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I haven’t been able to write much recently because of exams, but good lord, Dr. Laurence Frost is such a guy. Like, his situation is horrific, right. He’s living a psychological horror story but does not recognize that whatsoever. There’s some real shit going on with him because I really want to capture how cults actually work, especially on the ways they prey on vulnerable people - and despite him objectively being a pretty terrible person in his own right I wanna make sure I capture the nuances of his situation accurately.
However, and this is really important: he’s also fucking hilarious.
Imagine having resting bitchface so severe even the dawn machine leaves you the definition of -_- <- having a great time. He invented a genuinely impressive treatment for migraine headaches out of love & devotion and then immediately used that same formula to torture rebels. Despite being an utter shell of grief at the time he was still a decent guardian to Bev. He let Bev play with matches. And chemicals. He’s the only man on this Geode with a smidge of self awareness. His gift for Vincent’s stag party was cosmogone laced cocaine. Vincent chose him to be the godfather of his child. His closest direct inspiration is the fucking 300% fatality surgery guy. He works two jobs. Canonically he has no friends. I love him.
#zeeposting#the hell scarred surgeon#the gregarious commander#officer beverley#you have to understand how funny this man is to me#like yes he got sucked into a cult by the only person who provided him kindness#during the worst time in his life#and then found out years later that he had been stalked & all their coincidences had been planned long in advance#but at that point he just kinda went ‘that doesn’t change anything I love you’#but. like.#holy shit he’s funny.
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tlp extra med school days where oc gets a lil jelly at doyeon n jk being close ... 🤔🫨
ok i got a little carried away.... the timeline of this is after doyeon confessed to jk in first year med school btw. and around that time oc was already (sort of) seeing eunwoo. doyeon n jk got closer, bcs doyeon confronted jk about him liking oc, and he admitted to it. lets just say they bonded over that shared secret lol. jelly oc. drunk texts. babie thinks jk got a new bff thats not her 😭😭
#this was tlp!jk's top 3 worst moments of his life btw#he died 5 times during this time#fic: tlp#tlp extras
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Started writing a fic back in early October and had to abandon it for a while due to IRL situations. But I've started working on it again little by little, and I am so excited to eventually share it with my mutuals and followers. I hope you guys enjoy it (I am trying my best to get it done)!
TBH my only motivation anymore is thinking about my friends having a good time reading it when it's finally posted (I love all of you very much). I cannot wait for all of these ideas to be fleshed-out on paper at last.
Over 16,000 words and I am nowhere near satisfied yet. I feel like I can write WAY more. Stay tuned!
#for anyone wondering the fic is dusknoir/grovyle centric but I PROMISE that I did not forget their girl Celebi#she loves them as well and they love her#but the entire thing takes place during Dusknoir's reconciliation w/ Team Wish#the doodle above is from a scene that I wrote!!#Echo and Dusknoir have lots of conversations#they are working on mending their relationship with each other#also dusknoir is holding his hands folded and out in front of him so Echo can clearly see them at all times#he knows that she's got some trauma with grabbing/touching when its w/ him specifically and he's trying VERY hard to accommodate her#in reality Echo could give a shit about him doing that for her but it's the thought that counts (she secretly appreciates it)#bonus that Sora also gets some resolution with Dusknoir too because lemme tell ya my girl NEEDS it#(scribz / fuji / zerger ) thinking about you guys each day fuels my desire to finish this damn thing so pls know that i love you#pmd eots#pmd2#my art#my fic#echo/umbreon#sora/lucario#not sure how long until this is actually posted cause my life is a horrible mess atm but I am hoping not too long!!#time to disappear back into the void because job hunting is the literal worst
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In Justice for All when Edgeworth returned and saw Phoenix for the first time, Phoenix seemed genuinely disgusted by him, thinking him a coward who only cared about Perfection just like Manfred. Phoenix probably really hated Edge for that year but all the fanworks i see are him just being like "oh miles I'm so glad ur not dead :)". Where are the twisted emotions?? Where is your rage????
