#don't say that you'll always love me / cause you know i'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again

[emailsicansend]

doomsday is such a jackie/shauna song and it ruins me

[scekrex]

Adam Masterlist

Consider chasing dick instead of pussy {SFW}

Fuck him, flip him, bend him backwards, baby, put your back into it {NSFW}

Bitches want me 'cuz they know that I can rock {NSFW}

Heavenly {NSFW}

Till death do us part, but we're already past that phase {SFW}

Heaven's gates won't open up for us again {SFW}

What it takes to be a man {SFW}

Going viral {SFW, crack fic}

Hidden in the sheets {SFW}

Lost and Found {SFW}

Any way you want me, baby, that's the way you got me {NSFW}

Night Terrors {SFW}

I'm liking it better with you {SFW, crack fic}

Drunk 'n' Nasty {SFW, crack fic}

Constant Headache {SFW}

Baby we could be Bonnie & Clyde {SFW}

Do you even {SFW, crack fic}

For you I'd bleed myself dry {SFW}

Pretty baby with the sun in his eyes {SFW}

Figure you out {SFW}

Cuffed Up {SFW}

Got Me Obsessed {NSFW}

Forbidden fruits cause damage {SFW}

Born to Lose {SFW}

Chaotically Chaotic {SFW}

Let me live/Let me die {SFW}

Lonely Eyes {SFW}

Flying and Falling are pretty close to each other {SFW, crack fic}

I'll shelter and adore you more than anything {SFW}

Stick It To The (Wo)Man {SFW}

With broken wings we're fallin' {SFW}

The Plan (Fuck Parents) {SFW}

Pretty Boy Swag {SFW}

Goodbyes that feel like you're still in my city {SFW}

In Desire We Trust {NSFW}

People Pleasing doesn't rock {SFW}

And I dream to be your fantasy {SFW}

Chains on my lips just add flames to the fire {SFW}

Love me like you mean it, a little bit harder now {NSFW}

Never wanna stop 'cause your taste is so divine {NSFW}

Let the sun set on your life and I'll make, oh I'll make you mine {SFW}

When you meet my eyes, we both know that you're mine {SFW}

But I still want more, don't know what I'm after {NSFW}

I hate everyone, it's so easy, I wouldn't do it if I didn't really care {NSFW}

It's 'cause of these things {SFW}

He can fix it {SFW}

If God's watching then we're both sinners {SFW}

Love at first sight, I still believe {SFW}

Hurt and grieve but don't suffer alone {SFW}

I bring the ribs, I bring the drama {SFW}

Everything I love, I guess it makes me damned {NSFW}

Smother me with loving hands {SFW}

We're eating good tonight, darlin' {NSFW}

Reach out and touch faith {NSFW}

Birthday boy {SFW}

All the violence makes a statement {SFW}

If I'm so wonderful then why am I so misunderstood {SFW}

This hurts me like Heaven {NSFW}

Is this the life, the one from your dreams? {NSFW}

I got myself a fuckin' life dressed up in evening wear {SFW}

Little soldier {SFW}

About bragging and loving {SFW}

The deeper you go, the better you feel {NSFW}

Never wanted to dance with nobody, but you {SFW}

I'm a jester and I'm yours, call me your fool {SFW}

Burning, I feel it too {SFW}

There's a darkness at the heart of my love, that runs cold, runs deep {SFW}

I promise you that I'll be good to you if you promise that you'll try to love me too {SFW}

Make me cum {NSFW}

You're dead to me, stop saying my name like beetlejuice {SFW}

Spin round quick rock yo body {NSFW}

I got all twisted up, you helped straighten me out {SFW}

Suck it up, big boy {NSFW}

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be {SFW}

Take me down, a little bit harder now {NSFW}

I'm not likely to kick a head in, but I'll curb stomp a bitch if she objects at our wedding {SFW}

