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Blonde hair and glasses combo š©µš©µ
#he looks great#what an angel#even if you did get my country wrong#despite guessing it immediately then getting it wrong when you saw the sky tower#dan and phil#dnp#danandphil#phan#amazingphil#my gifs#dnp gifs#danandphilgames#dan and phil games#daniel howell
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he still has his tonsils. by the way if you even care
#sorry this is fucking UNINTELLIGIBLE but unfortunately iām still on my bullshit about dr. daddyissues. yeah itās gonna be all month#i am rotating episode 2.8 āthe mistakeā in my head at breakneck speed. i am gnawing on it i want to swallow it#oh heās such a lying liar who lies. charming little bastard. would rather die/lose his license than express one wholly unaffected emotion#āhe thinks not giving a crap makes him like house. like itās something to aspire toā quick question HOW serious do the daddy issues have to#be before you start latching on to fucking GREGORY HOUSE as a paternal figure and role model. really#even cameron is not down this bad. even WILSON is not down this bad.#the daddy issues of it all are very understandable though because even setting aside whatever went down back in childhood that shit his#father did to him in seasons 1-2 is SO messed up. jesus#imagine traveling all the way across the world to the hospital your son works in for a consult which confirms what you already knew: youāre#going to die of cancer in like 2 months. making a whole point out of stopping by to visit your son. not telling him whatās going on.#letting him spend a whole episodeās worth of time gradually coming to terms with his complicated feelings towards you (complicated on#account of a whole childhood of objectively awful parenting). the kid finally is able to try reaching back out to you. after YOU initiated#the contact in the first place. how do you react? well obviously by telling him āoh sorry i actually have to get in a taxi right nowā and#fucking back off to the other side of the world without giving him a chance to actually talk to you at all and resolve any of the emotions#you just dredged up. oh by the way you still havenāt fucking told him youāre about to die and in fact actively mislead him into thinking#heās going to have the chance to try meeting with you again next time he visits your home country.#especially fucked up given that the whole reason it DID take your son so long to come around THIS time is that he feels like every time#heās tried reaching out to you in the past youāve just disappointed him by refusing to put in the effort to meet him there.#And Now Here We Are Again.#rowan what the FUCK is wrong with you. i want to dig you up and kill you again#house md#robert chase#caseyposting
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I like your drawings of Cinder in nice dresses. What inspo do you use for designing her clothes?
Thank you! Basically, when I was younger I had the delusion of āmemorise every country in the world or else youāre a bad person,ā followed by, ālearn a brief history of every country in the world within 8 years or else youāre a bad person.ā I learned in the order of history-mythology/religion-clothing, and I ended up loving the traditional clothing around and in Iran, Turkmenistan, Kyrgyzstan, Uzbekistan, Kazakhstan, China, Vietnam, Indonesia, Mongolia, Bhutan, Laos, Myanmar, Thailand, Bangladesh, India, etc. Itās fairly difficult to find information about clothing in English, so I mostly pull from Hanfu for Cinder. Currently, I pretty much design how people would wear one today, ignoring old colour rules, pairing it with hair/accessories from separate dynasties, keeping bangs in hairstyles that otherwise would not have them, and sometimes adding in things that are more fantastical than historical. I would love to one day make futuristic designs, but I want to do that tastefully and respectfully, so, for now, Iām sticking closer to current-day interpretations.
