#emotionally detached at emotions

[greylight32]

What if Ron is a silent crier? I’ve seen some people head canon him as a pretty emotional and loud crier, and while I don’t completely disagree with that, I think that Ron cries silently. That whenever he was little, he used to cry loud and make a whole thing of it not by his choice that’s just how he reacted. But now, as an adult, he just kind of silently stands there as tears pour out of his eyes. His shoulders moving up and down every so often, as usually whenever that gut, wrenching noise of someone attempting to stop their overflowing tears comes out of their mouth. He just physically unable to make the sound, physically, unable to express his emotions through noise, as he just silently stands there crying.

I could imagine one of the dad’s trying to comfort him whenever something really emotional just happened, them on the verge of tears, making ugly noises trying to hold back their sob, and then Ron already having tears flowing out of his eyes, but not making a noise. Shaking ever so slightly.

I can imagine Terry, hugging Ron after a really bad memory of Willie. Telling him that it’s not real that Willie couldn’t hurt him anymore his shoulders shaking as tears pour into his stepson shirt. The room filled with silence, except for the whispered promises of Terry telling him that he’s safe. As Samantha makes tea for them in the kitchen. Terry telling Ron that he is enough.

When usually you hear that ugly, hicking noise of someone attempting not to sob to not cry, there’s just no sound, because even if he tried really really hard, his body just won’t let him. that sound that just sounds so utterly human. He is unable to make. I wonder if that would ever make him question is he really there? Is he really human? And if he is, how broken is he to the point where he can’t even cry right.

[monsters-demons-and-ai-oh-my]

I wonder if the answer to the nagging question of just how f-ed Viktor’s humanity was post hexcore when he started the commune is right there in front of us.

What if it’s just… to the same level he’s “healing” the commune?

Like the hexcore “healed” his body of it’s “broken” parts what if it did the same to his mind? (Like he did the commune).

Like it left his want to fix the world’s pain and something of his “good” traits (like care for others and base personality) but it surpressed/took his “undesirable” mental parts like it did Salo’s selfishness and Huck’s cowardice.

For instance his self-loathing, guilt, rashness, loneliness would be considered “bad” parts.

But the problem is those feelings were in part what made him stop after he did real harm (like Sky’s accidental death) so when he couldn’t feel them it would make sense he lost the empathy that made him consider what exactly he was destroying in others?

Funny thing is it failed to destroy his affection for and want for Jayce’s approval because the hexcore couldn’t wholly recognize those things as bad because their connection went far beyond a selfish human need for companionship, despite what Viktor might have initially thought when he left.

[misscaiacreates]

Avoidantly Attached: The Silent Struggle

I love you. I do. I'm just scared.

My eyes say "stay," but my heart's ensnared.

By shadows of a past that still whisper, "flee."

Your touch is a warmth I can't let be.

You call me your soulmate, but I can't take that now,

I need to heal, to cleanse, to figure out how.

To be the person you deserve, strong and whole,

Before we can truly join soul to soul.

Babe, I crave you, believe me, it's true,

But trauma's a wall that I've got to break through.

Flight mode's my default, my safety, my shield,

But for you, babe, I'm striving to heal.

Patience, my love, for the time that I need,

To untangle the chains of past sorrow and greed.

I'll run from our closeness, it's sad but it's true,

Yet know, in my heart, I'm running to you.

[hellishgayliath]

Dealing with dissociative feelings

[sweetbisscuit]

I read a post that completely opened my eyes on how I feel about jjk and the reason I was emotionally detached on how it ended and of the loss of other characters.

It wasn't because of the continuous deaths nor of the endless fightings and fast pacing of the manga but rather with the lack of fillers to provide world building and develop character relationship and interactions.

After the shibuya arc, there was no silly fillers post shibuya. Too many characters died and many new characters introduced yet there wasn't enough chapter that provided character interaction and for them to grow. Even a bonus chapter would have been fine to at least create emotional impact within the viewers (heck I would gobble up even a written note or story at the end of each manga if it happened). Without this things the characters imo felt flat, there was no depth, seeing them die or in critical conditions in the fight, I didn't even mind nor care.

Personally I would've liked to see silly interactions with other characters just joking around or story centric fillers that would have developed the world building.