Kill anyone for you {SFW}

Out for Blood {SFW}

Lover come hold me {SFW}

I'll meet you in hell {SFW}

I don't want you to hate me, no, I want you to wanna hate me {SFW}

I wave goodbye to the end of beginning {SFW}

Let's make a mess and cross the line, you and me a masterpiece {NSFW}

Call me daddy {SFW}

I love it - you son of a bitch {SFW}

The king's demand of golden birds {SFW}

Rocking your world {NSFW}

I'm gonna fuck you up without further ado {SFW}

Can't take back all the things we said {SFW}

Slow Dance with You {SFW}

Gold is a divine color, luckily you're the most divine person to exist {SFW}

You're always so lovely {SFW}

All I want is all you've got {SFW}

'Cause a sinner needs a saint to tell him what's at the end {SFW}

Drunken Truths {SFW}

A bloody nose and two bleeding hearts {SFW}

'Cause no one saw me the way you did and no one's seen me that way since {SFW}

And I know the weight of the world can't crush my chest {SFW}

I could treat you so much better I've known you forever figured you out {SFW}

Masterlist 2

[starsarestories]

Regulus "don't say that you'll always love me" Black

James "'cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again" Potter

[locked-tomb-shenanigans]

Commission by @lafirechicken! Kiriona design by @nil-elk, specifically from this absolutely spectacular Kiriona piece

“Good,” said someone, so savagely that it sounded like a new voice altogether. “Good. Die. Die for her ��� it’s the only goddamn good you’ll ever do her. It’s all any of you ever knew how to give her. You could have lived for her … but you didn’t know how.“

~ Nona the Ninth, Tamsyn Muir

“Don't say that you'll always love me

'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again.”

~Doomsday, Lizzy McAlpine

Suffering through exam phase right now so please expect this space to be very inactive in the next few weeks but before I go I’m making you all suffer with me by finally posting the art I commissioned of what’s maybe the most angsty Kiriona scene in all of NtN…

Something something the girl who gave her heart and life for Harrow and just offered to do it all over again yelling about how “it’s the only goddamn good you’ll ever do her” with her wounds exposed while covered in Harrow’s blood… I’m in agony

Someone please give this poor girl a hug (and preferably lots of therapy)

[sometimes-love-is-enough]

thomas and/or janus + 15 :D

Pull the plug, make it painless I don't want a violent end Don’t say���that you'll always love me 'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you Over and over again...

[luvhockey111]

doomsday

based off of doomsday by lizzy mcalpine!

summary: Quinn Hughes and Elouise “ellie” were high school sweethearts. Everyone surrounding them were just waiting for the day that Quinn would pop the question. What happens when Quinn turns cold?

warnings: sad quinn, sad reader, kind of asshole quinn, angst a little bit

Quinn and Ellie had been dating since their freshman year of high school, to be more specific November of 2013. They were so deeply in love, when quinn went to the University of Michigan, Ellie followed. When Quinn had to move to Vancouver, he bought an apartment for the two of them. There truly was no Quinn without Ellie and vice versa. They made their apartment a home, even buying a dog right before quarantine in March of 2020. Their relationship never once faltered. That is until Ellie got a job offer in Michigan in September of 2022. Ellie’s dream had always been to be a physical trainer for a sports team. While Quinn tried and tried for the Canucks to hire her, they just simply did not need another trainer. It never crossed Quinn’s mind that Ellie could possibly consider leaving Vancouver to work. I mean Vancouver had been their home for the past 5 years, Quinn had been her home for the past 9. Eloise had found out about this job last month, she had told quinn right when she found out, since that day he had been nothing but cold. A shell of the man she loved.

