#depression awareness

[hornyitaliankitty]

I’ve missed you! 🌞

[marimeiastories]

I don't want to be in love with someone

I want to be in love with life

so fiercely

that I forget all the pain

and all the days in which I thought

I couldn't do it anymore

- marimeiastories

[dragubel]

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Jonathan Davis x Fem Reader

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┃You finally meet Jonathan after eight months of not being able to see him for a long while, you were Jonathan's old friend, or.. that's what you thought until... Well, you'll see ;)

┃words: 1997

┃Physical sex: AFAB

┃Contains the following: Cussing, sex, cunnilingus, P in V, unprotected intercourse, drunk sex, praise, degradation, public area, Fluff, aftercare, and comfort.

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as you step into the dimly lit bar, amidst the crowded people, you can point out Jonathan and the rest of his band. you and Jonathan have been good friends for a long time, and even had some intimate moments together in the past and even recently. you push yourself through the crowd of drunken people as you try to get to the front of the bar where you can see Jonathan and the rest of his band. you can see Jon pointing at the strongest drink on the menu, and thanking the bartender politely when they handed it to him, as he immediately started chugging it. Finally, after maneuvering through the crowd, you reach Jonathan’s side, his bandmates initially wearing expressions of confusion as they struggle to recall who you are amidst their intoxication. However, it doesn’t take long for recognition to dawn upon them, as they recall the countless encounters you shared back in the early 1990s. A warm smile spreads across your face as you embrace Jonathan, the familiarity and fondness between you are evident in that heartfelt hug. The reunion feels like coming home, even amidst the pulsing chaos of the bar, and it sparks a strong sense of intimacy between you and Jonathan for the night ahead.

“Hey! Where’ve you been for like eight months??” he questioned you with his words kinda slurred.

Your gaze met his, a mixture of amusement and affection in your eyes as you playfully nudged him.

“Well, life got a little crazy, but I’m here now,” you replied, a playful tone in your voice. “I’ve missed you, Jonathan. It’s been a while.”

Jonathan’s face lit up with a mixture of relief and excitement. “I Missed you too, ___,” he confessed, his voice tinged with genuine warmth.

As the hours slipped away and the bar thrived with energy, your conversations grew deeper, echoing the intimacy you once shared. Jonathan’s intoxicated and seductive gaze locked onto yours, his eyes reflecting a mix of emotions - longing, curiosity, and perhaps a hint of something intimate, almost even hypnotic. The allure of the night entwined with the unimaginable amount of chemistry between you, igniting a magnetic pull that couldn’t be excused.

You were completely in love with him, as the feelings were mutual. His eyes, his smile, his personality, his voice, his hair…. everything about him just made you want him more than anything else in the world. “uh- I have to go to the bathroom.” you excused yourself as you pushed through the drunk crowd again, covering your face as it was bright red.

as you finally push yourself through the crowd and arrive in the dirty public bathroom, and you sit on the toilet in one of the stalls thinking about how Jonathan could genuinely love to be around a person like you. you never liked looking in the mirror every day, you think you’re annoying, you just don’t like yourself, but Jonathan does. you sat in the bathroom stall for over 30 minutes, completely zoning out and just staring at the badly drawn graffiti on the door of the stall, until you hear the door open and hear a familiar voice ask you, “Hey, you okay, ___?”

it was Jonathan, he unsteadily stepped closer to the small bathroom stall you were sitting in, you sat up correctly on the closed toilet and nervously answered 

“Yeah, I'm fine!” you unlock the bathroom stall door to see him standing in front of the door, staring down at the dirty floor until he realizes the door has opened to meet you standing there. His eyes slowly lift from the floor, and as they meet yours, a mixture of concern and tenderness washes over his face. Jonathan takes a step closer, his voice filled with genuine worry.

“___, are you sure you’re okay?” he asks, his slurred words laced with a sincere desire to understand. A thousand thoughts swirl in your mind as you take in the sight of him, the one person who has always seen through your insecurities. With a deep breath, you gather the courage to open up, to let him see the vulnerability that lies within.

