#done with this toxic relationship 💔💔💔😔😔😔

[queenhallebe]

I saw this on my tl and I just...😭😭😭💔 I love these two so much. And I miss them 😔

I don't know what it is exactly, them, this song , or both...but something about this video just tugs at my heartstrings...I almost feel sad, or maybe it's the back hugs I don't know... Bring back my men

Speaking of them...I went to the comments...and

Fortunately/ unfortunately...I agree with MrsJeon here...all I've ever seen taekookers do is shame Jimin, or talk about the so called tension between Taekook,or how HYBE is supposedly tryna protect them...nothing in between. If it's the love, is a toxic one, where they're angry, they make up with sex, their happy, they celebrate with sex, the other is horny and the other is scared for their life since he's gonna be torn apart.

I'll admit this with no shame, I knew more about Jimin and Jungkook as a duo, from Jikookers. But, all that I've done is misunderstand the relationship between V and Jungkook, coz of taekookers. I don't love to look at the other videos or takes Jikookers do be making of jikook. But these soft videos are what I love for...it doesn't matter from what pov you look at it, shipper or not...we all can agree that every Jimin needs their JK...and every JK, their Jimin

[ruminate88]

Feeling ugly after being brutally discarded: I feel so small

12/10/24 love bombed, objectified, betrayed

This older lady, I’ve known all my life, not gonna share her name. She’s an awesome, awesome lady, but one day I was running a brush through my hair and she saw me and she just stared at me and I looked at her and she said, “ You are so beautiful, brushing your beautiful hair” 😭😭😭😭😭😭

I was so uncomfortable because of the way I’ve been objectified so many times by men, especially by people that I loved so much that made me feel so stupid . I’ve lost so much weight without trying and everybody has been talking about it and asking me what’s wrong and why am I losing weight and they all wanna know and people tell me I’m too skinny and how that’s so bad but it wasn’t even my fault. 😔 You know, it’s not like I did this to myself on purpose. I acknowledge that I was completely unaware of toxic relationships and emotional abuse!! I trusted my exes and gave them all of me that I could even when they’re giving me nothing but pain!!

So far in this healing journey, it is mental and spiritual, but there is a physical side to it as well. I know the physical side probably won’t get better until the mental does, and the mental is dependent on the spiritual as well. It all works together, body soul and mind !!

I don’t hate my exes. I’m just disappointed at how they can brutally discard me 💔 I’m so disposable to them when they were extremely special to me… Starting with my ex Cody, oh my gosh, the way I felt for him hurts me so much. I can’t put into words how painful it was when he ghosted me and he’ll never care about me ❤️‍🩹 I’ve had to let that go and I’ve had to accept that he does not care …. the way he treated me when he love bombed me wow. I’ll never forget it. 😭

Then to spend a year with my ex Andrew after to think I’m falling in love with him, yet after I break up with him, he says that he pretended all his feelings the whole time to lead me on, and he already had a new girlfriend that he was posting all over Instagram 💀💀💀 and he never posted me on his Instagram once !!! plus he took her to the place that I thought he would take me one day 💔 and that sucks. I just felt incredibly stupid and embarrassed by him…. I wasn’t special to Andrew or Cody at all. I’ve had to face that all year and it’s been sooooo painful.

I know there is people that loves and cares about me but it’s just so hard anymore to believe it. Alsooooo, there is a man in my past named Jake that I’ve not wanted to write about as much because I don’t feel safe to write about him yet, but I dreamt about him last night and I never really wanted to be his girlfriend although we flirted a lot, but he was always a part of my life … he was basically a big bully to me, but also there was times I thought he was my good friend too, so that’s confusing and that’s just how it is with these men. They say one thing and then turn around and say another too and you never know how they really feel about you. 🤨😝 You can’t trust them ever. They make you feel delusional about everything. They’re basically gaslighting you. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 They’re jealous and intimidated by you so they mentally and emotionally abuse you to make themselves feel better. Fudge … I loved them better than I loved myself. They never deserved it, my love was free but they scoffed at my love and thats THERE PROBLEM, not mine… I don’t regret them but I have to admit how they’ve impacted my self worth and opinions of myself. I have to accept what they’ve done and forgive ❤️‍🩹 (doesn’t seem I can ever forget tho)

[sisterssafespace]

Assalamualaikum sister, my big sister and her husband has hurt my parents very badly while they were away from their home. The matter is quite complicated to address here. I will write it in simple words. My sister has married to a man and she unconditionally loves him. Allahumma barik. But I don't like it when she prefers her husband over her family in every matter. Recently I had to stay with them for few days while my parents were away. I am 8-9 years younger than them. But all of a sudden my sister's husband sent me to my aunt's house without informing my parents.... because he was uncomfortable around me. Although I never appear in front of them. I was always busy with my studies in a different room. Later I got to know my own sister disliked my presence in her house. She and her husband called my parents and lectured them a lot against me and even disrespected my parents and their dignity. My parents were immensely hurt and at times I find my mother crying and my father tensed and upset. My parents were sweethearts to their eldest daughter and her husband. They nurtured them and even granted them innumerable things. They loved them so much to this point that my father called her husband his own son. They have done a lot for my eldest sister even before marriage. Now my parents say that they felt betrayed by them. I don't know what's the deal with them. But the Only thing I know I did not do anything offending nor did I misbehave with them. Allah swt is my only witness. The question that I am going to ask is actually my mum's: she is asking if she can break her ties with her eldest daughter and her husband and only talk to them once in a while? I don't know if you are going to reply to me or not but please make dua for my parents. They are very heartbroken. 💔

Assalamualaikum my dear,

La hawla wa la quwwata illa billah, I am sorry your parents are heartbroken over this, it must be so painful for parents to get this treatment from their own child. However, I don't have the verdict on this because - again - on this page we don't give fatwahs, we don't have enough knowledge to tell your mom exactly if it is permissible or not to cut ties with her daughter in this situation. I think she should ask a Shaykh to make sure.