“El I just don’t understand why you would go and apply for this job in Michigan, do you not care about me?.” Quinn had never raised his voice at Ellie, not in all her years of knowing him. “Quinn this is my dream, you know that. I’ve followed you every step of the way since we went to college, I’ve been working towards this job since senior year of high school. I’m not going to let it get away.” Eloise could feel her body start to over heat, her eyes get watery and blurry and her throat starting to close. Why couldn’t Quinn understand? “I told you that you don’t have to work I can provide for you El” Quinn started yelling. “You’ve had no problem letting me take care of everything and pay for the past 5 years so what’s the problem now.” “Are you insinuating that I have been using you?” Ellie was furious now. How could Quinn, her perfect boyfriend who has never raised his voice or ever mistreated her say imply such a thing? “It’s not insinuating, if I am straight up saying it Eloise.” Quinn had completely run cold. “Okay, you know what quinn I’m booking my flight for tomorrow morning. I start next week. I thought my boyfriend would be happy I’m finally getting what I’ve been dreaming about, but I guess not.” Eloise already had started packing earlier that day while quinn was at training. “Eloise if you take this job we are over.” Quinn said with a shaky voice, tears brimming just above his waterline. “I guess we’re over than, I’ll get my stuff and go to a hotel tonight.” Eloise was trying her hardest to keep her composure. She knew it had to have been a heat of the moment thing, but even then, if he is that willing to throw 9 years down the drain over a little distance, maybe he wasn’t the one.

“Pull the plug in September I don't want to die in June I'd like to start planning my funeral I've got work to do

Pull the plug, make it painless I don't want a violent end Don't say that you'll always love me 'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again”

It was now December 23 2023

Ever since Eloise left that night she had not seen or spoken to Quinn. He had not reached out and neither had she. It would be a lie to say that she had not thought about texting him everyday. However, as far as she knows he is living his bachelor life up in Vancouver. She knew Quinn would be coming back home to Michigan for Christmas, as he did every year. Last Christmas Eloise had opted on buying herself and her mom a week long cruise over the time period she knew Quinn would be back in their hometown. This year was different, although she still did not want to see Quinn or speak with him, she had done a lot of self evaluation and decided that maybe it was for the best that the 2 split. I mean they had been together since freshman year of high school. She truly had not known herself without the presence of Quinn, and same goes for Quinn. It could possibly be right person wrong time or simply just someone who wasn’t meant to be. Eloise was currently shopping in her local Trader Joe’s when she had heard an all too familiar voice. Now it’s not the voice that she had heard everyday for 9 years but it was a voice she could pick out of a lineup for sure. It was the voice of the little brother she never had. “Yup, okay Jack I’ll get that fried rice you like. Oh my god leave me alone you’re such a child.” Luke groaned loudly, Eloise let out a quiet laugh at the sound of this conversation, knowing the antics of her old second family all too well. She was in the aisle next to luke and could still hear him loud and clear. All of a sudden the voice started sounding louder and closer. “Jack I swear if you tell mom I’ll…” Luke locked eyes with Ellie and looked as if he had just seen a ghost. “Uh yeah jack I’ll see you when I get home.” Right as he hung up on jack he ran to Ellie, engulfing her in a bear hug. Right as they connected Ellie could feel herself starting to get choked up and tears welling in her eyes. “Oh El I’m so sorry about everything, I’m sorry I didn’t reach out, I’m so sorry.” “It’s okay lu, I know how close you and Quinn are I didn’t expect you to. I did miss you a whole lot though.” Luke and Eloise had always been extremely close. She had known him since he was 10 and watched him grow up into an amazing hockey player and an even better person. She reminisced back to when she had first gotten her license and the first thing she did was drive Luke to hockey practice because Ellen and Jim were busy, and Quinn and Jack were out of town. He was like the brother she never had. Luke and Eloise had talked for about 5 more minutes before jack called complaining that he was out for too long and he had to eventually part ways from Ellie. After seeing Luke it made Eloise realize how much she had missed Quinn, but if it was that easy for him to walk out of her life and not reach out then it would be just as easy for him to ignore her, or to do it again. December 25, 2023

