#doesnt affect him too badly :(

[vengeful4ever]

I don't even know what wrong this time I just feel so empty

[ghost-proofbaby]

thinking about Eddie being so eager to kiss you all the time and he just gets a little too excited sometimes a little too rough and you bump into something and he cradles you while you giggle cause he can't stop smiling into his kisses

And sure maybe it's a little awkward and teeth knock against each other and he catches your lip in his teeth a little too hard but it's okay cause you're deliriously happy

And it's not about getting to the sex (not all the time anyways) but he's just so happy to have found a safe place to land and he's enthusiastic that he found someone who wants to kiss him just as much as he wants to kiss you

And this time he's not too much and his feelings aren't too big and he doesn't need to tone it down cause you're his person and he's yours

Okay bye ily

mouse. mouse get the fuck back here. MOUSE DONT LEAVE ME LIKE THIS

he's just so happy to have a safe place to land and this time he's not too much and his feelings aren't too big were daggers straight to my heart you come back here right now before i actually bleed out from needing this man so badly.

no but thats exactly it. eddie has spent so long jumping and toeing that line of either trying to cram himself into this bite-sized shape for the ones around him, and just exploding and pretending he doesn't give a fuck that he will never fit into anyone's cup of tea so he'll just make himself even larger, that when you enter his life he just doesnt know what to do about it.

because he starts with his regular tricks of being so over the top, so unbearable, and all you're doing is laughing and entertaining his antics. even playing along at times. and so he retracts a little, turning back into a quiet boy who will shrivel up until he's invisible or easy to love (whichever comes first). but then that doesn't work - and to be truthful, he doesn't even know what his mind's end goal is here because why is he trying to push you away so desperately? - and he's just at a loss. you want him on the thundering days, where he makes his grey clouds everyone's problem and all his lightning is blinding and sporadic. you want him on the quiet days, where the downpour is no longer a roar but a soft drizzle, a bit more silent and a bit more bearable but still there. and he can't tell if it's a joke - he can't decipher if your kisses amidst his rambles are sincere, if you're actually smiling at his jokes because you like him or you're too polite to break his heart. he can't see through those gentle hands you use to caress back his wild hair to be sure that the softest of touches are really just you, or some strange gloves of care that you're only simply wearing for now.

and then one morning, he wakes up, and you're still there, awake before he is and just watching him with so much love. feather-light fingers taking their time tracing over his tattoo on his chest and arms, not noticing he's awake yet as you smile so serenely at him. you're looking at him in a way that he's never really gotten to experience so vulnerably before - like he isn't a nuisance, isn't a mistake. like the universe has so intentionally dropped him into your palms, and you're so aware of how delicate he can be below the surface. and he just breaks.

"i love you"

he'd blurt it out, the first time he's ever said those words to you. it almost feels like the first time he's said those words, period.

he's said them to wayne, in their own way, both a bit stiff in expressing affection and skirting around those words whenever they can for a simply ruffle of hair or unexpected side hugs. he'd said them to his mom, a young boy with shining eyes despite it all, looking at her like she was the world because she was his world.

and... well. that's it. he can count the number of times he's said those words on one hand, and now he's said them to you, and all he can hope is you handle them with as much care as you've handled him.

he hopes you can feel the weight of his heart pressing down on them.

and he thinks you do, when you startle a little, looking up to his lips where those rough words had just fallen from in a cracking tone, and you take your time in awarding him with a smile that could save lives. cure cancer, cure sadness, cure the end of the world even. every cliche possible.

"yeah?" you'd whisper back, and his heart skips a beat, terrified that the next words you say won't be what he needs to hear so desperately. but they are. because of course they are. you wouldn't have been watching him sleep in that way if they hadn't been on the tip of your tongue, "i love you."

not a crash landing, but a soft-padded decent. a slow fall with a cushion to prevent broken bones and more invisible scars.

he kisses you then the way he was going to kiss you every day going forward: pushing forward recklessly, teeth and noses bumping a little, smiles making it nearly impossible. he kisses you like he's coming home after a long day, because he is.

he's home. no boxes in sight to fit into, no cups that'll overflow from all the fizzling feelings pouring out of his chest. you've got him, and he's got you.

[jasontoddspussy]

hanahaki au. but the disease/curse is built so that if its strong enough it'll like, give symptoms to whoever is the cause of the thing in the first place.

jason has hanahaki. his hanahaki is caused by his self hate, and jealousy. he's deep deep down envious of dick. he wants to be loved so, so badly. he wants to have a family. and yet he was betrayed. the bats dont like or trust him. he hates himself so so much.

and the hanahaki seizes him then. making him cough up blue flowers (im unsure which yet, this is just like base idea)

its so strong that *dick* coughs up flowers - marigolds. and he's like. wtf. he contacts and talks to raven abt it who tells him the curse isn't within him - whoever that flower represents is the one dying right now. and dick being dick finds out its jason and tries to save him. he tries to like. hang out with jason more. he tries to be there for him. and jason is aggresive and annoyed and finally ends up coughing up bloody flowers and dicks like please, jay. you know i love you. and jasons like. no, you don't. not in the way i need you to.

what jason means; you don't love who i am now, you love the dead kid i was. you don't trust me now. you wish i was still dead and that i'd never come back to life.

what dick *Thinks* jason means: i'm in love with you, but i know you see me as only a brother and that you can't reciprocate.

and dick thinks to himself "oh god. jasons in love with me." and decides then and there, that he's gonna beat the curse into the ground with the affection that jason needs, because the curse will "wilt" away if it's tricked into thinking the love is returned. he's gonna have to act like an interested lover, he thinks, or else jason will die.

he starts out slowly. initiating more body contact. he has to be slow or else jason will realise whats going on and then he might die quicker. it takes him weeks but jasons drunk and they're together drinking and dick kisses him, pretending to be drunk (he's tipsy but nowhere near as drunk as jason is) and jasons like ? dickie? what're you...doing? we- you shouldn't do this, we shouldn't- we're siblings- and dicks like shh sh it's okay jaybird, i got you it's okay

they kiss but it turns into making out and dick *loathes* that he can just do that while jason is all blushing and kinda innocent/confused, that he can do this to his *Brother* - and jasons like you cant be serious, you want to- to have sex? with *me*? and dicks like well, if you want to. we can also not. and jasons like why would you want to do that with me. we're siblings. and dicks like "you're a crimelord, jason" and jasons like yeah but also have you seen me? im more scar tissue than flesh. i have a pussy, im big and hairy and-

and dick hasn't looked at jasons body naked like that. he hasn't studied him. he couldn't bring himself to. and jasons still like. going on about how he doesn't understand how anyone, much less golden boy dick grayson, could look at him and see something attractive. and dick feels so, so guilty abt doing this but he can't stop, he has to keep going to save jason's life.

in the smut scene it's like... dick is trying to tell jason he's gorgeous and what not bcs it doesnt sound like jason has a lot of confidence, which is a surprise to him, and instead of letting himself think too much about it, he.. hotdogs? him is that the term, and jasons just flushed and pliant and needy and dicks like... i got condoms and lube... if you want to? and jason says ok. but uh. i dont know what im doing.. im..ive never done this. before. so, uh. yeah. and dick screams inside himself at the fact he's taking his little brother's virginity but outside just nods and assures jason its okay, they're safe here this is okay-

i havent decided yet if this is purposeful or not but the condom is broken. and jason ends up getting knocked up. and dick is so confused bcs the curse should be done but it's *not*-

and he realises...

he may... not have any idea about who jason is. because red hood, the man he thought he knew, is a dramatic, extremely talented fighter & assassin who is cunning and a masterplanner, self assured and a hardass.

but the drunk jason was just a mess of self-hate and maybe- maybe the curse isn't because he's in love with dick, but because he's in love with what dick *has*, because jason hates himself and dick-

dick just fucked his little brother and he may or may not have fucked their entire relationship up.

[cottoncandythunderhead]

aiura mikoto analysis!!

i feel that theres a big lack of miko analyses in this world and its bc ppl usually ignore or justify all her character flaws bc they js wanna see her as “the better teruhashi”, so here i am to right the world and attempt 2 do an in-depth analysis on miko!! pls forgive if im missing things, i will edit this as i get a better understanding of her character. and yes i mostly focus on her relationship with saiki soz abt that :p (this is NOT a saiura post tho and ull be disappointed if u go in thinking that)

aiura mikoto is a kindhearted and mostly selfless character who goes out of her way to help ppl, usually for no reason other than she cares, and shes willing to put herself in danger for the sake of others. shes blunt and knows the value of herself and her powers- though this can go a bit too far at times…

she plays the role of kokomis love rival which makes sense since her genuine desire to help others and expect no personal gain and her upfront and honest attitude sharply contrasts kokomis ingenuity and tendency to be kind to others for personal gain (at least as far as she believes)

miko is honest to a fault, blurting out whatever she thinks, while kokomi speaks carefully to curate her image. miko has a tendency to act first and think later, while kokomi thinks first and acts in a crafted way that aligns with her goals.