“I… I just needed a moment,” you reply softly, your voice trembling slightly. “Sometimes, I struggle with my self-worth, and being around you, it’s both exhilarating and terrifying.”

Jonathan’s gaze softens, his eyes reflecting a depth of understanding that goes beyond words. He reaches out, his hand gently cupping your cheek, a gesture of comfort and reassurance.

“___, you are so much more than you give yourself credit for,” he says, his voice filled with sincerity. “To me, you’re the only person who was able to make me feel this way.”

without hesitation, you immediately kissed him deeply. his eyes widened in surprise, but you could tell he wasn't gonna do it sooner or later out of nervousness. you guys immediately start making out drunkenly, completely unaware of what else is going on, you two didn't have a care in the world. As the makeout session quickly starts to get more and more heated, before you know it, you are pinned up to the wall by Jonathan. he breaks off the kiss and looks at you deeply in the eyes seductively, as he starts to undo his belt with a drunken smirk on his face. his jeans fall to his ankles quickly, and he pulls down his boxers to reveal his boner. Your head is completely foggy, but you go along with it as you start to undo the zipper on your pants and uncover your soaked pussy. he grabs you by the thighs to pin you up to the wall in a more comfortable position and sticks his bulging fuzzy cock into your drenched intimate area. the bouncing between Jonathan's thighs and yours become wetter and louder by the second, along with drunken moans coming from both of you. the pace picks up instantly as he heard you whimper and moan, making you scream with the unexpected change of speed of his dick sliding abruptly in and out of your wet tunnel. the two of you start to moan into each other's mouth as the moment continues to go on for what feels like forever, which you couldn't complain about. as time goes on, Jonathan finally orgasms inside of your moist vaginal insides as he exits, leaving a white sticky substance behind. after a little bit of heavy breathing from Jonathan, he decided he wanted to change positions. he picks you off from you propped on the wall and sets you down carefully on the toilet seat, spreading your legs along with looking up at you while biting his lip seductively, preparing to give you even more pleasure, as you didn't think it was possible. he leans closer to your wet vagina lips and carefully slides his tongue inside, wiggling it around as a way of teasing you. you whimper at this act, and he smiles alluringly and starts tongue fucking you faster, sliding in and out faster and faster after each second passes. your eyes roll back as you bite your lip, your head is a foggy mess, but you are enjoying every second of what is happening outside of it. jonathan lightly sucks on your clit, along with sliding his already moist fingers into your other hole. you moan loudly as he picks up the pace and proceeds to suck your clit, harder and sloppier this time, along with giving occasional nibbles at times. his tongue slides out slowly along with his fingers. he looks up at you seductively as he's licking his fingers, now drenched in moisture. 

“you taste so good, my dirty little slut~” he praised. you get more and more aroused just looking at him, and you can't take it anymore. As he stands up, you lightly stroke his cock, letting him get to be pleasured as well. he whimpers as you do this, as of he wasn't expecting it. you start stimulating his moist tip and stroking his long lightly trimmed cock. you speed up the pace as well as rubbing around his anus to get him equal pleasure to what he gave to you. his head tips back as you start to full-on deepthroat him faster along with fingering his asshole. he grips your hair and pushes your head down on his cock as he moans loudly. you proceed to deepthroat him faster and faster, still caressing his dick. finally, once again, he cums as he lets out a long, relieved moan. you lick the leftover cum from your lips while making loving eye contact with each other. you get up to have another makeout session with each other, but then you two realize that the rest of Jonathan's band is still in the bar.

“Don't worry, I'll tell them that you're fine and that we just got… ‘carried away’ I guess.”

jonathan announced so you won't get stressed out. he opens the door and steps out of the bathroom, but forgets to look at himself in the mirror to find out that he's all sweaty and red. Jonathan walks out to the less crowded bar to find the rest of his band members sitting in a booth eating. they looked up at him in relief to find out that everything was fine, but they were still concerned as to why he was all red.