Nonetheless, I think your parents currently have no other choice but to keep their distance from your sister and her husband. I don't think it is even healthy for them to remain in contact with her like calling her often or visiting her or something. On the other hand, I don't think cutting ties completely is okay either. But maybe calling once in a week (their daughter only), and making the conversation short as well, no need for details just checking how she is doing and if she needs anything and wishing her well, and that's it. Also, if your sister is the one doing the calling and checking on your family then you should pick up the phone or reply to her messages. I also recommend making lots of duaas for her and that Allah swt mends her relationship with your parents. I honestly pray from the bottom of my heart that she is not in a toxic marriage with someone who is a manipulator or a narcissist and that he is brainwashing her and turning her against her family 😔😔. Allahu al mustaān.

May Allah swt mend your mom's heart and grant her peace and calmness. May Allah swt fix your relationship with your sister soon and bring her back to your family with a pure heart, ameen.

- A. Z. 🍃🤍

[tyonfs]

HAII MY LOVELY ALICE! how r u 🤗

sorry i’ve been ia partied way too hard during spring break </3 little life update tho the gas station near my apartment which is not rlly near my apartment it’s like 3 miles away but like the guy who works the register has been flirting with me everytime i go and just yesterday he was like “oh you again?” like 😹😹😹😹😊😊😊😋😋😋😁😁😮😹😹😁🤔🤗🤔💔😭😭😭😭🫶🫶🫶😹😹😹😹😹😹😁🤔😁😊😋😁💔 pls i want u! it’s like flirty banter and i’m UP. i feel like such a hot girl bc i’m talking to this girl and flirting with this guy like omg 🤭🤭🤭 also yes you should so visit dallas 🙏🏼🙏🏼 i go to a uni that’s liek 6 hrs way from dallas but it’s so fun to take a road trip with my friends and stuff! another question do u live in the states bc i swore you lived in the uk 😭😭?enough of me! how r uu what’s ur little life update? is s2 of bitch hunters confirmed bc if so i’m UP same with hunger games au. about about colleen hoover i hate that woman she’s so annoying 😭😭 like actually irritating her books r really not that good. nowadays a ton of writers r actual weirdos online and offline.

SORRY THIS IS SO MUCH I GOT SIDE TRACKED AND JUST RAMBLED 😭😭 - 🎀

hihi 🎀 anon here i am catching up on asks :'))

i'm glad you had a fun spring break !!! also did anything happen with the guy at the register since?? :o flirty banter is soooo FUN i hope you bag him >:) i should have gone to the dallas show for tds2 fr 😡!!!! but omg i doubt any of my friends would wanna drive that far 😔 one day tho !!

also yes! i'm in the us NOT THE UK LMAOOAOA IM NOT BRITISH 🤚 s2 of bitch hunters has been teased and is currently in the works 😩 and as for the hunger games au .. i do have 8k words written and im reading the ballad of songbirds and snakes rn 🤧

LMAOOAAO i despise colleen hoover and what she's done to the reading community 😭 !! the glorification of such toxic relationships my god...... how will we undo her mess </3 ALSO DONT APOLOGIZE I LOVE READING THROUGH YOUR ASKS <33 i hope you're having a wonderful day btw!! 💕

[millenialfanfictionaddiction]

🏅Being Team Japan's Manager 🏅

💔Relationship Troubles with Bokuto 💗

Bokuto Kōtarō featuring Team Japan x Female Manager

Warnings: Swearing, Bokuto being a complete jerk, petname, angst to fluff, suggestive at the end 🙃

AN: Its a very Bokuto centered day 🥰This is an Anon request! I may have gotten a tiny bit carried away with this one. I also cried alot 🥲 I'm emotional when it comes to our boys 🥺 I'm really proud of this one ❤

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Oof this one is going to make me cry 😢

I already know it

And the fact that it's with our resident himbo 🥺

But it must be done and who else to deliver but yours truly 🤗

Your relationship with Bokuto has been going on for about 6 months now

You started out of friends when you joined Team Japan as their resident hotty 🔥 and manager 💅🏼

Honestly, Team Japan adores you YN

You lucky bitch 😒

But there was always something special about Bokuto

Pls he's such a bubbly Boi I just can't even 😫

Bokuto took an instant liking to you and you to him

Did he annoy you? Absolutely 💯

Did you find him attractive as all hell? Abso-FREAKING-lutely 🙌🏻

Bokuto is like what? 6'3" timeskip 👀

Lawd girl of you don't I will

N E WAYS, you two grew extremely close

Daily practices and nightly walks home

Consistent "HEY HEY HEY YN WATCH THIS!"

Giant Bear hugs and headpats

You would grab coffee or ever dinner sometimes

Of course, the other three idiots guys would accompany you occasionally as well

When Bokuto finally asked you out, it was very Bokuto-style

Super spontaneous and loud

Lile he literally walked you to your apartment door, was about to leave, turned around and shouted

"YN WILL YOU GO OUT WITH ME?"- Bokuto, zero chill

"Ko- we just went out..."- You, extremely confused

"No I mean, like a date"- Bokuto 🥺����🏻👈🏻

YN of you take longer than a single second to answer this imma come there and smack you 🤚🏻

Someone summon Iwaizumi for me- 🏐

"Of course I will Kotaro"- You 🥺🤗

Good girl Yn ☺️

Please Bokuto is so excited he will pick you up and spin you around 🥰

God I love that for you 😐

Me, a jealous bish

Thus begins the ship know as BokuYN

The next few months go by quickly

Your relationship is tugging along and everything is going well

Unfortunately, the storm clouds are moving in YN 😔⛈️

And all good things can't last

It starts out small, everyone is so stressed with the Olympics coming up

Bokuto especially

Imagine all the pressure to be perfect and score points 😪 that has got to be so rough

Bokuto starts staying late for practice and heading home with you less frequently

You start eating dinner alone and he starts coming home later and later ☹️

One morning, you wake up and Bokuto isn't next to you

You try calling him but nothing

You show up to the gym and find him there with Kageyama, Atsumu and Hinata

You are confused as to what is going on 🤨

Like rightfully so

I mean what did they just sleep on the bleachers the night before?