Christmas was always Eloises favorite holiday. Every year that she had been home for Christmas she would walk down a street in her town that was filled with lights and people after their Christmas dinners. This year had been no different. After her family dinner she had grabbed her coat and went to walk down the street. Now, every year she had done this walk with Quinn, this year it felt like a part of her had died on this walk. The part of her that enjoyed Christmas, or any holiday for that matter. She had realized on this walk she had become a shell of the person she once was. She had realized how pathetic she probably looked to an outsider. It was never about not knowing herself outside of being in a relationship with Quinn, it was the pride she took in it, how he made her a better person, he pushed her to chase after her dreams, he did all that he could to get her every resource possible so that she could follow her dreams. All in all she realized that she’s the villain in her own story. Yes, Quinn had blown up on her when he really had no right to, but she was the one who packed all of her stuff without telling him, she was the one who left their shared home of the past 5 years without a word, and she was the one who had blocked his phone number meaning to have unblocked it by the next morning. As Eloise realized she never unblocked his phone number she broke. What if he had tried reaching out to fix everything? What if he missed her as much as she missed him and she would never know? Quinn’s perspective:

A piece of Quinn had died a little bit with every text he had sent to Eloises phone number and every time it had shown up as not delivered. Quinn had been siliently dying inside due to his ego not wanting to tell anyone about the breakup, although everyone could tell something was wrong. He had kept up with her life ever since they split. He as well was a shell of a person ever since she had walked out that door. He texted her everyday multiple times without fail, he had called her at least once a day to hear her voice and laugh on the answering machine. He knew that Christmas was her favorite holiday and he knew she was in town because Luke had told him. So he had decided to text her to wish her a Merry Christmas.

“The death of me was so quiet No friends and family allowed Only my murderer, you And the priest who told you to go to hell And the funny thing is I would've married you If you'd have stuck around”

Eloise had felt her phone buzz in her pocket

Q💘: Merry Christmas El, I know today is your favorite. Remember our first Christmas together when you still had braces and a unibrow lol. You still were the most beautiful girl I had ever laid my eyes on, well I mean you still are but you get the point. I know you won’t see this message and haven’t seen the other probably millions of texts I’ve sent, I still love you and will continue to love you for as long as I’m living but I think it’s doing me more harm then good. Until we (hopefully) meet again my Ellie girl.

“I had no choice in the matter Why would I? It's only the death of me”

[babyseraphim]

yet another true Monty anthem (regarding his relationship with Esther)

Pull the plug in September I don't want to die in June I'd like to start planning my funeral I've got work to do Pull the plug, make it painless I don't want a violent end Don't say that you'll always love me 'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again Doomsday is close at hand I'll book the marching band To play as you speak I'll feel like throwing up You'll sit and stare like A goddamn machine I'd like to plan out my part in this But you're such a narcissist You'll probably do it next week I don't get a choice in the matter Why would I? It's only the death of me Only the death of me

Pull the plug but be careful I don't wanna die too soon I think there's good in you somewhere I'll hang on 'til the chaos is through Doomsday is close at hand I'll book the marching band To play as you speak I'll feel like throwing up You'll sit and stare like A goddamn machine I'd like to plan out my part in this But you're such a narcissist You'll probably do it next week I don't get a choice in the matter Why would I? It's only The death of me was so quiet No friends and family allowed Only my murderer, you And the priest who told you to go to hell And the funny thing is I would've married you If you'd have stuck around I feel more free than I have in years Six feet in the ground Doomsday is close at hand I booked the marching band To play as you speak I feel like throwing up You sit and stare like A goddamn machine I'd have liked to plan out my part in this But you're such a narcissist That you did it on Halloween I had no choice in the matter Why would I? It's only the death of me

[residentmiddlechild]

Pull the plug in September I don't wanna die in June I’d like to start planning my funeral I've got work to do, mmm

Pull the plug, make it painless I don't want a violent end

Don’t say that you'll always love me 'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you Over and over again

Doomsday is close at hand I'll book the marching band To play as you speak

I'll feel like throwin' up You'll sit and stare Like a goddamn machine

I’d like to plan out my part in this But you’re such a narcissist You'll probably do it next week I don’t get a choice in the matter Why would I? It's only the death of me Only the death of me

Pull the plug, but be carеful I don't wanna die too soon I think there's good in you somewhere I’ll hang on 'til the chaos is through

Doomsday is close at hand I'll book the marching band To play as you speak

I'll feel like throwin' up You'll sit and stare Like a goddamn machine

The death of me was so quiet No friends and family allowed Only my murderer, you, and the priest Who told you to go to Hell

And the funny thing is I would've married you If you'd have stuck around

Doomsday is close at hand I booked the marching band To play as you speak

I feel like throwin' up You sit and stare Like a goddamn machine

I'd have liked to plan out my part in this But you're such a narcissist That you did it on Halloween I had no choice in the matter Why would I? It's only the death of me

______________________________________________________________

Padme Amidala - Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith Song: Doomsday by Lizzy McAlpine

[baldursgrave69]

doomsday by lizzie mcalpine is so Agnes and Gortash coded.