“what took so long?” munky asked Jonathan, looking up at him in confusion. “well, everything is fine, we just got carried away.” Jon responded as he scratched the back of his head. “go grab ___ and ask if they want anything on the go cuz we gotta head out soon” Head announced as he finished the rest of his food. “wait, they can stay?” Jon asks in confusion but also excitement. “I mean, if they can and if they want to, we don't care.” head explains.

jonathan steps back into the bathroom and opens the stall door to find you sitting on the toilet seat, picking at the skin on your fingers.

“Hey, do you want anything on the go?” Jonathan asks you sweetly, being aware that you were stressed out they would find out and possibly be upset. “uh, what do they have?” you ask, but then cut yourself off. “wait, I can come with you guys???” you ask excitedly as jon nods his head.

you get food to go and eat in the tour bus, completely forgetting about the fact that you guys had sex in the bathroom about 30 minutes ago.

it's now around 12:30 AM and you are all getting tired, so you go to ask Jonathan something. “where do I sleep?” you ask curiously. “you can sleep in my bunk. ill sleep on the sofa” he exclaims. you nod OK and go to take a nap but then realize Jonathan has to sleep on the sofa, so you feel bad for taking his bunk.

“Hey Jon? you can have your bunk. I feel bad for taking it.” you apologized. Jonathan nods. “well why don't we just share?” he responds asking in curiosity. your face goes bright red thinking about sleeping in the same bunk as him, snuggling up against each other, stroking each other's hair, etc.

“___?” he asks in a worried tone, as your eyes are wide open and your face is completely red. “uh- yeah that's fine,” you say quickly, without hesitation.

when everyone got tired, Jonathan decided to stay up a little late doing who knows what. maybe writing songs. but he then also got tired and decided to climb into his bunk but was met with something else.

you were snuggled up inside of jonathans bunk, dead asleep. jonathan smiles softly at the cute sight and climbs into his bunk, along with wrapping his arms around you and getting cozy.

after a while, he as well falls asleep, while hugging you tightly, to make sure you feel safe and secure.

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i found this in the drafts when i was in the hospital, made this on my phone lmao and i am so sorry if i used y/n or fucked up in any type of way, i was put on sum heavy medication while i was in there so sorry if its fucky lmao i had so much fun making this though!

[theereina]

[annapearlie]

I have a cold

- by me

[siecobaina]

you're not "better off alone," you're afraid of rejection and you're trying to protect yourself, even if you would vastly benefit from the support of others.

[sunrisethoughts02]

Every morning, I open my door

and stand in the grass, saying

This is a new day, and I am alive. Alive, alive, alive, and this is a Good Thing.

for I am hoping for the morning where I believe my own words.

I think it will be here soon.

[dragubel]

Uncle Samsonite x Fem! Reader

(NSFW SMUT! Minors dni.)

Uncle Samsonite was in love with you and you already took that as a curse, you couldn't stay calm, he always appeared everywhere. He indirectly wanted to confess to you but it always went wrong and he always scared you away at every attempt.

You hated it.

You don't know how to stop him or get rid of him.

Your friends didn't believe you and your family was worried, your friends walked away from you leaving you alone. You never felt like this before. All alone with nobody to believe you.

So you gave up. You really didn’t care if you confronted the monster. Days went by, still hearing his footsteps in your room at night. This time, you didn’t feel hatred towards him.

You felt… reassured. Relief. He was the only one that checked on you and visited you. You felt at joy to have him at your side.

At night, you were sleeping until you heard something…You knew that voice perfectly.

"It's time to have some fun with Uncle Samsonite...You look so cute sleeping, did you miss me, darling? I know you missed me, it's been a while since I last visited you and I missed you very much”

He spoke in a gentle tone as he slowly approached your bed. You slowly looked at him with a soft look. A soft, shy smile formed on your face as you waved at him shyly.

"Hey Sam..."