and they also have things in common like both being very self-sacrificial and being kind to others at their own expense, but again kokomi does this more out of desperation for validation while miko does it out of genuine kindness

their crushes on saiki r also a bit similar, ill talk abt this more but aiura goes into her crush not bc she genuinely has feelings for saiki but bc she believes hes her soulmate and so she makes up a personality for him that matches her desires while kokomi goes into her crush not bc she was actually attracted to him but bc she was confused abt her resentment towards him and wanted him to be infatuated with her. tho, we get to see teruhashi develop past and acknowledge this while aiuras misunderstandings r consistent until the end

then theres the chapter where they switch styles and we see how their typical selfish vs selfless bit can also be reversed in ways bc the main reason for their differences is that miko is so blunt and open while kokomi hides her feelings, bc although we do see kokomi thinking badly abt miko, shes never anything but kind to her aloud while miko despite thinking so highly of kokomi, ends up being the 1 who does something to directly affect kokomi negatively

its a little hard to tell whats going in this scene but by my pov it seems like the 1st part is what saiki wanted miko to tell kokomi, with how serious it is and how thats the main focus b4 we go into kokomis own thoughts and saikis reactions, and so the 2nd thing is NOT a part of saikis objective and is miko trying to take advantage of the situation bc its her going on and on in the background while the focus has already changed. by this point kokomi has already begun to move on from her jealousy and the little freakout she had, while miko is stuck in her jealousy and seeing kokomi as "the final boss" and trying to change kokomis feelings. tho her feelings r much milder than kokomis ever were, her approach is blunt and an attempt to effect kokomi while kokomis was quiet and would only affect herself. this is why their rivalry is so important, they represent the "good" and the "bad" that the other doesnt have

as for mikos relationship with kusuo, they have a good bond thats highlighted pretty immediately when they meet and they work so well together to keep chiyo safe. bc of this, hes able to trust her (and toritsuka) to help him out with things involving his powers that at this time he cant trust any1 else for

the chapter with meras dad has them clashing a lot, but it does end up working out. the chapter highlights mikos stubborn and reckless nature clashing with saikis pessimism and tendency to refuse to look past the badness of a situation

mikos intentions r entirely selfless, but her reaction here is stubborn and unreasonable :p saiki was also not entirely reasonable, and this shows their opposite values that clash so much yet come together in the end to get the best outcome for mera. in this moment tho, it feels hurtful that saiki genuinely confides in her his hesitations and concerns for others and specifically meras health after something miko did ended up hurting her and miko responds like this and only rethinks when saiki leaves. in the end she does show that shes thought abt what saiki says, so its not a “half-hearted attempt” anymore and she goes into it knowing itll be okay bc she saw that it will

but despite this, miko doesnt learn her lesson abt recklessly using her powers nor does she think past her misunderstandings and realize saiki does care abt ppl, she still moves past this believing she was right the whole time and saiki is unreasonable and selfish. imo these chapters were a chance for them to have a way better understanding of each other especially since saiki opening up to her abt his hesitations was such a rare moment but unfortunately she didnt understand and never rlly ended up doing so beyond having a doki doki moment abt saiki caring abt her after she was the one he had to save from the consequences of her actions

tho these chapters highlight how off her perception of him is their relationship is still furthered by them bc of how wonderfully they worked together even when they werent getting along, saiki clearly trusts her a lot since this ends with him asking her to help him stop the volcanic eruption

however when it comes to romance... for all my love for miko, im never ever gonna ship saiki with someone who tried to sexually assault him :p n yes, ik its a gag manga, thats not relevant :p if ppl can like and understand toritsukas character without shipping him with ppl he sexually harassed, i can do the same with miko!!

she was genuinely surprised when he caught her here which tells me despite knowing abt his powers she didnt think he would catch her, so if he were powerless or otherwise hadnt caught her she wouldve simply sa him here. ive seen some ppl say "she realized he wasnt into it after this so shes very respectful of his boundaries" and im kinda baffled at that interpretation :p its not a flex that she realized he didnt wanna be sexually assaulted. idk guys maybe sexually assault is js generally bad??? besides, even beyond the fact this shouldnt have to be an established boundary in the 1st place, it seems way less likely that she understood a boundary here and more likely that she js realized that strategy wouldnt work on him bc of his powers :p

the one where she undresses in his bed is more of a genuine misunderstanding but it still shows how badly she misunderstands him. she ignored most of his message and only read the part she wanted and expected and had clearly been waiting for, and immediately jumped into his bed and took her clothes off, ending up in him almost kicking her out

despite these situations where he clearly expresses disdain at the idea of sexuality, this misunderstanding of hers is consistent throughout her character :p the overwhelming evidence to the contrary never makes her stop assuming that he secretly wants it or smth

i think despite being into other men, she put a lot of stake in her idea of soulmates :p she scryed it and transferred schools to find him after all, and she has a lot of trust in her own self and power, so i think she made a lot of untrue assumptions abt soulmates and how perfect they are and thought she and saiki would immediately click and get along and thered be 0 incompatibilities at all- as if finding her soulmate will fulfill all her romantic n sexual desires. this is why she makes 0 effort to build a romantic connection between them b4 declaring them soulmates and lovers, several times claiming theyre already dating, she assumed itd already exist. therefore she thinks that since SHE is very sexual, her soulmate must be as well. they seem to have nothing in common besides powers and the drive to help others which she isnt aware of, especially in what they want in life and from a partner, which i think is another reason she decided early on based on no evidence that hes a very sexual sadist and latched onto the idea, unable to believe anything else despite all evidence otherwise, for the entire show. 

shes obviously wrong. shes js too fixated on her own desires and expectations to realize that.

she originally claimed to have “fallen in love” with saiki only after seeing his powers and deciding that his mild sassiness was somehow indicative of sadism or sexuality. in the same breath she expresses disappointment in who her soulmate is and doesnt like his personality, so its pretty clear she cooked that up so she could have something to latch onto. from that point forward, i dont remember her showing attraction to anything abt saiki beyond his powers and the sadism/sexuality she misunderstood.

miko deserves some1 she doesnt feel the need to project onto js to feel like her desires r being fulfilled, and saiki deserves some1 who doesnt continuously expect from him what he doesnt want to give and has expressed that.

the thing is they have WAY better chemistry when she ISNT trying to force romance or sexuality into their relationship and she tends to misunderstand every platonic situation with him as that so it makes it a bit hard to see past her misunderstandings and see their friendship through it

at the very end of volcano arc she ALMOST ruins the moment by misunderstanding the situation as romantic and asking to kiss him but the hug she ends up giving him after is much sweeter and more emotionally impactful. its ofc not wrong for her to ask honest questions, im not saying she was wrong for it and its also not wrong 4 her to want to kiss him in that moment, but it does show her inability to read him and the situation and how this limits the chemistry between them. her stubborn nature still came out here when instead of simply accepting the “no” she said “AT LEAST let me give u a hug then” as if he owes at least something to her, but i dont fault her for this bc they both def needed and deserved a hug in that moment. saiki himself has also generally never been averse to platonic physical touch, often letting nendo or toritsuka etc to touch him without protest so this isnt any kind of boundary being broken. funnily, miko is the only person i remember him refusing to let touch him like him making her sit on the other side of the table and teleporting away from a hug but that seems to have changed by the end, or at the very least hell allow it from her in certain situations

miko is overall a good and genuine person, most notably how despite her jealousies of kokomi she still admires her so much, her defenses of kumi who was being bullied in a clothing shop, her expressing she doesnt mind helping kusuo for nothing in return (despite saying this immediately after implying she still wanted a favor after he didnt want to have sex with her, honestly not sure abt this part), and her mostly genuine intentions with her clients

this post will serve as my miko reference from now on and is subject to change!*

[sanrolii]

Hiii saw u were open for reqs :)) if its okay can i request the jjk students (toge and maybe yuta if possible) and something about how they act around reader when they started having a crush on them but reader doesnt know >< huhu tysm i hope this is interesting for you, have a good day!! <3

of course babe!! i also threw yuuji in there because i just love that boy 😩

yuuji:

•he makes it so obvious he has a crush on you, it’s pretty much impossible to not know. he isn’t quiet at all about his adoration for you, and loves to show and tell you just how much he cares!

•this boy is constantly complimenting you! whether to your face or to his friends, he thinks you have zero flaws and could brag about you all day long!

•you’re his official movie partner! he loves to take you out to the theater to watch his favorite classics, and always treats you to food afterwards as a thank you for spending time with him!

•he would definitely confess to you himself (that’s if you didn’t hear it through the grapevine already, since he’s already told everyone how much he adores you), and he would keep it simple. he would probably take you out to dinner or on a walk to confess, something simple but still romantic!

yuuta:

•he’s so nervous around you. he is constantly blushing whenever you talk to him, and he gets teased so badly because of it.

•he loves to spend whatever time he can get with you, whether it be in or out of school. struggling with a certain subject? he’s more than happy to help you study! need a sparring partner? he’s already in the field waiting for you! hungry? dinners on him tonight!

•while yuuta thinks you are a great friend and has no doubts you you think of him as a great friend too, he feels stuck in the friendzone with you. no matter how much his friends try to convince him you like him back, he just can’t fully believe them! there’s always something stopping him from confessing to you.

•unless you do something to make it very clear you see him as more than a friend (ex. hold his hand in public, kiss his cheek when telling him goodnight) you’d have to be the one to confess first. he doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable or anything, and doesn’t want to ruin your friendship, so he just keeps his feelings to himself. once you do confess though, he’s all over you! he just can’t contain his love for you anymore!

toge:

•you guys are definitely a best friends to lovers trope. there’s no doubt about it.

•when toge first realized he liked you, not a lot changed in your guys relationship. you’d still hangout after class, help each other study, play video games, crack jokes to each other. but over time he’d start to become more affection wjth you. small things like resting his head on your knee while gaming with you, or hugging you before you leave his dorm for the night.

•i don’t think it would be very obvious to your guys’ friends that he liked you. in public he would still just act like your best friend, it was behind closed doors he’d be extra affectionate with you.

