#disorderedeating

[librarycomic]

Hungry Ghost by Victoria Ying. First Second, 2023. 9781250767004. 204pp. Includes an afterword and a list of resources (books and websites). https://www.powells.com/book/-9781250767004?partnerid=34778&p_bt

Val grows up with her mom telling her to watch what she eats, as if being overweight is the worst thing that can happen to her. And whenever she eats she can hear her mom's voice in her head. But her best friend Jordan is bright, funny, and full of joy, and she eats whatever she wants. Jordan is also overweight and, secretly, Val looks down on Jordan for it. Val has a few other secrets -- she makes herself vomit after meals so she can stay thin and she's got a crush on Allan, who wants to hang out with her and Jordan.

As Val starts to apply to colleges and heads off with Jordan and Allan and others on a class trip, it feels like the tension is rising and something in her life is about to break. And it does in a few big ways, including one of the most painful moments in a friendship I've ever seen in a book.

The art and story are beautiful and straightforward, and I think even middle school kids might enjoy this graphic novel, though it might be triggering for some. The ending is hopeful without feeling unrealistic, which is echoed in the Afterword where Ying explains a bit about her own history with disordered eating.

[skinnyskittlesblog]

I cannot stay consistent, it’s like I can go days barely eating and staying under a certain amount of calories and then the next morning I am eating like a f*ckin pig. Save me from this hell.

[chubbymuffinclub]

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[cierrasunshine]

rant because I feel like I can’t talk to anyone in my life about this rn.

sometimes I just feel so broken, like to the point of no return. I don’t feel like i’m worthy of love, don’t think I’m worthy of good things. I struggle with disordered eating & extreme body dysmorphia every single day- it’s fucking exhausting. I look at myself and see something different every single time- I never feel good enough. I hate that I feel like this, because all I want is to love myself, but it’s just been getting worse and worse. I obsess over everything I eat and overthink everything in terms of activity and my calorie intake. I compare myself to every other person & ask myself why the hell would anyone want me versus this person? It’s so unhealthy, I want to get better. I wish I knew how. I wanna cry- today’s just heavy.

sorry this is depressing but it’s a good outlet. thanks for listening <3

[foodie-to-fairy]

mw: 159.6

Gained .4 which is a lot less than I anticipated. I'll let it slide lol. I really REALLY need to be taking better care of my teeth though. I have so many cavities and a huge fear of dentists, and I fell asleep before brushing my teeth after purging last night.

Today wasn't very productive, all I did was clean a few things in my bathroom, go to work, then went to dinner with some family. So, normally I would chow down on chips & salsa without a second though, then finish a burrito the size of my forearm.

Obviously, that's what I wanted to do. Not sure if what I actually did is any better. I got a small shrimp taco that put my cal total right at maintenance (gross. fail.) then I also got a huge burrito to bp tomorrow. Which I really should stop, because like I said, my teeth.

I also already smoke every day to calm my anxiety so my throat being sore makes smoking rough. Stopping isn't easy since I have piss poor self control and I'm obviously not going to just let a whole huge binge worth of food sit in my stomach.

[enchantedruin]

It amazes me how powerful anxiety is. I don't mean in the way we all know it: debilitating, scary, lack of breaths; we all know that way, and that's not what amazes me. What amazes me is the way anxiety helps me overcome hunger by simply inhabiting it. I haven't left the room all day; I haven't eaten, and I've barely had a sip of water. On a normal day, I'd be in pain, but right now: I feel nothing. For leaving my room feels worse than sitting here in my hunger and thirst. I won't go into why I have this anxiety; it's unimportant and typical. But I want to write about how being closer to God makes me feel like I am not harming myself, for I feel as though I am fasting—maybe not for the right reasons I recognize. But no matter what you say, I truly believe the people outside my door are sickened by me, feel burdened by me, or simply just need a break from me. I'm trying to talk to God again, but it's been harder than ever before. I find comfort in this anxiety, for I get to have control over what I do, through a distorted sense of fasting. A false sense of control, of course, for I could be out there enjoying a meal and a drink if I truly had control over myself. Traveler, have you ever felt comfort in the discomfort, mistaking it for control?

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[gkonboard]

Shocking Study: 1 in 5 Children Show Signs of Disordered Eating

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[lesboylycan]

anyways. someone should feed our npd and ask us about our plurality

[eichinchanglim]

Eating Disorders: Disordered Eating Indicates 7 Red-Flags for Potential ...

[chubbymuffinclub]

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[asfarion]

i purged for the first time today n im a lil disappointed but also so proud i finally pushed meself to do it bc i cant rlly hide starving v easily now that i dont live alone any more n i wanna be skinny again so bad. i just hope i can keep it up. im done looking healthy i wanna be a fucking skeleton again. i hate looking like this. i hate throwing up too n i hate how painful starving is but i love being skinny sm lmao. i cant even rlly say being at a healthy weight these past few years has been enjoyable either bc im still icy cold all the time, im still super weak, i still cant stay awake for a normal amount of time, me organs are still fucked, n the worst part of it all is all me cute peak-ana clothes dont fit any more lmao. lit the only good thing is me hair stopped falling out n grew back. this time next year i wanna be a nasty lil bag of bones again.