I wouldn't put it past them honestly 😒

You approach them and ask what's going on

Atsumu is setting for Bokuto and he narrowly misses a line shot

"God dammit! Send up another one"- Bokuto, furious and sweating 😓

"Hey guys- have you been practicing all night?"- you, curious

"Nah we quit at 9 last night"- Kageyama getting a drink of water

Ok now your really confused 🤚🏻

You look at Bokuto who is setting up for another spike

"Ko you didn't come home last night"- you

He ignores you, spiking the ball

Ok then- 😐

Let's try this again shall we 🙃

"Kotaro did you hear me?"- you, now standing with your hands on your hips

Ope- someone's in trouble 😶

Atsumu, Hinata and Kags are now looking from you to Bokuto 👀

"I stayed with Hinata last night"- Bokuto, walking away from you, going to his phone and scrolling

Clearly his phone is working 😑

That's suspicious 🤨 that's weird

"And why would you do that?"- you, obviously upset

"Because I felt like it"- Bokuto

Not to be toxic here but that's not an answer dude 😒

"Ok but why- I texted you and you never got back to me. And it's clear your phone is fine since your looking at it right now"- YN, hands now in the air, just ready to go

"Maybe I just needed some fucking space YN"- Bokuto

Please now Aran, Yaku, Komori, Sakusa, Habuka,Ushijima,Hyakuzawa, amd Iwaizumi are all on the gym 🤚🏻

Silently observing 👀

"Are you serious right now? What did I do Ko?"- you, walking towards him

"YN I just need some fucking space! You're around me constantly and I can't fucking concentrate on these damn Olympics with you breathing down my neck all the time! Like all you ever do is talk talk talk and I'm so fucking sick of it! Just fucking leave me alone! If you did anything for this team besides stand around, maybe you'd understand my stress! But you always have to come first YN and Im fucking DONE!"- Bokuto, finally snapping

Oh he's pissed

Like fuming at you 😡😤

It's honestly so embarrassing he would say such things in front of everyone

You face heats and your fists tighten-

You don't even know what to do, so-

You just look up at him, tears filling your eyes

Ok everyone just breath ok

I mean, I'm crying 🥺

You know that feeling when your stomach just drops and you feel almost sick

That's what's happening now

The tears are welling up and it's about to happen

There is no stopping that crying YN and you shouldn't!

Bokuto essentially took your heart, threw it on the ground and stomped all over it

Nah he rolled over it with a steam roller and fed it through a wood chipper 😬

He broke you 😔

No matter how you try, a brave face isn't coming

So you do what you must

"Fine Bokuto. You don't want me bothering you anymore. Than consider me gone"- You, turning to walk out of the gym, tears flowing, past the other members of the team

Everyone is stunned 😲 and honestly same

Nobody expected this of Bokuto, like he's literally the last one I'd expect to do this

But the pressure was mounting and unfortunately YN, you were the catalyst

The gym is silent as Bokuto sets his water down, turning to face Atsumu

"Toss another one"- Bokuto, getting into place

Please these guys are PISSED and so confused 😕

"What the fuck was that-" Atsumu, the first to speak

As much as I bully this man, istg he's loyal as fuck

And while he loves Bokuto like a brother, he also loves you

"Bokuto that was so harsh man"- Habuka

"It needed to be said. She's been so clingy and needy. The Olympics are coming up and I need to practice"- Bokuto, starting to realize that he's the total ass in this situation but still holding face

He's a man 🙄😒

"You're an dumbass Bokuto"- Iwaizumi, turning to go and find you

"Bokuto sit down. You're done for today"- Aran

"The fuck I am-"

"The fuck you are because I said so"- Aran

Please Aran can be so fucking scary 😨

Bokuto will get right in his face

"Hey cool it you two!"- Hyakuzawa

"Bokuto- chill man"- Kageyama pulling him back

Hoshiumi finally comes in the gym

"Hey what's wrong with YN. I saw her leaving and she was crying"- Hoshiumi

It's all starting to sink in now-

"FUCK-" Bokuto, throwing his waterbottle against the wall and storming out

Everyone is just exhausted and it's showing

"Should we go after him?"- Hyakuzawa, the mediator of the group

"I think we should call Akaashi- this is over our heads"- Aran, leaving to get his phone and make the call

Meanwhile, you are now sitting on a bench, full on ugly crying

Snot down the face, tears everywhere, can't catch your breath BAWLING

🤚🏻 say less YN your heartbroken and its ok to cry 💔

Please I'm crying writing this and it's fiction 😭

"Hey YN- are you ok?"- Iwaizumi, coming to sit next to you

"No- no Hajime I'm not ok"- you, sucking in breath and trying to calm down

Spoiler alert: it's not working

"I think I need to go home Haji"- you

"You do that YN. And hey, it will be ok... I promise. I'll talk to him"- Iwaizumi

"Hajime, you heard him. He doesn't want me so give me one good reason why I should stay?"- you, hugging yourself and crying

"YN he's under a lot of stress. He shouldn't have said those things. You know he cares about you"- Iwaizumi, trying to save this

"YN please just listen-" I was our freaking savior

"Hajime, if he cared he wouldn't have said those things. If he cared, he would have avoided my texts and calls. He embarrassed me in there. You don't do that to someone you care about"- you, making an excellent point

"I'll see you later Haji. Thanks for being here"

You try and force a smile as tears stream down your face

Upon arriving at your apartment, you do nothing but mope

You say nothing more as you turn and walk away

You cry the entire way home, trying to hide your face from those around you

Honestly YN as you should 💅🏼

I'm like so mad at Bokuto right now you have no idea 🤬 you crawl into bed, covering yourself up and cry like there's no tomorrow

Back at the gym, Bokuto is sitting in the locker room with a towel hanging over his head

That bitchy voice inside your head telling you that everything was a lie and you were never good enough for Bokuto

You eventually manage to cry yourself to sleep 😔

He knows he fucked up... like MAJORLY fucked up

The stress of the Olympics had been weighing on our poor owl bby and the fact that he just can't hit his line shots

Iwaizumi comes in and sits next to him

"I fucked up bad"- Bokuto

"Yeah you fucking did asshole"- Iwaizumi not even beating around the bush

"Shit"- Bokuto, throwing his towel against the locker

"You need to chill out Bokuto. Your stress isn't helping anything right now. You said some pretty mean stuff to YN and she's really hurt"- Iwaizumi

"Did she leave?"- Bokuto

"Yeah- she went home"- Iwaizumi

"Fuck I have to talk to her-" Bokuto standing, fists clenched

"Hold up there cowboy. Give her some space man. You broke her heart dude. It's not going to be an easy fix. Wait a day, let it rest"- Iwaizumi

As much as he hated to do it, Bokuto let it rest

He went to his apartment, one he spent very little time in nowadays and tried to relax 😔