#sorry for the word spam#Borders have changed so much that I donāt know the proper group names for things that are the same in several countries#or the same in certain time periods but different later on#so I felt it was safest to name a bunch off the top of my head#I canāt watch certain shows anymore#I could excuse The Gilded Age because I hate all of the outfits in it#I tried Lupin (2021) and donāt even get me started on what they did to that necklace#not only did it not look anything like the real (and immediately destroyed) necklace#but it also looked nothing like the one Napoleon gifted to Marie Louise!!!#thereās an aoqun design for her that Iāve had in my head for 2 years but I canāt pull it off correctly#and it was blue#it seems my default is the red qiyao ruqun#itās so hard to find good info Iām sorry if Iām referring to anything wrong#Ireland is also surprisingly difficult to find clothing info#pretty easy to understand once you find it#but idk why it was that hard in the first place#apart from the majority of the fabric decomposing#ask
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neve came back and I IMMEDIATELY started crying
#is it my adoration of neve as a character or my countryās political climate? remains to be seen#neve gallus#had been talking to a friend pre-game about how she didnāt appeal to me and boy the fuck was I WRONG#I just walk into her room and stand there and feel guilty#(because I couldnāt save minrathous in ADDITION to treviso#not because Iād save it instead)#my heart will always be in treviso with its people who have no means of fighting back#and not with tevinter and all of the things it COULDāVE done!!!!!!!!!#bitter especially because of my current real life country tbh and all theā¦.. everything#but yāknow#datv spoilers#veilguard spoilers#datv#dragon age: the veilguard#thinking especially heinously mean thoughts of my sister#who has been in a wlw relationship for several years - I had her girlfriend at my wedding - but she feels so strongly#that sheās the EXCEPTION to lgbt people (and therefore votes conservatively every election)#it is so so so so SO frustrating because I even came out to her at one point#which I would NOT have done (since sheās a republican!!!!!!) in the hopes that it would help her feel not so alone#because I KNOW it tore her up for DECADES and I donāt think people deserve to struggle like that#and then she turned it back around in her maga hat and her pro-[redacted] posts#and ALSO told my parents just to get back at me for something#I donāt understand I donāt understand I donāt understand#I donāt understand how you can hate other people so much#and I donāt want to have that conversation with my parents#and I know that I will and I amā¦ā¦ā¦ fucking Christ I am struggling with that#jesus fucking Christ did I not know that a casual dragon post was gonna be the place where I reflected like this
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sometimes i remember the hunger games and how nobody actually paid attention to what was in those books
#americans close your eyes and ears right now#i'm well aware that my political takes are way too spicy for you all#and i really do wish my media diet didn't contain so much us-centric shit#but alas we're all suffering here#and i could say that 'oh actually it does matter who your president is for us in the world'#but it doesn't. it really fucking doesn't. that's kind of the point.#oh i'm sorry my spicy takes are already starting#anyway it is wild that you all can understand katniss assassinating coin at the end of mockingjay#but get super upsetty that chappell roan won't support your favorite presidential candidate with her full chest#like come on none of you actually thought that her using the phrase both sides meant that she was a republican or even a centrist#that's just copium#you all knew exactly what she meant#but i guess encouraging people to think critically and get involved with their local elections and politics as well is... bad now?#also... why do you all care so much about a random pop star's opinion and whether or not she dares to criticize a government#like... she's right but i'm sure 5 years from now if she survives in the limelight her edges will be completely chipped away#by all this insane reaction#and before anyone comes for me... no i'm not saying you shouldn't vote. please fucking do.#neither am i saying you shouldn't vote strategically or encourage other people to do so#but if all your energy is spent policing people who criticize your chosen party because of their own principles#then there's something seriously wrong with your politics#and all you're signalling is that you truly do not fucking care about the issues that they care about#if anything..... you RESENT them#and then the same people bring up the parable of the 'unjust man'#or how it's never the right time to talk about gun violence in your country#harm reduction is all good and based but attacking people who are leveraging their support to push your party left#is not. it's not even fucking helpful#anyway. don't base your lives and politics around pop stars.#even if they are more based than you š¤·#i think i'm done now thank you tumblr for letting me have insane rants in my tags that hopefully no one reads#idk i just find this all depressing. i wish you all cared more about the world outside of your bubble. i wish we all did - myself included.
