#what am i doing to deserve this like please give me a valid answer so i can fix it im so tired of being sad and mistreated and bullied :(

[b1mbodoll]

repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please

[leah-lover]

Comfort. Mapi x Ingrid x reader.

Smut 18+

You loved your job. Being a surgeon brought you glory, validation, the opportunity to help others, and make your environment proud of you. However, it introduced a great amount of fatigue, grief, and mental overstimulation.

Today was especially hard, you had lost 2 patients in the span of 3 hours. Once your shift was done, you hurried home to find any sort of comfort.

When you got home, you showered and curled up in bed immediately. Your girlfriend wasn't home yet, they still had a few hours of training. You didn't realize you had fallen asleep, you woke up gently after you felt a dip in the bed. You felt mapi’s soft touches on your hair before you opened your eyes to look into hers.

As soon as you saw her you moved closer, persuading her to open her arms for you and hold you. You situated yourself on her chest, and she positioned herself on the head board.

“ Rough day amor?” She whispered softly.

“ 2 died.” You respond.

“ Nena, it's not your fault, okay. You did your best.” She reassured you by giving small kisses to your temple.

“ Need Ingrid too please.” You ask .

“ She will come up any second now.” She responds.

She didn't lie, it only took Ingrid a couple minutes to come to your bedroom. When she enters the room you feel mapi mouth something to her. She then comes to the other side of the bed and lays next to you.

“ I am so proud of you for pushing through the baby.” She says before she too kisses your temple.

You needed more than they were giving you, but you were too shy to ask for it. Ingrid noticed you open your mouth and close it a couple of times.

“ Baby what is it?’ she asks while looking you in the eyes.

“ Nothing. It's nothing.” You say trying to shut her down.

“ You know I don't like lying.” She claps back with a stern look.

“ I don't want to be too much. I already bought this gloomy mood on you and I didn't ask you how you were doing it.” You say hesitantly.

“ Baby I won't repeat it again, what did you want to say?” She asks again without losing her serious expression.

“ I need more of you. I want more from you.” You say looking in her eyes.

“ Maria, I think our love doesn't know how much we love her.” Said Ingrid to Maria.

“ Yeah the hesitation to ask us for attention isn't something that should happen again I don't think.” Answered Maria from behind you.

“ I think she deserved to be taught a lesson about how much we love her, no?”

You see the world flying between them without any of them opening their mouths.

You then feel mapi slide from behind you leaving only the pillows to support your body. You reposition yourself only for Ingrid to hover on top of you.

“ Hi.” She whispers before giving you small sweet kisses. She knew that when you were in this state it was easy to overwhelm you. She wanted to move as slow as possible at first.

She gradually moved faster, more dominant, and hungrier for you. You moved at her pace tugging her body more on top of yours needing something to grind on as your core becomes more greedy.

Ingrid then moves to your neck leaving bruises and pink spots all over it. She helps you strip off your shirt and bra before moving to care for your breasts, giving each one as much care as you wanted. She doesn't leave any part of your body unmarked, or kissed, or touched. Your mouth hadn't been closed since she started, allowing for the smallest moans and whimpers to escape your lips.

Ingrid noticed your back starting to arch so she asked you her usual question.

“ What do you want, baby.” She asked looking up at you.

“ You.” You whisper breathlessly.

“ More words Nena.”

“ I want your mouth on me and your fingers inside me.” You whisper shily.

Inggrid didn't wait any longer doing exactly as you say.

She put her mother on your clit and pumped 3 fingers inside of you. With both being on the same rhythm you were quick to become a mess. Your moans were getting louder by the minute. “ Can I come please please please?” You ask Ingrid.

“ Don't ask me “ she responds before resuming her actions.

You look over the room trying to find maria. You find her on the couch adjacent to your bed. She was naked, her hand massaging her breasts, her legs wide open, and her core dripping. She was laser focused on Ingrid who was between your legs while touching herself.

“ Mapi, please can I come please.” You beg her.

“ Only if you moan my name while coming.” She demands.

After hearing that Ingrid sped up her pace. You start to uncontrollably moan Maria's name louder and louder before you come.

You were blissful when you came back down from your high. When you opened your eyes you found Ingrid making out with Maria. Maria wants to be as loud as you. She quietly.

You noticed mapi putting her strap on after she was done and started to look at her with worried looks.

“ I know you are sensitive today baby. This is for the princess.” She resured you.

Feeling cold you put on Ingrid's shirt which was tall because she was.

You moved to the side allowing for more space to the couple.

They start making out again In Front of you, Maria playing with Ingrid's hair after releasing it from the ponytail it was on.

They were both standing on their knees, whispering words to each other you couldn't hear. You loved seeing them act like the couple they were before you came. They have a deep sense of understanding of one another without letting you feel left out.

Maria then flips Ingrid so that her strap lines with Ingrid's ass. Ingrid throws her head on Maria's shoulder when she starts inserting her strap in her. Ingrid went loud either she just moved her mouth without making any sound as mTia worked her way inside of her. Your eyes never left them as Maria worked her way harder and faster inside Ingrid soliciting a few moans from her.

“ Enjoying the show amor.” Asks maria.

“Uhmm.” You respond, your mouth open.

“ I want to come mapi '' Ingrid didn't bed Maria but when she demanded to come the former allowed her.

“ Look at our baby while you do.” She said,

Ingrid looked eye contact with you as she fell forward after her orgasm hit her.

Maria them disposed of her strap and next to you. She opened her arms for both you and Ingrid. You both simultaneously lay on her chest.

“ Are you okay?” Ask you, Ingrid.

“ Yeah.” You respond.

“ I love you “

“I love you too “ they both say at the same time.

[madamejadex]

Hi, miss Jade. I’m an anon of yours but I’m here completely anonymously because you know who I am by emoji and I’m kind of ashamed with this.

I get this guilty, empty feeling in my chest when I don’t get praise/attention from others for a certain amount of time, and it makes me feel like a terrible person. I feel like I can’t love myself unless I’m validated by someone else.

It’s put me in some bad situations, where ill maybe enter a scene with a ‘domme’ on here and once it’s over I don’t get any aftercare or anything, which in turn just sets me back, but I don’t learn and I do it again and I feel like I’m so far in sub drop and it just keeps happening and I don’t know. I feel worthless and used but not in a good way.