•since he can’t speak himself, he loves to hear you talk! he is always encouraging you to talk about anything to him, whether it be something personal or just reading a book to him. he loves it so much.

•i think after awhile if you didn’t get the hint after all his extra affections, he’d confess to you in a very casual way. probably jut while playing video games together in his room, he’d randomly tell you how he feels and wait for you to either reject him or share the feelings. either way he’d still want to be your best friend!

[81folklore]

happiness - LECLERC

pairing: charles leclerc x ex!reader (fc: sabrina carpenter + pintrest) part 2

summary: releasing a song about your ex might finally stop the rumors surrounding your breakup (or: you release happiness about your ex charles leclerc)

authors note: this is my first ever post (and social media au) so please bear with me as im still figuring this all out!!) i dont use proper grammer and may mispell things!! the song ‘happiness’ by taylor is one of my faves so i had to use it, i am interpreting the song in a very specific way to fit the story! i do not own ‘happiness’ nor any song mentioned in this fic. it ended up longer than expected im so sorry😅

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its times like these wish i had a time machine,, i will miss you guys SO MUCH!! buuuut we are going international for the first time and i cannot wait to share my music with all you beautiful people🌟

see you soon paris & link for tickets in bio💌

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user5 cannot wait to see you in paris!!

user7 this tour has been one of the best things to ever happen to me, cant wait to scream nonsense at you once again🫶

user10 genuinely cant stand her after what she put charles through

user9 what are you talking about? their breakup was mutual

user10 seems like she doesnt care which means it clearly hasnt affected her

henrymoodie so excited to be opening for you in europe!

yourusername youre in for a treat tour mate🫣

user2 sigh i miss her and landos interactions

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definitely not the result we were hoping for but thank you for making my home race as special as always, onto the next one!

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user10 you tried your best which is all we ask

user3 i missed yn this week, home race didnt feel the same😔

user1 i thought it felt different, he seemed very distracted this weekend

user13 at least you finished the race (im coping badly)

user4 we love you charles keep pushing❤️🤍FORZA FERRARI

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how am i supposed to leave you now that you’re already over..

paris you were so so lovely what did i do to deserve you guys :’) next stop brussels💌

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user89 talented, brilliant, incredible, show stopping, spectacular, wonderful, amazing!!

user52 forever missing you💌

user71 ok but yn why were you teasing a new song at the show…

yourusername shhhh

landonorris super proud of you

yourusername thank youuu landooo

user2 my prayers have been answered woooo

user46 i feel like i missed something, are lando and yn friends?

user5 yeah! lando was how yn met charles and theyve been friends for a few years now

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yn on a new song she plans to release soon tonight at brussels ‘ive been writing a song for a while that really just helps explain the way ive been feeling these past few months, it was very therapeutic to write and ive really enjoyed the process!’ and when asked what the song was about she said ‘its about someone who will always mean alot to me, they know who they are and thats enough for me!’

she seemed very happy to be able to talk about it so expect more updates about that soon! next stop cologne, grab your tickets from the link in our bio💌

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user5 i cannot wait for new music

user16 what if she performs it on tour huh? what then? WHAT THEN??

user15 it’s definitely about charles, she had that same smile she wore when talking about him previously☹️

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i cant make it go away by making you a villain, i guess its the price i paid for seven years in heaven…

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user5 these have to be song lyrics right??

user7 sounds like it might be about charles🤨

user10 not more music about charles, at least he gets free promo from them..

arthur_leclerc we miss you

yourusername i miss you guys too!! come to a show soon?

[blorbingqls]

peaceful property final thoughts: what is a home?

i remember the first time peaceful property was released as a mock trailer in gmmtv part 1 for 2024, and how excited i was for the series to air. i thought it to be a perfect ghostbusting plot for a show - and taynew have acted in many other non-BL shows that i was not too worried for it to be a BL or not BL. and internally, after seeing that trailer, i had an idea on how the show was gonna be on what it means to have a home, have a family and understand its better meaning.

now that the show has ended, it has come true in its best form. all the spirit stories was so rooted in the little things that most people would want, and each story ngl made me cry. it gave emphasis on family, on building homes, building warmth and building a sense of familiarity with love and care. and how even with care, the financial difficulties of most people get highlighted. it was endearing to me, because it gave me every flavour of drama, angst, hate, anger, horror, fear and love i thought i didnt need but i did. so badly.

i can definitely say the show was a lot on breaking, healing and building new stuff over the old, with the theme remaining constant over all of the episodes. personally, it provided a new meaning to home. we list a lot of thing while we talk about what home means to someone, in poetry, prose, media and daily life. and i believe you cant find one absolute meaning of home. the show said the same thing here as well. however, it add more depth to the things already said. how home lies within the people, not the buildings we create. its the memories that emphasise a home.

and i think here, the best example to explain home was through uncle somkid. the denial of care and affection he felt through years doesnt equate to the comfort he got at last, knowing his father did love him all those years, left him memories and things behind. and for us as the audience, probably, the arc that somkid got may not be correct because one may think the emotional unavailability of gramps and the whole family doesnt give the correct closure that somkid probably needed. but we find out somkid saying that he finally got the closure he needed. and that is something only he could justify, not us.

i learnt a deeper meaning of how home is everything - the chaos, disagreements, fights, denial of love, hate, laughter, envy, jealousy, pride, ego, disappointment, love, care, affection, warmth, being safe and content of being together with people. and feeling that all with people has become so valid. because you go through all those emotions in the course of life with people/buildings/memories you used to call/call/will call home. these feelings dont remain constant but they show up.

the way i interpreted "home" is still vague and may be incorrect, but i have felt this as i keep defining more homes over the course of my life. i have felt these emotions somewhere or the other while being in homes and its now something which makes me feel warm and content. and this show, made me feel it all.

will like to end my string of thoughts with this thought in mind.

[atlansx1]

I FUCKING LOVE PHONE GUY FNAF.

i CANNOT emphasize how much i LOVE fnaf Phone Guy aka Ralph I have NEVER wanted a fictional character to crawl out of his franchise so badly before hes so sweet cuz wdym this autistic, c-ptsd PATHETIC man is MY comfort characcter?? The way he treats his daugfhter literally lights up my day in the best way possible I fucking LOVE ralph i have never wanted to go to another unvierse THIS badly before cuz wdym im THIS attached to a fictional character?? I fucking LOVE his personality hes so silly and so happy and hes consistenr/diligent too i NEED him to be REAL. He's such a pathetic single father I wanna lick the fnaf franchise bro and hes caring abt other ppl too like ugh why cant this MAN be real dawg I fucking LOVE this silly ass disembodied voice and the fact he had a perfectionist father who literally made him feel he wasnt enough?? Bbg hes enough for ME. I will SHOWER him with affection and attention and make him feeling like a king yk why?? he is MY king I have never been THIS attached to a fictional characvter before i NEED phone guy I am going to TRADE my family to meet this MAN bro yk HOW attached i am to him?? I am in the fnaf fandom SOLELY for this man i WILL fight gods to make him smile ykw i would REWRITE history to meet this PATHETIC MAN. This is just HOW attached I am to HPONE GUY hehehh… yk uhh.. WAIT PHONE GUY SAYS UHH IM LITERALLY PHONE GUY hHAHAHAHAH I fucking love ralph and his 11 year old daughter he loves her sm i wish I could have someone love me as much as ralph loves his coppeliacuz WDYM this man literally thinks "Coppelia's an amazing kid. How'd I get so lucky?" i WANT to lick the Phone Guy book cuz he loves his job sm wdym hes literally employee of the month 22 TIMES??? Ykw hes so good at being a father too its so sad he doesnt own a camera cuz i WOULD happily give this man a camera i fucking LOVE Ralph.

i will TRADE my organs to meet Phone Guy Fnaf yk how much i LOVE this MAN??? I want to CRAWL into his universe and kiss his feet cuz thats how MUCH i love him I live only bcuz me and the other 10 phone guy fans are alive. I live for Ralph I live for Coppelia I will jump off a building to meet this man yk HOW BADLY i want to MEET him?? IDC if hes an disembodied voice with a name and backstory i WILL go to his house and stalk him i will KIDNAP him and put him in a white dress and give us a wedding i will give him the most jaw dropping amount of affection that he'll get stockholm syndrome i will ATTACK policemen to meet this man i fucking love this guy i will count every star in the universe and i will count each particle of SAND on earth to meet Ralph i will tackle him into a hug to meet Ralph this autistic C-PTSD man who acts like everything is fine.. ykw? It IS fine i will eradicate each and EVERY problem in his life istg

[ilynpilled]

i feel like ive seen too many very odd reads of this whole thing, so i do wanna go through jaime & the brutal murder of rhaegar and elia’s children situation.

first of all, we know jaime’s main function as a kingsguard at 15: he is a pawn in aerys and tywin’s beef. he is a hostage and a means to rob tywin of an heir

this is what rhaegar tells him too. despite jaime’s guilt, it was not a “i am leaving everything in your hands 💔 you are my most trusted knight” being said to an unseasoned teen, rhaegar isn’t dense, but a: “he is tywin’s son, he is the ideal hostage to keep him under control. a crutch for aerys and his dangerous paranoia (even if just to satiate him, which is why he was kept close, again, people knew that aerys was erratic atp.)” we have the actual conversation. rhaegar is open about this, he isnt really tricking jaime here. they also emphasize that he has to stay near aerys. that is his primary role, not anything else. what rhaegar didn’t take into consideration is that tywin, when it comes down to it, will sack the city anyway (neither did he know what would happen at the trident, and how badly the tides will turn, how it will affect aerys and how he will think he was betrayed by lewyn and dorne, how he will not let elia and the children leave etc), the stakes are too great for house lannister and we know tywin will not pick the losing side. it is already a pretty grim situation for jaime, who had witnessed the brutal executions of a bunch of people at this point, to be left alone in the hands of a mad man as someone who eventually becomes solely responsible for the red keep, while also being functionally a hostage while his father decides to betray the crown, but of course, aerys has a bigger plan to retaliate and therefore jaime also has bigger things to worry about.