"don't say that you'll always love me 'cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again

i don't get a choice in the matter why would I? it's only the death of me"

Agnes' life fell to complete and total ruin due to her relationship with Enver Gortash. Before him she had never experienced a real and true human connection. Once she was fully awoken and realized what it was like to feel she chased that like a drug. His distraction caused her to let her guard down and eventually led to her ruin. She tried more than once to break it off with him, but he always convinced her that they would figure things out together.

[oddlyzephyrous]

finished last night's bbh vod... rewatched it.......

once again positing this as my number one favorite q!BBH song, ever since the pre-purgatory soul vulture era

you can't tell me it's not perfect

"I'd like to start planning my funeral, I've got work to do"

"Don't say that you'll always love me, 'cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again"

"I'd like to plan out my part in this, but you're such a narcissist, you'll probably do it next week- I get no choice in the matter, why would I, it's only the death of me"

"I feel more free than I have in years, 6 feet underground"

"It was so quiet, no friends and family allowed"

like COME ON

[ariaprompts]

PROMPTS FROM:‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎MY ON REPEAT PLAYLIST.

" you might just have dealt the final blow. "

" you're lucky as shit,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎the things i omit. "

" you've got ahold of my heart. "

" my thoughts,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎all noise. "

" got what you wanted,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎so stop feeling sorry. "

" how could anybody do the things you did so easily? "

" i guess i don't have a say,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎now that we don't talk. "

" i don't mean to make it all about me,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎but i used to believe that no one could love you like i do. "

" i know i could've loved you but you would not let me. "

" we got along until you did that. "

" i'll pay the price,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎you won't. "

" god,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎what have you done? "

" i'm just lowering your expectations. "

" you think i'm a bitch?‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎well you're not that wrong. "

" did you think i didn't see you? "

" i can't help but think of your other in the bed that was mine. "

" i know i'm half responsible and that makes me feel horrible. "

" it's just not my year,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎but i'm all good out here. "

" baby,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎why don't you come over? "

" i want you. "

" it didn't have to be like this. "

" you'll see my face in every place. "

" please be honest,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎are we better for it? "

" you're my best friend. "

" don't say that you'll always love me,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎cause you know i'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again. "

" i remember when you used to call. "

" god loves you,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎but not enough to save you. "

" stay with me,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎hold my hand. "

" you kissed me just to kiss me,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎not to take me home. "

" i thought you thought of me better. "

[askbdubsblog]

Hey, so, I want ideas for song lyrics from all the different hermitblr ask accounts!! I'm asking for your idea for a lyric, can be anything realted to hermitblr ask account lore or no lore, it just has to be hermitblr ask realted! -💣 mod ( @askbomb )

Oh giggling rubbing my hands together i love songs hold on busting out all my hermit/life series playlists!!!!!!

Bitter Medicine - The Crane Wives:

Don't look up to me I'm not as tall as you think You see, I talk a big game But it's bullshit

Prayer - Leith Ross

See, I have to believe there's some kind of deity In lonely eyes and looming trees I can't count on heaven or hell or law But I'm lonely and scared ... It's my instinct to believe there is something more than me But I can't name what I don't see

An Ego Thing - Lizzy Mcalpine

It's a battle over something stupid They're all the rage right now You don't know the truth It's a battle that I think I'm winning Something makes me think you think that too I was trying to be honest You don't make that easy to do It's not that important It's none of your concern But you got angry And said some angry words It's not that I hate you I hate that it hurt There's nothing else to it I can't do anything more, Sharp knife, loaded gun There are two ways we can do this I know which would be more fun I won't go first, won't apologize Pretty sure that it's an ego thing But I can't stand a compromise