I don’t want to be like this but I do not know how to change it, I just want to feel important and not only when I’m giving that part of myself away to someone. I just want to be loved.

I’m sorry to drop this, it’s okay for you to not reply.

Oh, sweetheart... Please don't feel like you have to apologize for bringing your heart here. There is nothing wrong with needing to be seen. Nothing wrong with wanting to feel important.

You’re not weak. You’re not selfish. You’re just hurting. And when we’re hurting, we sometimes reach for connection in ways that feel good in the moment but leave us empty after. I understand that, truly, I do. You’re not alone in this pattern, and you’re not damaged for falling into it. But my darling, what I need you to hear now is this:

You are not disposable. You are not just a scene. And you are not only lovable when you’re giving your submission away.

That hollow ache you feel when the attention fades? That isn’t neediness, it’s the ache of unmet care. Of your heart telling you, "I want to be held, not just played with." That ache is asking you to slow down, to listen, to stop giving pieces of yourself to people who haven't earned them.

You said something that stopped me:

“I just want to feel important and not only when I’m giving that part of myself away.”

And yes. That’s the truth of it, isn’t it? That’s the piece that matters most. And sweetheart, I’m telling you right now, you can’t wait for someone else to build that truth inside you. You have to start choosing yourself, even when it’s hard. Especially when it’s hard.

If you’re not getting aftercare, if your scenes leave you feeling used in the wrong way, and if you're constantly crashing emotionally... that isn’t healthy. And that isn't how scene should feel like.

So I want you to start small. Start by choosing you even when you're aching to be chosen by someone else. Pause before you give your submission. Ask: – Do they know how to care for me? – Do they respect my need for aftercare? – Do they see me as a whole person, or just a fantasy?

And if the answer is no, then my darling… they do not deserve your submission. No matter how good the high feels at the start.

You are allowed to want care. You are allowed to need affection and reassurance and attention. But you also deserve to learn what it feels like to love yourself without having to be undone first.

And you don’t have to figure it all out today. You just have to want better for yourself. That’s the first step. And I already see you taking it.

I’m here. I see you. You’re not too much. You’re not a burden. You’re a soft, brave, beautifully open soul who’s trying to learn how to stop surviving and start being held.

Start with that. Start with you. 🤍

xo Miss Jade

[heart-of-the-morningstar]

hi! this is regarding the rant you made about dating (feel free to answer privately or delete, this is just my two cents):

as someone who is in the aspec spectrum , i totally understand how you feel and your feelings are completely valid!

its really hard to find people out there that want genuine love and not just try to jump your bones immediately. but, that doesnt mean theres anything wrong with you in the slightest.

overtime, i understand how if it feels like a lost cause or your simply just helpless. but just trust me when I say dont settle for less because you deserve the world! anyone who doesnt give you their all, you honestly shouldn’t even give them the time of day

i know a lot of people who felt similar and settled for people and now they hop from meaningless sexual relationships that dont satisfy them. it feels good for awhile, but it hurts to see my friends be used and watch them lose their smile.

please dont lose your smile!! its gorgeous!!

your prince or princess charming is waiting somewhere for you, you just need to find them

oh and as for the waiting until marriage thing, i get it, i dont think its old fashioned. i think its sweet! im honestly probably going to wait until marriage (after a horrible experience bc damn i am not counting that as a first time) just because i want to make sure my partners all in before doing something thats extremely vulnerable and requires trust

anywayy uhh sorry this is all over the place

moral pf the story is your not alone and dont give up!! you are a beautiful, kind, talented person that deserves someone who loves and respects you!

i wish you luck on your journey to find love! 💕

Thank you for your message <3

I didn't mention this in my previous post, but one of my absolute biggest fears is getting pregnant (I am heteroromantic). And I'm someone who does not want children. Thinking about that gives me such intense anxiety. Why would I risk being in a physical relationship with someone who doesn't care or respect my wishes? Sure there's protection, but it's never 100% guaranteed to work so why would I take that chance?

If someone is willing to wait for me, that shows me that they truly do care about me and my well being and respect me as a person. I shouldn't have to give up any part of me for someone. I say this all the time though; as soon as I'm married, they will not be able to stop me from pouncing on them any chance they give me lol.

And thank you for your kind words. I promise not to lose hope, and I promise not to settle for anything less than what I deserve. I'm hoping you can find your special person too someday <3

[laindtt]

Hello everyone, I hope you're doing fine!

I'm making this post because for several days now, many people around Tumblr (including me) have been receiving every day many asks and private messages from people asking for help from Gaza.

I reblogged most of the messages after checking if the link of their campaign is actually vetted (= actually on the list of the blog the person is claiming to have submitted their campaign to), doing some reverse image search or even suggesting to them to vet their campaign, trying not to spread scam links. Despite my efforts, it seems that more than ever, scam bots and misleading campaigns are spreading around Tumblr.

So far, I've considered that a vetted campaign was a valid and legitimate one, but the honesty of vetting blogs like GazaVetters has been recently called into question. I don't know if the problem is the same for other blogs like gaza-evacuation-funds, I don't even have solid sources documentating what happened and in which extent vetting blogs have become problematic. I have found some posts asking few months ago not to reblog campaigns vetted by GazaVetters anymore, and then saw this same person recently reblogging campaigns vetted by this blog ; I've also read that GazaVetters were "cleaning" their list, explicitely notifying which accounts claiming to be vetted by them are actual scammers, but I don't know how far they got in this process, or even if they can be trusted anymore.

I've started to feel more and more uncomfortable with this question lately: are all the vetting blogs deceiving, or just some of them? Which ones? Are there any real campaigns at all? Can I trust posts saying than many people from Gaza are using the same posts/messages because they're struggling with English? Am I being dangerously naive, even if I don't send money, as I reblog their asks and thus risk confusing other people? Where can I find reliable info about that to properly select the real asks?

The point is that I really want to help people from Gaza, but as time goes by, I feel that the safest way to do it is to talk about the work of NGOs in Gaza, and nothing more. It's heartbreaking because I'm sure that among this massive amount of bot accounts and scams there are real messages from Gazans sincerely looking for help and trying to get our attention: 90% chance to receive deceitful asks doesn't mean at all that the remaining 10% don't deserve to be shared as widely as possible, considering the absolute horror of the situation in Gaza.