He smiled widely as you addressed him, looking at you lovingly and full of excitement, he got closer to you.

"Darling, it's good to see you finally addressing me by my nickname, you don't know how happy I am to finally be able to get close to you.."

He got to the bed and sat next to you, looking at you with that mischievous smile of his.

He noticed your flustered expression, which seemed to make him more excited. "Awww, you're blushing, does it excite you that I'm so close to you? you look adorable like this..."

He slowly put his hand on your cheek, to caress it gently, causing his smile to widen with excitement as you leaned into his touch.

You didn't push him away, so he pulled you closer to him, causing your clothed body to press against his.

"I've always wanted to have you so close to me like this... I wanted to touch you for so long and you're finally letting me... You have no idea how excited that makes me..."

His voice seemed to softly echo in your room. "How come you treat me differently? I thought you were gonna kill me" you spoke in a gentle tone as you snuggled against him.

He chuckled silently, a low chuckle, as he pulled you even closer, wrapping his arm around you, so you could feel how quickly his heart was beating.

"You know very well why I treat you differently, it's just that you're the most special and dear person to me... and why would I want to kill you now that I finally get closer to you?"

You hummed at his answer, seeing how he's been in love with you since the beginning. You then felt him gently picking you up, setting you on his lap feeling a strange excitement in you.

"You don't know how long I've been dreaming of this moment, being here with you, holding you in my arms, feeling your warmth against me... It's all I've ever wanted..."

As he held you firmly in his lap, you pressed your face into his gloved hand, feeling the shyness overcome you. He chuckled as he embraced you.

He felt you wrapping your arms around him, he felt himself shiver slightly when you did it, a new thrill running through his body.

He slowly pressed his face into your neck, nuzzling against it gently, as he breathed in deeply, as if wanting to memorize your scent.

"Mmmm, you smell so nice...I could stay like this with you for hours, feeling your body against mine..."

A soft chuckle flowed out of your mouth. "Yeah, it's very comfortable," you spoke softly.

He smiled at your soft chuckle, loving that sound. He slowly leaned closer to your ear, his voice soft and almost a whisper as he spoke to you, holding you tight against his body.

"I know, right? you're so comfortable...and your body feels so good against mine, I could stay like this forever... just holding you, feeling your warmth against me..."

He chuckled at your shiver, loving how it made your blush grow even more intense. "How adorable.."

He nuzzled into your neck once more before you felt his teeth nibble on your neck. He smiled at the sound, loving the way you reacted.

The more he nibbled in your neck, the more soft sounds escaped your lips. Your breathing was starting to get a bit heavier, never feeling like this before.

"Mmm, you are so sensitive, aren't you? I love how responsive you are to my touch, feeling your breathing get heavier... I can make you feel so much better, darling..."

Continuing his gentle onslaught, he gently bit on your neck, gently sucking your soft skin. You let out a soft gasp before moaning softly, giving in to him.

"Mmm, that's my darling, letting yourself go and surrendering to me... You're doing so well, darling..."

He couldn't help himself as he looked at your expression, his eyes taking all of you in, admiring the redness of your face, your heavy, soft breath, your half-lidded, almost dazed eyes looking at him.

You felt him gently taking off your clothes, placing them on the floor next to your bed. His gloved hands gently caressed your soft, smooth skin.

You tried to cover yourself, feeling slightly embarrassed and shy, causing a silent chuckle to flow out of his lips.

"No need to cover yourself, darling. I want to see all of you, every beautiful inch of your body... Let me look at you..."

Gently pulling your arms away from you, leaving you exposed completely to his gaze as his gloved hands continued to caress your smooth skin.

Gently and almost reverently touching you everywhere.

He gently pushed you back on the bed, allowing you to settle against the soft mattress, his eyes never leaving your body, admiring it up and down.

His caresses continued, his gloved hands slowly exploring every inch of you, as if he was trying to memorize your every curve and contour with his touch.