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man living with toxic relatives really is the worst, you come home and you just deal with more bullshit when you should be relaxing
#sil talks.š¤#your girl is losing her mind#everything i do is wrong#ive been told i might be 18 but i have an experience of a highschooler#even tho my aunt literally does not know what i did in turkey and believe me it ain't highschooler lever#and when I ask her something it's always why are you asking me google it#like maam arent you supposed to be this super experienced 50 year old why are you bitching at me when I ask question about a country i just#moved to 2 months ago#like god damnit#i dont know how much of this i can take#and im not even mnetioning her constantly saying āthe new generation doesn't want to do anythingā#the new generation doesnt know how to use google#the new generation doesn want to work#the future of coorparate america is screwed because the new generation doesn't know how to do anything#WHO RAISED THAT NEW GENERATION?????#YOU#YOU DID#SO STFU#her kids literally don't know how to communicate with other people and when i do something I'm constantly in the wrong lmao#mind you she knows my manager loved me and I'm getting a raise this week#and after i told her she said i have experience of a highschooler and I'm not ready for new york#well i sure as hell ain't gonna be ready for it living with you#god i hate it#ah and also me needing to hide my hips#delete later
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nationalism and patriotism are getting weirder and weirder concepts to me the older I get
#j. talks#obviously I might be the wrong person anyway for these because I have been between countries since I can remember#but how is there a reason to feel these. and no I get how people fall into these but genuinely how and why#I get hearing your languages spoken and feeling like hearing someone you love even though they might be a stranger#I get seeing a shade of green and thinking oh those remind me of rivers and forests and fields that might resemble a feeling that is cozy#and I get some things. but overall it's community and all working it out together that is how we can function#and learning from each other. pls tell me about your traditions and let me taste your food#how on earth could you put one country above another one culture. yeah idk#I have been very sappy here again. been talking with my mom to a translator we met in S. who was such a passionate#speaker that I could barely speak because if I did I would have cried but he said hopefully we see each other again when things feel easier#and I wish that too. for things to feel easier. ok sappy me over bye
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why are trump supporters all Like That
#i can't even say it's all republicans atp because it's NOT it's like specifically his weird ass cult followers#and almost all the women look the exact same too white middle aged blonde wears either tons of makeup or none and pink camouflage#when i say Like That i mean not even just the republican part of it i mean the fact that they are so dead set on being right#all the time no matter what and can't accept ever being wrong#and they are so defensive about this country like omfg why can you criticize every other country#but the SECOND someone criticizes the usa they're evil#like do y'all hear yourselves? oh my god???#ābut we're the greatest country in the worldā EVERY PATRIOT IN EVERY COUNTRY THINKS THAT THEIR COUNTRY IS THE BEST IN THE WORLD#anyway#i am unable to vote due to my living situation but i am begging you to vote blue if you are able š#vote blue#harris walz 2024#kamala harris#tim walz#if you like that orange fuck and you bring yourself into my replies i'm not even going to engage in a debate with you you're getting blocked#also why are they so obsessed with white pride... they're like ābecause people are taught to feel ashamed for being whiteā nnnooooo???#when did that happen#i'm white i don't feel ashamed for being white and i don't feel proud of being white i feel like i'm just a person? who exists???#like everyone else????
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#exams did go fairly well#hopefully nothing worse than a B but i think an A is certainly possible in at least one of them#so hopefully š„¹š„¹#i did study quite a bit not as much as i hoped for but a step up from my lack of effort the last few weeks#so hopefully i can get back to better routines now#i mean i do know probably many didn't study at all for these exams as they were not that serious#buuut if you want a good grade i feel like you have to at least i studied for like 2-3 days altough i would have liked to study for a week#also my schedule is just insane i think but then maybe it's just me idk#my time management is not the best but i still wonder how others would do with so many classes and extra activities#i have like 20 classes this semester + 2 exams i intend to take extra#i'm not attending all of them that wouldn't be possible and i'm not sure i can take all the exams but i'm happy if I manage like 17 or so#but like a normal amount is 10 classes a semester in my country but in reality most students don't take this many either#well i'm basically enrolled in two programms atm so there's that ig#but often i'm just wondering when i'm gonna study#i also play tennis a lot and competiting for my club (at a rec level)#and i'm training for this entrance exam for sports (i'm currently studying teaching with other subjects + English)#altough this is making me question if i'm fit for this everyday š« i'm fairly good at 2 things ball sports and just like general athleticism#we also need to dance do gymnastics and swim i struggle with all of them#i'm not fast enough at swimming and my technique is bad i can't even do a cartwheel and a bad dancer š#the requirements are really high though i mean when i think of people i know from tennis or football no one would even get there closely#like i was the fastest at my former football club (and at every uni football course) and i might just barely cut it for sprinting#and i'm really quite athletic when playing tennis my opponents always notice and coordinated in sports as well#but somehow coordination for gymnastics is not the same?š
how can i be so graceful playing tennis and most sports with balls but so clumsy#otherwise like doing a handstand... no balance š„²#but anyways i also do like general fitness stuff going to the gym running a bit and trying to eat healthy#but my studying hours are very limited often tmrw i have uni from half 2 until 8pm in the evening and i have a preparation course for sports#before uni starts at half 10#i just really get the urge to drop everything sometimes š„² i also wanna see friends again more not just at uni and in the bus#i miss my semesters with 10 courses a week it was beautiful so much freedom and free time š„¹#uni was so enjoyable back then... don't get me wrong i enjoy most of my uni courses what i not enjoy is not having any time to myself
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In my mind yhe reason Satoru Shoko and Suguru work so well together but also are doomed is because they're three different variants of depression. Satoru reads to me as "I'm not suicidal I just don't really want to exist" and "I'm not depressed bc I'm not sad. I just don't really feel things" y'know where it's teetering between denial and just being straight up oblivious. Shoko is well aware of her depression and kinda doing stuff about it (substance abuse which is. Uhh y'know complicated) but also is clearly intensely fatigued (in my mind it's a mix of her shitty job her depression and also some form of chronic illness) so like. She doesn't have many great opportunities to do things about that. And Suguru is a danger to himself and others.