I feel like a heartless person here but as long as I don't have a clearer vision of what is going on with the asks on Tumblr, I'll delete all the asks and won't answer any new private message about Gaza. I don't want to participate in giving visibility to liars, thieves and abusers. I'm deeply sorry for the real Gazans who'll try to contact me bona fide, I have no better solution for now and sincerely hope that we'll find a more effective way to prevent us from scammers than simply blocking everything and everyone.

If anyone knows vetting blogs with solid infos about their work and reliability, or has any useful info on this global matter, please feel free to share! I guess I'm not the only one really confused here and not knowing who/what I can trust anymore.

And, of course, my apologies to anyone who would have been offended by the asks/links I've reblogged so far. My goal is obviously and absolutely not to spread misinformation on Tumblr, or make you give your money to scammers/dangerous criminals. And I'm still convinced that Gazans need all the help we can send them.

[irritablepoe]

you don’t need to apologize for giving me long answers. i like hearing you talk and if anything i want to understand you better, so long explanations are always appreciated. by all means please ramble on. what else am i supposed to read when the people in my phone don’t share every single stray thought they have with no filter.

but yeah… i completely get how addicting the tumblr support system can be. it’s such a huge help when you have no one else, i feel you on that front, but becoming dependent on it is tough too… i only managed to get better at dealing with my emotions without outward validation by deleting my account, essentially cutting myself off and forcing myself back into isolation. and i still fell back into the same patterns every time i signed back up and regained a substantial following (with less frequency each time, as i said i got better at it, but still not a method i’d recommend).

Okay that's good thank you 💜🙏

Ah I see, I attempted to deinstall the app but it's too easy to log back on and I've been thinking many times about deleting my account and to start over. I really wanna start over and befriend my mutuals again and do it "right" this time and be someone they deserve and interact and have fun and all that, but yeah I think it wouldn't help and it'd probably end just the same way again. It's fucked up and so so difficult and I feel so guilty about it (which also doesn't help), bc I don't want y'all to think I'm just here to seek support, that's not true I've met such wonderful people on here that I admire. And bc of that I feel more comfortable to open up here, especially bc I struggle a lot with my family atm and I'm upset at a lot of things they do which I can't speak to them about ofc - and then it spirals out of control. Idk what to do bc depriving myself of that would strip away the support but also I'm using that support in an unhealthy way even if it's given to me voluntarily. Anyways I'm walking in circles here, but yeah it's hard and I'm digging my own grave with it. I'm shaking crying throwing up each time I'm having a crash out and I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop ... which it did now. for one of my friends at least - and that just confirms to me that people should better take their leave before I suck them dry of whatever good will they have. I so wish I could be cheerful and interact with people like one does on tumblr but I just can't. I'm already way too backed into a corner and think everyone is just waiting for another wrong word to hit the unfollow/block button. I can't send asks, I can't reblog things from my mutuals, I barely even like things anymore bc I'm fucking scared. But I also know that this is probably also driving people more and more away. It's all stupid, I'm stupid.

Hhhhh well anyways. Sorry again, and thank you for your asks anon and I hope things will continue to get better for you, you deserve it💜🙏 also thank you for listening fr 💜

[free-luigi-mangione]

Why do you guys take this as if im shitting on luigi and rooting for his death LOL. I stand with luigi, but it’s good that we acknowledge and prepare ourselves for his fate. You really think they caught a random person that coincidentally was estranged from their family for half a year, went missing, had a backpack full of items that make sense in this murder, similar looks from hostel image and cab, exact gait as the murderer, and the confirmed journal entry discussing the healthcare system??? Really guys? Come on. It’s important we continue what he started. Not the murder itself but the message.

While anon is correct about death penalty being abolished in NY, Pam Bondi is asking to seek it to the full extent for luigi. On her part, she was dumb to not say alleged, given she’s a public figure and should state things legally. But trump ks in office guys, he’s an elite just like any CEO, he’s definitely going to take any measure when luigi gets convicted. I’m not saying alleged because 1) im anon and not a public/political figure 2)my OPINION, I DO however, say he’s innocent until proven guilty. Because everyone deserves the presumption of innocence, but it’s quite obvious he’s the one who did it.

I live off government assistance, I can’t afford any top grade insurance, why the fuck would I be a boot licker? You have no idea what insults you’re throwing around. I can’t even work because of my mental disorders, the same people who preach kindness and peace are the same ones to attack you the second you don’t agree with them on something. How ironic. I have mutuals that went to UPenn the same time as luigi and they all ofc had great things to say about him, but some were close with his best friend Matt and have more personal details that I will not be sharing but it all connects, unfortunately. I know me saying this sounds false, but I’m aware some of you guys deep dive into Luigi’s life and will know who im talking about if you really dig, I guess.

Free luigi. He needs help. He needs to leave this country and find peace without murdering an innocent (Brian was not a murderer, just because he holds a CEO title, does NOT mean HE directly declines every claim. Please do your research for that before attacking me.) And yes he deserves a fair trial, but let me tell you, it’s NOT going to be pretty. I bet he’s going to do a plea deal or admit his guilt like a certain criminal…

well, the way i answered was based on how you spoke in those asks. so it's not my fault i guess. you will get exactly what you give here. i can't help that. *shrugs*

i can say everything you said is perfectly valid and is a perfectly sane opinion to have, except one thing. i will say that you're so wrong when you're saying the dead ceo is innocent. Hitler also personally didn't send every single person who died in the gas chambers or in transportation to the concentration camps, but he did 100% device all the plans that made that happen and basked in the glory of the genocide that he was the mastermind of. it's the same thing with the dead ceo, maybe he didn't deny healthcare of every single person by himself, but he still sat on his ceo throne and overlooked a system that was actively denying essential healthcare to too many people to count and he was basking in the glory of this deeply evil act by earning over ten millions per year and not giving a single flying fuck over whether people died because they were being denied healthcare because of his policies and other policies he enabled. so yes, that dead ceo was just as much as a murderer as Hitler was, at least in my eyes. and i am sorry to tell you that most people (around the world) would agree with me on this. altho whether most of those uwuified americans would agree with me or not is a different matter, because y'all seem to be desensitised to a whole host of things that people of no other country (at least the democratic ones) are desensitised to. but i think it's fair to say that everybody around this part of tumblr would agree with me, so you're on thin ice if you attempt to call the ceo innocent again.