Doomsday - Lizzy Mcalpine

Pull the plug in September I don't want to die in June I'd like to start planning my funeral I've got work to do Pull the plug, make it painless I don't want a violent end Don't say that you'll always love me 'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again Doomsday is close at hand I'll book the marching band To play as you speak I'll feel like throwing up You'll sit and stare like A goddamn machine I'd like to plan out my part in this But you're such a narcissist You'll probably do it next week I don't get a choice in the matter Why would I? It's only the death of me Only the death of me Pull the plug but be careful I don't wanna die too soon I think there's good in you somewhere I'll hang on 'til the chaos is through ... I'd like to plan out my part in this But you're such a narcissist You'll probably do it next week I don't get a choice in the matter Why would I? It's only The death of me was so quiet No friends and family allowed ... And the funny thing is I would've married you If you'd have stuck around I feel more free than I have in years Six feet in the ground Doomsday is close at hand I booked the marching band To play as you speak I feel like throwing up You sit and stare like A goddamn machine

if I kept going this post would be even longer than it already is

go listen to The Amazing Devils those are also good songs

[voxxisms]

SONGS TO WRITE MY MUSE:

tagged by no one that i know of

Liar—

I am the host of this hostility.  I'm the master magician that makes you believe I'm real,  I'm not fake,  but in reality I'm the lying man. My life's become this grand game of deception,  my mind ignores all my heart's good intentions. 

The Guide to Success—

Free of charge,  here's the guide to success.  Never say what you really feel.  Why make a choice when it's safer just to make a deal?  Stay away from what causes a stir or offends. Keep your heart silent,  don't dispute,  and if it turns violent,  make sure you know who to shoot.

My Blood—

I don't know what you want from me,  want from me.  I don't know what you want.  You are the shiver in my blood and my bones,  and I'm growing cold.  You know just how to make me feel alone,  and I'm growing cold.

I DON'T SMOKE—

So if you need to be mean,  be mean to me.  I can take it and put it inside of me.  If your hands need to break more than trinkets in your room,  you can lean on my arm as you break my heart.  Just don't leave me alone wondering where you are.  I am stronger than you give me credit for.

Little Lion Man—

Weep little lion man,  you're not as brave as you were at the start.  Rate yourself and rake yourself,  take all the courage you have left,  and waste it on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head.

doomsday—

Pull the plug,  make it painless.  I don't want a violent end.  Don't say that you'll always love me,  'cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again.  //  Pull the plug but be careful;  I don't wanna die too soon.  I think there's good in you somewhere,  I'll hold on 'til the chaos is through.

Chosen Last—

I've been chosen last since the kindergarten.  Walk in the grass and it's disregarded.  Fast walk to the lunch table and pack up before I'm ready to go.  I don't speak my mind,  I just sit and listen.  I'm there on time,  'cause they won't know I'm missing.  Sometimes I would rather stay home than show up to be ignored and alone.

Come Hang Out—

Come hang out,  'cause you're out of your mind.  You're working so damn hard,  you forgot what you like.  Come hang out,  don't you leave us behind. "But, I'll be there next time.  I'll be there next time."

Strange Love (Valentino)—

Everybody wants to know if we fucked on the bathroom sink.  How your hands felt in my hair,  if we were high on amphetamines.  Everybody wants to hear how we chain-smoked until three.  How you laughed when you said my name,  and how you gripped my hips so mean. // They think I'm insane,  they think my lover is strange,  but I don't have to fucking tell them anything,  anything.

White Flag (Alastor)—

There will be no white flag above my door.  I'm in love and always will be.  And when we meet,  which I'm sure we will,  all that was there will be there still.  I'll let it pass,  and hold my tongue,  and you will think that I've moved on.

She (Linda)—

And she smells like lemongrass and sleep.  She tastes like apple juice and peach.  Oh,  you would find her in a polaroid picture.  And she means everything to me.

