#dont bully me too hard

[dizzybizz]

al lsasints steret 🥺

i lvoe alll saints stereettttrahghghhhh

[cradle-of-darkness]

What have you done?

based on an idea @username8746489 had where sylvie discovered nightmare fuel for the first time on accident while getting bullied by some older kids (and pushing him further into social isolation now that he's known as "that scary kid who could summon someone's worst fear")

[ev-fav]

Questionably holy trinity of taste in men

Oscar by potato lord but not

Martin by starapture

[screambirdscreaming]

Not a coherent thesis here yet but I've been thinking lately about the dynamic of.... people who loved you unconditionally as a kid (or on the condition of being family, which is another weird dynamic) - but as you got older that became strained because you grew into someone they didn't expect and they realized that they did have conditions, actually.

I mean. There are people who had conditions all along, but just didn't mention them until you didn't meet them. And there's people who spent the whole time actively trying to mold you into someone who would meet their conditions.

But there's also people who truly didn't realize that you could grow up into someone that surprised them, that pushed their concepts of normal reasonable people. I think often because they themselves were constrained in their childhoods and mentally closed off whole worlds of options of ways people could be, without realizing it. So they thought kids just sort of naturally grew out of those sorts of quirks and eccentricities. Without realizing how much that dynamic was driven by active suppression, and how weird people could get if you just let them.

There's one such person in my life who has truly tried to grow and learn as this has come up, over and over again. And I really love and respect her for it, even if sometimes its a little exhausting to have to keep pushing at it. Keep explaining, and expanding, and not being hurt by her baseline of confusion that I'm still just.... not someone she knows how to expect. Even after all this time. But she does love me unconditionally. And for her that's the baseline, and she's willing to put in the work to expand her understanding of the world to know what it means to love me for who I am, even if it doesn't always come easily to her.

And then there's other people who run into this same tension and don't know what to do with it. They don't realize that loving you for who you are means putting in work to expand their concept of ways people can be. They don't try to overtly push you into not being like that but they keep holding out the expectation that you will, because how are they supposed to love you being like that? And of course as a kid, a teen, a young adult, you don't really have words for it either. You can feel the tension, the dissonance between the way they openly offer love to you that doesn't seem to fit, and the way they react to with confusion or distaste to parts of you that you can't change, or don't want to. Sometimes to things in yourself you can't even identify. So sometimes you make an effort to hide those things and act like they want. And sometimes you buckle down on being yourself. But neither approach really seems to fill the gap. You can't recieve affection and have it fit at the same time.

And eventually it just feels like you've sort of failed each other. By the time you have the words and self awareness to know what went wrong and where, it's too late to draw the chasm closed.

It's not too late to bridge it. But if we make this effort as adults, with the conditionality of adult relationships, you'll have to see me as I am and accept that - or be a stranger.

It's weird, to be like strangers with people who've known you your whole life.

[b1mbodoll]

repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please

[newty]

yes yes i know that gifted kid burnout is a well-documented explanation for why kids who do well in public school suddenly flounder when confronted with the stressors of adult life. it's a terrible failure of adults to prepare children for college and beyond. i saw it happen to most my peers.

but if you have so little of lived life to reference that you are 30 and still clinging to the self-righteous high of getting straight A's in fourth grade, you need to take responsibility for your own self-development and let your gifted kid identity Go

[funkbun]

do Not get me to start talking about hector/inspekta's whole deal as a character cause i will Never be able to shut up Ever

[rivilu]

ok you know. the Ellu in dav crossover au is very fun but i am a little bit enchanted by the concept of him AND Rynn at once. Best of both worlds in a sense.

[aroacesigma]

i cant take thi anymore i genuinelly cannot why the fuck am i living with someone this awful why cant i have a sister who treats people like fucking people

[twowink]

i think one thing that gets me abt kasas portrayal in the fandom in terms of angst is that people treat him like hes bottling everything up when he is. Pretty vocal about his emotions.

[wormonastringtime]

he totally doesnt have a crush haha what makes you think that

[perichuuu]

we should normalize being annoying to people that upset you in return, they deserve it and its funny to piss them off and make them feel how you felt

[prettyboydotcom]

i hate the concept of "being sent death threats online" but only because if i ever got a death threat i would just not die? like, what am I supposed to do with that? oh you're telling to kill myself? well, i don't feel like dooing that today, can you come again tomorrow?

[snekdood]

the problem is i have the loyalty and love of a dog, but not everyone deserves that