[marvelstoriesepic]

emoji ask time

please don’t think i’m a stalker hahah but i picked out a bunch of questions

⛔ ✨ 🍦 💌 ❌ 👀 📚

Oh wow!! Thank you so much for this!! I will do my best to answer them all. I don’t think you’re a stalker, dear, don’t worry haha. I love you for this! Glad to know you are interested 🫶🏻

⛔️ Do you have a fic you started, but scrapped?

I do have quite a few of those, actually. Sometimes I'll start something with a burst of inspiration, but then I hit a plot snag or just lose momentum, or my private life gets in between and I don’t know how to pick it up again, so the story gets abandoned. I haven’t deleted them, though, so perhaps there’s a chance I will come back to them one day.

In fact, I have a completed college au fic sitting in my drafts right now that I finished about two months ago. I haven’t posted it because I'm somehow not thrilled with the title and the banner and I'm kind of disappointed it ended up being under 5k words. So it’s just been lingering there untouched. Those little details can really throw me off, unfortunately.

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it.

Well, I love exploring different AU's, bringing variety to my stories. And I believe I manage to capture the essence of each au quite effectively. Also, as an actress and a natural empathic person, I guess I am pretty good at connecting with a character’s inner world and understanding their emotional landscape. So that helps me bring across their feelings and motivations while writing them. (But I do sometimes get lost in all that inner monologue lmao)

🍦What’s the sweetest fic you’ve created so far?

Ahh I love that question!! I believe it might be my little Drabble Five days, Five bouquets. That’s just a whole lot of fluff and Bucky being the sweetest.

💌 How do you feel about comments and feedback?

I absolutely love getting comments and feedback. It’s what keeps me going as a writer - especially fanfiction writer. It’s one of the most rewarding things. I get so happy when someone connects with my work and they take the time to share their thoughts and feelings!! It validates all the time and effort I put into my stories, and it makes me feel like I'm not just writing into the void.

Honestly, I rely on those comments to keep me going. There are days when I'm feeling uninspired or unsure of myself, and a kind word or a thoughtful observation can completely turn things around. I always get so giddy when reading such lovely words wow. I know I probably shouldn’t depend on external validation too heavily, but the truth is, it’s incredibly motivating. It’s like a conversation with my readers, and that connection is what makes writing feel so meaningful. I am very grateful for anyone who takes the time to write a comment and just knowing that they have taken time out of their day to share this with me makes me feel like I am doing something right, and I appreciate it so much. I always try my best to show my love to everyone who gives it to me 🩷

❌ What’s a Trope you will never write?

You won’t ever see me writing a/b/o fics. I also won’t be writing love triangles, or something with a dark character. All of that is really not my thing and I'm uncomfortable with it, but I totally respect anyone who likes it!!

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip

I am currently working on a series with pirate!bucky and fairy!reader and I already shared a small snippet with you guys. It’s turning out to be a little longer so I will definitely not be able to post it as a one-shot.

I also started another fic that is boxer!bucky and medicalstudent!stark!reader where her father Tony owns a prominent fitness company. And to gain some practical experience and apply her medical knowledge, she volunteers at one of her father’s gyms, assisting and treating the athlete’s injuries. And that is where she meets Bucky, the gym's newest boxer.

📚 Would you ever want to turn writing into a career?

God, this would definitely be a dream. But it does seem a little daunting, though. My sister has been encouraging me to publish something, which is incredibly sweet, but I don’t feel ready for that yet. Perhaps in a few years, when I have gained more experience and confidence as a person and in my writing, and maybe after I have established myself in my current career path, I will feel more comfortable with the idea. It’s something I definitely aspire to, but I want to approach it strategically and at my own pace.

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This turned into quite a ramble and I hope you’re still with me. I got a bit carried away here and I apologize, but I genuinely appreciate you showing such interest in getting to know me. It’s truly valuable and meaningful to me! Thank you so much!! 💖💖

Fanfic Writer Emoji Ask

[cowedeakamatsu]

Ahem Ahem. Welcome everyone to yet another cowede peptalk about themselves cos... lets face it i have an issue. (part final)

Now another (shorter digression) ? I have an alter ego for when im in cowede is the fucking best mood. an alter ego that ironically was inspired (and adapted to my vision) of some stuff X did. that alter ego is catichi. catichi is factually a brat, they are so adorable the universe will bend to his will and nobody could ever told him no, so pervy that he will fuck at lightspeed while making the lewdest sounds and faces ever known to man said universe while they bent. he knows it, and he LOVES it. and through him i'm loving it too. basically if i play catichi ? i'm having a total blast, buuuut i'm also probably going to stress overthinking and worry i make it a bad experience for my partner because of what X had on me. so i decide "fuck it, you know what ? this statue quo sucks, ima let out the catichi" coincidently at that time pen decided after realizing that yes, novelai cost money, thers other solution but they even require a veeeery good pc and time to learn how to do it, or have veeeery... subpar quality (or that one thing that @makoto-naegi-stud-and-friends found that i cant quite remember, i'll let you tell them you stud) so they decided to create @filthypen ! and their blog ? pretty damn great! super lewd, stll have stuff to learn but its a fun read and cool funny kinks, we also started rping and while we dont get eye to eye on writing style yet because of a core difference in our writing style, the rp is fun! + it feels like i can teach someone some stuff i learned in my relatively long career of shit smutt writing. so i decided to adopt the catichi persona with them, cos it makes me feel good. aaaand thinking that this status quo suck, i decided to also take that persona with X. trying to share positivity. result ? constant super cold response from X i try to engage in some stuff, give them stuff to say but they dont, which being in my boots is reading like "i dont care that youre having fun, stop doing that, and get back to being the one who does tremendous effort". Since they are overobssesed with cucking, probably because theyre either secretely a boy with a micro penis who needs to be validated as an alpha, or because they suck at anything socialy and wants to be glorified (which i both get and dont judge, to be clear) I decide "hey, lets do a funny thing where i act even more like a brat because catichi mode, and I say that i'm so much better (in a lewd catichi way (if u know u know)) that i'll probably make X get cucked when their thing is cucking people". and they took it bad, like emotionally bad. and at this point ? i was fucking done, I finnaly let out my frustrations in a huge message (not as huge as all those, like... 2000 characters ? around that, it all fit into 1 discord message) and i tell them i wont block them (because they already used 4 times before the "please dont leave me i have fear of abandonement" WHICH SPOILER BITCH, EVERYONE HAS) but that i'll come back when theyre an actual good person that does effort and STFU. it was followed by them writing a total of 48 messages of pure insults (some in russian) and denial that any of this was their fault because "they have dimentia" and how im a stuck up bitch that does no effort because I DARE ask them to do long response, they also go in a sideline about paranoid unrelated stuff like being watched constantly as an excuse for leaving half ass answer all the time and to be fair i just quick read through and didnt care. they also came to my dms and had a mental breakdown before finnally blocking me. And man it feels GOOD. i have just One message to say : if you have really dimentia X ? I am sorry... except i am not, wanna know why ? because youre nothing but a BITCH. a whinny, INCAPABLE, STUCK UP BITCH, that Cant do shit on their own, Will die alone, miserable in paranoia, and will have deserve every single fucking moment. You are not a good person. You are nothing, unimportant, and if what you show is what you are ? nobody will miss you. ever.