that's an absolutely perfect moment to hone in on because as I've mentioned a couple of times in the past that was the exact moment where ace attorney injected itself permanently into my brain. I was fully expecting phoenix to be grateful and relieved to have Edgeworth back and offering him assistance at a time of crisis no matter how douchey he was about it, and so when he snapped instead I was completely blindsided and overjoyed. Like that was the moment when narumitsu went from Good to Superb for me because suddenly there is this entire other layer to the dynamic. I love a (un)healthy dose of resentment in any ship because I love when characters love each other despite having very good reasons not too so that bit was just. So good. Narumitsu getting the Sunshine One and Grumpy One treatment is so frustrating because phoenix has soooooo much more depth to him than that and he's my fave so it sucks to see how many people will just completely take him at face value
#I genuinely think the time period between RFTA and reunion and turnabout was#The absolute worst chunk of phoenix's life. Even worse than the disbarment.#Because when he was disbarred he at least had trucy. He has his work for the jurist system.#But during that stretch of time he had nothing and no one. He didn't even take any cases
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hey uncle nina do u happen to have that one para where u talked abt how jersey couldn't say ily during sbst and stan was like super sad abt it? i tried looking for it on ur blog but i can't find it</3
t-the...
tHE DIVORCE PARA???>?@?@?@?3/2/
YOU WANT THE FUCKDISNFN DIVORCE PARA????!!!?!?!
noooooOOOOOOoOooOo!!!!!!!!! :'(
i......Siiiigh.
goddamnit, guys. what happened to 'we hope you heal, uncle nina!' wAS IT NOT ENOUGH THAT I DIED ONCE??? I GOTTA DIE TWICE?!
but....because i love you very much, i will link it for you.
edit: oh god, i am reading it rn and it is soooo rough, i'm am so sorry. cringe. goofy aa. oof. later today, i might reopen it and just so we can suffer i will have it start mid sbst ( which, assumes i can write the smut which, no promises ) and then have it end with ravenstan leaving ( fuuuck lmao, like that fight does not even end there, we're in H-E-L-L holy shit ) because i hate my life but...anyways....
without further ado,
Please Enjoy The WORST
( and i do mean THE /WOOOORST/ )
Part Of Your Day...Maybe Your Life.
-uncle nina, who is going to request a lobotomy at her doctors appointment to forgot the divorce happened.
#yall would do this to me#right before my doctors appt#GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD#no i am so sad i am actually so sad and this is just a fragment of it the whole thing is so fucking upsetting and sad#LIKE HE WANTED TO SAY IT HE JUST CANT HE HAS TRAUMA LIKE HE MEANS IT THO HE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#it was so horrible like the second raven realizes that hes just#been saying i love you this whole time#and jersey has just been saying me too#FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK#HORRIBLE#AND DURING SBST TOO LIKE MAN WHAT THE FUCK#MID SBST LIKE THAT IS JAIL WORTHY THEY WERE HAPPY#and when i tell u ravenstan NEVER EVER EVER GETS MAD EVER you know it was GNARLY u know it ruined his life </3#lover boy king wow its so horrible bc like no one has ever loved anyone more that jk loves rs too hes just a weapon#and doesnt know how to emote and turned that part of his brain off and cant switch it back on and its scary and#dO YOU SEE HIM STRUGGLIN LIKE JK NEVER EVER EVER BEGS ANYONE AND HE WAS ON HIS HANDS AND KNEES#SCARY ASS JK LIKE SCARY AS FUCK LIKE WHIMPERING AND SHAKIN HE WAS SO SCARED HE WAS INCONSOLABLE#and it triggerin a rs bp episode and him goin out into the snow in a tshirt and shorts and Leaving which is jks WORST FEAR#like losing him AGAIN???? AND ITS HIS FAULt#help im gonna end it all if you dont hear from me im ruined#jk cried after that btw for the first time in a very long time#and he did it alone and in rs clothes knees to his chest :(
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"The newly widowed Elizabeth (Woodville) was exceptionally vulnerable. Several of the trustees responsible for her jointure refused to hand over the manors that were meant to sustain her in her widowhood. Moreover, her brother-in-law, Edward Grey, had seized estates that her son Thomas should have inherited from his paternal grandfather, while her mother-in-law’s new young husband, Sir John Bourchier, had prevailed on Lady Ferrers to settle her principal properties on them jointly for life, ensuring that Thomas would have to wait far longer for this inheritance too. Rivers and Scales were pardoned in July 1461 and swiftly moved into the Yorkist establishment, which perhaps explains the success of the chancery suits Elizabeth launched to regain her jointure. Her son’s inheritance proved harder to recover. By 1463, Rivers was often in (Edward IV's) company and on his council, but Elizabeth needed someone with much stronger influence over the King. She turned to a distant kinsman, William, Lord Hastings, the King’s chamberlain. Hastings drove a very hard bargain for his aid but it was probably amid these negotiations that the King’s desire for Elizabeth was kindled."
