#do i even have an eating disorder

[tangledinink]

new gemini update was so good as always but I can't stop thinking:

big mama: there's nothing wrong with my sons

splinter: you fucked up two perfectly good kids is what you did. look at blue. he's got an eating disorder

wwhhhattttt? nooo, don't be silly. leo doesn't have an eating disorder.

leo and donnie have eating disorders--

[ovaruling]

maybe a hot take but please don’t have or stop having children if you have an active eating disorder/body dysmorphia (including binge eating, not just restrictive disorders). seriously

thinking you’ll be the exception (because you’re So self-aware, unlike those Other disordered women) and won’t give your dysmorphia/eating disorder to your child is pride before a very slow and terrible fall

it never ever works. you’re never ever immune. i mean, such a huge reason of why there are so many of us now is bc our moms thought the same thing lmfao. didn’t matter how well-intentioned they were. no matter how much they tried to separate Their Problems from Ours. here we fucking are

i know it’s not women’s fault to begin with, but the reality is that those of us affected do incubate, nurture, and pass on the virus in the Current Way of Things

the buck needs to stop here. this isn’t a game. think of all the things your mother probably thought she was expertly hiding from you that you still picked up on and were profoundly affected by in a terrible and formative way. it will happen to you, too. don’t think it won’t.

if you know that you’re not solidly and confidently recovered, you have a responsibility to stop that buck and not actively attempt to create a child who will observe, mimic, internalize, adopt, and inherit your lifelong life-ruining behavior. the selfishness is breathtaking honestly

[swagging-back-to]

it should be a cut and dry case if you go to a restaurant and get glutened by them. and by case i mean criminal. not just suing for damages and distress.

[snortoborto]

What is with fandom and insisting that twink™️ is the BEST and the ONLY body type? Sorry, but making canonically mid-size (not even fat, yall could NOT handle that), middle-aged men look like teenage boys should be a crime punishable by death.

[crimeronan]

this week's medical mishap is spending several straight days going "ugh, food just sucks right now. i guess i must be having a bad sensory time. i only want to drink broth and protein shakes and the concept of having to chew and swallow anything solid is making me physically nauseous. autism loses 😑"

COMPLETELY forgetting that i'm.... currently.... on a heavy-duty course of antibiotics.

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

a quick reminder to everyone

I have SEVERE LEARNING DISABILITIES

I am literally disabled because of my learning disabilities, I have faced literal descrimnation because of it.

everytime you call us retarded or a retard you are ACTIVLY upholding the systems in which I am trapped in.

I take more offence in being called a retard than anything due to the literal DECADES of systematic abuse and descrimnation from the medical system, every single government resource, and almost all school alternatives.

fuck you greatly if you use these words against us, I have to live in a country where they hate people like me and would rather us dead than to do literally anything to help people like us.

call us what you will, but I will never call anyone retarded because it’s a basic decency reserved for everyone.

I’m a very happy retard, fuck your ableism!

I will happily live and love and learn even if THE LITERAL GOVERNMENT doesn’t want me too.

(yeah being a mid supports autistic with other learning disabilities and disabilities in general that made me unable to attend a school just means I deserve to die. 100% legit I deal with this literally all the time always fuck the Australian government)

so again fuck you all greatly, for using a literal slur against me one that has been used against me since I was a baby.

fuck you all, genuinely.

did I forfeit my rights to be treated as a human being the moment I had a bit of trouble learning things? Because if I did I’d like to break someone’s teeth with a brick.

Edit: the language and lines between what the fuck developmental disabilities and intellectual disability are is confusing as fuck.

I have gotten very confused between the 2 because they are grouped together half the time.

My apologies to everyone for being utterly confused where I fall because it is extremely confusing to figure out, and internationally it varies wildly according to my brief reading.

I did not mean to be mean or anything I just was genuinely going off what I’ve been told most my life lol.

Shout out to my developmentally disabled brethren you are loved

[preeeow]

i havent been doing it for a while but man. i love reading advice columns.