[halsteadlover]

I am 28, never had a boyfriend, never had sex or had any guy interested me that wasn’t drunk, I look like Miss Trunchbull from Matilda merged with a widows peak like Mickey Mouse and merger again with Susan Boyle, I kid you not… I have so many wants and desires for my future, I want to marry and have children, I want a good man and true love, I want to have sex with a man who wants me, I want three kids of my own… I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m tempted to move to somewhere new, but I am someone who seems to be unlikeable and unable to have friendships like anyone else regardless of hard I try it just seems that everyone ghosts me or leaves me in some way. I’m tempted to get plastic surgery to change how I look, to change my hair and get rid of my widows peak too… I just don’t know what to do anymore

First of all I apologize for answering now but I literally just saw it 😭 this ask really broke my heart, I understand how you’re feeling and I know that you won’t believe any words I’ll say but I’ll try it anyway.

Your feelings are completely valid and you have the right to desire a family, kids, a person who loves you and you deserve to live those wishes and I really wish you’ll get to experience them soon. But trust me please trust me when I say that the right person will see you for YOU. You may ask yourself how is this even possible but what you see as flaws and imperfections, the right person will see them as the most beautiful and most magnificent things they ever seen.

It’s a really hard thing to do and so easy for me to say, but the first step is to learn how to love yourself. Don’t be hard on yourself. Who the fuck cares you’re 28? Nobody cares about age and things like that and you shouldn’t too and the right person I kid you not won’t care. Everyone is different and life moves at its own pace for everyone. Every single person on this planet is waiting for their time and yours will come too I promise.

It’s not your fault if stupid ass people ghosted you I really hope you’ll get to understand it one day. They are shitty as people and please believe me when I say they didn’t even deserve to have you a day in their shitty ass lives.

Like I said I know these words won’t solve a thing and it’s hard, trust me I know, but I hope you’ll love yourself enough that when you look yourself in the mirror you’ll just see someone who is worthy of everything good that god might give you. You deserve it sweetheart!

You’re so beautiful inside and out ❤️

I’m sending you so many hugs and so so so so much love and whenever you want to vent I’m always here❤️

[questionableagonyy]

💖It’s okay to feel overwhelmed by everything that’s going on. Life can be incredibly tough, and sometimes it’s hard to see a way through. Please remember that your feelings are valid, and it’s okay to not have all the answers right now. You’re not expected to carry this burden alone—there are people who want to help, who want to listen. You are worthy and loved. Your life has value, even when it’s hard to see it, and you deserve to have someone walk this path with you💖

whoever you are, i hope good things come your way. i know you mean well, and your words are so kind, and i hope you know that even a simple act like this can really help someone struggling (me included). thank you sm

i also dont want to give you false hope, or myself for that matter. i got diagnosed with depression over five years ago, and i have done nothing but struggle for a long, long time. yes, i am medicated, no, it isnt helping. its an unfortunate situation that i wouldn't wish on anyone, which is partially why my asks are open to anyone, even just to vent.

even so, an ask like this is really nice. it gives me a little more hope, knowing that there are people like anon here out in the world, doing what they can, so thank you

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Thoughts I had during TGCF S1 Ep 12

Ok then, last Episode of Season 1 let’s make this though reaction compilation count!

-We are back in Puqi village folks

-Ooooh pure domestic moments!!!!

-I freaking love how Xie Lian says ‘The Crimson Rain Sought Flower’ Howard Wang’s voice could act as my new sleeping aid

-No he hasn’t called him ‘his highness’ throughout this whole

-Oh yeah San Lang does treasure you dude

-Heck Yeah he was your groom, and I even officiated that ceremony in my first reaction! (I’ll type that iconic quote near the end of this Episode peeps!)

-It’s totally the first possibility ‘nuff said

-Never change San Lang, never change

-It was the lack of the heartbeat in Ep 9

-Hua Cheng didn’t strike fear into my heart as well

-Oh Pot!Yue unintentionally cockblocked em!  Pot + Ban Yue = Pot!Yue

-She’s rolling own her own and he opened the door for her!

-She got herself upright in the pot!

-Ban Yue’s in their custody my heart. (MXTX you probably won’t see this but Hua Cheng and Xie Lian have been through so much in that 8 book series, please let them be parents!!!  That’s just my prayer that probably won’t get answered)

-She still calls him ‘General Hua’

-I don’t think Pei Xiu’s a bad person either

-Ban Yue deserves all the head pats!!!!

-Don’t worry he does forgive you after what you’ve done

-Oh Xie Lian gets flustered at his past dream being brought up in front of San Lang

-Aw San Lang still likes his past goal!

-The way Ban Yue moves in the pot it’s so cute!!!!

-She was so young and innocent AAAAAHHHH!!!

-Honey I don’t even think you were being dramatic for a minute when you were a soldier

-And now she made the pot hop!

-Ban Yue my beloved!