jaime feels guilt and responsibility about the whole thing anyway, and the way it is read in the most bad faith way imaginable is kind of odd to me. the dream is extremely integral. it reveals things to us that jaime pushes down as a narrator. it peels off the layers. first of all, jaime is explicit about ned’s judgement, the kingslayer complex, and the role that played, and his concious expects ned to show up in the dream as well, but it is revealed to be not actually about that. he, and that external source of judgement and scorn, is not the thing that haunts him. we see that it is a deep sense of failure over being unable to triumph over contradictions. he reflects on this after the dream too: “it was not him. it was never him.” and the message is deliberately delivered by the ghosts of the people that embody that initial quixotic view of the world that he had as a boy.

i have seen people claim that the “light dimming” is meant to indicate jaime lying about not knowing (being aware that tywin can be very brutal and is capable of hurting innocents is different from jaime knowing or suspecting this order). even if that wasnt contradicted in the text (ill get to this), it doesnt seem to work with the dream? the fires also gutter out when he gets condemned for killing the king right after, there is no clear him “lying” consistency here. and even if you go by that interpretation, the flame is unaffected by the claim of “i was with the king”, which would then have to be true (and it is—so again what is jaime meant to do here?) because we know the scaling of maegor’s holdfast was happening simultaneously with aerys being murdered and the wildfire plot being stopped. the main function of this part of the dream is jaime’s light, a “romantic burning out” as george puts it, being destroyed by contradictory oaths and a fundamentally unjust and cynical world. the light being withered is about losing hope & purpose, and failing to keep vows that actually matter. rhaegar’s children, his guilt over them, and the oath they embody (protect the weak, defend the innocent) plague his mind. the “I never thought he’d hurt them” is relevant in a different way. jaime is guilty of being an extension of the lannister regime. he is guilty of enabling it. and this is more relevant to him after this event, in the present. the whole dream operates on three levels: past, present, and future.

it is why this idea comes up with the tysha situation as well. whether he knew or considered it at the time (and i do not personally think he did, or it was compartmentalized) or not is not whats truly relevant. i think the point that is being emphasized is that tywin and his legacy is something that has to be rejected entirely in the present. he knows by now inarguably. no more “looking without seeing.” this justification does not work anymore. anyway, the point is that his light goes out because of the terror of being confronted with these contradictory oaths and impossible situations where these heavy choices have to be made, with devastating costs. the vows cannot compromise. these are situations and choices that destroy a nonexistent ideal that he had always romanticized in every aspect of his life. it is a culmination of the build up of everything jaime held close to his heart being torn down during those two years serving in the kingsguard. it is about the conflict between ethics and morals: “In some queer way, that had been worse than Lord Chelsted’s screaming. “We are sworn to protect her as well,” Jaime had finally been driven to say. “We are,” Darry allowed, “but not from him.” & “After, Gerold Hightower himself took me aside and said to me, “You swore a vow to guard the king, not to judge him.”

but this situation is intentionally impossible in every aspect. morals and ethics conflict. we have the obvious of what do you do when killing the king breaks the oath you swore to protect him? what if not doing it means breaking the oath to protect the innocent? what if your heroes condemn you despite you telling them the full context of this dilemma and make the fire gutter out permanently? what if being with the king (be it to protect him or kill him to save a city) means you are not there to protect the children from your own father (who you are also sworn to obey)? the moral constructs that this society operates with is nonsense, and it is not confronted by people. can the horrors be fought at all? this is how you have someone described as a “very idealistic young man” by george turn into the amoral bitter cynic we see in the actual series who proceeds to revolve his life around another delusion instead, the only one that remains to him, and loses his own moral code due to how extremely it all conflicts with all code of ethics. it results in a cowardly acceptance of the horrors, his selfishness and faux nihilism, and leads to the enablement and perpetuation of evil.

there is a reason this whole thing haunts jaime and his narrative, and starts blending together with the starks in adwd (something jaime is directly accountable for), and is a huge factor when it comes to jaime effectively contradicting tywin’s dogma when he goes with brienne. jaime became that “knight” in many ways, he, by his own admission, became the smiling knight, who he later also labels “the mountain of my boyhood.” but he is not anymore, which is why there are notable anti parallels in that chapter.

when it comes to how much jaime knew back then, i think the text is pretty clear:

1. if jaime knew or suspected that tywin had the massacre of an entire family already in motion the hope of “leaving to make terms” would not really be there. 2. after he is found, crakehall informs him that they secured the city and the castle. jaime points out in retrospect that this was only half true, and that he couldn’t have known about the scaling (and other things) still happening by this point. jaime is under the impression that everything is secured as a result. he orders everyone who yields to be spared. he is also under the impression as per his narration that aegon is still there, safe and alive, and could be a potential king. however, he does become concerned about the possibility of another aerys. there is a reason he climbs the throne here imo. i never read this as “jaime too busy fucking around lol” or “is intentionally letting them die because his blood is in both of them.” again, he orders everyone who yields spared, and is under the impression that the castle is already secured. he even entertains the possibility of tywin being hand to aegon as king (clearly not possible with what is in the middle of happening —and if he even suspects this threat, why is this considered a possibility by him?) until he gets an aerys flashback, and decides against it despite it serving his family. he has a lot of things on his mind right now anyway to figure out tywin’s current strategy when it comes to house lannister (not to mention this is not really how jaime’s brain works, he is not very machiavellian minded) considering he just damned himself by committing one of the most significant oathbreakings in history, and that someone will fill the hole left by the person who had the power to nuke a city, something that jaime has nightmares about nearly 20 years later. and even if he was aware of this threat that he clearly wasn’t, considering the fact that it was happening simultaneously with jaime killing aerys and being found, if he knew and tried to rush over there after killing aerys, judging from the distance, it would have been too late. hence “i was with the king…” in the dream.

[pigeonentity]

For your requests for thoschei asks: do you think Sacha Dhawan will come back? (This upcoming season or in future seasons) If so, how do you think/how would you want Spymaster to interact with 15?

(I'm bad at words rn and this is worded badly so if you need clarification just ask lol)

i have no idea but i fucking HOPE so

if he does come back this season my family better watch it on time i do not want to be late to that

ive seen people say that 15 would just tell spy to shut up when he got too melodramatic which i absolutely love, i think it'd be hilarious. no dramatic speeches about how much you hate the doctor for you

i. im not actually sure where 15 would land on this. i want to say he'd flirt with the master and try to get him to redeem himself and travel together etc i FEEL like he would previously i have had no doubts but. now im not as sure? 10 was lonely 12 was hopeful but becoming warier and 13 fucking hated him and idk if the master's given him a reason to change that again. i mean yeah gallifrey fell again so they are alone again but 13 didn't seem to care about that. i think either way's excusable, though, since he does still change a bit every regeneration and both 14 and 15 seem pretty fond of "run away with me and we can [insert activity here] across space"

personally i think both could be a lot of fun. spy wouldnt like being flirted with he wants to be hated he doesnt trust affection to last after everything with missy and especially with the way 13 acted towards him after. and he would NOT like being told to shut up even if its said fairly lightly (that's probably worse, actually) because he's being ignored again and he can't take that. i feel like 15 would take great pleasure in annoying the fuck out of him whether he liked him or not but with flirting it would be hilarious

ohh but. if 15 hated him like 13 did. from vibes less likely to happen but narratively like i said i can see it. it may be my spydoc preference coming through because i love when they hate each other and try to destroy each other but i would enjoy that sooo much. i think if one of his friends dies or something it'd be more likely but. yes. i need it to make the doctor worse the fight grows and so do both their kill counts and you don't know who the problem was when it's over etc

although those are really just my generic doctor thoughts i need him to be Worse and to see him be dangerous i looove seeing his morality challenged. 15's already given us that beautiful scene in rogue where he thought ruby was dead but i need More i always need more

basically it's down to which of them we want to bully more

another thing is if 15 likes spy i feel like the chances of getting explicitly canon romantic thoschei (even if it's just one-sided) are getting more and more likely. which would be amazing ofc (although. im still holding out for the doctor explaining their relationship and the companion calling them queerplatonic)

also i really really really want the master to come back for the interstellar song contest i want them to be having fun watching it and then the next act comes and its the master. he has his thing with having a song and dancing i think it would be such a great entrance and so chaotic

i thiiink that's it for thoughts at the moment, ty for the ask cas!!

[cerealmonster15]

which twst character do you think would give the best hugs?