Echo (RAM)—

The clock stopped ticking forever ago.  How long have I been up?  I don't know.  I can't get a grip,  but I can't let go.  There wasn't anything to hold onto though.  //  What the hell's going on,  can someone tell me please? Why am I switching faster than the channels on TV?

[foggybear42]

the songs i have on my elody playlist and the lyrics in said songs that remind me of her

this ended up being a very long post so press read more to see the full thing

Alone And Sublime - Mother Mother

Aren't I supposed to wanna fight for love? / And life? / Everything that people say is right? / Am I so wrong to cry only when there's something in my eye? / Am I to die alone and sublime?

I threw a pebble in a stream / And let it go about as easily as love that might prosper / All the things they sing about in gospels. / Am I so awful, to stumble only when I'm walking with another? / Is it a blunder to die alone and sublime?

[aroace elody for the win]

Coming Back to Me - Leith Ross

Last week, I wondered if dying would feel like the stories the Catholic Church told / But I used to talk to my mother about how I just couldn't wait to get old

[also just the general feeling of realising that instead of viewing the world with the child-like wonder that you had as a kid, you now view the world with a sour cynicism]

doomsday - Lizzy Mcalpine

Pull the plug, make it painless / I don't want a violent end / Don't say that you'll always love me / 'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again

I don't get a choice in the matter / Why would I? It's only the death of me

Eight - Sleeping at Last

I was just a kid who grew up strong enough / To pick this armor up / And suddenly it fit

I was little, I was weak and perfectly naive / And I grew up too quick

When I see fragile things, helpless things, broken things / I see the familiar / I was little, I was weak, I was perfect, too / Now I'm a broken mirror

I'm standing guard, I'm falling apart / And all I want is to trust you / Show me how to lay my sword down / For long enough to let you through

I'm just a kid who grew up scared enough / To hold the door shut / And bury my innocence

I'ma shake the ground with all my might / And I will pull my whole heart up to the surface / For the innocent, for the vulnerable / And I'll show up on the front lines with a purpose / And I'll give all I have, I'll give my blood, give my sweat / An ocean of tears will spill for what is broken / I'm shattered porcelain, glued back together again / Invincible like I've never been

Hate Yourself - TV Girl

I'd think you'd fall in love with anyone / Who fell in love with you

So take comfort / Cruel comfort / Before you start to wonder / How you got locked inside your room

Do you let them down, gently? / Does it only make it harder? / To let the feeling linger / To drag it out a little longer / Does it put your mind at ease? / But you're the one who brought 'em here / You're the one who has to take them when you leave / And how long will it… / Take? / Before you start to hate yourself

I Guess - Mitski

It's been you and me / Since before I was me / Without you, I don't yet know / Quite how to live

It's still as a pond / I am staring into / From here, I can say / Thank you / From here, I can tell you / Thank you

Inkpot Gods - The Amazing Devil

And what you see is not the dark / It's just the gods upturning ink pots 'cause they know what you'll become

And to those gods, I will speak bluntly / "We've an accord, if you ever touch or harm him / Please, rest assured that you might not fear a man / But to a woman, by the end, you'll kneel and plea / 'Cause I'm more than what my mum told me to be"

And I can hear him break / And he doesn't understand / And I wish that I could take his hand / But where I'm going is for me and me alone

If I don't make it back from where I've gone / Just know I loved you all along

Me and My Husband - Mitski

But me and my husband / We're doing better / It's always been just him and me / Together / So I bet all I have on that / Furrowed brow / And at least in this lifetime / We're sticking together / Me and my husband / We're sticking together

Savior Complex - Phoebe Bridgers

I drag you to the shore / Sweating through the heat / You're gonna drown in your sleep / For sure / Wake up and start a big fire / In our one room apartment / But I'm too tired / To have a pissing contest

I'm a bad liar / With a savior complex

[i really just hc that elody has a big saviour complex]

Screams and Dreams - Faye

And I guess this is the way it ends / And there's no point in staying friends / And I remember when you told me that you loved me / Little did I know and little did I say / You were over your head and I hadn't yet said / What's true in our heart