-J.L. Laynesmith, "Elizabeth Woodville: the Knight's Widow", Later Plantagenet and Wars of the Roses Consorts: Power, Influence, and Dynasty
#historicwomendaily#elizabeth woodville#Elizabeth really had terrible in-laws#And these people weren't even the worst of them - that particular award goes to Richard of Gloucester#As complicated as her first widowhood sounds it was a breeze compared to the literal nightmare she went through during her second.#Honestly though: part me wonders what Elizabeth's first marriage was like because we know absolutely nothing about it.#The marriage itself is a blank slate but the fact that her husband's parents & siblings were so indifferent and uncooperative#to her - and their own kid-grandchildren?? - after he died indicates that his family may have been rather dysfunctional imo?#Certainly they (or most of them) don't seem to have cared about the wellbeing or dignity of his young and newly widowed wife which#doesn't exactly suggest closeness or support during the marriage itself from their end.#Elizabeth doesn't mention John Gray in her deathbed will either though she mentions Edward IV. She may have thought it was#'inappropriate' to mention her first husband beside her significantly higher-ranked second husband...but she DOES mention her son by#her first marriage - which would have drawn attention to it anyway - alongside her royal daughter so that's unlikely to have been a reason.#Maybe it was simply the passage of time? She and John had been married for very few years and she lived such a different life after that#So it's possible that her first marriage simply seemed very distant and faraway to her.#Alternatively it may have simply been undivided affection for Edward IV (her husband of 19 years who she married for love)#which fits well into the relatively personal nature of her will.#Of course we don't actually know anything about any of this and this is all pure wild speculation on my end...but I'm curious.#It's really a shame how little we actually know about Elizabeth's life - made worse by the very limited primary records of Edward IV's#reign and the fact that his chamber records don't survive. And it's even more frustrating that this is so rarely actually acknowledged#by historians. I'd argue we know far more about the life & interests of most other 'prominent' women of the Wars of the Roses#(sans the Neville sisters) than we do about Elizabeth Woodville.
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What a difference a few years makes...
Rook at age 17-18 vs age 26 & Val at age 17 vs age 32
Not a whole lot changed appearance-wise for Rook, except for getting a few more ear piercings and a lot more scars (most of which you can't even see in these pictures). And he started wearing rings/necklaces, which you can't really see. And started wearing increasingly slutty shirts. Val also gained a scar or two, plus several tattoos. Their horns were broken when they were 17, so pre-17 they had full horns. Oh, and the eyepatch. That's a big one. And they got enough money to buy themself a big hat and a lot of fancy coats.