The next day, he arrived early to try and catch you

Only, you weren't there 😞

"Where's YN?"- Bokuto to Hoshiumi

"She didn't come in today. She called and told Aran she's taking personal time"

"God dammit!"- Bokuto, just about to punch the wall

Thankfully Sakusa is there to stop him

"Bo a broken hand isn't going to help man. You need to chill"- Sakusa

"Come on man, let's practice and then we can talk"- Hinata

"How can I practice without YN? Knowing I fucked up the best thing I ever had"- Bokuto, now a deflated Owl

"Well it's good to finally see you admit how much you care for YN"- Akaashi, with Kuroo at his side

"What are you doing here?"- Bokuto, genuinely confused 🤨

"Aran called me and well Kuroo heard through the grapevine"- Akaashi

Please Kuroo knows all the gossip

These boys talk more than old ladies in church

"Dude what is wrong with you? This isn't like you"- Kuroo

"I've been so stressed and I can't hit my line shots. I've been practicing day and night and nothing feels right"- Bokuto, now hunched over on the bleachers, surrounded by the peanut gallery

"Have you thought thay maybe your practicing too much Bo?"- Kageyama

Seriously he's one to talk 🙄

"I mean, what has YN said about you staying late for practice?"- Akaashi

"I haven't been around much- I've just been so stressed. And I just dont know"- Bokuto

"Well Bokuto, you have to decide what you want to do. If you want to break up with YN, I think you owe her an explanation. She at least deserves that. But if you want to make up with her-" Akaashi

"I DO! I really do! I thought alot last night and YN's been the one consistent good thing in my life. I- I think I love her"- Bokuto

Pls bby you were a jerk but you are breaking my heart 💔😫

"Well then you need to talk to her"- Kuroo

Bokuto knew this and he was so ready

Unfortunately you weren't 🙁

A knock sounded as you drag yourself to the door

The peep hole reveals Bokuto, standing there, hair deflated

You open the door and cross your arms

That's right YN! We are a powerful women and we will show it ✊🏻

"Hey YN, can we talk?"- Bokuto

"That's what we are doing-"

"YN please I'm so sorry- I was a complete asshole and jerk! I know I royally fucked up and god, YN I'm so sorry"- Bokuto

Tears are forming in this man's eyes

But also in yours 😟

"Bokuto-" you

"Ko, you call me Ko"- Bokuto

"Listen, I need time. What you said really hurt me and I'm not ready talk to you let alone see you. I just don't know if I can do this-" please the tears are rolling down your face but you're voice remains strong

"YN- please, just please"- Bokuto, full on crying

"Good night Bokuto"- You, shutting the door and breaking down

Please Bokuto hears you and it KILLS him 😭

He did that to you and he hates himself

The next few days drag

You return to your manager job but you try and steer clear of Bokuto

Unfortunately the team doesn't get that memo 😒

Please they are trying everything possible to get you to back together

You are miserable, Bokuto is EXTRA miserable

"YN can you wrap Bokuto's fingers? I have to do Komori's and Yaku's"- Iwaizumi

"I can do it Iwa" - Kageyama

Please that went right over his head

Iwaizumi is just staring at him like 👁➖️👁

You don't even say anything, just grab the tape and walk to Bokuto

The man towers over you so he is looking down at you while you wrap his fingers

"How are you?"- Bokuto, genuinely concerned

"Fine"- you, trying to just hold it together long enough to wrap those long fingers 👀

"You've lost some weight-" Bokuto

"Yeah I haven't been hungry"- You, unfortunately your voice cracks and you have to bite your lip to keep it from quivering

"YN, baby-" Bokuto, lifting your face up by your chin and looking into your watering eyes

He hates seeing you like this and knowing he caused it 🤧

"Done"- you, looking up and smiling a little, tears filling your eyes before you turn and walk out of the gym

Bokuto watches you go

And so do the others 👀

Nosey bitches 🙄💅🏼

Also side note: screw Iwa for throwing you under the bus like that 🖕🏻 imma Iwa cannon a volleyball at Iwa 😤

It's safe to say practice has been a little... well tense to say the least

Bokuto is getting blocked, missing cross court shots and liners left and right

It hurts you even more to see the man you love hurting

Wait 🤚🏻 love?

Oh hell yeah you love him YN

Just admit it 🙃

But no matter how much you love him, it doesn't take away how he treated you the past few weeks

And how much his words that day hurt

You're at a crossroads Yn and it's not an easy choice

Luckily for you, you have supportive friends

Wait, did I say supportive? I mean Atsumu and Hinata 🤣

But also Aran, Ushijima and Iwaizumi

Ok ok ill stop 😅

They stop by your place unexpectedly with food

"You need to eat"- Atsumu, pushing past you

"Don't think we haven't noticed YN"- Iwaizumi, coming in behind Atsumu

"Wow it's nice to see you too"- you 😐

"Hi YN, how are you doing?"- Aran, giving you a big hug

Please he gives amazing hugs 🥺

"Could be better"- you, now hugging Ushijima and Hinata

"YN how long are you going to do this?"- Atsumu

Aran and Iwaizumi 👉🏻🤦‍♂️🤦

"I hate to admit it YN but Atsumu is right. It's obvious you two love each other"- Ushijima

"Yeah"- you, sinking into the couch

"YN we know what he said hurt and we aren't telling you to just forget about it"- Aran

"But Bokuto is miserable YN. He's not eating, he's spending all his days at the gym and I know he's not sleeping"- Iwaizumi

"YN we know you're just as miserable so why don't you stop this"- Ushijima

"Just talk to him YN"- Hinata

Maybe, just maybe they have a point

You sigh and resign yourself to the fact that as much as Bokuto's words hurt you

You know that the stress of the Olympics and his hard training have worn on him

The next morning, you arrive at 6 am to start work

You hear the sound of balls being spiked against the floor of the gym

You know that sound, the exact sound of a Bokuto serve

You approach the door and peer in, seeing Bokuto tossing up another serve

The ball slams over, hitting right on the end line

"That was a nice shot"- you, walking into the gym

Bokuto stops and looks straight at you, mouth agape

You're talking to him- like actually conversing with him

And you PRAISED HIM 😭😭😭

"Thanks, what are you doing here?"- Bokuto

You giggle a little

Bokuto's heart swells

"Did you forget I come in early to set up?"- you

"Haha yeah I guess- I've just been doing it since- well-" - Bokuto rubbing the back of his neck

"Want me to set for you?"- You, taking a chance

Bokuto's head shots up 😳

"Really?" Please YN he's so happy he's smiling 🙂

"Yeah"- you taking position as Bokuto tosses to you and you set

Perfect cross court shot 😚🤌🏻

"Nice kill Ko!!"- you smiling and looking back at him

Please he's melting YN 😭

"First one I've gotten in all week"- Bokuto, his head down, rubbing his arms

What 😳

"Ko..."