I think Trey, Trien, Vargas, Rook, Deuce, Jack, and Kalim would give the best hugs.

debating Floyd? But I think he'd just randomly squeeze too hard and it wouldn't be nice 737...

what u asked: pick some characters that give the best hugs

what im doing instead: rate every main character's potential habitability and also give commentary on said score.

im gonna rate them out of 10 but i consider it more of a sliding scale rather than a grade so like a 5/10 isnt a bad failing grade but more of like, a middle of the road average hug that's not bad but not exceptional either. absolutely needs a readmore bc good god do i love to yap. some characters i was more lenient with than others and honestly they arent even fixed scores. i could change my mind on any of them if i think long enough. many headcanons i have are not fully fixed, i love a loosey goosey way of thinking about characters. ANYWAY:

[i did students + grim + faculty + halloween special characters]

I think good hugs are made up of a few factors: physical build (personally i find ppl that have more muscle and/or fat to feel nicer when hugging), enthusiasm/personality, and experience w/hugging LOL. so that's mainly what i'll base it off.

HEARTSLABYUL

RIDDLE: oh baby. he is both small and did not grow up with much affection in his life. personally i headcanon him as a little on the touch starved side so i think he badly needs hugs but may be kind of awkward about it. i do think he'd be pretty huggable for someone taller than him to jut swallow in their arms and rest their chin on his head all cozy style. but thats more him being hugged jkdlsfjsl it pains me to say it but i do not thin he would initially give good hugs bc i think hed be kinda 🧍 stiff and awkward and nervous the first dozen or so times. i think he could learn. i think he needs hugs. but i'm giving. i'm giving him a 3/10 😭 i cant bear to do any lower. oh god that makes me so sad ok moving on before i start crying over my son

DEUCE: HMMM ok i think he would have the nice build for a hug, like we have scene he's got nice muscle from being athletic and also his rowdy boy days lol. and he has a loving mom who i could believe has hugged him growing up jsklfds BUT he also had that phase of rowdy boy where he did say like. girls and also guys were kind of too intimidated to get near him, and i doubt he was really hugging his gang boys. i think he would be a lil awkward but could still give a decent hug. hes a very earnest and enthusiastic boy! im gonna say 6 or 7/10.

ACE: bitch.... [affectionate] slfjdsl i have to hand it to him. i think he'd give good hugs. like if he wanted to - i do think he'd be a bitch about it to most people bc nrc students tend to be allergic to expressing fondness openly to their peers so most of them are probs gonna get knocked a few points for that but. after he stops being annoying about it (either an EW GROSS or a HEHEHE >:) or whatever idk LOL) i think he'd be good at it. he's a sociable boy when he's not being an ass. he's got an athletic build, tho maybe slightly less than deuce from what a few card comparisons have shown skjdflsd [tho that could be different artistic choices idk]. i think he'd be close to deuce's level tho, maybe 7/10?

TREY: hes got them BAKER ARMS jklfsdjfklsdh epel has even specifically said trey has a nice sturdy build or something akin to that. and hes got younger siblings / seems to have a loving home life as well. no spoilers but book 7 did mention he's got experience with physical affection to comfort said siblings so i think he would give good hugs!!! like he doesnt strike me as one to run around hugging people willy nilly but i think if the situation called for it or if he was in a relationship or something he'd give pretty good ones. 9/10, docking 1 point bc i feel like depending on the situation he might be embarrassed about it lol

CATER: caycay!!!!!!!!!!! hmmmmmmm i think he's got experience with casual hugs. or at least he gives the vibe, and we have seen him have no problem with physical closeness when he goes in for selfies / he has hugged people in canon before [i can only remember one instance off the top of my head but it's a book 7 spoiler 😚]

actually i will talk about the spoiler a little. separating it in curly brackets if u want to skip past it

{book 7....... when he and trey reunited with riddle...... when cater ran up to riddle and clung to him with no hesitation and was practically crying about how relieved he was that riddle was okay. and riddle smiled but also said it kind of hurt KLFSDHKFLDS idk if it was bc cater was squeezing so tightly or bc riddle was worn out from the battle (i think both lol) but that shows to me he is not one to hesitate, and would go ham on a hug at least in a situation like that}

end spoiler!! ok anyway all that to say i think cater would give good hugs lol. i dont think hes as muscular as the other boys despite his sporty nature with skateboarding and broom flying and stuff, but he has that personable energy for the most part and doesnt shy away from closeness so im also giving him a 9/10

BONUS CHENYA: he counts ok. silly guy. kitty guy with a fluffy tail and ears. hes FUN. 9/10 bc i think he'd do what my partner does where he's hugging but then would like, pull a silly prank in the middle of it. my partner loves to go in for a tickle kill when arms are raised and i feel like chenya would do something like that so im docking a point LOL

SAVANACLAW:

ok none of them really strike me as super affectionate BUT. hear me out.

JACK: i think once he got past his tsundere nature he'd give killer hugs. big buff boy AND he has a fluffy tail/ears?? his strong arms are perfect for hugs. like that one comic:

he'd be so good at huggin'. but i think he'd be embarrassed about it. THAT BEING SAID if we consider him in the context of a romantic relationship with someone [hugs arent necessarily romantic im just trying to look at it from several angles!], he's said in a vignette that his species of wolf beastmen mate for life and dont take relationships lightly, he seems like he'd be absolutely ride or die for his partner. i could see him potentially being very privately affectionate. 9/10 yet again but still getting docked for the tsundere vibes but the hug itself would be fantastic.

RUGGIE: he's another one that seems more on the slim side of things [i mean they almost all are bc Prettyboy Anime Art Style Tendencies but. yknow. also considering The Lore here]. i think he could give a decent hug but i don't think it would be anything particularly wild. 4 or 5/10. ily ruggie i just dont think he seems like one to initiate a hug and would be fairly average about it if he did. JFSDJLF but then again he does have soft fuzzy ears. if he nuzzles into the hug maybe he could bump another point LOL.

LEONA: he also looks like he's built decently for a hug but i dont think he'd initiate one. i think he'd complain and/or being annoying like ace LOL what can i say nrc students love being little bitches. ily leona but you are allergic to being earnest in most cases i fear. im giving him a 3 or 4/10 bc while i feel like physically he would feel nice to hug, i think he would just have stressful vibes. he might be better to hug when hes napping tho and not awake to say words LOL.

that being said, another isolated book 7 spoiler:

{book 7 i love u book 7..... that bit at the end of savanaclaw's story is so sweet when jack is crying bc hes so relieved for ruggie and leona to be back and the same shit bitches he remembers JKLFJDSLKFJ and ive replayed that scene a lot and like, yknow it's kinda hard to show whats happening w/just sprites, it sounds like from the sfx and sprite movements that ruggie and leona came in to give jack supportive pats on the back.... so like theyre not Huggers in my eyes but theyre not like, completely opposed to any sort of affection. like theyre sweet in their own way 😭i love them weeps sobs cries.... ok anwyay...}

end spoiler!!

OCTAVINELLE:

man. hm. LOL.

AZUL: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......................................... hm. taps my chin and hmms some more. he comes from a family that seems pretty loving from what we've heard. he specifically works at keeping a slim build. hes also an octopus lol. now we have to remove my fear of cephalopods from the equation bc otherwise id have to give him negative ten billion points in octopus form 😔 my nightmare scenario. bad. i kind of feel like being hugged by tentacles would not be enjoyable by um. an average person either but tbh i dont really know. some people would probs consider it a bonus. i also dont want to think too far in that direction 😐👍 he puts on an air about being super calm and collected and cool in front of people so i think he'd be really embarrassed and awkward in giving a hug lol. tho in my SHIP HEADCANONS i also see him as being really clingy behind closed doors but he does seem like he'd go for more casual touches. i dont know. he looks like he would hug his grandma tho so maybe he does know how to give a decent hug. 4/10 you get an average score lol

JADE: ummmm. scary. doesnt immediatley seem like he'd be very physically affectionate. but also look at this from the anthology comic 2 cover:

JFKSDLFDKSLHF ok um. i think he would give awkward hugs LOL. like the pic w/riddle there hes kind of just. grasping him on the shoulders from behind. height might be nice but i. i think he'd be so bad at it LOL SJFLKDS LIKE IN A FUNNY WAY. I THINK HE'D JUST BE WEIRD. EITHER ON PURPOSE OR NOT IDK LOL 2/10 SHIT ASS HUG SORRY JADE IT'S REALLY FUNNY TO ME. he does look like he could be good at like, those hugs where you wrap your arms around the person from behind and rest your chin on their shoulder tho. so that could be cute. i just think jade's too freak mode to be cute [AFFECTIONATE THO I LIKE THAT HES A FREAK OF A BOY. IT'S MY FAVE THING ABOUT HIM IS THAT HES. HIS VIBES ARE HORRENDOUS LOL] oh also considering long eel form, tbh i dont actually know how much an eel can curl around but it's fun in fanart to see them curled around people so that could also be cute. or frightening skldjflsdk im still saying 2/10

FLOYD: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. these fish bitches are tricky LOL. he likes to squeeze. but he likes to squeeze [MENACING]. i feel like... mmmmmmaaaaaybe he could give really good hugs tho? or really scary hugs. tbh with the Way Floyd Is he could probably have two scores. like how he is with like his grades being perfect when hes in the mood or shit fuck when he doesnt care? it's probably the same with his hugs. like either 10/10 best hug you've ever had in your life or 0/10 most terrifying and/or uncomfortable scenario youll ever experience.

SCARABIA:

KALIM: 10/10. no notes. he has the love. he has the energy. he has a dancer's build. no hesitation. full of enthusiasm. comes from a large, loving family. i think he would give perfect loving hugs. perfect score.