"my son has an eating disorder, i always thought he was the easy kid, we invite him to exercise for an hour every day and we always promoted healthy eating habits like banning butter and avoiding desert so i dont know how this happened!!!"

like i know this person was well meaning and cares about ttheir kid but some people have no fucking reasoning ability or self criticism especially when it comes to their interpersonal family relationships. like lets not even touch on the easy kid thing-- parent code for my kid is smart so i stopped paying any real attention around ten which surprisingly did not give the kid the impression that i am always there to listen and provide support before things hit crisis level.

also i feel like i see this the most with crunchy liberal families -- yall seem to understand that teaching abstinence only sex education leaves teenagers with more questions that results in more negative sexual behaviors but cant apply that same reasoning to food. if you ban all sugar and fat during weekdays it kind of makes perfect sense that your stressed kid immediately turns to binging on fats and sugars. like. every kid i knew in that situation growing up spent their allowance (its also always the rich families) on candy and chocolate and sugar from the grocery store, not the co-op, to the dismay and anger of their parents that resulted in punishment (usually grounding!!).

moral of the story: let ur kid have a fucking gusher. refined sugars are not methamphetamines but god its hard to convince most health concious parents of that fact

like im not saying im better off because i had access to fruit snacks but i do think i have benefitted in the long run from having a mix: i ate fresh fruits and vegetables just as often as i was drinking coke and eating ice cream. like i dont think the unrestricted access to coca cola my whole life was great but i dont hate myself when i eat baked goods and i dont have several food intolerances from eating only processed food so im pretty thankful for the happy medium!

and like in both cases we are all suffering because america prioritizes profit over well rounded and sustainable food education. we do not want consumers making educated, balanced decisions, we want fear. fear of sugar or fear of starving because those two attitudes produce the most profit

[lilworms]

so

[ttaibhse]

i think because basically almost everyone at all times is trying to lose weight in some way or at least would like to lose weight and so even being a woman who isn't actively trying to lose weight makes you seem like a bit of a freak. and depending on what you look like you're either lucky you don't have to!! OR you're an idiot and you really should be trying. and you must be some kind of conceited either way. and so actively trying to stop having an eating disorder is like giving up because we should all be trying to lose weight and eat healthier and you're like almost doing the opposite of that. why should you get a pass to stop doing that. does this make sense. is this thing on. do you know what i mean

[it-is-i-zim]

Fellas? We ain't okay over here.

[z-grist]

Another storyboard I got to work on recently, this one focusing more on drama.

This one is a Persona 3 storyboard! Featuring Aigis and Akihiko. Big content warning for mention/discussion of an Eating Disorder. This is based on a story by @halfpennyjones, "Inversion" on ao3.

Done on Storyboard Pro, and (most) backgrounds were done on Blender 3D. Thanks for watching!

[joelletwo]

[digging thru the tags] WAHAHAHAA THE FUCKING VEGETABLES POST. i hate the fucking vegetables post

[rxttenfish]

you know, i think the thing about miranda that most make or breaks if any given writing for her is any good, is that you just can't tell if she's doing something on purpose or not.

she switches hard from cute, innocent, head full of fluff and so oblivious and kinda stupid that she matches scott, to having such expertise and cruelty in manipulation and being able to not only get her way but to get it with such violence that it takes everyone else aback — and there is NO way for any other character in the situation to tell if both really are true and equal aspects of her personality and who she is, or if she really is planning this all along and all the innocence was just a farce.

both are given equal weight by miranda, both seem equally likely, and both are roles that miranda inhabits so wholly that there's not really any flaws anyone can find in either one of them. you expect one, the other one catches you off guard. for someone who makes such a show of wearing her heart on her sleeve, it is incredibly hard to actually tell what's going through miranda's brain at any given moment.

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

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[bodypositiviteaandcakes]

If you’re feeling like a raging bitch for no discernible reason, you’re probably hungry. Go have a snack. I don’t care if your stomach isn’t growling, just go eat a cookie or smth.

[gunkbaby]

ik most of u dont agree with my ed tokyo ghoul takes and that’s fine. but there is something so validating about an almost entire cast of characters for whom eating is a task that inherently involves a lot of guilt and shame.