"I'm miserable YN. I'm so fucking miserable. I can't sleep, I can't eat. Every single practice, I miss tosses, get blocked or the ball is out. I- I can't do this"- Bokuto, looking at you as tears roll down his face

"Ko come here"- you, reaching out for him as he comes to your arms for a hug 🫂

Please that man will hug you and never want to let you go

You pull back as he rests his forehead against yours

🥺 please I'm such a sap God WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

"YN I know I don't deserve you but I need you to know that you are the best thing to ever happen to me. I know I fucked up and God I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry baby. I love you so much and I can't do this without you"- Bokuto, tears flowing

"I love you too Ko"- You, smiling with tears in your eyes

"You- you do?"- Bokuto, now smiling like a freaking idiot 😃

"Yeah I really do"- You

Please 🤚🏻 say less

This man is picking you up and swinging you in the air

"Ko, Jesus Ko calm down"- you, laughing and smiling

"I can't! The most amazing, beautiful women in the world loves me"- Bokuto, finally setting you down

"Yeah I do my ace"- You

Please his lips are on yours before you can finish that sentence 🤚🏻 💋

"Jesus christ get a room will ya"- Atsumu, walking in as you and Bokuto turn around to see the entire team watching you 😳

"Oh my god that was so sweet 🥺"- Yaku about to cry

"Well I'm finally glad to see you guys have worked it out"- Iwaizumi

"Jesus YN way to bring it down to the wire, the Olympics is a month way"- Kageyama, ever the inspiration 🙄

"Aran are you crying?"- Hinata

"No- I just got some dust in my eyes from these volleyballs"- Aran, wiping his eyes and walking away

Sure 😏 "dust from the volleyballs"

"Ok enough of this, let's get to practice"- Aran

"Ummm actually- I uh, I need YN to help me with something"- Bokuto being suspicious 🤔 and dragging you to the door

"Ko, can't it wait until after practice!"- you, being dragged

"Absolutely not"- Bokuto

Please he's on a mission 😏

Iwaizumi just rolls his eyes 🙄

"Jesus christ just be safe ok? We don't need any little Bokuto babies running around"- Iwaizumi

"I make no promises"- Bokuto, pulling you out as you laugh and wave to the team

"Jesus that's got to be some record Emo mode"- Komori

"It lasted 8 days and Bokuto missed 436 spikes"- Atsumu, nonchalantly rattling of statistics

Komori, Yaku and Aran 👉🏻👁👄👁

"You kept track of that?"- Hakuba, honestly impressed

"I'm the setter, it's my job to make sure the players are ok"- Atsumu, shrugging

"Hey now- you aren't the official setter just yet 😑"- Kageyama

"It's only a matter of time"- Atsumu 😏

"😐 the fuck it is- " Kageyama following Atsumu and yelling

"God I wish YN was here"- Aran

"She's probably getting her back blown out as we speak"- Habuka

"Jesus christ 🤦‍♂️ alright get to work"- Iwaizumi, smiling

Side note: you were in fact, getting your back completely blown to pieces 😏

[ohayopoko]

Eren Break-Up Headcanons (NSFW)

Note: Was just thinking abt this, indulge me! 💓✨

The song goes with it🥳

-Baby boy is T o x i c

-First of all, aint no breaking up? At least until he’s ready🙄

-Eren will let you have your tantrum but if you’re not at his place in 20 there’ll be hell to pay🤕💦

-Kinda manipulates you back into the relationship with him

-S/o always falls for it tho cause the way his green eyes get so sincere and he’s so soft and caring as he speaks 😔💓

“Why you acting like I don’t love you?”

“So you’re really done with me?”

-Eren’s hoes think they gon jump in the game but S/o always gracefully takes her seat on his big dick after she gets over her “temper tantrum”

-Of course y’all still fucking, that’s your man Bitchhhh🥳

-S/o will act stush with her pussy for a couple of days but somehow Eren always gets her punani in the end😭😛

-Doesn’t blow up your phone, just comes to see you in person cause y’all never stopped sharing locations with each other 🤧

-Eren pops up at your job, your gym, your momma’s house it doesn’t matter when he wants to see you he’s gonna see you☠️

-your momma knows y’all broke up too but she still lets him in cause it’s Eren, he’s an Angel but you and her never saw eye to eye anyways

-When S/o finds him having lunch w her momma in the kitchen she has no choice but to join them cause she can’t just cuss Eren out in front of her momma that’s embarrassing

-Even though Eren’s kinda toxic he’s hella jealous like he will keep tabs on your social media to see which poor idiot he’s gonna run down on 💢👊🏾

-Will totally beat up your new Honey and if you think Eren won’t bully him every chance he gets, you’re wrong🤣

-S/o isn’t a cheater but she can’t help it when she cheats on her new Honey w Eren

-Eren’s so cocky with it too, island devil waits until his dick is in your throat to talk shit about your new Honey

-“Does he know he’s sharing?” Eren asks when S/o goes down on him and when u try to pull your mouth away to speak Eren holds your head down so you’re gagging on his dick while he questions you

-“He’s not fucking you right,” Eren watches as you choke on his dick, pleased when your nose starts leaking “That’s why your here eating up my dick like that?”

-Eren’s the type to not care about Physical relationships cause sex is just sex and that’s all it is unless you put feelings behind- then it kinda hurts him.

-Like if S/o goes and falls in love with somebody else he’ll be hurt, it’s not like she’s just fucking them and coming back to him in the end- she’s gone and it’s like a betrayal cause you gave the love you were supposed to have only for him to somebody else🥲

-probably won’t fw you anymore if he see’s you moving on and building with the new honey cause what’s the point you don’t love him anymore

-Yeahhh Eren will fuck other girls on the side but he’ll keep it low key cause he knows S/o’s feelings will get hurt even though they’re not together 😔

-S/o knows she shouldn’t be fuckin w Eren anymore cause when he pops out with a new bitch we’re gonna be shook 😔💔

-Ofc S/o still fucks w Eren cause he never leaves you alone didn’t I say that was your man?