So basically how I see it is they understand each other on something of an instinctual level and know that they Aren't Completely Alone, but also they're all Really Bad at actually communicating (I think there's multiple reasons but mainly Because Jujutsu Society Is A Nightmare And Also They Are Pretty Much Eachother's Only Friends) so they can't meaningfully help eachother when they start getting worse so that's part of why everything went to shit (most of it is Suguru but alos he clearly doesnt have like. Any actual models for Maturity and Dealing With Problems Without Violence. So most of the jujutsu adults were just kinda letting that fucking Ticking Timebomb tick away y'know)
#JJK#Idk. I need to buckle down and get obsessed with Shoko bc I think there's a lot to dig into with both what's in canon and#What I specifically think about her but also. The fact she's not very often In Canon means I sometimes struggle to tell if what I think#About her Makes Sense or is Complete BS and there's Some Room for BS but like y'know try to keep it to a minimum. But also#Shoko has a chronic illness if you disagree with me you're wrong.#Anyway I do have a lot of thoughts like. Suguru definitely is Responsible For What He Did. But also Jujutsu society is again#A Nightmare and trying to think through it I really. Don't think he has even a basic framework to work through shit without violence#(special grades being defined by their ability to overthrow a country is uh. That's in my head Forever.)#Like for sure he has some cruel and awful beliefs he's not doing anything to address properly but also like. God just. Aaughhhh#Imagine being fuckin told hey. You're not crazy. Now come to school for murdering curses (and maybe people don't worry Abt it) where you#Have two (2) classmates. Also you are basically a nuke jsyk and there's this other guy who's super powerful and changed he world#He's ur classmate anyway have funnnnnn. Like oh ok this surely won't fuck Someone over
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those past few days are really testing my patience with some of the takes and opinions i've seen on the internet and i'm so fucking done with all of this i just want to delete all my accounts from everywhere and live somewhere in the woods (as far away from russia as i can) and to never come in contact with another human being again
#i'm so exhausted i just have to rant even tho nobody will care#i have some trouble sleeping because i'm either waiting for another attack to happen#or reading the news about dozens of missiles flying at my country#or hiding in the bathroom while listening to explosions because it's supposed to be the safest place in our appartment#and then i open social media and see all the destruction and casualties and deaths that happened overnight#and at the same time i see people adoring and praising and defending russians and their culture and language#and creaming themselves because of their āmysterious russian soulā#and telling ukrainians that they are stupid and toxic and that what they feel about their killers and occupiers is wrong#well newsflash y'all#russian culture is nothing but blood and death#russian language is nothing but blood and death#it's not just fucking putin doing all of this shit#he wasn't there when ukrainian nation and culture and language were oppressed for literal fucking centuries#did russia invent human cloning for putin to be all those soldiers at the frontline and all those people building drones and missiles?#open your fucking eyes and think for a fucking second#i go to sleep every night fearing that i may not wake up#and then in the morning i see people admiring russians and foaming at the mouths defending them#and then also fucking michael sheen of all people sending his love to them#and i become so insanely pissed#get a fucking reality check#i'm so sick of people excusing russia and its actions#once again guess i'm a walking big bad angry ukrainian stereotype#well that's what war does to you#i won't wish for anyone to experience this but also it may be the only thing that makes some people aware of what a rotten thing russia is#i'm so done and i don't want to feel all of this and i don't want to be a human and i don't want to have thoughts#maybe it's for the best if a missile flies into my room so i won't have to be here any longer and witness all of this shit#(it's a thought i've been having lately and ngl it kinda scares me)#ukraine#russia is a terrorist state#btw i've just discovered there's a limit of 30 tags
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yk every time i see a post about somebody wishing bad things on another person i think ādirt-strider to kiryuā youāve broken me brain
You see a post thats like i want to stick him in time prison so that he gets so bored he starts breaking his own bones to get even a hint of stimulation and its tagged me at kiryu and you scroll down and its a post thats like i want to feed him chips from my cupped hands like a wild stallion and its also tagged me at kiryu also hiiiiiiiii
