#connie speaks

[askbdubsblog]

hey chat i would like it if whoever is sending me asks with slurs would kindly stop? If I get another one I'll be turning asks off for a bit on BOTH here and the rendog blog

[conniemcfalcon]

Fuck Xitter

How are my tumblrinas (gender neutral) doing? *kicks feet*

[wardenparker]

Hey my beloved babies!

Work has THOROUGHLY kicked my ass and I am not going to be able to get part 3 of *Next to Normal* out tomorrow, unfortunately. However! I will be compiling a post of lovely seasonal fics from years past and a few other non-seasonal choices for your reading enjoyment!

Send your favorite fic writers some extra love around the winter holidays, friends. We’re busy, we’re stressed, and we *want* to be producing. So take some time to leave love notes, comment on fics, reblog stories you love, and spread joy in your fandoms!

Love you all so terribly much 💋

[askrendog]

Oh my goodness!

I saw my good friend BdoubleO on here and now I'm here too!

Asks are: on/off

OOC:

I'm not Rendog, this is simply something fun I wanted to do a while ago and just now decided it'd be fun!

This will NOT be 100% in character, I can only replicate how I view him and how he acts!

I also run the @askbdubsblog but i lowkey like kinda wasnt fw the angst so like be silly here gang!!!!!! I liked the silly asks!!!! be silly!!!!!!

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I'd consider myself lenient on rules, but just in case

dont be weird, unless your nsfw ask is really like jaw-droppingly earth shatteringly funny it'll be deleted

If a CC goes by their real name (e.i Joel Smallishbean) feel free to call them by their real name, but if they're like Bdubs who goes by a screen name please don't use real names thanks

I don't care for discourse, I think it's so stupid please leave it out of my asks (unless it's like really funny and extra stupid)

I am NOT- I repeat am NOT- roleplaying as the cc! I am roleplaying as the CHARACTER!

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Navigation:

In-character posts will be tagged as #Ask Rendog This also counts as his character tag chat the brain fog is getting to me

Out-of-character posts will be tagged with #Connie Speaks and will also be color-coded blue

Suggestive and nsfw posts will be tagged as such

About Rendog

[ocd-converts]

It's been a month since I've touch Choosing a Jewish Life. A book that i first picked up because I was tired of hopping onto different religions and spiritual understanding of the world, trying to convince myself that this is it, only for me to slowly shift away. I've tried being a Christian for so long. Then looked into Islam. Then tried to be a part of different sects of Paganism for 4ish years. Then atheism for about a year. Nothing stuck.

When I found out that conversion to Judaism was a thing, I was so relieved and excited. I found my spiritual home. I could say that I finally found what my soul was searching for.

In the past, my family went a synagogue couple of times when I was a kid, but we lost contact after moving. But now that I found a different synagogue, I couldn't wait to speak to a rabbi and learn as much as I can. I wasn't in any rush to start my conversion, I wanted to fully learn and understand everything about Judaism and Jewish people so that I could then start my conversion and embrace every aspect of the journey.

Then I started to doubt. I doubted my intentions. I was, and still am, scared that I'm fetishizing the religion, culture, and the people. I was so afraid that I stopped researching. Then stopped reading. Then never setting foot again to the synagogue. Finally, I started to procrastinate on reaching out to a rabbi.

Yeah I know how it reads. It looks like I didn't do much. That I barley tried. That all I did was just read a few pages of a book and gave up. But the thing is, I'm trying my absolute best in overcoming this. It's not something that I want to give up on.

As soon as I started researching, my OCD lashed on to it. It kept saying that I wasn't sincere, that I didn't even believe in a deity. Since I was an atheist in the past, it's only a rebound because Christianity didn't work out . I tried ignoring it, but it only grew bigger. Then it started to say very antisemitic things. I was so ashamed of myself that I just stopped. I gave up reading, research, started avoiding.

The fear and anxiety of doing something which is contradictory of yourself is so horrifying that it both disgust and frightens you. So much so that you end up doing everything in your power to avoid that triggering thought.

And this is why OCD sucks.