-Eren’s still there for you if you need him cause he still loves you

-He’ll do things for you without expecting anything back because you’re still his baby girl

-It could be 3 in the morning, just call him and he’s coming

-S/o could of had a bad day but she calls Eren and he makes it all better, just being with him is so calming and it feels so good she wonders what she’s doing, why they’re not together

-S/o reminds herself why they broke up and tries to be content with just being “friends” with him cause she still loves him and wants him in her life

-When Eren pops out with a new bitch we can’t fuckin breathe, I’m talking heart pounding belly dropping suffocating bitch ☠️😭

-Yeah the bitch looks good cause it’s Eren bitch, but S/o knows she’s #1 when Eren shows up at 2 a.m because he misses her

-Girl that’s still your man cause he STILL gets your nails done religiously every 2 weeks and his bitch sitting over there with naked fingers🤭

-Eren comes to the nail appointments with you like when you guys were together and S/o runs up a check with the designs and crystals just because she can ☺️

-Eren has respect for S/o so he won’t fuck her the same day he fucks his girlfriend and S/o knows this and she’s hurt when he’s not tryna have sex

-Eren wants S/o back and S/o wants him back to but it’s a waiting game to see who’s gonna break up with their new honey first🥱👀

-Y’all are kinda broken up but kinda together but not really but only you and Eren know what type of timing y’all really on 🥴

[jisungshotfirst]

Heh yeah... I've been busy busy so I wasn't online much and then 2 weeks ago when all covid restrictions dropped the rona knocked me tf out... 😒 but now I'm back baby!

Oh lord semantic error was just everything I needed from a bl! No toxic behaviour, no exaggerated drama, just fluff... I love it so much! Also loved that the "bullying" was just harmless jokes and not like in other shows. That's an enemies to lovers how it should be! And don't even get me started ob the kiss scenes! No limp face presses? In my kdrama? A miracle! Also Seoham is sooooo handsome!

I barely know anything about both groups but I loved those two so much I might as well start learning them lol

Cherry blossoms after winter is... okay, I guess? Like there's actual bullying all with stealing and physical assault, the characters have this weird "they've lived together for 10 years like brothers but were never close and actually avoided each other but it was because one of them had feelings and suddenly they're dating", in one scene dude no1 is forcing himself on dude no2, there's homophobia from the adults, and of course the typical pretty mean girl using the timid boy to get close to the popular dude 🙄 idk I'm not really into it, but it also has 2 great friend characters and I love them so that's nice.

I'm actually on ep5 for blueming now and I think so far it's quite cute (except the "he was a chubby kid and got bullied" thing). But you mentioned he's getting hurt so I'm ���

How are you? How's uni going? How's songwriting? How's life in general?

Drama anon ❤

Nooo I'm so sorry to hear you had miss rona :( I got her a while ago and god it is just not fun 😔 I hope you've recovered well!

Yes!! No toxicity?? It becomes an actually healthy relationship??? No bl has ever reached those heights before fjfj. Yes! It's the best way to do enemies to lovers, none of the fighting was intense and they never absolutely despised the guts of the other, it was just an idea they had that they unlearned as they went. Also it's so nice how early on jaeyoung realised how he felt? Or at least how he wants to treat Sangwoo! The "revenge" he wanted to get on sangwoo was just given up when he realised he actually likes Sangwoo. The "enemies" side didn't last forever and then it's suddenly romantic, it was an actual journey! And YES THE KISSES... like we get Multiple kiss scenes ... that aren't limp face presses ...literally a miracle ! Seoham is so handsome you are so right fjdj he's a pretty man for sure.

Oh lord 😔 we dont love all that. Tbh I had high standards for bls already, I stop watching if they had any forceful "romance" scenes (I hate that that counts as having High standards 😔), but I think after semantic error they've gone up way more. Like That is how a bl should be, we deserve more of them ! And they even avoided the way too common misogynistic story line of the lead girl, I love how Sangwoo's friend (I can't remember there name 💔) was treated, neither of the boys were mean to her at any stage and she was a genuine character and ends up better off at the end of the drama than where she started. It's just so good :(

Yeah I was really worried about that story in blueming. I don't want to spoil anything for you but I wasn't as upset with the direction of that as I expected. I expected there to be a lot of fat-shaming and fatphobia and I can't speak on how well it was approached because it's not something I can relate to personally, but the main character himself had a positive outlook on it which exceeding my expectations a lot! Kinda a major reason why I rly like that character.

I'm alright ! I'm on a 2 week break from uni rn actually so I'm attempting to get all my assessments prepared to hand them in in the next few weeks. Pls wish me luck on getting them done fjdj. I am also going to London to see ateez in a few weeks so I'm Screaming I'm so excited

How has life been for you besides miss rona ruining things 💔 ?

[slippingintoinsanity]

Okay, so the pattern emerges, again. Get closer, show vulnerably, close off, push away, sabotage. I wonder if he has clocked it yet? I know I clocked it long ago in relationships, the ones I wanted to be in (so that would be one and a half so far). Those times I didn’t have enough self awareness to step back and observe, reflect, etc. now I can do that.

The problem is, you have traits so similar to mine. It’s like some crazy joke or a test?! Idk. Anyway, it’s like in you, I see the less self aware version of me. It’s like a delayed reflection of me. It makes me so curious about you. Connected to you. Idk. Is it toxic? Fuck knows.

This weekend you fucked up. More than once and last weekend. OUR communication was shit but you had me triggered with your attitude way before and I was past the point of reasonable or logical communication but I was able to control myself somewhat. Might have said I’m fucking sick of your mind games and some other shit but I wasn’t full on evil. I would’ve been in the past.

With the help of him I was ok… ping pong. 😑 Razor blade at my wrist, he calls me. Calms me, soothes me, says everything exactly right.

I wish I could talk to YOU like I talk to him. I love you but he knows what to say to me, how to calm me, he’s talked me down from cutting myself more times than I can remember. I try to bring you in. You ask me to tell you things but then you came even handle the conversation. So I withdraw. Does that mean you don’t care????