#ts4#the sims 4#ts4 cas#sims 4 CAS#ts4 CAS#adventures in cas#my sims#cas#oc: Val#oc: Rook#dnd sims#then and now#highly recommend making younger versions of your OCs especially if they've Been Through It in the past few years.#it's very fun to see and think about how they change over time#little baby Rook in particular is so fucking cute. I just wanna give him a hug. He's just a little baby boyyyy.#(I say as if I'm not only 2-3 years older than him in that pic lmao.)#but augh his soft little face without the scars... makes me want to scream. He was before both the best and worst of his life then. 😭#he thought his biggest problems were learning to sail and that the most family he'd ever find would be Zara. And he was wrong on both count#this is gonna post during my session with him and holy fucking shit is he going to be Going Through It.#his favorite party member and father figure died at the end of last session... Not fun.#this is actually the second father figure he's lost in LESS THAN TWO DAYS. It's so fucked. My poor baby.#and he's going to give a eulogy tomorrow and it's the most honest he's ever been in his life and that's horrifying bc man is this shit dark
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i can help you!!
#ever since rewatching bfdia ive adopted the belief that leafy and evil leafy are 2 seperate people#mostly because i realised throughout the season theyre actually both like. in DRASTICALLY different places#and evil leafy is a whole other recommended character#the way i see it is evil leafy is a poser fan who really likes leafy#sort of like b/racelety and icy but less gay and more fucked up#and i think they maybe like made a deal where evil leafy keeps leafys fellow contestants off his back#….by trying to kill them whenever they get too close to who they think is leafy. he doesn’t know about the killing part but if he did he-#wouldn’t care considering leafy himself has tried to kill his friends both before and during bfdia#if your favourite character asked you to pretend to be them during the worst time in their life to help them would you? i sure would i know#that for a fact#and that’s what the guy known as evil leafy said and that’s what’s goin on#battle for dream island#bfdi#bfdia#bfb#tpot#bfdi leafy#bfdia leafy#bfb leafy#evil leafy#bfdi evil leafy#bfdia evil leafy#odieart
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So anyways I remember Hamilton the American Musical existed
-the song You’ll be Back
Fits perfectly for Space Riders Angel and Proto
Like it is too perfect for those two
Oh my God, I just remembered my Hamilton phase way back in 2017- AHEM. That song? Is exactly them, down to the toxicity I imagine they have.
Worldwide!Angel in the Space Riders AU fleed the cult after a long time of not wanting to be there anymore. The final straw was an Hour of Joy where Angel had to take care of the planet's citizens from being hurt by the cultists, and after months of planning an escape, they did it to never come back. To me the Prototype in the Space Riders AU took this as both an offense and a direct hit to the heart (if he has one lmao), but he was always a bit possessive and controlling of our Angel. He's the kind of partner who would demand to know where you have been if he thinks something is strange, except you just did the same stuff you always do.
I stand for toxic yaoyuri and I WILL say that Space Riders Prototype thought of Angel as both his property and his tool. They were his right-hand, his greatest weapon against his enemies, his wonderful achievement. This Angel willingly let the Prototype experiment on them, which is part of the reason why they are SO good at combat in this AU, and also why they sometimes spawn a set of woobly arms on their back. Kind of like a trophy wife, depending on how you see it! Angel fleeing and using everything Proto achieve against him... Yeah, that HURT.
AND. I'LL ADD MORE TO THIS: Even after 10 years, the Prototype still thinks he can win Angel back to his side via gifts, favors or promises that he'll toooootally be better this time around, just come back to him, he'll be good, he's not going to torture people for sport anymore, he promises! Which just screams how little Proto actually knows Angel but the idealized perfect weapon he made them be for him.
I say all of this, but Prototype genuinely cared for Angel. In his own twisted and awful way, but he did care, and deep down he still does. But he refuses to change, and will never do so. Meanwhile, Angel got through the worst of the worst mental-health wise the decade post fleeing, and nowadays has a pretty decent support system that will back them up whenever things get dire!
#poppy playtime#space riders au#ask tag#ppt prometheus#in this au i read their relationship as god too egocentric to properly care x devoted follower too angry to continue their way#prototype had the worst time of his life during that divorce lmao#he's just “nonononono it cant be im SURE i can get them back”#and worldwide! angel is just 'hey space riders! want to play a prank on the cult?'