JAMIL: hmmmmmmmm. i think he's also physically built well for hugs. like he's also got that dancer + athletic build. but also he's trained himself to be very reserved. i'm unclear on how his family is in terms of affection- like we didnt get a very favored look at his parents in the book 4 flashback, but also that was a specific incident and im unsure how much it reflects the day to day treatment he experienced.... still, it didnt bode super well for a particularly affectionate family. he and his sister seem to have a typical sibling bond lol of like "im a teenager and u are pissing me off but also ur my pal" LOL but they dont seem very touchy feely with each other. but also jamil grew up alongside kalim who i just gave 10/10 hug machine lol. hes probably been hugged, but i dont think he's really one to initiate. does he crave affection? does he reject it bc of his complicated situation w/kalim? he's such a complex individual. im def thinking way harder about hypothetical hugs than i need to be LOL. he's another one where i feel like the actual phsycical hug itself could feel nice, but his Vibes™ would bring it down. like i love jamil! but i think he would potentially have trouble with hugs. i'm gonna say maybe a 4/10? like they'd be decent, but i feel like he'd be stiff and not really relaxed about it.

POMEFIORE:

do u remember in book 6 where rook insisted everyone do a group hug and like everyone there except for the pomefiores were like 🧍 What The Hell aJKLFDSJKFLHSD that can also contribute to me giving them lower scores..

ROOK: 10/10 again. he calls himself the hunter of love. every word out of this boy's mouth is full of passion and affection. i could see him maybe hugging a little too hard and possibly having Weird Vibes with specific people so maybe that could knock him down a few points JKLFJSDKLFHSDL but!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like at his core, at a general level, he would give amazing hugs!!!!!!! he's got the athletic nature hunter boy build!!! he's not shy at all about expression affection!! he has hugged in canon more or less lol, he was born to hug!!! maybe im biased bc i docked jade for being weird but i refuse to do it for rook FJKLSDJFKLSDHFLKJ SORRY. HIS LOVING PASSIONATE ENERGY IS TOO OVERPOWERING TO KNOCK HIM FOR!!!!

VIL: hmmmmmmmmmmmmm............................ i dont think he'd give BAD hugs, exactly. i love vil. i just think... he has such a reserved elegance about him that his hugs might not be the most inviting 🤔 but then again!!! book 6 he was very affectionate to yuu rook and epel for coming to his rescue lol. he has the power of leaving people starstruck so he probs would know how to use that for a charming feel on his hugs. i'm giving him a 7/10. hes just kind of intimidating i feel like that would make the hug feel less warm JLKFJSDLFSDHKLJG NOT THAT I THINK HES INCAPABLE OF BEING LOVING THO. it's complicated!!! but i think he would give decent hugs.

EPEL: im thinking of the high five epel and deuce did in book 5 on the beach. i think they would do one of those gym bro hugs where you high five and pull into like a half hug jLFHSDKLFJSD. hes also small but he is sporty and grew up on a farm so like, i imagine he'd have some muscle or would eventually bulk over time?? but he doesnt look like he has a lot of muscle right now. he may or may not think hugs are embarrassing at first. tbh i am not as sure kjskldfjsl i think it depends on the situation. i could see him hugging deuce bc they have a really solid bond. i could see him squirming and getting embarrassed with someone in his dorm. but then again he did not get embarrassed in the above mentioned ^ book 6 group hug! if i remember correctly i think he smiled about it lol. ummm. 6 or 7/10 i think. maybe.

BONUS NEIGE: 10/10 lol. gentle soul. full of love. friend to all. i like he'd give very loving hugs. if he and kaim hugged i think it would create world peace.

IGNIHYDE

man. jsklfjsdkl

ORTHO: MY BABY HAS THE SPIRIT. HE DOES. IF HE WASNT MADE OF METAL I'D GIVE HIM 10/10. i'm so sorry ortho but physically i do not think hugging u would be very comfortable. i'm going to say 3/10 tho bc. hes such a sweet silly little guy i cant bring myself to give him no points. i think he has the vibes for a good hug. i think he and idia have hugged before actually?? when they reunited in halloween 2 event at least? and that was really sweet. the brothers ever i love them so much wahhhh.

IDIA: so like jksljflds he dresses in cozy clothes like i think big hoodie and stuff would make for a cushy hug. but also i think he's on the gangly side and also very skittish of a creature. way too anxious to hug someone i fear. his hair would probably be nice and warm tho. umm. i'm sorry i just dont think he'd be very comfortable to hug JKLFJSDLKFHSDKLGJ i love idia very much................ but his vibes.... his build........... 2/10 JFKLSDFHSDLK LOWER THAN HIS METAL ROBOT BROTHER.... but ortho makes up for it in spirit... and again their brotherly hugs are SO sweet. those isolated hug instances get 10/10 jljslkhfldshfksdj

DIASOMNIA:

SEBEK: hear me out. 9/10. maybe i'm biased bc i Love Sebek So Much Thats My Baby Boy KFHDSKLJFKSLD my shitty bitch son. but i also love so many characters i rated lower so whatever ANYWAY sebek is tall, athletic, very passionate and intense in everything he says and does. docked a point bc he probably would be weird and/or tsundere like jack but also similar to jack i think if he were giving a hug in a situation where he really cares for the person he'd go ALL IN. RIDE OR DIE DEVOTION PERSONALITY!!!! also i could see him like "you call that a hug? ill show you a REAL hug. OBSERVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" he also seems like he'd squeeze too hard but i think tight hugs feel good lol. hes a BITCH but at his core i think he is in fact very full of love. remember in book 7 [not jp spoilers] when silver was having his identity crisis and sebek was YELLING about how much he, lilia, and malleus all loved silver, and was SO upset at the very IDEA that silver might dare doubt the validity of any of that love. so much that he brought out his unique magic he'd been secretly practicing and swordfought with silver to snap him out of his despair and then also collapsed on the floor SOBBING LOUDLY bc he just felt so intensely about the situation. Sebek Is Full Of Love and i think an earnest hug from him would show it. it's possible he would also be stiff and award bc he doesnt really seem like he would be affectionate, but i think he puts his all into everything he does!!! if he wants to give a good hug hes gonna DO IT!!! he does not half ass things!!!

SILVER: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. so he also has that swordfighting athletic build like sebek. he's also very earnest. hes a light magic user klfsjdflsj. hes a gentle soul when hes not like, duking it out in sparring time kfjflsfjdklj like the woodland creatures love that boy. but also, said with love, he is Very Awkward jKLFJSDKLHGDL. he didnt have a lot of socializing growing up aside from lilia, malleus, and the zigvolts from what i understand. he was more lively as a child, i imagine he hugged lilia. begins crying imagining baby silver clinging to lilia and malleus and fellow baby sebek omg.... maybe... jsklfjsdlf ANYWAY present day silver tho. i feel like. he'd also have very cozy hugs actually yeah. 9/10. docked a point bc of. well i just think he'd be kind of awkward but the hug would still feel really good!!!!!!!! also the chance of him falling asleep mid hug but tbh maybe that would make it cozier. hes probs cozy to fall asleep hugging. i get sleepy when i hug my partner bc hes so cozy lol.

i feel like i was really generous with silver and sebek. i should probably dock them a few awkward points and also i remember in book 7 idia was fighting for his life being squeezed between them and their HARD MUSCLES but that was also bc of the armor sebek was wearing and bc they were like, tightly in defense mode. ok yeah idk i should probably knock them down to like 7 or 8/10 at least bc i do feel like theyre maybe just. THEY ARE REALLY AWKWARD BOYS. I JUST THINK THE HUGS THEMSELVES WOULD FEEL VERY NICE!!!!

anyway.

LILIA: hes probably the strongest socially [and physically lol]. hes like. hes small? but he went to war. surely hes got a muscle build in there. idk maybe bat fae are built different. but he has the spice of life about him. that inviting personality that pop music club has! 8/10 for similar reasons of chenya getting docked bc hes a mischievous little man. and he just doesnt really appear to have that sturdy build that i feel like puts the UMPH into a hug. but again HE WENT TO WAR so surely he has muscle lol IDK!!!!

MALLEUS: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. also very awkward. many people held him at arms length. i believe lilia was the most affectionate with him growing up [jury's still out on his grandmother; i cannot recall if he's ever mentioned if she was affectionate or not]. i could see him similar to riddle in terms of being on the touch starved side of things. he craves companionship and his whole thing is that he is SO lonely. i could see him being a little clingy once he gets used to hugs. but also i think he is a bit more on the reserved side of things, so i do not think he is really used to such things. and he gets all pouty when lilia treats him like a Little Boy so jkdslfhdskl i dont think he'd realize how much he needs a hug. he does seem to have a strong sturdy build tho so he gets some points there, but i feel like he would just be so awkward klsjfksdlhf i'm gonna give a middle of the road 5/10. room for improvement through exposure therapy.

OTHERS, moving quicker bc ive been typing for more or less 2 hours HAHFHDFLSDJ:

GRIM: fuzzy kitty. 10/10 when he wants to be a cute little guy. he has a guest room line that's like "fine, i GUESS i'll let you pet me" it's so cute lol. hes tsundere and probs a bitch if he doesnt wanna be hugged but when he DOES hes probably like my bunny and my bunny is 10/10 so fuzzy so cute.