#Thanks for the ask !#i wont lie to you i want to do yo kiryu what they did to the family in reddot story the pancake family#his life is a bit too easy i want to give him more obstacles thats why im kidnapping him and breaking my little princeās ankles and#releasing him in a forest in another country altogether and he has to survive with his injuries until they heal and they will heal wrong and#it will forever hurt to walk now and also when he sees another human being now he will always flinch and he has nightmares every night about#being feverish and starving to death and years into his recovery i meet him again and invite him to watch a movie with me but when i put the#tape in its actually just a highlight reel of his time in the wilderness and he gets scared but he cant move and its because i gave him some#tea earlier and oh this ? its laced with drugs. and he sits blearily beside me and im holding his head up so he watches the screen and he#recalls every terrible thing thats happened to him i put the tv on full volume so he can relive the leaves and twigs cracking under his#hands and knees as hes dragging himself across the forest floor and and his clipped shouts of pain whenever his broken bones catch on a root#and his enraged screaming as he grapples foxes and coyotes that are trying to scavenge the food he painstakingly gathered and he can listen#to the way his voice devolves into something unrecognisable and hes wondering how i got this footage but then he realises this scene is#familiar hes on his last legs and he hears footsteps approach not those of an animal but of a person. he looks at the screen and he sees his#own face staring into the camera wild eyed and filthy and that on the other side of the camera is the hitchhiker who āfoundā him and he#realises it was me who did this. i could have rescued him at any time the gratefulness he feels to that kind samaritan curdles in his chest#it comes with the withering realisation it was all a game and the one who put him through it all was right beside him and i laugh and put my#hand around his shoulder and ask if he liked the movie and he fights his paralysis and he grips me by the neck and throws me to the ground#and he says you .. you ... and i frown apologetically and say That bad huh ? well we can put on another. and he cant even say words anymore#hes so angry that he grips my neck and he strangles me and the whole time my face gets purple im laughing and laughing and laughing at him#anyway thats one of my greatest fantasies its a fantasy because i couldnt do that to the poor guy im not that mean but i do want him to kill#me and for me to deserve it. very important that i started this fight and that he ends it thats what i want to have ... and also to like#cuddle and stuff ... because i like him ...
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AM I HAVING A FUCKING STROKE?!
or did Rishi Sunak really basically just admit IN FRONT OF THE WORLD that taking the UK out of the EU was a terrible decision? Also what I heard: "This country we took but dont acknowledge until it benefits us is in the best position in the world in terms of access to the market"
#Rishi Sunak#Ah lads looks like the Uk remembers we exist again for the benefits of exploitation#Cause mark my words thats whats gonna happen. We now benefit the Uk to exist in the Uk#I mean dont get me wrong our political system is an absolute SHAMBLES too but JFC talk about shooting yourself and your party in the foot#british politics#Brexit#Northern Ireland#I might... just move back to Northern Ireland lads#NĆl aon tinteĆ”n mar do thinteĆ”n fhĆ©in#HEY MA! IM COMING HOME MA!#If you cant tell... im conflicted.#I'm happy Northern Ireland is apparently in a good position well see how long that lasts now England is acknowledging us again#but I'm also hella salty over BOTH countries politics#We only ever get mentioned by the british government when it suits them and I refuse to be 'something good' a torry did after all the years#of pure bullshittery#cant even spend UK STERLING in England without being treated like a criminal#Not to mentiion the sheer bullshittery of 'we only post to the uk' and then being told Northern Ireland isnt part of the UK WHEN IT CLEARLY#FUCKING IS CAUSE I FUCKING GREW UP IN THE TAIL END OF WHAT HAPPENED AFTERWARDS!#AND THATS JUST SURFACE LEVEL PETTY SHIT THATS HAPPENED!#Good Friday agreement at risk anyone?#northern ireland protocol#No one remember?#Northern Ireland has so much potential and the tories will do their best to bleed us dry#we havent much more to give you sir#just fuck off and sort out the cost of living crisis please#Stay in your own fucking lane and sort THAT shit out#I had so many rant tags I've just discovered Tumblr has a limit given over half of them were deleted from the post XD#Long story short YAY Northern Ireland now please leave us alone Rishi#Just to be clear... I love England. Its the Tories and the government that are grinding my fucking gears right now
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suffering from the consequences of my actions (headache because i ran two (2) necessary errands in one day)