[indigochromatic]

From @rayssyscourse (this post), two questions for general conversation: 1- Does your experience of plurality feel inherently disordered to you or not, independent of whether or not you have a CDD? 2- How do you think about personhood and identity, collectively and individually? (our answers under the cut)

Plurality and Disorderedness: We actually sort of have two different answers to this! The distinction between the two of us (e.g. me/L vs S), to us, doesn't feel inherently disordered at all. Sure, it's complicated, and there are aspects of the situation we'd change if we could (it would really be nice if S could have his own body back, for example), but the mere fact of us-being-two-of-us, of having two senses of self in one head instead of just one, feels no more or less disordered than being a singlet. It doesn't feel like the only reason we're separate is lingering trauma/emotional baggage pushing us apart, and there's no sense of wrongness in the feeling of each other being different--we're just different, and that's actually really neat in a lot of ways. However, for S's median facet subsystem thing, the answer is a little different. (Trying to paraphrase his emotions/wording for it secondhand here) To some extent, some of the ways in which his facets can get pushed apart/lose "collective cohesion" does feel inherently disordered to him. It's less that "having facets" feels inherently disordered, exactly, and more that the degree of estrangement and conflict between his facets (which fluctuates!) feels directly related to his mental health at the time, and whatever issues he's wrestling with. Being able to go in and single out and work with a facet that's having a hard time feels like a useful processing strategy, but needing to do it a lot, or having a facet get stuck 'out in the cold for too long' feels bad, and reflective of something Wrong. Personhood and Identity: Again, two different answers for our two different 'versions' of plurality! S and I feel like two different, closely connected people. Either of us could be a singlet alone, without the other--and in fact I was a singlet for a long time, at least as far as we know--although we do like each other a lot (<3) and like being able to be a team together. Calling either of us just "a part of the other" feels reductive and even a little demeaning--not to mention just...incorrect, at the base of it? One of the metaphors we like to use is "it's not that he has half the box of crayons and I have the other half; we each get to use the whole box of crayons, we just draw different things with them". With S's median facets, though, he/(they) very persistently and vehemently feel like they're all...part of the same overarching identity? They're all him even when they disagree or have differences (there's a line from a song he likes that he often points to for it: "We are the warriors who learned to love the pain/We come from different places but have the same name"), there's a core, unifying sense of self they all share even when their 'cohesion' gets disrupted by something difficult to process that he can't quite seamlessly internally reconcile. We have some internal nicknames for some facets/'themes' that show up a lot (because the number and nature of his facets isn't static, too), and internal headspace appearances can vary, but they don't have different names because, in his words, "I'm still me, there's just....sometimes a lot of me, who don't all agree".

(Several of our friends have joked that we're the actual IRL version of the system joke "I don't have DID, but my headmate does!", and honestly that's not a bad way to describe it X'D)

[foodie-to-fairy]

Fucking b/ped again on the same stuff as yesterday. Not even my fav foods, just the easiest most caloric things I could get my hands on. Lost control and had a salad at about 3pm that put my total around 700, so apparently in my mind that meant the whole day was fucked.

I could have ended it there. If I did, my throat wouldn't be so sore and I might feel a little less disgusting. In fact, I know that I would. My post b/p weight is 161.8 which fucking sucks because it's only almost 6pm and I know I'm gonna end up eating again at some point tonight.

So let's say I do eat and go to bed weighing around 163. There's no way my body is going to be able to process 5 pounds of bullshit before I wake up tomorrow, meaning my morning weight will be higher than it was today.

in conclusion, I failed miserably today. I eat SO MUCH and I'm HUGE compared to the other people on these tags.

[mixed-origin-culture-is]

mixed origins DID culture is feeling like you have to over-emphasize your trauma and the role it played in order for others to think you're "allowed" to have DID when, at this point, you're primarily metaphysical/spontaneous in nature and your adaptive origins and disorderedness have significantly more to do with your other mental illnesses and disabilities and only a small bit to do with your trauma. but you know for a fact you'll get fakeclaimed to hell and back unless you overemphasize your trauma in relation to everything else :/

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[disordered-system-culture-is]

Disordered non-traumagenic system culture is being willogenic and disordered, and feeling so horrible about our existence because at first glance just by that info we are the literal arguement against endos and feel like we're betraying folks over something we literally cannot change.

Our disorderedness isnt even connected to us being willogenic, but that doesnt matter to folks. It makes us terrified to even say both of these in even pro-endo places (including here).

(Willogenic basically means created)

🐺 of 🔷️ co.

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