[dumblr]

Detaching myself from someone I used to go crazy for >>>

[watermelinoe]

like yes totk is technically much darker than other zelda games, but is there any emotional weight to it? when the plot consists of these out-of-context cutscenes that you can collect in any random order at any point in the game (or not at all) with zero impact on the plot or link himself? somehow the silly toon zelda game managed to make toon king daphnes of hyrule's sacrifice more heart-wrenching than king rauru of hyrule's, and the toon guy was literally a boat for most of the game

[jexversea]

i stopped getting attached to things

today i broke the bracelet that i always wear. yesterday, i sold my fav books because i need money. earlier this week, i keep losing my only hairclip. a couple months ago, i sold my laptop. a years ago i broke my phone and never buy a replacement.

i don't know when or how it started but i wish i know why. that i never grief the things that i lost. it's just feel ... empty? and then life need to goes on and i just pretend i never had that thing in the first place.

but what if i lose something vital one day, something that will change the trajectory of my life. and what if i never prepare for the grief of losing things? for the pain of realizing that some things would never have a replacement. and i can't pretend that they never exist in the first place.

while remembering is really hurts, forgetting them and become detached is much, much worse.

[skitskatdacat63]

Boy King Seb :D

[icewindandboringhorror]

I know multiple of these are likely important to people, but I'm asking in terms of like - which of these do you tend to focus on the MOST, enjoy the most, that is most essential for you to actually care about the media, etc.?

(For example: someone finding "Relatability" most important would likely not enjoy a show much if they have trouble empathizing with the characters/relating to it, even if it were good otherwise. Or, someone might be able to overlook bad acting and ugly costumes, as long as the Character Dynamics are fun to them, because they value that more than Aesthetics- while for others, bad costumes would be a dealbreaker.)

Also feel free to reblog and explain your answer or more information in the tags- I've always been curious about people's relationships to media, how they conceptualize it/what they get out of it, how some people value some parts more than others, how that informs their overall taste and genres they may be more inclined towards, etc. :0c

[theartisticlibrarian]

[rei-does-stuff]

The events of the first episode with Uncle Bear probably traumatized Geumsaegi more than he’s willing to admit since it effects his whole world view and also shapes Flower Hill as a whole which in turn fuels how Geum sees things.

It’s why he doesn’t trust easily, and why he expects Bamsaegi to do the same. “You know how I got hurt and I don’t want the same to happen to you” obviously this mindset is flawed but when you’re proven right over and over again it becomes difficult to change

[mcybree]

Ok ok ok I'm not Tryna start discourse but bluestars prophecy was my first ever warriors book and bluestar will always be my favourite so I'm gonna make some counterpoints to you about her being a Smajor character

bluestar has always been led by an intense loyalty and dedication to those she loves and cares for - this includes her mum, her sister, her clan, eventually Firepaw when he joins the clan, and she has a VERY strong moral compass when it comes to doing the right thing - when she sees thistleclaw teaching tigerpaw to hurt a then baby scourge she very much discourages it and is against it

Afaik scott is Not like that, he doesn't have an emotional or love-driven moral code, he does things because they're smart decisions in the long term or because he wants to. Granted I havent seen a ton of his stuff but I have seen his limited life and 3rd life perspectives and he is very much a singular team player there, there to look after himself and well if people align with him that's great he's got allies (jimmy and Martyn) but he won't go out of his way to care for them

Bluestars defiance of starclan in the first series is BECAUSE she gave herself to them and what the warrior code demanded so much - yes she broke clan rules by having kids with crookedstar but she did everything in her power to make sure they'd have a happy life and felt terrible that thrushpelt was willing to say they were his to save her reputation. She didn't do it out of a selfish want, she only ever wanted to help her clan and those she loved, and her becoming clan leader is emblematic of that want. When she rejects starclan so wholeheartedly in the first series it's because THINGS KEEP GOING WRONG WHEN SHES TRIED SO HARD TO STOP THEM FROM DOING THAT - starclan has never cared about the sacrifices she made to keep her loved ones and clan safe, she lost her mother, her sister, her kits, her mate, literally everything, and things STILL KEEP GETTING WORSE. it's not a demand that she deserves to have everything good, it's a cry for help that shouldn't something go right after she's tried so hard???