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hello... (and bye ig 👋)
#👋😭 hi...#i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone#i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭#i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh...#uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂#i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but#i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause#i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say...#i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu#it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media /#without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao#i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy#pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on#i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a#depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think#i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just#sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ????#i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become#even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it#i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it#like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi#i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda#makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd#not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what#they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling#anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀#i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say#this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel#like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭#who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡
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Me two hours ago: I should go take a shower.
Also me: [rediscovers my smalletho playlist on Spotify & listens to it in its 1hr52min entirety while backreading the smalletho tag on tumblr for the first time in months & having So Many Feelings about these idiots instead]
Anyway. Time to go actually shower.
While listening to my smalletho mall au fic playlist, of course.
#Also hey hi I've been gone quite a while#I have been Having A Time health-wise since like the last week of April#& in fact still am very much Having A Time with it#& part of that is related to not being able to take my ADHD/narcolepsy meds#(which is a good deal in part due to my insurance being The Worst)#but that does mean I am Tired As Fuck All The Time#& also having a Very Difficult time with things like#you know#Thinking. & Paying Attention.#in ways that have made being fandom & even just keeping up with my cubito videos#Really Fucking Hard#But I've been slowly working my way through my video backlog#& also watching Wild Life as much as I am able to#(Also the mall au playlist during shower time is not new)#(I have legit been listening to it every shower for like six months now)#(& every time I get SO MANY FEELINGS about it)#(So while I haven't been doing writing or posting)#(I have not forgotten about it)#(also also (& I will make an actual post about this part) I have decided I was being Silly As Hell)#(When I decided to move it to an adults only blog)#(that was stupid.)#(So it will be coming back here.)#(Anyway yeah I am back & I am so excited to catch up on things)
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so. i played trespasser and i. oh my god
#me before: solas seems so well-meaning i wonder why everyone hates him so much???#me now: I Know Now.#i knew part of the twist but not the whole thing and holy shit this has altered my perception of him so drastically#still love him as a character tho god hes so fascinating#i actually!! loved all the companions there wasnt a single one that i disliked#and that ending actually felt p gratifying i liked it a lot#esp the drama w solas :) bc my inky rlly looked up to him and cared for him before the reveal#and in general i rlly enjoyed just the. 'hi and welcome to inquisitor trevelyans worst day of his entire life' energy#like my guy was Not having a good time and he had probably his worst snap in the entire game during this bit#i love angst and suffering
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i need to explore my paldea exchange students au more bc it's basically juliana's " you're dating my lil brother now so i guess i gotta learn to get along with you " arc with kieran. she's definitely dragging his ass to hassel's classroom and making him join the art club.
#jules has the worst first impression of kieran imaginable#for a while he's just '' the kid who made flori an emotional wreck for months '' to her#her impression of them changed slightly after the underdepths but she definitely was bitter about >>>#florian getting himself severely injured for kieran's sake#i also think everything that happened between florian and bede affected how she viewed kieran#her impression of him improves during and after mochi mayhem but i feel like she'd still be wary#so it's friendship arc time ( and so helping kieran finding his love for art )#also i desperately need kieran to meet hassel he needs some supportive and attentive adults in his life#hc : (pkmn) mjverse#au : naranja exchange#mj.txt
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As promised, Death on the Ice Field
Nothing I say here will be new since the themes have been tackled plenty of times in fanfic (which I am so thankful for), but it’s still fun regardless. I feel like I usually have to put the disclaimer that this is a HitsuHina blog, because I think I will always have more to say about them.
Like Death on the Ice Field for example. It frustrates me the anime didn’t show Momo’s part here, because I’ve always believed that she was as crucial to Rangiku and Granny in setting up Toshiro on the path of a shinigami and meeting Hyourinmaru.