[connie-cookie]

How the hell did @the-l-dude make GwenPool/Spider-Gwen romance fanart of that quality? It looks like it was draw by David Baldwin himself.

woahh this is the first ask i've ever gotten..

RIGHT?? They somehow managed to replicate GSB exactly.. I have nothing but respect for people who can do that - wish I could! Arte...

[wardenparker]

The American Girl books are why I write historical fiction. They are why I am obsessive in my research and why I am so determined to be respectful of the stories that I tell. These are the books that made me want to write. They are the characters that taught me that every stage of a woman’s life is important and that every life is a story worth telling. 

The American Girls gave me my passion. 

Step the fuck off my American Girls.

American Girl stories were the best tbh

[polycephalynest]

HELLOO connie do you maybaps have a. Fave clown toy :3 those little silly looking doll guys are very shaped

Oughh wait I have one we bought when we were little and visiting our grandparents in New Orleans!

This is kitty, he's a little cat jester guy!!

[stcassianchoir]

Hi, I'm Constance, she/they, 🇨🇦 🇯🇲 🇧🇷 🇪🇸, Ocean made me join tumblr just to be a part of this so sorry if I do anything wrong!

- Connie 🍭💕

[askbdubsblog]

i gotta post this before i forget eat up baby girls

The important text as it appears reads as:

Watcher Bdubs

He has a good relationship with the watchers, he does his job (to watch Hermitcraft) and they're satisfied with him

Often times he'll just disappear from Hermitcraft without any words to anyone, during these vacations, he's doing other watcher business like hunting down wayward watchers/players he sees nothing wrong with this (in reference to killing rebels)

In his watcher form, he has light purple wings (Not written but equally as important, in his watcher form his arms resemble a praying mantis)

In Last Life he chose to have green parrot wings

Retconning that he dyes his hair, it changes to match the moon phases

The Eyes:

He can hide the eyes on his back, but doing so drains his energy after long periods of time (The only eye he cannot hide is the one on the base of his neck)

The eyes are all over his back

He can see with them if he really wanted to (He doesn't. It makes his head hurt)

[connie-cookie]

SENPAI NOTICED ME!

i love you too jay 

[wardenparker]

I have a question.

Opening up my asks on this Tuesday night to start a conversation about disabled reader characters and how people feel about them. This is for both fully abled as well as disabled readers of every kind. I know that it is an incredibly complex question and there are no right or wrong answers here. My only aim is to open a dialogue.

Do you find it easier or more difficult to relate to them? To put yourself into that reader’s place? Would you be more or less interested in a very realistic story versus one of high fantasy? How do you feel about love stories featuring overtly disabled reader characters? 

Let’s start talking, guys. I’m interested in what people have to say.

[askrendog]

ok so i read through some blogs yk catching up on what people are doing and I'm gonna clarify again that I am not comfortable being put in a parental role, whatever family dynamics are out there on the other blogs that reference Ren or Bdubs are NOT canon to my blogs, characters, or lore

[screwpinecaprice]

Haha she a Border Connie.

Even before Cat Steven (the cat) I imagined a cat Steven to be a calico with a stubby tail.

[askbdubsblog]

giggling over YOU anon!!!!

this is to all the ask rp acc. There's too many to @ but they're all so cool. There's so much drama and they're so cool!!!

To all the ask blogs and RP accounts!!!

[connie-cookie]

I don’t know, that she said “I thought I might be bi” instead of just “I’m bi” combined with everything else has me think we might be due for another rug pull — that this asexual writer is giving her the 0 + 0 = 2 experience/revelation.

I honestly took it more like, since in the real world she was always kinda wasting her time and not going for stuff, she never actually explored? Though now that you say it, I'm reconsidering too...

It's super sudden and not very impactful? I feel like it's clear Marvel's just testing out the waters, Gwenpool-wise, but them being them (cowards) they're very risk-averse and want to stick with characters they know do well (like how they keep Spidey constantly in his 20s). It's very clear in their Instagram post promoting it and their shying away from Important characters that, if this doesn't get exactly the reaction they want, they'll have an excuse to cut her for good.

I guess that is what she's founded on though - I wanna see how this turns out. .......idk if this makes sense.