So I wish upon a star / And I promise I'll go far / And I close my eyes at once / And I hear a thousand songs

[mostly just added the "wish upon a star" part because it makes me think of fairy tales, and elody is, in fact, a fairy tale herself]

Show You a Body - Haley Heynderickx

I am letting you go / I am letting you go / I am letting you go awry

It was more a mirage / In sickness and health

[all the other lyrics fit elody in a more vibe-y way than a literal way]

Slow Down - Laufey

I wish it would slow down / Even for a second / I'm so old now / Left my adolescence

Think I found somebody / But don't think that it's love

The Night We Met - Lord Huron

I had all and then most of you / Some and now none of you / Take me back to the night we met / I don't know what I'm supposed to do / Haunted by the ghost of you / Oh, take me back to the night we met

Two Slow Dancers - Mitski

It's funny how they're all the same / It's funny how you always remember / And we've both done it all a hundred times before / It's funny how I still forgot / It would be a hundred times easier / If we were young again

When - Dodie

I think I've been telling lies / 'Cause I've never been in love

Sure, I'll live in the moment / But I'm never happy here

Memories painted with much brighter ink / They tell me I loved, teach me how to think

I'm waiting to live, and waiting to love / Oh, it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when

[aroace elody for the win pt2]

and here's the playlist itself!! (art by polarsirens)

[ambriel-angstwitch]

Doomsday through the lens of Merthur

This is essentially a fanfic that plays in my brain when I play the song because it’s a lot of Merthur concepts and not any references to actual canon events like I’ll do in other analyses.

Pull the plug in September I don't wanna die in June. I'd like to start planning my funeral I've got work to do, hmm.

Merlin plans to reveal his magic to Arthur he wants to prepare for the worst possible outcomes. He has work to do though he needs to make sure that if he dies he can at least ensure Arthur’s safety. Tell him everything or eliminate the threats.

Pull the plug, make it painless. I don't want a violent end

Merlin would die for Arthur but the one thing he wouldn’t do is burn for him. He’ll go as long as it’s quick.

Don't say that you'll always love me 'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you Over and over again

In a way it would also be horrible for Arthur to say that he loves Merlin once his magic revealed because Merlin likely might not believe it but also because then Merlin would have hidden everything and suffered in silence for nothing. Merlin has risked his life over and over for Arthur and he’s more than willing to die for him.

Doomsday is close at hand I'll book the marching band To play as you speak

Merlin is approaching the time when he plans to tell Arthur. Booking the marching band has connotations of victory which means Merlin thinks his execution would be seen as an accomplishment just another victory in the fight against magic.

I'll feel like throwin' up You'll sit and stare like A goddamn machine

Spilling all of his secrets makes Merlin feel sick he’s nervous about what the outcome will be to make things worse he can’t even tell what Arthur’s thinking because he just stares on.

I'd like to plan out my part in this But you're such a narcissist You'll probably do it next week I don't get a choice in the matter Why would I? It's only the death of me

Without confirmation of what Arthur thinks he assumes the worst, that he’s going to die.

Only the death of me. Pull the plug, but be careful I don't wanna die too soon. I think there's good in you somewhere I'll hang on 'til the chaos is through

Goes back to his worry about him planning the reveal but decides he doesn’t want to risk doing it to early revealing that none of these were real just potential ways it could turn out. He believes in the good in Arthur and he wants to ensure the future they’d create. He’ll wait to tell him until after the chaos has died down and they’ve beaten their enemies.

[nightshift-clocking-in]

Doomsday by Lizzy McAlpine is Wolfstar coded, specific Remus when Sirius goes to Azkaban and he is left alone in his grief and hating himself for not seeing the signs that the love of his life was a traitor. Wishing that he would have died before he saw everything fall apart. He's always viewed himself as disposable, going on the dangerous missions to keep his friends safe --he was not the one who was supposed to make it through.

Pull the plug in September I don't wanna die in June I'd like to start planning my funeral I've got work to do

Pull the plug, make it painless I don't want a violent end Don't say that you'll always love me 'Cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again