CROWLEY: lol. on one hand, awkward strange man. very mysterious. but also very emotional jfklsjfkdls AND He has a long cloak thing that i feel like would add to the pizazz of a hug getting wrapped around the person hes hugging. maybe. does it wrap around or just hang off his shoulders? idr. he has cringefail husband vibes. that could be a plus or a minus JKLFSHDLFKJSDKL idk i think he'd give decent hugs. 7/10. he kind of. he seems needy AHLKFDJDKLJFSDL which could be good or bad i guess LOL but i. i could see him bein a lil clingy just with The Vibes He Has HAHHSH

Vargas: 9/10 he's got epic muscles and enthusiasm but i do think he'd squeeze Actually Too Hard sometimes KJFDLSKHFDS but aside from that probs a banger hug

CREWEL: his fluffy coat looks like it would feel nice but he doesnt seem very affectionate with people LOL. he probably hugs his dogs tho. 5/10 bc i feel like his actual hugs are probs fine but he himself just doesnt have the affectionate energy so i mean, probs a standard enough hug. but i bet the fluffy coat feels awesome.

SAM: i'm not sure tbh!!!!! sam's a cool and friendly guy so he's got the good vibes. 6/10 average hug, probs feels nice and i think he'd be open to them but i dont think he'd be like, super volunteering them or feel that exceptional either.

TREIN: hes a reserved man but also he was married and raised a family and he loves that family so much. and his cat. probs not a very firm build at his age lol. 5/10 average hug i think. would probs be loving when he did! but would probs also feel like hugging a grandparent which i feel like was not a very firm hug whenever i did that lol.

ROLLO: 1/10 JKLFJDSKLFHDSKLFJ I'M SORRY I DONT THINK HE'D BE A VERY GOOD HUGGER. HE ABSOLUTELY NEEDS A HUG THOUGH. boy with so many issues.

FELLOW: trying to remove my bias of I Think Hes Hot JLKFJSKDLHFLSD but also. fox ears and fluffy tail bonus points hehe. hmmm. bastard man. but also has the personable skills. but not a very earnest fellow ehehehehfhhewfjwkelfjklsdhglkjfl ugh um LOL. 6/10. probably decent but lacking some of that genuine warmth.

GIDEL: sweet son boy. 10/10

SKULLY: bone boy.......... tall and gangly... but also!!!!!! his personality wins him points i think his hugs would be full of passion and excitement and affection JFKLSDFKLDSJ he also kissed everyone on the hand when he met them. so i think he could probalby also hug well too. hes a smiley boy when he's not throwing a tantrum. 8/10.

OKAY NO MORE CHARACTERS IT'S JUST AFTER MIDNIGHT AND I STARTED THIS AT LIKE 9:40 I NEED TO GO TO BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[remi-harbinger]

Breaking news: Bingyuan is more toxic than u believe?? (not clickbait) (reaL)

ok so ive been thinking long and hard about their relationship and it doesnt make sense to me its so toxic and idk why theyd be the main pair of svsss that has so much potential for healthy loving ships (re: liuyuan)

Firstly: their relationship as a whole Binghe is notoriously sticky, and because we are sort of reading the novel through shen yuans eyes its an endearing trait. But if you think about it isnt it suffocating? It also shows an innate lack of trust in SY to do his own stuff and come back afterwards because of Binghe’s trust issues (ofc id have trust issues too if someone pushed me off a cliff but still). Binghe needs to work this out because the smothering is so toxic…

Next: love bombing and semi stockholm syndrome? this relationship is so funny to me because its like stockholm but weirder. SY literally lived in fear that LBH would murder him in the future and this causes him to cling to any affection LBH is giving because he’s taking it as reassurance to himself that he’ll live to see another day. Also im going to be honest the way SY treated LBH is sort of love bombing. He acts like a stern shizun at the start of the novel to not be OOC, then suddenly starts treating LBH as the sole star shining in the dark, then throws him off a cliff… It really gives a guy whiplash yk? Especially when you consider that aside from the washer woman, LBH has never been treated with love in his whole life up till this point. Hes been bullied so badly and even his own shizun hates him. He’s a literal child at this point in time, he’ll crave any love given and it is easy to see how this thirst for love could spiral into the more obsessive tendencies.

Now: Binghe and Bingmei I think that as Demons, you could sort of boil both OG!Binghe and Binghe (Bingmei)‘s treatment of SQQ into the base 7 deadly sins. Binghe would be Ira (Wrath/Hatred) and Bingmei would be Greed (Obsession). Their growing years as children under their respective shizuns has shaped their views and their feelings towards said shizuns have been carved deeply into their hearts. You can see how strong these emotions are in both Binghe’s elaborate and drawn out torture of OG!SQQ and Bingmei’s stickiness and overall yandere tendencies towards SY. Judging from the scale of LBH’s hatred towards OG!SQQ and drawing a parallel, current Bingmei’s obsession and greed for SY’s love is off the charts.

So what would happen if SY didnt reciprocate these feelings? If he did something that made Bingmei irrevocably angry? Emotions are wildly changing and never constant, and thus Bingmei’s affections is and will always be a damocles sword above SY’s head. SY may think he loves Bingmei, but he clearly doesn’t trust the constancy of the reciprocated feelings, and he definitely thinks about LBH getting blackened.

LBH and SY’s befuddling relationship dynamics: Now, they started off as master-disciple. This may seem not as important, but in Chinese there’s this saying “teacher for a day, father for a lifetime”. Do you understand what this means now that theyre in a relationship? Its a really weird power dynamic. Not to mention the whole “Demon lord/Person who swallowed said Demon Lord’s blood”. As I mentioned previously, because we are seeing SVSSS out of SY’s perspective, the importance of this is sort of glossed over with a “but its Binghe! Binghe’d never hurt me…”. LBH is able to control the blood to harm on scales unimaginable. He can kill, torture, cause you to be in excruciating pain, etc. LBH forcing his demon blood in SY is equivalent to LBH ripping out SY’s beating heart and holding it in his palm. He can literally crush the heart at any given moment and end SY’s life. Much motivation to convince yourself that you are in love with the one holding your life in his hands, right?

Wrapping this up because idt people will actually even read this: SY and LBH’s relationship may look like love up close, but its really toxic and they clearly lack the trust needed in a relationship. If there isn’t mutual respect and trust, can you even call their relationship love? I personally am of the opinion that it isnt love, especially considering the obsessive tendencies of LBH.

Ofc I have more to say and I hope you guys will discuss with me, but its late now so im keeping this quite short. If you’ve read the entire post marry me and pls still read SVSSS its a gem :)

[karoochui]

I just wanted to say I am so enamoured with Binary Insurgence! I eat up everything, every little crumb, you drop about it and the entire idea is so interesting to me! I'm so in love with stories and worlds like this! I'm also curious to know about the relationship between Sun and Moon, if it's alright to ask. How was it before the fire compared to after? Does their relationship begin to mend (because I'm certain over the years it deteriorated) when y/n comes back into the picture? If any of this is too spoilery or you just haven't fleshed it out yet then you don't have to answer! I'm just super curious about the boys and how you see their dynamic/relationship. I just look forward to seeing how their bond has grown and/or broken and how it may be mended over time.

AHH im glad you like it so much!! Im happy to talk about what i've got, but you are right not everything is fully fleshed out. I have points i wanna get to but while im brainstorming and planning i make up a lot of stuff as i go and then go over it again later to see if i like it or can connect stuff in any way. I have 3 chapters for Arc 1 fully summarized as of now! (Which probably doesn't seem like a lot but i like my chapters long, so it's quite a bit actually).

I wanna say, too, that i'm planning for the first story to be more in the perspective of the reader, so most things about Sun and Moon's personal thoughts and feelings are gonna be more implied than said. I might have some switching points of view, i'm not sure, but i haven't found a place i'd do it or think it's relevant. The sequel is gonna be more from their perspective since it'll mostly be about them.

NOW! I see Sun and Moon as brothers, so they really treat each other in a way that's like that. Before the fire they get along pretty well. Most instances of issue would be when Moon blocks out Sun when he fronts, or just mutual panic over the fact Moon lost his shit w/ the virus. They'll have their disagreements about things (i havent planned specifics yet) but generally they're chill. Sun just worries about Moon hurting people, but Moon worries too. With the way the virus functions in this AU it's hard for Sun to fully fault Moon for what he does, especially because he's also affected by it but not nearly as bad. (I'm gonna explain this more in another ask i have).

Plus, even before the virus they were always glitch/bug-ridden because technicians fucked up their programming continuously after removing them from the theater to work in the daycare. So they had to kinda navigate through that together, glitches and errors on both ends (though not deadly). They hate P&S bc of this, obviously. Hardware fixes suck but they fucking HATE software examinations.

Later on though some issues come into play whenever Sun starts getting worse by being further exposed to the virus (it gets worse for him when they eclipse) because it presents itself in Sun differently than it does Moon. He gets snappier and angrier at times (that comic i made that's captioned "well someones snappy") and while they both understand he doesnt mean the shit he does it's still not great. And nobody's gonna just let themselves be talked to like a dog even if the reason it's happening is because of something the other person can't really help. They're still relatively fine at this point, though.

It's at the end when shit goes really bad, because this part of the story does end badly. I won't spoil specifics but after the fire Sun loses his shit. He starts trying to put the blame on Moon for everything (the virus enhancing his already bad habits/fucking with his line of thinking) out of grief and anger. That carries over into the apocalypse and he just gets worse in general. He gets irrational.