-I love how I’m good at remembering stuff like Ban Yue

-I don’t think it’s nonsense at all honey, I think you’re amazing in whatever personality you display right now the good ones and the bad ones - prolly me and Hua Cheng’s opinions on Xie Lian, for HC it’s romantic, but for me it’s platonic

-Facepalm

-Awwww Baby Ban Yue

-At least it put an end to the war

-What have I been doing all this time either???  Aww man…

-Ban Yue, I think you should keep living despite all the mistakes you’ve made… other than that I also don’t know the answer like Xie Lian

-And Ban Yue’s now watching the moon and stars outside

-Aww San Lang got concerned!

-San Lang is dropping facts people

-San Lang is touch starved again!!! It’s official!!!  I am a Touch starved!San Lang truther TGCF fandom!!!

-Oh yeah it does look nice Xie Lian

-Oh you’ll see the real him, soon enough dude

-Oh no the Vegetable stir fry got overcooked!  I am not even gonna touch it when it’s all purple and blanched!

-Later that night

-And there was only one bed!  Oh my gods there was only one bed!!!!!!

-Ghosts are more freer than Heaven is

-Best boss ever!!!  San Lang obviously

-Hua Cheng really did make a name for himself among the other Ghost Kings

-Oooh he’s giving Qi Rong a bad name and defeated him good!

-More about Black Water later folks

-Aw man the way James Cheek says bologna, Wait a minute how do the Chinese know about bologna sausage, Ah right the Silk Road (I just like to imagine TGCF takes place around the time of the Silk Road capiche?)

-That’s cause they’ve got a ton of officials up there

-Oh yeah San Lang, valid stick it to all those gods

-They really do have the vibes of two concerned fathers (see what’d I tell ya, Hualian is just pure paternal material)

-Aww he liked his goal about saving the world!!!! AAAHH

-Aww and Xie Lian got all embarassed at his compliment

-Oh that was a really good opinion from San Lang!   He doesn’t think his goal is foolish at all!!!

-“What was life?”   My whole ass answer:…42?  (You guys’ll get the reference in the comments)

-Ohohoho now Xie Lian moved in closer!

-Honestly Xie Lian’s quote about him becoming someone’s new meaning in life does speak a lot about us as a society when looking up to famous living people like celebrities and what not

-I think he might be sitting next to you Xie Lian

-Well said, San Lang

-Their interactions added at least 8 years to my lifespan

-Oooohhhh!  Xie Lian talked about setting up boundaries

-Aww Xie Lian will love him no matter if he’s hideous or a monster he really does have the best standards from Ep 9!

-See boundaries!

-“I don’t buy it!  Good night!”  Awwww Xie Lian’s hot when he’s mad

-Oh he withdrew his hand when Xie Lian moved away

-Another Reason why Hualian works so well is that San Lang also Respects!  Xie Lian’s!  Boundaries (Yep still not getting involved with the Helluva Boss drama folks)

-Hua Cheng my beloved

-Oooh it was raining!

-Oh No San Lang’s gone

-Ban Yue’s back inside

-Ooooohhh what’s around Xie Lian’s neck

-It’s official!  That looks like an engagement ring people!

-Dude pass me the Aux cord!  Ya better not be playing mainstream garbage *Puts on Hong Jue at full blast and vibes like no tomorrow!*

-That confirms it he has seen Hua Cheng’s true form

-This line’s from my very first reaction post at the start of this season:  I now pronounce you both husband AND husband you may now kiss the gro-  I mean, bride!  (I should officiate more weddings as a living!)

-Aiaigasa! As a flashback one last time!

-Oh he’s running back to see if he returned inside!

-Get used to it people, this is just how he says ‘Gege’ in English, and honestly it’s kind of grown on me so no judging please!

-I wasn’t kidding when I said the kid Xie Lian saved would be important later on, called it~!

-It’s like they’re running towards each other AAAAAHHH!!!

-He really did paint him in his glory days

-Welp, see you guys later for Season 2!

-Ah the freaking rescue parallels

-*Casually continues to keep playing Hong Jue while wrapping up this whole reaction

-Man this was a long one!

Well that was Season 1.  I’m going to take a long break from doing these reaction posts, because I have an upcoming final project to complete in art, and I’ve got Christmas gifts to make.  So I’ll update the Thoughts I had on TGCF series once Season 2 finishes airing in Chinese and English See ya next time!

[sieglinde-freud]

6) Who's your favorite lord/protagonist?

10) A character you find underrated?

11) A character that deserved better?

12) A game that deserved better?

15) What are your favorite musical tracks?

16) What's your favorite world/setting?

30) Since horse abuse is currently popular on Tumblr, beat up a dead horse with your take on an oversaturated topic🐴

6. Favorite lord/protagonist?

answered already, but briefly its lucina and then the sacred stones twins tied :)

10. A character you find underrated?

i think kjelle flies under the radar a lot because she comes off as just one of those character who just trains all the time and like. im not gonna say thats wrong exactly? she can be annoying to read sometimes, thats true. but i dont know, i personally really like how they took her character. obviously, im biased, awakening second gen is my favorite cast in fire emblem and shes included in that, but the obvious backstory of coming from a ruined timeline already does a lot to elevate her higher up for me if you just. consider her thinking from that perspective. but i also really like her “strong vs weak” mentality she has going on. i dont agree with it, but i like that she has it. obviously shes lost a lot, so wanting to put up a strong front and act like she doesnt need anyone weaker than her as a way to protect herself from losing more is a really fun way to take a character from a backstory like that, and its fun to see how that manifests in her supports with the others. she spends a lot of time looking down on them, which can admittedly be boring to read, but if you dig into her a bit more, is it really because she thinks theyre pathetic? or does she want to cling onto what strength she has and push them away so they dont have to? does she really think theyre weak? or is she jealous of their strength to indulge in frivolity while they have it while shes too scared to do so?

also shes pretty and im not immune to women who could beat the shit out of me

11) A character that deserved better?

NYX…. NYX FIRE EMBLEM… GIRLLL IM GONNA GET YOU OUT OF THAT STUPID DARK MAGE OUTFIT! nyx is honestly one of fates’s best characters, and honestly probably one of fire emblems best characters, but people wont give her a chance because 1) her outfit sucks which is honestly a valid reason considering her gimmick and 2) shes a fates character. a much less valid reason. but its like!! guys please i SWEAR shes not the same as the other characters with the stupid “im older than i look” trope please please please im on my KNEES right now please please please please please please please PLEASE. anyways if nyx has 1000 fans im one of them if nyx as 1 fan i am that fan if nyx has no fans im DEAD and BURIED, probably still hyping her up from the grave.