C!Scott isn't like that. He puts himself above others and inherently believes he will get the best if he just plays his cards right, and he is good at it, he's very competent at lasting a long time in life series and getting what he wants - the ruthlessness of gem driven by desperation kills him in secret life, Martyn's complete fucking about face kills him in limited life, and I'm pretty sure it's etho who gets him out in 3rd life by luck. He doesn't plan to look after the ones he cares about, because he cares about himself first and foremost. Yeah you can argue when he doesn't get what he wants he gets annoyed, but his is less of a 'why don't I get this don't I deserve it' and more of a 'oh fuck this didn't work. Ok new plan double down on getting what I want by appeasing to people cos they're easy to read and therefore account for'

I don't doubt Scott would make a bluestar adjacent character if he made a warrior cats oc BUT his character would honestly be closer to darktail or ashfur than bluestar and that's that on that.

(sorry you activated 13 year old me's unskippable cutscene sjdjsjsjja this isnt meant to be a serious argument I just love bluestar a lot and love talking about her)

OKAY 1. this is fucking awesome thank you 2. i am going to do something new and exciting (advocate for scott instead of beating him to death with sticks) because unfortunately this bluestar info has only made me believe she is a smajor character even more.

As a general note when I talk about smajor characters as a collective here I’m referring to characters more in the realm of esmp/traffic/rats/pirates/etc, less vampire scott or necromancer scott who are intended to be villainous.

Scott characters tend to operate under a “If I am not a Good Person I may as well die” rule, and consequently abide by a strict moral code to keep themselves feeling clean. For instance: traffic Scott will never go back on his word, he will avoid dishonesty, and he won’t take from others unless he is sure that he can repay them. He will never betray his seasonal primary ally (even when they betray him first), and will often give people things just because they asked him nicely. He stakes a lot of his own identity on this, because it is through being a “good person” that he justifies his superiority (and, by extension, his own existence); in his mind he deserves the best and *is* the best because he is such a good person. When things don’t go his way, he thinks he doesn’t deserve it because he has been nothing but good, so he tries to place a reason. He often assumes that somebody must “have a vendetta” against him, even if this somebody is the world (see: him asking if limlife episode 1 boogeyman is some kind of joke played on him for not giving in to the boogey curse in Last Life.) which is very Bluestar to me, convinced that her misfortunes are a divine punishment.

This is all to say that Scott does have a strict moral code and deep sense of loyalty. Being a “good person” and devoted partner in the ways he understands it are so ingrained into what he is that I think he definitely has the capacity to be a Bluestar if he were raised being taught clan values, even if his internal systems are often built around never letting gross emotions be fully felt rather than what those emotions compel him to do.

[sentientsky]

“my child is fine”

your child intentionally trained themselves to emotionally dissociate on command when they repeated a specific phrase in their head

[joselandsallee]

I’ve finally worked up the courage to leave my emotionally abusive boyfriend of almost 3 years. ❤️‍🩹 I’m beyond ready for a new start at life, hopefully this time with clear lenses. ✨

[mizulekitten]

I love the Case of the Two Dead Dragons ep for a lot of reasons, but the scene where they're talking to Twitchy Richie, like when they first start to mess with him is just so... perfect. Like the way Charles steps up and says "Ooh, try it, mate," his crossed arms coming down. And in the following scene when it shows just Richie & Crystal it's like "What's he going to do omg."

Except Crystal tilts her head with the stupid lighter in her face and it's Edwin that goes "Don't mind if I do." And Charles just looks so enamored and Crystal and Edwin are both so pleased with themselves.

I don't know. It's just the way they're working in tandem with each other for once. Not just with one another, but exactly in step. Crystal knew, without a word, that they'd play along. Edwin could've just let Charles do his thing, especially after what he said, after knowing they kissed (even if they broke things off right after). But it's like... Crystal is a part of their team now. He may not be super close to her yet, but they're both bitches /pos that of course this is the moment they fall in step. It's a shared trait that they were using to hurt and annoy each other, but now it's a bonding moment, a crossing of that divide between them.

So of course Charles lets them have their little moment and is so happy to do so. Whether it's queerplatonic or romantic, this is his best mate for 30 years and his new best friend. He knows they'd get along in their own way if they got through it. And here they are.

Perfect sync, not just Charles and Edwin, but Charles, Edwin, and Crystal.