Jim  recognizes  his  own  importance  to  the  crew,  Spock’s  presence  feels  even  more  crucial.  or  perhaps  both  captain  &  first  officer  are  indeed  full  of  shit,  locked  in  a  game  of  who’ll  sacrifice  himself  first.      ❝  𝐀𝐑𝐄  𝐘𝐎𝐔  𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐄  ?  ❞      Jim  flares  up,  jaw  tightening  the  instant  a  firm  hand  settles  on  his  shoulder. 

a  glacial  dread  snakes  down  his  spine,  twisting  his  gut  with  the  raw  fear  of  death.      ❝  how  do  you  know  it’s  not  you  who’s  emotionally  compromised  ?  ❞      he  pauses,  heart  thudding  so  hard  it  might  break  free  from  his  chest. 

his  palms  grow  clammy.      ❝  you  don’t  want  me  to  go  because  you  damn  well  remember  what  happened  the  last  time  you  let  me.  TELL  ME  THE  TRUTH.  ❞      remember  who  you  are,  he  inwardly  tells  himself.  it’s  just  like  a  match  of  chess.      ❝  i  didn’t  trust  myself  back  then.  i  do  now.  ❞

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𝐡𝐞  𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬.  𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭’𝐬  𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐲  𝐰𝐡𝐲  𝐭𝐡𝐞  captain  asks  the  question  in  the  first  place.  sky  blue  gaze  fixates  on  the  pair  of  onyx  before  him,  only  to  be  distracted  by  the  hues  changing  on  the  half-Vulcan’s  ears.  it  takes  all  his  power  not  to  bare  a  mischievous,  ivory  grin.      ❝  𝐬𝐨  𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭  𝐢𝐬  𝐢𝐭,  commander  ?  ❞ 

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❝    Mr. Spock,  you got a minute    ?    ❞

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it appears that you have been keeping important information from me.

❝  𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐚𝐚𝐚𝐭  ?  ❞      the  sugary  lilt  in  his  voice  instantly  signals  something  is  off.  in  truth,  Jim  can’t  pinpoint  what  he  might  have  missed  or  perhaps  he  doesn’t  want  to  dwell  on  it.  after  all,  both  of  them  know  he  juggles  countless  tasks  each  day,  caring  for  hundreds  of  crew  members  with  the  same  diligence  he  devotes  to  his  own  family. 

it’s  rare  that  he  omits  something  deliberately,  but  exceptions  do  occur—𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞  𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬  𝐨𝐧𝐞.  is  this  about  McCoy’s  medical  report  on  him  ?      ❝  we  had  the  mind  meld,  like,  LAST  WEEK.  what  could  i  possibly  be  keeping  from  you  ?  ❞      he  asks,  very  well  knowing  that  the  mind  meld  took  place  months  ago.

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❝    𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧,   𝐌𝐫.   𝐒𝐩𝐨𝐜𝐤.   𝐲𝐨𝐮 never disappoint.      ❞         Jim says,   not stopping what he’s doing for a few more seconds just because he knows he can get away with it.   eventually,   he chills out.       ❝    and what kind of a logical response are you planning on giving after this revelation    ?    ❞

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𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐬 𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧’𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 half-Vulcan this intensely  &  closely.

there’s a lack of restraint to Kirk,   stemming from his incredibly inflated ego,    &  the absence of   FEAR.   he often forgets that he’s not in the comfort of his own universe where he’s an idea everyone fears.   he ponders on Spock’s statement  &  the next move on the board.   his situation is   DIRE.   salvageable    ?  barely.   his odds of winning are low.           ❝    don’t you think the fact that you are here playing a game of chess with me is not a   STATEMENT   on its own    ?    ❞         he asks slowly,   teasingly.

after a few slow blinks,   he leans forward to regard the game.           ❝    some things never change,   i suppose.    ❞         he wonders if it’s necessary to continue.   he guesses he’d want the satisfaction of finishing the game.   maybe he shouldn’t give it to him.           ❝    i underestimated you.   you’re as   VICIOUS   on the chessboard as you are on the battlefield.   it’s impressive.    ❞

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❝    𝐢 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐭.   𝐢 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐨 be cozy too.    ❞         the captain’s voice is sugary sweet,   his expression soft because it blows his mind,   no matter how much time passes,   that Spock is so   WILLING   to participate in whatever he or anyone else on the bridge offers him regarding human traditions.   to see him embrace who he is,   indeed,   is a   GIFT   that keeps on giving.           ❝    ah,   yes.   ‘this statement is false’.   i remember reading about it in Advanced Tactics and Command Strategy.   what i remember the most about it is the   HEADACHE   that it gave me.   it’s pretty interesting though.   what’s your take on it    ?    ❞

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The custom of gift giving now something that spock was wholly used to. At first encouraged by Nyota and Dr McCoy, the Vulcan now no longer needs to think or consider it. It is second nature to him now. Indeed, even coming up with a gift comes as easy as breathing. It is a little simpler than last year's vulcan rover, but nevertheless as well thought out. It has also taken some finesse but once satisfied, Spock dropped off the gift with Carol, whom was in the shared Captains Quarters with the youngest member of starfleet cooing happily. He passed the gift to Carol with the promise that Jim would receive it when he returned. Nestled in a black box was a solid steel device, which once activated correctly, would project a holographic display of collective moments from the entire crew - Jim's family - spliced with clips from every single crew member wishing their Captain a happy birthday.

Oh and confirmation of a week's vacation with Carol and Steven away from Starfleet, at Dr McCoys insistence that Jim needed a "damn vacation".

𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬  𝐢𝐬  𝐭𝐡𝐞  𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠  𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭  𝐒𝐩𝐨𝐜𝐤.  even  before  he  sees  the  contents  of  the  half-Vulcan’s  delivery,  Jim  already  knows  it’s  thoughtful  &  GLORIOUS.  he’s  taught  himself  not  to  have  expectations  on  his  birthday  from  such  an  early  age  &  yet  if  there’s  one  fact  he  can  be  sure  of  is  that  Spock  knows  his  heart  in  a  way  nobody  else  possibly  can.  they  were  one,  once.  mind  &  soul  merged  —  two  halves  became  whole,  fully,  albeit  temporarily.  he  knows  what  the  commander  has  found  in  the  boundless  heart  of  the  captain  :  he  found  himself.  their  beloved  ship,  their  crew.

their  lives  can  indeed  be  a  blur  of  color  most  days.  a  smile  seeps  into  his  visage  immediately  when  the  refulgent  lights  of  images  shine  in  the  bright  specks  of  his  blues.  memories  are  tricky,  short-circuited,  submissive.  what  a  GIFT  it  is  for  his  t’hy’la  to  make  such  precious  ones  permanent.  he’s  the  safe  shores,  relief  for  the  doubtful  ones,  a  guiding  light  for  everyone  around  him. 

where  are  HIS  safe  shores  ?  they’re  the  little  stops  between  each  image  he  swipes  through.  they  are  the  little  pauses  between  each  brilliant  exclaim  of  ‘happy  birthday  captain  !’.  they  are  the  little  laughs  his  crew  pulls  from  him  with  their  teasing  remarks  in  these  recordings.  this  is  it,  he  thinks.  𝐢𝐭’𝐬  𝐚𝐥𝐥  𝐟𝐨𝐫  𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬.

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enlighten me again . . .

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