#ugh this fucking sucks#horrible day with horrible decisions#because the connections still suuuuckkk bc of flood damage i decided to drive to the train station#instead of taking the bus#bad decision#did not get a parking space#so then i had to drive into vienna#bad and scary#already had a headache before getting to the doctors appointment#and i like and respect my psychiatrist#but she thinks there's something else wrong with me#and wants me to get assessed for trauma stuff#which like why does every mental health care professional end up thinking there is something else something trauma related#like i know that SHOULD tell me something that they all end up at that conclusion#but like I don't see it or at least not anything like actually THAT bad#sure my parents weren't perfect#but if THEY fucked me up so badly then how in the fuck could anyone raise functioning children#i had it soooo mucb better than the average child even in my first world country#unless i have some michelle remembers level crazy shit going on like i do not think this makes any sense#but why do they all think trauma????#the actually traumatic stuff only happened later when i was already messed up#IN the hospital and BY the staff#but they insisted from the beginning i was hiding something like that back then as a teen i was protecting my parents or whatever#and literally please tell me why i am like this l#i would be thrilled#if i knew#i'd be absolutely ecstatic if you hypnotized me and i suddenly remember sth actually that horrible and not just.#mommy never hugged me and had high expectations.#because that is not something I can see as an explanation#anyways then i had to drive home with a bad headache and go shopping with a headache and now my head hurts at home
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#it was all too much#you knew and you said the most perfect thing you could have said#but nothing ever happened#you got my hopes high when I was so so low#words didn't match actions#when I had the money to take myself away#I chose to stay with you#I could have given me a well needed timeout#sun and ocean therapy#but I wanted to share this experience WITH You#the thought of leaving for holidays without you crossed my mind but it felt so so wrong and was no option#you knew what I needed but everything was more important#why did you even talked about it?#giving someone high hopes who's barely alive and completely and utterly on their lowest and then not following through is just cruel#I waited and waited and waited for something that was never going to happen#it's painful knowing I had 'the last money' from my father and could have spent it visiting HIS FAVORITE COUNTRY#he would've totally approved he would have been proud#I will never forgive myself for that#I spent his last money during those months I waited for 'us' to DO SOMETHING#I literally didn't care what all I wanted was a tiny holiday and time out together - so we could get much needed distance peace and quiet#I stayed around because I thought we have to leave together so we could get closer again#I hoped for us get close again get that special one of a kind bond back while making new experiences and memories#just the two of us for once#and then you didn't look on your phone those days before new years eve you obviously didn't care at all if I wrote you or not#you didn't care if we would spend new years eve together#you didn't care about us starting together side by side in the new year#you didn't drove 5 to 10 minutes but had the decency of writing 'would love being on the tower together with you like last year right now'#the year started with a lie obviously you DIDN'T MEAN it otherwise everything would have been different#I can still not fully comprehend what happened few hours later you fucking broke my heart my trust our bond our relationship ALL IN ONE#you made me feel worthless (500 euro was worth breaking everything) you made me feel unloved and totally betrayed you gave a shit on my dad
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lrb but seeeriously. i dont feel like i have all that strong a dysphoria but whenever i take me and my very pretty feminine looks to my weekly* game meetup the amount of times i get she/her'd fucking does me in a little. it varies how annoying it is but truly it boggles the mind. and im like *grabby hands* if i could be a little more masc maybe the people would get it
#i had a fellow nb tell me in complete seriousness that they didnt know if i was afab or amab#and i always thought that sounded silly but now im like. do. do people think my name is and has always been isaac??#are there people at this club who see me with this name and assume im transfem and just didnt change my name????#like i give a partial pass to some people on the basis of well yeah. if youre not from an english speaking country right#the connotation of Isaac as a masculine name might not really exist. i get it. you get a partial pass#but now im wondering if people just assume im on hormones out the wazz and just did not change my name#and to be fair that would be kind of baller. i did though. i did change my name. people in this club have Seen It#its annoying too bc even when i get a more masc-y look going it doesnt seem to register. i have no idea what im doing āwrongā#and the answer is nothing. cis people just suck. also i never say my pronouns bc i hate making a fuss#at a game of like. risk or smth. we all introduced ourselves with pronouns and then literally noone pronoun'd me correctly ;)#they/them nightmares. at least he/him me for gods sake be cis stupid in a way that helps
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