He started to lean his body against yours, starting from your thighs. You shivered when you felt his lips littered gentle kisses all over. Raising your hand, you gently caressed his ear, causing a soft chuckle to flow out of him.

He continued to move upwards, nibbling and biting all over your stomach and chest, feeling your moans escape with each bite, causing a low rumble in his own chest.

He took pleasure in the sounds you were making and how his touch was slowly taking over you, making your mind hazy with pleasure.

As he moved up, he settled his body on top of yours, trapping you underneath him, feeling the warmth of your body against his, your arms and legs wrapping around him.

He felt the urge to take you right there, to claim you as his, but he wanted to hold off a bit more, to relish in this moment with you first.

Teeth gently sinked into your flesh, leaving marks to show who you belonged to. You could feel his body pressing against yours, his weight upon you, holding you there in his arms.

He saw your mind getting hazy with pleasure, hearing your soft moans and feeling your body against his. He knew that you had given yourself to him, completely and willingly, and it felt right.

He stopped his onslaught of love bites to look back at you, seeing your half-lidded eyes looking into his. He felt your hands on his face, caressing his skin, making him lean into your touch.

It was as if he was enjoying the feeling of your hands on his skin.

He smiled at the sight of your shy smile, loving how vulnerable you looked, how willing you were to give yourself to him completely.

Feeling a slight tug of you pulling his face closer, seeing you blush once more under his gaze. He felt your soft lips press against his own, and he gently returned the kiss, feeling a rush within him.

It took all his willpower to not just overpower you then and there, to pull you close and to claim your lips as they start to gently move against his. The kiss started to get deeper and more passionate, his tongue gently slipping into your mouth, exploring it slowly and gently, wanting to taste you.

He was surprised by how sweet you tasted, like the sweetest soda he'd ever tasted.

Hearing you moan against him, he slowly grinded against you, wanting to heighten the pleasure, to make you feel even more pleasure than you ever had before.

He felt you getting hazier, the pleasure heightening as you moaned against his shoulder. It was driving him mad with desire, hearing those soft moans muffled against his body, it made him want you even more.

Grinding against you faster, the pleasure growing as both of you moan loudly from the pressure. You both held each other tightly, shaking from the high of pleasure that you both were feeling together.

He gently caressed your body as you both were in the afterglow, feeling the warmth of your body against his, savoring the moment between you both.

You gave him a soft smile as you snuggled against him. Your body felt light yet heavy at the same time.

"I love you, Sam..."

"I love you too, darling"

Pulling you closer to him, you both fell into a deep sleep, feeling the warmth of each other's embrace and the contentment of simply being together.

[annapearlie]

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by me

[siecobaina]

pros and cons of being by yourself

pros:

- focus on yourself & understand yourself

- no rejection no heartbreak no humiliation

- can travel w/o feeling bogged down

- can do whatever you want lol

cons:

- loneliness

- don’t get to practice vulnerability

- boredom

- probably causes depression and low self esteem

[jaylynx1412]

TW: SH

So it's 2024 and we're still demonizing s3lf-h@rm aren't we? (a serious rant below)

reminder that if you are triggered by this subject I have given a TW above, please do not interact with triggering content, it is not a smart thing to do, you deserve better. /gen

When I go online and I see a mentally well person making a "wrist barcode" joke about someone else, everybody laughs with them.

but then a mentally ill person makes the same exact joke, word for word, every single reply is some variation of "g0 d33p3r"

which is really funny guys, go actively seek out people who want to die and basically tell them to do it and even recommend the way in which they should. /s

"oh they're doing it for attention!" that means that they are being so neglected at home they need to do anything to try to get somebody to care about them. that is mental illness an it is valid. /srs

"they're like 12 they're being dramatic!" yes because everybody knows children cannot experience mental health struggles, that's why when I was 11 and had an anxiety attack at the mall I immediately snapped back to it when I was reminded that "there's no reason for you to do that." /s