It's a long period of time though, so he eventually also manages it, in his own way. But! I did say before in an ask that in the sequel he's "not evil, persay, but he's a fucking nut". He damns Moon to an hourglass to just fucking get rid of him about 100~ years before they meet you again (he fully thinks he's in the right for this (and he also just hates him) and the only reason he really even stayed around after that was to make sure Moon didn't get out again). He's not a bad-intentioned individual, but he's off the fucking wall at many times bc of the virus having made him worse. He's stubborn as all hell to an infuriating degree, he's irrational, hard-headed, reckless, and while a good bit of his old, kinder self is still pretty prevalent he can be downright fucking mean if provoked. Again, worse than before, and it doesn't take much these days! I always imagined him to have more dramatic, snappy, diva aspects to his personality (even before Help Wanted 2 came out) bc hes so theatrical and intense, so basically take a Sun that's like that, crank it up to 100 and put him in a Bad Situation. That's what Round 2 Sun is like at his worst. He's not a complete lost cause though, and he's far from dumb when he does stuff, just clouded by his own judgement. He doesn't think anything's wrong with him (or does he?).

Moon doesn't really hate him like Sun hates Moon, because although he knows that what happened (the ending of the first story) is technically both of their faults he just feels guilt. They do fight a lot, though. Most of it is Moon trying his best to tell Sun that he's basically full of shit and not seeing things right after Sun starts something, but Sun's at the point where he's gotta learn by consequence. Part of the reason he's so bad is bc 1: hes been infected by the virus for so long now and 2: in his grief, anger, and resentment he's learned to live with it rather than fighting it.

But the sequel is gonna be a feel-good story! Falling in love w/ the reader all over again, i want things to get cleared up - or at least some kind of middle ground between Sun and Moon - the whole sha-bang.

[ultra-raging-ghost]

Im real nervous main tagging this because ive said my main peace and i dont wanna clog the tag up, but i will say after some context given i have a couple more thoughts?

tw// SA, r//pe mention, etc.

This will be a controversial statement. Me personally, i dont really honestly care? About what he said? It was eight years ago and he hasnt repeated the actions so i dont honestly and truly care what he did eight years ago, he was 19 then hes like 26 now theres honestly and truly a BIG maturity distance between 19 and 26, but also it was. Eight years ago? Thats all i have to say on that?

I Also dont really care for how it was brought to light, from what ive heard from pt speakers the expose was done by someone whos publicly anti towards the Brazilian CCs and ive heard they've dug up some dumb things about pac that werent "hot" enough to get trending i guess and definitely werent condemnable enough to get him cancelled, so it's honestly and truly in my heart something i see as being done in bad faith.

Alongside this, ive seen translation screenshots from one of the "victims" (not sure her stance on being called this so its in quotes) stating she does NOT want to be aligned with these allegations and has changed her username and profile picture because she honestly doesnt wanna be involved and doesnt want it being spread around, this is something else i view as bad faith and if anyone was affected by this then its the best thing to do as they wish, this not only affects the person being called out but also their victim negatively, especially if the victims profile is easily attached to their real life and especially when the victim is a female victim of assault or rape or anything like that, i hate to say it but as an afab person ive seen it firsthand that thats honestly the culture surrounding assault victims, and most people dont want that being brought up or put out in the public. Im a victim myself - people view you differently, it affects platonic and romantic relationships, it affects jobs, you are actively hurting the victim by spreading this if they dont want you to do so and arent prepared for that to be spread around.

From what ive seen, some people are condemning Forever for getting a lawyer - i dont view this as him being automatically guilty. I view this as him getting a lawyer because this person on twitter has been actively harassing not just him but all the brazilian CCs on the QSMP. This is harassment, the case against them will hold up in court and Forever has said he will speak about this more when everything is said and done

Alongside this, i will say im unhappy with Forever specifically for his statement on the situation. It wasnt handled the way we wouldve liked it, but it also wasnt handled via ukelele, it wasnt handled the worst way it could've been. Ive heard pt speakers say it was kind of formal, there was some slang in there but overall i've read the translated statement and to me it sounds more like a legal statement than anything - he mentioned having a lawyer, chances are the lawyer helped him write it. To me it doesnt sound like anything he'd fully say which is why i was so put off by it at first but this makes more sense to me honestly, i dont know if anyone would agree with this.

TL;DR

All in all, i think its a shitty situation but nothing to condemn Forever over. I ask people be thoughtful regarding the girl affected, and dont spread shit around with her name or profile attached to it unless she states otherwise. It was handled badly on Forever's end and blew up WAY too fast on twitter.

I've generally seen people be well behaved on here, ive seen some strong statements but otherwise i like to think we're better than twitter.

This probably wont be my last post on this as we get more on the situation over the next couple days, but this is my main thoughts right now. I'm still choosing to remain neutral, but more mixed than anything.

[shreddeddescent]

totally not asking for any particular reason c oughs

But how would each of the turtles interact with proper male/father figures?

((you are getting a long answer out of this i hope thats what you wanted))

*squinting at you really hard* hrmmmm.... is it because my boys are so obviously adoptable? is that it? do i have the uno reverse ghost of tmnt kids?

which i say cuz i already do have 2 aus in which this happens to them, one with you know. kirby stepping in as big adult man in room. and then me and phykoha have an au where 03 sainw raph pops in as a parental figure. and on THAT front hes had to learn to meditate a bit to help the situation.

so. depends on the father figure. any level of loud man? badly. any level of STRICT? badly. like... 'im your father you will respect me because of that' ass type shit is not okay with them. these kids have triggers, traumas, issues in general. a huge thing for them is they live with a mom who is very carefree, and they have april who is very patient. any man who is going to try and be something for them needs to check his baggage at the door. not take any bad reactions personally.

for example: reacting to a rise splinter? thats not too different to their mom. theres still a level of threat, from loudness, from masculinity, from a thrown shoe. but hes mostly carefree and keeps to himself. they'd probably get along well enough, but might find him a bit disappointing. as long as hes not hitting i think it would go okay.

reacting to 12 splinter? badly. extremely poorly. that kind of strict needing to bow, requiring respect and discipline shit? nope. that will bring slash out in raph. that will bring out a throw up anxiety attack in leo. will send donnie cowering to the corner of the room. will send mikey into a panicked baby mode. (this is me also saying keep that man away from my kids fr)

in any regard, if a man is in the room and willing to be quiet, be patient, let them come to him? give gentle affection, give words of encouragement? that will be endlessly appreciated. theyd have to be prepared to never be called dad. prepared not to startle them with physical touch. prepared to talk them down through anxiety attacks and more, and not letting them see if hes freaked out by their reactions.

so. in that case of that idealized male role model in the room?

leos somewhat eager to please. positive encouragement of any kind will make him happy, but he'd pretend it was normal. be like "aha yeah thanks" but inside hes like AHHHHHHHHHH crying. you know? hes so used to being the fuck up. a 'good job leo'? hes grinning ear to ear.

donnie wants to be told hes useful, that hes not a waste. he will expect to be ignored, its what hes used to. he wont do eye contact, will want to stay out of the way. but if someone showed interest in what he was doing? offered guidance? said 'oh thats really interesting tell me more about that' you will get him chattering on and on with a big smile.

mikey is very used to behaving like a baby, coming off like hes maybe 8 years old. he'll have a big smile on his face he doesnt really feel. but someone genuinely asking him if hes doing okay, if he wants to talk out any feelings? hes used to being that person, listening to everyone elses worries and calming them. the reverse might tear that facade down, earn yourself a quiet more sombre mikey who might actually tell you if something is bothering him. a genuine small smile, maybe some real tears out of him. he'd suddenly seem way older, more mature than to be expected. and he'd appreciate the ability to be honest.

raph would react the strangest. i cant guarantee he'd always be himself because an adult man would easily trigger him no matter what. if he gets too spooked you might end up with lita. and with her youd need to be gentle, calm, tell her shes safe. no matter what fucked up things might come out of her mouth. if you end up with slash you need to not fucking come near him, not do anything to make it seem like youre going to hurt anyone. but raph himself? a quiet male voice saying im proud of you with a gentle hand on the shoulder would send him into tears he didnt know were in him. hes the most sensitive obviously, and he would really not know what to do with himself. hence just.... cry.

i dont know if thats what you wanted me to answer with, but you know. these kids are complicated. i need to have full approval of their parenting or else im going to personally fight you for triggering any of them sklajdlk

[heartless-aro]

ily just saying this bc i think this reading of the story is a little concerning- saiki is not "apl coded" and expresses desire to make friends and be around people many times, its a litttleeee 🤏 bit concerning that lots of peeps watch it and take him seriously when he says he doesnt care abt friendship even after he talks abt the trauma that made him stop outwardly expressing his true desires and later realizes he can still be loved and its okay for him to love

that boy wants his friends very badly and loves them to death

Honestly, I think part of the reason I personally interpret him as apl is because what you just described is very similar to how I experience my own aplatonicism. This might be because my aplatonicism is not something that can be fully separated from my schizoid and avoidant personality disorders (which together cause me to experience extreme detachment both from my emotions and from other people). For me personally, any platonic attraction that I feel fades pretty much immediately once I get past the “talking to someone for the first few times” stage of making friends and into the “forming an actual close relationship with that person” stage. I do still have a handful of friends who I care about, but I don’t tend to have the desire to reach out to them, and I have a bad habit of isolating myself from them. (I am aware that this is not healthy behavior. It is, after all, as much a result of my personality disorders as it is my aplatonicism. It’s difficult, but I do strive to avoid indulging in self isolation too often, because I’m aware that it could affect my friends negatively if I don’t put forth effort in our relationships.).

I interpret Saiki as being somewhat similar in the sense that, while he does clearly care about his friends, I also think he experiences platonic feelings in a non-normative way (expressed through his tendency towards social avoidance) due to his trauma. Because of this, I see him as falling somewhere on the aplatonic spectrum, even though he isn’t fully disinterested in connecting with others platonically.