The way I see it, Momo was the spark, the impetus, Rangiku showed the way, while Granny allowed him to go. The special chapter, in my view, was all about awakenings or an awareness of change. It was Momo leaving which reminded Toshiro about things changing. It’s an allegory of sorts about growing up. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that perhaps this chapter also showed the start of his awareness of his budding feelings towards her (I mean there will always be naysayers and live and let live, but even without the relationship chart, I don’t think you’d blush at your sister or sister-figure no matter how close she was).
Another thing is how when he says Momo and Granny were the only ones never to be afraid of him, he says next that that’s why he likes Granny, but he doesn’t say the same of Momo. I’ve always thought Kubo excelled in his use of negative space, but that also applies to the dialogue-variant in that he seriously leaves a lot of things unsaid and interactions unexplored (Isshin reuniting with Rangiku and Toshiro, Kirio with Hiyori). It leaves a lot of room for interpretation and makes things fun for fans. Personally, I always read it as him being unsure of his feelings for Momo now, again something brought to his awareness with her leaving, a characteristic tsundere response if you could say.
He measures time by the number of years she entered the academy, and while she still smiles brightly at him - the same smile she graced him with five years ago - she no longer faces back (to Toshiro, Jurinan, take your pick) when saying goodbye the way she did the first time she left. And unlike five years ago where Toshiro just scowls and says she shouldn’t bother visiting anymore, this time he no longer keeps the pretense up, he waves back, though a bit limply because Momo doesn’t even see it, only facing forward, sure in her goal. (Be careful what you wish for and all that.)
So when Grandma says at the end that Toshiro didn’t want to make her lonely, it brings to mind what she said while scolding Toshiro that he shouldn’t say what he said because doesn’t Momo leaving make him feel lonely? He doesn’t deny it either, only pretends that everything is ok and that she’ll be back soon anyway. It’s also no coincidence, I think, that Granny wanted to talk to him right after Momo visited again. In other words, he didn’t want to make Granny lonely the same way Momo leaving made him feel lonely. But that theme of loneliness also applies to Hyourinmaru. Both sword and master would always feel lonely if Toshiro never discovered his name. And if you take Bleach Track 8 as canon (which I do because I love that Drama CD), there’s something to be said about Toshiro discovering Hyourinmaru’s name out of a desire to protect Momo, and Momo being the first to discover him discovering his shikai and subsequently calling him ‘Hitsugaya-kun’ without any prompting this time. In a way, it was a mark of growing up for Toshiro. That’s why there’s plenty of underlying themes between Hyourinmaru and Hinamori in relation to Toshiro that I love to see explored, which @rays-of-fire-and-ice does wonderfully in their fic! That theme of loneliness was also present in Momo during the Soul Society arc (and truthfully for a lot of characters) when she must have felt so isolated because of everything going on around her.
Laying it all out like this, you can really see the parallels with how Toshiro wakes up to both Momo and Rangiku, and how the line “I hear a voice” gets repeated for both Momo and his Granny. I don’t know how intentional Kubo really is with references to mythology, but it’s a fun coincidence to liken the three of them to the fates - Momo as the Maiden, Rangiku as the Mother, and Grandma as the crone - all pivotal to Toshiro’s path.