But. You, you are stuck in your head right now. I wish I could help you but I’m in the middle of this crazy intense therapy. I can’t help you too. I’m hanging on to life, barely at times.

I don’t want him. I wanted you. I don’t know if it’s possible. You’ll drag me backwards, probably and I’ll drag you deeper into your darkness as a result. You’ll have guilt if I self harm or attempt.

How hard to make a decision to walk away. The strength it will take to loose another person. It seems unbearable, just the thought.

We are attached to each other. From experience I know it’s the early stages of attachment. I have done more work. I feel like I should be responsible and walk away now. Make it stop wiser for us both.

…but the question is can I?! And if I can - you won’t let go that easily.

Why?!

Te dua shume zemra ime 😢😔

💔💔💔💔

If it wasn’t for my abusers, then my life might be liveable. Maybe we’d have met and be able to help you. I wish I could. I see your pain. I recognise the reactions, the defences, the trust issues, the fear, the misplaced anger. I see everything in your eyes my love.

I pray that we can do this somehow. I pray that both of our intentions are good.

I’m so fucking mad at you rn but still I love you.

[ruminate88]

Hi! I'm trying to learn how to be a better person and I've been reading your blog since I found it. I'm sorry for what you went through. I hope you get better soon. I know it's cliche to say you're not alone, but you are probably feeling like you are because narcissistic abuse includes being isolated--by being manipulated or being forced to isolate yourself. It's a very slow healing process like an amputated limb, but it WILL get better as you find peace.

Can you maybe make a post with a list of all the bad things narcs have done to you? I think listing helps.

I appreciate you reading my blog if this is all for you, I’m glad I created it. I wanted to help at least one person see a light at the end of their tunnel. Thank you for the kind words I know I’m not completely alone, I pray to God everyday and believe he hears my cries and cares but physically, yes, I don’t talk to family or friends about any of this, I stay to myself, as I’ve been ashamed and unsure if they would be able to understand all I went through and obviously not to upset family.

I can only tell you I’ve felt like a broken/bad person many of days and I don’t take all the credit in healing myself, I believe God has done most of the work. The best choice I ever made was to admit I failed my life and myself. To ask God to change me and change the direction of my life because I was totally lost not knowing what I needed or wanted!! Nothing had been working for me and I was in the vicious cycle of dating manipulating/controlling men. I HAD to make a change or I was going to hurt myself. I felt like a piece of garage that my exes threw away. 😔😔😔

Things that was hardest about narcissistic abuse:

• You don’t recognize the isolation until you’re out of the relationship with the narcissist. You’re so desperate; worried about pleasing them and making them not upset with you, you spend all your time away from people who actually care about you. Memories of those times makes me so sad to this day.

• The love-bomb phase although it appeared wonderful and my exes were paying me so much attention, I think that phase was the most sickening and disturbing phase. They literally pretend to be the “partner of your dreams” while they’re deceiving you so they can use you and control you. I had been unstable already within my mental health so I was an easy target for them to trick me. My ex Andrew told me, “I mean it with all my heart and soul that I love you and want you to text me” even though he had went no contact from me a whole week prior. Him saying such a great statement kept me pulled in to his toxic pool and I kept on drowning in it.

• so I dealt with 3 narcissists but the 2nd one, Cody, he dumped me twice but the 2nd time he did it by ghosting me. I’m not trying to be dramatic when I say it was very traumatizing… Considering you’re in trauma bond with this person. They create a false narrative that you’re both so obsessed with each other and you believe the feelings are reciprocated but they’re not!! The narcissistic relationship is extremely one-sided. So him ghosting me, he not only made me so attached and crazy about the fairytale love he made up with me but then to just ghost me and rip it all away, took my spirit at that time. I was a dead person walking after that. I saw almost NO hope for me. Then to meet Andrew not even 6 months after and I begged Andrew pleeeease don’t hurt me like Cody did but Andrew couldn’t help who he is. 💔🖤

• Another scar I have had to overcome is after I broke up with Andrew, we continued to flirt and sext a lot but then started to argue a lot. (He would claim he missed sexting me but then blame me and say I was making him wanna sext that I didn’t respect the breakup) Arguing through text is always rough because words can be misconstrued. (I couldn’t hardly get him on the phone ever to actually talk. He only wanted to text.) Andrew said very hurtful things to me. He kept changing “our story” because he couldn’t be honest with himself or take accountability for the fact he was in a real relationship with me for a year. He told me “He pretended all this feelings to just lead me on” but then quickly changed his story again to say “he was in love with me but fell out of love with me and was afraid to tell me” but the biggest slap in my face was eventually he exclaimed, “If I’m hurting you so much then just stop caring about me.” 😭 (as if I could just undo the attachment he allowed me to make with him. The many months he got my hopes up with future faking plus the promises he gave to me that I held onto but he couldn’t take accountability for anything he had done to me or with me.

• Eventually during the many arguments I had with Andrew, I hit my breaking point and had a suicide attack!! I let him know right away I was done fighting and didn’t see how I could continue on with him. I told him I wanted to end my life and then flipped a switch and pretended to be scared for me and pretended to “rescue me” blew up my phone begging me to stay and saying he’s sorry to have said what he said in our arguments. I wanted to believe him so bad. Whenever the attack subsided hours later and I was able to calmly reply to his countless pleas for me to stay, he pretended to have been so “worried about me” but then explained he believed “I wasn’t well and needed to get professional help.” He made me believe I was messed up and had so many issues…. Now I finally look back and think that was a form of gaslighting. He found something he could use to make me look like a problem and it deflected the focus off of him being a cheater and a liar. (He had a new girlfriend already) That whole situation caused me so much anger that I never saw till years later when I am now healing, I realize I had all that anger to deal with. It was uncomfortable!

• Always being nervous with their reactions and consistenly apologizing for them, as they make you to believe everything is your fault. They don’t like when you speak up against their actions and behaviors. 3 times I tried to confront Andrew as he would ignore me 2/3 days at a time but then always come back and treat me like I was his baby and he wanted me. Those 3 times I would ask if he’s too busy for us, does he want to break up and just be friends but he would always get so defensive and act upset like I was causing him so much stress. It would always end with me being sorry and telling him how much I adore him and I would kiss his feet like he was a king and he would then say the most romantic things to me and say how beautiful I was BUT I always knew in the back of my mind he was cheating and hiding stuff from me but I was scared to admit it out loud and “lose him.” My friends would tell me what a loser he was that I should leave him but I would get so upset and push my friends away. Andrew was barely there for me but I was 110% faithful to him.