12) A game that deserved better?

answersd previously, but i said echoes :)

15) What are your favorite musical tracks?

recollection and regret is my favorite support track by far. that is musical perfection right there. huge fan of twilight of the gods for final boss maps. bright sandstorm, dark wastes, and dont speak her name are my favorite map themes. and comrades is my favorite recruitment theme :) my favorite track is probably pulled from one of these

16) What’s your favorite world/setting?

you know worldbuilding is not something i really praise fire emblem for. but i think i’d pick ylisse/whatever world awakening is set (is it still called archanea?? i dont know) just because it feels really homey i think. not biased btw

30) Since horse abuse is currently popular on tumblr, beat up a dead horse with your take on an oversatured topic.

every single side of the edelgard/dimitri/rhea discourse is fucking annoying and i think if you start going after people simply because they have an opinion on one of them that you dont you’re the reason why we’ll never get an attempt at true nuance in fire emblem again. games been out for what, 3? 4 years?? and people still cant manage to say “i like [X character] and think [Y character] was in the wrong, but i respect that you dont and that you have different interpretations of them than i do.” its not that hard you guys. “ohh but edelgard started a war” “dimitri slaughtered people” “rheas corrupt” its not real. its not fucking real. you gonna start going after every fan of julius and ishtar because of their role in fe4? what about all of the villainfuckers in this fandom? you ever seen grima thirst??? (i love yall. btw. good taste) like its just so… stop basing your opinions on real people off a stupid anime game!! its not that deep! its never ever been that deep!!! if someone keeps posting a dumb take you dont like, you know what you can do? block them!!! its so easy!!!! its so fucking easy so how is this even a problem anymore!! godddddd

[sixpennydame]

My Beautiful Bestie ❤️❤️❤️

One year of Tumblr!!! Congrats Sailor!!!

And one year of friendship between us too!!! I'm so so glad I met you here, you're a wonderful woman, kind, smart, funny, caring & an amazing writer! You know how much I love to read your works but I say it again! I'm a big fan & I'm waiting for new great stories or chapters of North Star (no pressure though, just showing some appreciation!)

For the writers asks, 🎉 💝 💌 please!

Love you so so much ❤️🌹😘

Val, my Bestie! I vividly remember you being one of the first people to reblog The Better Man and me messaging you to thank you. We've been friends ever since, and I'm so thankful for it. Here's to many more years to come!

It's my one-year Tumblr-versary! Send me a writer's ask!

🎉how often do you celebrate completing & posting a work? how often do you give yourself the credit/validation that you seek from others when you post? (if you don't, you should!)

Hmm...I usually celebrate by closing my computer or iPad, stepping away from social media and taking a long walk. I am very (very) hard on myself, and often think I don't deserve any credit or praise, so doing that is a challenge. But I'm trying to be better!

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

Honestly, I didn't think Make.Believe, would be the hit that it was. (There's that low self esteem talking again.) I had had it in my drafts for months, but decided to publish it on a whim. Part 1 is now at almost 1k notes, which is crazy to me! I am a little sad that Part 2 or 3 didn't do as well, but overall I'm happy with the series.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

I'm ever so slowly working on Neon Tears, which is another series I've had in my mind for months. I hope that when this semester finishes I'll be able to focus more on writing. Here's a peek of Reader talking to Hange:

“I um..I’m from Earth.” Their eyes go wide. “Earth? That shithole? I didn’t know there were still settlements there. How did you even earn a ticket to get to Mars?” You open your mouth to reply, but they put their hand out. “Don’t answer that - it’s none of my business.” Obviously your planet of birth has made you intriguing; hopefully intriguing enough that they’ll give you a job. They look you up and down like you were a science experiment. “And why would an Earthling such as yourself want to work here, at Club Azure?” “I’m a hard worker and a quick learner. And I need to make money fast.” “Mmmhmmm..and you can definitely do that here, if the guests like you,” they smile, “and you certainly would be a unique curiosity,” their eyes gleam behind their glasses, “but why do you really want to work here?” There’s a silence as you think about what to say, but decide you might as well tell the truth. “This line of work doesn’t require me to have Mars citizenship papers.” “And there it is,” they nod, seeming satisfied with your honesty. “It’s true, we don’t really care about those things here. In return, we expect our employees to be…discreet about our clientele’s  information and other business that goes on here.” “I can be discreet.” “I believe it.”

[faithdeans]

hi you can post this or not ! whatever you’re comfortable with. tw for talk of sa and internalized aphobia

so i was taken advantage of when i was in middle school by another middle schooler (someone who was convinced he was my boyfriend) and suffice it to say, it was not a good experience. i havent really dated since and i definitely havent had romantic or sexual feelings since. i think i had a crush on a kid before when i was in fifth grade, but it was so long ago i don’t remember.

sometimes i wonder if i’m really acearo or if i’m just so put off by relationships and so sex averse because of that. i do like smut but i panic whenever anyone references anything sexual in person in anything but a serious and calm tone. i’m nearly twenty and i still request my friends don’t make overly sexual jokes around me because of how averse i am to it all.

i’ve never understood romance, but i do enjoy romance books and fics. often reading fics i find that the romantic relationship is just a different type of relationship, and that there’s also deeply platonic roots in it. that makes me feel okay about maybe trying romance one day, but i really have no desire other than having a roommate to take care of a dog or cat with.

so yeah, sometimes i wonder if i’m really acearo or if i just need to work through trauma. the sa happened before i even hit puberty, so i really have no idea if i would have still been ace had it not happened, you know?

i don’t mean anything offensive by this, i’m just self conscious and wanted to talk about it with someone who might understand. if you’re not comfortable with this message, please don’t feel pressured to respond in any way. if you’d like to give me a response but not post all of this, i’ll sign it with an anon name to refer to me as :) if you want to post all of this and answer directly, that’s cool too. i’m very okay with having my story out there if you think it could help someone else out.

i know you’re mainly a supernatural blog, so before i go: sickly dean for life <3