#hitsugaya toshiro#hitsuhina#hinamori momo#matsumoto rangiku#bleach#ramblings about bleach#ramblings about hitsuhina#toshiro’s granny#do we still not have a name??#I feel like someone on Klub should ask Kubo#that one moment of hyourinmaru sitting between hinamori and hitsugaya during that flower viewing party sticks with me for some reason#like why hyourinmaru?#was it a coincidence?#did he want to look after both hinamori and hitsugaya?#I can spin so many stories from that one anime moment alone#and I also cannot get over how he left his granny despite how much it broke his heart because he was harming her#but when he did the worst thing he could imagine doing to momo#he didn’t remove himself from her life#and instead reaffirmed his will to protect her#I’m sure the guilt was there and there was probably a time when he couldn’t face her#as shown when Momo says it was Rangiku and Shinji who helped her recover after FK#but if you believe they grew apart during the Aizen years and Soul Society arc#like gin and rangiku and renji and rukia#it’s nice to know that they both learned from the past#and resolved to hold on to the things dear to them#rather than letting go#to tie rather than untie#and this is why filler stuff is great for stuff like this#to know that amidst all the seriousness of war#they still do hang out and spend time together outside of work post-Aizen
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i kinda want to write a deep dive essay on silence of the lambs WRT gender and transmisogyny bc it's actually a much more complicated topic than a lot of people realise
#like basically yes the portrayal is ultimately deeply transmisogynistic and damaging#even the actor that played the character admitted that while he'd gone very out of his way to play the character not as a trans woman but#as a deeply homophobic cishet man#and done a lot of research on LGBT issues and life at the time#the trans women he met during that research told him how the felt and he ended up reaching out to the community to make amends several time#so like this isn't new discourse either-- transfems of the time didn't like it#another issue is there's a lot of lines from the book that never made it into the movie#lines that make it very explicitly clear that not only is the character not trans but that the author does not view trans people as violent#“There’s no correlation in the literature to transsexualism and violence. Transsexuals are very passive.”#actual quote from the book#and the director has also acknowledged his adaption did not drive this point home well enough and apologised profusely for that#and to be clear i don't know if the author has spoken about this#it does seem he was working with the best standards at the time but likely hadn't actually spoken at length to a trans woman before#and i think that's the real problem here#like i feel like it really speaks volumes of how transmisogyny works that like#even if everyone involved goes out of their way to actively try to avoid and debunk transmisogyny in their writing#if you don't actually spend time around trans women in real life and rely solely on impersonal “research” you're gonna shit the bed#and end up making one of the worst trans misogynistic caricatures of all time while actively trying to do the literal opposite#and i think that relates a lot to how modern transmisogyny is the way it is like all these tme ppl online supposedly trying their hardest#to be trans positive#and maybe some of them genuinely think they are#but most of them also don't have any TMA friends or peers some of them have never even spoken to a trans woman knowingly before#and also have never unpacked that#like you can do all the research you want but ultimately there will always be a level of dehumanisation and a lack of touch with reality#if you aren't actually talking to the people involved#you cannot unlearn transmisogyny without interacting with TMA people#and just because you were trying to be trans positive doesn't mean you actually were trans positive#nor does it erase the harm done
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I love the museum scene from ferris bueller so much not only cause its just great but also cause like everytime i see it i see myself and think about how special that kind of moment is
#i talk abt this often but like cause it impacted me so much#cause like i had the worst experince for my second half of highschool and my dad who also didnt like highschool understood#the importance of like taking the day off abd he'd let me skip and call me in sick and have a ferris bueller day as we called it#cause its a movie we both deeply loved and loved together#and at first id just stay at home in bed not getting up with the movie in the background and like eventually i started to do things w my da#cause my mom didnt know and she couldnt know so id go out and do things so it wasnt noticiable i was home all day#and like id walk around my neighborhood and go to musuem and movies and listen to new music and go to parks and places i hadnt been before#trying to give myself the best day show myself something good and slowly i went from rotting away to being like im taking a stand#im not letting my life unfold around me and i went out and did things i wanted to do and learned about all the things i wanted to#and was actually like involving myself in like what i wanted my future to be i went to plays and art museums and the movies#and when i see that scene i think of john huges commentary and how the museum was a place of refuge for him and so he came back to it#and put it in his movie and allowed it to be thst again and it was for arguably his like magnum opus#and that scene just fills me with such a sense of peace and nostalgia and hope and i cry everytime!#and everytime that movie is in theatres i go and see it and after its all over and i walk out and feel the sun shine on my face#everything for a moment feels like its gonna be okay and i think of my dad and the first time i saw this movie in elementary school#on one of those days he just had off and we took the day off together and how during the moment in my life everyone else was telling me#abt how important school was even when it was killing me he knew that sometimes you just had to take the day off and take it easy#and he let me everytime without questiom cause he knew what it meant and how much it meant to me
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