• Seeking their approval was super exhausting too and it’s taken me years to relax and be comfortable within my skin. Andrew and Cody both gave me so little but they took everything from me. I was pathetic in sitting next to my phone 24/7 begging Andrew to text me and pay me attention because when he did, it was always “hey babe I missed you” and he would Snapchat me selfies and I would melt at his sparklingly blue eyes yet they were fake. Truly his eyes are black!!! I would cry for days with my phone and stalk Andrew’s social media pages hoping I don’t find other women and I could never find proof he was cheating. When Andrew would finally text me back or Snapchat me, I didn’t want him to leave again so I was throwing myself at him!! 🥴🥴🥴 I would dress up with all the makeup and sometimes no clothes on hoping to make him wanna stay and he would tell me how much I turned him on how he wanted me but didn’t wanna tell our parents about our relationship… (I just knew he was hiding things and other girls but I would not admit it for months)

They make holidays miserable 😩 •Halloween - Andrew said he was going to a party, didn’t invite me and I didn’t hear from him again till the next day. (Cheating)

• Thanksgiving, didn’t hear from Andrew at all till later that night and he was out “Black Friday shopping” and treating me like some random person he’s texting. I spent that whole day isolated during my family dinner. I had my phone on a charger in the wall and spent hours trying to type a long text message to tell him how bothered I was with his “hot and cold” behavior but every time I wanted to send it to him, I was scared he would dump me and I kept erasing my message and retyping it. People kept asking “you okay??” And I pretended I was fine. He stole that thanksgiving away from me!! (Mind you any regular day Andrew would text me just fine it was only holidays he ruined)

• Christmas - sucked!!!! No good morning babe or merry Christmas from Andrew till really late when the day is almost over. I yet again was isolating myself during family time. Stayed in my bedroom so sad why my “boyfriend” hadn’t texted me alllll day. When he did finally text, I confronted his absense and he exclaimed “he wasn’t worthy of my love” and “he wasn’t good enough for me.” I thought he was breaking up with me and I cried so hard. He swore that he wasn’t breaking up but that he believed I deserved better than him and he could never be enough for me. It was so confusing and I was actually happy when the day ended because it just sucked so much 😣

• Valentine’s Day - Was the worst one. Andrew was different the whole month of January prior. He was the best boyfriend daily talking sweet to me and showing me “affection” and selfies galore but on Valentine’s Day it felt so forced with him. I begged him would he send me a video of himself saying “I love you” and he did!!! It just all felt off. Then later that night. He was super cold. I asked him “what are your plans tonight??” He said “I never get time to myself, I’m always studying, doing homework or spending time with you.” 🥺 ouch!!! He said he just wanted to play video games and relax…. He continued to snap me some but I felt he didn’t really want to. He took time in between each response, leaving me to sit on my phone all night wishing things were better. He flirted some but that was it. I was in bed disappointed he chose video games over me on valentines day and at some point he never responded back!! I sat up till 3am letting tears fall as I gazed at Snapchat seeeing he still never opened my message… the thing with him is usually if he felt “sick” he would text me about it. So next morning he messaged me first goood morning and asked how I slept. I told him I waited up till 3am for him to respond!! THEN Andrew said “I didn’t sleep at all. I was up sick to my stomach all night”…. What?!! I knew he was lying. 😔 I asked him why didn’t he tell me he got sick and he said because he it was his stomach and he was embarrassed to say he was in the bathroom… haha (the man sent me nude selfies from his shower almost daily. He’s not embarrassed easily.)

I know this is a lot but I am finally at a place where I believe I experienced all of this so that I can better understand and relate to other people. All the anger and bitterness I had from both my exes was hard but gave me tough skin. All the nights and days I didn’t sleep worried if I was impressing them. They never deserved me to impress them but I can’t help but think maybe a small part of me touched their lives but maybe that’s just hopeful thinking. I hate to call them monsters, it makes me feel bad but I can’t hide the fact they hurt me soooooo deep. ❤️‍🩹🖤

(The list of things I endured from both Cody and Andrew could go on for many chapters. I chose the moments that I felt affected me the most)

You said it right!!! It’s exactly like a limb that needs healing. It’s every part of me. Years after I got away from Andrew, I started to randomly lose all the weight I couldn’t before. I lost a lot of hair too and I was so defensive in my marriage. My husband could say the littlest thing to trigger me and I instantly wanted to be so upset and hold everything inside to avoid any conflict. I hate confrontation it didn’t always go so easy with Andrew or Cody. It’s scary to wonder how my husband would react. Would he be different from those men?

I blocked Andrew’s number in 2015 and I didn’t learn about narcissism until 2022!!! That’s a long time that I searched for answers and I struggled in my marriage because I’ve kept a guard up scared to face anymore humiliation or disappointment in my life. Now that I understand a little more about what emotional abuse is, I began to feel everything and make more sense of it. I now see the light at the end of the tunnel and I’ve worked so hard on getting my hair back and getting my gut health under control. I’m spending so much time with family and I stand up for myself more!!!! I believe there is much purpose in all the suffering I faced with the narcissists. (There just has to be) I believe all of it made me a stronger person!! Do I “miss” the false faces and the love bomb phase?? It’s addicting more than it is “missing them”. I don’t know the real Andrew or Cody. Last time I tried to Google cody, I felt like he was sooo different it bothered me so much. I basically had a one-sided relationship with total strangers who hated my guts but pretended to be in love with me… they haunt me every day but I refuse to ever reach out to them and I do try to pray for them every time I feel upset about them. What else can I do?? It’s all over! They can’t change what they did to me and I can’t make them say sorry. If God doesn’t change them, they’re never going to feel empathy for the broken heart they gave me but God is showing me love I never saw ever before. So is my husband. I’m learning just now to finally trust both God and my husband!! (Taking deep breaths because I’m safe now) I’m only looking up now! I’ve already hit my rock bottom! ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 Hope this is all enlightening, encouraging and helpful! Thank you again for taking time to message me!! 🥰