-> confused ace anon

first of all hiii! thank you so much for feeling like you could talk to me about this, it means a lot and i will try my best to help. if you ever want to dm me, they're open (if they're not shoot me an ask and i'll turn them on), even if we're not mutuals or anything, i want you to know you can talk to me without any judgement <3

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first of all i am so sorry that happened to you, you did not deserve that, and although it's a valid reason to, i'm sorry it's making you doubt your indentity too.

i want you to know, that even if your aroace identity was cased by your sa, it is still 100% valid. there is actually an entire ace microlabel for this, called Caedsexual, which is for aces who thought they may have been allosexual until the events of their trauma. it might be worth looking into that?

with that in mind, it is also entirely possible for your identity to change over time, and to fluctuate too. for example, i definitely think i was alloromantic for most of my life, but something changed along the way. i can't pinpoint it but i know it did. this is normal and doesn't make the way you currently identify any less real.

what you enjoy when it comes to fiction can be a good indicator of what you want yourself, but i personally disregard it. listen, i'm also sex-averse but i love reading smut. it's so fun. i don't even get off on it, it's just light reading to me. do i want any of that to happen to me?? absolutley fucking not. i don't even like being kissed that much. sometimes enjoying stories can be just what it is: a story. and sometimes it's fun to see characters do things you absolutley wouldn't. kind of the same reason people read horror you know?

so, to sum it all up: if you feel like you are aroace right now and you are comfortable identifying that way, then that's awesome, that's what you are. it can change, and that's perfectly okay too. remember it's a spectrum too, for example i find myself fluctuating between being greyaro and aro. this is all normal and fine.

what you read and enjoy in fiction doesn't always represent what you want. this is also fine!

it doesn't matter how old you are, if people talking about sex makes you uncomfortable, it's completely valid to ask them not to do so in front of you. this does not make you immature and anyone who makes you feel like it does deserves a punch in the face tbh.

all this being said, i 100% recommend you getting help for your trauma, just because you deserve to feel better in yourself. if along the way you discover that you're not actually aroace then ?? that's fine my friend! or maybe you will discover nope yep definitely aroace, and that will also be fine!

it's your life, and your identity, and as long and you're being honest with yourself in the moment, in this very moment in time, you really don't need to stress about it too much my sweet.

sending you so much love, and again, if you ever need to talk about it i'm here! i hoped this helped somewhat <3

[aajjks]

TC!dad!JK

how can he not remember what he promised her? yeonjin isn’t hurt that the promise didn’t come into fruition, rather she’s hurt that he’s standing there glaring at her like she’s the enemy. you asked a question and she answered, but maybe jungkook doesn’t want the truth out yet. you were supposed to be her but she won’t hold what you don’t know against you because that isn’t the real reason why she’s here.

“jungkook, please” yeonjin begs “i didn’t mean any harm in what i said. we were talking about husbands and all i did was tell her about a promise we made when we were kids”

yeonjin bows to you “please forgive me if i came off a offensive. i did not want to disrupt anything i just…i needed a favor”

“you are forgiven, yeonjin” you say “what is it that you need?”

“i..i was hoping i could work here with you. i need a job and the brothel isn’t bringing in enough money for me anymore”

your eyes widen when she says brothel. from appearance, you would have never guessed she worked at a brothel and you’re sure the men there weren’t the nicest to work with.

“m-my son and i, we’ll work for you. i’ll clean, i’ll deliver, i’ll cook, please just…i need a job or we’ll be homeless. that’s why i’m here because i was hoping you’d find it in your heart to give us a job here”

your eyes soften, both she and her son are in dire need of jungkook’s help and you’re hoping her plea for his aid will soften his cold gaze set on her.

“say my husband gives you a job, how will i know you won’t try to seduce him? just a few minutes ago you told me he promised to wed you and now you’re begging him for a job”

yeonjin looks up “i swear i won’t bother you or him. i’ll stay wherever you put me and leave you alone”

“and you’re being truthful? because if i catch you doing something you aren’t supposed to or even having thoughts about my husband, i’ll personally kill you”

“y-yes. yes, i am being truthful”

you look up at your husband who is starstruck at your possessiveness that he finds absolutely sexy. anytime you get like this it’s hard for him to keep his composure and he can tell you meant every word you said.

“how about you and your son join us for dinner tomorrow then we’ll discuss it”

“that’s fine. we’ll be here. thank you so much”

“be safe” is the last thing you say before yeonjin leaves the office to retrieve her son and then officially leave the palace walls with hopes the two of you will allow her and hyunjin to work for the king.

“soooo” you begin “what’s going on in that head of yours? you thinking about letting them work here? i think she’s being truthful. what did you think about her son? was he being sneaky?”

~🫧

He’s not in his senses right now because of the way, you just threatened that woman, you have finally fulfilled his wish of being possessive over him and he’s so happy right now, this is the second time she’s done him a favor when it comes to you.

But when you snap your fingers at him, he’s back into this world, and he asks you to repeat your question,,still staring at you with now lust filled eyes.

Can someone give him water?

“Ahh… I don’t think her staying here would be a good idea.. yn she just told you that I was supposed to wed her— which is not true, but that promise was just childish.. it was before I even saw you, so it’s not even valid!” he immediately starts to defend himself, but you’re not even bothered about that.

He sighs in relief.

“Oh well… I am a king and it’s my duty to make sure that my subjects are not struggling, so how about I provide her son and her with a business that’s promising?! Like a fruit shop or a flower shop?! or maybe he could work in the coal factory or something like that?! or maybe… she could work in the kitchen, and I would make sure that her son receives education because he is the same age as jinseoul and I don’t think he deserves to work so hard right now…”

He feels bad for the kid if not for that woman, but she wouldn’t dare to come between you too because he knows you’ll kill her— like you just threatened her.

“honestly, you should tell me what to do and..,” he looks at you, “I don’t think you’re actually capable of killing someone, but that was really hot of you yn.” He presses a kiss on your cheek.

You’re so kind of even invited her to dinner tomorrow which was not even necessary in his opinion, this Nation is so blessed to have a queen like you.

“Her son? I’m pretty sure he was staring at my daughter. I wanted to kill him, but then I…. Should I kill him?” He grits his teeth as he remembers him.

“but overall, he’s a nice kid. He was really scared when I talked to them.”

“also brothels should be illegal.”