"they're doing it because they think it's cool!" okay I have nothing to say to you except maybe take a step back and think about how what you just said is so fucking stupid like I'm sorry, what???? /srs

could you imagine that a person could hate themselves so much, they feel the nee to punish themselves? could you imagine that a person feels so numb and awful that the only way they could feel anything else is if something horrible happened to their body? /srs

I am so glad that most of you people have never felt the pain an suffering of clinical depression brings onto a human being, /srs

But god damn! why can't you have a little more empathy to people who are struggling with a serious illness that MAKES THEM WANT TO DIE????? /srs

[ann1e-on-earth]

ACCORDING THE INSTAGRAM IT’S THE 10TH ANNIVERSARY OF THE BOOK SOLITAIRE BY ALICE OSEMAN!!!!!!!!

It’s my favourite book (and my comfort book) and I love it so fucking much!!!!

If you haven’t already read it, it’s about a teenager named Tori Spring who has depression. Her school keeps getting anonymously pranked by a group of people called Solitaire. Nobody knows who started Solitaire or why they keep pranking the school, but the pranks seem to be getting more and more dangerous (Ex: The first prank was just photo shopping a teacher’s head on Star Wars characters’ bodies, and another later one was setting of fireworks in a crowded area, causing a lot of injuries). One day Tori meets Micheal Holden, another teenager who has some anger issues and they sorta become friends. Together they both work to find out who is behind Solitaire and try to put a stop to it, but there’s some setbacks along the way.

The book is mainly about mental health issues, specifically depression, and how awful life is most of the time. You can find it in most bookstores and on any kind of eReader.

Anyways here's some shitty fan art of Tori that I made in January

[dragubel]

╰─ - ̗̀♱ About me:

⛧| Name: Nick Huckle

⛧| Age: 19

⛧| Gender: Male FTM

⛧| Pronouns: He/Him

⛧| Sexuality: Pansexual

⛧| Birthday: March 18th

⛧| Zodiac: Pisces ♓️

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⛧| illness: Active Schizophrenia, autism, depression, anxiety

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╰─ - ̗̀♱ Interests & More!

⛧| Hobbies: Kandi, Fanfic, drawing!

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╰─ - ̗̀♱ What I write

⛧| Team Fortress 2, Uncle Samsonite, Smiling Friends

⛧| Smut, Fluff, comfort, depression, Self Harm, Angst, gore, death and zombies.

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╰─ - ̗̀♱ What I won’t write

⛧| pedo things, zoo, incest, shit, rape, proship.

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╰─ - ̗̀♱ Master List

⛧| Korn🌽 (discontinued)

Jonathan Davis x Sick! Reader

James “Munky” Shaffer + Jonathan Davis x Fem! Reader One Shot

Jonathan Davis x Fem! Reader 🔞

James “Munky” Shaffer x Fem! Reader Headcannons🔞

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⛧| The Walking Dead (discontinued)

Daryl Dixon x reader: incorrect quote #1

Daryl Dixon x reader: incorrect quote #3

Daryl Dixon x reader: incorrect quote #4

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⛧|smiling Friends

Charlie Dompler X Roomate! Reader

Charlie Dompler x Depressed! Reader

Charlie Dompler x reader 🔞

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⛧|Uncle Samsonite

Uncle Samsonite x fem! Reader 🔞

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[neuropsychecenters]

💙 Depression Can Look Like… & Also Like… 💙

Depression isn’t always obvious. It can show up in different ways, and sometimes, those struggling may seem "fine" on the outside.

💡 You are not alone, and help is available! If you or someone you know is experiencing depression, don’t hesitate to seek support. Healing is possible. 💙

📞 Reach out to Neuropsyche Centers – We’re Here to Help.

[siecobaina]

not everyone was made to like you! you cannot convince people to like you, no matter how much dark femininity and sigma grindset and tiktok manipulator tricks you harness! even by going into interactions with the intent of forcing them to like you is not the right approach. all you can do is be patient, and kind, and open, and let people in when they want to. jesus